#( once more thank you hannah for the opportunity to word vomit things into this earth )

[polarnoid]

36. How much do they rely on their minds and intellect, versus other approaches like relying on instinct, intuition, faith and spirituality, or emotions? What is their opinion on this? (for Joseph!)

hehehe oooohhhh ehehheehe <my live reaction to this question

the thing with joe is that he is deranged, and he has a very interesting way of seeing his life and decisions, he is definitely some type of smart, but he leads everything by intuition, he trusts himself more than anyone else on this earth and it has to do with feeling like chosen by god, like over time this concept in his head slows down especially as he grows old, becuase he didnt think he got to get old but he does. so his faith and intuition are very much blurred, when in a tough spot it's all oh i don't get to die today because it's not meant to be which is a ridiculous mindset to have when he is literally a pirate and he lives in danger and he could in theory die any day, but he is so sure he won't. it makes it dificult to connect with others and he isn't vocal about what he thinks unless it would bring him some sort of advantage, everything is about playing games with him, to shoot or not to shoot, to jump or not to jump...it boils down to his intuition and his faith in himself which is absolutely delusional, luck doesn't exist and if it does it's for losers type of mentally. he's a dickhead and selfcentered but there is some humanity there it's just the way he has chosen to like cope with the trauma of being born in the space he was born in and it absolves him of responsibility, but it gives him power.

he doesn't have much of an opinion, he can be a bit condenscending at times about this because people are not appointed like he believes he is. so you know it does come with some judgement for others, but over time he settles and he calms down, but he never truly gives up on his own intuition, he stops linking it with faith. i haven't chosen what makes him like wake up ??? but something does at some point ! he also does detach himself from his emotions when it comes to making decisions at times, especially early on and sometimes that does affect others, in the sense that there is a lack of empathy because he comes first always...until he finds someone or multiple people to care about. he is just mentally a ball of tangled up yarn, he knows how it works, and how it benefits but it takes him time to like deconstruct it...