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@badtrigger : send me ‘👀’ for something my muse has said about yours to someone else / when they’re not around. // bri about mac ~ ft. gansukh ✿
What a strange lady. The stocky privateer thinks as he trudges behind Rooks’ occasional visitor. Hard not to be baffled by how measured her gait keeps in a pair of squeaky clean “city boots” despite her petite form being burdened with so many bags. A carry-on suitcase rolls at her side with a tote bag attached to its top, a backpack on her back, and a large shopping tote filled with several boxes in one hand. If that wasn’t enough, he’s carrying another of her belongings to the helipad, a heavy cardboard box.
With every step, whatever's inside clanks, and more so when he sets it down on a nearby crate. The sound prompts Brianne to scurry over and take a worried peek under the lid just to make sure none of the bottles cracked en route. What a spicy mess that would make. With all appearing intact, it’s without hesitance that she takes one out and offers it to her impromptu porter.
“Here.” Concern dissipates and is replaced with a grateful smile. “It's not much but, a thank you for your assistance. It’s hot sauce if you fancy it.” A popular South Asian brand of chili table sauce that she brought to pass out to the pirates on the North Island — a little gift to build rapport among Montenegro's cutthroat crew (easier said than done).
Gansukh wouldn’t say no to a gift and so he accepts it, even if his brow furls in question. After a brief peruse of the double red flame design on the label, he lifts a curious stare at her. “So ah. This a whole case of the same then?”
“Yes, uhm.” Stilted she starts, hands wringing at her front. “It’s for the men up north. I hand them out.”
“Ah. Those some lucky guys, hey?” Joking reply sits just shy of asking why she didn’t bring a case for the men here.
At least that is what Brianne assumes, even if she shouldn’t need to explain her rationale (she does deal with Mister Montenegro more than she does Mister Volker after all). Shoulders tense as she manages a defense anyway. “Well. They really don’t have the supplies you boys do. And their food is surprisingly worse.” If she’s to be honest, there’s a clear distinction between the South and the North in more ways than this. The infrastructure just isn’t there and all of it seems unreasonable considering they are on the frontlines with the indigenous inhabitants.
With lips pursed, the privateer gives her a series of accepting nods. That’s fine if she thinks that, but he can’t let something else she said stand. “C’mon now. Worse there maybe, but the food here, not so bad if you ask me.”
While spoken lightly, that wasn't the kickback Brianne expected. She tries to erase her faux pas with a chuckle. “Oh. You're probably right.” Sight instinctively turns to search in the direction the helicopter usually flies in. Is it late?
He knows it’s time to get back to his post, but the man can’t help but think of his best friend. Gotta get a read on this fancy chic. “So ah," he begins, rubbing his stubbly chin, "You think you can spare a second for my buddy?”
“Your buddy?” Sight drags back with the unnecessary question riding on an held exhale. She knows who he means. Mac Mays, the chatty blonde chef she met on her first day here in the canteen.
“Yeah, you know, Mays. He’d actually be able to put it to use being a chef and all.”
“Uh.” Some discomfort has her shifting the position of the shopping tote next to her luggage. It holds Mister Montenegro’s expensive liquor and gifts for Mister Moncada, who loans his living quarters (unfortunately against his will, she knows now). They both get more than just hot sauce and for good reason. She honestly doesn’t want to start giving gifts to random privateers. It could be easily misconstrued. But then, denying this request would look rather petty. It’s just one bottle of sauce, isn’t it?
“Well, I can give you two bottles for your help and you can decide what to do with the second one.” Hinting to please not say it’s directly from her to him.
“Cool. I know he’ll appreciate it. Or I will when I make him cook something to put it on." Amusement is chased with a hardy laugh straight from the gut. Gansukh isn't blind to the benefit of having a friend in the kitchen. "So ah, think it's got some heat?" He wonders when the second bottle finds his hand.
"Oh, I'm afraid you will have to tell me, but I would assume so. Hopefully you don't offend the chef by covering his food in it."
"Eh." His unburdened hand dismissively waves away her worry. "Mays can make something that it works with. He's a damn good chef, nice guy too. But yeah, thanks again."
"No no, thank you for your help, Mister Batbayar. Hope you have a lovely day."
#badtrigger#long post.#v ( far cry 3 ) .#( answers ) .#npc ( gansukh batbayar ) .#(( bri is so awkward alone with these guys lol ;; ))
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Read Me - Chanyeol x Reader
(I’ve never done a fic about a real person, so it feels a lil’ weird, but this very cute tree baby has absorbed all of my attention, so I wrote this little scene with him. I swear his laughing alone could cure my depression lol Anyhoo~ as always, Y/N=your name. I would love love love it if you enjoy the oneshot to let me know! Hopefully I’ve portrayed PCY in as realistic a way as possible [without knowing him personally and only watching videos, obvs.] I’m thinking of doing a long fic, maybe a CYO with all the members, like I usually do haha EXOXO, Bri)
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“Aishh! Wae wae wae…?”
You slanted your eyes up at the other side of the couch, your attention drawn away from the tablet resting in one hand. You placed your mug of tea down on the glass coffee table nearby, plush blanket slipping a little down your thighs. You leaned forward, elbows pressing against your knees, tablet discarded against the cushions. You spider-walked your fingers up your companion’s arm to get his attention, fingers catching on the bumpy texture of his big, cozy sweater. He turned his head in your direction, eyes wide and pillow lips shaped into a pout that would outdo a child’s. You had to stifle a laugh.
“Did something bad happen to Yumi?” You sucked in your lips to hide a grin. He nodded vigorously, one hand clenched around his mobile while his fingernails lazily tickled across your legs—they were draped across his lap, after all. You reached forward to stop him, and his eyes popped again like he’d been caught with a hand in the cookie jar. His sheepish, apologetic smile melted you instantly. You scooted closer to him, running a hand up the back of his neck into his hair. His eyes closed at your touch.
“Babi is being frustrating again. I wish he could have courage to act on his interest in her. They are great for each other!” The pout returned, more petulant than ever. Giggles finally poured out of your mouth and you leaned against his shoulder as you felt the pang hit your stomach. When you were finally able to look at him again, you were still grinning.
“But Yeolie, think about how much trouble you had asking me out! You’re the idol king of charm! Imagine how hard it must be for an awkward co-worker like him!”
“Aishh, don’t start with me, mean princess! Totally different situations!” He stuck out his tongue in protest. Your head fell back as more laughter bounced you in your seat. Even though he was clearly trying to feign offense, there was a starry twinkle of fondness in your boyfriend’s eyes as he watched your expression of amusement. He reached out and grabbed you by the chin, which halted your giggle fit. You looked at him sternly.
“You know I don’t like when you call me that. I’m only teasing.” A blush sprinkled across your cheeks. He tugged you forward and pressed his soft mouth against your forehead, which only made you grow redder. His face drifted down until your foreheads were resting against each other. His warm breath fanned out over your face, rustling your eyelashes and your pulse. You opened your eyes and found his looking deep into your soul. It was kind of intense, like he was reading your thoughts that way. A smile tugged at the corner of your lips, and he returned it more brightly than the sun. He leaned back a little, still within breathing distance, forefinger tracing your collarbone tenderly. The smile faded back into the childish expression from before.
“I know. It’s just your nature to poke fun at me. You’re not mean princess anymore,” he closed his eyes again for a moment, nose wrinkling slightly at old thoughts, “Just my princess. I’m lucky. Mianhae.” He took your hand that was resting against him and kissed the inside of your wrist in sincere apology. Your heart thumped so loudly you could’ve sworn he’d hear it. You leaned forward and nuzzled your face into his neck; even sitting down he was taller than you, with a perfect long trunk to snuggle into. His arm slid from the top of the couch around your back, rubbing in a soothing rhythm.
“Well, this princess is lucky to have a prince like you, and don’t you forget it. We roast each other all the time anyway. That’s our thing. What did you promise me?” A beat.
“We should always laugh together as much as possible. I remember, baby.” His fingers tangled in your hair and you smiled wide against his skin. He really was something else.
“I hope I can always make you laugh, Chanyeol…the way you do for me. This probably sounds cheesy, but when I see you laughing, I feel like you’re not just some perfect being, from EXO planet, of course. You’re a real guy with real emotions and you find joy in things just like the rest of us regular folk. And your laughter is boundless! It seems like you could laugh for days without stopping and not be tired. I love it.” You chuckled through your nose, the image of Chanyeol rocking back and forth overtaken with laughter filling your headspace.
You felt your head tilt back again as he gently pulled on your hair to reorient your face to him. You blinked owlishly, lids sliding down halfway. His pout sank against yours, erasing anything from your thoughts and rooting you firmly in the moment. Your chest pressed against his side and his firm grip around your waist dragged you fully into his lap. His lips worked over yours at every angle while you wound your arms around his neck. After a few moments, his lips trailed down your jaw to your neck before his chin came to rest on your shoulder. You glanced down at him, a little disappointed that he’d stopped.
A little smirk curled up his lips, portending a quip or something similar.
“Y/N, you shouldn’t be distracting me on Webtoon Wednesday, neh?”
“Me?! You’re the one who interrupted Amy’s dramatic exchange with her mom with your whining! Listen… I’ll show you a distraction, Park Seongnim!” You grumbled before rotating slightly in his lap and tackling him down against the sofa in one swift movement. You reached for the hands clasping you and drew them up, pinning them above his head. The surprise in his eyes dissolved into a look of lust. Noticing your tablet was slipping into the crack of the couch, you snatched it up with one hand and put it next to your forgotten mug. Turning back to Chanyeol, you slowly lowered your face to meet his. Spirit Fingers could wait. You were going to enjoy your real-life webtoon for a bit.
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(That’s the end! I was having so much trouble thinking of what nickname for the reader to call PCY. I watched this BTS of Chanyeol’s fragrance photoshoot for W Magazine where he’s obsessively reading Yumi’s Cells the whole time and, since I am also an avid purveyor of webtoons, I wanted to make up a scenario where he and his reader S.O. spend afternoons off from their busy schedule catching up on their reading together. Sometimes I like cute little fluffy moments that are more mundane haha Have you read any Webtoons? Sound off with your faves in the comments so I can add them to my queue!
#chanyeol x reader#park chanyeol#exo fanfic#domestic au#my writing#webtoon#yumi's cells#spirit fingers#exo fluff#pcy#exo imagines#exo chanyeol#exo boyfriend#yeollie
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the first appearance of light in the sky before sunrise
before you read i just wanted to say thank you soooooo much to bri for being the most amazing cohost and my voice of reason these past 6+ months and putting up with me (y’all seriously have no idea lol). thank you to everyone who participated in oc6 and for helping make it the fun mess it was with your amazing characters. this fic is is trash but it’s what i’ve got. thank you to bri and ester for editing. my watch has ended.
-anna🙃
HELLO OC6ERS. this has been quite an interesting selection, hasn’t it? and yes. i did put up with anna but it was fun most of the time :) i can’t believe y’all roped me into this hosting thing a second time around, but it’s been a hoot. i hope you enjoyed safiya, wylan, jackson, and my evil villains as much as i did. and to bertha and myr!!!! y’all!!!!!!! idk how your characters have managed to make arin fairly decent in my eyes but you have. quite the feat. many thanks to anna for listening to my screeching advice most of the time, to anya for making the loveliest lady for jackson, and to ester, my homie, for making idalia--the most perfect match for wylan that could ever exist. it’s been WONDERFUL. see you guys next round!!!
-bri <3
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October was the hardest before Arin had readjusted to the silence. Everything had gone from chaos to calm in an instant and he hadn’t realized the ways he’d gotten used to it. He’d look for the familiar faces of the Selected only to be disappointed when he remembered that everyone had gone home.
He often wondered what Clemence and Jen would think of the choice he’d made to send them home, followed by too much silence on his part. Arin felt selfish because of the regret he felt for missing them both but he still knew it was the break they all needed. He’d put their lives on hold for months and hadn’t given them as much as he could have during that time. So he was trying to give them the space and time they needed to heal from the damage of the Selection.
Then came November with its highs and lows. Arin spent so many sleepless nights alone in his bed staring up at the ceiling thinking about his mistakes. He thought of how controlling he’d been with Felicity and what it had done to her, how devastated Jen had been when she thought he was eliminating her, the way Clem had been heartbroken when they’d said goodbye… But he was trying to be better. He’d gotten back into running, he’d finally started seeing a therapist again, he cooked for himself. Some days he’d go to the library on campus and spend a few hours doing his work in one of the study rooms before returning to the palace. Others he’d spend in back to back meetings with advisors discussing Illéa’s transition into a casteless society. Still, there was always a lingering empty feeling inside him. Then a call came.
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It was the quietest Christmastime that Arin could remember there ever being in his home. Servants were still rushing around as they tried to put the final touches on the decorations. The majority of palace staff would soon go on vacation through the beginning of the new year and it would only grow quieter. There wasn't the same level of excitement there usually was during the holiday season.
There was a soft knock at the door and he straightened in his chair while he set aside what he was working on. He glanced down at his watch as he called for her to enter. She was early but only by a few minutes. When she slipped inside the office he noticed she'd kept her jacket on, which meant she didn’t plan on staying long.
He took a deep breath as she walked towards the desk, trying not to think about the last time she'd been in his office. When she’d kissed him in front of Clem. That hurt to think about but for different reasons than it had at the time. When she reached the desk she didn’t sit. Felicity merely raised her eyebrows at him in anticipation.
“Thanks for coming.” He gave her a nervous smile. “It means a lot to me.”
There was some skepticism in the look she gave him when he motioned for her to sit. She even glanced around the office to see if they were alone as if it was all a trick. Then her eyes met his again but still, she remained standing. It gave him somewhat of an uneasy feeling but he ignored it since she was likely uncomfortable as well.
“I know Christmas is over a week away but I wanted to give you your gift early since we won’t be doing things the usual way this year.”
Some of the awkwardness slipped away and Arin could feel the hint of the friendship they’d once had. He’d forgotten how good that felt. For a moment they were who they’d been before they’d ever been Arin & Felicity. They were two childhood friends sharing a moment that was nothing but platonic. He’d missed the sense of ease between them.
He thought about the way things usually were on Christmas. Every year his parent’s friends would come over at some point for a few hours to visit and they’d exchange gifts. When they'd been younger all the kids would play and Felicity had been among them. With everything that had happened they had decided it would be for the best to skip the year’s celebration.
This year the Schreaves would likely attend the Christmas Eve service at church before returning home for a somber meal. Then afterward they would gather in the family room for an hour or two before they all went their separate ways. As for Christmas morning… Well, that was one big question mark. So many things were those days. It was all one day at a time.
“I didn’t get you anything.” She gave him an apologetic look which he waved off.
“Well, I didn’t either.”
Arin glanced over at his desk drawer, taking a moment for himself before he reached down to open it. This moment had been such a long time coming and he was ready. He pulled the little velvet box from where it had been sitting for almost a year and set it on the desk. Felicity’s eyes widened with recognition as he slid the small box towards her. She swallowed hard, one hand going up to cover her lips as she only stared at it. He couldn’t help but smile a bit at the reaction, knowing her well enough that he was able to tell she was far from upset.
“Lis, I’ll always love you no matter where we are or who we’re with, you know that.” It felt good for him to say what he knew he’d been feeling the last couple of months. “But only as a friend. I’ve known you longer than almost anyone in my life and you aren't someone I could ever replace. But we aren’t the same people we were five years ago or even last year and we both know that’s for the better.”
Felicity reached up and wiped at her eyes, huffing a laugh before she mumbled something about how unfair he was being. Her eyes met his as she picked up the ring box, one thumb brushing over the top with fondness. She was silent for a few moments while she enjoyed the familiarity of the velvet against her skin.
“I know things are busy this year but please don’t put off getting her present. It’s your first Christmas.” She looked down at the ring box with a soft smile.
He could tell how much it meant to her that he’d given it back. Given how things had ended between them proper etiquette was that she return the ring and she had. But what was Arin going to do with it? He couldn’t propose with it or ever give it to his future… spouse, which meant that it would only end up tucked away in some corner of the vault collecting dust.
Felicity didn’t know that Arin had yet to figure out what he was going to do. Not that she would since they didn’t speak often and he wasn’t sure how much his sister told her. It was a reasonable assumption that he’d have made a decision by now even though there’d been no announcement. There'd been so much going on recently that Arin's priority wouldn't have been that, which Felicity knew.
“It doesn’t matter since I’m not sure when I’ll see her next anyway. Jen is with her family in Waverly for Christmas.”
Arin paused at that as he processed what he’d said. He replayed the sentence in his head to make sure he’s said what he thought he had. Then he narrowed his eyes at Felicity. She hadn’t taken her eyes off him.
“What did I say?” He asked somewhat cautiously.
She gave him a confused look as if she didn’t understand the question. Then seeing that she’d heard him right she frowned.
“You said Jen is in Waverly for Christmas.” She answered. “Is there a problem?”
Arin tugged at his collar. He began to count in his head as he took a steadying breath. He knew Felicity was someone he could talk to but not about this. Not yet. Maybe one day they’d completely go back to the way they were before they’d been together but they weren’t there yet.
“Nothing’s wrong. I’m sorry to keep things so short but I have a meeting in a few minutes,” Arin told her.
He didn’t but he glanced at his watch anyway. She knew him well enough to know it was Arin telling her he needed to be alone. Felicity nodded in understanding but didn’t move quite yet. Then she stepped around his desk, giving the box a couple gentle taps against the surface. She stood there a few more moments but then she shook her head, changing her mind about what she was going to ask him.
“Merry Christmas, Arin.” She said in a hushed voice, then turned to leave.
Arin leaned back in his chair once she was gone, a million thoughts running through his mind. He thought about the two women who had become his world over the past couple of months. Both were kind and wonderful. But he couldn’t be with both of them. When he thought about Jen he couldn’t help but smile and feel warm inside. She had a way of lighting up everything around her and making it all feel so alive. Then there was Clem who was soft and sweet and reminded him that he could always keep going. When she looked at Arin he felt like his mistakes meant nothing and all would be forgiven.
Each woman meant more to him than he could put into words. They’d seen Arin as he was and they still wanted him despite it all. Through the ups and downs, they’d stood by him, giving him their time and love. He’d known for some time that he was in love as well but up until then, he’d thought it possible he had equal feelings for them both. He’d been searching for an answer and there she was. She’d been in front of him all along.
He had the vague memory of telling her that she wouldn’t ever be happy with him but that didn’t feel so true anymore. So much had happened since then. She'd seen him at his worst and together they’d gone through more in the span of a few weeks than most couples went through in years. Jen had become someone he relied on and turned to when things were hard. She’d held him that night in the kitchen when he’d burnt the cookies, she’d tried her best to comfort him when he’d been sick in the Great Hall after they’d somehow stayed alive, and she’d been behind him every step of the way during the funeral procession. Even when she'd broken up with him she'd been the person he'd wanted to share it with.
Their moments weren’t always perfect and rarely turned out as planned but each one added up and made them who they were together. They’d had sad moments like when Jen had told him how well he’d done the day of his mother’s funeral. Then there had been the in-between moments like the day in the library when she’d told him what had happened with Ian. He’d been so careful and scared. But then there were the happy moments. There was the simplicity of painting with her in the attic, grocery shopping in a supermarket with narrow aisles, reaching for her in the middle of the night, the way she would laugh at his terrible jokes, so many things…
Arin thought of Felicity then. There had been love between them but at some point, over the past months, it had slipped away. Looking back on it, it didn’t feel the same way being with Jen felt. Somehow everything with Jen felt so much brighter and vivid. When he thought of her there was a pleasant heavy feeling in his chest and if he tried to imagine his life without her it felt meaningless. There were so many things unspoken between them and yet they both knew they were safe together. It only ever took one word.
He needed to think. It was Thursday and Arin had talked to Jen recently enough that he knew she’d be arriving back in Illéa on Monday. He had a weekend to figure out what he wanted to do if he even wanted to tell her that soon. Talking to someone would help but Wylan wouldn’t be the best person since he was with Jen and Arin didn’t want to put more on his plate. Wylan deserved to enjoy the rest of his vacation with his girlfriend- even if they had a third wheel.
Arin considered his mom but wanted someone more level-headed… so the obvious choice was Safiya.
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When Arin found his sister in the family room on the third floor, she was curled up on one of the couches beneath a blanket. She had her laptop resting on her lap, playing a movie. Safiya didn’t pause what she was watching as Arin walked towards her, a hint of a smile on his face. He could already tell she knew something was up as he sat on the couch across from her.
“Do you have a second?” He asked after watching her for a long moment.
Being curious, Safiya paused what she was watching with a nod and set her laptop down on the coffee table. She laid back down on her side, still snuggled beneath the blanket facing him.
“A few. It looks important”
Arin took a deep breath, leaning back against the cushions of the couch. He noticed how Safiya wasn’t sitting up the way she normally would have been but the past months had been hard on everyone, her especially. Not only had she lost a parent but so had Theo.
“It’s actually very important.” It’s actually about Jen. He smiled a bit.
Safiya’s smile matched his own as she tucked one hand against her cheek.
“Finally joining the club?” She wiggled her ring finger enough for him to notice.
Arin blushed at the suggestion. The thought had crossed his mind but hearing someone else bring it up made it feel more real. Most mentions of marriage with Jen had been brief and made as jokes. Yet that's what he wanted. He wanted to marry her one day and have a life. If that was what she still wanted with him.
“I don’t know…” Arin admitted, grimacing in embarrassment. “I haven’t talked to her yet. And she doesn’t know it’s her.”
“You should probably remedy that.” She told him, her voice calm as she spoke despite her growing smile.
Arin nodded in agreement. He had every intention of telling Jen- assuming she’d listen. He thought back to the conversation they’d had in the early hours of the previous morning. They’d had moments during the call where they’d been at odds but at the end of it, they’d been... them and it made him optimistic.
“She’s in Italy with Wylan right now and won’t be back for a couple more days.” Arin was grinning at that point. “So I have a bit of time to think.”
He knew all it would take was a text or a phone call or even getting on a plane but he needed to think things through. Arin was certain about Jen but he wanted to make sure he got things right. He had four days until she was back in Illéa which felt like too much time and not enough time all at once.
“I’m happy for you, you know,” Safiya told him in a quiet voice.
Arin chuckled a bit at the realization that he hadn’t said Jen’s name out loud a single time the entire conversation. Safiya was smart enough to know who he was talking about from the mention of Wylan since she knew about his trip. Still, Arin wanted to make sure they were on the same page.
“It’s Jen. I realize I should have led with that. Sorry.” Arin ran his fingers through his hair with some anxiousness. “It’s been a weird day.”
He paused, taking a moment to consider his next words more carefully. It was a delicate topic that most people had grown used to tiptoeing around with him. He hadn’t told anyone what his plans had been with Felicity though he’d mentioned he'd be seeing her that afternoon to Jen during a conversation. She’d asked how he’d felt because he’d been so nervous and she could tell something was off.
“I just came from giving Felicity her engagement ring back.”
Safiya raised her eyebrows at that. Arin was sure she’d be hearing about from Felicity at it some point. It was possible she already knew since Felicity would have had time to text Safiya and she’d been waiting for him to bring it up. Though he figured was unlikely.
“Oh? Did that go well?” She asked.
He furrowed his eyebrows briefly as he thought back to when he'd returned the ring. Arin focused on those last moments before Felicity left and the way she’d stepped around the desk. Then there’d been the hesitation. That was the only part of the interaction he had any uncertainty over but he kept that to himself and nodded in response to his sister’s question.
“It went surprisingly well. She seemed to appreciate it.” He answered, stopping a moment to bite at his lip. “It felt right since I didn't have any use for it.”
“I don’t think Jen would appreciate a ring given to your former fiancée,” Safiya replied with more of her usual snark.
“Is this a bad time to tell you that I've already bought her a brand new ring that looks exactly the same?” Arin smirks a bit as he speaks. “I thought her only issue would be that it's used.”
Safiya half snorted and shifted onto her back to face towards the ceiling. Arin wondered if she was feeling well but didn’t dare ask. His sister had the best handle on her health out of anyone he knew. But still, he worried about her.
“You’ve reached the end and yet still so much to learn.”
“Don't worry, I haven't given the ring a single thought considering she broke up with me a few weeks ago.” He sighed. “I have that mess to fix first.”
“Is that what made you realize she’s who you want to be with?” Safiya gave him a sideways glance.
Arin rubbed at his forehead, feeling like it would overcomplicate things to explain how the conversation had gone. She’d only been the person who gave him the push in the right direction. Even if he couldn’t pinpoint the moment he’d fallen in love with Jen it certainly hadn’t been twenty minutes ago in an office with his ex-fiancée.
“Not quite. I’m sure that helped but there was this moment with Felicity where it was so easy like we were friends again. Maybe I just needed to let go.”
“Sometimes it takes letting go to realize what you want to hold onto.” She hummed, eyes going back to the ceiling.
Arin frowned as he went over his sister’s words. He thought back to the attack in the Great Hall, remembering the moments of uncertainty and the whispers in the chaos. She’d told him that she loved him for the first time. Jen had told him since as well, even when things had gone wrong on their Greece trip. Even then.
“I’ve already lost her more than once and if she’ll take me back and I think she will, I don’t ever want to let her go.”
“So... what did you come here to ask me?” She nodded before asking more quietly. “Or did you just want to let me know?”
“I came to tell you because you're my sister and one of my best friends…” He paused and huffed a laugh. “But right now I'd kind of like you to tell me what to do because some crazy part of me wants to drop everything and fly to Italy and sweep her off her feet but I don't feel like that's the right move.”
He knew it was ridiculous but he had an overwhelming feeling that he’d wasted so much time being an idiot. And he knew the feeling was right. He’d paused the Selection two months before and while he’d made progress for the country and even some for himself he felt like without her it didn’t mean nearly as much. But Safiya immediately shaking her head told him that she agreed with him for once.
“I've talked to Wylan a bit and seen how it's going from pictures.” Safiya pursed her lips slightly. “And she broke up with you. Let her enjoy the time where she doesn't have to be stressed about something else being asked of her after... everything. I don't think she needs to be swept off her feet. She needs to be told that she's all you could ever want and you're willing to spend the rest of your lives showing her how much she's valued.”
“When we spoke yesterday we left things on a really good note and I haven’t stopped thinking about everything she said. I want to spend the rest of forever giving her everything even knowing things won't always be easy.”
“Is this a sensible, adult decision I hear coming out of your mouth right now?” She asked, the corner of her mouth lifting into a half-smile.
“Seriously, Safiya?” Arin narrowed his eyes at her. “I am the leader of a country and you're going to tease me about adult decisions?”
“Someone has to.” She chuckled.
“You, Wylan, Mom, Jen...” Arin held up a hand then put a finger down for each of the names he listed off emphasizing Jen’s because he'd let her tease him every day for the rest of forever if she wanted.
“Jen's the only one who will be as honest as I am, and since she's not in a place to tell you this, I will.” She waved her hand.
Real or genuine. That’s what she’d said her name meant and she was never anything but. Jen, Jennie, Bee… She felt like the most real person in his life. And he never wanted that to change.
“I think she might be harder on me than you are though.” Arin joked, reaching for one of the pillows which he pulled to his chest.
“You say that as if it's a bad thing,” Safiya said with a small laugh.
“I’m afraid you’d both get along a little too well.” He raised his eyebrows at her.
He wasn’t sure how much time his sister had spent with Jen in the months she’d lived in their home but he was certain that they’d get along. Safiya would gain a sister which was something Arin knew she wouldn’t take lightly. It had only been the two of them the majority of their lives until the past few years. They’d added Wylan, then Theo who Arin was still working on getting used to, and he hoped Jen would be next.
“You should be happy she'll get along with the in-laws.” She told him, amused at the thought.
Arin gave her a sad smile as he thought about their mother. He knew their loss haunted them both every day but he wanted to focus on the things they had to look forward to even if it was only briefly. Though he wondered how soon things would settle. He was still adjusting to his brother in law and the transition was still strange for him to wrap his brain around at times.
“Well, I don't come with a lot of people. It's just you, Mom, Wylan, and Theo.”
“You don't need a whole village. I think we'll suffice.” She briefly returned the smile before it faded when her thoughts also went to what they’d lost.
Arin grew more concerned as he observed the look on Safiya’s face. The past months had taken their toll on the entire family but seeing his sister act so… ordinary worried him. It seemed to Arin that it was more difficult than usual for Safiya to keep up her usual appearances.
“Hey, how are you doing?” He asked in a softer tone.
She stayed facing the ceiling. Safiya didn’t smile again but she didn’t let herself delve into the dark feelings the attack brought on.
“Fine. For the most part.” She sighed, looking over at him. “Maybe you can invite her over for New Year’s.”
He pursed his lips at the sudden subject change. It was strange for him to see his sister deflect in the same way he did. They both knew she wasn’t fine and saying it wouldn’t make it so. Still, he blew out a breath and decided to let it go for the time being.
“What are the big plans this year?”
“Homemade pizza, champagne, and watching the ball drop from the couch.” An absent smile formed on her lips. “Theo still needs rest.”
Arin nodded in understanding. Anyone who had been there still needed rest but that wasn’t possible. At least Theo was taking his time with his recovery. He could imagine the loss of a parent having also experienced it but he couldn’t wrap his head around the idea of witnessing what Theo had after enduring everything the night of the attack.
“It'll be his first Christmas and New Year's away from home, won't it?”
“They do Christmas a little differently so I’m leaving that to him.” Safiya nodded.
“It'll be different for us all this year I think. A lot quieter than usual.” Arin told her.
“At least Wylan will be around.” She replied as she thought about how she’d been missing him.
Arin smiled at the idea. At least some things stayed the same. They’d each been so busy that they hadn’t gotten to talk as much as they should. After everything, he’d almost expected Wylan would spend Christmas in Clermont. Though he wasn’t sure why. However, Allens seemed like another decent possibility as well.
“I haven't spent enough time with him recently,” Arin admitted.
“He's preoccupied with his future wife.” She chuckled to herself.
Arin wondered if they’d have had more than just a couple days if things could have been different. Maybe he’d have come to his senses… She wouldn’t have broken up with him. But as lovely as the thought was he knew it wouldn't have happened.
“I wish I had the time.” He sighed. “But I have meetings and a million other things to do. And Felicity reminded me about all the Christmas shopping I haven't done.”
“And what are you getting for Jen, hm?” Safiya asked.
“Am I allowed to say myself?” Arin joked in a serious tone after biting at his lip.
His sister’s only response was an intense flat look which caused him to roll his eyes in response. Sometimes she didn’t appreciate his sense of humor as much as he would have liked.
“I wasn't serious.”
“Good.” She said with mild amusement.
“Just because we talked yesterday doesn't mean we'd get back together if I told her I wanted to. So I may not need to get her anything for Christmas.”
“I think a gift might soften it, Arin.” She chuckled.
That seemed like it wouldn’t go over well. He wasn’t sure showing up out of the blue with a gift would be what Jen wanted. He’d expect a telling off if he pulled that move. Though he deserved to be told off regardless of how he went back to Jen. He knew that much.
“Are you saying I should just start sending gifts now?”
“Everything in moderation.” She fiddled with the blanket on her lap. “One gift and some suppressed Arin honesty should suffice.”
“At this point, I’m not sure there’s a point in toning down who I am.” He told her, furrowing his eyebrows as he spoke. “She already knows.”
“Everyone could use a little self-improvement.” Safiya shot him another flat look.
“It’s possible I’d rather focus on the country first.” He shrugged.
Safiya sighed. She didn’t feel like opening the same can of worms again since it never seemed to get them anywhere. Though Arin wasn’t trying to get on her nerves with that statement. He had so much he wanted to do for Illéa and he felt like even if he had years it would never be enough. There were so many things leftover from the previous generations of Schreaves that needed to be fixed.
“Congratulations.” She told him, having summoned a smile. “I'm happy with your choice, not that you really needed my approval.”
He knew he didn’t need her to say that but he did at the same time. Arin needed someone to tell him what he wanted was right. It might have been shallow but it reassured him.
“She’s amazing, isn’t she?”
“Yes.” Safiya chuckled. “Very wonderful.”
“She’s the one, Sia.” He smiled, thinking about Jen.
“I know.” She said softly. “Go get her, Arin.”
Go get her.
That was all Arin wanted to do.
There were so many things he was still uncertain about but Jen wasn’t one of them. With her next to him he was sure the rest would fall into place. She wanted more which she’d made sure to tell him and he wanted more too. He wanted the ups and downs and the times in between. Arin didn’t want only one more minute with Jen. He wanted a lifetime of moments and minutes with her.
He’d told her that it would be easier if it was a choice they could make together and she’d agreed. Now he’d made his choice. Whatever came next they could decide together. Together. Jen and Arin. He liked the sound of that.
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Cold As The Grave
Written for my DL Server bingo card prompt: Cool Cat.
I cannot recall the interview this was in for the life of me, but I do recall at least one mentioning John not finding horror movies scary at all.
Going off of that, we have here scary movie night, aka scary movie night for Roger, Freddie, and Brian, and comedy movie night for John (while the other three look on both in horror at the movies and at John laughing his ass off at the creepiest and most gory scenes, utterly cool and unbothered by all of it.) Set in a modern AU because then I can reference as many of the movies I’ve seen myself as possible lol.
My love to all who read/like/reblog!
“This is great,” John chuckled, and tossed more popcorn into his mouth. “You know, I learned how they make the fake blood look that thick. I should show you guys sometime.”
He continued eating and watching, apparently not feeling the three pairs of eyes no longer glued to the screen, but staring in horror at him instead.
Roger and Brian jabbed him at once, and Freddie jumped. “Ah. Right. You could show us that, sometime. Or not, I mean, we’re often busy-”
“Very busy,” Roger added.
“Horribly,” Brian nodded.
“Look!” John cheered. “Look at what the rats are doing! The effects are fantastic in this!”
“This is disgusting,” Roger hissed, gesturing to the scene from Sinister 2 playing out on the TV. “How is he still eating?!”
“I could really go for pizza,” John continued. “Meat lovers and a vegetarian for Bri?”
Brian swallowed hard as he watched the scene continue. “Sure. Yeah. Because I can eat while we watch things like this.”
“Of course, yeah,” Freddie agreed, letting out a heavy held breath as John got up to go order the pizza. “How long has he been like this? How did we not notice?”
“Should we call his mum,” Roger proposed. “To find out if she knows about this, and if so, how has she dealt with it?”
“We don’t have enough time for that,” Brian replied. “I can’t eat while we watch this. My stomach isn’t the weakest, but this is...god, and he wants to start the Saw movies after this. Guys, I can’t.”
“No, he actually has the Human Caterpillar movies on the list next, the Saw films are after that,” Freddie said with a wince. “Maybe he won’t notice if we aren’t eating?”
“It’s on the way!” John announced happily as he bounced back in and onto the couch. “You lot okay? Awfully pale, all of you. Don’t tell me you’re scared!”
“It is a horror movie,” Roger said defensively. “Most people do get scared of those. Most people. Lots of people, even. Sort of the idea behind them.”
“You’re all silly,” John laughed. “This isn’t that bad.”
“I’m sorry, what movies do you consider ‘bad’ then?” Brian asked. “I’m curious and terrified to know.”
“Wouldn’t you like to know,” John teased, and started back in on the popcorn.
Freddie laughed nervously. “Actually, darling, we would! Care to share with us, or...”
But John was back into the movie, laughing at the next horrific act on the screen. “You ever think about what you’d do, if you were in that situation? I like to think I’d handle it better.”
“Do I ever think,” Brian said slowly. “About what I would do if a version of the Boogeyman was real. And had a curse. And was going to try and convince any children I might have to kill me, and film the results. No. No I have not.”
“Okay,” John said, and gestured to the DVD case holding the first Human Caterpillar movie. “What about that? If we got kidnapped, all of us, on tour-”
Roger covered his eyes, and groaned.
Freddie’s eyes were wide. “Have...have you thought about that?”
“It’s all in good fun,” John giggled, then jumped at the sound of the doorbell. “Oh! Scared me, they got here fast!”
Freddie leaned forward, head in his hands as John got up to go retrieve the pizza. “I’m. This was supposed to be a fun movie night. I’m learning too much about him. About all of us. And I love you all, you’re brothers to me, but there’s a limit in what I can learn in one night, and I think I just found it.”
“I need a hug,” Roger said miserably, hanging onto Freddie’s arm as he gave him an awkward half-hug. “Thank you.”
“Maybe he’ll just watch them now,” Brian said. “He’ll be busy eating, then full, then comfy and warm. Might even fall asleep.”
“And if he keeps laughing at this shit like some demon from foulest hell?!” Roger hissed.
“Then we accept he’s lightly possessed and move on with our lives, Roger!” Brian said sharply. “I don’t know what else we do if he keeps that up; I’m busy trying to figure out how he finds any of it funny!”
“There’s got to be one of these that scares him,” Freddie said, shuffling through the DVD cases and pondering the list of streamed movies they’d made up. “We’ll spend all night watching if we must. We’re going to find one that scares him, one that doesn’t make him act like-”
“Pizza for the scaredy cats!” John smiled as he set the pizza boxes down on the coffee table. “If you lot can manage to eat any.”
“We can,” Roger scoffed, but he actively looked away from the TV as he picked up a slice. “See? Perfectly fine, and not feeling sick at all.”
“Okay,” John giggled. “If you say so.”
“Let me know when I can look back,” Roger whispered to Freddie as he ate as quickly as possible.
“You mean when the movie is over?” Freddie whispered back.
“Essentially, yeah,” Roger replied.
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Four hours later, they had yet to succeed in their task.
He’d giggled his way through the Human Caterpillar movies.
Cackled through the Saw pictures, and started in on how he’d make his own horrible pain maze, if he was forced to create one.
Hereditary and Midsommar? He was enraptured.
“Okay,” Freddie sighed. “This one says it’s also a comedy. Can we try that?”
John slipped the disc for The Cabin in the Woods into the player. “Don’t think I ever actually got around to watching this one. Why not?”
It was silly. Schlocky, at bits even. But it was a dream for the three of them; a break from overwhelming scares and gore in exchange for a more acceptable level of those things, in addition to a chance to laugh.
John, however, was tense.
“You alright?” Freddie asked about midway through the movie.
John nodded, but didn’t speak. He’d stopped nibbling at the leftover pizza, his remaining popcorn left in the bowl and set on the floor.
“The effects are good in this,” Roger tried a bit later. “Right? I mean, it’s gory, but even we can handle it. Pretty silly of us, huh, Deaky?”
John didn’t look away from the screen.
“Um. So, who do you think we’d all be, if it was us, in that?” Brian asked with a gentle smile. “And who would be the fifth person to join us?”
“Well, none of us can be the virgin,” Freddie giggled. “Right, Deaky?”
“Rather not think about it,” John replied tersely.
They looked at each other and frowned.
“Okay,” Freddie said. “You’re sure you’re alright?”
“I’m fine,” John said. “Just don’t like thinking about something like this happening to us, I guess.”
“But you were okay with the plot of the Human Caterpillar happening to us?!” Roger squawked.
“Not okay with it, just thought it was an interesting thing to consider,” John said. “We’d escape and be fine, obviously.”
“And we wouldn’t escape this, you don’t think?” Freddie asked gently.
“Look at it!” John scoffed as the final scene rolled. “They didn’t! And they potentially could have had at least one of them escape, maybe! I couldn’t...”
He hesitated. “I couldn’t hurt any of you to save my own hide.”
“We wouldn’t be able to hurt you either,” Brian said. “You know that!”
“Yeah!” Roger added. “We’d all go down together instead, in a blaze of fire!”
“Really?” John asked softly.
“Or in a blaze of us terrified, shitting ourselves,” Roger shrugged. “One of those two for sure though.”
“No other spots on the spectrum we could occupy, just violence or absolute terror?” Freddie asked.
“Maybe, but I’m tired, this is the best analysis I can do for now,” Roger yawned.
“We should sleep,” Brian agreed. “I’m exhausted, somehow. Thought I’d be too scared to sleep, all things considered.”
Freddie nodded and tilted his head towards John. “You coming in with us?”
“I...I’m good. Might stay up yet. Just because,” John shifted uncomfortably on the couch.
“Are...you’re scared,” Roger said gently. “Aww, Deaky.”
“Shut up!”
“I knew there had to be one that would get you,” Freddie said. “Didn’t expect it to be this one, if I’m honest. We’ll stay out here with you, how about that?”
“You don’t need to do that,” John muttered. “I’m not a child.”
“Who said you were?” Brian asked. “I’m staying out here because frankly, that stupid Boogeyman thing pops up in my vision every time I close my eyes, and I hate that.”
Roger nodded. “I’m now horrified of Germany, thanks to that Caterpillar movie. Going to have nightmares of...well. You know. Better to stay out here, with you lot.”
“And that fucking demon thing from Insidious?” Freddie added. “I hate it. And now I do have the odd feeling it’s somehow going to watch me while I sleep. So it would be nice to not be alone tonight, if possible.”
“I don’t believe you,” John said, but he smiled as he spoke. “Fine. We’ll push the couch back and set up on the floor?”
“Exactly,” Freddie said. “That way when we do have nightmares, we can promptly kick each other awake during them.”
John seemed happier as he helped clean the living room up, and walked off to retrieve extra blankets and pillows.
Freddie waited a beat before whispering. “Were you lot really going to go into your own rooms? There was no way I could have; I don’t know how I’ll sleep as it is!”
“I was trying to look tough in front of him,” Brian muttered. “That was stupid. I didn’t need to do that. I really do hate that fucking Bagul or whatever the fuck it is-”
“Jump scare at the end of that one was the best, wasn’t it?” Roger grinned.
“How dare you make me remember that,” Brian sighed. “But better that then...well. Your nightmares are going to be a lot worse than mine, I think.”
“Let’s not make it a competition,” Freddie murmured. “It’s nearly five in the morning, and...fuck.”
“You just remembered we rented the studio space out starting at eight, didn’t you?” John said as he walked back in and dropped the blankets onto the floor. “I thought it was weird you guys agreed to this on the night before a day in the studio! But you just all forgot, didn’t you?”
Three shameful nods were all they could manage in response as they finished settling in, all of the lights off, snuggled together.
John, for his part, seemed far less scared than he had been before, now that they were all piled in the same makeshift bed. He snored gently; it might be a decent three or so hours of sleep for him.
If the rest of them had their eyes glued to checking the time on their phones as said three hours passed, jumping at each noise in the shared flat...
John didn’t need to know about that. No one, frankly, needed to know about that. Not him, nor the studio techs that would likely be raising brows at the bags under their eyes.
That was their secret, and a reminder to better plan the next horror movie night, well in advance of any studio time.
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Alternative Additional Disco HC
John sandwiched by Froger. Brian is controlling the remote to a pug. Goal? 3 orgasms for John. Plus he’ll be too tired and sticky to stay out all night.
Cockslut!John’s short refractory period, hair trigger (he’s “misfired” while dancing before) vibrator, grinding, eye fucking, dirty talk & John’s exhibition/humiliation kink they reach and surpass the goal easily.
Brian has no problem telling from a far when John cums to turn off the vibe for just enough time to keep it painless and exactly when to turn it back on to get him cuming again and again. After the last one though Bri keeps the vibe high for the power trip of John convulsing from it.
John is barely able to walk and glassy eyes open thanks to the fuzzy serenity of subspace. Under the guise of helping a drunk friend home no one is the wiser.
Once they’re home the rest of them want to cum too. John’s not as out of it by then and convinces them to fuck him one after the other and he’s right back to being floaty. He doesn’t even realize all he says is don’t stop over and over.
At least until it gets to Freddie (they go in order of smallest to biggest so Freddie has no problem getting into John whereas usually it would take a lot more preparation for penetration (lol) which is why in this HC Freddie tends to bottom a lot (he’s too impatient)).
By the time Freddie’s fucking John he’s cum dry twice and not even hard; his cock just twitches periodically trying in vain to get hard and cum again. He’s non verbal (just high pitch whimpers and little pants) spread eagle, melted into the bed, eyes half closed and rolled up into his head. Just totally debouched.
It always worries them a bit when he’s like that but they don’t take too long to all cum since they were already so on edge.
They know from previous experience that stoping would set off sub drop and upset John for days after. Once Freddie cums and before the 3 of their loads can start leaking out of him they put in a larger plug that doesn’t vibrate. The vibrating one was tiny in comparison (to make it easier to walk) but had no chance of staying inside of Johns now stretched gaping hole. John hates feeling empty after a scene. After some water and clean up the 3 settle in for sleep. John’s already unconscious and stays that way until early afternoon.
He wakes up with a happy hum to the feeling of being full and in Brian’s arms. Freddie and Roger can never stay in bed for more then a few minutes after waking unless there’s sex involved but they are still to wiped from last night for that. The first thing John says? He slures that he can’t wait to that again. Brian laughs and pulls him tighter against his chest saying that you’re going to be the death of me.
I think most of my submitted HCs exist in this AU where they are all serious kinksters. I’m just super into it. But not until John comes along. Mayor gets together in the Smile!era and are inexperienced virgins and vanilla (I’m totally romanticizing this but I think it’s reasonable since Brian is an awkward nerd and Roger’s ladies man rep is a front and just him overcompensating for his huge crush on Brian)
Tim can matchmake here too! Then Freddie comes along and Maylor freak out about being attracted to someone else but Freddie is just like why is that a problem? If anything it’s a solution to this sexual tension. Why can’t we just be together? So they do get together. Freddie introduces them to a lot of stuff (which isn’t very hardcore but way more then what they were doing)
Enter John who they think is an innocent but boy are they wrong. In this timeline Veronica is his first girlfriend until they both realize they’re gay. I even like the idea of them still getting married because of the drama of that.
So John has never had sex with a guy at least (let alone 3 at the same time (though he’s sure excited to)) and he takes a while to open up but once he does they are in for a shock.
John has fantasies and lots of them. Freddie can’t help but egg him on. Maylor is overwhelmed. The 3 of them want to do everything John talks about.
They live happily ever after in an orgasmic haze.
The end.
******
Thanks for the submission @deep-dark-purple!
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MUTUAL APPRECIATION TIME
So it’s come to my attention that I have some of the most amazing and beautiful mutuals ever??? Like y’all are so precious, I love you all. Also bc I was told I was someone’s (you know who you guys are) tumblr crushes today I’m emotional.
First of all I wanna give a big ass shoutout to @noblefloweroll (aka the literal Makki to my Mattsun) because Stephanie you’ve already made such a huge impact on my life in the short time I’ve known you and now we’re writing something together and it’s a dream come true. I love you so much you’re such a sweetheart and a lovely person to be around :’) also you’re obsessed with Makki so that’s a huge ass plus.
Second is @rolling-blunder, Aalema you’re such a darling and we haven’t talked much lately but you’re an absolute blessing in my life and I fr love you so much 💕 I’m so glad we became friends, you’re such a joy and your love for Oikawa Tooru always brightens my day.
@cupofkoushi, darling you’re so precious and even though we just really started talking today you’ve been a close mutual of mine for a while now and I really honestly am so thankful for you?? Wow.
@applepsi Bri, it literally baffled me (and left me shook) when you followed me and ever since we start talking I’ve realized just how much more amazing you are and just a really kind and chill person to talk to??
@piiess, you’ve been one of my fave blogs on tumblr and when you followed me back I was like “is this for real?” But seriously, Pat, you’re just all around a kind gentle soul and your artwork is fantastic and very beautiful I love interacting with you so much
@keishn, Yvonne we don’t talk that often but your thirst (I guess it could be called that?? LMAO) is honestly so great I love it and I love you and your blog so much but I’m so shy and awkward lol
@kanokas *hugs you real tight* you’re such an absolute darling ahhhh you’re so sweet and just genuinely an all around good person and I wish I wasn’t shy or else I’d message you bc I really do care about you (wow Jessica can you get any lamer?)
@oiivkawa okokokok another one that absolutely slayed me when you followed me. I’ve looked up and admired your writing and beautiful edits for as long as I can remember (I think since I started this as an anime blog?? Lol) and now to have you as a mutual? You’re so amazing and caring and such a sweetheart (how many times can I use that word? Someone keep count) that words can’t even tell :’)
@leave-me-alone-doctor, Alicia, Ive known you for years now and even tho you know nothing about majority of the animes I post about you still stick around and honestly words couldn’t describe how much I love you?? Like wow??? Also: Daddy nachos.
And last but definitely not least: @uravityx, Jess I know we haven’t spoken in a while but you were the first real friend I made on here after I became an anime blog and you have (and still continue to be) always been someone I could rely on and talk to when things got rough. You’re a lovely, beautiful and kind person and I hope you’re doing well 💕
Okay. That’s all for now. I mainly did the ones I’ve interacted with the most and have talked to a bit but seriously I love all of my mutuals, there’s too many of you to count, and I plan on making a giant post once I hit 1k followers (less than 200 away!) but fr. If you’re not following any of the above mentioned blogs please give them a check out bc they all post A++ quality content and hold a very dear place in my heart. Also, sorry if this seemed lame or anything lol I’m tired and really emotional tonight so I figured I’d do this. Love you all though 💕
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