#( i LOVE these omg im so excited for yall to fill this out ngl . )

[wiredsmi1e]

never done it for her before but 👀👀

[sugar-omi]

(swiftie asker) "he was the sweet lemonade you wanted for a summer but cove was the water you needed" OH OKAY. OH OKAY. YOU LITERALLY COULD'VE JUST TAKEN MY STILL BEATING HEART AND THROWN IT INTO A FOOD PROCESSOR AND IT WOULD'VE HURT LESS THAN THAT. WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK DUDE

the idea of baxter filling the "other woman" archetype is so bittersweet because he doesn't even show any hints that he's upset about it. he's just so very good at reassuring others that everything's fine, that the day is meant to be about them and that he's here to make their special day perfect. but who's going to be there for him? who's going to be more than just his summer love? who's going to realize they still love him in the fall?

reminds me of some of taylor's new music from ttpd ... fortnight (the first track) is such a baxter song because like . fleeting love? the one that got away? "thought of calling ya, but you won't pick up" referring to baxter ghosting mc for five years? "i took the miracle move-on drug; the effects were temporary" referring to baxter trying to make himself as temporary as possible so mc would forget about him easily - and it not working? "i love you, it's ruining my life"? "i touched you for only a fortnight"? "all of this to say, i hope you're okay - but you're the reason"? "and for a fortnight there, we were forever"???? i'm sorry but it's literally him.

ahhhh i don't mean to constantly send in walls of text but i've been a fan of yours for a long ass time and i'm so glad you like my silly little ideas!! i look up to you a lot as a writer so it makes me really happy that you're willing to entertain my thoughts haha

"who's going to realize they still love him in the fall" OH MY GOD.... just snatch my heart up n squeeze it omg...

that song is so him. i listened to it like 3 times and it's so HIM. also "i love you, it's ruining my life" is the best fucking way to describe how I FELT AFTER PLAYING BAXTER'S DLC. the pain, the way he delicately then cruelly rejects you when you ask for more.

that'd be exactly what he was trying to avoid. it's why he didn't go further with you in the cabin, and it's why he keeps up the appearance of someone put together and strong, mysterious and a whirlwind. so much so you can't put up with it for more than the summer.

gives you the glitter and flare of a summer fling, gives you fun and excitement but deprives you of the intimacy, dodges the sensitive questions...

but you're too kind. always reaching out for him, pulling him into your small world, and he's too much of a sucker. falls for your sweet smile, your insistence that he joins your friends or family for activities. falls for you insisting that you need him, that you like him...

jfc i cannot ramble again, if anything im the one yapping your ear off LMAO. please i can ramble about baxter for DAYS. i love him but this man is the perfect angst bank and i can drag on for ages...

and please don't worry about writing long messages, even if i take awhile to respond, i love reading em so much. i was actually looking forward to what you had to say about my last response lol <3

n plus you know much more about taylor swift than i do, and the songs n stuff better. i mean i do check the lyrics n associate em n associate songs n stuff but i love how enthusiastic you are, it's very refreshing to me 😊

and omg you're so kind... ngl i cried a bit LOL i've never had someone say they look up to me n i didn't expect that, that's very sweet and i'm glad i'm good enough to be inspiring, i'm very happy to hear that🥹🫶

n i'm more than happy to listen to everyones thoughts, i think everything yall have to say is worthwhile and it's like you pluck some things straight out of my brain too 😂 i wish i could spend all day answering yall's thoughts and stuff, i get excited seeing more asks even though i cannot respond quickly

so thank you for sharing your thoughts <3 i look forward to more, n don't be afraid to dm me!!! yall are too sweet, so feel free to ask me anything 🥰

[turquoisequiche]

BTS IN SYDNEY: MY EXPERIENCE

This is overdue but I desperately need to write about to get it out of my system. So on Friday, 26th May 2017, I went to my first ever concert, and a BTS concert at that (my second favorite kpop boy group). I was looking forward to that day for the longest time, because they FINALLY come to your country (and you’re there!), and getting to experience the rush of purchasing tickets, watching all their videos again and just listening to their songs non-stop up till their concert day.  I went with 2 friends from uni and all 3 of us got VIP seating tickets. (this was how the staged looked from where we were sitting: pic below). 

This might? get a lil cringy and long winded so bear with me or don’t read it lmao. SO LET ME CUT TO THE CHASE:

It was supposed to start at 7 but lights didn’t go out till 7:15. So prior to that there were projectors playing all their music videos and when time drew close to 7pm, all of us started singing along to the songs being played and cheering when we saw our biases on screen. Fast forward 10 mins later, lights dimmed, crowd was losing their shits and the CURTAIN FALLS REVEALING BTS (HOLY FUCKING SHIT). And they started off with Not Today which was absolutely LIT. Ok believe it or not but I fucking cried. I know it sounds ridiculous af but I was feeling really emotional lol. Just imagine seeing your favourite group right in front of your eyes and finally being convinced that this, THIS is REAL. They are real and they are performing LIVE. After years of watching kpop groups through my computer screen and countless fancams of them, they are there in flesh and blood. This isn’t a dream anymore. And what’s even greater is that you’re in a place filled with like-minded people and all of you share the same love and affection for these boys. It’s surreal. Just recalling the memory right now is giving me goosebumps omg. After they performed their first song they did their member introductions which was beyond cute I stg. I couldn’t record those because I was still shaking from all the excitement lmao. I did record after that tho, but I didn’t wanna focus too much on recording and losing out, I wanted to live in the moment. So I only recorded when I was sitting down or when slower/ less hyped songs were being played.

Now I’m going to talk about the members. Min Yoongi holy fucking shit man I still can’t believe I saw him tbh. If yall didn’t know Suga and Jhope are my BTS biases lmao (tho Suga a lil bit more). AND HE’S SO SMOL I FEEL SO SOFT. His solo stage JESUS CHRIST it was emotional af. Before he came out they were playing his VCR on the projector and the whole arena chanted “Min Yoongi” till he came out. That itself had me ShoOKed to the core. Needless to say I screamed like shit every time it was his part lmao. I stg my 2 other friends weren’t even as hyped as I was, in fact this Korean girl on my right was as turnt as me omg. Anyway, Cypher was groundbreaking. Fucking legendary. Rap line was slaying so so hard. ALSO HE THREW A SWEATY TOWEL TOWARDS THE MOSH PIT I STG WHOEVER GOT THAT IS THE LUCKIEST HUMAN BEING ON EARTH RN. When he spoke English I was crying In the CLUB it was so pure lord help my soul. He was tryna say “you guys were legit” but the first time he said it no one really understood lmao so he looked to rap mon for helped and he got all shy and rap mon shouted “YOU GUYS WERE LEGIT” LMAO.  If anything, this concert just intensified my love for Min Yoongi tbh.

Now my second bias JHope. Man he was LIVIN IT UP I swear his stage presence was no joke. NGL but he had the best stage presence that night and if it weren’t for him it wouldn’t be as hyped. Hobi was giving fanservice left right and centre and just running around the stage making sure he wouldn’t miss any of the audience. He was the one hyping the audience up as well with his gestures and everything. I really have the best biases :’)))))) im so glad people are woke asf to him and appreciating him more  (but shame on yall for needing a concert to wake yall up). OK BUT BLESS THE STYLIST THAT NIGHT BECAUSE HOBI WAS SERVING IN THE LOOKS DEPARTMENT WITH HIS BLACK HAIR AND FOREHEAD (ALSO RAP MON, JIN HAD THEIR FOREHEADS SHOWN TOO). I am really impressed because hobi was almost performing back to back. Right after he did his dance solo for Boy Meets Evil they performed BST immediately like damn RESPECT. His solo stage was the most fun because Mama is quite an upbeat song so the crowd was singing along the whole way and it was just a good time overall. I feel so blessed, because Hobi is an actual angel/eternal sunshine and just such a happy pill!!!!!!!! PURE!!!

Kim Namjoon said that this concert was special to them because its right after their billboard music awards (the crowd lost their shits, and ofc, me) and was talking bout how beautiful Australia is and he would like living here next time lmao bless u. Kim Seokjin was the most extra human being I have laid my eyes on omg. Everytime he had the mic he wouldn’t hesitate to mention “worldwide handsome” jfc. His visuals are stunning holy shit I was awake but now im woke even more. Prettiest solo stage tbh. I was also looking forward to Taehyungs’ solo the most because Stigma is my favorite song out of all the solos and boy he did not disappoint. That man was glowing omg. I love his skin so much?????? It’s a golden brown color and im ?????wow. HE’S A WHOLE MEAL. Also he needs to stop smirking that aint good for my heart man. JIMINNNNNNNNNNN. One word: SOFT. His “make some noise” was the CUTEST SHIT EVER DO NOT FIGHT ME ON THIS. IT WAS SO SOFT my hearteu is omg fr. I was swearing so much during “Lie” because I cannot believe he just did that!!!! Performing with a blindfold during the second verse and having a chandelier come down from the ceiling (albeit tiny but still). 11/10 vocals, and actual mochi. Also he touched a fans’ hand in the mosh pit and im :) not :) jealous :))) JJK god of singing and absolutely lethal with his looks and gestures how are kookie stans alive????? Overall I thought he was so shy throughout the whole concert???? His solo footwork had me shooked I ascended tbh (and he was really professional when some fan threw the Australian flag in his hands, he just chuckled and put it down nicely :’)))

One of the most memorable performances for me was Run. The transition from Danger to Run was beautiful, and before the chorus dropped in Run, the members were telling us to get ready to jump. And so we did and it was so so so lit/turnt/ALIVE. I cant even describe it tbh I felt like I was in this GIANT party with Armies and BTS fans (I say this cause not all bts fans are armies lmao). The Korean girl next to me (shes a stranger lmao) and I was jumping at it SO HARD. It was truly memorable and every time I think about it my heart feels fuzzy and warm im cry :’) ive never been to a party before and honestly I don’t feel the need to anymore after this concert because nothing could ever come close. Blood Sweat and Tears is my fave song and by the time they performed that they were already so tired but still gave it their best I FEEL SO BLESSED. And last but not least, was Spring Day. The crowd sang along, there was confetti everywhere,  the members were bowing and it felt so magical.

I really wanted to write this because no one irl would want to listen to what I say lmao and the two friends I went with I just felt like we weren’t on the same hype level??? Im having post concert depression rn and I just wanna binge watch all their videos but I have to catch up with uni u feel me ??? Overall, definitely the best experience/night of my life and I know that this is going to be so special to me (being the first concert and all). Im glad I went all out and payed for VIP cause in the end it was more than worth it. Pictures don’t do them justice, they really are statues irl. Their voices sound even more amazing irl and just being in the same place as them and with the fans… indescribable.