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MY AMAZING & GHOULISHLY LOVELY MUTUALS...

And those who've just recently discovered this pumpkin patch. I would love to get to know you all better! 🎃

Below is a bunch of aesthetics. Pick your big 3 and let me know what they are. Mine is:

▪︎ Rain

▪︎ Vanilla

▪︎ Honey

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Refresh your Pinterest and save the 3rd picture 4 times. That's your aesthetic 🖤

Literally obsessed with seeing everyone’s results of these tag games.

Thank you to my lovely T for the tag @chronically-ghosted. Tattoos, slight choking and my Ezra era…sounds about right 😂

I wanna see @aserendipitousworld @accidentalslayer @millennial-teenybopper @best-little-secret @coulsons-fullmetal-cellist

x Sam 🎃

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Yesterday's me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I could write a book, I could manage my social life, I could start drawing again, I could challenge God-

Today's me: bury me softly in the ground, I want to sleep for 10,000 years.

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Feeling pretty in the grocery store with a yellow rose in my hair 🏵

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Made by: Liminal Void GF

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Hey, everybody! 👋

Just wanted to let the mutuals know that I miss your faces! I'm not dead (that's kind of debatable, haha) but I have been super MIA lately because I'm:

🎃 Hyper researching at all hours of the day on astral projection for my new side blog coming soon.

🎃 Just started intense-o meditation classes that kick the shit out of me mentally.

🎃 Still have to do boring real life stuff like taking care of this physical form. Ew!

But here's a nice spooky offering for all you to enjoy! I went to Rite Aid today and was stoked to find that the Halloween decor is out! Stay ghoulish, friends. I love you!

P.S. For those following my springcore blog, the new PAC reading should be coming out very soon!

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🎃 Some changes coming to this blog 🎃

TL;DR Summary: You might notice me branching out into new topics or areas of interest now that I'm no longer writing TVD fanfiction. The overall vibe of this blog might alter a little. Although, I'll still be fall & autumn posting until the day I die and well into the afterlife if there is one. Things leaving: TVD fanfiction, my personal fanfiction, vampire stuff unless I feel like talking about them. Things possibly being introduced: More shitposting, mental illness related posts about my feelings on stuff, art maybe??? A journal on my adventures in lucid dreaming, shifting, and astral projection????* *That might turn into a whole new blog tbh. I don't know if any of my followers would enjoy listening to me babble about weird dream crap.

Read below for an expanded discourse about my ideas on what will change.

So! I've kind of run out of steam when it comes to writing fanfiction for TVD. Netflix eradicating the show from their streaming services kind of slammed down the final coffin nail on my muse, so to speak, & I was really bummed when I found out yesterday. This blog started out as a TVD/Originals sanctuary for me, after all... But it's grown into something more now. It's become a place where I can express feelings & thoughts that I've had hiding inside me but never felt safe enough to say out loud. And I've had so much fun with Autumn aesthetics; turning this blog into a Fall paradise has improved my mood in so many ways! Whenever I'm depressed, I just look at my blog and imagine that I'm relaxing in my pumpkin patch, far away from the noise and troubles of the world. & I've also made a couple of friends along the way here! Looking at you guys: @king-yandere and @margueritetheduchess05💖

The question remains, however. If I won't be writing about vampires anymore, then where do I go from here? What should I do? It's a solid fact that I go insane if I'm not actively engaging with my creativity in some way. Last night, the only thing I did was brainstorm, and stress myself out trying to think of SOMETHING. Today, I think I finally have a game plan. so lemme lay it out for you. Or rather, me. I don't know if anyone is actually reading this LOL. 🎃 "Accidentalslayer" name will still remain along with blog title. My autumn & spooky aesthetics are here to stay. I might reblog people's fanfics from time to time but I think I'm moving away from writing fic myself. Besides, it didn't feel very rewarding if I'm honest. I got very little engagement on my chapters. So, if I ever DO write another story on this blog again, it'll be definitely be an original fiction. My pumpkin hat off to fanfiction writers everywhere, though! A LOT of effort, time, and research goes into fanfic that readers will never know about... 🎃 It's already been there on the periphery but I think this blog might just turn into my main shitposting/journal outlet for talking about my mundane experiences. Mental illness, funny thoughts, & feelings that visit my brain every day. If I can somehow get my "art brain" to work again, I might post art here, idk. 🎃 I'm a spiritual hoe. I love talking about witchcraft, tarot, and lucid dreaming but I'm not really sure this blog is where I should talk about that stuff. I have @flowercrone for all my tarot/PAC readings but I've really REALLY started to take an interest in astral projection, shifting, and lucid dreaming. I even started a journal recently to document all my experiences. I should probably start another blog that's dedicated JUST to shifting and astral projection, idk. If you've gotten this far in the post, you're loved beyond belief right now. 💖 Please feel free to send suggestions to me in my asks if you have any ideas about anything I've written in this post.

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No one:

Me at five am: *unloads a metric ton of autumn aesthetics like I'm a mother bird feeding my hungry, screaming children*

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The meditation classes I am in were kicking my ass up until today's session when it felt like something finally clicked.

I feel AMAZING.

I know I haven't really been on my blog lately but I've been making a lot of progress on my mental health in these classes. Moreso than going to actual therapy.

😭 Tomorrow my teacher is adding physical movements to what we've been learning so I'll probably be back to "FUCK THIS IS INTENSE" again.

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I hope the ghost of my boomer grandfather is seeing me:

▪︎ writing fanfiction

▪︎ doing art

▪︎ practicing witchcraft

▪︎ watching all the foreign films

With his jaw tight, fists clenched at his sides & and the sick feeling in his stomach that I, in the very end, did not let him stop me from being a whimsical little shit who experiences joy.

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Huh, my therapist actually ENCOURAGED my daydreaming as a tool for self-exploration instead of shooting it down as "magical thinking" like I thought she was going to...

Maybe this therapist is actually good 🤔

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Please do not add me, then immediately slide into my DMs and ask about where I live or what my job is.

I am a sm0l, timid creature within an enclosure in the zoo of Tumblr and it is for the safety of that creature (me) that you do not tap on the glass.

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Starting a new blog feels like giving birth to me. It's a process.

The concept builds in my brain, so small at first, then...starts to grow aesthetics & vibes & purpose & eventually finds its community. Just like me. Just like I'm trying to find the place where I belong...

I have my autumn/horrorcore blog for all my general thoughts & expressing my moods or the realizations I make while suffering from PTSD/other various "mental illnesses." Tbh, I really resent labeling them as "illnesses."

I have my springcore/coquette blog for free tarot readings & witchcraft rambles. I feel like I've neglected that little garden for awhile now & should give it more attention.

But, you...little idea in my brain for an astral projection blog...what will you look like? Will you be a purplecore blog? Will you be a stars and clouds blog? Will you become a dreaded Christmas blog?

Hmmm...

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Oh, to be a fanfiction blog with followers who actually read & enjoy your fanfiction...

*sighs*

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AAAAAAAAAAAA

Guess what time it is?!?! It's PUMPKIN SPICE COFFEE TIME

All my 🍁 Autumn Bitches 🍁 throw your hands UP

WE'RE ALMOST TO OCTOBER

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My new banner definitely has 2000's Myspace era & some kind of Linkin Park song with chopped up visuals of Sasuke Uchiha playing in the background vibes, doesn't it?