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[pcndaemonium]

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[the-fiction-witch]

Little Girl

Media TMR

Character Newt

Couple Newt X Reader

Rating Smut!

Semi-NonConsentual / Breast play / Nipple play / fingering / eating out / raw sex / jizz / creampie / riding /

I sat pouting. Surrounded by stone in one of the slammer cells. My wrists tied together with harsh rope. The boys had thrown me in here for three nights with no food given what I did. But he deserved it, the little perv! But they didn't listen to my side. All Alby needed to know was I harmed another glader and thus I'm locked in here. I saw light approaching the glimmering spark of gold and red flame getting closer it was long since dinner so most boys would be in bed I didn't want to look expecting another lecture from Alby but no.

"Hi love" 

My neck snapped fast towards the wooden cage door where he now sat the lantern beside him. His little brown shoes in the dirt, a wrap around his bad ankle, his brown tattered trousers, his orange vest just poking over his once white hoodie, his bandage around his arm and his messy blonde hair, he leant on the wooden cage and smiled down at me 

"What the shucking hell do you want!"

"Just popped by to check your comfy little girl"

"Don't call me that!"

"Why not? You're a girl? And you ever so cute and wh-ittle" 

"What do you want newt?"

"Well… perhaps seeking an apology?"

"An apology!"

"Yes"

"You've got more of a chance of marrying a griever than getting an apology out of me for what you did!"

"Awww come on. I was only playing"

"You hid in the showers! Your lucky you only for off with a few bruises before the boys found us. They left me any longer I'd have broke your nose" 

"I was meerly checking the shower was safe for a little girl"

"Liar you little perv!"

"Fine maybe I was in there but that's no excuse for you to hit me like that"

"What do you want? Because you can shove your apology up your blonde British butt" 

"Fine" he smirked as he began untieing and opening the door jumping down to be inside with me and shutting the door again "hi little girl"

"What do you think your doing"

"Well… when a little girl is locked up in the slammer with her denying hands tied up, you can't blame me for not wanting to waste… such an opportunity" he smirked 

"Oh no you -" I began trying to move but he grabbed me wrapping his arms around me sitting me on his lap with his chest against my back

"Ah ah ah little girl. Let's just stay here a little while just you and me" he smirked 

"You so anything I'll scream so loud all the boys will here"

"No you won't. Because if you do I'll tell them I came to tell you how I forgave you and you flipped out and attacked me. Your on thin ice as it is Alby will banish you for that"

"You evil little bastard"

"Humm if that's what you wanna call me love" he smirked his hands quickly finding my breasts 

"Ughh! Newt stop!"

"Why should I? Ummm trust me you felt these you wouldn't wanna stop either" he growled in my ear as he fondled and squeezed my breasts often holding them to feel the weight of them in his hands, making sure he squeezed tight. He ignored my squirms and whines shifting me back to sit so his erection sat against my ass

"You're a disgusting little perv newt!"

"I know, but how am I meant to help myself?" He smirked purposely pinching my nipples and tugging on them to force them to harden and as soon as they did he grabbed my breasts in his hands and rubbed in my nipples with his thumbs he chuckled evily "what a cute little girl you are? When your pouting like you don't like it"

"Newt let me go!"

"Maybe I would if you tell me you don't like it, sitting here above my cock grinding on me, while I play with these sexy tits." He smirked and I staid silent "I didn't think you could you dirty little girl" he smirked twisting my nipples a little

"AHH that hurts!"

"Yeah? Well I've had to walk around the glade with a hard on since you got here. Don't you think that hurts love?" He smirked starting to slightly hump against my ass and his hands moved to the hem of my shirt forcing it off me 

"Newt!"

"Awww it's okay, no need to be shy, nothing I haven't seen before." He smirked "but… bloody hell you look good with your top off" He smirked grabbing them much harder

"What the hell do you mean!"

"Well… let's just say this wasn't the first time I've snuck in your shower" he whispered

"You perv!"

"Can you blame me ? How is anyone meant to resist you little girl?"

"Everyone else does!"

"You really think that? You should hear the boys when you go walking around in shorts. Humm were all like lions in heat around you" 

"Let me go"

"No way love" he smirked moving a hand down to undo my shorts and forcing his fingers inside rubbing under my panties "awww I can feel how wet you are little girl" 

"Slim it!"

"Ohh yeah, you dirty little thing" he growled groping my breast hard and rubbing on my clit clearly trying to move his fingers lower but I clamped my legs shut "awww no no. Let's keep this nice and wide for me little girl" he smirked forcing my legs apart 

"Let me go!"

"Now where is… AHH there you are. Let's see how bad my little girl is craving me really" he growled as his fingers found my entrance and as much as I tried to resist he pushed two fingers are first just inside then pushing as deep inside as he could flicking his fingers as he did making me squeal but he clamped a hand over my mouth "ohh shuck you're dripping down my hand y/n. This is gonna be fun" he smirked biting his lip as his hand held me tightly and his fingers worked mercilessly finger fucking me fast and hard letting my wetness drip down my legs he held my mouth so I couldn't scream even If is hand left sometimes to fondle my breasts as he worked clearly very much enjoying himself until he pulled his hand away and licked his fingers clean "ummmm you taste good little girl. I want more" he growled pushing me off his lap and into the dirt on my stomach he wasted no time slapping my ass hard "ughhh oohh yeah. You bad bad girl" he growled forcing my shorts down slapping me a good few times "you have no clue how much I wanna do this every time this teasing little ass walks past in the gardens." He smirked pulling my panties to the side "awww what a cute little pussy for a cute little girl" he smirked and he then began spanking me hard digging his nails in and spreading my cheeks as much as he could and I felt my wetness drip out of me "ohhh bloody hell- my dirty little girly" he growled before he began kissing and licking my exposed pussy moaning too himself as he did I did my best not to scream but at the same time I was so worried if someone found us like this when he pulled back he smirked and pushed me onto my back and forced my legs as wide as possible "ummmmm you are beautiful" he growled licking his lips before holding my thighs tightly and returning to his passionate licking and now sucking even at times using his tounge to replace his fingers all while I squirmed and tried to hide the pleasure of it his hand moved up grabbing my breast fondling and rubbing on my nipple as he locked and sucked 

"Newt stop please-"

"Awww why? My little girl gonna cum for me? Make sure you tell me I wanna watch you twitch and squeal when you cum for me" he demanded 

"Stop please!"

"Maybe I'll stop once I see my life girl naked" he demanded ripping my bra off and my panties I did my best with my tied hands to hide myself but that only seemed to amuse him more "let me see little girl." He smirked forcing my hands above my head "bloody hell… uhhhh shuck- just look at that body. I should walk you around the glade naked so every boy can get a look just how good you are"

"No please-"

"Aww that's okay, it can be our little secret. My little girls bodies all mine" he growled fondling, pinching, slapping, groping anything he could get his hands on which was unfortunately everything even tickling me to make me squirm more for him all with his evil low laugh "what a fun little toy you are little girl. But I've had enough toying" he growled moving bayabs undoing his pants pushing them down enough to reveal his erection "come on."

"No!"

"Your gonna ride me. Or I'm forcing you in your stomach make your mind up"

I pouted but went over sitting on his lap letting him stroke my ass as I sat there 

"Awww what a good little girl your being for me. Maybe all this time all you needed wa a good fuck" he smirked pulling my cheeks apart before he found his way inside me "uuuuuuuhhh! So tight! Ohh yeah! You are a tight little fuck aren't ya? Don't worry I'll loosen you up little girl" he smirked holding my hips to make me bounce on him admittedly it was amazing but I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of my pleasure as he was he smirked staring at my breasts as I bounced "you know if you ever want out of some garden work? I'm more then happy to strike up a deal little girl."

*What sort of deal?"

"how about you get to blow off weeding if you blow me. Or I'll let you have an extra break for a few slaps on that sexy ass. Hummm I'll even let you get off work early so long as my little girl comes and bounces on my cock in the garden shed" be smirked 

"Not on your life"

"No? Why are you still bouncing then little girl?" He smirked and I noticed he has adopted guiding me completely his hands just in my ass 

"You pervy bastard"

"I know, so? Im not far off you want me to bury it? Glaze your tummy? Or you wanna get on your knees and let me fill your mouth up?" 

"Just a little longer"

"Yeah? How about I just bury it in your pretty pussy and let my baby ride on me as much she needs Hu?" He smirked 😘 my neck and jaw I nodded and he only smirked more "yeah? That what my little girl wants? Humm If you cum on my cock I'll know how bad you want me. And I'll never leave this sexy body alone again" he smirked slapping my ass

"You started this!"

"Yeah and if you want to cum you have to admit you love it."

"And if I do?"

"Then your mine little girl. And I'm gonna fucking destroy you every time that little ass makes me horny" he smirked thrusting up hard 

"Uhhh fine!"

"Yeah?"

"Fine newt!"

"Yes! Ughh fuck come here!" He growled holding me tight as he pushed me onto my back and loomed over me never pulling out as he did proceeding to pound my pussy mercilessly pulling my lips to his to muffle our lustful moans until I suddenly hit my wall digging my nails into his arms as my eyes rolled back and I squirted down his cock "uuhhhh fuck little girl. Uhhh my tight little pouty girly just came down my fucking cock uuuuuuuhhh- I need you so bad- I'm so close - just a little - uuughhhh!" He groans burring himself as deep as possible and collapsing on me 

"You are a perv newt" I gasped

"I know" he gasped back he slowly pushed himself up and pulled out cleaning himself off on his hoodie "ummmm you look so good like that"

"Like what?" I asked as I hadn't moved

"Laid on your back. Completely naked. Legs open. Tits bouncing. Honey glow across your skin. Dripping my jizz out your pussy" he smirked "umm my little girl." He smirked stroking from my lips to my pussy "give me five minutes and I'll finish in your ass this time" 

"That a promise?" I asked climbing into his lap wrapping my arms around his neck 

"You bet that cute little ass I am" he smirked slapping my ass and pulling me into an intense make out. "Uhhh- I don't need five minutes" he growled as he pulled away and forced me back down on my stomach 

[purplestars222]

Insomnia part 2

part 1 part 2

(miguel x gn, plus size reader)

summary of part 1; Miguel has always had a thing for you, even though you won't admit it, so when he found out you hadn't been at work for a week, he came to check up on you. When he got to your house, he knew something was up, your house was a mess, it normally was pretty clean. After holding you while you sobbed on the floor, Miguel helped you have a shower, he also cleaned your room a bit and made your bed. You ended up falling asleep in his arms, feeling happy for once.

sorry in advance for my spanish

cw; slight mentions of an eating disorder, smut, mirror sex, breeding kink, unprotected sex (wrap it irl guys :))

a/n; unedited! will edit it tmr after i finish ren faire, this will be removed when editing is finished

my first time writing smut :)

You sigh as your alarm goes off, no miguel in your bed, and no trace of him. Last night was just a dream, unfortunately, but at least it had you feeling okay enough to shower. You strip off, and put a red, silk nightgown on, and head for the bathroom, as soon as you step out of your room, you see Miguel o'hara. In your kitchen. Cooking homemade pancakes

"Sit, they're nearly ready"

You silently walk up to the kitchen bench, and take a seat on one of the stools, The food smells absolutely amazing, which is actually making you wanna eat again. Miguel serves some on a plate, with strawberries, whipped cream and maple syrup, he sits next to you, with his own plate

"Sleep okay, princesa?"

God. hes so nice, which is weird for him. You start to wonder if he wants something.

"Yeah fine.... why are you here miguel?"

"To make sure you're okay. Clearly, you aren't, so i'm staying until you are."

"Please just go, i'm really not worth it." you struggled to hold back your tears

“Excuse me?" his eyes darkened, he sounded offended

"I'm really not worth it, i appreciate it, but just go. I'll be back at work as soon as i can."

He grabs you by the chin, making you look up at him "Don't say that."

"And why not?"

"Because you are worth it. Do you really not know how pretty you are? do i need to show you, cariño?"

You felt your face heat up, You've been waiting for this.

"Y-yes?"

He connects your lips within seconds, not giving you a chance to protest. You melt into his arms, it felt like they were made to hold you, and only you. He scoops you up, as if you weigh nothing and takes you to your room, plopping you down on the bed, you notice his sweatpants have formed a tent, you go to reach for his pants but he stops you

"Shh, not yet cariño"

you whince as he undoes your nightgown, the cold morning air hitting your nipples

Miguel wastes no time , starting to lick and suck on one of your nipples while he massages your other tit. You entangle your fingers in his curls, slightly pulling whenever his fangs grazed your tit. After a few minutes of you whimpering and moaning he starts placing kisses down your belly, till he gets to your heat. He spreads your legs, groaning at the sight " tan hermosa.. "

he licks from your hole to your clit, groaning at the taste

"So wet for me, conejita"

"Mhh- miguel, please, i need you..."

He starts attacking your clit with his tongue, inserting a finger and curling it upwards

"Fuck-! " Your soft thighs squeeze his head, he grabs onto them so they cant move

He eventually adds a second, then a third, stretching you out to prepare you for his cock. Your thighs start quivering "M-miguel- gonna cum-"

He lifts his head up, not even bothering to wipe your arousal off his chin. You whine at the loss off contact. He stands up and takes his shirt off, then his pants, he lifts you up, and sits you on his lap, facing your mirror. You turn your head to the side, not wanting to look at your body, He grabs your chin and makes you look

"I need you to see how pretty you look cariño"

"But i-"

He shoves two fingers in your mouth, you can taste your sweetness on him. You wrap your tongue skillfully around his fingers. After another minute he pulls them out, using that hand to lube up his tip a little

"Are you ready, conejita? Go at your own pace, i don't want you to hurt yourself"

You nod, being slightly nervous, his cock was huge. about 9 inches. He lifts you up and lines his tip up to your entrance. you slowly lower yourself down onto him, taking in the first 4 inches, it feels amazing, so you lower yourself all the way.

Miguel groans and starts bucking his hips up into you

"M-miguel- feels s'good"

He lifts you up and starts fucking into you at a steady pace, already on the brink of orgasm from before, your pussy clenches around him

"F-Fuck, cariño gonna cum for me like a good girl?"

You scream his name as your walls clench even more around him, He guves you a couple of seconds, but then continues to fuck into you, faster than before

"Keep going for me princesa, i know you can do it" he places some soft kisses on the back of your neck, his fangs grazing against your skin. He suddenly bites into you, it dosent feel as you expected, its blissful. Its amazing. Nobody has ever made you feel like this before, and miguel wasn't gonna let you forget that.

His pace starts to falter, you can tell hes getting close

"Cum in me, miguel. Breed me like the slut i am" That drove him over the edge, you felt his cock twitch inside of you as he shot thick ropes of cum into you.

You had no idea why you said that, You did have a breeding kink, but you werent sure if you were ready yet

Miguel pulls out, you whine as your pussy clenches around nothing

"Did you really mean that? You wanna have my child?" he whispers, biting your earlobe and pulling it slightly

"I'd love to." you smile and rest your head against his back

[once-upon-an-imagine]

Yay then!!!

Hmmmm…

So, for hurt-comfort, I had another idea, but I realized it's too big and would prob work as a one-shot better, so this is the scenario idea:

James finding his gf (the reader) crying after someone was bullying her for being muggleborn, (if u wanna make it more extreme maybe they also cast a spell that ruined all her hw, or drenched her in water, or something like that) and by the end she's just kinda asleep in his arms and he promises (to himself) to protect her

Also, I swear, for some reason the bad liar update never showed up on my page, so I'll be reading that tmr

always yes to protective Jamie 🥺🥰 Warnings: reader gets bullied for being a muggle-born Disclaimer: I don’t own Harry Potter 😊 gifs aren’t mine 😁

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Bullied

"Hey, sweetheart, I was starting to think you forgot about me" you heard your boyfriend's voice coming from the bathroom, as soon as you stepped into his dorm. He walked out and his smile instantly dropped when he saw you. "Princess, what happened?"

You were an absolute mess. You looked completely drenched, covered in mud, your knees and hands were wounded, and your bag looked like it had been burned.

"I w-was coming b-back from the library" you said, between sobs as James walked closer to you and took your bag off your shoulder. "A-and they- they started yelling at m-me" you cried as James walked you over to his bed and sat you down.

"Who?" he asked, feeling his blood boiling.

"S-some kids from Slytherin" you said, trying to calm your breathing. "I'm not sure what their n-names are. They just started yelling 'm-mudblood'" you cried on James' shoulder. "A-and then they threw water a-at me with their wands a-and mud" you said, looking up at him before you grabbed your bag. "A-and they ruined m-my bag. I had all of my assignments here" you said, opening it but nothing more than ashes came out. "I worked on m-my Charms essay for t-two weeks" you said, crying harder and James pulled you closer to him.

James took a deep breath to try and calm himself down so he wouldn't run out to find the shitheads who did this to you because he knew you needed him here.

"Come on, love" he said, getting up and bringing you with him.

"But my things-"

"I'll take care of that, princess. I'm gonna draw you a bath, and we're gonna use Padfoot's fancy salts and soaps, just don't tell him, okay?" he said, kissing your forehead.

You smiled a little as James prepared the warm bath for you and as soon as you got in, you instantly felt at least ten times better.

"Where are you going?" you pouted when he walked towards the exit.

"I'm gonna get you some clean clothes, love" he said, giving you a peck on the lips before he walked out of the bathroom.

After you were clean and changed into James' pajama pants and your favorite sweater of his, you walked out to the dorm and saw James trying to salvage what was left of your bag.

"It's ruined, isn't it?" you asked, feeling a few tears in your eyes again, sitting down next to him.

"It's okay, princess. We're going to Hogsmeade this weekend and I will buy you any bag you like, okay?" he said, kissing your temple.

"Love, you don't have to do that" you insisted.

"I want to. I love spoiling you" he smiled, kissing your cheek.

"Still, I don't think I'll be able to go to Hogsmeade this week" you said, as James brushed his thumb against your cheek to wipe away your tears. "I have to redo my Charms essay" you explained. You noticed James tense a little before he took a deep breath. "What?"

"Alright, if I tell you something, do you promise not to get mad?"

"What did you do?" you asked, wiping your remaining tears with the sleeve of your sweater.

"W-well, sometimes when we're too busy with Quidditch or... well, pranks, Padfoot and I grab your homework and Moony's and... we kind of make copies of it" he said, going over to his nightstand and taking a few parchments out, handing them to you. You saw your Charms essay, the one that you had worked on for two weeks and had just finished at the library. It was just missing the last part, but everything else was there.

"How often do you do this?" you asked, going through the papers.

"We don't use them, we just, you know, make our own version of them. Only when we have Quidditch practice" he insisted but you looked up at him with an arched eyebrow. "Or when we forget there's homework" he admitted. "I'm sorry, love. I should have told you but-"

You cut James off by throwing your arms around his shoulders and kissing him on the lips. "I love you so much" you smiled.

"Y-you're not mad?"

"I'm not entirely happy about it and I doubt Remus will be either" you told him. "But you just saved me from having to re-write this entire essay" you smiled, bringing him closer for another kiss. "Thank you" you smiled.

"You're welcome, princess" he said, kissing you again. "Do you want to go down for dinner? You can point those kids to me so me and Padfoot can-"

"No" you said, hugging him. "Can we just stay here a little longer?" you asked, looking up at him, knowing he wouldn't be able to say no to you.

"Of course, princess" he said, lying down on his bed and bringing you with him. "Whatever you want" he said, kissing your temple as you rested your head on his chest. "I love you" he said, stroking your back, noticing you were almost asleep.

"I love you too" you said, closing your eyes and falling asleep in his arms while he mentally thought about letting Sirius in on this and plotting his revenge against the Slytherins.

The End

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A/N: hope you liked it, loves :)

[studentbyday]

me on monday: decided to make a merve-like study schedule so hopefully i can overcome overwhelm and procrastination. 🤓 "+" means any amount of bonus time if i feel up to it, but i don't *have* to do more than already specified here.

D-40 DAYS TO FREEDOM

me today: i really wish i didn't have to study today. despite the study schedule, i spent way too much time procrastinating in bed.

also i started using obsidian today and it's...basically like OneNote?? the learning curve isn't even that huge. maybe the confusion starts when you try to zettelkasten and use plugins. i like it (zettelkasten) in theory, but i don't think it's for my already overwhelmed (and highly unorganized and scattered) brain struggling to understand the info for the first time on a tight schedule 😵‍💫

study:

send biochem paper (1st draft) ✅ (it's not done, but the 1st draft is ungraded and i have bigger fish to fry today)

write biochem discussion post ✅

1 section of mol bio notes (2 long sections total this week 😵‍💫) ✅ (why is it that accepting that i can't actually store in long-term memory all the new info they throw at us in the time they allot feels like giving up? i just got my midterm mark back and i didn't actually score that bad but i am exhausted just thinking that i have to do it all over again in december 😭 and then i'll wanna review the course content so that i don't feel so awful about myself not remembering things long-term, but this time at a more leisurely pace)

start mol bio assignment ✅ (and by that, i mean 1 tiny question 😂)

notes on 1 of 2 psyc ch from last week ✅

watch psyc overview + start 2nd ch from last week ✅ (thank god it's sm shorter than the 1st one 😵‍💫😌)

self-care:

physio exercises ✅

⏰: i expected the struggle but i made it to 5h today! i really need to take the breaks seriously tho, if i'm to last for longer...tmr i might have to try for 8 or so hours again, instead of the 4 planned above bc tHeRe'S sOoOo mUcH tO dOoOoOo (and i wanna finish them asap) 😵‍💫

[azurezra]

man. today has been, something. started off by queuing up some TMR songs. that was. fun. ended up searching for the SEED song lyrics in an attempt to karaoke like the old days. and ended up stumbling upon the name of an old LJ friend in the translation credits, ah,hahahahaa...hah. (;_; )

somehow or other i next decided to check if 平川地一丁目 was on spotify and uh, gee, two separate artist pages. "Hirakawachiitchome" and "Hirakawachi 1Chome"... weird. one had their early stuff, the other was 3 2020's releases... i d k. made a playlist because i still do not fully comprehend HOW TF to use this godawful app. soon enough noticed how tHE ONE. WHOLE. UNAVAILABLE SONG. 「君のくつ」 i immediately recognised the title it was one of the FIRST I EVER HEARD, and thus SURELY the MOST nostalgic and... goddamn.

cue an attempt to listen to it ELSEWHERE? youtube just showed me. a cover. o-ohhh but it WAS, *VERY* nostalgic!!! but NOT THEM. so, i tried another site. it was a *japanese* lyrics site. it actually had a link. to a youtube video. region block. of. course. ........so, my DUMB ASS has just never bothered with a vpn in all these years (used to use proxies on occasion, but...) —so i did not have one handy!! but after NOT TOO MUCH STRUGGLE, i found a jp one (and the site actually seemed familiar? h-huh...) AND GOT IT TO WORK

AND LISTENED TO THE SONG!!! HELL YEAH, NOSTALGIA

....and then the eventual emotional crash. sigh.

i didn't even listen to the pl yet or discover any other songs i used to know, great! and nvm the idea to try to d/l the song cos even tho i HAD it, who knows, now? but ofc MY vpn didn't do jack shit for the mp3 converter websites accessing it from hell knows where. and again. i'm too dumb, to solve, these fucking issues!!

...

so then there was yesterday's shit. the power got shut off by 11am, curtailing my original plans for TMR. unable to even do chores, and lacking ANY offline activities or crafts in this hellhole, i ended up... reading —INITIALLY ONE. and then, ONE BY ONE— ALL, of my, ancient ass, OC writings. the ones i made like a single file each for, thought about in bed for days/weeks until the next ""idée fixe"" took over, but then eventually neglected in favour of my "top 3"...

well there was ACTUALLY some good/cute stuff. a LOT of cringe stuff. shameless asides laughing at my own cringe-but-free writing ability. peppered here & there with many an ancient ass meme phrase i hadn't heard in a decade+

and ofc, far too much, incomplete scenes, suddenly stopped, SOMETIMES NOTED with, "i'll write that later" and then i never. did. (and yet i KNOW there were more scenes??? so it was. thought up in bed. and never typed up....) (;_; )

well that was FUN. ...until the crash. from the high. and the power was still off ofc. *power eventually paid & resolved by 7pm* BUT. the damage was already done.

brain now overloaded with "freshly unearthed" thoughts about ALL of my OCs, not just my top 3 stories.... oh, god.

a-and THEN i started wondering how they looked? i.e. my pathetic maplestory sprites created in bannedstory (rip in pieces)

and so i. eventually dug into my dropbox. o-oh god. SOME ARE. SOOOOOOOOCUTE. SOME ARE. SO ugly. l-lol. cry. "they'll look better when i finally draw them! these are just design drafts!" .......CRYYYYYY.

and NOW i'm plagued by thoughts of posting them, but even MORE tormented by:

a.) not being to edit or adjust any!!! fucking pixels!! on ipad!!

b.) even CROPPING the massive "collages" is a HUGE PAIN on the ipad???

c.) there are multiple versions, across different images, made at different times— and SOME charas look better in one, while others look better in another?!? MORE CUT PASTE CROP EDIT HELL

...nvm all these .bsproj files that can no longer be accessed or loaded up and edited and.... cries. GOD I BET EVEN IF ANY SUCCESSOR APP TRIED TO IMPLEMENT THEM, THEY'D LACK THE ABILITY TO READ THE COLOUR ADJUSTMENTS I TOOK ENTIRELY TOO MUCH ADVANTAGE OF a-and then if i loaded 'em up. HORRID, AWFUL ORANGE HAIR THAT I HAD DESATURATED TO SOME SEMBLANCE OF "SILVER", OR GREEN EYES HUE SHIFTED TO TEAL OR, OR, OR—

[calorieroulette]

personal update • 8/25/24

haven't been active here in FOREVER. need to lock in fr bc i'm starting ballet again in a few weeks. i took a 2yr hiatus bc i ran away from home (now i'm back, long story but all is well) & i'm sooo scared. i'm not in terrible shape but even a single run thru of pliés make my hips hurt for a full day after so ik i'm gonna be SORE. not ideal bc i also just landed a very physical job & will probably be starting them around the same time.

not the worst combo tho bc i'm gonna be burning hella cals. i alr walk 3+ miles at least 4 days per week & do pilates when i remember, so if i keep that up in addition to the job & ballet, i'm DEFINITELY hitting my gw this year. maybe even by halloween, which was the plan anyways but i've been fat all month.

currently i'm sitting justtt at/below the cutoff for being medically underweight. as of today, i'm starting the ABC diet. if i complete all 50 days, that leaves me another few weeks of unstructured calorie schedule. i'll probably pick out some short diets to fill the empty days & fast the last few days before halloween. from there, if i hit my gw, i'll slowly increase my intake to maintenance.

i have the WORST fucking memory but if i remember/don't fail, i'll post weekly updates abt the diet. i plan to weigh in every monday, so i'll get my "starting weight" tmr. every monday after that i'll post the weekly update with how much i lost that week / how the diet went / etc. since i'm going to be working & doing ballet, i have some extra rules in place to accommodate my needs.

supplements (gummy vitamins) & non-protein liquids (i.e. energy drinks, kombucha, etc) will be logged in the LOSEIT! app under a separate category from solids, & liquids such as yogurt & protein shakes. they do count, but if i'm over the day's limit bc of them, i won't consider it "over the limit." i'm mainly concerned with staying under the limit with my OMAD. i won't let 60 extra cals from my gummy vitamins & a monster or two freak me out!!

net cals are an option, but only twice per week. it shouldn't become something to rely on. the point of low res is the fast weight loss, which will go faster if i'm constantly burning a lot from work & ballet. if i eat more too, i lose the benefits.

2L+ water daily ofc

in order to prevent relapsing into bad cycles (overeating/binging, purging) & stay locked into my restrictive tendencies, i need to consume ed media beyond socials at least once per day. watch diet vlogs & beauty standard breakdown videos on youtube when i choose to watch it. listen to music that makes me want to starve. reread wintergirls for the 34th time or something. just KEEP IT CENTERED.

if i feel like giving up, think of how badly i want my rewards for hitting goal weights (tattoos, colored contacts, various swag i've been craving since i could comprehend fashion)

ofc, for now, i'm just focusing on eating as little as possible & getting used to the hunger again. i have orientation for my job this week but i'm not on the schedule yet. hoping they start me next week or the week after, just so i can get a little more into the groove with my eating patterns. my biggest issue is late-night binges. i just get so fucking hungry & forget why it matters. i'm done. no more.

things to remember when i'm tempted:

sugar & junk are like cigarettes; if you don't consume them, you don't crave them.

the first few days are the hardest. the habits will be back by week 3. my lw era mindset is closer than i think, i just have to keep pushing.

the classic "hungry to bed, hungry to rise" is oddly comforting on nights where my stomach's rumbles keep me awake.

if i can eat past the point of fullness, i can starve past the point of hunger. all hunger is temporary except my hunger to be thin. that is the only hunger that needs to be satisfied.

and ofc, here's a list of distractions i can run to in case motivation & discipline fail & i just need something to stop me from giving in:

play DTI or backrooms on roblox

read

organize pinterest boards

journal

draw / paint

watch youtube / a show / a movie

go for a walk

do one of my youtube workout playlists

clean / do laundry + dishes / vacuum

take a bath

there's def more, i'll come back & add to this post when i think of things so i always have a list to check when i need to lock in.

that's pretty much it.

[usersasaki]

YA!! hoping we both survive this year's semester even though the blanket nest is much more preferable :'D also yes!! i'm giving u my sweet dreams big sib (°▽°) FGSGD ALSO YES!! I AM NOW YOUR LITTLE SISTER BY BLOOD EHEHE /aff. anyways ghshdgs when i read you single-handedly taking down criminals in neighborhoods im like "does that mean you're fighting crime with cyno now?" i also thought of spiderman for some reason too EHFHAGAXN /lh ~Lycoris

i am here a week late and i just got ur other ask too, which i will answer under this one ^^ my bb sis yes <33 well after that i did have some weird dreams but now i don't remember them by the time i wake up so,, improvement,,? OK BUT THANK U FOR MAKING ME THINK OF THAT DREAM IN THIS WAY??? SPIDERMAN AND CYNO CHEF'S KISS??? i love both of them sm crying T~T

the rest under cut ↓

i also wish i could confidently say i was doing well but the truth of the matter is i'm literally alr pretty done with the semester even tho it's only been a week 😭 the workload is no joke and i've got to go in to uni for classes even on saturdays which really doesn't help my case,, but i do hope that tho this week was crap for the both of us, we can see better weeks ahead of us! i'm sure our favs like albedo and thoma would be proud of us for making it through this week like champs <3 and they'd cheer us on for the next week too in their own lil ways hehe

i'll leave u with a lil hc before i head off to bed since i've got class tmr: albedo notices the lil changes in ur mood really fast and so when he sees u down after a day at school, he pulls u down beside him and gets u ur favourite drink and snack and just quietly sits there as emotional support or listens to u if u wanna talk abt it <3

and thoma would give u a big bear hug before asking u if u wanted any food in specific because that will be ur dinner ^^ food therapy >>> and taroumaru also snuggles up to u and thoma would set up maybe a movie night to help distract u hehe

[liptonsbabe]

Havoc [Thomas]

A Maze Runner fanfiction

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Summary: When the reader, the second-in-command of the village goes out into the maze looking for a way out, the last thing she hopes to find is a whole new community on the other side of the walls. Much less, when it seems to be inhabited only by boys her age.

Warnings: none

A/N: Hey! This is my very first fanfic here and i decided to start with some tmr stuff ;) English not my mother language so please let me know if something is wrong. Anyways, enjoy!

Chapter one: Leaving home

YOU WAKE UP THAT DAY WITH AN INCREDIBLE MOOD, although things in the village were not encouraging at all.

The dew hadn't fallen yet when you were already in front of the maze, impatiently waiting for the doors to open. You were carrying a backpack with the breakfast on your back, the belt resting on your hips, and an awl strategically hidden in your back pocket.

You didn't understand why your heart was beating so fast even if the night before had been the worst of all. The disease was progressing, it was devastating the village and the parents were leaving their children alone. You trembled in your place. You've never seen anything like that before. The illness, the confusion, the tiredness, the agony. The desease was ending with all of you. If you and the trackers didn’t find a way out as you had promised, then the village would be devastated.

You couldn't allow it. You weren't going to give up. Maybe the answer was out there, waiting for you and you weren't going to keep it waiting.

Maybe the feeling of your restless heart was a good sign. Maybe your heart was sensing things that you could not know and, with a little bit of luck, get it right as he almost always did.

The village had exits from its four points, so, as the sun was in the west that day, you decided to start with the east gate, considering it a good sign. You pulled your hair up in a high ponytail, ate an apple as fast as you could, and waited for the doors to move.

A curtain of dust and pebbles rose in front of your face as you listened the doors opening. That day the main corridor to the maze had a strange smell, but you thought that your nose was already damaged by the medicines and infusions that you had been smelling in the nursery, so you ignored it. You adjusted your boots waiting for the stench to disperse when a strong pull carried you backwards, scaring you.

“What the hell...? Asenat! "You muttered releasing the grip on your shirt. The girl smiled haughtily, crossing her arms over her chest “How many times do I have to tell you to not pull me like that? I hate being pulled!

“You can do it as many times as you want, I honestly don't care, I'll keep doing it anyways”

“You're an idiot”

“Where do you think you are going?” Cassidy asked, standing next to Asenat, both of them staring at you with their arms crossed over their chests and frowning. You rolled your eyes

“To do my job, the same as you should be doing right now”

"You are no longer a tracker”

“I am the leader, I can give myself that position”

"Second leader," Asenat corrected you, "After Richard, and he was the one who gave you the order to stay in the village, remember?"

You clicked your tongue as the trackers were already leaving to the maze. Asenat caught your shirt between her fingers again preventing you from running. Cassidy sighed, shaking her head. If something was clear to them about you, it was how stubborn you could be.

“Yes, I remember”

"Do you still have those headaches?"

"No," you lied. You'd been feeling terrible headaches for a couple of weeks now, before Richard fell sick from what the villagers called the glow. The man, who was also a tracker, had found you in the middle of your section with a terrible bruise on the back of your head and a pool of blood surrounding you. He carried you to the village, and when you were sufficiently recovered, you mentioned having a terrible pain and falling unconscious hitting the stone. Richard didn't need to know more to remove you from your job, forbidding you to return to the maze until your headaches were better. Until the night before you hadn't felt any pain, so you assumed you were fine “I'm great, don't worry about me. It was an accident”

"Yeah, are you sure?"

“Completely”

"Even if it were so, you are not allowed to go out," Cassidy said, determined. "We need you here, my friend."

"I'll be back before dark”

"Things don't work that way anymore," Cassidy replied, looking at you with a frown. "Richard hasn't died yet." His rules are still ours and since when we can do whatever we want?

“Don’t say it like that”

"You know Richard is not going to survive" Asenat lowered her voice preventing any other villagers from hearing her "he will die like the rest of the infected and when that happens all this will be over. We can continue with the rules that he made, but that will not be enough. There are families dying every day, our duty is to take care of them. We have a pact, okay? Treat the disease first, look for a way out later”

"How long are we going to keep waiting?" You asked, taking a step forward. Asenat sighed, "Three? Four? Another five years? This place is falling apart. If we really want to help the remaining villagers we need to find a way out, take them home, give them a better life, heal them "

"Nobody assures us that we will be better out there than here"

"Let's take the risk, we won't lose anything just by trying"

"We have kids in here, even babies. Their parents have died and they depend on us.

"This time it will be different" you said looking at them pleadingly "It's crazy, but something tells me that today we will find the answers we have been looking for. I could assure you that. Do you believe me? Do you trust me enough to believe in what my heart feels?”

Cassidy and Asenat looked at each other. Richard was still sick, confined to his cabin with the doctors trying to keep him alive. The night before he had lost part of the skin on his arms and his uncontrollable anger had made them tie him to the bed, however, that didn’t mean that in his small lapses of serenity he did not realize what was happening in the village.

Asenat shrugged her arms, leaving the decision to Cassidy. In her role as a teacher, she had no say in that situation and she didn't really care too much. You were reckless and almost always clumsy, but you had good ideas and that had helped you become te mainstay of the village. However Cassidy as the third in charge represented the third head of the monster. She would be the leader at Richard's death and if you didn't get back from the maze in time and that terrified her. She was not afraid of responsibility, nor making important decisions, but that represented visualizing a future where the three of you were not together and she preferred not to think about it.

"You know we do," she replied. "There hasn't been a single day when we doubted in your good judgment, but ..."

"It's different," Asenat said rubbing her chin. "The village doesn't feel like it used to. We are used to death, we can handle it, but the feeling of having it lurking over our heads is unbearable. The maze is not better. It is changing. I listen to it every night. The steel lobsters clattering through the halls. The giant woke up and will not go back to sleep”

"Cassidy," you called her, squeezing her hands. The girl sighed, thinking of the possibilities you guys had. Staying with your arms crossed was not an option, but neither was breaking the trust Richard had placed in all of you. Asenat watched you. The three of you shared the same fear, the same confusion and the same dread of losing the entire village. There were children who required the presence of someone capable to guide them, men and women waiting in fear to be infected with the glow and babies crying to feel the arms of their dead parents. You clenched her hands tighter. You needed to be covered for a few hours only and, in return, you would find the way out. You could do it, you trusted your instincts “Please...”

Cassidy sighed.

"We'll cover you until lunchtime, that's all."

"I only need that”

"Come back in one piece, will you?" She begged, looking at a small boy approaching. You leaned down, taking him in your arms letting out a groan as you picked him up. George was eight years old, he didn't weigh the same as five years ago. You kissed his cheek, returning him to the ground “The boy would go nuts if something happened to you”

"Are you going back to the maze?" George asked looking at you with his huge brown eyes. You nodded. Then you were hit by the little boy's suffocating embrace “the lobsters will hurt you!

"They are asleep now”

"They can wake up!"

"I doubt it little one. Don’t worry, I'll be fine. I'll be back at noon and we'll have a snack together, what ya think?”

“You promise?

“I promise”

"Okay, you can go," he said. You laughed, ruffling his hair

"Thanks, puppy. Stay with Asenat, okay? She can scold you while I'm gone”

"Ya’ heard it, boy," Asenat said, rubbing her knuckles at the top of his head. George complained, "You will stay with me the rest of the day and help me teach the little ones how to count to ten.

“That's not fair!”

"Life isn't fair, brat." Come on, maybe we can grab some chocolate from the kitchen later, huh?”

Asenat held out her hand and George took it enthusiastically as they walked together towards the largest cabin that you used as a classroom. George spun on his feet saying goodbye with a bright smile on his face. You blew him a kiss and Asenat turned to show you her middle finger. You smiled

"Take care of him, will you?" I highly doubt that Asenat will do it properly”

"I'm going to watch her. Now go before I regret it. And (Y/N)” She said, stopping you as you walked towards the main corridor of the maze. You turned around, waiting for his words “Don't die out there. The maze stinks enough to add the stench of a corpse” You nodded. It was a fair deal

“No prob”

You finished your run in your section faster than you expected. The meal would not be until three hours later so you decided to make a stop to rest. You sat on the floor against a wall. Hot sweat was running down your neck and the fucking headache was back. You closed your eyes, tired. It was terribly hot, and the stench of rotting meat numbed your nose.

You drank water, the little sip you had left, and put it back in your backpack. You were going to eat some of the apple slices you took with you, but the pain in the back of your head kept you from even chewing. You stood up wanting to continue your hike when the headache went down your neck and then numbed your spine. You leaned against the wall. It was covered in vines, moss, and fungus. You wiped your palms on your pants and started walking again.

The migraine erased your sight. For a second the world around you seemed to move in luminous spirals forcing you to close your eyes. The sound lightened and you swore you heard a static signal on your eardrums.

The floor spined over and over again. You dug your nails into the palms of your hands feeling the blood pour out from the sides, staining the stone. You heard the drops hiting the floor and suddenly everything stopped.

You were sweating. Your soaked shirt stuck to your body, your hair matted on your forehead and you opened your eyes. Pushing back the hair you noticed that this was not your section, that in some inexplicable way the maze had changed drastically and there was no way to return home.

Your heart beat madly. You fell to the ground on your knees, your head aching every second screaming in agony. You crawled down the corridor without understanding its course, but recognizing small fragments of leaves pointing a path to the north.

was that the way out? You, without being aware of the pain, could you have operated some kind of lever, changing the composition of the maze, leaving it unrecognizable? You weren't sure.

You kept crawling. The leaves spreading across the path, turning into a corridor covered in dust and dirt. You complained in pain and in the confusion, you managed to hear voices from the other side.

You buried your nails in the stone rising up. You pulled forward slowly approaching until you reached the exit (or the entrance?) of the maze. The wind ruffled your hair. Then your hands touched the green grass and the pain stopped.

You stayed alert. Your senses fading little by little from fatigue. Your head ached, your hands ached, your back ached. You heard the clear voice of a boy and, unaware of it, you got up as best as you could.

You got up with the help of the leaves on the wall. You narrowed your eyes focusing on the meadow stretching out in front of you. It was not the village, it was not the exit. The walls of the maze were surrounding the meadow and you could only think that the pain had caused you allusions.

Then the torture returned. You clenched your teeth. Your vision became blurry, however you could distinguish completely unknown figures in the mist. Your ears recognized voices, men's voices, and, unable to bear another second, you fainted.

[sckyie]

word count: 1.1k 

genre + warning: fluff; comforting when sick

pronouns used: they/them

a/n: i rewrote an old fic i have on my wattpad

mr. dino man: hey kageyama said you looked sad when you passed him in the hall, you okay?

you: not really, i'm not having a good day and i didn't pass my exam

mr. dino man: well if you'd study like i said you should've, you're would've passed

you: whatever

mr. dino man: awww little baby upset i told them the truth?

you: i'm going home alone

you: i'm not particularly fond of your bullying as of rn

you: i have a migraine and everything is bugging me. ill text you tmr

mr. dino man: wait, baby i was joking

mr. dino man: don't leave me on read

Tsukishima stares at his phone just as the final bell began. His teacher dismisses class and he goes to look for you where you'd wait for him. You weren't there like you usually were. In actuality, you had gone home early. He sighed, checking your location to see that you were already at home.

He took a deep breath before walking towards Coach Ukai's store. Tsukki enters the shop, greeting his coach once he enters. "Tsukishima? Aren't you supposed to be back at the school?" He asks.

"Is it okay if I miss today? Y/n isn't feeling well and I made it worse when I talked to them. I can make it up tomorrow?" He asks.

"You're lucky today is just conditioning," Ukai scolds. "You owe me extra tomorrow."

"Yes sir," He bowed. Tsukishima walks down the aisles with a basket. He places onigiri, instant ramen, and some tea in before walking towards the medicine aisle. "Do you know what treats migraines?" Tsukki asks aloud as he looks at the different boxes.

"A nicer boyfriend," Ukai laughs. "The orange box." He makes his way to the cash register to have his items scanned.

"Thanks Coach," He says as the items are getting bagged. The two say their goodbyes before Tsukishima makes his way to your house. As he approaches your doorstep, he notices your parents about to leave. "Oh, hi Mr. and Mrs. L/n."

"Oh Tsukki! You're here early, Y/n isn't feeling well. They're locked up in their room," Your mom explain.

"I know, is it alright to come in and cook for them?" Tsukishima asks. Your parents agree, telling him where things are in the kitchen. He enters and place everything on the counter. He takes out what is necessary in making instant ramen. He decided to add some vegetables and ginger to make you feel a bit better.

You never took Tsukishima as the cooking type. It took you by surprise the first time he cooked for you. It had always been buying take out and eating at restaurants or in some cases you'd cook for him.

As he was chopping up green onions, you could smell the aroma of the soup from your room. You lugged yourself to the living room, expecting to see one of your parents. You furrowed your brows once you spot your boyfriend cooking. "Kei? What are you doing here?" You ask.

"I came over because you said you weren't feeling well. And because I know you, you weren't going to take you medicine and just sleep," Tsukishima says. "I'm making tofu ramen with vegetables."

"But I'm not-" You started, his eyes met with yours sending a chill down your spine.

"You are hungry because Yachi said you didn't eat at lunch," He scolds. "Here, eat one of these and take the medicine I bought you." He held out an onigiri and the bottled tea.

"Thank you Kei," You say softly, walking to sit at the dinner table. You unwrap the little triangle and munch on it while Tsukki continues to make your guys' food. He watches you take the medicine to make sure that you don't just say you took it.

"Do you need help?" You ask.

"Yeah," Tsukishima says. "Go set up your bed for us to cuddle later after we eat. Also pick out a movie."

"Wait what about cooking?" You tilt your head.

"Go, just let me take care of you, no questions," He says. You nod, walking over to give him a kiss before you went to the bedroom. He leans down and pecks your lips before letting you go.

You clean off your bed where your uniform was laid and your stuffed animals scattered. You pulled out an extra blanket from the closet, placing it on the bed. You turn on your laptop and look for a movie to watch.

"Food's done!" Tsukki called out. You walked over to see him place two bowls on the table for the both of you. You seat yourself across him and you looked down at the noodles.

"Thank you bubba," You say.

"No problem," He says.

"Aw, there's ginger in it," You whine.

"Eat it, you'll feel better," He says. You pout at his words, dreading to eat the musty root. You slurped up the noodles, the flavor of the ginger hit your throat making you shut your eyes. "You're so cute." He laughs at your scrunched face.

"Shut up," You say after chewing your noodles.

After the two of you finished eating, you attempt to wash the dishes but he shoves you away from the sink. "Warm up the bed, I'll bring you ice cream," He says, cleaning up the bowls. You sighed, kissing his cheek and walking towards your bedroom.

Snuggling into the sheets, you waited for your boyfriend to join you. After few minutes, he walked in with a bowl of your favorite ice cream and two spoons. He hands you the dessert before laying himself beside you. His arms drape around you, pulling the laptop on his lap with his free hand.

"When Marnie was There? What movie is this?" He asks, looking at the title.

"Oh, my friend recommended it," You say scooping some ice cream to feed Tsukki. "Thank you by the way...I'm grateful for you..."

"You're welcome," He says. "Sorry for being mean to you babe."

"It's okay," You say looking up at him. "I love you."

"I love you too," He places his lips on yours. "You taste like ginger."

"Oh hush," You laughed. The two of you finished up eating the ice cream together as you watched the movie. You snuggled into your boyfriend's chest as you watched. Shortly after settling into his body, you began to slowly close your eyes.

"Woah, that's trippy," Tsukki says, looking at you. "Oh, you're sleeping."

"No, I'm-" You get interrupted by a yawn. "Okay maybe I am sleepy."

"It's fine if you sleep Y/n," He says. "We can finish this movie later."

"Mhm," You hummed. You listened to his heartbeat as you were slowly falling asleep. You had that fuzzy feeling in your stomach as Tsukishima held you. It was the first time in a while where he spoiled you. You were more than thankful to have him with you. "I love you."

"I love you more idiot," He says, kissing the top of your head. He reaches over to turn off the lamp and put your laptop on the desk. He shifts his body to hold you easier before slowly falling asleep with you.

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[the-fiction-witch]

The Child P2

Media TMR

Character Newt

Couple Newt X Reader

Rating Smut

Part 2 to recent please! I loved it so much! Great twist!

I made the most of my time in the facility, I told the boys everything I needed to and we all agreed. We had to get Y/n out of this place and our little girl, it's not safe for them here. I wanted to leave as soon as possible but given Y/n had only just given birth... the idea of forcing her to run around the desert just seemed cruel and not safe for her or our baby. 

But we waited and stocked up, the boys stealing supplies every time they went anywhere in the facility packing bags. We stocked clothes, food, blankets, medical supplies and anything else that may be useful to us. Hiding it all under the beds in the room. But we knew we didn't have long so as soon as Y/n was well enough we got ready, we all returned after dinner like nothing was wrong, Y/n fed our little girl as we all dressed into thick layers and stuffed out bags as well as we could making sure they where full but not too heavy. I took our little girl as Y/n got ready and we made sure everyone knew the plan of escape,

"You'll be okay?" I asked,

"Yeah," she nodded as she slipped on her jacket I could hear her being unsure in her voice, 

"Are you sure?" I asked nervously, "You did just push a whole baby out of you..."

"I know, but she can't stay here."

"But I want you to be safe too, I care barely for you to get hurt just to get us out of here." 

"I'll be okay I promise," she says giving me a little kiss,

"Okay," I nodded, "I.. uhh... I forgot we never really talked about it,"

"About what?"

"A name for her,"

"Oh... I guess we didn't" she chuckled, "I had an idea for her,"

"Oh?"

"Melody,"

"Melody? Awww little melody,"

"She's always giggling so sweetly I thought it suited her,"

"Melody. I love it," I told her giving Melody's head a little kiss and then kissing Y/n,

"You guys ready?" Minho asks,

I looked at Y/n and she nodded holding my hand, so I squeezed it and held Melody close to me, "Yeah. We're ready, let's get the bloody hell out of here," 

The scorch was long and at times seemed endless, we lost friends on the way but it was nice to finally arrive at the right arms camp, at first they were tentative about our arrival but when they found out who we were. Apparently, we were not the only ones to escape WCKD. They tested us gave us warm clothes and welcomed us in with jobs helping to break others out. They found I wasn't immune and it was all a bit of a shock.

"...what?" I gasped,

"Newt was in the control group, one of the non-immunes thrown in to keep the experiment as structured as possible," Mary explained,

"...I see," I nodded, 

"Newt-" Y/n held my arm and I squeezed her as tight as I could,

"I'll go."

"what? newt you can't go!" she protested,

"If I'm not immune... it's only a matter of time before I get infected before I become dangerous, lose my mind and start hurting people..." I explained,

"But-"

"It's not safe for me to stay. I could infect everyone in the safe haven. I could infect you..." I explained, "I could infect Melody, I could snap and hurt her or you." 

"Newt... you can't leave,"

"I would never live with myself if I hurt you or Melody,"

"I know but, there must be another way."

"What? chain me up? watch me turn? make me beg for a bullet in my head... That's not fair on you,"

"You can't leave, Melody needs you. You're her father she needs you here. And I need you Newt."

"... I can't risk hurting you,"

"There must be a way, Please Mary isn't there anything we can do?" Y/n begged her, 

"...We can." she nodded, "Someone would have to sacrifice their blood to be used for a cure, to keep the virus at bay. But... He'll always need more."

"There, see. It'll be fine," Y/n says almost crying,

"I can't ask you for that, I can't ask anyone for that..."

"You're not asking." Minho spoke up, "We will. All of us."

"I can't ask you guys to-" I began,

"It's done." Minho snapped,

"It's decided Newt... we can't just let you leave," thomas explained,

"Melody needs you man, so does Y/n, and so does the rest of us," Fry explained, 

"Face it Newt the only way you're getting out of his camp is if you've taken us all down first, cause there ain't a chance in hell we're letting you leave," Minho warns, 

"Thank you," I nodded hugging him,

As I finished up my daily medical treatment, I let out a deep sigh of relief. The camp was quiet and peaceful, with only a gentle breeze rustling through the trees. As I headed across the camp, I felt a sense of calmness wash over me.

That feeling of calmness quickly turned into joy when I saw Y/n sitting by the water with Melody. They were both engrossed in Y/n was showing Melody the waves, and her face lit up with excitement.

As I approached them, my smile grew wider. I could see the delight in their eyes, and it made me happy to see them so happy. Without wasting any time, I walked towards them, and Y/n looked up and greeted me with a friendly smile.

I picked Melody up, holding her on my hip. She was fascinated by everything around her, and I loved watching her explore the world with wide eyes. But she let out her happy little giggles as soon as I had returned to her, 

I felt a sense of contentment. It was moments like these that made my treatments worthwhile.

"There she is! there's my beautiful girl." I cooed peppering her little redhead with kisses, 

"She missed you," Y/n laughed as I sat down beside her,

"Awww she missed her daddy?" I cooed, "You are too sweet, far too adorable to even be real my little angel." 

"How are you feeling?" Y/n asked resting her head on my shoulder,

"Ehh tried. groggy. Like I would sell my soul for bacon."

"Really?" She giggled,

"Yes I would," I nodded,

"Look out Melody, Daddy gets too hungry he might trade you for your weight in bacon," Y/n laughed, making Melody giggle of course,

"umm... that would be a lot of bacon," I joked bouncing Melody on my legs, "No no Daddy wouldn't trade you for bacon, I wouldn't trade my baby girl for anything," I smiled, "How's mummy?" I asked kissing Y/n's head, 

"Fine,"  

"Fine?"

"Fine," she shrugs

"Alright, and I checked with Fry on the way to the medical tent apparently it's clam soup for dinner,"

"oooh exciting," she chuckled, 

"You see Vince today?"

"Mhm," she nodded, "Another month he says till ships ready," 

"Alright, give this little one a chance to get a bit bigger before we head off," 

"Umm, I think she'll like our new home,"

"I think she will too, I think we all will," I smiled giving her lips a soft kiss. 

I smiled as I lay in the little bed, we had taken this old room still mostly fact from the ruins around camp even if we had put a tent tarp over the broken roof I changed from some welding on the ship today into just my boxers and my shirt and crawled into bed, Y/n changed too into her panties and vest top I admit... as she stood soothing melody to sleep I couldn't not look. 

"say goodnight to Daddy," Y/n smiled as she brought Melody over,

"Aww goodnight Melody, sleep tight little one," I cooed giving her a cuddle and a kiss before Y/n took her back,

"Goodnight sweet girl, sleep tight," she cooed settling Melody into her own little crib bed, she waited a little till we were sure she was sleeping before Y/n came and crawled into bed beside me, "May I?" 

"Of course, you can," I smiled,

She rested her head on my chest, wrapped her leg around mine and I held her close, running my fingers through her Y/H/Chair. We lay together in a serene silence, relishing the warmth of each other's embrace. The gentle rhythm of our breathing filled the air, creating a soothing melody that lulled us into a state of deep relaxation. Our hands were intertwined as if we were afraid to let go of each other. We listened closely to Melody's soft, sleepy whimpers, which added to the peaceful atmosphere of the room. It was a moment of pure contentment, where time stood still, and we were lost in the bliss of each other's company.

I heard Y/n giggle on my chest so I looked down at her and saw her as her Y/e/C eyes fluttered up to meet my face, "It's funny..."

"Oh? Enlighten me?" 

"We have a little baby,"

"we do, the most beautiful baby in the world,"

"And yet... we've never,"

"Ohh..." I gulped as I picked up what she was hinting at,

"No uhh we haven't ever, why?"

"Well... I've been thinking,"

"Mhm?"

"Maybe as you're getting so much better, and we are leaving for safe haven soon... do you think maybe we could?"

"We could actually?"

"I'd likle that very mcuh,"

"Ummm so would I," I growled, stroking her hair a little more and sliding my hand down her waist, "Do you think maybe..." I smirked,

"Yes, newt?"

"Would you want another baby?" I whispered, 

"...I would," she blushed, "Would-"

"Yes!" I yelped maybe a little louder than I should, "Give Melody a little brother,"

"I think she'd like that,"

"Humm" I bit my lip, "I do too." 

"You think maybe..." she giggled,

"Tonight?" I whispered as hushed as I could even if I was beyond excited,

"Tonight." she nodded, 

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure," she nodded,

I didn't hesitate I pulled her in for a kiss moving her to lay on top of me our stomachs touching as we kissed, she kissed back as hungry and passionately as me doing our best as we made out to keep our moans low to not wake melody or anyone else in camp. "God I love you Y/n," I groaned as we pulled back throwing my shirt off before my hands slowly moved down her chest she nodded so I grabbed her breasts fondling and squeezing them as I kissed her again, Slowly I turned us over so she laid on her back, "Are uhh are you sure you're ready?"

"I am." she smiled before she slipped off her shirt leaving her in her little blue panties,

"Let's make a baby..." I growled kissing her and stroking all over her body she did the same to me and it wasn't long before my hands where on her panties and we both knew we had to keep going, "Can I?"

"Yes," she gasped excitedly, 

 "I love you so much," I groaned tugging down her panties to leave her naked on the bed, and I then kissed down her stomach pushing her thighs apart she giggled as I eagerly kissed down and began kissing her clit, 

"Ohh Newt!" she cooed stroking my hair as I kissed and licked, 

"I've missed this so much" I cooed slipping my fingers inside her for a few thrusts her having to put the pillow over her face to stop her moaning for screaming for me, I pulled back and sat on my knees I tugged down my boxers and stroked my shaft a little, "Just a little please?" I asked her and she nodded moving and taking my cock inside her mouth softly sucking and bobbing her head, "Ooohhh Y/n... Bloody hell-" I cursed before I pushed her back the meer idea of finally having sex with her was to much and just her sucking was getting me to the edge, 

"... I can't wait any longer." I groaned, "Now I get to use this?" I smirked as I held my base giving myself a stroke and a squeeze teasing her a little 

"Umm I have been looking forward to it" she giggled, "I'm sure I'll enjoy this far more than I enjoyed how Melody was convinced,"

"Ohh I guarantee it," I cooed, before I slowly and carefully pushed inside "Oh my god. Oh my god.Oh my god." I groaned trying to stay quiet as I felt her, my god! I never felt something so good, so warm, so tight, so sweet, so soft, I never wanted to leave her! 

"Ooohh newt," she cooed, "You okay?" she gasped after a few seconds of me not moving, 

"I think my brain is melting..."

"Really?"

"Oh my god. Bloody Hell You feel so good... it's amazing. you're amazing!"

"you haven't even moved yet..." she giggled,

"I know, sorry" I chuckled before gently moving my hips slowly and gently "Oh my god. Bloody hell! Love! I am really really sorry this isn't gonna last very long! You have no clue how amazing this is! after all this time,"

she was already struggling too feeling my gentle movements was enough for her after all this time "I know, after all this time was it worth the wait?"

"So so much Y/n!"

"I think so too," she smirked

I smirked back and happily began to speed up causing her to have to muffle her screams but so did I as I got faster and faster rubbing on her clit as much as I could I was biting my lip squeezing my eyes shut trying desperately not to cum already but it suddenly hit her like a tone of bricks and she squealed tightening around me as she hit her toe curling orgasm it felt so much better with my cock inside her "Ughhhhh Newt!" she squealed

I knew I was struggling just to hold on feeling her cum around me, I knew I couldn't take much more so I just let my hips work on their own fueled by fire desire and after a few short thrusts I buried himself as deep as I could making sure every single drop was buried as deep inside her as I could, 

"Bloody hell Y/n..." I gasped

"yeah..." she gasped

I pulled out and collapsed beside her on the bed, "Bloody hell... that felt amazing."

"Umm mhm..." she cooed cuddling up to me, "I love you," 

"I love you too," I cooed kissing her, "Let's home we have a little baby coming," I smiled rubbing her stomach, "But I'm not gonna lie... I wouldn't mind a few more attempts," 

She giggled and gave me a sweet kiss before we both lay cuddled up and soon passed out from exhaustion, 

I smiled as I finished up my last treatment after we discovered how much Thomas' blood was good at fighting the virus so I had my last dose and walked out into the safe haven seeing everyone busy with cooking, farming and building as usual. I headed out across the camp greeting people as I went before I reached the gardens seeing people working away with some corn, I saw the sweetest of sights there.

Melody stood with the corn growing only up to her shoulders, her sweetY/H/Chair blowing in the wind her brown eyes wide as she giggled excitedly playing with the crops in her little cream dress. 

"Melody," I cooed,

She perked up and ran through the cron crops, "Daddy!" She smiled jumping into my arms so I could hold her tight giving her a cuddle and some kisses,

"Hello little angel," I cooed, "What are you up to?" 

"Helping,"

"Helping? Right," I chuckled, "Now if you could be so kind little lady as pointing me in mummy's direction?"

She nodded so I set her down and she happily ran off I followed her deeper into the gardens where I saw an even sweeter sight as Y/n worked on some strawberry beds the easiest job in the gardens given her large swollen tummy, herY/H/Chair in a braid down her back as she wears a blue maternity dress, and little Jr running around playing with the small wooden windmill that gally had made for him, his little blonde hair bouncing as he runs around the grass. 

"Daddy!" Jr smiled as he bolted over so I cuddled him too,

"Hi little man, you having fun?"

"Yeah!" He giggled,

"Good, go on then play with your sister," I told him setting him down so he and Melody could go play,

"Hello love," I cooed kissing Y/n and stroking her bump, 

"Hello, Newt,"

"How's baby?"

"Snug as a bug," she smiled, 

"Awww and how's mummy?"

"Perfectly fine," she nodded, "How's daddy?"

"Perfect. I feel much better now," I nodded, "And I feel at peace now everything is going to be okay, and You, Melody, Jr and our future little one will be safe," I cooed giving her another kiss. 

[peachyteabuck]

Sorry if this is random BUT what do you do when like you just can't sleep? I've been trying and 4 hours has passed by and I have an appointment and stuff to do tmr and I'm just ndjsjsnsjdjdj wanna cry™

depends on the scenario!

if i know i need a shitload of sleep (e.g. 12 hours) but i've been stressed i get high. shit knocks me out GOOD but makes me groggy the next day

if i need ~8 hours of sleep and am w/i 30 minutes of the desired bedtime i take 2 melatonin pills

if my brain won't shut the fuck up bc of the silence i listen to music (obvi if you share a bed with someone like i do clear it with them beforehand)

if i just like CANNOT sleep i read (sav gifted me her old kindle and nothing puts me to sleep than 200 pages of omegaverse porn). don't read on ur phone b/c of the blue light and easy distraction, but have a physical book or a kindle where you can't access anything BUT books

sometimes i can't sleep because of phone anxiety (e.g. i'll miss something important) so if the gf isn't busy i'll have them stay awake while i nap and they keep an eye on my phone

if you're worried about sleeping through a morning alarm, i recommend getting a separate alarm clock that isn't your phone. i know alexa's do this, but a cheap ass alarm clock from ebay will also do the trick. it's just loud af and doesn't need to be charged

on a day where you have some time, try to see if there's anything that keeps you up in your room. is it too bright? do you need a night light? do you have meds that are meant to keep you up that you're taking to late? for example, i take an adhd medication that's a stimulant and the LATEST i can take it is 2:30pm or else i can't sleep.

try to get exercise. unfortunately exercise "works" or whatever doctors be sayin. a 20 minute walk a day minimum helps me prepare myself for sleep

remember that SOME sleep is better than no sleep, it's better to lay in silence for 4 hours than run around doing stuff because you think you need to

[creambunnie]

Jaemin - 2 Lives

chapters : masterlist , 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 .....

7 ;

"hey Jaemin, since your plan didn't really work, have you thought of dropping your disguise?" . y/n asked. they were hanging out together at a cafe after school.

Jaemin sipped on his iced coffee before humming. he was about to answer her question when the door to the cafe opened, and loud familiar voices were heard.

the both of them froze on their seats as her boyfriend and his friends walked towards their table.

Seungmin knew y/n had guy friends but not specifically Jaemin ; the one he had the most recent beef with.

Seungmin scooted next to y/n while his friends stood around the table. Seungmin hooked his arm on y/n's shoulder and smirked at Jaemin.

"oi loser, what are you doing here with my girlfriend?". his mocking tone was clearly to show that he had the 'upperhand' .

Jaemin wasn't scared of them, not really. he just restrained himself from arguing back to avoid making a scene . Jaemin didn't want to trouble y/n too.

"i'm just asking help from him for Geography, Seungmin. and i told you to stop calling him a loser,Jaemin is a nice friend.". y/n defended.

Seungmin rolled his eyes and was about to spit out other mean things when some girls entered the cafe , making noise and distracting other customers.

"i swear i saw them came in here!". one girl told her friend.

"there!!the handsome guys are there!". her other friend exclaimed as they saw the 8 boys gathered at y/n's table.

the 8 boys rolled their eyes as they saw their 'fangirls' following them around.

the girls scanned the circle.

"seungmin, hyunjin, jisung, leeknow , I.N , felix, bangchan, changbin,,,, ew who is this guy?". the girl said with a disgusted face as she reached Jaemin.

"omg why is this guy hanging out with the handsome boys? doesn't he feel insecure? omg stoppp you can't try to fit in something you don't even belong in,"..

the girls kept 'whispering' mean stuffs about Jaemin. Jaemin held his head low.

the 8 boys were annoyed that their 'fangirls' followed them but Seungmin was kind of satisfied when they said things about Jaemin ; his rival.

"i'm gonna go first.". Jaemin stood up slowly and mumbled before leaving the cafe.

y/n quickly stood up and wanted to chase Jaemin but Seungmin held her back. "hey, stay here. i'm your boyfriend, right?".

y/n bit her lips as she felt guilty about Jaemin. she reluctantly sat back with Seungmin and tried her best to entertain him and his friends. their 'fangirls' sat a few tables away , still admiring the handsome boys.

~

To : ☆Jaemin☆

-- Heyy,are you alright? i am so sorry about earlier. --

y/n sent Jaemin a message as soon as she went home. she nervously waited for a few minutes before she got a new notification.

From : ☆Jaemin☆

-- i'm fine, don't worry. i'm kind of used to it by now. it is my choice to live like this, you don't need to feel sorry...--

-- maybe the reason i don't want to drop my disguise is because people won't value me for who i am. they prioritise outer looks more. and i am not fond of that.--

y/n sighed in relief after reading his reply. but she felt a bit sad too. she felt guilty.

y/n started thinking if she was just like other people before this.

she didn't really talk to Jaemin before she caught him living 2 lives. y/n's worry stopped as she got another text from Jaemin.

From : ☆Jaemin☆

-- i am thankful to have you as my friend. i know we weren't as close before our deal, but i felt your sincerity when you tried to apologise to me that day. i was treated like a human. not some trash just because i'm a "loser". thank you <3 --

y/n smiled sadly and held her phone to her chest. the text warmed her heart . it also motivated her to keep trying to be a good person to everyone.

To : ☆Jaemin☆

-- i am glad that you're feeling okay. and thank you too for being a really good friend, Jaemin. i'll always try my best . goodnight♡ have a good rest--

Jaemin replied with a 'goodnight' too before the both of them finally went to bed and had a nice sweet dream.

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a/n : heres a short update !! hope you guys love it !!

btwwwwww tmr is my highschool graduation 😍😭😍😭 i am so excited but scared too cos i have to give a speech in front of all our parents 😭😭 wish me luck ✊🏼

[im-always-fangirling]

Eager - Park Jihoon

A/n: Lolololol heyy there, here’s a random scenario (that’s why some things may seem unexplained) ❤️ I wrote this one in bullet form heh. but anyways, let me just say that park jihoon is indeed bae. ;))

Summary: you manage to muster whatever courage you have to ask for a dance from the one and only park jihoon.

Words: 1621 words.

Genre: fluff

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soon, you found yourself standing in front of the group that jihoon was standing with.

the boys all looked at you, including the breathtaking winkboi himself.

you instinctively smile to relax yourself but somehow that didn't work because jihoon's beautiful sparkly eyes (cringeworthy, but hey, there's truth to this) were still on you.

"can i dance with you?"

after popping the question, you swear that your heart was going to burst out from your chest.

you even thought of masking it all as some kind of a 'dare' that your friend gave you because even though there's not much of it, you still want some of your womanly pride left

"sure."

he agreed not long after and you wondered whether this was a dream or not.

apparently the look of disbelief and surprise on your face was quite obvious.

but that was all immediately replaced with joy when you see jihoon smiling at you in such a polite and shy way.

the boys that he was hanging out with gave suspecting smiles towards jihoon, who merely told them that he'll be back.

he stepped out from the circle that he was in and walked towards you.

when he was close enough to you, he offer out his hand,  and you instinctively take it.

the two of you head to the dance floor and at that moment, a slow song was playing.

you stiffly place your two hands on jihoon's shoulders and you try to appear less nervous by making eye contact with him.

however, after only one second of looking at him, you couldn't take it and looked away.

then, you feel two hands on your waist.

"hey, if it makes you feel better, i'm actually nervous too."

with those words being said, you look back up and finally noticed that the boy's face was a little bit more red than usual.

"wow." you couldn't help but feel amazed at the fact that he might be feeling all the butterflies that you are.

he gives you an assuring smile, "yeah, we're nervous. but we might as well enjoy this."

and with that, the two of you start to sway along to the music and somehow the awkward distance that you guys had at the beginning of the dance had decreased.

both of you spent quite an amount of time talking to each other and getting to know each other while dancing to those slow songs.

"you know, i saw my grandparents dancing to this very song in the living room while they were babysitting me. they even switched on those yellowish lights and had rose petals around them."

"what, seriously?"

jihoon nods and you couldn't help but let out an 'awwwwwww'.

the image of two couple dancing together made your heart melt.

"that's really romantic."

as you two maintained eye contact, you realize that your heart was beating in a faster pace than usual.

with an unsure look on his face, he questions you "so, are you enjoying the dance?"

"are you kidding me?" was your first response.

then, with a genuine smile, you try to make your point clear as possible

"park jihoon, i love dancing with you."

not long after replying him, you realize how straight forward you were and how RED jihoon's face was getting.

still, the two of you maintained eye contact and proceed dancing in a somewhat comfortable silence.

after a moment of dancing in silence, jihoon speaks up, "you know-"

he paused for a moment and you were confused at his sudden stop.

"yeahhh???"

he keeps silent for a while before blurting out the words, "i love dancing with you too."

and you really can't help but smile at his words.

because this is all so unreal for you.

not long after that, the two of you stopped dancing and actually decided to just sit outside and chill.

jihoon actually went back in after to get you a bottle of mineral water from the vending machine, fearing that the water served might be spiked.

"here", he offers you the bottle after opening the lid for you and you didn't forget to thank him for it.

after quenching your thirst, you decide to break the silence, "you're quite a good dancer."

he smiles, "yeah, but it's mostly because have a good partner to dance with."

"stop, you're spoiling me with all these compliments."

he chuckles and you really take your time to admire his laugh.

he looks at you and smiles, and that was the moment you ask him, "is it alright if i get your number?"

and once more, you were thrown in a roller coaster of feelings.

your sudden forwardness surprised jihoon, but he got his phone out from his pocket anyway.

"yeah, sure."

and the two of you passed each other your phones.

you wondered whether you should save your number with a special name or not, and so you did.

you passed it to him and was surprised to see he saved himself as 'dance partner ;)'

he stares at his phone and now you're starting to somehow regret a bit on saving yourself as 'your admirer :P'

he smiles and questions you in a tone close to teasing, "your admirer?"

somehow you were glad that he didn't feel disgusted or whatsoever, "yeah, you're an admirable person."

he nods, then with curious eyes, he questions you, "why do say so?"

"i notice how you're always so diligent and i admire that. not to mention, you're one of the most gentlemen dude i know and that's really hard to find in young people these days."

he was listening to everything you said intently and you somehow feel embarrassed after blurting everything out.

"it's funny how you say 'young people these days' like you're an old lady." he teases.

you pout, "aw come on, i was so cheesy for you and you chose to notice that part?"

the two of you let out small chuckles and then continue talking about other random stuffs.

overall, you two enjoyed talking to each other and got to know a lot about each other.

when the event was almost over, the two of you head in.

"yah park jihoon! c'mere bruh."

a boy who you know as one of your classmates pulls jihoon over and literally starts twerking in front of him.

jihoon looked like he wanted to bleach his eyes from whatever he was looking at and you couldn't help but felt a small amount of pity for him.

still, you decide to just sit back and watch jihoon, who was now taking up the role of a 'pole' in pole dancing, on the dance floor with his friend.

you found yourself staring at how handsome he is despite all the cringing his face did.

just before the whole event ended, jihoon somehow managed to escape his friend.

"well, wasn't that a show you guys put on"

he awkwardly smiles and scratches his head, something that you thought was adorable to watch.

"well-"

"jihoonie!"

the friend who literally dragged jihoon to dance with him called out among the crowd and jihoon could only sigh

you realize that slowly, people are starting to leave the place

"uh, i guess we should get going?" you suggest, though you wished the night could last forever

"yeah, i guess so. but um-"

before he could continue on, the dude who had a dance with jihoon starts pulling him away.

he stares at you apologetically while trying to pull away from the dude.

you smile, "it's alright. we still can see each other on monday, right?"

with that, jihoon's face lightens up as he smiles too, "yeah, we can."

then, jihoon allowed himself to be pulled away by his friend

when you got back home, you took your time to wash up

then, lie on the bed and end up checking your phone, smiling when you see 'dance partner ;)' in your contacts.

you contemplated to text him something and thought for quite a while

you end up typing and sending, 'seriously though, you're a great dancer. thanks for dancing with me, i appreciate it. hope you rest well and see yaa.'

and surprisingly, you received a text almost immediately after you sent it.

'i enjoyed myself tonight, hope you did too. nights ;)'

the text was short and sweet

still, it manage to have an effect on you because your heart pinched a bit when you saw the wink face.

you deducted that somehow jihoon also thought of sending you a text because you literally received his text a second after you sent yours

and you knew your deduction was right when you receive another text from him

'hahahahaha glad you think so. its funny how we texted each other at the same time.'

you couldn't help but smile as you reply him, 'nahhh i was totally earlier than you heh xD'

not too long afterwards you receive a reply, 'i blame my wifi hahahaha.'

and before you could continue to text him, you see him sending in another text, 'hey, i'm gonna sleep now because i'm visiting my grandparents tomorrow and i'll have to take the morning train.'

'you mean the ones that used to slow dance together in the living room?'

'hahahah yeah, and they still do btw.'

'awww, i still can't get over the fact that they're so cute and sweet. hahahaha, goodnight btw. :))'

'sweet dreams ;) talk to you tmr.' he sent and once more you found yourself smiling widely.

your heart melted at the fact that he mentioned about talking to you tomorrow

with that, you fell asleep almost immediately, eager for a new day.

little did you know, park jihoon shared the same eagerness.

[the-fiction-witch]

Mummy P17

Media TMR X PHYSCO 1960s

Character Newt

Couple Newt X Reader

Rating Sad / Spooky/ Dark AF

Warnings stuff gets... bad, / rape/ sexual crimes/ sexual assult/ abuse/

I kneeled on the bathroom rug retching into the toilet bowl I had given up counting the days since discovering I was pregnant but it seemed like every time I looked down my stomach had grown bigger, I knew time was running out, each time my stomach grew even an inch I knew we had less time to find out way out before baby would be born. 

Newt had woken up with me and he gently put my hair into a braid to keep it out of my face, soothing his hands on my back, often muttering sweet things to me to try and help me feel better.

I got a moment of rest so I moved to sit on the rug and leaned my back against the bathtub

"You weren't this bad with JR" 

"I know.  I don't know why, but everything is just double as intense as with JR." 

"Double?"

"Sure feels like it."

"No. You- you can't be-"

"What?"

"Double as intense. Could be... double, Babies."

"Newt that's not how that works"

"You have been saying it's a lot worse, more intense, your stomach has been growing so much faster than it ever did with Jr" he says moving his hand to my stomach "Do you want me to?"

"Try," I nodded

"I'll be gentle" he reassured kissing my forehead he carefully pushed his hand on my stomach doing his best to feel across my stomach

"ahhh" I hissed

"I'm sorry. I don't want to hurt you" he says "One little one" he says and moves slightly to the other side "Two little ones." He says "I- I'm not the smartest boy and I could be wrong but I think there might be two"

"Two. Okay... two. That certainly means we are going to need some more things"

"We definitely will do."

"I'm sorry newt"

"Sorry? what on earth are you sorry for sugar cookie? If it's not true it's fine we get one little baby nothing will change if it is true and we get two, then we get two little ones to love." he smiled "I couldn't be happier if we get more little ones" 

"You do?"

"of course. I know it can't.... replace JR. Nothing ever will but it'll be nice to have, like our own little family"

"It will be newt" I smiled giving him a sweet kiss "I just hope they don't have to know this place"

"I hope so too. you ready to get back to bed now?"

"I think I need some juice from downstairs before bed"

"You get to bed I'll get it for you"

"It's alright I can go"

"Then at least let me come with you sugar cookie"

"I'll be fine newt" I smiled he helped me to my feet but stopped me before I reached the door

"What if she's downstairs." He says 

"I'm just getting juice newt."

"Yeah... you were just getting a drink last time." he says "I don't trust her alone with you. Not for a moment. Not after what she's done." 

"Okay, we'll go down together."

"Okay, hold my hand and please don't let go"

"I won't I promise" I smiled holding his hand tightly before we left the bathroom 

Newt held my hand in a tight grip, as we headed down the corridor and down the stairwell. We both breathed a sigh of relief when we found the living room and kitchen empty, "You check the door I'll make you some juice" Newt said kissing my head 

"Get the stuff out for waffles too"

"I will do Sugarcube" he smiled as he headed to the kitchen, I went and did our usual check of the door, the windows, the usual places we always checked but found nothing useful to us, I checked the chairs but all had been used to try and open the door so much if we used them any more they'd break, I checked the sofa and table but they where bolted to the floor as much as I hate Ava she was smart everything is bolted and screwed down so we couldn't move things. I stopped a moment as I saw a shoe box on the table, it was dusty with a few cobwebs on it I sat down where she usually sits and I opened the box finding it filled to the brim with pictures mostly polaroids of newts before I knew him, pictures of him playing, of him in the tub, of him with a man I could only guess was Janson and of course ava I moved deeper into the box finding a small box of his teeth, cuttings of his hair, little things she had collected over his life, I found a small hospital bracelet for WCKD Hospital Maternity department with a date across it

06/ 09 / 1939 Inpatient - 

For a moment I was puzzled but the piece of paper I found under it, a strong cream cardstock with watermarks and shiny holograms meaning it was official, it was a birth certificate. 

Birth: 07/ 09 / 1939 11:00am 

Sex: Male 

Given name/s: Isaac Lewis

Family Name: Anderson

Mother: Liza Anderson

Father: Simon Anderson 

"Newt?" I asked 

"Yeah?" He asked as he came over with my juice 

"Look," I told him handing him the paper 

"Uhhh... Isaac? Who's Isaac?"

"I think... that's you."

"me?"

"I think so."

"1939? That can't be I'd be- that would-"

"Make you Thirty years old newt." 

"I'm thirty!"

"Apparently"

"Why wouldn't my mother have told me that?" 

"I don't know, maybe if she made sure you didn't know how old you were you'd never grow up"

"How old are you?"

"What?"

"I can't believe I never asked how old are you?!"

"Uhh I'd be twenty-five now."

"I hope I'm not too old for you"

"I'll make an exception" I smiled giving him a kiss 

"Liza Anderson, You think that's my mother's name?"

"I guess it must be, I remember her saying your father's name was Simon."

"Simon, Simon Anderson. I never met him, I wonder if he was a nice man?"

"I hope he was," I said doing my best not to speak given I knew more than I should 

"I feel like I've heard the name Liza, once before."

"Maybe my mother told you once?"

"Maybe. I don't remember" 

"What is going on!" Her voice shouted as she rushed down the stairs we quickly tried to hide that we had seen what was in the box but it was too late "You! you wicked little girl how dare you look into my personal things!" she screamed coming to me and grabbing my hair forcing me down by the fire 

"You will not touch her!" Newt yelled forcing his mother from me and standing between us as tears welled up "why didn't you tell me?"

"Tell you what? Whatever she's told you are lies!"

"Paperwork doesn't lie mother!" He yelled back freezing her in place "All this time... and not once did you tell me his name. How many nights did I beg you to tell me about my father! I begged you for anything you could tell me, anything you could show me, anything at all. Not once you told me his name. I never knew the name of my father let alone the family name I should have!"

"He didn't want you! we had to go it alone my little baby that's why I never told you he didn't want you he didn't he left us-"

"I still wanna know! Whether or not he wanted me is irrelevant I begged you to tell me his name and you never did. You never told me Our family name. you never even told me my real birthday!"

"Of course I did-"

"I'm thirty years old!" He shouted "and I didn't even know that. you kept all of this from me for thirty years." 

"I- I hadn't realized it had been so long-"

"yes you did. Don't lie to me and tell me you didn't" He said "You never even told me my name... Let me guess my father picked it so as soon as he was gone you changed it?"

"why should I keep what that bastard called you! you were mine. mine alone. so I picked my baby a better name"

"My father named me. and you hid that from me. The only thing that could have kept me close to a man I never got to meet. And you... In your stubborn greed changed it. to something you'd prefer. Hid the reality away hoping I'd never find it."

"Newt dartling-"

"My name is Isaac! and you knew it. all this time, You've lied to me. You've hurt me. you've hurt the woman I love. I shouldn't even have her here with me if it wasn't for you!" He yelled tears streaming 

"I'm sorry my dartling I truly am-"

"no! No you're not sorry you can never be sorry for this!" He yelled, "Unlock the door."

"What?" she asked

"Unlock the front door. Tell me where the key is and open the door. We're leaving."

"No- No you can't leave me" she begged to try to hug him but he forced her away

"OPEN THE DOOR!" He screamed, "Open the door, Now. and let us go or I will force it open and I don't care what I break."

"You can't leave"

"I warned you. and I gave you more chance when you deserved. Open the door. Or else." 

"You can't leave me" she cried

"Fine" He snapped as he marched to the table picked up the strongest of the chairs and threw it with all his strength at the front door and I heard the clink of a broken door lock, the door still bolted but this proved the door would open but before he could land another blow I screamed as she grabbed my hair and dress forcing my face inches from the flames of the fire "Let her go!"

"Drop. the chair Darling" 

"You hurt her I'll use this on you"

"You wouldn't dream to hurt your mummy newtie"

"Wanna bet?" he asked "Let. Her. go." 

"You won't leave, without your precious little wife" She said she grabbed a scarf that had been left over the sofa and used it to tie my hands so tight I had no escape she forced me to the basement door unlocking it and opening the door with a creek "You open that door she goes with the rest of your broken toys"

"Let her go. and I'll put the chair down. That fair?"

"Alrtight" she smiled before she threw my body down the stairs hitting the washing machine at the bottom it was a miracle nothing was broken or at least I didn't think it was

"Y/N!" Newt yelled dropping the chair and bolting down the stairs to hold me "Arte you okay?"

"Yeah, I think so" I nodded 

"You will not leave me." Her voice said and as we turned she stood at the top locking the door to the rest of the house with a butcher knife in her hand 

"Put the knife down" he tried to reason with her 

"You will not leave me" she muttered tears falling as she came down the stairs putting the knife at a point forcing us to step back until my back hit the ice cold of the basement room. 

"You're my mother. I don't want to hurt you. But if you don't let us go-"

"You will not leave me!" she screamed grabbing the door behind us forcing it open and kicking us inside so our bodies landed on the floor before we could get to court feet she rushed in and picked up the chains that used to hold me all those years ago she used one to connect my ankle to the left wall and the other to connect newts wrist to the right wall we tried to fight but it was too late we tried to reach for once another but fully stretched we were only an inch apart "You're my baby. I don't want to hurt you. I've never wanted to hurt you. But the man she had made you... is not my son anymore. Both of you still stay down here until your attitude is adjusted" she said 

"Let us go!" I screamed "Please!"

"Let her go, you can keep me here forever if that's what you want but please... please just let y/n go." Newt begged 

"I will give you three chances. if by the third your attitudes are not adjusted... you can join your son by the roses" she said before she slammed the door locking it behind her. 

I sat my body weak and tried, we hadn't eaten, we had barely slept, and all the while I was stretched as far as possible but still we could not hold one another. I don't know how long we had been down here but the days had lost meaning, she would visit to torment us to ask us if we were willing to submit to her and her rules but we would not, she would give us the scraps of food and water enough to keep us alive and nothing more, she had beaten us, tortured us, and things I would not dare to recall, mostly to me as a way to hurt him, but he was not left unscathed either by her horrors, we knew the next time she came would be our third chance... and we knew what would happen when we denied her again. 

"My mother is a monster..."

"I mean-"

"No. there is nothing else. She is a monster." He explained, "And all this time I never knew... I... I just thought my mother was normal, that this was normal, that my life was normal..."

"I-I'm sorry newt."

"Sorry? Sugar cookie you open my eyes. Without you... I'd have become my mother. I would have lived thinking she was normal, thinking all this was how life was meant to be," He said tears slipping down his face, "Without you... I'd be a monster worse than her."  

"I don't think that's true,"

"No?"

"No. Even in the deepest of her madness, you have always had... at least a shred of humility, I do not think you would have been a monster worse than her... I think even without me, In time you would have seen her for what she is." I explained, "I am sorry I revealed it-"

"Don't be. Please don't be sorry for what you've done. you let me see beyond the silk and softness I viewed my mother and showed me her spikes." He explained, "To think of all she has done to me, all I thought was normal." He cried, 

"Newt-"

"I am a thirty-year-old man, I have never met my father, I have never been outside this fucking house! My mother has coddled me and indulged me more than she ever should, she bathed me, dressed me, and breastfed me even after I told her I didn't want to anymore she still fed me it in secret, and she ripped out my teeth, she made me sit on her lap, made me beg like a child, made me sleep in her bed with her, she convinced me that mothers pleasure their sons and she did it EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT." he explained through his tears, "She is a monster... the most vile monster in this world, and she did it all... because she loved me." He explained "She kidnapped people for me. She kept a man who wished for death just to give me company... She took you, chained you up, tortured you... just to please me." 

"Newt... It's not your fault. You're mother and her madness are not your fault"

"Yes, they are." He said, "If it wasn't for me... she would never have done this... if it wasn't for me, Tommy would still be alive. Janson would still be alive. Lilly would still be okay. and you... Y/n, My sweet sugar cookie, you would be home, with your family, we may never have met, you would never have had to suffer, our child... Jr... he... he wouldn't ever have existed, nor the child you hold now. All of this pain... all of this suffering she has inflicted... for me. It is my fault. it is all my fault. Her attempts to keep me happy, to keep me small, young, sweet, passive, to keep me her happy child. My joy has caused nothing but suffering."

"... I think your right," I nodded, "But- like you said, I would not be here, I would not be with you, and Newt even after all of this I love you endlessly, I carry your child inside me at this moment, and I do not wish it away, your joy has brought us together, brought us joy and brought life. Even though the suffering and pain." I explained, "Newt... You cannot prevent evil, you can only try to make enough good in this world to counter it out even just for a few moments." I told him, "Even just the fact you know she is a monster and you are trying to distance yourself from her and her cruelty, makes you a better man."

"All thanks to you. I mean it... truly, without you. I don't know what hell I'd be in." He said, "I have never for a moment deserved you and your love. and it just makes me... so desperate to never lose you."

"Well, we don't have to worry about that." I sighed looking at your chains,

"No matter what, no matter what she does to us... I will not lose you." He said reaching out as close as he could, "No matter what happens... together." he cried,

I nodded tears flooding down my face as I too reached out our fingers inches from one another, "Together." 

"Dinner time." Her voice rang from the top of the stairs,

[the-fiction-witch]

Mummy P16

Media TMR X PHYSCO 1960s

Character Newt

Couple Newt X Readert

Rating Sad / Spooky/ Dark AF

Warnings stuff gets... bad, / rape/ sexual crimes/ sexual assult/ abuse/

I woke to the usual shadow on the ceiling of the window and its bars,  

"Morning," Newt spoke up. 

I sat up a little puzzled as to why he wasn't in bed, he was standing at the wardrobe and chest of draws with a laundry basket folding and putting away the freshly cleaned clothes, 

"Morning? What are you doing?" I asked sitting up fully leaning my back on the headboard. 

"Putting laundry away?" he chuckled

"I- I didn't know you knew how to do that?" I asked, 

"I feel somewhat offended" He laughed 

"I'm sorry newt I've just never seen you do... housework before, let alone laundry?" I explained "I didn't know you knew how to do it"

"I know how to do it sugar cube"

"I had to teach you a lot of things you can't blame me for being unsure what you do and don't know newt"

"That's fair" he nodded "I didn't know to be honest, I've seen you do it so much I just kinda figured it out, Mummy is out said she had to go get something from the shops she wouldn't tell me what, I went around the house again still can't find a damn key and I did try to break the door but the chair was going to give before the door so that was a bust." he explained "I didn't want to wake you so I did the laundry"  

I smiled climbing out of bed and wrapping my arms around him as he folded the laundry "Ummmm You're learning so much"

"I have a very good teacher" he cooed "I have to learn can't be reliant on you and mummy for everything," he said "I'll have to do housework sometimes when we have our own little house won't I? Can't leave it all to my lovely wife"

"I mean, you don't have an education newt? I do. and I did have a job."

"Good point..." he nods "hhuuuu! I can be a househusband" he smiled excitedly

"You could if that's what you'd like newt" I smiled 

"I need to learn to cook," He said "So my lovely wifey can go off to work, I can clean the house, do the laundry and have dinner waiting for my sugar cube when she gets home" he smiled cuddling me back 

"You'd really want that?"

"Of course, unless of course, I'm going to school which would be nice there are so... gaps in my knowledge"

"Well see," I smiled giving him a kiss "Let me finish-"

"No no it's fine I got it," he said finishing the last of the laundry "Could maybe... I pick out your dress?"

"You always do" 

"I know I enjoy it" he smiled he went to the wardrobe and pulled out a sweet green dress he laid out my clothes and as usual helped me get dress 

"Ummm warm" I smiled

"fresh from the dryer for my little sugar cube" He smiled kissing my head as he finished the last two buttons on the dress "Now, there is another load going round the machine but that's got a good hour left, so what would you like to do today?"

"Lets go have another look at that door" I smiled "And I'll make you some waffles" I gave him a kiss and headed out the bedroom

"Waffles!" he smiled basically chasing after me "I love you!"

 I sat on the toilet as usual Ava had dragged me out of bed to sit there, she was leant on the doorframe waiting as I had now taken two tests and they needed to process beside the small egg timer on the sink, Newt sat on the edge of the bathtub glaring at her 

"Is this really necessary?" he asked

"Yes" she snapped

"There is no need," He says "I've told you we don't need to"

"Well I like to check" 

"Y/n isn't pregnant. She can't be." 

Just then the timer went off so she grabbed the tests and checked them 

"Look all you want she's not pregnant we haven't-"

"All perfect, congratulations dear" she smiled handing me over the test I grabbed it in shock seeing the two pink lines as clear as day

"That... that's not possible" 

"She's not pregnant, she can't be pregnant we haven't-" He complained as he checked the test too I didn't know what to do trying to wrap my head around how this was possible "What did you do?" 

"How dare you accuse-" 

"What did you do mother! what did you do, Tell me now. Because I know for a fact she can't be pregnant unless there is something you want to tell me" 

she looked sheepish "I just wanted you to be happy"

"What did you do!"

"You were so happy when she was pregnant. I wanted you to be happy, I wanted to make sure you got the best gift in the world" she explained 

"What did you do!" he screamed 

"You wouldn't listen to me! and get her pregnant on your own"

"What did you do! tell me now!" 

"I...aided the process." 

"You what?"

"I...helped things along"

"Let me guess while we were sleeping?" I asked 

"Yes," she says 

"You- how, tell me how," he says

"Well, darling-"

"Tell me!"

"Well I knew you needed to have a baby soon, I just wanted to make you happy again after what happened, So I made you a special dinner to make sure you'd sleep through the night" she explained

"You- you drugged us?" I asked 

"Well... just-"

"You drugged us!" He yelled, "You drugged us, you fed us food that would intentionally put us to sleep so we wouldn't wake up, while you did what exactly?"

"I gathered a sample and made sure it reached where it needed"

I didn't know how to react how to respond utterly frozen 

"You brought us downstairs, fed us dinner that you knew was laced with things to put us to sleep, you drugged us, you came into our room while we were unconscious, you forced me to orgasm without consent took that into what?"

"A turkey baster" she admits 

"You took it into a turkey baster and used it to forcibly impregnate my wife without consent while she too was unconscious even after we explicitly told you we didn't want to get pregnant. Is this what happened?"

"Yes, but I-"

"No. No, but! there is not a but after what you've done! what about that do you not understand! you're only getting more and more crazy and I am not dealing with this anymore! I am giving you one more chance you back off, grow up, and stop this absolute madness. or we are leaving and I promise you will never see us again except possibly from a window of whatever metal hospital they throw you in. You are sick. and it needs to stop. if you want to be a part of this child's life you will do as I ask."

"Wha-...what's happened to you? what's happened to my sweet little baby boy, I have had you in my arms since the moment you were born... and I don't recognize you. I don't know or even understand the boy before me."

"You just can't accept the man I've become."

"This is you're fault! you evil witch what have you done to my son!" she yelled trying to reach for me but immediately Newt stepped between us and pushed his mother to the bathroom floor "ahhhhhhhh!" she screamed 

"Enough. We're going to our room you will calm down or else" he warns her "You okay?" He asked and I nodded he took me in his arms and picked me up carrying me to our bedroom "What do we do?" he asked shutting the door and sitting me on the bed he put his hand through his hair 

"We stay for now. if she behaves"

"If she calms down"

"But we keep looking"

"We keep looking for a way out. and you and I only eat what we cook"

"Absolutely"

"and we lock our door"

"How?"

"Use the chair." he says "I'm not letting her near you not now your pregnant again"

"I'm sorry-"

"Sorry? What on earth are you sorry for? you've done nothing wrong sugarcookie I promise, I'm not angry at you not at all, I just want to keep you safe you and our little one" he says kissing my stomach 

I stood frying up some bacon for breakfast making sure not to let it stick or burn, Newt's arms wrapped around me his hands on my hard stomach yet to be a real bump but he was enjoying it still, his head in my neck often swaying us as we listened to the music on the radio. 

"Ahhh!" I hissed as the oil spit out from the pan and hit my hand 

"Whoa! You okay?" He asked in a panic 

"Yeah it just spits it all Newt" I answered shaking my hand in hope of ending the pain 

"let me look," he said taking my hand and checking it over "Aww my poor sugar cookie, you need to be careful," he said kissing my hand 

"That's very sweet newt, but I can't be too careful or I'll never get anything done"

"I know, sorry I'm just worried about you. Especially given everything" He says "I can't help feeling protective over you" 

"I know newt, it's okay" I smiled "Where is she anyway?"

"In her bedroom. She's pouting because I asked her to go out and get us some stuff"

"She can pout all she wants, we're not using your old crib. it's not safe I swear I got a splinter just looking at it"

"I know, she's just unhappy about it. You know what she's like"

"True, did you want to go up? check on her"

"No. I'm here helping my wife make breakfast, she wants to see me she can bring her pouty butt down here,"

"What if she's hurt? or sick?"

"Then she'll call for me." he says "Maybe we'll get lucky and she'll reveal the location of the front door key as her last words"

"Newt!"

"Yeah we wouldn't be so lucky." he sighed "I've turned this house upside down, I swear to god she's keeping the key up her-"

"Newt!" I giggled

"what? it's the only place I haven't checked. I'm starting to wonder if that's on purpose" 

"She wou-" I began but stopped short

"what?"

"I was going to say she wouldn't but."

"but?"

"I don't know what that woman would do"