#'his death wouldve continued to haunt walt' oh buddy would it. would it ever

[kylejsugarman]

thinking about the abandoned breaking bad season 1 finale where jesse would have died had vince not been bewitched by aaron paul heart and soul in the context of the au......it would of course be walt's fault, because walt is not only unsympathetic to jesse as a person but disbelieving of his disability (and stays that way until he's forced to accept it in "four days out"). how easy would it be for that season 1 finale to end in jesse's death. the driving force for that episode is walt telling jesse to do things, getting him to do things, putting their safety in jeopardy to do things. offering twice the amount of meth to tuco despite having none of it made yet, forcing jesse to collect the supplies and break into the warehouse to steal the methylamine with him. this episode is walt indulging in how Good and Superior and Smart he's feeling right now by taking risks to satisfy himself (having sex with skyler in the parking lot, asking tuco for more money, smoking with hank): it's so easy to imagine one of these risks that walt is taking for his own ego leading to jesse's death. walt is so ready to ride the high of delivering quality product to tuco and getting his money that he marathons their cook in jesse's basement, not letting jesse step away to take his meds because "they need to get this done". they show up to their meet-up location with tuco, walt on cloud nine from how well he's done and how much money they're about to make, and jesse starts seizing, hitting his head hard on the way down. walt panics and starts to reach for his phone to call 911, only for tuco to pull his gun on him ("u get the feds out here and ur DEAD.") and force walt to hand over all the product and wait for his guys to clear out before calling Anyone. once the cars have driven away, walt frantically calls 911 and gives the location because there's a puddle of blood crowning jesse's head and aside from a few fasciculations, he's not moving. as walt hangs up though, he realizes that he can't be here when the authorities arrive. it would be horrifically easy to link him to the drug trade if he's just standing here with a bag of cash and an unconscious kid with a criminal record. walt grabs the bag, spares one last remorseful glance at jesse (he's fine, the kid survived getting his shit kicked in by tuco's crew, he's going to be fine), and makes himself scarce before the sirens start blaring. he'll see on the news later that evening that a body was recovered. 24-year-old jesse bruce pinkman. walt didnt even know the kid's middle name. he took the risks, he played his cards right, and now he has the money. walt won. and jesse paid the price.