#(( also sorry this got long KJHFGKJGH ))

[ruki--mukami]

"Indeed. Rejecting one's love, even after the man has allowed his guard to collapse and his innermost feelings to be revealed, only to have them utterly dismantled before his very eyes… I suppose it's true that it can, in fact, lead to his suffering later on. Not only is it a wound to his pride, but also it illuminates how little the characters really understood each other. We can see in Pride and Prejudice that Elizabeth initially rejects Mr. Darcy, for instance, and he cannot help but feel astonished as a result."

The vast expanse of the library the two often frequented stood still in silence, except for their debate over a book with which Ruki was more than familiarized. Just as one could immerse themselves in the tomes of knowledge, his reserved and calm demeanor slowly waned the more he spoke to Cassandra, the one woman with whom he could play the devil's advocate and watch the civil discussion about various literature unfold, much to his amusement. Leaning closer over its pages, uncaring how their faces were mere inches apart, a surprisingly playful smirk began to creep upon his visage at the sound of her surprised gasp.

"However, the two also eventually marry once they finally see eye-to-eye. By visiting Darcy's home, she eventually saw him for who he truly is in the environment that brought him the most comfort. The treatment of his his sister, his servants, his entire estate," his gaze unceasingly bore into hers. "The Great Gatsby follows a similar trope; the main characters develop mutual feelings, but Gatsby is rejected regardless. Much like Darcy, both men refuse to believe that they have been rejected and continue to pursue the subjects of their affection."

Stormy azure hues zeroed in on her own amber ones as their knees gently brushed against one another, no longer concentrated on the pages that seem to vanish from his mind like the library surrounding them. Just as her own warm breath dusted his cheek, a cold one frosted upon hers in exchange. Unlike his own exhalation, his sapphires suffused a hidden mirth deep within in spite of his usual apathy. Rather than deriving joy from how immobilized she was, the Vampire simply couldn't resist the sight of the woman's inquisitive stare. A profound fondness settled in the chill fortress of his caged heart whenever he reflected on their intellectual conversations, her passion towards art, or the way she managed to brighten the monochrome world around him, introducing him to a myriad of color.

"Perhaps I misunderstood your conclusion after all, Cassandra. You are far more keen than I thought about this book. As much as I believe returning one's love is easier said than done, I'm also a man who would never allow the woman I love to walk away from me. I would never let go of her, no matter what threatens to separate us."

The tempest in his eyes subsided in favor of a tender grip on the book they shared, raising it up to the sides of their faces as if to conceal what would happen next. The other hand softly threaded through her golden tresses, caressing the side of her cheek like a fragile canvas, one he could break and mold back together. Although the Vampire analyzed every text he read with unparalleled insight compared to his peers, he never knew the sensation of love itself. He never fully understood the love Darcy and Elizabeth shared, or how to love someone and be loved in return.

The only love he once knew evaporated in the wake of lie after lie.

A pain that built the foundation of his despondence and cold heart, a suffering inevitable due to the death and lies of his human parents. The ones he valued the most, abandoning him in his time of need, fostering distress that urged Ruki to either kill or be killed, raining a shower of blood. Much like the characters he admired, he refused to let a tragedy befall him again and vowed vengeance against mankind.

"Would you truly confess your feelings in return for a man of interest who bears his heart in full exposure, even after discovering the good and bad sides of him? There could be something about him more atrocious than you would ever expect, lying in wait right in front of you. A naïve woman like you would never see it coming. Oftentimes it's too easy to be lured in by a beautiful face that obscures a dark secret and an ugly past. With such an innocent stare like that, you'll only entice that type of man to strike when the opportunity arises."

Eyelashes fluttering shut, the Vampire inclined further until his lips connected with hers. A subtle hum of delight echoed into the soft, chaste kiss, holding the book up all throughout to hide their tryst from whoever happened to stumble upon them in the library. The hand cradling her face stroked slow, soothing circles into her porcelain skin, ending its reverie on the contour of her jawline to deepen and prolong the kiss they shared. An incessant wave of unparalleled mansuetude washed over with each slotting of his lips against hers. Curious fingers began to roam down Cassandra's backside, entangling between champagne curls and pulling her closer to him as Ruki urgently savored the sweet taste. Exulting in the sensation of her lips a while longer, he finally withdrew himself.

"Shall I teach you about it, Cassandra? About how a man pursues and takes what he wants with conviction? A conviction strong enough to change everything you already know; strong enough to turn your entire world on its axis. A desire strong enough to conquer all fears."

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“No Ruki, you are misunderstanding at me” she said, pointing the book she had on the table “It is not like I do not understand the change in the character's opinion, but I honestly thought she had more principles!”.

Both of them were in the library sharing another night together. Those meetings were getting so usual that she actually forgot for how long they have been meeting. Maybe it was for three weeks, or maybe over a year. Who had the interest to count? It was still a good thing on her perspective. It always had been like that with her closest friends and she wasn't more than glad to have the pleasure to spend time with him. But it is not yet rosy either. Time after time he was showing his true nature, that tacit and severe personality he had, in total contrast with her cheerful and appeased one. Nonetheless, it wasn't an obstacle for them to enjoy time together. Neither to discuss, in whispers, good literature.

“If she were really interested on him, if she, after all the meetings they had, changed her outlook about him, she should express her feelings the day he opened his heart to her” she calmly expressed her point, palpable confused by the development of the romance turning her head to see him “I cannot imagine more than——”

She stopped for a few seconds. “More than the suffering he felt in the moment she rejected him” were the words that a gasp stole from her. She didn't have noticed how close he was from her. What it possibly was because she was dragging each time closer to herself the book both were sharing. Logically, he hadn't any other option to get closer to read without interrupting their debate, had he?

But this time the distance between them was so small that she was able to see his cloudy eyes in detail, so close that the vampire was able to feel the warm breath over his lips. ‘Hand, chin, lips’ were words spoken on her mind in a suggestion. She slightly opened her mouth, breathing warm air and aversely she was still frozen, bordering the line of the unknown danger, wandering why she never took a look at the beauty in the depths of his eyes.

[papa-1-rights-activist]

Could you tell us some things about your characters?

thank you so much for this ask :D sorry for such a late response, but ngl i got very excited and started writing shit down as soon as i saw it, but then it turned into an entire essay and i had to cut down a ton of stuff until i decided to write it in a list of some sort kjhgkjfgkfg

currently i have like 11 fan characters in total so i will start with 4 to not infodump too much at a time

and i’ll admit that literally all of these guys were made for shipping purposes, but they all have different personalities and dynamics with canon characters. i’m such a sucker for writing couples, so many things to explore, that’s like my favourite thing ;w;

it got very long so imma put it under the cut \o/ (hopefully it works bc tumblr has been pretty unpredictable lately)

sorry if it’s probably way more than just “some things” but i couldn’t help it, i just love these guys so much and i don’t get to talk about them often u v u

e n j o y ~

imma start with the one you guys are more familiar with

Lucas

one of the cardinals in Ghost’s church

Mexican

in his late 40s (like 46-47)

hardworking, ambitious

pretty composed

huge „your teacher from english class who’s also a dad” energies

his character can be summed up to, as someone has said, „he’d kindly but sternly correct your shitty posture”

currently takes the 3rd place of most „best employee of the month” awards (Copia is 4th at that time)

he and Copia start off as rivals for the 2nd place (bc no one can beat whoever is the 1st)

but wouldn’t you guessed it, they end up dating

Lucas has a fair collection of various rodents, including rats. Actually, he’s the one who infected Copia with love for them. Luc prefers ferrets (that’s a rodent right kjhfgkjgh)

he doesn’t really get angry, but when he does he really goes off

he writes poetry, which is actually very, very bad, but Copia loves it to bits which makes Luc feel validated to write more

because his language is so similar to italian, Lucas can implement a lot of spanish into his conversations with Copia, while the other will reply in italian and they will still understand each other (ofc there are some exceptions that result in miscommunication, but that just makes it all more fun)

Copia shared with him that he’s writing music for his album (even tho he wasn’t supposed to tell anyone) and Lucas was more than happy to help him in the process…which was mostly moral support and a few suggestions.

he loves calling Copia “cariño”, “mi amorcito”, “mi alegría” and other cute names in spanish

once Lucas mentioned he used to play flute and Copia immediately decided to include a flute solo in one of his songs, so Luc could play it. Unfortunately things didn’t go as he planned and he had to change it to sax solo

The thing about Lucas is that Imperator sees him as a threat. She’s been plotting with Copia to get him to papacy for a long time, but in the end she isn’t the one who decides who will be in charge, so Copia has to work hard to deserve it. He was already a hard worker, but unfortunately Lucas works harder. It creates this dillema for Copia, bc on one hand he does want to become Papa and in order to do that he has to get rid off competition. But on the other he loves Lucas and he wants what’s best for him.

(i’ll probably post the pic above in a separate post with other doodles, i just wanted to show sth new and relevant)

Elise & Greg

Imma put these two together bc it’s impossible to talk about one without the other.

they work together in a company that takes art commisions such as paintings & murals and their restorations. They’re both pretty skilled in those departments, except Elise specialises in art restoration while Greg specialises in murals and frescos. And ofc one day they’re hired by the church.

they’re both pretty good at painting (but the thing about restoration is that you don’t have to be a great artist to do that, it has more to do with chemistry tbh)

They live together and have been very good friends for a few years now

they both went through some traumatic events in their lives, but maybe i’ll leave that part for another day (or i’ll leave it in my fanfic they’re from that i need to finish ;w;)

they’re very supportive of each other, but also they like to mess with one another

their chat is filled with horny texts about other people

Elise

34 years old

British

a bit awkward, tends to stutter when nervous

very sweet overall, feels the need to be everyone’s therapist

autistic, which shows mostly through her sensitivity to certain textures

hates onions (bc the texture is awful)

gets very emotional very quickly when she sees cute animals. She will use her baby talk to speak with them (which is sth that Copia does too with his rats and once he catches her doing that as well, he feels less embarrased about it)

Cirrus was the first one from the church to actually talk to her and show her around, making her feel a bit more welcome in an unfamiliar place

she talks through her sleep. A lot. Copia finds it very amusing…and adorable.

she discovers that Papa III has fallen hard for her friend way before he himself realises that, but then she’s also the kind of person to not see her own feelings for someone

she finds working on restoration quite relaxing. It’s sth she can fixate over and do for hours (even tho it’s not recommended)

a bit of a workaholic

another thing she finds relaxing is sitting in a corner somewhere warm and doodling people she sees around the abbey (mostly those she finds attractive lol so mostly Cirrus and Copia)

eventually ends up with Copia and Cirrus in a poly relationship

she also finds Cumulus cute, but the ghoulette isn’t interested in another romantic relationship. the one she has with Cirrus is enough for her.

Elise’s relationship with Copia is basically two dorks trying to impress the other while trying not to be too obvious about it, while her relationship with Cirrus is bisexual equivalent of „shy nerd has a crush on a cool girl leading the cheerleaders squad and shopes she doesn’t know. She knows.”

(had to doodle sth real quick bc i can’t believe that i don’t have a single good pic of him lol)

Greg

37 years old

Polish (bc ofc he is)

pretty stoic, might come off as cold

he gives cute nicknames to people he likes (in polish ofc)

he’s actually pretty cheesy and wholesome, but you wouldn’t know that bc he shows his affection through a language that no one understands (which is what he wants, he doesn’t want others to know he actually cares)

has some trust issues, so it’s harder for him to become friends with people

huge Scorpions fan. no, like really, he’s obsessed and will share his music taste with whoever will listen (which is mostly Eli and Papa III lol)

knows a few words in italian, but mostly those related to art after he’s been studying it for a few years. He doesn’t speak it, but he can read it.

he owns a guitar signed by Kirk Hammett (his musical crush)

he’s the kind of guy who will call the person he likes „my dear”, „my love”, „sweet pea” in his mother language and then tell that person it means „dickhead”, „loser” and „lazy ass”

his stay at the abbey is just laying under the ceiling and doing fresco for most of the day, visiting Elise in her art studio and dealing with Papa’s bullshit

Papa eventually starts coming up to lay beside Greg on the construction and watch him work. They tend to just lay in silence while a mix of Scorpions and ABBA plays from the radio. There’s barely any space for a second person, but Greg would lie if he said he didn’t find it endearing.

one time Greg fell off the construction and broke his leg bc of that dumbass (but it’s his dumbass uwu)

anyway he eventually starts dating Papa III

Papa purrs to Greg in italian and Greg speaks sweet words to him in polish (tho it took him a lot of time to get comfortable with that)

their relationship is your typical „1 brain cell and 1 dumbass” and under certain circumstances simply „2 disastrous dumbasses”

they once burnt down Elise’s apartment on accident and the only things they managed to save were the art supplies and Greg’s guitar

anyway

here are these guys in comparison to their partners in this silly style, bc all the other drawings are outdated ;w;

Melea

45 years old

American

fashion designer commissioned byt the Ghost’s church

huge fan of old rock

for a long time her relationship with Papa III was purely professional. He came to her studio, she took some measurements, they discussed what he would like and then he left and they didn’t see each other until the next meeting to try the outfit on, to make some changes, or for another project.

well that is until she asked him to stop putting his face paint on so he wouldn’t ruin the fabrics

i share this popular headcanon that Papa III is pretty self conscious about his clean face, so it was kind of hard to convince him at first

eventually their sessions became that much more personal because of that

she’s a bit superstitious, believing that some things may cause bad luck

collects crystals with good energy

she’s in a way a modern witch…but it’s not like she tries to be one

knows french fairly well, which allows her to talk to Papa (who also speaks it) when they don’t want others to understand them.

huge mum energy

loooves watching conspiracy theories. Sometimes she will pick one of the more ridiculous ones during her sessions with Papa and will argue and try to convince him it’s true, making it seem like she fully believes it, even if she doesn’t – just to fuck with him

and a few times she actually did convince him. Then had to tell him she wasn’t serious and oh my god the millenials aren’t killing the pillow industry by going vegan

anyway at some point they start dating which eventually leads to them getting married ;w;

her relationship with Papa is very soft and romantic. they have the same energy as Morticia and Gomez in regard of how loving they are to each other

also some chibis of these two bc again, all the other drawings are a bit outdated ;w;