#'just be happy he's back' no jeffica I wont be

[littlegalerion]

In my 3rd month of the PTSD trauma turned into an anxiety disorder healing/coping process:

-husband agreed our house needs to be the spookiest house in existence, possibly year around, and we have started spending considerable money in decorating our space

-husband supports my desire to buy nothing but black dresses for every day of the week

-printed out a picture of Trechire, wasting ink, but I wanted it and now its up on our fridge

-have made a color coded schedule planner for my niece baby sitting days, my dog training routines, weekly dinner planning, and desired stream layout

-framed my divayth sticker like a portrait of a family member- sil is also there for emotional support

-my service dog is finally in public access mode and for the first time today I got to browse through a store at my own pace - haven't been able to do that in five or six years

-playing through Mass Effect finally- heyo, want a tragic old villain man? Saren is lovely. Want a tragic old man who you can't save? Yeah, I'm romancing Thane.

- realized I just finally had to completely let go of some fandoms- I'm not sticking around for another wave of refreshed Almalexia warfare or the Mannimarco/Thrall Vanus ship art, life is too short

- realized I had a previous fandom ruined for me by just the worst drama and a comfort character now turned into a trauma character due to it- I won't let Vanus, Sil, or Abnur turn into that

-probably going to return to Skyrim Anniversary Edition soon, as I never saw the new content and we ALL circle back to Skyrim eventually