#( keola laga aia. )

[julianxpark]

Julian nods his head compulsively. A little because he wants to show he's listening and understands but another part is so high that the motion just feels good so he keeps doing it before realising he's looking like a bobblehead. "Feelings are good," Julian slurs before adding, "except when feelings are bad."

Bad feelings were better pushed down, in Julian's opinion. "How do we ever know if the feeling is good or bad? Sometimes it's good to feel bad, but other times it's not?" His brow furrows together in confusion. "Like getting out of your comfort zone is good, but it feels bad until it feels good. Y'know what I mean?"

Likely not.

"Nah, man. I hate seeing my face in ads and shit," Julian shakes his head. "It gives me that.. what's the word?" He thinks for a moment before giving up. "Doesn't matter, doesn't make me feel good. At least yours was because you did something cool. I just.. act. Acted." He corrects himself, the words are in past tense now.

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"Woah," Keo says like he's been stopped in his tracks, which he was very much still in motion. It's a good point but an opposing one to the one that was slipping through his fingers like wisps of smoke in the night air, and he tries to grasp for it in an endeavour that would be equally as pointless.

"I don't know it, but I feel it. And feelings count for something."

He's not sure exactly for what -- but something.

"That's what I'm saying. This face should be in print. It was once, in Surfer. It was when I won a surfing comp at sixteen. I sent about thirty copies of that to Samoa to my dad's fam. That's probably not that impressive to you, you've been on actual billboards."

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[julianxpark]

Julian nods along, half paying attention to what Keo was saying while also trying to work out if his high had kicked in yet or not. Considering the buzzing sensation in his ears, it was likely. "If you don't remember them," Julian says slowly, like he'd just had an epiphany. "How do you know that they were worthy?"

Speaking from experience, sometimes ideas under the influence were less inspiring in the light of day. Julian's Notes app proved as much.

"You'd look so good on the cover of 30 Under 30 though," Julian adds as an afterthought.

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for: @aurorabaystarter

where: wherever ur heart takes u

“– No, I’m just saying I could have been as rich as Jeff Bozos by now,” Keo explains, speaking to the person at his left, his right arm swinging some as he walks with no real aim through the city at night. He likes the night air, it feels nice, his van could get stuffy at times. Close to claustrophobic on a night where his worries managed to penetrate the weed smoke he almost always had around him like some sort of shield. 

“I’ve had maybe six ideas that would have landed me on Forbes. Problem is, I was high every time I thought of them and I never write shit down. It’s a tragedy, I think.”