#(( Also duuuude I like the car too ))

[diy-fire-water-pups]

wait we missed Marshall's B-Day!? FREE COURTIER DETROIT GO!!!

do ya like it? :P

Woah, what a sweet ride!! And with my name and number on it, that's sooooo cool!!!

I like the colors, the model and the vertical backlights sure give this car a sleek look too!! Thank you so much!!!

[thefanciestborrower]

Do you have any pred Lloyd headcanons? I've had the biggest pred crush on him for years :')

Do you have any pred Lloyd headcanons? I've had the biggest pred crush on him for years :')

Duuuude you’re so valid for that thoooo. He’s a gremlin who absolutely has some stellar pred vibes, specially as the series goes on. 

I can see him being a super protective pred like, unlike Kai who usually won’t grab someone during a fight unless he KNOWS they won’t be able to make it out on their own, Lloyd is a lot more....impulsive. He’s got this very ‘I can protect everyone on my own’ mentality going on and it usually leads to someone getting eaten. He definitely used to be way more prey leaning, especially in early seasons,  but he just kept getting more and more responsibilities put on him that he was almost forced to assume a pred role as well. 

He can also be pretty silly goofy as a pred as well though lol. Garmadon was absolutely a pred so he saw eating people as kind of a way to connect with his dad. That combined with practically growing up around the practice has made him immune to the weirdness factor. He can’t imagine life without little video game nights in Zane and hot tub parties in Kai, and the evenings would be way too boring without those fun after dinner skirmishes to see who would get to eat the others as dessert. 

That nonchalance has definitely lead to some amusing misunderstandings since he tends to be less carful about who sees him doing the whole eating people thing lmao, and he might have scared the living daylights out of poor Arin and Sora once after forgetting they weren’t used to it and just. Eating them out of the blue as a protective instinct. He apologized profusely of course once he realized his mistake, and Arin has actually taken a liking hanging out inside after that whole fiasco. Sora...not so much, but she won’t stop Arin and Lloyd from doing it either. 

[britishchick09]

rapsittie street kids livewatch

welcome to the last livewatch of 2022! ...and probably the worst since we’re watching the infamous ‘rapsittie street kids’! i’ve seen countless reviews on this special, but i’ve never seen the full thing. today is its 20th anniversary, so why not watch it now? it’ll be bad, it’ll be cringe and it’ll be a whole lot of fun! ;D

the instruments at the beginning are really good! :D

...too bad the visuals aren’t :/

why does the bus sound like a clock?

ooh it’s rap time! B)

ricky: “but if you’ll kindly find the time to deliver gifts 7, 8 and 9 from my list!” rip gifts 1-6 :/

i’ve heard the beginning of the rap so many times that the part after sounds so weird! :o

aw he only has 3 coins rip :/

that could buy a book at st. vincent de paul’s! ;)

a car just slides out of frame lol :D

has he walked like that this whole time? :o

the voices in the music sound a bit creepy...

omg he kicks a basketball and it just  f l o a t s  lol! ;D

aww his mom died :(

she gave him a bear before she died... AND NOW HE’S GIVING IT TO A GIRL WHO DOESN’T EVEN LIKE HIM NOOOO :(

the bear just  f l o a t s

blue haired kid: “another day, another ‘d’ at rapsittie elementary...” says the teenager! :o

nicole got a dino bonk! :o

HOLD UP WHY IS ONE OF THE KIDS NELSON FROM SIMPSONS :o

ricky is talented! :D

the adults in the back tho...

he just throws ornaments on the tree like he’s in the charlie brown christmas special! :o

ok wow he’s just gonna rap and rhyme this whole special isn’t he :/

blue teen: “duuuude! that was soooo coooolll...” and that was so not cooollll... ;)

i’m pausing this to upload my new video and i guess this came out on november 25th not december 14th! the anniversary passed, but we’re in the middle of rapsittie season so i’m still watching it!

it’s all christmas and then  S U A R S

smithy: *sees the bear on the floor* ‘what’s that?” ricky: “that’s for nicole honey, i know she’s into money!” that bear is priceless tho! :o

smithy thinks liking nicole is gross lol! ;D

the teacher is fed up with everyone!

knockoff nelson: “hey ricky! let me know any time you want to fall down again! i’ll be sure to shove you in the right direction!” BUURRNNN!!!!! :D

ricky is the only kid to be bummed about recess ever!

teacher: “i said after recess BECAUSE I NEED A RECESS!” ricky: “oooohhhkayyy....” lol! ;D

ricky: “you won’t catch me.... hesitating!” lol! :D

the teacher needs a vacation...

oof this song is cringy! :o

when you wanna be the charlie brown christmas special...

omg nicole and glasses girl are doubling down laughing at that! :o

nicole: “watch what i can do!” ricky: “i’ll watch you nicole!” nicole: “not you, ricky!”

he’s the only one watching her tho...

also why is he wearing a short sleeved shirt IN THE SNOW???

ricky: “and i thought it couldn’t get any colder out here...” oof :/

omg knockoff nelson stole smithy’s sandwich! :o

and it just slides down smithy’s scarf...

the shot zooms out to the teacher and kids with presents but it looks slow mo?

lenee: “oh that looks really cool!” nicole: “here.” *drops it right onto her feet* lol!

nicole’s gift is the best because she bought it from the mall! ;)

OMG WAIT IS THAT JOHN DELANCIE AS THE PRINCIPAL???? :o

turns out it’s not but it sounds so much like him! :o

nancy cartwright, jodi benson, mark hamill and page o’hara are in this so there’s plenty of talent here already! ;)

he walks away slowly... (just like me seeing this!)

kids: “merry christmas!” blue kid: “principal dude B)” lol!

the kids ignore the teacher lol ;)

nicole thinks she’s sooooo perfect because she gets things at the mall?

oh no it’s the bear! :o

SHE CALLED IT A NASTY OLD THING YOU BISH!!!! >:(

ricky called her stupid yas you get her! ;D

why are lenee’s arms twitching?

lenee: “we go to this really big store and it starts with a ‘w’!” omg wallymart...? ;)

it’s the floating candle!! :o

AND THE GRANDMA YAAAS!!! :D

aww ricky has a santa letter! :D

grandma: “rdfgdjfdfjgh sendin’ letters!” lol!

it just... floats away from his armpit?

AND IT HAS AN @ SYMBOL???

nicole is insulting lenee AND HAVING A SEIZURE OMG :o

nicole’s mom: “has my princess been a good girl?” nicole: “i’ve been a good girl all year long!” YOU BISH! >:(

NO NO NO NOT THE SONG!!!!!

nicole: “♫ look at me! ♫“ no thanks!

the snowflake is traveling to lenee’s house!

this is a nice colored sky! :)

aww i feel so bad for lenee :(

her mom doesn’t nod... she bows!

mom: “come on, it’s christmas! cheer up!” that didn’t sound very cheery of you...

oh no nicole is reading the letter! :o

she feels bad... :/

YAS GRANDMA GIBBERISH!!!! :D

grandma: “dgdfgjjgsogisigsdfhsfdf christmaaaaas!” lol! ;D

OMG NICOLE THREW THE BEAR AWAY???? :o

nicole, smithy and lenee are in an abandoned building!!!! :o

smithy: “i can so blackmail you guys!” wtf lol?

they looked everywhere but alas! :/

omg dogs are chasing them!!! :o

bully: “look at the babies scared of little doggies!” i’d like to see you get at them! ;)

smithy threw his sandwich at the bullies... and they had their own chase! :D

yay they found the bear! :D

lenee: “let’s climb on that tree and jump over the wall.” nicole: “a lady does not climb trees!” smithy: “now is not the time to be a girl!” lol!

this animation is so awkward tho??

they made it! :D

aww nicole is giving ricky his bear! :)

nicole: “but doesn’t that mean a lot to you?” ricky: “yes. and so does................. friendship.” that pause tho! ;D

ooh lenee’s fam!

MARK HAMIL IS HER DAD OMG :o

lenee sees santa! :D

cloud santaaaa!!!! :D

omg lenee song! :o

WHY IS NICOLE’S MOM OBSESSED WITH THE MALL TOO

dad: “nicole has my good looks... and your spending habits!” lol! ;D

omg nicole’s grandma wanted a videobox... which is what ricky asked for! :o

ew nicole’s parents winked and it was weird :(

aww nicole gave her gift to ricky! :)

and lenee’s sister got... that...

ricky, grandma, nicole and smithy are visiting! :D

nicole apologized! :)

grandma: “dhdhhdfgfjfghg christmaaaaas!” iconic!!! :D

dad: “SHUT THAT DOOR!” the perfect way to end a christmas special! ;D

that was rapsittie street kids! it was just as bad as all the reviews say, but i still had fun watching it! visually, it’s the worst christmas special, but it still has good moments unlike other baddies (looking at you ‘the christmas tree’!) the plot was nice and so was the acting... mostly! i’m glad i got to finally see this special after hearing about it for so long! happy 20th anniversary, rapsittie street kids! :D

[jbreenr]

⚠ MOON KNIGHT 106 SPOILERS ⚠

Oookay…

Yeah well, I was a little scared about what the poster could mean. Like, was it all actually Marc's imagination and he was indeed in a psychiatric? Then I realized the reason of the poster and everything was fine.

“Whatever else who might be there.” Oh Harrow, you have no idea…

I'm not really surprised that Layla is going to look for them. Alone. With a knife only. *sighs*

Taweret. I had this Lucifer flashback. Remember when he sent a demon to talk to Chloe? No? Well, i do.

She asked Layla to be her avatar.

To which she said no.

And, of course, the Gods are freed by breaking the statue. As simple as that. I did not think my theory was right but… it was.

Ngl, I WAS expecting Layla to become Khonshu's avatar. I did wanted to see her as Moon Knight (yk, like Tabitha from Earth trns 590 [I believe I wrote it correctly]).

But I'm somehow happy she didn't accept.

“You're the only superpower I ever had.” Man, Marc went back for Steven, he turned to sand and placed (quite literally) his heart between them, bringing him back. It was emotional.

And we have Taweret helping them, old softies, stopping the sand.

The bullets falling when Marc stands up. The suit forming. Lemme just… 🥴🥴🥴🥴🥴.

So, just like that? Did Khonshu accept to free Marc (and Steven) for good, just like that? There's just something there that's not convincing me.

That frame. That fRAME of him covering the moon with the suit. *chef's kiss*

Taweret is a baby and I love her. And you love her too. We all love her.

You know what I also love? The costume she chose for Layla to wear as her Avatar. 10/10. Quality.

Now, the transition between Marc and Steven (aka Moon Knight and Mr. Knight) is sick.

The fact that Steven fixed the suit while still fighting, leading him to be thrown away was so funny. I like this kind of humor.

The girl asking Layla if she's a superhero and she going “I am.” ajzñdkzñsñ. Yes, you are!

JAKE?!??!!?? WHAT IS THIS? WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT DID YOU DO? WHY AM I YELLING?

We can all agree that it was him. Steven didn't do it and Marc blacked out (again)..AAAAAGH!!!

Now, what the hell was that, at the asylum with Harrow?

For a moment, I thought about that theory saying that everything was, in fact, in Marc's head and nothing was real.

Which would have the poster making sense, but it didn't. Not when Harrow's footsteps were printed in blood on the floor.

Aaaand, they wake up in Steven's apartment, and Marc falls because he has this clamp thing (sorry, idk what's it called xd) around his heel.

AND I HIPE YOU STOOD FOR AT THE END OF THE CREDITS BECAUSE THERE IS ONE SCENE, FINALLY!!!

Harrow (Ammit), in a psychiatric, being strolled out of the hospital by someone, put in a car and then BHAM! we have Khonshu telling him that Marc didn't know how messed up he was.

AND THEN, INTRODUCING HIS FRIEND, JAKE LOCKELY!!! DUUUUDE, HE… AJSÑDKSÑS!!!! I'M SCREAMING AGAIN!!!

Wait, wait, wait. Did I miss the “MOON KNIGHT WILL RETURN” at the end of the credits? Was it not there? Why am I always asking questions I know the answer to?

Anyway, this series was phenomenal! The best, I dare to say, Marvel has done so far (and I'm talking about Marvel Disney, because Daredevil is still the best), I don't think the projected ahead can top it but we'll see.

Now, we have to wait for Ms. Marvel and hope for the best. 🤞

[h0rr0rfever]

Sal fisher x reader new boy in town (pt 2)

Tw: drugs (weed), alcohol, mentions of death and sexual themes(stripper mom)

Larry started to roll up a blunt while you and Sal had a quick smoke sesh on your cart. After Sal took a hit, he handed it to you and you took a hit. You held it in while asking, “So Sal, where did you move from?” Proceeding to release the smoke.

“I’m from the north side of New Jersey, me and my dad moved here to start new I guess? My mom died when I was a kid, and I’ve been kinda bullied my whole life for wearing a prosthetic. I guess we just wanted a fresh start you know?” Sal said, his voice kind of going a bit low after opening up about his bullying, and his moms death. You sympathized with him, as you too had lost your father to an accident when you were around 8.

You passed him your cart, which he took and start to take a hit from again.

“Yeah, I understand what you mean. When I was 8 I lost my father to a car accident, and I’ve never been the same ever since. I’ve also always been kind of an outcast for my interests, since I guess people just don’t know what cool is.” You said with a small chuckle at the end.

The truth is, you’ve always tried ignoring it. You always tried telling yourself that it’ll all be over soon, but you fell into drugs and alcohol at the age of 11 to cope, and your mom became a stripper to be able to provide for both of you. You were always made fun of for the fact that your mom was a stripper, and you were always made fun of for the way you dressed to what you liked, and even your appearance.

“Alright broskies, enough dark shit talking. You guys are ruining the vibes in here.” Larry said lightheartedly. You chuckled. You know he meant no harm by it, but rather he wanted this to be your safe space right now instead of thinking about negative things. Sal seemed to take it the same way.

Larry began to light up the blunt, pressing it into his lips and taking a hit.

“Oh, by the way Y/N,” Sal stated “hm?” You replied “call me sally face. That’s what my friends call me” he said, which brought a smile to your face while Larry was coughing in the background.

“Sally face? That’s a pretty kickass name!” You said enthusiastic “you can call me N/N, that’s what my friends usually call me.” You said brightly. Though you couldn’t see it, you assumed Sal smiled behind his prosthetic as well.

“Alright lovebirds, if you two are done flirting now, it’s Sally boy’s hit next.” Larry said while passing the blunt to Sal, which he happily took.

Sal took a hit and started to cough. You giggled and began to pat his back with the intention of making him stop choking.

“Holy shit Sally face, that was a good ass hit! You’re gonna be in another dimension after that hit!” You said a little concerned, but also proudly. Sal just gave you a thumbs up while he continued to cough into the inside of his elbow.

You grabbed a water for Sal after he got done coughing. He handed you the blunt, which you took happily and he took the water swiftly as his throat was killing him.

You took the hit with ease. You were used to this shit. You didn’t cough, but it did still hurt your throat so you drank some water from Sal’s bottle (which he offered) before passing the blunt to Larry, restarting the circle.

After a few minutes of smoking, and after killing the blunt, you guys were high off your asses. You were all just staring at the wall whilst listening to some sanity’s fall.

“If you’re deaf, can you still hear your own thoughts?” Larry said out loud. You were way too high for this shit, and so was Sal. (I hope this isn’t offensive. Just high thoughts.)

“Duuuude…” you said, fucking mind blown.

“Woahhh..” Sal said, just as equally blown away.

This was definitely the start of a good friendship. You guys were like, an unstoppable trio now.

AN: sorry it’s taken me forever to realease part two, and sorry that it’s kinda short! Schools been stressful, and I broke my phone and barely got a new one, so I didn’t have tumblr.

I kinda forgot this story existed, and I was mind blown that the last chapter was received so well! So thank you so much for the support. I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, and I’ll try my best to release chapter 3 soon.

[jorzuela]

2022 is the year we stop begging for friendship and chasing after people who don't really care all that much about maintaining a friendship.

Been debating about making a post about this or not but I thought my experience could help others.

In late June I decided to cut off, V, a person who until that point I had considered one of my closest friends. If you know anything about me, you'll know that my friends are my family and I love them deeply and I always considered myself soooo lucky for having such a strong bond with them all but I think I let things go unchecked for too long. Sometimes we really are trying to convince ourselves that things will be different, that something is just a rough patch on a much smoother road than it is.

The beginning of the end: She texted in our friends group chat inviting me and another friend to her house once again. For the past few years, we have only seen her at her home and she lives about an hour and a half by bus from us while she works in the city both me and this other friend live and also in the only one with a car.

In my usual crazy laughing audio messages I said something around the lines of "duuuude, why are you such a lazy ass, lol. Alright I'll come on Sunday but you know it takes us hours to get there and there's only so many buses there and the way back is even worse so a 5 hour visit turns into an entire day affair, let's meet up in some other place next time, ok? I love you enough to make this entire trip every time you decide to invite us xD, so what i'm asking is if you love me enough to come visit either at my house or if we can go for coffee downtown, what do you think?"

her reply was to call me delirious, to tell me I am absolutely mental and that she will not even dignify my audio by listening to it, that she doesn't care about what I have to say. She invited me over in good faith and if I don't wanna come then I shouldn't because she's not making me and she has other friends that can come over but she was giving me priority and she has better things to do than to listen to my bs. She said maybe it was not the right time to answer my message but she was going through something that she hadn't told us about so she didn't give 2 flying fucks about me or my "issues".

Now, this might seem "bad but not that bad" until I started thinking and that's what you never want because I have great memory, at least when it comes to things that have hurt me in the past. I remembered every single time I have tried to bring up from the smallest to the biggest issue with her to discuss it and it is never a good time, there's always something bad or more important happening in her life that makes me have to suck it up in hopes that she will eventually talk to me about it but after months she says that the topic is dead to her and she will not talk about it.

Some of the biggest instances include when I asked her if i could come over to her house for a few hours because I feared for my safety at home, she was home and had family over so she said she didn't feel like entertaining me, so I spent the entire day walking around downtown, crying and she texted me nonstop saying she was worried about me, but i guess not worried enough to let me sit in a corner of her house and be quiet for a while.

Another one was when she invited me to meet her new group of friends and we went dancing, she was mostly ignoring me and i was miserable so i drank a bit faster than the rest of the group, didn't fall or scream or do anything other than drink a bit more, nothing out of the ordinary and she dragged me away and screamed at me that I was embarrassing her, that she was ashamed of me and I was making everyone uncomfortable so I started crying and she was shocked. I returned to the group and tried to pretend that everything was fine, apologizing to one of the girls for making her uncomfortable and she didn't know what I was talking about, she said i was bothering anyone or doing anything wrong. I ended up leaving and crying all the way home. When I woke up hours later my V's father had passed so i had to do fuck all with this, obviously, since something else was going on and I comforted her. She never wanted to talk about this night and I'm fairly sure she doesn't even remember it anymore, but I do.

She has stood me up for my birthday after promising to come quite a few times, she has started treating me like shit every time she made new friends until they all circled out of her life, and she has acted like she was better than me in many ways over the years but she always came back around eventually.

We were friends since we were 18, so half of our lives at this point, and it has always been a rollercoaster of good and bad times. After this last argument, I remembered all the times I was so close to cutting her out of my life but she eventually returned with a big smile saying "hey guys, omg, haven't seen you in forever, come to my house, I'll cook for youuu. Omg I love you guys so much!" and because of all the history between us, all the years, the long studying nights, our long talks and adventures I always felt the pull to come back to her and see where things would go, and it's always good for a while.

My therapist said that years don't mean all that much if so much of it has been bad, so many instances when I felt hurt and humiliated and she didn't even care.

The conclusion of the affraid and her audios basically telling me to fuck off was that I said ok but I don't want a farewell party. This particular friend has always been one to have the friendship on display and make cheesy shit to post online rather than taking care of the friendship as it should be, like sappy friend's day posts when she had been standing me and our other friend up, etc. She was the most excited to plan a farewell party for me when I move continents, for show, ofc, and I knew in my heart that even after this she would make a bunch of posts and take pics, make the party etc, because omg my frieeend, my looove is moving away, how will I ever live, but she can't fucking come to see me or even listen to what I say. FUCK THAT SHIT.

If she would have told me "girl, you know I'm a lazy ass, let's see what we can do for next time," I would have been happy, but she had to dismiss me yet again. The bottom line is that she doesn't care, she doesn't do 50/50 friendships, she is not supportive and she doesn't want to talk about shit, not even problems she may have with me. I am not an easy person but in 18 years she has never complained to me about anything and I think we are OLD, we are adults, if you can't talk to me then there's nothing to keep going for.

An unexpected consequence of this friendship being over: Another friend (F) made a huge fuss about a guy she met on tinder for a week and hadn't even met irl having a girlfriend when she stalked hi on FB so I told her not to let that ruin her Christmas and she never replied back. She stopped talking to me because of that; she has stopped talking to me for years at a time for silly shit like this before. She didn't even read our messages and didn't answer when I texted her for her birthday but the moment this fight between me and V happened she went into the groupchat and read and heard all the audios. They have always ganged up in petty little fights against someone in my group friend over stupid things, once it was Esteban, another time if was Fer, who heard them talk shit about her btw, and they both hate Laura because I hold Laura in a higher place, she has been my friend the longest and we have hardly ever had any problems because we talk things out. I decided that I am not going to give either of them any more of my time or energy. F has been a much much better friend than V through the years but I'm just tired of this petty shit. I unfriended them in everything and left the group chat because I don't want them to stalk my social media and I know they would.

So out of this 4 person group chat I remain friends with only one, Bertita, one of the best people I know and I don't regret it. She has told me she went to see V and when she brought up the topic, Bertita told her to talk to me but V says she has nothing to talk to me about and called me immature.

[papita-adobada]

Graduating From Single Life. (A Tedgens story).

For: @irismegau

Ted

"Come on Paul! Come with me! It's Alice's graduation, she would love to see you there!" Said Bill.

"No Bill, i'm sorry, you know how I feel about that kind of events." Said Paul, sometimes he acts like an asshole, i mean, i'm an asshole but sometimes he's worse than me.

"You don't have to stay there the whole ceremony! Please!" Insisted Bill. I was just standing there watching the world burn.

"No, Bill, I don't want to go, okay?" He said as he walked away.

Bill stayed silent for a few seconds, took a sip of his coffee and then looked at me.

"What?" I said. I don't like when people look at me for too long.

"What about you, Ted? Would you go with me?"

"Ugh, Bill, why me?" I also didn't want to go.

"Come on Ted, it'll be fun! Maybe you can meet someone new there." He said.

"Ugh, okay, i'll go with you, but this will be the first and last time, okay?"

"Okay!"

I got home after a long and boring day at work. I took my shoes off and lied on my bed.

"Meet someone new, that's stupid." I said to myself.

It was 1:00 p.m when I woke up the next day. The graduation was at 2:00 p.m.

I got up. Bill said it was an elegant event, I don't have any kind of elegant clothes.

I was looking for something decent in my closet when I found one of those t-shirts that look like you're wearing a suit.

I put it on, put on some black pants and black shoes.

"It looks good" I said and then I heard someone knocking the door.

I took my keys, my wallet and my phone before opening the door.

"Hi Ted! Are you re-what on earth are you WEARING?!" Said Bill.

"You don't like it?" I said, his reaction was a surprise to me, I think I look amazing.

"NO I DON'T I-" He was about to explode. "You know what? There's no time for this, let's go." He sounded annoyed as fuck, I love to annoy him.

He drove us to Alice's school with a really mad and uncomfortable expression on his face.

We got out of the car and went straight to the school gym, there were some chairs and we sat down.

"Where's Alice?" I said.

"She's probably with her girlfriend and friends."

"Hm." I just wanted this to end as soon as possible.

"Ted, I have to go to the bathroom, i'll be right back." He said and walked away.

I was bored so I started to look around, there were some kids running, some teachers, parents, etc. When Bill said "Maybe you can meet someone new" I was expecting to see some hot moms or something.

Then, someone called my attention

It was a tall man wearing a white suit, pretty elegant, he had beautiful silver hair. I looked at him from head to toe and god, that was a good ass.

"That's what i'm talking about, hello naughty list." I said to myself.

He turned around and I finally saw his face. It was the most gorgeous face i've ever seen, even though he had a nerd face, he must be a professor... and he looks like he likes musicals.

Bill came back and the graduation started. I noticed the tall man wasn't there anymore.

It felt like forever, and we'd only been 20 minutes there.

"You can stand up and walk around for a moment if you want to, just don't destroy anything, okay?" Whispered Bill when he noticed my boredom.

"Sure." I said as I got up.

I walked around for some minutes and saw a huge green area with trees, flowers and all that shit.

I saw the hot tall man from before sitting under a tree reading a bunch of papers, then, I had a great idea.

I started walking in his direction. When I was close to him, I took my wallet out of my pocket and "accidentally" threw it on the ground.

"Hey!" He said. And holy fuck, his voice was so deep.

"Yeah?" I turned to him.

"I think you dropped this." He said while pointing to my wallet.

"Oh! Yeah, thank you." I picked it up.

"No problem...I-I like your shirt." He said, he sounded nervous.

"You do?"

"Yeah, it's...funny." He giggled and I fucking melted.

"Thanks. I'm Theodore, Theodore Richards, you can call me Ted." I said quickly.

"Nice to meet you, i'm Professor Henry Hidgens." He smiled as he shaked my hand. What a precious bastard.

I smiled back. I needed to say something, I needed to know more about him because...maybe Bill was right or maybe i'm just desperate.

"May I ask you something?"

"Uh, s-sure." He said, he looks surprised.

"Why are you here and not inside?"

"I'm...well...I don't like this kind of events, and I don't like being around a lot of people but the principal said I had to attend like the rest of teachers. I-I don't go out very often." He giggled again. "What about you, Mr. Richards?" He asked, and my name sounded great in his mouth, not gonna lie.

"I was bored." I said and sat next to him. "What are you reading?"

Hidgens

I have no idea what to do. This man just sat next to me and now i'm having a conversation with him. What am I supposed to do or say? I've never had long conversations with anyone, and he makes me feel even more nervous because he's cute as hell.

He just asked me what i'm reading, he will think i'm a nerd...

"Oh, i-it's nothing..." I said.

"Come on, show me!" He insisted. I couldn't say no to that adorable mustache.

I handed him the papers.

" 'Working Boys'?"

"Y-yeah...it's...uhm...i'm writing a musical." I said. Now this is the part where he looks at me like i'm a weirdo.

"That's cool duuuude, I like flashmobs." He said, he doesn't look surprised, he is not looking at me like i'm weird, it's like he already knew it.

"Yeah!" I giggled.

"Anyway, how old are you?" He asked. I don't really like to talk about my age but I don't want to be rude.

"I-I'm...62" I said.

"Well, you look younger, and you look...well-built." He said and winked at me, is he flirting with me?

My face went bright red.

"T-thank you. What a-about you?" I asked.

"I'm 41." He smiled.

No way, I can't be attracted to him, he's way younger than me but he's just too cute.

We talked for a while and exchanged our phone numbers.

Ted

We stayed in silence for a few seconds, it's pretty obvious i'm attracted to him, and I think he feels the same.

I'm just tired of all the young people, i'm bored of them but he's different, he's smart, sweet and kinda crazy.

I'm ready, i'm going to ask him out on a date.

"Hey." I said.

"Yeah?"

"I'm going to say this directly: you're hot." I saw his face going red. "So, would you go on a date with me?"

"I-I'm..." He was speechless.

He got up and ran away, did I say something wrong? Maybe it was because I said "hot."

Everything happened so quickly so the only thing I could do was follow him.

He entered into a bathroom stall.

I knocked the door.

"Henry?" He didn't say anything. "Ah, shit. Henry, listen, I don't know what happened, okay? Did I say something wrong, did I-"

My phone rang. It was Bill.

"Ted where are y-"

"NOT NOW BILL." I hanged the phone. "Listen Henry, I'm gonna be honest. I've never met anyone like you, I've always been an asshole but now... now I'm alone, I want to know you even more, I'm really attracted to you, I want you to go an date with me. Maybe it's to soon, I know, but you made me feel something that I never thought I could feel. "

He slowly opened the door.

"Ted...i'm sorry. I was scared...i'm way older than you..."

"Hey, we're both adults, isn't it?" I said.

"Yeah..."

"Hey." I put my hand on his cheek "Don't be scared."

He smiled sweetly, put his hand on mine, got closer and kissed me.

I smiled back.

"Is that a yes?"

He giggled.

"Yeah."

Well, it wasn't the most appropriate place for our first kiss, but it didn't matter as long as I was with him.

Hello! Papita here!

If you have any Tedgens headcanons or ideas just DM or send me an ask!

[wallapology]

Name: Ashley

Nickname: Ash, Asher Dasher, Ashpology

Zodiac: Taurus my duuuude

Favorite Musicians or Group- The Beatles, Cosmo Sheldrake, They Might be Giants

Favorite sports team- Go Cards!

Other blogs: @stayofftheboardwalk was a vampire account I used to post on, I don’t as much anymore

Do you get asks: Naaaah but if for some reason there’s something you’re wondering about my opinion on, feel free to ask me

How many blogs do you follow: 213

Tumblr crushes: Like romantic crushes??? None???

Lucky Number: 7. SO ORIGINAL

What are you wearing right now: kinky uh an oversized U of I fighting Illini tee that my mom used to own and Oregon Ducks pajama pants with lil flippers all over them.

Dream vacation: Either to London, the forests in the Pac Northwest, or nowhere. Stay in. In my bed.

Dream car: I like my Nissan Rogue dude!

Favorite food: So once I went to this place in Palo Alto that had crepes and I got a “American crepe” which had brisket and avocado and... HOOOOLY SHIT. I wish I could have that again but I don’t remember what or where it was. Too luxurious for my pallet.

Drink of choice: Diet coke or coffee usually. I also really like Lapsang/smoke tea and Dutch rebels.

Instruments: Like, really well? None. But like stuff I can play decently? Trumpet, guitar, formerly piano.

Languages: English, Spanish is eh, I’ve been wanting to learn ASL SO BADLY

Celebrity Crush: Idk man, David Tennant? Sasha Dhawan? John Simm? It changes regularly tbh.

Random fact: I regularly eat popcorn seasoning out of the jar bc it’s so good. I also liked anchovy paste out of the bottle for... like... A WHILE but now it’s too salty for me. I had pica as a kid (I frequented sidewalk chalk and Play-Doh) and never really grew out of it.

Favorite ecosystem: Pacific Northwest temperate/conifer forest. I honestly can’t imagine living without pine trees and enough moisture to have... like... grassy fields.

Favorite cat species: Dog lol

I tag uuuuuh @the-twohearted-dalek ,@sclfmastery’s mun if she wants, other than that do it if you wanna.

[cruddyborderlandstheories]

“i had a dream about the Borderlands are Yours trailer last night for like the 7th time so i guess i ought to do the analysis before i have a breakdown”

find the trailer here

~discussion of the cloth map spoilers occurs in here, but nothing else. if you’re worried about those spoilers do not read~

non-spoiler tl;dr: we discuss why rhys’s head implant is yellow instead of blue in this one particular scene and also go thru a bunch of theories as to what tf is up with Zer0. and some other stuff about giant space lasers

so the intro is pretty much the same as the we are mayhem trailer so we’re gonna ignore that since we figured out where sanc-iii was

pretty sure this scene has been shown already too, in the official announce trailer, i remember taking note of the pink shots

another cov camp on pandora (see elpis in the back). ive said it before and ill say it again i adore amara’s as animations

seen this a bajillion times as well

from we are mayhem near the end. also im still lowkey convinced that robot directly to the right of moze is jakobs. i know i’m probably wrong but... i want to believe. it reminds me of a cowboy

The Are. this is directly below Sanc-III (u can see the wall in the background)

eden-6!!! im interested in the signs in the back there

Prison, Reliance, Jakobs Estate, and... amoe kyuri??? wtf does this say?? idek.

This A Way (glad to know Claptrap will haunt us from beyond Sanc-III)

im interested in the Prison. i wonder if that’s any of those concrete structures/buildings we’ve been seeing across eden-6. i was under the assumption those were like testing facilities, but a prison would also make a whole hell of a lot of sense.

actually

given this sign here over the bridge to the left of the above shot

and the fact we see this concrete structure on the far left in this coming shot

that might actually make some lick of sense...

also can i just say i love the aesthetic of this supply line

so there’s a lot of shots here we’ve already seen and gone over multiple times, im not going to do that again. sorry but... eh.

maliwan = cultists confirmed

i mean if the cult-themed t-shirts being maliwan colored didn’t already cue us in on that, this definitely should lol

and speaking of this shot, i wonder if this has anything to do with Rhys’s building? the one his office would be in. it looks like there are multiple levels to the right of this robo

ah maliwan working with the cult why am i not surprised

rhys gets fucking annihilated (TM)

in all honesty... given this quest name

“Space-Laser Tag” and the subsequent quest “Atlas, At Last” makes me honestly think rhys is about to seriously get fucked up

which sucks. i like rhys. we’ll talk more about this in a second, but i don’t think its coincidence the VHs have come up to the asteroid belt to stop the giant space laser and thus are not on Promethea where the laser is going to hit

better look at this shot, that definitely looks like a rampager to me. i get it, i think. gearbox is hyping up this rampager fight to be super awesome, show it in all the promotional material, have a kickass fight with it, then the twins come in and steal the kill from you. they steal the satisfaction from getting to kill this super hyped-up vault monster.

im picking up what you’re putting down, GB. 

did not realize fl4k actually snaps. how the heck do they do that?? gotta be hard with metal caps as their fingers tbh

404 space station not found

we’re back on the asteroid

... why this gun shoot tentacles :|

this is art

wheres his head going

i was so distracted by the razor blade status effect (??? zeroes??) i didn’t notice the giant-ass A on this banner

OwO what’s this for

~A~

also this which... looks like it could be an amara skill. maybe the one that releases elemental projectiles after an enemy is damaged? feel like we would’ve seen that one already tho.

thinking of this one, im pretty sure we should’ve seen this in one of the many, many gameplay videos (im so jealous) already available.

so if it is, baller, if it’s not, im not too surprised.

it does also seem to be targeting the double cause its shield becomes visible after being hit

i thiiink this is eden-6? in which case it may be that facility tina, brick, and mordy are in (the windows). which may, in retrospect, be that prison we’ve been hearing about

cool angle of the HBC. im pretty sure we’ve seen this shot before, too.

before we get to the actual best part of this scene

this looks very Athenas-like. possibly eridian? although the lights are throwing me off. i suppose the order or someone from the order could’ve built these structures... but what for??

heheheh

also this fucker has those rocks growing out of his head, too

the ones from the alien guns

somewhere outside the RC

back at it again in the space station

also this maliwan thing looks so fucking cool

duuuude looks like the cult got their hands on more than just maliwan hoverwheels, check out that dropship on the left!!! looking cool asf

the cars are STUNNING

holy shit this skin is amazing

very siren-esque

we’ve gone over this clip already but given now that we know the maliwan base thing is on the asteroid, it’s fitting to re-address it i think

a look at one of the metal bois (that im still convinced are jakobs lol)

i love the way this thing looks

the portal seems to be giving off the same blue sparkles we’ve seen on pandora

these

[edit] we also see them in the newest new trailer as Sanc-III zooms off into space. which is interesting.

dunno wtf that means, but yeah. they exist

probably some weird eridian/other dimension shit.

more eden-6

goliath looking amazing. not red and is wearing a helmet, so that’s interesting

looks like a part of the space station

biggggg hallway. im honestly loving how huge these maps seem to be

geniviv! i love her boss fight sooo fucking much.

honestly looks like so much fun

more c a r s

this fucker

probably eridian

i mean it seems to be absorbing the pink-ish energy from the moving stones so i assume its got some sort of link going on

also comparing the mask and arm bit to what we’ve seen rhys hand us on promethea

this thing???

but yellow instead of pink

u kno all this

ye

then again it does sorta ruin the eridian tech so maybe... it’s not lol

honestly my other guess is this is part of that ‘experimental forest’ we’ve seen signs for during the eden-6 demo. dunno why it’s destroying the eridian ruins tho. maybe those pink b e a m s are hurting it? entirely possible. some sorta... life succ ability like Tyreen.

but i don’t think it’s coincidence this thing has shown up right on top of some Eridian ruins/buildings/whatever. the leftmost part though looks like it could be human technology, which is weird. maybe some weird sort of mish mash. human tech that trees/plants grew onto and eridian ruins accidentally powered up. iunno man. im tiored.

rhys’s implant is glowing orange/yellow-ish which is very new

this is from the dev trailer (not glowing at all in the darkness)

from the promethea twitter trailer

and honestly that’s pretty wild to me because in tftbl rhys’s implant glows blue 

shown when he’s in the vault next to fiona

in bl3 during the We Are Mayhem trailer while using his ECHO eye

oh also since i just noticed

from the promethea demo

this scene

also from the promethea demo

they’re missing their monomolecular edge!

we’ll get back to zer0 in a secco

anyway you know who else’s head implant glows?

im not saying katagawa is replacing rhys because their implants are on opposite sides of their heads, but i am saying Katagawa WANTS Rhys in Maliwan and... well, Rhys’s forehead implant isn’t glowing yellow in any other shot we see of him

idk gamers i just think its sus

also rhys is holding onto that thing we see him handing to us in the Promethea trailer

this thing?? you know?

the eridian thingie majig

tho these look like two different areas... unless there’s like a very drastic wall change between angles (which there may be- these fans look identical)

which makes sense that Maliwan would want it (for the big laser thing maybe?? since we know they’re going for activating said laser)

... but honestly i get the feeling this is in some way related to... after the laser. especially since we know that that eridian thingie matches up with this one on pandora

in which case... wtf is the laser for? it definitely looks like its destroying stuff on the surface...

rhys also seems to have knowledge about the eden-6 vault key since he projects it during the dev trailer

me thinks someone got h a c k e r o n i e d

alright galaxy brain theory time:

rhys gets hacked by maliwan not only bc they want a merger, but also because he has info on the vaults/giant space laser, forces zer0 to be maliwan branded now since atlas is joining maliwan, zer0 finds out rhys is not willingly joining maliwan and is instead under maliwan control and tries to forcibly take the key away from him, we stop zer0 and save rhys from both the assassin and maliwan control

🤷‍♂️

Alright but in all seriousness there’s only 2 ways this can go

1. that’s actually our zer0

2. that’s actually not our zer0

and there’s a lot of theories running around about that and i guess we ought to address them

so for 1 there’s a few possibilities:

1. zer0 is a robo/cyborg and got hacked by maliwan (i personally don’t like this one bc i don’t want to know what zer0 actually is. it is a ~m y s t e r y~)

2. zer0 got paid more money to eliminate rhys and is doing so

3. zer0 decided killing their boss would be the ultimate challenge and thus decided to try it out... by joining maliwan

4. they’re faking rhys’s death and/or zer0 is infiltrating maliwan

5. zer0 got the brainwashed/their bodysuit got hacked (i would be interested to see if the monomolecular edge tech caused them to get captured or smth. i mean if there’s a tracker on it, then zer0′s decepti0n wouldn’t exactly work cuz they turn invisible... but they’d still be seen)

6. rhys got the brainwashed/hacked and zer0 is attacking him to get the eridian thingie/key/relic/whatever back

personally i’m curious how they’d play off 1-3 given Zer0 and Rhys are both shown on sanc-iii and zer0 even has crew challenges

im saying idk if the crimson raiders would appreciate zer0 attacking/trying to kill an ally without very good reason.

which is why i’d imagine 4-6 are the more reasonable answers?

also given the explosion of Promethea (what we’re assuming is Promethea) is green and also the laser we see maliwan controlling is purple, i wonder if that’s some brainwashing juice instead of... other stuff. cuz like.

this is elpis’s giant space laser. very radiant and like... ribbon-y? and has all that blue stuff and orbs and mm.

THIS is Promethea’s very solid and has circles and just. looks straight up like a death laser.

and yeah again it could be modified by that human-looking (?) tech around it to be like a brainwashing b e a m or something

or just more precise. that too.

and honestly idk if this could destroy a planet like how we see the planet (that we are assuming is promethea bc of the asteroid belt) in the sanc-iii article

it’s a solid ‘yeah that’s more likely than my theory’. might take a lot of time tho. or maybe those energy rings power it up or deal more damage when they hit the planet...

oh also given Tina literally says “WE blowing up this whole mother humpa”

and the reason im questioning the human-looking tech around it is because

typhon and leda 100% noticed something here. i guess if it was altered by humans after typhon and leda found it then that would make sense?

we’ve also got this from the tree guy, so i don’t know for certain.

anyway number 2

(2. that’s actually not our zer0)

i love these ones

1. that’s 0ne (zer0′s assassin’s assassin from the son of crawmerax dlc)

2. maliwan made a/hired a copy of zer0 and it’s easy to copy their voice/way of speech bc of the modulator (that’s just a fake implanted into atlas to steal all their secrets)

and all of these have the idea that the real zer0 shows up to save rhys at the end of this scene (explaining the blue light)

this

i personally disagree on that being zer0′s sword. tbh it looks more like a maliwan weapon or a laser or smth to me. that said it could be a weird effect because they’re in decepti0n or smth.

most of these theories have the idea that the real zer0 is either off with Fiona or Lorelei or just off on their own and only show up later. i wouldn’t even be surprised, given their line at the end of Tales. you know the one where they diss rhys like “i was talking to her” lol

so i don’t really have much to add to these. personally i believe that’s our zer0 up there, but i wouldn’t be shocked if something happened with the monomolecular edge that allowed maliwan to create a copy of zer0. or brainwash/control them. whichever. 

i do like the reintegration of 0ne into the story, that’d be a hilarious call-back, but i worry it’d be too obscure (a side quest in a headhunter dlc) for the majority of players. we’ll see

it’s weird if brainwashing or mind controlling thru the maliwan tech is the case bc the monomolecular edge isn’t present on their maliwan sword. or their future sanc-iii sword (but that part DOES make sense bc why would they keep that).

(alright also so i just took a bunch of nyquil cuz im sick as a dog so if this devolves into incoherent rambling im so sorry)

ah aurelia

i love her to bits but i don’t trust her because i mean... she worked alongside Nisha and Wilhelm and Alistair dislikes her. there’s like a 50-50 shot she’ll become evil

i would not be surprised if this is a boss fight (door looks frozen over on the left there) but also i would not be surprised if she’s helping us fight off waves of enemies given it looks like we’re in the jakobs manor

like i said 50-50

her attack does make the camera wiggle a bit, usually that happens if the attack injures the player viewing it (with the hud off) cuz it will give a stagger effect

so take that with a grain of salt. also we don’t see aurelia on sanc-iii when hammerlock and wainwright are both there in the group shot in the launch trailer

this fucker i already talked about a bunch in my reddit post on the eridium subject so im going to link that here. i might have already spoken about it on here tbh... i can’t remember lol

anyway here’s the copy and paste from there to here

you can see a huge Tink with Eridium growing out of his head and what look to be Eridium horns. And he's being elementally charged from an Eridian floor tile (in one of those temples, probably the Pandoran one but it could be Athenas, I guess). Kind of like how Bloodwing (also bigger) becomes elementally charged by Jack using element-throwers to change her element. i know it's a cultist tink because on his right shoulder (our left) he has those glow-y pink/purple tubes that are on the CoV guns and other cultists (like goliaths). and while i'm not sure if this is solely Eridian stuff (since they're in a temple) or because of the twins, it's definitely something that should be talked about. 

wait no yeah i did talk about this because of the athenas post. i just remembered lol

uhhh whoops. double dipping i guess lol sorry

still not sure if this is Pandora or Athenas. kind leaning towards Pandora atm

i like how this guy is able to make a cryo wall thing

he goes to smash it but we don’t get to see what happens cuz it cuts to another rampager

dishing out corrosive/radiation (??) attacks while someone shoots it with a fire weapon

this bamf which i KNOW i discussed in that athenas post

also something i haven’t noted is that his roar seems to be activating something here, like a spiral light of dooooom. also more blue sparkles. maybe summoning an assist? or a debuff/attack aoe. 

there is also this weird light near its legs that moves with the camera and sorta reminds me of the weird real-life face talky siren thing. you know the one

very curious as to what this is cause i haven’t seen it in any other scene with a rampager in it. maybe some sort of connection to the spiral/whirlwind thing it’s making?

oh wow im tired now lol

well bl3 is fully downloaded on my computer gamers, so we can officially say it’s happening!!!

[werevulvi]

Why does going to the gyno always end up weird? There's your trigger warning for this post. This gets at least borderline bad, considering my poor judgement of what even is bad. So I had an appointment for today. The gyno was an older man, apparently. I assumed we'd just talk and he'd prescribe me something for my hormone issues, but also kept in mind he might do some poking around. And well yeah, he did... First off, he right away suggested some estrogen medication thing that he'd put up into my vagina and then I could leave it in there for 3 months. Something I could have done myself, but he *insisted* on helping this fair maiden with that difficult task... For some reason I agreed to that. Cause it seems I had forgotten my brain in the car. Happens sometimes. And then he gave me the hormone thing for free. I mean for the price of letting him look at and poke my genitals. Because that wasn't actually planned on for the appointment. Or at least I had not been told about it prior. He also wanted to check if my ovaries were still alive and working in there (cause of my low estrogen levels since quitting testosterone hrt) so I got a surprise vaginal ultrasound too! It felt a bit like he was just randomly shoving up stuff without much warning. And very eagerly. And suggesting STD tests "since you're already here" cause I mean why not...? He excitedly asked me if I have a boyfriend but seemed utterly disappointed when I said there's a girl I might get together with for sex relatively soon-ish maybe. Cause he seemed to need a reason for why I wanted to know exactly what type of HPV virus I'm dragging around with, so I said not wanting to transfer it over to a new partner. And cause it's only harmful for females, it felt important to mention her sex. But it was as if the light in his eyes went out when I mentioned that new partner would be another female. It was satisfying to disappoint him, I admit. Perhaps I just found the only straight man who doesn't get off to lesbian porn. Okay so that's the "fun" part about this atrocious appointment. Cause he also stroked my opening with his gloved hand for a moment to then tell me I was noticably sore there (cause of my vaginal atrophy, but that's a weird statement to make, considering literally only I can feel if I'm sore or not, regardless of body part) and that was... a bit creepy. Then afterwards while I was getting dressed he very fucking rudely, and definitely not necessarily, commented on the size of my clit. Duuuude. He asked me if it would reduce in size when I've been off testosterone longer. The damn nerve! I hate it when people (especially men) have the gall to just flat out assume there's something wrong with my clit just being bigger than average. It functions and looks just fine! It probably functions better than his dick! Perhaps he was jealous....... if so, dude has way worse problems than me and my “noticable” soreness. I pretty much just laughed it off but informed him that I'm not at all bothered by its size. Then he went onto comment on my voice being too deep and at that point I just kinda had enough. Oh he was creepy alright. But in very subtle ways. He clearly was way too fucking happy about poking at my genitals and drawing it out as much as professionally possible. The comments on my body, the literal aesthetics due to my detransition situation were way out of line. And it was also quite clear that he gave me that hormone thing for free because of... gratitude. That makes me shudder a bit now. Glad I didn't have to pay for it but... that was a gift. From my doctor. Because he got to shove it up my pussy. I don't know how to feel about that. I don’t even know how to practice bodily autonomy. That once reflex got suffocated by my traumas, I think. I'm not too good at speaking up or even noticing if things are sketchy in such situations until like 2 hours after. Cause it all seemed totally normal while in that room. Until my dumb brain starting working again in the car back home. Oh well, guess I survived that too. Wasn't that bad. Although it was quite mentally uncomfortable. That ultrasound rod and the way he used it on me without warning reminded me of my past traumatic sexual experiences with men, like he was fucking me with it, which made me wanna crawl out of my skin. Although it was just a slight reminder. Like a ghost resting her hand on my shoulder for a moment before leaving again. No more male gynos. I've officially had enough of them! Should I report this though? I'm kinda unsure.

[hyyunjinn]

guiding light | soulmate!minho fic

summary: When your words were etched right above his heart but you already had your fated words encircling your arms—fated words he never said.  

→ pairing: bff!minho x reader  

→ pronouns: they/them

→ genre: angst/fluff + soulmate au

→ words: 10.1k  

→ a/n: slow burn? DEFINITELY SLOW BURN. suffer with me everyone :) ily (it’s *canonverse! so he goes through being a backup dancer and training and the show :))  mucho angst guys) (BUT IT’S ALSO REALLY CUTE I SWEAR)

*i’m assuming the events into a timeline from what we know of him

“you were my guiding light”

the sentence has always been etched on your arm and everyone assumed it’s the first thing you’ll hear your soulmate say

honestly? besides your name? that was the first thing you learned to read

and if you were bored, you’d trace the words that encircled your right forearm

admiring how pretty it looked on you, like a circlet

your parents would always smile when they catch glimpse of your tattoo, comforted that your soulmate sounds like they’d really take care of you

you were my guiding light

sounds like promising first words

however, a couple of years into middle school when you were talking to Minho about soulmates, he pointed out how it says “were” and not “are”

you were offended

your jaw dropped and he quickly tried to reassure you that maybe they just had bad grammar or something

but it ate at you for a while

until you grew out of it

since your soulmate didn’t appear for the longest time

BUT LET’S START FROM THE BEGINNING:

you and minho became best friends at the end of elementary school when the two of you got separated from your family at an out of town faire

your mom sent you off to buy food as she looked over your siblings, but when you went back to what you thought was the same spot she was at—she wasn’t there 

so being the kid you were, you wandered, trying to find her: pushing through crowds of people and tried to avoid getting run down by other kids until

you bumped into minho.

“oh! hi y/n” he greeted, a little shy considering meeting any classmate outside of class is kinda weird.

“oh,, hi minho.”

you two sort of stared at each other awkwardly until he noticed:

“are you lost?” he questioned, a smirk growing on his face

you flushed, but he quickly grinned and went “ME TOO!”  

so being bad children, you two didn’t look for your parents and went to go play

and since there were too many bodies and you two babies couldn’t find your parents, you guys just hung around the nearby game booths with your leftover tickets

it was a lot of fun

and he was nice enough to share his food tickets with you to buy this huge ice cream sundae

and when you guys met again at school, a friendship blossomed after that  

the two of you always got into trouble: either talking too loudly in class, arguing about something that you eventually, but accidentally, broke; tripping and receiving cuts and bruises and scabs everywhere.

whenever you two sat at the same table, you’d lean over and scribble over his paper just because and he’d have to get back at you by stealing your pencil case or closing your book, making you lose the page you were on

you guys are quite the dynamic duo.

as kids, you guys always went on adventures and chased each other around

and even as you guys grew up, nothing was too awkward

like you read all about the best friends who drifted apart and you were so scared that that might happen to the two of you

but there was always something about him that kept you attached—and he could say the same about you.

ya’ll had your dumb inside jokes (“heY MIN-HOHOHOO” “y/N SHUT UP BEFORE I shOVE A SAND CRAB DOWN YOUR BACK”) and dumb handshakes and dumb photos

(context to the sand crab thing? you had a dream where he dropped a sand crab down your back and you cAN STILL FEEL THE SENSATION ON IT BECAUSE IT FELT THAT REAL and then you woke up and called him in the middle of the night to yell at him and from then on he keeps threatening you about it)

“that’s you” he interrupted you, pointed to a brown splat of bird poop on a white car as the two of you walked by

a dumbass grin appeared on his as you narrowed your eyes at him, completely unamused.

and while you usually only see each other during school, he loves calling you up at night and talking about the new episode of your favorite tv shows or this new “recipe” he wants to try out the next time you guys hung out outside of school.

it was a really chill relationship: enough distance but still best friends all the same.  

you often times hit him for the dumb things he says and he’d just flash you his heart-stealing smile and laugh.

and he’d fret about you when you aren’t dressed warmly,

but you do the same thing so it’s okay.

and he loves to put his hands on your shoulders to shake you when he’s excited about something and it gets reALLy annoying

There was a park nearby that you two loved to hang out after school; hogging the swings and swinging there for hours on end—talking about who knows what.

and life just went on.

As the two of you guys grew older together, going through phases and crushes and puberty, the topic of soulmates eventually came up

somewhere along the line, minho picked up dancing as a hobby and he would teach you some moves for fun

and while you weren’t completely into it like he was, you loved how much fun the two of you had together just dancing in your backyard.

“one day I’m gonna be the main dancer”

“yeah?”

“heck yeah”

A couple of months just before middle school ended, a classmate of yours received their soulmate sign in class: a scribble of “PERMISSION SLIP DUE TMRW”

and everyone freaked out, trying to understand what that meant until your teacher explained that it’s the communication sign

as all the students crowded around your classmate as they tested it out, writing something like “hello?” on their skin and receiving a reply,

you beamed in happiness for your peer, finding the concept absolutely adorable

the classmate’s friend took a pen and scribbled on their arm: “YOU BETTER TAKE CARE OF MY FRIEND OR ELSE”

during lunch as Minho tried to steal your chips, you asked him “do you have a soulmate sign?”

snatching a chip and munching happily, it took him a second to understand your question before “no, I don’t think so. i don’t have tattoos or see in black and white or feel anything”

you sort of just blinked, surprised you guys never talked about this before

“you don’t?”

“yeah… and I guess it never really crossed my mind. how about you?”

“uh, yeah!” you pulled up your sleeve and revealed the circlet of words on your forearm

minho took your arm and pulled it closer to read the words

“you… were… my,” he snorted “guiding light?”

you snatched back your hand, offended as he laughed

“how romantic!”

“shut up”

“no it’s cute!” he paused. “it’s just… were?”

you cocked your head to the side

“like, past tense.”

bringing your arm up to look at it, you heart sank

“mINHO WHY WOULD YOU MENTION THAT!” you yelled, half amused, half hurt—and he heard that in your voice. 

“jasdkfa i’M SORRY I’M SORRY IDK I JUST AHH DON’T CRY!” he panicked, seeing your eyes tear up and he threw his arms around you to rock you back and forth violently

“maybE yOUR SOULMATE IS JUST DUMB ANd ThEY CAN’T GRAMMAR!” he shouted, sort of laughing at your reaction

he rested his chin on your head as you overdramatically sobbed

“you suck dude”

he smiled softly

“sorry, I didn’t mean to”

playfully scrunching up your face after he let go, he couldn’t help but laugh at the tears threatening to fall at the corner of yours eyes

“wAIT YOU WERE ACTUALLY CRYING?”

“SHUT UP IT WAS YOUR FAULT ANYWAYS”

trying to switch it up, he asked “are those the words they’re gonna say when you first meet them?

you stared at the black ink

“i mean, i’m pretty sure? that one is the most common mark anyways…. what do you think yours is?”

minho shrugged

“I never really thought about it because I didn’t have one I guess. It’ll appear one day.

“hopefully”

“hOPEFULLY? MINHO DON’T SAY THAT YOU’LL FIND YOUR SOULMATE!!!”

as the two of you entered high school and more soulmate signs began to appear on those without, the two of you sort of lost interest in the topic

like, most people meet their soulmates after graduating college anyways, so what’s the point?

even so,

realistically speaking, not everyone ends up with their soulmates or people just never find them or they wanted to go against societal norms

which is why minho has dated a couple people here and there

while you were still waiting, being the hopeless romantic you are

not that you minded: there wasn’t anyone for you to crush on at your school anyways

but you always hoped for minho’s sign to appear

maybe his was the color explosion one or the other version of the first words that appears

anyways,

when you guys entered high school,

he became really serious about dancing

you occasionally danced with him because why not, but he really stuck with the hobby—and it made you really happy to see him so happy dancing his heart out as he continued to learn

going to his performances

being the only one on the street who watched him perform,

“hey hey y/n! look at the new move i learned!”  

“duuUUDE that looks hecka cool TEACH ME”

“I tripped and nearly broke my nose the first time I attempted it”

“teACH ME!!!”

“I ain’t paying for your hospital bill”

realistically, you guys did drift just a little since he was so focused on his hobby and you had other interests

but it wasn’t like you guys didn’t smile at each other in the hallway and walk each other to your respective classes

and with whatever class you guys shared, there was no doubt he sat behind you and bothered you constantly by poking his pencil everywhere

and group projects? more like partner projects because you guys were too shy to join any other group and were more content with each other anyways

that way, you can count on each other to finish the work

When he joined the SOULDance Crew, that was when everything changed

you guys barely saw each other anymore—him focusing on dance; you, on college  

but that doesn’t mean you guys don’t text at ungodly hours about the weirdest topics of whatever is on your mind

like you’d scream about BTS and he’d laugh and torture you with whatever pictures he can dig up

or he’s rambling about what song he should use to choreograph and you flood him with all the new tunes you listen to

or if you’re just feeling bad and with a “wassup,” he knows immediately to send ugly selfies to you

and then graduation passed.

Your phone was filled with pictures with friends, but mostly him—whether it was just his side profile or a selfie or a derp face

but your favorite has got to be the polaroid of him piggybacking you, trying to carry his diploma at the same time

he got a matching one tucked away in his wallet

your meetups always fluctuated, and after a month of not seeing each other (him busy with his dance group and work; you with work and travelling around with your friends), you finally had a day off to meet each other

on the day of the annual fair that you always go (not the one the two of you met at), it was right after a filming for one of his dance covers

and he was so jumpy during it, everyone else was super confused but his high energy got everyone hyped enough to quickly finish the video

right after “cut!” minho stumbled towards his towel to wipe himself up, stuff whatever items of his that were laying around, and

“bYE EVERYONE! SEE YOU SOON!”

he was such a rush, everyone just looked at each other before someone called out

“HEY MINHO! WHat’S WITH THE HUSTLE DUDE?”

just as minho ran towards the exit

except he didn’t even hear his friend as he nearly crashed into poor you opening the door

the biggest grin spread across his face

“Y/N!”

“you’re done already—hey!”

he grabbed your hand and dragged you out to the street

“TO THE FAIR WE GO!!!!”  

“YOU’RE STILL SWEATY!”

“WE’RE RUNNING THERE ANYWAYS!”

everyone in the dance studio gave each other The Look and you guys can probably guess what happens

but we’ll go back to this date

so you ran to the bus stop,

him laughing and swinging your intertwined hands as you’re trying to catch your breath

“why did we have to run all that way?”

“because i want to!”

“nO”

“too late~”

ten minutes later, the bus arrived and you guys talked about your month as the bus rolled down the street

the carnival pulled into view and grins unconsciously spread across both of your features.

The door hissed open and he grinned at you

“ready?” you asked him, waiting for the traditional reply

“I bet 3 sundaes and a stuffed animal you’re gonna lose the goldfish”

“I bet a ride on the drop tower and the goldfish you’re gonna win a goldfish”

his jaw dropped as you guys hopped off the bus

“hEY UNFAIR. YOU CAN’T EVEN HANDLE THE DROP TOWER AND I’M GONNA WORK HARD FOR THAT GOLDFISH!”

you shrugged cheekily, glad the approaching night was cool enough while lights flashed about and kids ran around and the noisy sound of happiness encircled your surroundings

“it’s a trapped deal—if you don’t get us that goldfish we’re both gonna die”

“geT yOUr own gOLDfisH!” he pouted, crossing his arms as your neared the ticketbooth

“NO! I SUCK AT THAT GAME AND I WANT A GOLDFISH!”

“NO DEAL.”

“YES DEAL.”

“I AIN’T GOING ON THE DROP TOWER FOR YOU”

“I WANT A GOLDFISH!”

“THEN WIN IT AND I’LL BUY YOU 3 SUNDAES AND WORK MY BUTT OFF FOR A STUFFED ANIMAL”

“N O”

“fine. that means you’re going on the drop tower with me if I lose the goldfish.”

you scrunched up your face, hesitant, and then

“deal.”

your time there didn’t change from the past 8+ years together

you guys rushed around as many rides as you could before he’d start complaining about how hungry he is and drag you to the food and games booths and after pooling in and buying as much street food as you wanted, you guys walked around, taking in the atmosphere and each others’ presence

As the last hour neared, you leaned over to steal a last bite of his churro before you guys headed towards the goldfishing booth

to sum it up

you actually won the goldfish and he lost

“crap”

he laughed out loud

“you win some, you lose some,” he teased

you punched him in the arm

“unless you’re lee minho and you lose everything”

“shut up—I still managed to get you to go to the drop tower with me”

realization hit you

“yOU LOST THE GOLDFISH ON PURPOSE DIDN’T YOU”

“ALSDFJK NO I DIDN’T DOES IT LOOK LIKE I WANT TO GO ON THE DROP TOWER?!”

“L I A R”

“we’re gonna die we’re gonna die we’re gonna di e”

“y/n shut up”

“you shut up you loser”

“says the loser who walked right into a trap”

“at least i gOT my goldfish”

“you’re still going on the drop tower”

“i’m gonna kick you”

as you got closer and nerves began to take over he said “i hate you” before the two of your boarded

“my stomach is not gonna last”

“if you hurl, I’m leaving you”

needless to say, you guys made it alive,

barely

eagerly hopping off with a screech, you picked up your stuff from the cubby and handed him his

“that actually wasn’t so bad,” he mused with a grin, fixing his mussed up hair that was sticking in all directions

“tHAT MEANS YOU DIDN’T EVEN HAVE TO DRAG ME ON IT!” you yelled “I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE”

something strange seemed to tug at his heart looking at you cutely grumbling about the ride, but it was quickly washed over with an overwhelming urge to hug you—which he read as a platonic sign so he didn’t dwell on it  

he just laughed and apologetically hugged you

“get off me”

“you’re my favorite person in the entire world ♡”

“go buy me my sundaes”

you guys stayed until the announcement was made that the fair would close soon and you guys left with a fit of laughter

on the bus home, you fell asleep on his shoulder, which he smiled softly at

brushing away you hair and adjusting himself so it didn’t feel too awkward

which got him to fall asleep and you guys missed your stop

“minhooo, why did you fall asleep?”

“hey, it’s not just my fault—your head was really comfy”

luckily, the last stop was his anyways and you crashed at his house—just like old times.

The next day as Minho barely cracked open the glass door to the dance studio,

“MINHO WHO ARE THEY?”

“NO WONDER YOU WERE SO GIDDY!”

“WAS IT YOUR FIRST DATE?”

“HOW DID IT GO?”

“YOU GOTTA INTRODUCE THEM TO US!”

minho screamed and pushed through his dance buddies

“THEY’RE JUST A FRIEND!”

“that’s what they all say”

minho scrunched up his face

“best friend.”

“tHaT’s WhAt ThEy aLL SAY!”

“NO I DON’t LIKE THEM LIKE THAT”

“YEAH YEAH SURE TOTALLY”

the thought totally crossed minho’s mind once or twice in high school, but he frantically pushed it away—not wanting to dwell on it at all  

but his mind kept wandering back to last night and the way you looked in the glow of the carnival after the drop tower

and how your hair was all messy and how you were grumbling about your heart after the ride

and you were really breathless too and he found that really endearing

and when you were laughing on other rides

and when you leaned over to steal his food and he can see your eyelashes up close

also whenever you won a game

or lost a game

he furrowed his eyebrows—freaked out that he’s only noticing all of this for the first time

which led him to not focus on dancing

and his friend plopped down right next to him without him noticing

“classic ‘shoot i love my best friend’ dilemma isn’t it?” she asked

“shut up”

she smiled and patted his shoulder

“hey, if it’s meant to be, it’ll work out. fate will do it’s thing and you’ll find out sooner or later”

“but you guys didn’t have to mention iiiit”

“you’re telling me this thought never crossed your mind?” she deadpanned

“i mean, I don’t want to think about it so i always ignored iiiiit”

“don’t think about it too much! if you like them, you like them. if you want to stay as friends, stay as friends. if you want to be more, be more. if you don’t know what you want, just stay as friends. trust me.”

“they have their soulmate mark though: it’s the first words type of deal.”

“oh”

“yeah—so I shouldn’t like them”

“but you dated in the past right? you didn’t care about those soulmate signs”

minho paused

“i guess you’re right”

“don’t dwell on it too much!” she encouraged, shaking him back and forth with her hand on his shoulder

“but what if I do like them? what about their soulmate?”

“just wait until their soulmate comes around I guess? isn’t it better to test out the waters than just suffer knowing the soulmate will come anyways? maybe your friend won’t even stay with their soulmate: there are people like that”

minho shrugged

“cmoN—you don’t even know your feelings on it so let's just work on the new choreooo” she nagged, grabbing his hand and dragging him back to the practice floor   

he quickly forgot about the matter anyways when he became a backup dancer for BTS

that was a fun time

when he got the news, he immediately phoned you and placed the phone as far away as possible from his ear as he yelled “DUDE I’M GONNA BE A BACKUP DANCER FOR BTS!”

there was a pause on your end before

“YOU W H A T ? !”

“YEAH”

“NO SAY THAT AGAIN!”

“BTS. BACKUP DANCER. ME.”

“H O W. YOU GOTTA TELL ME DUDE”

so he talked about the audition news getting to his dance studio and he auditioned with a couple of his friends and they managed to passed so he’s gonna go learn the new choreography for their comeback and perform on the music shows and whatnot and you just sat on your bed with your jaw open, not quite believing any of this

“you’re kidding”

“i’m not”

“no way”

“yes way”

“wh a t ?”

“ye a h”

a surge of emotions just rushed through you before “I’M SO PROUD OF YOU MINHO OH MY GOSH GOOD JOB AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!”

you could hear his laugh on the other side of line and you broke out into a goofy grin

“this is so amazing!!! you! dancing! pursuing your dream! uGH MINHO I’M SO PROUD OF YOU I NEED TO HUG YOU BUT I GOT THIS DUMB ESSAY TO FINISH”

“IF YOU LEAVE YOUR HOUSE JUST TO HUG ME I’M GONNA ESCAPE THROUGH THE WINDOW”

so for the next couple of months, you rarely heard from him

but you know that’s a telltale sign that he’s working hard and a smile always appeared on your face whenever you’re thinking about him

or bragging about him to your friends

gosh the first time you caught glimpse of him on the music show

you s C RE E CHed and your roommate thought something was attacking you

“nO IT’S MINHO! LOOK LOOK LOOK!”

you roommate smiled when she caught sight of him and you spent the next hour crying about how proud you are of your best friend

you didn’t even pay attention to BTS and you love them to death

that same night, he called you and before he could even say hi—

“I SAW YOU ON TV AND I’M SO PROUD OF YOU DUDE”

“IT WAS SO NERVEWRACKING! I THOUGHT I MESSED UP!”

“did you?”

“yeah”

“wELL I DIDN’T NOTICE SO GOOD JOB!!!”

“pfft thanks—OH! I was gonna call you to tell you that I’m gonna perform at their Seoul concert!!!!

“..... buy me tickets”

“I don’t think I can”

“nOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I’M A BROKE COLLEGE STUDENT AND I NEED TO WATCH MY BOYS AND MY BEST FRIEND PERFORMMMM”

“welllllll, I mean I couuuld ask…..”

“aghghghghghhhhhhh—I can’t believe you’re gonna perform on tour! yOU’rE aN ACTUAL BACKUP DANCER!”  

“so you’re telling me I’m not a backup dancer when I perform on the music shows?”

“yeah”

“thanks for the pep talk y/n, now I know I can be the greatest while performing at the concert. i’ll work hard just for you”

“you’re welcome dude.”

The fact that he went viral had you on the floor

“daYUM ‘JUNGKOOK’S HANDSOME BACKUP DANCER!’ YOU SHOOK THE NATION!”

“SHUT UP!”

“YOU REALLY ARE THE GREATEST! i’M THE BESTEST BEST FRIEND EVER! I BLESSED YOU!”

minho fumed at his phone but inside, he was pretty elated that you found this so funny, a smile finding its way onto his face

“don’t forget me when you get famous” you dramatized and he softened.

“hey, can we video call?” he suddenly asked and you immediately worried

“oh yeah, of course,” you agreed, clicking on the video button “everything okay?” 

when his face appeared, he was lying stomach down on his bed, white covers propping up his phone

“um”

and you waited patiently, for whatever he had to say

“you’re not gonna leave me right?”

you blinked at him, unsure of what to reply since you weren’t quite sure of what he meant

and he understood that as he choked on his words trying to rephrase

“like, nothing would change between us if I continue this path, right?”

“of course not! minho, why would you think that?”

he paused

“idk, I guess it’s because you were like ‘don’t forget me when you get famous”

you flipped on your back and repositioned your phone, slightly upset that he took it like that

“hey if you were uncomfortable, just tell me. i’m sorry if you didn’t want to hear that, but i love you more than you can imagine—i don’t care if you’re famous or not, trust me”

“i do trust you! it’s just—”

“you’re talking to the same person who didn’t even freak out when we bumped into IU on the streets. or ask to meet up with BTS when you got accepted”

minho smiled “i guess you’re right”

“i’m sorry you felt like that”

“... i guess it’s just because i don’t want to lose you”

“and you won’t lose me! i’ll always be here! i’ll even let you push me into the sea next time!”

“you’re gonna regret that”

“it’s called pulling you in with me, d u h”

you guys talked for a bit more before you told him you had to work early tomorrow and you were going to sleep

and he made a face at you before ending the call

minho grabbed an extra pillow nearby and hugged it to his chest, which suddenly started hurting

he had an inkling as to what the feeling was but he managed to tell himself to fall asleep quickly to forget about it.

Fast forward a month or so

Minho couldn’t control his shaking hands as he clicked your number and impatiently waited for it to follow through

“hello?”

“please don’t make me go deaf—I have headphones in. but anyways: i got scouted for jyp”

you completely ignored his request and he had to yank out his earbuds

“Y/N!!!”

“OH MY GOSH”

“I CAN’T HEAR YOU WITHOUT EARBUDS BECAUSE IT’S REALLY LOUD RIGHT NOW AND I AIN’T PUTTING YOU ON SPEAKERS SO SHUT UP”

“I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! oh my gosh this is amazing!! mINHO! MINHOOOOOOO YOU REALLY ARE GONNA BE THE WORLD’S GREATEST—wait. does that mean you’re gonna train to be an idol?”

“after I pass the auditions yeah”

“no way”

“i know, crazy right?”

“you? an idol?”

“yeah i don’t see it either but—”

“—BUT You’RE GONNA CONTINUE YOUR DREAM OF DANCING! dude dude dude when’s the audition????”

“it’s like, in a month?”

The audition came and passed

and he passed as well

and whenever he had the time, he’d call you and talk about what happened each day

so he trained

and met new people

there was this boy, Seungmin you think, who really helped him adjust to the life as a trainee

“wow let me meet this Seungmin.”

“no. he’s mine”

And the day he met this boy named Chan, he got added to an official group?

and you were so shook, not quite sure how to react because wow Minho really will become an idol and have his face plastered on billboards and perfume ads.

What you didn’t know was that he was practicing for the showcase two weeks later.

He called you a day before and was like “so um, I got you tickets to the JYP showcase tomorrow and uhhhhhh I’m gonna perform with my group!”

“.... you could’ve told me earlier?!??!”

“WAIT CAN YOU NOT MAKE IT?!”

“no I can, WHY WOULD I PASS DOWN FREE TICKETS?!”

Minho pauses, debating whether or not to tell you something else

but his big mouth spilled it anyways: “i’m not supposed to tell you this, buT IM GONNA BE ON A SHOW!”

“W O A H”

“YEAH! It’s gonna be how my group prepares for debut! At least that’s what I heard,,,”

“WO OW WOWW do you have a date for the show yet?”

“no but it’s gonna start filming on the day of the showcaseeee—although, wait. Let me clarify: we’re actually going against a girl group to see who would debut first so uh, yeahhhhh, I might actually not debut soon, but it’s a hope!”

“you and your team are gonna kill it! … wait, tell me their names again?”

On the day of the showcase, you made signs for all of Minho’s team.

they had to ask him who you were because you were screaming so loud (but not as loud as the girl who screamed for Hyunjin lmao)

After the show,

you ran up to him all smiley and congratulating him with a bouquet of flowers and the other boys were like

OOoOOOoOoOO WHO T H I S

but you had to catch your bus home so you couldn’t really stay

“NOOOO WAIT! WE GOTTA TEASE MINHO FOR A BIT LONGER! HE’S ALWAYS MAKING FUN OF US!!!”

“I’M SORRY BUT I HOPE TO MEET YOU GUYS FOR REAL SOON! TAKE CARE OF HIM OKAY?”

Minho was actually really quiet for the next month and he didn’t seem to have time to talk to you so you went to focus on your life instead.

When “Hellevator” dropped, you were so excited because the song sounded SO GOOD! AND MINHO RAPPED!

to say you advertised it to everyone was an understatement

but hey, it’s a good song

when you were freaking out about the release, you phoned him and yelled “I LOVE THE SONG SO MUCH WHAT AND YOU CAN RAP WHAT? THIS IS SO AMAZING!!!!”

“haha yeah thanks y/n”

“AND DSJFKSDF YOUR BAND MEMBERS ARE SORT CUTE AND THE AESTHETIC OF THE MUSIC VIDEO!!! YES!!”

and you kept talking about how excited you were about the song and the show but he didn’t seem to respond much so

“you okay?”

“i’m just... tired”

“you want me to hang up?”

he didn’t reply so you were like “okay! good night minho!”

“good night y/n”

When people began spotting Stray Kids without Minho, you started to worry.

But you didn’t ask him because you didn’t want to jump to conclusions and had faith in Minho.

However, you didn’t even finish episode four and you already grabbed your phone, shakily finding his number.

“Hello?”

“Minho, meet me at the park a couple of streets from that intersection.”

“Y/N, it’s 11:30.”

“Minho please.”

You heard him sigh and agree.

“If I get in trouble it’s your fault.”

Running there, you were breathless and frantic, not being able to control your emotions and you didn’t even let Minho breathe when you spotted him

“Why didn’t you tell me?!”

Minho stopped in his tracks, his eyes widening.

“Tell you what?”

“About the elimination!”

He visibly slumped, not knowing how to reply.

“Minho!” you cried, stamping your foot on the ground, frustrated that he kept this locked up, tears already threatening to fall.

“I didn’t want to disappoint you,” he whispered, looking at the pebbles on the side of the road.

“it’s not that!” you whined, coming up closer to him “why didn’t you just tell me?”

tears dripped onto the ground and Minho shut his eyes

“I don’t know, maybe if I didn’t tell you I could’ve worked harder and become someone you’re proud of”

“you don’t have to be so insecure about everything, especially around me. You can fall into darkness but I’ll be there with you and we’ll make through it together.”

Minho nearly slipped on the bathroom tiles when he saw those exact words right above his heart on his chest the next morning when he took off his shirt to shower.

He blinked at it in the mirror, then looked down, gingerly touching it.

The first thing he thought of?

Shit.

Minho didn’t really react.

He didn’t know how to react.

But he knew heartbreak will hit him hard because you already had lines that he never said.

So to cope, he kept distancing himself and not talking to you.

You on the other had didn’t know what to do so you just, waited, assuming it’s because he’s training hard and to join the group again.

Waited until the episodes came out.

When news of the busking leaked, out of curiosity, you attended it with a friend, knowing fully that Minho wouldn’t be there. You thought maybe you could still support the other boys because they seem really nice and talented.

On that day, Minho snuck out as well, only to spot you in the crowd with a friend and he couldn’t bear it but to leave.

when he was told he was given a second chance, he wanted to call you so bad

but he couldn’t make himself do it

so he just ignored you

and continued practicing

and when you watched the episode, even if having no hope at all because he didn’t give you any indication that he was back in

you screeched and even your roommate who was watching with you yelled in disbelief

and minho was expecting the phone call

the other members were expecting the phone call

“LEE F REA K IN G MINHO”

“wh—”

“YOU SUCK”

and you hung up out of adrenaline and because you didn’t really know how to react

all of stray kids looked at minho in amusement and he just cheekily grinned

your phone buzzed and it lit up a millisecond later with a text from him reading

“i love you”

“thanks for always being there”

and your heart flipped just seeing those two texts there  

the day of the finale came quicker than you thought

and before you knew it

you were waiting outside of the venue in the cold with his mom, passing out hot chocolate to adoring fans

honestly, you were surprised but not surprised at the amount of support Stray Kids has and how all of them were praying that Felix and Minho would be part of the official line up

and your heart swelled

you saw multiple banners for him, some with cute messages

and you overheard conversations between friends about how cute minho is and you just smiled to yourself

that’s your best friend—stealing everyone’s hearts

once everyone was packed inside the venue, your nerves kicked up as you anxiously waited for the show to start

for sure you were impressed by the performances

and whenever minho came up—during the performances or the video reels—you smiled so wide his mom noticed

she giggled to herself and left you alone to your own thoughts

it’s really hit when he sang the bridge for “School Life’

your jaw d ro p p e d

and everything almost stopped

he was glowing and smiling

and it hit you

he was in the center

to say you screamed so loud you lost your voice was an understatement

the surrounding families and fans kept looking back at you in amusement because once the song picked up, you didn’t stop cheering

minho caught your eyes and he scrunched his face in acknowledgement and you smiled so big you were ready to just rush up to the stage and crush him in a hug

after the excitement toned down and Jun K performed

final judgement was nearing

and you were shaking to the point his mom grabbed your hand and squeezed it

“it going to be okay, I believe in them,” she whispered and all you could do was nod

felix and minho climbed onto the box and the cameras started rolling

jyp did not shut up. it felt like forever.

and up on stage, Minho couldn’t look at you, no matter how tempting it was. he kept his gaze straight ahead and tried his best to calm himself down

he almost missed it when jyp finally announced it and lights flashed in his eyes

you let out a huge breath and hugged his mom so tight to calm yourself down

as people left and the families waited to greet their boys

he didn’t even pop his head completely out from behind the curtain yet and you knew it was him

and may or may not have charged at him

“CONGRATULATIONS!” you screamed, wrapping your arms around him and trying to pick him up to spin him around and failing to do so

“y/N!” he hissed, face aflamed as everyone was watching the two of you

the other boys started “oooh-ing” and mischievous grins appeared on their faces as they closed up on you guys

“is this the famous Y/N????”

“OoOOO FINALLY!”

“mINHO NEVER SHUTS UP ABOUT YOU!”

“he looks goofy when he’s talking to you”

minho wasn’t having any of it and started waving his arms like windmills to ward them away

“nON ON ON NO STOP GO AWAY YOUR FAMILIES ARE WAItinG!”

they laughed and chan poked at minho’s face before dispersing

he turned back to see you beaming at him and his heart did a backflip

“haven’t seen you in a while!” you chirped, only to gET COMPLETELY IGNORED BECAUSE HE SPOTTED HIS MOM and because he suddenly didn’t know how to react at all

“MOM!!!!” and he rushed towards her to hug her

“wOW I SEE HOW IT IS”

“YEAH. I LOVE MY MOM MORE THAN YOU DUH” and he’s just snickering as he enveloped his mom and she’s laughing at your antics as you walked closer

you got to meet the other boys (with minho hovering protectively around you and glaring at his members just in case they say something) and their families and it was a really nice atmosphere

“you’re gonna debut soon”

“yeah”

you guys were standing next to each other, arms barely touching and watching the parents talk and the younger siblings awkwardly not know what to do and the other boys messing around with each other or their siblings

Unbeknownst to you, Minho played with the fabric of his shirt where the tattoo is: twisting and turning it in his hands

he promised to himself he’d never tell you, but at this moment, it was tempting

Glancing over to you,

taking in how your eyes are slightly turned upwards, content filling your face as you watched his members nearby,

he clutched the fabric and squeezed his eyes shut and

“y/n?”

A moment barely passed as your name fell out of his lips barely above a whisper when chan called

“hey y/n! minho!” chan called and you guys directed your attention towards the smiley leader “stop looking like an old couple and come over here!”

minho’s face immediately flushed

“we’re not a couple!”

“i said you looked like an old couple—not that you are!”

you smiled, rolling your eyes at the antics

“yeah let me get to know these boys you keep gushing about”

minho shakily sighed and agreed

a couple of days later, you were back to your life and before you knew it, Stray Kids’ debut was just around the corner

then their first comeback

then their first award show

then their first win

and you were there to support them like always: especially Minho

but you didn’t even know how much he appreciated it—he just couldn’t express all of it because his feelings just grew and grew and he didn’t want to mess your friendship up

he kept seeing you in a different light and it was messing with him

There was this one time where the two of you were just walking the streets together.

He looked over and had the biggest urge to just kiss you that he spotted an ice cream shop and bolted to buy him something to keep his mouth busy.

Another time, you were visiting and you fell asleep on his lap because of his soothing touch from mindlessly tracing the words on your skin.

Hopelessly, he sat there, his heart aching as he wanted you to know you’re his soulmate but he couldn’t.

The pain was almost unbearable as he was immobile because of you and he couldn’t pry his eyes off of your tattoos.

He cried himself to sleep that day, with you within his touch yet detached from his fate.

You got to know the rest of Stray Kids so well it was almost like you were the fourth mom (chan and minho easily took the first slots)

if you weren’t busy and they were home, you’d visit them at the practice rooms

if they were abroad, you’d call them just to check in

it was all the mundane things and you can’t believe you get to experience and that Minho was living his dream—even if he was living with a burden he couldn’t even unload to his best friend.

Luckily for him, the hustle bustle life of an idol preoccupied his thoughts and he often times convinces himself that his fans are his soulmates.

Two years have passed and it was finally the time where your friends began to find your soulmates

and then somewhere along the line, Stray Kids began finding their soulmates as well

and you and Minho would always call each other whenever this would happen, squealing into the mic

you favorite story was of Felix and his soulmate: Felix had the sign of being able to telepathically speak with his soulmate and one day as he was walking down the crowded street with Minho and Hyunjin for groceries, trivially arguing with his other half about an ending of a recent movie, a loud “SHUT UP YOU DON’T KNOW ANYTHING THEY WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!” echoed around the vicinity

Felix was so surprised he stopped abruptly in his tracks and Hyunjin crashed into him.

He was so sure he heard his soulmate say the same thing and just then, his other half was like “shoot i just yelled that out loud”

He shot back: “i’m looking right at you aren’t I?”

“By any chance!” he called out to the person he was making eye contact with across the street “we you talking about Love Signed?”

Minho snorted and and shouted a “cliche!!!!!” and everyone around the area knew exactly what happened

it was really cute and you whined for days for missing it because Minho invited you to go shopping with them but you had a paper to finish.

Minho’s favorite story of your friends’ is your least favorite.

Why?

That day just so happened to be a really bad day for you and Minho had no idea. 

He just liked that story because he experienced it firsthand and you highkey believe it’s because he was mistaken as the soulmate

the day didn’t start off well, and let’s just say you and Minho were hanging out and you bumped into some of your friends and something happened that everyone thought Minho was the soulmate

you were too confused and unknowingly jealous to remember what happened exactly

because it didn’t strike you too well that your friend is soulmates with your best friend,,,, for some... odd... reason... 

“y/n, are you jealous?”

“pfft nO whY would i be jealous?! that’s ridiculous!”

your friend raised her eyebrows

“your voice is giving it away”

you squinted your eyes in disbelief, cocking your head in confusion

“but i can’t be jealous?”

“why not? isn’t he your friend?”

“yeah and that’s it. shouldn’t i be happy for him if it was you?”

“don’t you think it’s because you like him?”

you nearly gave yourself a whiplash

“why would i like him? i have a soulmate!”

“and people still date others knowing full well their soulmate exists”

“dating and liking are slightly different things. a lot of those relationships are flings”

“that doesn’t say anything of whether you like him or not”

you paused.

“but i don’t…?”

“you don’t sound so sure”

you furrowed your brows

“hey, let’s not talk about this—i don’t, i don’t want to think about it”

but it was all you thought about that night. 

It kept you up and Minho’s dumb smile kept popping up in your mind and your face heated up when the thought of a kiss passed your mind

You found out because you overheard the boys yelling about it.

bags holding food, you were about to enter the practice room when 

“hYUNG YOU LIKE Y/N”

“NO I DON’T”

“WHY WOULD YOU—”

“WAIT JISUNG SHUT UP Y/N IS—”

you blinked at them. “uh, hi boys. I brought you food”

Minho’s face turned bright red and he rushed out of the room. Jisung chased after him.    

you guys started dating when the other members tried to fix their fiasco by saying: “screw soulmates you guys ARE SOULMATES DATE ALREADY PLS MINHO WON’T SHUT UP ABOUT HOW MUCH HE WANTS TO KISS YOU AND SOMETIMES HE JUST LIES IN BED CRYING ABOUT YOU AND DOESN’T WANT TO DO ANYTHING!”

“Y/N PLEASE YOU KNOW HIM SINCE FOREVER AND ALL OF A SUDDEN HE KEEPS NOT WANTING TO DO ANYTHING”

“plus the two year ban is up sO”

you were hesitant at first because you really wanted to meet your soulmate

but they don’t seem like they’ll appear in your life anytime soon

and it’s minho, who you adore and have? always found him attractive

and he likes you so much, you couldn’t just—

“but what about your soulmate? you still don’t have a sign”

he shook his head and replied “it’s okay, I know I want to spend my life with you”

“but what happens if mine comes around?”

“then I’ll let you go to them. but, just, give me this chance? please?”

“minho—”

“please.”

“you’re gonna get hurt”

“but at least I got to be with you. I’ll be happy for you, don’t worry! because we’re best friends first!”

“are you sure?”

“positive. I’ll probably get hurt but I’m getting myself into this knowing fully well the possible outcome, so I won’t blame you.”

you just stared at him. “but then I’ll feel guilt—” your words caught in your throat as minho took a step closer and brought his hand up to caress your cheek

“please.”  

your heart rate spiked and you averted your eyes

his thumb gently brushed over your cheek

“i’ll make you happy, i promise. besides, your dumb soulmate hasn’t even appeared so why are you waiting for them? obviously i’m the better alternative”

your jaw dropped and heat rushed to your cheeks as his lips quirked up, winking at you

“i’m kidding” he laughed at your expression, pulling you closer to hug you.

with your face buried in his chest, you can hear his heartbeat and you breathed in his familiar, comforting scent—

“okay”

“hmm?”

“we can try this out”

Nothing really changed between the two of you.

he still loves to trace the words on your arm and you guys still try to go to the annual carnival

(one time, you guys went with stray kids and it was a Mess)

except for the more than often stares minho gives you where he’s smiling at you like a dork and if you ask what’s wrong, he just bursts out laughing and squeal “i can’t believe i love you so mucH!”

it’s all really cheesy and you can feel yourself falling in love more and more

and you feel guilty sometimes, knowing your soulmate is out there somewhere

but minho really does make you happy

and just seeing how happy he is makes you okay with it

because after all, he’s your best friend and you love him regardless of anything else

and he gets your heart racing every time he pulls you closer to kiss you and you want to punch him for that

Of course, the two of you got your ups and downs.

usually when he’s stressed out about an upcoming comeback or you’re stressed out about work or when you two miss each other so much and you don’t know how to express it and the call ends up in frustration

or when he just wants to love you but you can’t make yourself reciprocate your feelings and he can sense it, leading him to excuse himself and go back to his dorms

he knows it’s because you don’t want to hurt him, but it still does

but it’s natural

and both of you guys know that

nothing ever gets too out of hand

it’s because of the years of reading each other’s actions that you guys know when to take the break from each other if you need it  

Nearly three years has passed since you guys started dating and it was around the time when Stray Kids would start to go off to the military in the next year or so and taking a break in their successful career.

Funny, your soulmate never appeared for the last six years and you were starting to wonder if your sign was a fluke.

Minho never found his either.

You can’t lie and say you weren’t a little bit disappointed that your destined one never showed up, and sometimes, you would lash out at Minho for it, as if it was his fault.

But he swallowed it because while even though your soulmate doesn’t seem to be appearing, Minho found his and he’s not letting go. No matter how messed up the entire situation is.

He felt horrible about it but he couldn’t make himself tell you that you’re his soulmate when you were still holding back.

Eventually he would.

But he told himself he’ll wait for a couple more years, even if it was selfish of him to do so. If he was being honest with himself, he wants your soulmate to never enter your life and sweep you away from him.

Your insecurities heightened as most of your friends began to marry their soulmates and you were, quite honestly, terribly jealous.

And while you were ecstatic for all of them during the wedding days, Minho would always catch you deep in thought when you weren’t conversing with someone.

He’d sigh, grab your hand and squeezed it.

You let out a breath you were holding and shut your eyes for a moment, reminding yourself that you have Minho, and that’s pretty hard to beat.

“I love you,” you muttered

he leaned over and kissed your temple.

Minho was released for break just today, and he promised to spend his entire break with you—so even though he was dead tired, he drove a couple hours to your apartment because he just wanted to see you.

His eyes were barely open as he fought the urge to crash to the cement pavement and fall asleep right there as he fiddled around for the correct keys

“y/n?” he asked softly, slowly opening the door and peeking his head in, “are you home?”

you were in the living room, typing away at your laptop, trying to finish up a report for work. the lights in this room were turned off but the lights in the kitchen was on and minho frowned.

“you’re gonna hurt your eyes if you work in the dark like this,” he scolded

“hi minho,” you replied, not tearing your eyes away from the illuminated screen

he didn’t reply and the clacking of the keys were the only thing between the two of you

a couple of seconds later: “i have leftover dinner if you’re hungry,” you said

minho just hummed and dropped his things on the sofa and shuffled into the kitchen

the fluorescent lights occasionally flickered as he opened the refrigerator door.

eyes scanning the contents, he noticed a can of soda and he picked it up.

opening it, he was about to take a sip when he noticed the sole paper stuck on the door.

“hey you didn’t pay the bills,” he called out, peeking out from behind the door frame

once again, it took you a moment before you replied

“uh, I was gonna do it today but I guess I forgot”

“y/n, it was due two days ago.”

you ignored him, pressing harder on the keys as you typed

he frowned but went back to heating his dinner

After he cleaned up, he awkwardly paced the kitchen before finding the courage to be in your presence

because he can feel very well the elephant in the room.

he sat down next to you

and watched you work.

you didn’t appreciate his staring eyes but you ignored it, more focused on finishing

he tried to cuddle you but you brushed him off

so he huffed and pushed himself off the couch, wandering the dim apartment and sees something new on the little shelf where you kept small items

it was a cute keychain—in fact, two matching keychains and a small smile began to grow on his face

“hey what’s this?” he asked, hopefully turning back to face you

you slammed your hands on the keyboard.

he flinched.

“oh my gosh minho you’re so annoying!” you cried, voice cracking from stress and frustration

a pout formed on his face, not appreciating that you’re not responding to him at all when he drove a couple of hours to go see you

“well i’m sorry. i just miss you,” he pressed, frustrated as well.

“well miss me some other time,” you retorted

sighing, you adjusted your focus back to your screen and

“look y/n. you could at least give me a hug? i drove out two hours to see you and i’m dead tired.”

“that’s your problem. you could’ve visited in the morning”

“that’s because I wanted to see you, make sure you’re okay.”

“well I’m okay, thanks for worrying. now go to sleep or something—you said you were tired?”

he paused, knowing full well he couldn’t get mad at you because you’re obviously stressed so he opted to change the direction of the conversation “y/n you don’t look well at all: you’re stressed and you are the least efficient when you’re stressed.”

“minho, just leave me alone. let me finish this report.”

“when was the last time you slept?”

“just this morning”

“for how many hours?”

“I don’t know, does it matt—Minho stop. let me work on this.”

“You need to sleep.”

“sleep is for the weak,” you muttered

and misinterpreting that, Minho smiled a bit, thinking that you were giving in and was joking

“Well then if you don’t go to sleep, I’m gonna break up with you,” he quipped

however, you didn’t hear his teasing tone and something inside of you snapped.

glaring at the black keys in front of you, you gritted your teeth and asked him, “fine then. break up with me. why do you even care so much if you came here to annoy me anyways?”

“wait y/n, I didn’t—”

“just let this end because I want to end up with my soulmate anyways”

Minho stopped, his worst fear—the fear of hearing those words—just happened.

“You don’t mean that,” he whispered.

you looked up and straight into his eyes. “does it look like I’m joking?”

hurt flashed through Minho’s face and without knowing so, he raised his voice

“Well I don’t know? Does it look like your soulmate is even here with you?! Your soulmate never came so obviously I’m a better option then what you can get with them anyways! I’ve been with you since forever! That has got to mean more than a soulmate who never even wanted to meet you!”

You slammed your hands on the table and stood up, tears begin to blur your vision as his words stung your heart.

“Maybe I don’t want to be with you! I’m still waiting! you’re the one who said you didn’t mind getting hurt! so just shut up!” you screamed, arms shaking.

“BECAUSE YOU ARE MY SOULMATE!” he yelled back, slamming his arm on the table and it knocked down a picture frame, shattering it

“Classic,” you sneered, glaring at the glass littered around his feet

a sharp pang hit minho in his chest as he realized you didn’t pay attention to what he just said

a loud scoff escaped him and he looked up at the ceiling, blinking back threatening tears

“i hate you” he forced out, his voice involuntarily cracking.

looking up, you were met with his usually soft pair of eyes glaring right at you

anger boiled inside you and you balled your fists

“I can’t believe you’re being so selfish,” he taunted.

“shut up! just shut up minho!”

“You’d think after all we’ve been through you’d stop thinking about the potential jerk your soulmate is for making you wait.”

“you shouldn’t have gotten involved then!”

“Or maybe you shouldn’t have lead me on and kept this relationship for so long!”

“IT’S YOUR FAULT ANYWAYS. DON’T PUT THE BLAME ON ME!”

“HOW COULD I NOT PUT THE BLAME ON YOU? I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU AND IF YOU LOVED ME BACK, EVEN IF IT’S JUST A FRIEND, YOU WOULD’VE CUT THIS RELATIONSHIP A LONG TIME AGO!”

“I ALREADY TOLD YOU! YOU’RE THE ONE WHO GOT INTO THIS MESS.”

“AND YOU COULD HAVE STOPPED ME! BEST FRIENDS ARE SUPPOSED TO ADVISE EACH OTHER WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING STUPID!”

“BUT WHY IS IT THAT I’M GETTING ALL THE BLAME?”

“BECAUSE I AM STUPIDLY, BLINDLY, IN LOVE WITH YOU!”

“SO BLAME YOURSELF!”

“I can’t believe you y/n. You’re actually the most selfish person I’ve ever met,” he gritted coldly. 

“LOOK, IF YOU HATE ME SO MUCH, WHY DO YOU TOLERATE ME?” you screamed, tears blurring out your already limited vision

“BECAUSE YOU WERE MY GUIDING LIGHT!” he yelled, kicking at the nearby drawers “YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE KEEPING ME SANE DURING TRAINEE DAYS. YOU KEPT ME SANE FROM THE SPOTLIGHT OF BEING AN IDOL!”

Minho didn’t seem to realize what he said, but your eyes widened as the words echoed in your head.

you were my guiding light

misinterpreting your silence for something else, minho laughed, mockingly. his eyebrows furrowed as he averted his gaze from yours to the remaining framed pictures on the counter

“y/n, just hate me.” he whispered, clenching and unclenching his hands. “Hate me please and I’ll disappear from your life. I’m so sorry for thinking this would work out.”

you didn’t answer

you couldn’t answer

Minho got mad and was about to repeat but when looking back at you, he noticed your change in expression and inability to speak

“why are you—”

so he frowned thinking back to what just happened within the last minute

you were my guiding light

you guys awkwardly stared at each other before you inched forward and before he knew it, you were burying your face into his neck

“i’m sorry,” you choked out, clutching at his shirt “I’m so sorry.”

He was in a state of shock. He couldn’t respond to the tears running down his body or your words as he replayed that moment over in his head.

you were my guiding light.

the same words five words he traced under his finger for so long, envying the person who will sooner or later say it to you

He is your soulmate.

When the realization finally sunk and your tears hasn’t stopped, he slowly wrapped his arms around you, picked you up and headed towards your bed.

Minho didn’t let go of you as the two of you went to sleep that night.

your parents were surprised, but absolutely relieved it’s Minho

you were waiting for so long they were starting to worry

same with Minho’s parents

but when the two of you phoned them about the news, they immediately called each other, ranting about how long they were waiting

“if we waited this long for them, how long do you think we have to wait for the wedding?”

“at this point, Minho might be the last to marry out of his group”

“havent Minho and Y/N been dating for the longest time though?”

“if it took the world that long to reveal to Y/N that Minho is their soulmate, I don’t have trust in Minho anymore”

“oh you right”

when the boys found out,

seungmin was the first to react, yelling “THANK THE L O R D I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WOULD’VE DONE IF FATE DECIDED TO SCREW THIS UP.”

Changbin started screaming

Hyunjin had such a big grin and was unable to say anything

he later came up to you and side-hugged you, saying a quick “finally”

“yeah haha, finally.”

chan made fun of minho

“yoU WERE MY GUIDING LIGHT? CHEESY”

“YOU SAW THE TATTOO FOR THE LAST SEVEN YEARS”

“I DIDN’T THINK YOU’D BE THE ONE SAYING IT AHAHAAHHAHAHA” and chan proceeded to squeeze Minho and shake him around

“congrats bro, you get your happy ending”

So, life continued.

Military enlistment came and gone.

Stray Kids began to get married.

And one day,

“Y/N, will you marry me?”

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“The Colours Of Twilight” Part 3

***Disclaimer TMNT is not mine. I created Skye to play in their world.***

Skye was sitting on the rooftop enjoying the warm fall evening. Taking a sip of her tea she turns a page in her book. Sighing happily she thinks ‘Yes, a vacation is just what I needed.’ The entrance door to the garden opened, and April walks out to join her. “Hey Skye, I’m going to be heading to the lair in a few minutes, wanna come?” Skye almost leaped off of the chair “Yes, I would love to go!” April smiles “Grab some workout clothes if you want, Leo mentioned that you should feel free to use the mats if you wanted to.” Skye hurried inside and tossed her shorts, sports bra, tank top and a few other items into a bag.

The two women got into April’s car and Skye turned to her. “You mentioned that the guys were helping Casey with a special assignment tonight?” As April starts the car she says “Yeah, Casey texted me and said that they’ve just about wrapped things up, and they will meet us at the lair for a late dinner.” They pull out of the apartment complex and start heading down the street. April glances at Skye. “I’ve got to do some work on a story for tomorrow, my computer is refusing to save documents right now so Donnie said I could use one of his.” Skye says, “Damn tech. While you’re working I will probably grab a workout, I’ve taken enough rest days.”

They arrive at the lair and April pushes a button on her dash and a section of the brick lifts up allowing her to drive her car in. April parks the car in a designated section and they get out. Skye takes a moment to admire the assortment of vehicles. There was the Tartaruga, Raph and Gen’s bikes, ATV’s and a couple of jeeps. April catches up with her. “The guys have always been incredibly resourceful, and Donnie can make just about anything from scraps. But, since they now actually work with the police department, it’s made things a little easier for them.”

Upon entering the living space the two women see Master Splinter. “Good evening ladies, it is nice to see you both. I was just about to put on a pot of tea, would either of you like a cup? April and Skye spend a few minutes talking with Master Splinter. April excuses herself to get started on her article and Skye finishes her tea while talking with him. She thanks him for the tea and heads to get changed. After entering the Dojo she walks around admiring all the equipment that the guys had. Arriving at the weight section her eyes widen. “Ok, this must be where Raph works out.” There were a bench and a bar that had to have close to 1500 pounds of manhole covers on it. She sputters “Holy shit.”

Skye puts in her earbuds and the sound of her favorite instrumentals fill her head. Putting on her knee wrap on she warms up, making sure to stretch. She hadn’t tumbled in a few days and felt a little stiff. After warming up she starts with a simple combo of cartwheels and flips. Soon her surroundings start to fade.

Casey sneaks up behind April and wraps his arms around her “Hey Babe.” April startles slightly turns to him “Casey, very funny.” Her tone was scolding, but she was grinning. She leans into him and gives him a hug. When she opens her eyes she sees Leo, Donnie and Mikey enter the room. “Hey, guys.” Casey releases her to stand beside her with his arm wrapped around her shoulders. Leo looked around. “Did Skye happen to come with you tonight?” Leo hoped that he didn’t sound too eager. April points her head in the direction of the Dojo. “Yeah, she’s here, she took you up on the offer to use the mats.” Nodding in thanks Leo starts heading to join her.

Leo opens the door to the Dojo and stops. There was Skye in the middle of a routine. He watched her flip through the air and land in a split. She moved like grace itself and Leo found himself admiring her finely sculpted body. She looked incredible in blue. He swallowed, unable to move.

Skye backflips to the edge of the mat and bent over to grab her water bottle. After taking a long drink she takes a breath. She raises her arms over her head and sees him out of the corner of her vision. Her heart starts breathing faster as she wonders just how long he’s been there. She takes her earbuds out. “Hey, Leo.”

“Hey Skye,” Leo said as he managed to pull himself away from the doorframe. Walking towards her smiled. “That was pretty impressive.” Skye grinned. “Thanks.” She paused as she met his gaze, lost for a moment in his blue eyes. “And thanks for allowing me to use the mats, there’s really not enough room on April's roof to really move.” Leo chuckles. “No problem, Skye, you’re welcome to come here anytime you want. Leo tries to avoid looking at her long finely shaped legs. “So, do you have time for a quick lesson?” Skye’s eyes alight with glee. “Of course.”

Leo led her through a few exercises and was once again impressed with her skill. It wouldn’t take long before her fighting skills matched her cousins. Skye was thoroughly enjoying working with Leo. She had also managed to keep the thoughts of what she did last night while thinking about him at bay, mostly. She was glad she was working out, it would give an excuse as to why she was flushed.

Mikey comes into the Dojo, “Heya Babycakes, Leo. I just wanted to let you guys know that Casey just ordered dinner and it will be here in about 30 minutes.” Leo looks at his brother thanks, Mikey. Turning back to Skye he says “Want to pick up where we left off tomorrow?” Skye grins. “Yeah, I’ll be here.” She takes her hair out of her pony and it falls around her shoulders, some of the tendrils slightly curl around her face. “Is there a place I can grab a quick shower before dinner?” Leo points to the back of the Dojo. “Around that corner are shower rooms. I’ll see you at dinner.” Skye nods her thanks and heads towards the showers.

Leo looks at Mikey and sees that his youngest brother is grinning ear to ear. Leo rolls his eyes and starts heading towards the exit of the Dojo, managing not look back at Skye. “What are you smiling about Mikey?” Mikey laughs “Duuuude, I totally saw you spying on Skye.” Leo sputters “I wasn’t spying, I was studying her form.” Mikey laughs. “I’m sure you were bro, I’m sure you were. Leo huffs and nudges his brother with his shoulder. Sighing, Leo shakes his head. He couldn’t wait to work with Skye again tomorrow.

Skye takes the second shower. Walking into the large bathroom she locks the door. She looks around. There was a huge walk-in shower with gray and green tinted cubes of glass that made up one of the walls. Two sinks lined the opposite wall and toilette was nestled into a corner. She undressed and grabbed one of the fluffy towels from the shelf, she hangs it on the hook and walks into the shower. As she’s washing her hair she notices the handrail is crushed in its center and wonders how in the hell it happened.

After dressing and drying her hair a little she heads towards the kitchen. She smiles as she sees everyone gathered around the table, laughing and talking. This was quite the tightly knit group and she felt privileged to be apart of it. April sees her approach and pulls out a chair for her. She sits down and Mikey hands her a plate with a slice of pizza and a generous helping of salad. “Thanks, Mikey, I’m starving.”

Donnie hands her a bottle of water. “Skye, I just want to say again how beautiful your voice is.” Everyone around the table agrees. Skye smiled. “Thanks, guys, I love to sing and I was so happy when Gen asked me to perform at their wedding.” Skye looks away from the group, trying to hide the small jab in her heart as she remembered Josh. “Gen and Raph have something really special. I’m glad they found each other.” Looking back to those around her she smiles.

April nudges her. “So, Skye, Leo said he was pretty impressed with your moves today.” Skye feels her cheeks warm a little. Looking at Leo she sees him smile and nod his head. “Thanks, I’ve been tumbling for a long time and think working with Leo will help me improve even more.” Leo swallows a bite of pizza. “Skye, there’s not much that you need to improve, it’s more reminding your body of the different forms of Karate. I don’t think it’s going to be very long before you could hold your own with us.” Skye beams and her smile makes his heart clench.

Skye takes a few more bites of salad. “So, when I was in the shower I noticed the handrail in there was crushed. What happened?” The room goes silent. Skye wondered if she said something wrong. Suddenly, April breaks the silence by laughing. She’s laughing so hard there are tears at the corner of her eyes. Skye looks at April with her eyebrows raised. April manages to catch her breath. “Okay, alright, I’m done now.” Taking a sip of water she explained, “You see, Raph and Gen, they um, first got together in that shower, and well, Raph’s really strong.” Skye threw back her head and laughed. “O, wow. That’s hilarious.” Leo chuckles quietly and then tries to gain control of the situation. “Yes, I agree it’s pretty funny. Now, Donnie, you were talking about some ideas for a new tracking system?” April rolled her eyes, but everyone accepted the leaders change in topic.

April, Casey, and Skye say goodnight to the guys and Master Splinter and headed back to April’s apartment. April turns in the seat and looks at Skye. “So, you’re going to be training with Leo again tomorrow?” Skye feels her cheeks warm. “Yes, and Donnie is going to show me some of the math he worked out for one of my architectural designs. I’m looking forward to both.” April turns back to Casey and they share a grin.

After Skye left Leo went to meditate. Sitting on the floor her crosses his legs, closes his eyes and starts the chant that has brought him peace so many times. His eyes open and he growls quietly frustration. Closing his eyes once more he willed his mind to quiet. After a few minutes, Leo leaped to his feet and sighed. It was no use. All that he could think about, was Skye. Her confidence and her spirit shone. She was an incredible woman. Could someone like her ever want to be with someone like him? Not having confidence in something was not something that he was used to.

Leo thought back to the dinner and remembered the brief look of sadness that crossed her face when she spoke of Gen and Raph. She had recovered quickly, but the brief shadow that crossed her eyes made him wonder. He blew out his candles. He knew he wasn’t going to be able to meditate, so he headed towards the Dojo. His Katana would be his company for the night.

To be continued...

[exoticcal]

Jeremy x Reader: Bus Stop

Can I get a Jeremy x reader where he's just a completely taken by a girl with crazy coloured hair that he sees at his bus stop, he notices that she wears a Catholic school uniform, Michael teases him. One day her earphones break so she decides to talk to him and blushy Jeremy with complete inner freaking the fuck out, she gives him her number and he freaks out to Michael, thanks

A/N: This is my first time writing in like 5 months lol I apologize if this turns out to be shitty. Also, I write in pov’s a lot so just let me know if I should or shouldn't in the future

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(Y/N)= Your name Jeremy’s POV:

“How in the hell did I manage to be 15 minutes early for the bus?” I quietly muttered as I approached the shabby bus stop. Well, I could always walk to school but that means that I’ll arrive all sweaty and gross.. God why am I so indecisive? I shake my head trying to head of my own head when I notice bright colors approaching the right side of me. 

Purple, blue, pink.. is that green? Her hair is extremely colorful. I felt my face flush pink as she glanced over at me, giving me a small smirk. I stare somewhere that isn’t near her. AND shes cute too, holy shit. 

I find myself pulling out my phone and texting Michael, since he just got a car this year he hasn’t been going on the bus with me anymore so I of course have to fill him in on the details ya know?

To: Player 1

Dude, theres a really cute girl at the bus stop with extremely colorful hair.

I press send and glance back over at her and notice that she’s wearing some kind of uniform that seems oddly familiar. Then it hits me, she goes to that one catholic school just down the street from my high school. I quickly send Michael another text, giving him more information

To: Player 1

SHE GOES TO THE CATHOLIC SCHOOL NEAR US

I couldn’t help but look over at her again, shes listening to music and is totally locked in on her phone to even notice me. How come I’ve never noticed her before. I feel my phone buzz after a minute or so and open Michael’s message.

From: Player 1

A school girl? Now I know your type dude ;) 

My face heats up again as he sends another message

Talk to her dude.

To: Player 1

I can barely talk to a teacher, what makes you think that I could talk to her?

From: Player 1

lol true

the bus pulls up and we both board. We both sit in the same aisle but are on opposite sides of the bus. The time passes by and we stop in-front of her school, she quickly gets off and sends a smile my way. With the little confidence I mustered up, I smiled back.

Holy shit. She smiled at me. 

Just a couple minutes later the bus stops at my school and I find myself getting off of it quickly and going on with my day of school with her on my mind. 

---NEXT DAY----

Pfft. I totally didn’t get to the bus stop 15 minutes early again just so I could see her again and maybe say hi or something. pfft totally didn’t do that. I anxious grab at the ends of my sleeves and look in the direction where she came from yesterday.

“Bro, you’re totally obsessed with her already.” I hear from behind me as the faint scent of weed fill my nose. 

“M-Michael!? Dude why are you here?! Don’t you have a car?!” I quickly turn and face him, face slowly heating up.

He laughed and threw his arm around me before pinching my cheek and speaking to me in a mother-to-baby voice “I just wanted to see what this gurl wooks wike jewemy. You wouldn’t stwop twalking ab-” He quickly lets go of me and jabs me in the side with his elbow, glancing at me and behind me with a smirk. 

“O-Ow! What the hell?!” I turn around and lock eyes with her. I give her a sheepish grin and turn back towards Michael, who shot me a wink before putting his headphones on and moving a couple feet away from me. What the hell. 

I hear a sigh of annoyance come from behind me and turn back around, looking over at her.

The colorful cutie, angrily took out her headphones and stuffed them in her pocket. She turns to me as I quickly advert my gaze from her. I hear the sound of her shoes hitting the leaf covered ground before I felt a soft poke in my shoulder.

“Excuse me?”

I look at her, somewhat shocked and stuttered out, “ Wha- Mm. Yeah?”

She softly smiled and held out her hand. “I’m (Y/N)! I’m somewhat new to this town and even though it’s been like two days, I can tell you’re a usual at this bus stop!” 

I nodded, scratching the back of my neck. “Y-Yeah.. I’m J-Jeremy.” I glanced behind me and see Michael smirking to himself while bobbing his head. 

A small break of silence falls over us, and I start to panic. Wow, I can’t even hold a conversation with her, oh god this is so embarrassing, say something!!

“Hair.”

“What?” Fucking smooth Jeremy. She tilts her head to the side, shooting me a confused look.

“Uh. I- Your hair. It’s really bright.”

“Thanks?

“L-Like a good bright!! It’s really pretty! Like wow. I haven’t seen anything like it before!!” I nervously spit out. She let out a laugh. Oh my god, she probably thinks I’m so weird, fuck. You totally fucked up.

“That was a weird way to put it but thank you so much!” She smiles at me. “You’re cute and nice, Jeremy. Here.” She pulls out a small piece of scrap paper from her bag and hands it to me after writing on it. The bus pulls up and she makes her way on to it.

Text me! :-) xxx-xxx-xxxx 

I look at the paper and then at her as she walk onto the bus. No way. 

“Duuuude, did she just give you her number?!” Michael exclaimed from over my shoulder. 

“Y-Yeah.” The bus doors close and starts to drive away. “FUCK!” I start to walk towards it.

“Dude, I got you. I parked down the street.” Michael chuckles as he starts to walk away.

“MICHAEL I JUST GOT HER NUMBER OH MY GOD.” I yell, gripping the paper in my hand. “HOLY SHIT. WHAT DO I DO.”

Michael sighs, turns around and grabs onto me then starts to drag me along. 

“You text her, idiot.”

“holy shit, yeah I do. okay.” I look down at the paper while walking towards Michael's car with the biggest smile on my face.

A/N: THIS IS SO LONG AND PROBABLY SO SHITTY IM SO SORRY. PLEASE GIVE ME TIPS.

[oh-mother-of-darkness]

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Anonymous said: Holy frick that is so encouraging and I needed that so much bc I literally visited my college to measure my dorm room and drove home in tears bc I panicked myself into a frenzy about whether or not everything leading me to this point has been a mistake and what if I fail and ruin my life before it even starts (I have since calmed down a little) so your encouragement was much needed & is much appreciated

I’m glad I could help <3 <3 <3 Good luck at school! I’m sure you’ll kick its ass

areverieofchaosdreams said: It's Fanfiction Writers Appreciation Day. So thank you for all your amazing stories!!!

Oh goodness I’m all a blushin :’)

Anonymous said: *HAPPY WRITER APPRECIATION DAY* Send this to someone whose talent has blown you away, who you'd like to encourage to keep on writing always, and who you'd like to thank for working their butt off to provide fandom members with breathtaking stories to consume! THANK YOU :D

Aw thank you!

Anonymous said: Hi! I Hope you're well! Do you still take fic requests? Because I really miss Colin Wilkes and I'd love to a story of him with your writing!

Unfortunately I don’t often take requests these days, but I’ll definitely keep Colin in mind!

dirtycherrypie said: hey! applying for WE for the R&D department (may or may not be aware of producing bat gadgets)

dirtycherrypie said: SHit forgot my name - Bea, at your service!

[Bruce Wayne voice] hired

tigers-and-weeds said: Literally just fell down the rabbit hole on your tumblr for the last 12-24 hours. I am in love with with you headcannons and fics! The angst feeds my soul... So I figured I would request: anything angsty with Dick and Damian please please please

Okay again I don’t usually take fic requests BUT I like me some angst so the odds that this will eventually happen.... are extremely high. I’ll try to remember to dedicate the next one to you :) And thank you!

math--ew said: I went on a little birthday vacation to california and I've never been to the beach before. I was bending down to grab a pretty shell and this huge wave knocked me face first into the sand. Like, five people saw and laghed but I got the shell so I guess it's a win win.

Duuuude back at Lake Michigan last month the same thing happened to me. I was taking care of my little sister and her five year old friend, so I was so busy making sure they were okay that the wave plowed me halfway across the beach

babybatbrat said: when i was in ap physics i once spent an entire study period in my physics teacher's room working on one problem. as far as i could tell i was doing all of the work correctly and had all the initial values right so i was racking my brain trying to figure out why i wasn't getting the right answer. the third time i went up to my teacher and asked for help he told me to start at the beginning and walk him through my process bc he couldn't tell why i was getting it wrong either (1)

babybatbrat said: (2) so i start the problem and explain how i got through all the values - "okay so the rod is 5 inches long and half of 5 is 3 and a half -" and i stopped there bc it occurred to me that 3.5 is not half of 5. "it's what?" My teacher asks. i put my head in my hands and stood there for a minute before picking up my work and walking to the back of the classroom while he laughed, bc i had just spent 45 minutes convinced that half of 5 was 3.5 and not, in fact, 2.5, and that was the only thing wrong

Honestly??? Relatable

babybatbrat said: One time i woke up at six in the morning to hear the neighbor's dog barking and instantly realized that meant my dog had jumped the fence, so i went racing outside and sprinted down the street to catch her. when i did i picked her up and turned around to go home and then saw my neighbor standing on their front porch, realized i was in only an oversized spiderman tshirt and snowman pajama shorts, holding a twenty pound labrador and thats how i met my new neighbors

Incredible...... 10/10.....

thrakaboom said: Not a funny story,but two days ago at comic con I met Tom King and he showed me a picture of his kids while he was signing my books

Well hey that’s pretty cool

Anonymous said: I adore your Tumblr. It was a wonderful way to get into the Batfamily fanbase; prior, I thought that there was only one Batman and a single Robin, dearie me was I wrong. And those stories you write, just great. The Headcanons are just as enjoyable. As for Batman, that has come to be a sibling enjoyment. Thank you for your contributions and existence!

!!!!!! Welcome to the crew!

frnkensteingrrrlz said: hey!!! i just went through ur reasons to be happy tag and!! i'm so so happy bc of it (esp the damian hcs, they're spot on imo and he's my favourite) so i hope u have a good day!!!

Thanks! I am having a good day today! Although I’m sure it’s been a long time since you sent this :////

Anonymous said: HELLO I have just discovered and binge-read all of your fics with my homeboy Damian in them, and just wanted to pop by and say that I love you & you are my hero & you write my boy so well so thank u and I hope your life is blessed & you achieve your wildest hopes & dreams

My day is made :D

badfaith00 said: Best batman storyline you've ever read ?

Ooooooh hm I’m mighty attached to n52 Batman and Robin? Particularly the first storyline, but the second is also fantastic

Anonymous said: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHAMELESSLY REBLOGGING YOUR OWN WORK BC I HADNT SEEN IT BEFORE AND ITS HONESTLY SO PHENOMENAL ITS GOING ON MY LIST OF ALL TIME FAVORITES THANK U AND BLESS U

THANK YOU!!! THAT ONE IS MY FAVORITE AND I AM VERY PROUD OF IT

onwardmotley said: In today's Detective Comics someone finally told Bruce and co that Tim's alive. They didn't explain where he is, or how to get him back, but hey. It might've had more impact if anyone was seen actually mourning Tim and it wasn't just played as him being in cosmic time out, but at least it should end soon idk. Hopefully.

Tim Drake? It’s been years since I heard that name.....

Finally. Thank goodness.

Anonymous said: Idk if I prefer your soul crushing angst or your heartwarming fluff... actually I like to suffer so I'll stay with angst lol

Y’all seeing this? Anon gave me permission. Can’t yell at me next time because it won't be my fault (thanks babe :))

Anonymous said: for music, idk what kind of music u like so here is variety: St. Vincent - Paris is Burning, Sea Wolf - Dear Fellow Traveler (tbh everything by Sea Wolf is great), Dirt Poor Robins - Eleanor Rigby, Between Wind and Water- HAEL, Ellem - Kings and Queens and Vagabonds, The Rigs - Rise & Fall, Tally Hall - Light and Night, and Streetlight Manifesto - The Hands that Thieve.

Thank you! I’m excited to listen to these! I’ll start right now!

Anonymous said: 1) What are the good comics to read for Batfamily stuff (from any point in time) and 2) what are the best Jason Todd comics? Thanks!

Okay for Jason I would definitely start with the big ones, which are A Death In the Family and Under the Red Hood. After that you could try Red Hood: the Lost Days and Countdown to Final Crisis. I would avoid the n52 series until you have a good enough grasp of the character to recognize bad writing when you see it. 

For the generalized batfam.... that’s pretty broad. My personal favorites are Red Robin, Batgirl (2009), and both B&R series. If you have more specific questions, you should IM me! I promise I’m better about answering those than asks

yellowwallsbluesky said: Have you heard Swooner by The Zolas? I've really been jamming to it lately

Listening to it right now! Sounds like a bop so far :)

Anonymous said: Hidden citizens paint it black 💜

Much obliged!

Anonymous said: Harry styles "sign of the times".

[adds to list] thank you!

neo669 said: I MISS CASA OLE!! Sorry just read that you lived in Bryan/College Station and I used to live there as well. It's kinda hard to find people that even know that it exists. But I'm sure you can kick law schools butt. You got this!

Yooooooo I miss cstat too :((((

palliddark said: Adalgiza, and I'll be a translator (English to Brazilian Portuguese)

[Bruce Wayne voice] also hired

maeofthedead said: I love your headcannons and now I sort of want to cry thank

Excellent that is the exact target response 

Anonymous said: Love your rant in the tags about the pizza making I'm laughing so hard

Listen..... I have strong feelings

Anonymous said: Did you hear they're making an omnibus of Tomasi's entire run on Batman & Robin?? I just heard and now I kinda want to get this massive book in honor of my favorite batkid and the series that made me love him so much

Man I already have all the individual volumes but if I didn’t......

sonicboom00724601 said: Hi. :) Nice headcanon. :)

I’m not sure which one you’re talking about, but thank you! You're real sweet

Anonymous said: can you maybe write an interaction between Wonder Woman and Captain America? I absolutely adore your style and would love to see your take on it.

Hmmmm I don’t really have a good enough grasp of Captain America’s characterization to try that one :////

Anonymous said: i tried to kill on mosquito that was on my ceiling by slamming it with a book but mosquito was on the move so i bounced swiftly and jammed both my wrist and thumb and now my existence is Pain. also my thumbs swelling and looks purple, so that's nice

Oh shit anon you good???

daziy said: Do we know who Barbara's mother usually is?

Yeah! In her original version, Babs had a birth mom and an adopted mom. She was originally Jim’s niece, so her birth mom’s name was Thelma Gordon. After the adoption, her parents were Jim and Barbara Gordon, with her adopted mother being her namesake. So two Barbara Gordons.

I think for awhile the canon was that her mother died in a car crash, but the current version has her still alive. She left Jim when Babs was young, taking her son (Babs’s brother) with her. James Gordon (the son) turned out to be a serial killer. 

Barbara Gordon Sr. and James Gordon Jr. both appeared in the n52 Batgirl series during the Death of the Family arc. There’s also a very good story about James from the Dickbats period. That one’s called The Black Mirror, if I’m not mistaken?

Anonymous said: Hi! What do you think of the upcoming metal event? Dick and Damian seem to have a big role in it ( I hope Jason is involved too but there's still no sign of it)

Hmmmm I don’t know that I have an opinion just yet, but as always, I hope to be pleasantly surprised 

Anonymous said: bless you are your wonderful tagging system. know that i may have avoided death because of how easy it was to f ind the thing I wanted in your tags. bless

Oh goodness anon I hope you’re not serious about almost dying.... but thanks?

Anonymous said: hi amy! would u say that damians narrative is written as a child abuse one? like there are definitely many allusions to it but its also not as explicit as say, cassandra or rose. like how much of it would u chalk up to comic world dynamics and how much to actual abuse? also would u consider jason to also be a case of this?

Oh I have very strong opinions about the role of abuse in Damian’s narrative. It’s absolutely there, and the effects are staggeringly large. There is no doubt in my mind that the league was an abusive environment, and I can’t justify some of the things Bruce did either.

I think I would say the same thing for Jason, if not quite as strongly. I definitely think that some of the things that happened to Jason as a child shaped his story later on, but less of those were abuse than outside circumstances. The n52 takes a different track on that one, I think, but I don’t put much stock in that characterization. 

Anonymous said: has jason forgiven bruce for not killing joker? if so, what made him?

Unlikely. They get along better these days, but I would argue that comes from poor characterization of Bruce, not an actual resolution process. 

mellenabrave said: My mom accidentlly threw my Damian doll away (╥_╥)

Tossed in the garbage by yet another parent--

Anonymous said: Whoa where'd you get that bat and oracle shirt you're wearing in your necklace pic? It's so cool! (The necklace is also gorgeous!)

Shoot I think it was from Redbubble? But I can’t find it now

Anonymous said: Omg that necklace was so cool!!! Kudos to the maker of it!! Also I really like your top!!

Thank you <3

[andkaboodle]

Gettin’ Happy!

Smashing this post out in a half an hour because I haven’t written anything in months and it’s hard for someone like me to go this long without sharing personal details about my life... but I also want to pick up my kids soon! #noshame

Where I Was At!

I punched my husband in the face a few months ago. It’s the longest story ever. It wasn’t justifiable. He forgave me the very next morning. We dealt with the underlying issues and we moved on.

But it really made me take a step back and wonder if I was where I wanted to be in life. I had all the right ingredients to make this amazing dish but I kept ending up with sludge that tastes funny. I have beautiful children, a loving husband, a decent house, so why was I getting to the breaking point of violence?

*Enter: YouTube!*

I started researching what it was I was missing in myself and ended up noticing that I had no tangible goals. I started watching YouTube videos on manifestation, meditation and law of attraction and realised that yes, I had the basic, vague aspirations of a ‘good life’ and making ‘enough money’, but what did I really want. All these different videos were leading the same headlines: Know exactly what you want. Work out how to get it. Go for it.

So what did I want? To be happy? Sure. To not yell at the kids all the time? Please. To not punch my husband (or anybody) ever again? Duh.

So I started meditating daily, pushing my bitchy thoughts to the back of my head, ignoring any negative comments that came my way and putting on a big old smile, no matter what.

I had three emotional breakdowns in one week before Jarrod pointed out that I was doing it all wrong. He dried my tears, gave me a cuddle and somehow gave me the best pep talk of my life using only Electrician analogies.

He told me that I was pretty much rewiring my brain to be happier. So I can’t just go into an existing house and put up new, prettier lights and just never turn on the old, shitty ones. There’s going to be faults, maybe a few fuses blown here and there.

He also pointed out that I don’t have a Sparky’s bone in my body and I needed to study the rewiring of my brain a little more before I can expect switchboard to run properly...

...or something. Anyway, I understood the point enough for it to be the most comforting, motivating and understanding thing he’s ever said to me.

The Rewiring of My Brain

I started to make little compromises with myself in the hope of slowly phasing out almost all negativity in my mind. Instead of yelling at the kids and adding to whatever the chaos was, I tried to calm them down enough so that Addi could explain to me why she’s upset or Herbie could settle enough to realise he’s still got a biscuit in the other hand.

As for things that go wrong in my day to day life, I still complain about them. But now I either see how it could be worse or I try to find a way to fix it. And more importantly: when it’s done, it’s done. I let go of whatever made me upset as soon as it’s out of my system.

For example, one of my breakdowns just before Jarrod’s almighty speech, was because a very frustrating lady at work (she was a student doing her placement) kept telling my coworkers and I how to do our job. It was infuriating to say the least, especially since she was meant to be there to learn from us.

Because I didn’t yet know how to deal with it and I thought my new lifestyle meant ‘just be happy anyway’, the anger built up and up and I basically exploded when J asked how my day was when I got home that night.

The next week when I saw her, I thought about how it could be worse: She was only there for one more week and then I’d never have to talk to her again. It made me grateful that she wasn’t a permanent staff member that I’d have to deal with daily. It was enough to get me through without crying out of frustration and I truly had a better week because of it.

Manifesting

My new favourite word! I say it at least once a day. My little Addi-parrot says it because she hears me say it so much. I love the concept of manifesting your dream life into a reality and how it’s so very open to interpretation. Watching all the different vlogs on this subject shows how versatile the meaning can be to each person.

For me, my favourite analogy was the one from Earth Mama Medicine as she described it like tuning into the radio station you want. She explained that if you didn’t like pop music, you wouldn’t listen to a pop station. You would tune into a punk rock station or an alternative station - whatever you’re into.

The same goes for the frequency in life. Everything is made up of vibrations and to find the ‘station’ you want, you have to tune your radio to get there. If you want a happier outlook on life, you need to surround yourself with people and things that make you happy. You need to let go of what doesn’t make you happy.

I can’t quite get on that whole ‘if you hate your job, quit!’ train just yet. I mean, we still gotta pay the bills. But make your job a place you love! Notice what’s good about it. Does your lunch spot have an amazing view? Does your coworker bring you snacks? Is your pay decent? Woohoo! 

I could look at my job as a shitty 5am wake up where I have to drag my kids to the car before they’re awake properly and deal with poopy nappies and screaming babies all day.

ORRRRRRRRRR

I can look at it as a growing career where I get to care for the cutest bubs and help them hit some of their biggest milestones; nourishing them onto a path of a lifetime of respect and happiness ALL while having my own kids just down the hall and getting to watch them grow every single day too!

It’s all about perspective.

Since I’ve changed my perspective on my own life and what I want out of it, my days genuinely seem brighter. I now have a physical list of monthly goals - some seemingly a bit out of my reach but somehow I keep getting there. Addi and Herb have now started listening to me more and learning to control their own emotions. And Jarrod and I are now this crazy power couple that haven’t had a noteworthy argument in weeks.

It all sounds very hippy and ‘chiiiill duuuude’ and maybe the Kit we all knew a few months ago would have rolled her eyes at it all. But like I said to myself at the start: what have you got to lose?

[leonbastralle]

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grumpysimmies replied to your photo “Final version of my summer palette sim! Holiday Guava Smoothie (or...”

She's so pretty ♥️

Thankies :3

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I'm so happy ;___;

GOOD CAUSE YOU DESERVE ALL THE HAPPINESS

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “B: *fangirling intensifies*”

Same Blaze same

so you’ve been there for their original selves? :o sometimes I feel like it’s been an actual lifetime! (no offense to their mum)

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “J: Why did they not let me bring my child…”

That's too bad :c

Well I snuck in a pic a while ago ;)

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I KNEW IT (see I checked it out :p)

YOU DID tumblr only showed me a small bit of these but now my crazy activity line makes more sense xD

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Here's another adorable child ;__; ♥️

that you’ve seen before :P

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Father and son ;_;”

THIS IS SO FREAKING ADORABLE MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IT

IKR THOSE DAMN PIXEL CATS

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Pointy grew ♥”

Too cute ♥️

she was highkey my fave for quite a while tbh

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Bryony found this pirate and his first mate at the library! Sadly, no...”

A bit disappointing but it makes sense they came there to read xD

*gasps* how dare

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BUT SERIOUSLY LOOK AT THAT FACE

TRUST ME I HAVE LOOKED MANY TIMES

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Glow had a bad day at school :/ he was stressed about an exam and then...”

Aww poor baby :c

I have a lot of feels for him ♥

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Telling an adventure story.”

Why are they all so cute ;____;

Idk man. The Miracles have always had a certain kind of magic about them...

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YES

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I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ALL MY LIFE

;________;

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “G: Please, save me.”

He grew up so fast ;___;

he actually did because I never have any patience xD longer life spans would mean 3 times as many pics as I have now, and I could not handle posting that.

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I love him ♥️

duuuude same

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “rly”

How can you actually reject this adorable tiger ;___;

Idk man, Shimmer had some serious issues as a tot...and I’m talking REAL serious.

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Now he’s shy.”

AWWWWW WHY IS HE ACTING SO CUTE ♥️_♥️

CAUSE HE IS THE SWEETEST

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “A: Oh man, that movie though! Shine please, I really need a hug. S:...”

This is too adorable ;___;

ikr ;_; I need to make a ‘fave Flame/Aur parenting moments’ poll XD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “dun dun dunnnnnNNN”

Gotta love him ♥️

say it louder for the anti ts4 ppl in the back ;)

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset

They're seriously too cute ♥️

now I feel like I need to play them again and like a whole lot but I can’t

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “G: Wow, I can’t believe I once was in there, too!”

That's deep Glow xD

Glow’s a philosopher ;)

grumpysimmies replied to your photo

She's just perfect ♥️

Is it bad that I feel the same way even tho she’s my own sim

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “A little private celebration ;_;”

I love them ;_;

me too man they give me life...to think Aur noped out of the whole thing at first is like...what

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “G: Look daddy! I no throw food this time! Daddy proud? F: !!”

It's impossible to stay mad and not be proud ;___;

especially if you’re Flame, he’s the most chill dad

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset

An adorable dad ♥️

yES BUT ALSO HOW IS HE A DAD HE CAN’T BE A DAD SHOOT ME

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “F: Oh, you mean this? G: *giggles* Dad noooooo! F: Ah, I understand....”

akdjfkddfjirk my heart oh god ♥️

;_; trust me I died writing these

grumpysimmies replied to your photo “LANI LOOOOVES YA”

And I love her ;_; ♥️

good ;)

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “He was right. F: How exactly is this baby coming out now? Dear...”

This is a question no one wants to answer xD

seems that way, looking at the comments xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset

too precious ;_;

not exactly sure what this was about, but I’m assuming Flame, so yes

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Confident bump watch.”

I never knew I needed pregnant Flame in my life so much before this ;____; ♥️

I’M CRYING STOP THIS

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “F: G-greetings, uh, Berryverse…this is…no, this is not clickbait, I...”

As if Aur could leave you forever!

Flame believes that, but at the same time there’s always this really small voice in your head you know? I mean, four children later he’s quite sure xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “J: And that would be my clue to leave.”

Poor Jewel xD

nah, they’re cool about it xD like it was them and Bonsai who made Aureus rethink his priorities, so. I’m sure these two will have a fangirling moment once Jewel gets home and tells Bonsai about how cute they are.

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset

zkdjkkfrild look at him ;__; ♥️

;_;

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “But don’t worry, I’ve got a feeling nobody can dislike Aur for too...”

Is it even possible to dislike him :o

Idk man, he has quite some opponents in politics too xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “I could watch them play all day, honestly.”

Same ♥️

Good thing they do it professionally xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “F: Greetings, Berryverse! This is it, the moment you’ve all been...”

OMG I'M IMAGINING FLAME FANBOYING ON THE FLOOR AND AAAAAAH

IKR

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Introduction in some brighter light xD It was indeed four legs as you...”

afkdkdjfirk I know I've already seen them but they're so adorable ♥️

they are the preshest ;_;

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Solely for bump watch purposes.”

She looks so good while pregnant ;__; ♥️

DOESN’T SHE

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “A: The car…you fixed it. I-I like the colors. E: Let’s…not talk about...”

You freaking idiot x_x

he’s quite pathetic at times, it’s just part of his personality to use big phrases and to feel sorry for himself I guess xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “C: You know, with you…I think this whole immortality thing might not...”

My heart ;___; ♥️

I KNOW

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “A: Uuuuuuu… F: Girl. This better not be a scary time sickness, because...”

We all know what's going on

suuuuure but let me try at least xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “CALEB DON’T BE MEAN TO ADDIE ;_;”

Addie doesn't deserve this :c

well I mean she’s dating a chipmunk and still has impure thoughts about a moth so maybe she does

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Meanwhile back home…”

At least SOME PEOPLE GET TO BE HAPPY

YES SOME PEOPLE SOMETIMES

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “E: I’m sorry, Ally. I should’ve never kissed you, hell, I should’ve...”

why u gotta do this ;__;

cause I gotta

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “A: It’s getting late. When are we going to sort out that stuff that...”

Gosh I'm so glad the queue didn't end on me xD

ah dammit you ruined everything xD

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “E: I DIDNT KNOW YOU DANCED SO WELL!! A: NEITHER DID I! YOU SEEM TO...”

why are they so precious ;__;

cause I want them to be :P

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset

akjfkjskzkj she's too cute ;___;

ngl this pic is actually one of my faves (it was Ally sniffing the flower I checked)

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Your best friend is always more important than housework.”

Sometimes I feel like anything is more important than housework (plz don't think I never clean my house xD)

you’re right tho

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Is it just me, or is something going on here…?”

THIS IS BEAUTIFUL I LOVE IT

THANK YOU

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset

So beautiful ;____;

she’s a very pretty Caleb clone

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “E: I think now is the time to stop ignoring it, Ally. A:...”

akfjdkdjfkgkg HE HAS A WAY WITH WORDS I'm just dead

he does sometimes, when my brain cooperates

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “A: Please. Can we just cuddle and not think about anything that...”

akfkjdkdjfkfjdkf EUGENE OMG

he knows just how to woo the Allies

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Button needs some soul food to process all this.”

Plz protect this child ;_;

I’m sure she’s safely hidden under someone’s bed ;)

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “Fable, I think Victoria might have adopted you… V: SHE’S SO SQUISHY!!...”

Who wouldn't want to adopt Fable tho

Idk man I could use her pro skills

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “V: Oh my, what a huge mess. I didn’t expect such a thing to ever...”

Capri Sun you pure soul ;__;

Capri Sun is the best and it’s gonna get better (wait spoilers? shhh you didn’t see anything)

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “F: Capri Sun, are you in? CS: Positive. Copying relevant data to your...”

I like Fable too ;____;

Idk why I thought she needed this part, but I’m glad I did because otherwise she would’t have gotten so big and I wouldn’t have had the idea for her story either!