#( brackets are me breakin the 4th walll lmao )

[lgcyushin]

▶▶ LOADING … AUDITION ( january 2018. ) 

despite knowing that he’s wanted to audition for ages, and wanting to be in the industry in one way- he’s had a million things on his mind for what he could do for the audition, yet he doesn’t know which one to commit to. he’s no jack of all trades, but yushin is also aware that he’s not talentless. it’d be a pretty good cause for both the company and himself if he auditioned, he hoped. having left the countryside a few years back to pursue high school and the “independent” hustlin’ of life, well. it’s... the struggle is real but yushin is convinced he wants to make it. ( at this point in life back then, yushin still heavily wanted prove all those around him wrong. nowadays, those thoughts are far in the past. ok back to 2018. )  

and while there are those who audition again, and again, and again, while he’s given his gamble with another company or two but not heard anything back, or not even made it past the beginning rounds. so not entirely rusty, yushin’s pretty confident in his singing so that’s what he goes with. and with his love for english, their music and culture, yea the ever silly Korean kid who’s never even left the damn country, who finds films and music far more fascinating, decides to audition in english because why the hell not.

so he goes with a song that was quite popular a few years back, but maybe it’ll stand out enough to the point where he’s not singing a song that was a hit from the brush of 2017. so he begins the first verse of shawn mendes’ ‘stitches’. it’s a pity he doesn’t have much skill in the guitar otherwise he would’ve brought that along, but yushin figures it’s better to focus in all one skill rather than trying to show subpar combination of singing, dancing, guitar, or whatever else at the same time. 

the thoughts all rushing through his entire being: wanting to pass, not wanting another lack of callback, a big ‘hah’! he can tell to his parents ( not to their faces, just... in his mind. ), and to prove to himself that he can do it, and it can be the great beginning to something. the shakiness wears off by the second verse and yushin’s much more confident, the judges are a blur, the camera is a blur, and he’s comfortable, hoping his internal energy comes through as a well packaged audition.