#🐝 DeeDee ╰ OOC ╯

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              Like this for a starter or I’ll smack you                               with my love.

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I just found out someone makes and sells icons for the BNHA manga at the same rate as I do my icon commissions ($5 per 100 icons) and I just realised, I bet I could do that for the anime.

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I’m leaving Tumblr.

It’s gotten to the point it’s either tumblr and shipping or my relationship and I choose my relationship.

It took three weeks for Ren and I to be together before ship partners and friends to begin meddling in our relationship and trying to break us up.

I’ve watched people come along and hurt him. I’ve dealt with being complained at because I came along and stopped him writing with people as much.

I’ve watched people ship with him and eventually ruin fandoms for him that we shipped in when they leave.

And now it’s gotten to the point we can’t go a day without fighting over this.

So I give up.

Tumblr wins.

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New starter call? Lemme know who you want!

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I’ve not been doing great the past few days. To the point I’ve even considered leaving tumblr and quitting roleplaying all together. I know I’m not the most exciting roleplayer. I know a lot of people kept me around for the fact I icon for the Pokemon fandom. I feel like people aren’t interested in writing with me since I closed off ships. and lately I feel so numb being on Tumblr. I feel numb existing... and now I’m even kinda feeling I’m losing out on my identity and want to move away from identifying with bees and maybe changing my mun name. It’s been so much. So if I’ve not been around much, or don’t be around much - it’s on purpose. I don’t know what I’m even doing with myself anymore.

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I’m thinking about just closing off romantic shipping in general? Only shipping with Ren. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t feel like I’ve had a proper ship with anyone else but him since we started dating anyway - and I think I’d enjoy just getting the chance to know my muses in different types of relationships more than romantic. I get what I need from Ren and I’m happy with that. I’m not sure yet - and I don’t want to rush into a decision that other people will be mad about... but, it’s just something I’m considering.

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I’ve never had a pinned post before so you’ll have to forgive me if I do this wrong.

I’m DEE. I’m 30+ years old. If that’s a problem then you don’t follow me. Simple as that. I’m active mostly at the weekends because I work during the week. I work with children so that can be rather stressful at times and wears me on weekdays. I’ve been roleplaying for nearly 15+ years now. I’ve been roleplaying on most platforms. Bebo, Msn Messenger, Skype, Proboards, Tumblr, you name it - I’ve probably tried it. I’ve dabbled in many fandoms but none ever seem to really be ‘right’ for me. That’s why I tend to take the muses I write and just play with AUs. I’ll do my best to reply when I can but my mental health can sometimes make it hard. So there may be - sometimes even - months between replies. I don’t mind being pestered but I can’t promise shit. I have a life outside of roleplaying. Roleplaying is but a hobby. My work, my art, and ultimately my boyfriend take up more of my time than roleplaying.

My current active muses at the moment come from the Dead by Daylight fandom, Pokemon fandom and the Tokyo Ghoul fandom. Feel free to send me memes/random asks or starters for those muses right now. Anything else I probably will ignore. It’s nothing against you. That’s just where my current interest is at.

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As a friend Rennie and I play with has dubbed this - HEX: DYNAMIC DUO.

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Today is a very, very, special day. As in, this time last year Rennie ( @jikanyahana​ ) and I started dating! It has been an absolute whirlwind of a year. So much has changed for me - and all of it for the better. I’ve become a better version of myself through knowing him. I haven’t changed specifically because of him, but his influence in my life has been nothing but positive. He’s inspired my confidence. He’s inspired my bravery and my helped me accept who I am and that it’s okay to be me. I couldn’t imagine spending my days with anyone better. They are the most patient, understanding, loving and spectacular person. I’ve never known someone as interesting and positively amazing as Rennie is. I can’t wait until we’re saying that it’s been ten years and not just one - but I’m so happy to take it one day at a time and spend every day getting to know and love this amazing man even more.

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Like this if you would like to develop some   kind of FAMILY-LIKE based relationship   between your muse and mine and I’ll jump into your dms.

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When your boyfriend literally scweams and squeals in your ears because of The Trickster.

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I gotta get this off my chest or else it will bother me all day.

Okay, so the reason I don’t put myself out there for shipping is because I’m that ship partner you’re scared of meeting.

The one that’s fun and games when you meet, gives you attention and you enjoy shipping with… but eventually gets jealous and feels insecure of your other partners when you move on to a new ship or ship the muse you ship with me with other peoples muses.

I know I am, which is why I stay away from shipping. It’s through trauma of only exclusively shipping in the past with my irl partners. Things turn toxic and they hurt my feelings or replace me. Or break my trust. It’s left me with issues and I know it has. It’s why I don’t trust myself to be a shipping partner.

I don’t even trust myself with my own boyfriend because I’m scared I’ll show these signs and he’ll hate me. We’ve talked about it before and I’m working on my issues but.

If you’re wondering why I ask if you wanna ship and don’t follow through. That’s why. I don’t think anyone has the patience and understanding to put up with me when I get into those moods because I know it’s just viewed as toxic and manipulative.

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Like this if you would like to develop some kind of FRIENDSHIP based relationship between your muse and mine and I’ll jump into your dms.

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If you would like to look through my meme tag I would happily accept more asks. Like this and I’ll look through yours after work :)

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                  well damn. Tumblr just spilling all my secrets.

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Spirit: -injures me- Me: -stuns her with a pallet mid-chase- Me: I’M SORRY X( Ren: WHY ARE YOU APOLOGISING TO HER FOR? SHE HURT YOU. Me: But I stunned her >.<