#( also i'm really sorry yeeun is so.... her

[kyejuns]

dear jongseong

✎ᝰ┆jay × reader % pt. 1 checklist

✎ᝰ┆angst ; warnings : none

hehe as promised here's part 2 🥰🥰 and i tried out a new format,, idk if y'all will like it but happy reading 👍👍

they say love doesn't last forever but with you, i believed it did.

occasion #1 : first year anniversary

dear jongseong,

do you remember our very first year anniversary?

i was so excited then to see you, wrap my arms around you and celebrate it together with you. i waited an entire day to surprise you at the soccer field but you never came.

all i got was a text saying, 'sorry, last minute plans.'

i could've sworn, i looked like a fucking loser waiting all alone at the soccer field with balloons and everything. do you know how much money it costed me? i could only reassure myself that it's fine and that no amount of money is comparable to you and your happiness.

i think i am a loser, for believing that you actually had last minute plans. everyone told me to give our relationship up, give you up but i truly believed that we will progress together, that we will put it on each other's ring fingers.

why did i believe?

×

it was never me to begin with.

occasion #2 : her

dear jongseong,

do you remember yeeun?

when she came back, i let up my guard. i was afraid to lose you to someone prettier, richer, smarter and more importantly someone who knew you better than me.

so i tried to know you better, i spent more time learning how to become prettier, i worked more, i studied more just to become someone better than her so you can finally look at me again.

in the end, it was useless. what you liked wasn't any of those traits, it was her.

i didn't believe it, i refused to believe it.

do you still remember the time i had a high fever? you probably don't. however, you'll definitely remember when her period is coming.

you'd always keep an eye out for her, always making sure she's drinking warm beverages instead of cold ones. it was so often that even i remember her cycle but not mine.

that one time when i had a high fever, you chose to accompany her who had period cramps. according to you, it was because 'it was too painful for her'.

what about me? was i not suffering as well?

there's nothing i could do as you've made your choice between us.

×

what's yours is hers.

occasion #3 : promise ring

dear jongseong,

i confessed with the thought of putting on a ring on your ring finger and so the very first thing i did was buy you a promise ring.

a promise that i will do it.

the first few weeks you wore it and i was of course relieved that you weren't like what everyone said about you.

when she came back, the ring got onto her finger instead.

i asked you why and you said it was because she liked it.

'what's mine is also hers.' you looked at her with a smile that i'd never seen before.

i almost cried on the spot but you never noticed, you were busy complimenting how pretty she looked with the ring.

as adults, i should've known there's no such things as promises. they're just lies to make one feel better and it did make me feel better.

as much as it comforted me, it broke me down completely after.

×

maybe in our next life.

occasion #4 : letting go

dear jongseong,

when i told you, i wanted to let you go, you laughed. it was a laugh that mocked me and utterly destroyed my self-confidence.

you said, 'good for you' before giving me a look that said 'can you really?'

i was head over toes for you, i still am, but what is the use of chasing after a moving car when you know you'll never catch up to it?

therefore, park jongseong, i'm giving you up not because i'm not good enough but because you never stopped and looked at me.

one-sided relationships never gets anywhere and i'm sure you know that. however, it doesn't stop me from loving you still.

maybe we're not meant to be together this lifetime, maybe in another lifetime, even if i'm your pet, that'd be enough.

i just want to stay by your side.

[seungstarss]

SEI IM GONNA CRY JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL 🤣

THAT WAS A RIDE UM CUPIDS LAW WAS TRULY PAIN INDUCING BUT I LOVED IT SM 🥲 THE WAY YOUR WRITE ANGST IS LIKE EATING SOMETHING YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDNT BUT YOU WANT MORE??? idk if that makes sense??

it was so good at first i was like 😋 🤩 and then when they did their little jacket exchange & the sticky notes i was in heaven enjoying my time 🤓

But then there was more tension growing and i was like 😱 and when we got to yeeun and the hat i was getting a bit excited but when we got to the party and the argument i was like at the edge of my seat because i was just in a happy place?? and before the attitude change from miss ma'am yeeun and i was also like 🤨?? girl wtf like the whole "your outfit wont overshadow mine" bs had me abt to scream

THEN THE KISS SCENE THAT YOU "COULDNT WRITE" LIKE IT WAS CUTE LIKE HAD A SMILE THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME and the pinkies being interlaced made me so happy!!

AND THEN BOOM miss yeeun back on her bs was abt to start bawling when i read the text messages 🥱 but then the end :(( ive never felt so emotionally attached to an ending it was so sadd when hee started crying man 😭 BUT I LOVED THE ENDING YN FOLLOWING THE CUPIDS RULES WAS SUCH A NICE TOUCH

ALSO HEE CALLING HER MISS CUPID AHH 🤧 also sorry for this being so long i just had to share my excitement !!

ILY SEI !!

REIII HI MY LUV I HOPE YOU'VE BEEN WELL ♡♡♡ HELPPP TYSM FOR READING CLNFIL OMG😭😭

Omllll atp I cannot go on without angst fr 😭🤚🏼 but help yes the little actions between them (aka the only moments of fluff bYe) helped prepare y'all for the ending 😭 BUT HELPPP YEEUN WENT A LIL INSANE FR. LIKE SHES ONE OF THOSE OBSESSED TEENS WHO THINK THEIR LOVE INTEREST CAN BE WITH THEM AND ONLY THEM 💀 but yeah that whole dress thing with her was 🕳👩‍🦯 bye like wow rude okay :|||

HELP??? IM GLAD YOU ACC LIKED THE KISS SCENE, IDK HOW MANY TIMES I FELT SICK WHILE WRITING IT 👺 but oh em gee yeah Ms. Yeeun here really had to just step in and BOOM chaos. But yes hee at the end was just.... let's just say he got a taste of his own medicine 😭😭😭😭

HELPP MISS CUPID WAS AAAA YES 💖 but oml tysm for reading once again and I'm really glad you enjoyed it 🥺 it means so much to me ilyy

[scarletgardensrpg]

sorry to spam you with so many names at once, but i wasn't sure if i really had a pinpoint as to luana's general vibe so i couldn't really trim down the list that much, but would estelle chen, he cong, mulan bae, kim yerim, jung jinsoul, hyun ji shin, yoon young bae, kwon saem, rowena xi kang, li linzi, or xu jiaqi work for luana ? ( sorry again for all the spam, i'm just really bad with finding similar fcs. 🥺👉👈 )

I really love Kim Yerim and Jung Jinsoul for Luana! I’d say Luana’s general vibe is that she looks very patrician, classical, and somewhat doll-like. She and her brother, Maurice, are depicted as being quite beautiful. Some key physical characteristics I’m looking for are blonde/fair hair and a baby face, as she’s also one of the youngest characters. I hope this is helpful. <3 

Emma and Ripley can also voice their own thoughts on Luana’s vibe when they get the chance to come online! 

Great alternatives, but I would like to suggest checking out Jang Yeeun and Kim Sae Eun as possible FCs for Luana! I think both of these lovely women have encompassed Luana's visuals and vibes quite well and are good contenders for fitting the role.

[carnivalrecs]

sigh.

It is currently 00:16 and I am about to get into this (probably) lengthy review even though my heart is absolutely shattered.

So firstly, lemme just compliment you on your writing skills because HOLY HELL YOU’RE AMAZING!! Everything was so amazingly depicted! No joke, I felt like I was watching a movie. That’s how vividly I could picture the scenes in my head. Also! Your portrayal of Y/N?? Absolutely *chef’s kiss*. For me, the way she acted was totally realistic,, even though she seemed a bit cliche on the beginning. But then I was like "I'd probably act the same way ngl" so if I'm sort of cliche to💀😭 (I love cliches tho - don't worry).

And the plot??

Love. Absolutely LOVED! Like I just loved the plot,, that's all I can say. I'm so sorry I wish I could better articulate how much I LOVED ur plot😭Ugh,, the concept of the cupid club is just so cool, yknow? Like I'd probably join to, just for the heck of it. Or maybe nawt, seeing as what happened to my beloved Y/N and Heeseung.

Y/n and Heeseung.

😭😭😭😭😭Y/N AND HEESEUNG😭😭😭😭😭

Fuck!! I almost wished you were shitty at describing their relationship so that the ending wouldn't have HURT me this badly🤧But the playful bantering😔 Hee covering Y/N with his denim jacket as she was sleeping in the library🥺 The dual pov where we could get a glimpse into both Y/N and Hee's perspective of each other💔 They were so perfect for each other omg😖 IT ONLY MADE THE ENDING WORSE (IN A GOOD WAY).

And also one scene that really stood out to me was when Y/N and Ryujin went to the frat house. And I was so fucking stupid cause I never even saw it coming CAUSE BRUH?? Like Hee fr fr mentioned how he needed a distraction and I KNEW what he meant but it only clicked in my brain when I was picturing the scene in my head. Like "oh, Y/N is at hoon's place. Oh wait🤔 doesn't hoon live with hee?? 😄😀😃 And isn't hee... yknow😧😦" AND THEN I FUCKING KNEW WHAT WAS ABOUT TO GO DOWN I WAS SCREEMING WHEN SHE SHOVED HIM BACK INTO HIS HOUSE BC FUCKING SAME GIRL💔 HE WOULD NOT HAVE WITNESSED THOSE TEARS TODAY

BUT ALSO☝️MY favourite part, or ig, my favourite line was "a promise would be broken".

A PROMISE WOULD BE BROKEN??

Like it's so fucking simple but it just hit me so hard bc they were so genuinely happy when their pinkies were intertwined... and the A😭 PROMISE😭 WOULD😭 BE😭BROKEN😭 Idk I just thought that it was super genius of you for creating that scene. I loved it!!

And now.

Onto Yeeun.

Yeeun. That fucking bitch. I'm gonna write a whole paragraph about how I absolutely despised her ass. Because firstly, fuck you. Fuck YOU and the women who birthed YOU and brought you into this godforsaken world you absolute WENCH. I loved how Y/N saw straight through her bullshit and still defended her... But that ungrateful mfer had the nerve!! The fucking AUDACITY to still send Y/N rude messages like it's OUR fault that Heeseung didn't want her pushy ass. Like bitch, I hope ur fucking literature career flops and you get what you fucking deserve. GOD I HATED HER SO FUCKING MUCH (which means that you did a fucking great job of building her into the perfect villain👌☺️)

Overall, this was an amazing fic. I genuinely would say more but this IS a bit long so I'll just stop here💀 but yknow what, I genuinely loved that Y/N was just so grounded in her morality. Even though she fucking loved Hee (God bless him😞), she still did what she thought was right. And I know (or I don't know really), but a lot of people may have been hoping for a happy ending. But I'm glad there wasn't one. bc sometimes you just can't set aside ur personal feeling. And Y/N alluded it to herself. Hee has a reputation. And she's seen the way he operates. How would it be possible to be in a relationship if she was constantly wondering if anything was genuine. And when she's so clouded in guilt☹️

Thank you for writing this! Truly. It's been a while since I read something that just left me feeling that pang in my chest, and ur fic made me feel it😔 also, I know that you've put out a masterlist with plans for the rest of the hyung line also set in this cupid au. I'm really looking forward to it. And also wishing you the best of luck and warding off any potential writers block lol

CUPID’S LAW | NEVER FALL IN LOVE

PAIRING › Play boy! Heeseung x fem! reader

SYNOPSIS › After a bland highschool experience, you immediately gravitate to your university’s most outrageous matchmaking club, “The Cupid Club.” Your job was simple: to collect information on your client’s love interest and then pair them together. After two years on your “job,” everything became less horrific and getting couples together almost seemed like a natural occurrence. That is until you’re tasked to collect information on Lee Heeseung, the infamous rugby captain who is coincidently known as the biggest player on campus.

GENRE› college au, angst (I said it was major angst in the preview, but after writing it, I realized that it’s not actually that sad), consultant! reader x rugby captain! Heeseung, heartbreak, crack, fluff

WARNING(S) › swearing, heavy drinking, mentions of sex

WORDCOUNT › 18.4k (I apologize beforehand)

NOTES › This is my entry for @jungwoniics ’ “just out of reach” collab

Love was an unexplained phenomenon that entwined souls together. It was an experience of rather difficult trifles which blossomed into ultimate bliss. To be with someone you found truly admirable and to lead a life with them for as many years as they lasted was society’s idea of a dream come true. Love seemed to be something like a goal to people, while to others, it was rather a burden. To you, it was a lackluster ordeal filled with complications and hurdles — an experience you didn’t want to indulge in.

You hated when September strolled along. Every autumn leaf gracefully leaving the comfort of the branches to experience the harsh winter chills yet again this cycle. It was similar to all the young adults who traveled distances away from the warmth of their homes to lead a rather dreadful college life.

The giddy freshmen were always entertaining to watch. The yearning they all had to start fresh, lead a new life, to grow, and become a part of society.

That is what college was

A greater look into society.

Keep reading

[jaeyunluv]

FSHQFA HI TAY! Its sei and I'm finally here hehe,,, but wdym don't respond 😭 you took this time to write this up and It really made me so happy fr 😭💖 first off, tysm for reading. It means the world to me that you enjoyed it and had fun reading it.

But oml the fact that you could picture all the scenes really means sm to me??? Like I usually struggle the most with atmospherical writing and I have a hard time with descriptions and making things sound good. So I'm honored that you were able to visualize these scenes 😭💖💖 and yuh same frfr, if there was a cupid club in my school, I'd definitely join??? I mean what happened to hee and yn was just 💔 BUT CONSIDERING EVERYTHING ELSE IT SEEMS REALLY FUN??? idk hahaha I just really like the idea of a relationship consulting club hehe

But oml hee and yn really did like each other truly which does make it hurt a lot at the end. I think what hurts the most is that heeseung fell the hardest?? For him to get a taste of his own medicine and just be left in that heart wrenching state,,, yep.....

NOO BC HEHE THATS MY FAV SCENE 🤩 I really enjoyed writing that scene and writing how yn's mind just completely shuts down when she sees hee open the door. The way she knew right as she scanned his fit and his disheveled hair 💀💀💀 but yes her pushing him back into the house was something I thought would really fit her character. I think at that moment she realized that she had dug herself a grave and fell for the dude. BuT ofc yes HE AIN'T GONNA SEE THOSE TEARS,,,, also the fact that yn never cried. (Well infront of hee) she's a lot stronger than him and hee is also a stranger to all this emotion. So I really enjoyed making him hurt the most (IM SO SORRY STAHWYSU)

HELPP IM GLAD U LIKED THAT PINKY SCENE,,, TBH I DIDNT EVEN KNOW IF THAT SENTENCE MADR SENSE BUT IM GLAD YOU LIKED IT 🥺💖

Ohoho yeeun. Now this girl was just slowly showing her true colours in the UGLIST manner ever. I think what just absolutely makes people despise her is the moment she gets angry at yn for sticking up for her??? Like girlie really went and stood up for u, knowing your personality is bs, and u really just get angry at her for saving u some face???? She is one hell of a simp that has lost her way fr 💀💀💀 but YEAH SHE PRACTICALLY RUINED EVERYTHING but on the other side of things, she is a reminder of yn's morals. Throughout the story yeeun constantly does things that gets yn to stay on track(?) If that makes sense. She did and said a lot of shit that got yn to stand her ground in her morality (if this makes sense too)

BUt WHAT THANK YOU SM??? and yes a lot of people did want a happy ending but I'm really glad u noticed the part where yn knows he has a reputation. This part is SO TRUE and I'm really glad you pointed that out 🥺🥺

But anyways,,, tysm Tay for even taking the time to read this. I'm really happy you enjoyed it and I really do hope the other installments don't let u down 🥺💖 I'm currently working on the hoon one and lowkey having trouble writing it.... but I'll try my best to get it out asap!! Ty for this once again ilysm 🥺💖💖💖💖

CUPID’S LAW | NEVER FALL IN LOVE

PAIRING › Play boy! Heeseung x fem! reader

SYNOPSIS › After a bland highschool experience, you immediately gravitate to your university’s most outrageous matchmaking club, “The Cupid Club.” Your job was simple: to collect information on your client’s love interest and then pair them together. After two years on your “job,” everything became less horrific and getting couples together almost seemed like a natural occurrence. That is until you’re tasked to collect information on Lee Heeseung, the infamous rugby captain who is coincidently known as the biggest player on campus.

GENRE› college au, angst (I said it was major angst in the preview, but after writing it, I realized that it’s not actually that sad), consultant! reader x rugby captain! Heeseung, heartbreak, crack, fluff

WARNING(S) › swearing, heavy drinking, mentions of sex

WORDCOUNT › 18.4k (I apologize beforehand)

NOTES › This is my entry for @jungwoniics ’ “just out of reach” collab

Love was an unexplained phenomenon that entwined souls together. It was an experience of rather difficult trifles which blossomed into ultimate bliss. To be with someone you found truly admirable and to lead a life with them for as many years as they lasted was society’s idea of a dream come true. Love seemed to be something like a goal to people, while to others, it was rather a burden. To you, it was a lackluster ordeal filled with complications and hurdles — an experience you didn’t want to indulge in.

You hated when September strolled along. Every autumn leaf gracefully leaving the comfort of the branches to experience the harsh winter chills yet again this cycle. It was similar to all the young adults who traveled distances away from the warmth of their homes to lead a rather dreadful college life.

The giddy freshmen were always entertaining to watch. The yearning they all had to start fresh, lead a new life, to grow, and become a part of society.

That is what college was

A greater look into society.

Keep reading