#((Ehhhhh sorry my birthday is kinda a touchy spot))

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㉘ - How do you usually spend your birthdays?

Yet Another Munday Meme

Eh I’ll still accept some into Tuesday, why not?

[ OOC: |Creedy| ] - (( Ah... I didn’t really expect to get this one. Its a bit embarrassing.

So ever since I was in... say 3rd grade? 4th grade? I didn’t really have any friends, nor did I maintain them for very long if by some miracle I managed to get one. I didn’t think anyone would care to come so from that point on I just.. didn’t have a party. My family used to celebrate with me, but in recent years their ‘trips’ and ‘parties’ for my birthday have become.. increasingly self-serving.

It kinda came to a head on my 16th birthday. My family wanted to take me to a trip into NYC (I live an hour a way and been there before), and said I didn’t want to go. Just wanted to get dinner and see a movie.... didn’t precisely go over well. Now my birthday just kind of.. leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I feel bitter because its never really been about me. Only in the past year have they actually listened to what I wanted, and thats only because they would also enjoy it..

Nowadays my birthday falls after spring semester (therefore unable to celebrate it with my friends) and my family throws a few gifts my way and barely say a happy b-day. Don’t really make a big deal out of it anymore.

This year I’m going to turn 20, which is a big number.. Won’t technically be considered a teen anymore. I guess if I had to pick something to do, I’d want to stay home, in a quiet house with nothing in the future I’d have to worry about. Eat some homemade waffles, watch tv, draw, work on crafts.. if I’m feeling social I might invite a few friends over or get into a call with online friends, if they’re feeling up to it. In fact, the only ‘big celebration’ I really want is when I turn 21, and I wish to go to New Orleans (obvious reasons). But thats about it. I like relaxation a lot, so I’d rather spend my birthday doing just that instead of worrying about traveling, being stuck in a car for hours, or it just being another passing day. ))