#((((dump ng limiting belief sa friendships +++ sneak peek on how i struggle with adult friendships and online friendships in general))))

[grvntld]

may ganap ako tahday tapos may nangyaring gusto ko sanang ishare kasi wala lang kaso sobrang confidential kasi so this is me talking abt it without talking abt it wahahahahah

okiE so what happened was i had lunch with two of my college friends earlier, one of which is sobrang once in a blue moon lang namin makausap (((but we do hv online communication namern))) bc that friend travels around the world almost everyday, like im not even kidding. tapos that friend was in a vidcall and late ko na narealize actually what was happening when he pointed his phone screen on my face. i tot may pinapakita lang siya. nung nanotice ko na na may person pala siya kausap, late din nagprocess brain ko kung sino yung hina-hi-an ko na nagha-hi back din sakin. nyahahahaha. the person on the screen is a well-known international artist pala tapos as a shy type na maloka na makapal face, nung narealize ko na omg this is ano pala, i removed my face mask and said, "wait you should see my beautiful face" bwahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahaafsgsghsjsjsksksksksksjdjkdkdkfkdldldldkdjkdkkdkdksl okie dazz all the end mwAps this was a fun day and it was so good to catch up

p.s. every time i see my friends in person, doon ko talaga narerealize na i prefer catching up with them face-to-face like iba talaga siya for me hehu

p.p.s kaso ayOrn nga as a shy dyosa, minsan i cant help but feel na nanggugulo ako sa sched pag nang-aaya ako lalo na pag nag-aya ako tapos nagraincheck or like di me nabalikan or feel ko di narereturn back the same energy or enthusiasm ko to meet them ganOrn hehe dami ko gusto tbh ayain kaso my brain rlly just jumps to "hehe baka di ako fun company or like maybe theyre uncomfy sa presence ko" and so ayOrn chat chat na lang tapos tagal ko pa magreply diba so okiE po