#'its beautiful' IM SICKKK IM SICK

[thesilliest-littlefella]

finally finished hannibal. what the fuck.

[florsial]

YOU ABSOLUTELY SICK FUCK WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEEE AND IT'S SO FUCKING BEAUTIFULLY DONE I CAN'T EVEN BE MAD I CAN ONLY CRY AND COB AND SCREAM AND THROW UP I AM HAVING A VISCERAL REACTION OH GOD

WHATEVER BUT OH MY GOD THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND TRAGICALLY DONE. THE EYES UNSHED TEARS THE WAY SIRIUS DOESN'T EVEN FULLY GRASP ONTO REGULUS BODY, ITS A LOOSE HOLD OUT OF FEAR. THE DISBELIEF IN HIS EYES IM SICK IM SICKKK

AND THE WRITING?? EXCUSE ME HOW DARE YOU?? TAKE MY FUCKING LIFE TAKE MY BLOG TAKE MY ENTIRE BEING AT THIS POINT

i will not shut up about this ever this is gorgeous and obqebkecbadukc I LOVE ITTTT

The Black brothers will always be two sides of the same coin. Two fates always intertwined, placed into the hands of the other. They will never be whole without the other. Sirius, the embodiment of detachment and apathy. When he had to leave, he only had one problem. Regulus. The other person then, who he really cared about. He found the rest of his family boring, uninteresting, everyone was the same. When he went to Hogwarts, only the people who were a stark difference from what he grew up surrounded by. Only then could he find some attachment. James, the opposite of his brother, loud and non-comformative, joyful and funny. Peter, who was too skittish and unambitious for any similarity to be drawn. Lily, not like any of the women in his family, she knew what she wanted and got it through reasonable means, very kind and passionate. And Remus. Nothing about Remus was even adjacent to his upbringing. He was everything he needed, and he found how to balance and love them all. But Regulus, he was caught up in obsession. He couldn't help but be consumed by anything he felt in line with. He never changed, no, an unmovable force. He only gravitated towards what he was, as well. He was always caught up in these tornadoes. Then he met barty, and barty was a force. They were two collapsing stars, each being pulled into the others gravitational pull. They got closer and closer, they find they are the same, they become one. They sweep eachother up, they fuel eachother, so in line. And as regulus' belief in Voldemort and his ideals becomes obsession, so does barty's. Regulus can't see anything but barty, what else is there? He forgets himself, he changes. He's never changed. He starts to doubt everything, everything but barty, there really is nothing else now. His family is all going their own way in the war, his peers are all odd and annoying, his beliefs are being tested, and Voldemort isn't what he was supposed to be. He knows something must be done, and once he knows what it is, he's set in his choice. And when hes being pulled, clawed, pried open, dragged, and wrentched under the sharp depths of the lake, all he can think of is barty, still a tornado in his mind. For Regulus, he never lost Sirius. He stayed the same, Sirius was always changing. He knew this, and he knew Sirius didn't care. This doesn't mean he wasn't angry at him, but he knew they were still attached, tied together. Sirius never stopped losing Regulus. It started in his first year; he left, and when he came back, he could see their relationship was gone, it was something else. He couldn't see that it didn't leave, it's just something new. Then, Regulus was sorted to Slytherin, like everyone knew he would, and started hanging around those people, and sirius' hope was gone again. He left, and he knew that he lost his Regulus when he knew of the mark. Not long enough after, Regulus was dead. And then too long after, Sirius was too. And right before he was gone he knew he wasn't going to the afterlife, he wasn't going to see his baby brother again. The coin is not only their blood, their connection, it's their faithfulness. Sirius' manifests in loyalty. Hes blinded by it so much that hes shell shocked when he sees the potters' bodies on that fateful day. He immediately realizes he must avenge them. Regulus' manifests in devotion. He sacrifices what's and needs for his family's name. He gives himself to Voldemort and his beliefs by becoming a death eater as a teenager. He let's himself forget everything else that should be important except for barty, because that's all he wants. Sirius and Regulus will always be parralleling and opposing eachother, dancing around eachother and mimicking eachothers' ways. They will always be faulted for the other by everyone.

[crystu-cii]

Of course!! 💕💞💕💕💕💞💞

What a MOOD XDD OKAY I FEEL YOU ON THAT ONE SHOT THING TBH- LIKE IF YOU TAKE TOO LONG TO GET TO THE GOOD SHIT ILL JUST GET BORED YALL--

wHEeze okay mood-- I actually went in my backyard with a mask on today(not intentionally, my sister sprayed febreeze and I'm sensitive to fragrances soo-- but the entire time I was like "wtf I'm telling crys about this later" XDD

XDD YEAHHH-- XDDD oms MA'AM GO GET SOME SLEEP WH..... TAKE A NAP MISS......

XD also baby jail- puts a laundry basket over him- there now I'm safe-- dangg never had a pet?? I recommend a dog(specifically shelties/sheltie mixes!! They're beautiful and playful!! And the type of dog I've had all my life :3) I.. ban?? Like ban ban??? Wh????

I am! XDD I'd (at least probably) say something if I wasn't-- of course!!!! 💞💕💞💕💞💞💕

Me too!! I miss hanging out with them :/ but so many live super far sooo :,D OH DEAR-- yeah nonononoooo-- Do Not-- YEAH better safe than sorry nO--

I CAN TELL YOU THAT THE PUMPKIN AND CHERRY PIES WERE DELICIOUS, HAVEN'T HAD THE BIBLE YET- AH YES PHONE WERE EATING A BIBLE HOW COULD I THINK IT'S CALLED A COBBLER-- XDD WH- HOW DARE SHE INSULT PUMPKIN PIES LIKE THAT-- /HJ it sounds fairly weird but hey if it's good than cool!! XDD

BUT tREEeEeeE!!!!! DO YOU NOT ENJOY DRESSING UP??? WHAT ABOUT THE CANDY SALES DIRECTLY AFTER???? WH-- AAAAAAAH HOW COULD Y'ALL-- XDD

Yeahh, I decided not to take any more creative classes in school anymore anyways--they don't suit me at all-- OH DANG-- YALL REALLY OUT HERE PISSING OFF THE CHOIR TEACHER??? DAMNNN-- XDDD YESSS-- awwwwhh :( oh well, on steam you can mood games sooo-- if you haven't asked for it, I recommend the portal games 👀 they're SO GOOD and I'll simp for both Glados and Wheatley, don't test me (unless you're Glados or Wheatley) /hj BUT THEY'RE SUCH WELL-MADE CHARACTERS-- BUT VALVE CAN'T COUNT TO THREE SOOOO-- (but there is a cool portal 2 mod coming out in April 2021(plus another from the past I think!) that looks incredibly promising!!!) and oooooohh I actually haven't seen much about it 👀 but from what I have seen it looks fun!!!!

opens calendar app-- can I just say it's so rare to meet people born in the early months-- like January and February, especially SO EARLY in the months of just unheard of XD I have a singular other friend born in January, on the 21st-- and I knew a girl who was born February but like I don't really like her or know her well so she doesn't count--

lEGITTT LIKE- im OUTTA HERE- xDDD

and omgg XDD im lowkey sensitive to fragrances to- when its too much and all- like i would only spray myself with perfume ome to three times while my mom is here doing like tWENTY SPRAYS AND IM LIKE "hEYo BRO I CANT B R E A T H E" /nm- its wild XDD

AND LEGITTT My mOm NEEEDS SLEPPP- quarantine has ruined her so hard- its ironic- I M supposed to be the rebelious one- XDD

WHWHWHEEZE B AB Y JA I L- XDD and yeahh- well my brother has an aussie dog (the one i said their name was also astro xD) but sometimes im just like- "yeah- thats my dog too-" i even mentioned it on a introduce yourself assignment for school xD and omg i dont know my dog types but i searched up what sheltie dogs look like and OMGG???💞 YESS A FLUFFY DOG I always dream of having a dog soo fluffyy- but i expect that it would be a pain to clean up the fur all the time XDD and well i MeAANn- not really ban but like- whenever i speak about pets at all to my mom- it would go like- me: we cant even have ONE pet? | mom: no | me: how about a fish?? | mom: wELL ***-BRINGS UP EMBARRASING ACTION I DID AS A TODDLER-*** ) so i just assume thats her way of saying- no fish. XDD

and phew thats good! the least thing i'd want is make you uncomfortable in any way ;w;; 💞💞 gosh- even hanging out with friends is like russian roulette- XDD before covid and all i would always go to Larie's house every single weekend because my mom would always go there every weekend to play mahjong (its a little gambling game) and i would just be like "YEAH IM COMIN TOO-" - like OMG- literally friend's moms being friends with your mom is just the definition of LIFE GOALS- and it would be so fun every time i go there too- my mom would play with them till midnight or literally up to 3 am- so me and larie would just do the most wackiest stuff- along with eating loads of snacks and watching random shows or anime XDD ahh its only months ago since it stopped but it already feels nostalgic xD

awh NoW I WANNA TRY PIEEEESS- AND ABHAHAHAHA "HAVENT TRIED THE BIBLE"- I GOT SO CONFUSED WHEN I FIRST READ THAT XDD phone: its the BIBLE | astro: its a cobbler— | PHONE: YOU QUESTION THE WORDS OF THE MIGHTY JIMMY? ) XDDDD

and LEGITTT- WHENEVER we ask them "hey what you gonna dress up this halloween" thEY woULd JusT Be Like "huh halloween whats that--" XDDD but they end up trying to celebrate it with us at the very least- xD anD YEAP WELCOME TO WHEN its the time of the year where the month names start ending with "ber" aka CHRISTMAS CHAOS TIME- /hj xDDD

mann for my school we had to choose between three music electives- band, orchestra, choir- i chose orchestra and it was AWESOME- until it was my last year and THE FUCKING ORCHESTRA TEACHER QU IT (it was reasonable actually- she had a sickness) and the cLASS JUST TURNED TO SHITITITHKAHTLQJF I HATED IT it came from my favorite class to the WORST in an InSTANT im SOBBING- but even the whole school is just utter bull- during that same year- i had six classes(a teacher for each) and guess what- THREE OF THOSE TEACHERS LEFT- LIKE EXCUSE YOU?? my 2020 was already RUINED before even COVID CAME like WTHHH- so yeah it was crazy- at that point we were all in despair and the school became more ghetto than it was before(everyone would keep saying "wErE In The GheTtO RATTATATAAA" every time we reach school grounds- its funny cause its true- XDD) yeah its crazzyy

and Oh YEHAH the mods are sickk- mods make my dont starve together gameplay so much better xDD and ooh i have seen portal before but i never actually played em- i think i was watching the walkthrough of both games just to try to learn what the game was about- but in the end- i forgot everything from what the heck our objectives of the game was other than to solve mind blowing puzzles- XDD but cAN i JUST SAY THE SONGS ABSOLUTELT BOPPED THO? THE ENDING SONGS STILL ALIVE AND WANT YOU GONE GOT ME LIKE in TEARS to how good they were- like i jammed to them for a long ass while xDDD and ohhh i never seen any portal mods before! i didnt even know portal mods were a thing but that sounds SICKKK

and omg xD and wth- now that you mention it- like- SAMEE?? real life wise- the birthdays are scrambbled up- but lately on tumblr almost everyone has their birthdays around the the "ber" times and this has now made me realize it- like omg- XDD