#🌸. i hope this is okay!

[amoreemioo]

yeah — he knew this was coming. it always did. the issue? seokmin liked hyeon too much to just, you know, ghost him. that’s what every fiber of his being was screaming at him to do right now. he should just delete the other man’s information, put his phone down and try to forget him — even if it would have an ache in his chest and keep him from sleeping for days to come. but with every text that came through and his own previous hesitation? why not take the risk? if hyeon finally knows the truth and stays? well — a win!

( text ): don’t say that, hyeon

( text ): you mean so much to me

( text ): oh no no i’m

( text ): everything i’ve ever said is true. i swear

( text ): just not

( unsent text ): my face

oh, god, he was stressed as he let out a loud sigh and pressed both palms into his eyes for a moment. it wasn’t even that big of a deal! he could totally show his face (with nothing more than five minutes notice) to the guy he was into and — you know, lying to about what he looked like to begin with. seokmin was anxious to do it, is all. said anxiety spiked pretty quickly, especially considering he was forcing himself to swipe along his screen and hit facetime.

@rainyearning / x

[licherature]

still alive and kicking!!!🦵🔥😤🫶🏼

[sideblogdotjpeg]

hello unfortunately i thought even more about sol + swag as an analogy for being asian and it is . making me unwell. i am putting it under the cut for the main reason that it is stupid beyond belief

OK. so. hear me out .

STUPID REASONS WHY SOL IS ASIAN:

(and hint: this is all me projecting 100%)

1) moist frog who immediately turns off when it gets too cold. SOUTHEASTASIAN BOY AS FUCK (to me). guy who thinks thirty degrees celsius is pleasant temperature. guy who thinks that anything below 25C is sweater weather. guy who is soo sweaty and moist all the time (the humidity) and that is not only a natural state, but a preferrable state. 20 degrees is too cold. anything below 0 is actually not functional.

anyway. sol bufo. keepin it warm and gross. if its too cold and dry he immediately hibernates. king

2) idk if anyone reading this has seen shaolin soccer. but sol bufo. could clump shaolin soccer. essentially what im saying is sol bufo is like a buff asian jock. which is kinda goofy and goodnatured and loud and also very obnoxious. i cannot articulate this very well. but. what can i say except a human version of sol bufo was delivered to me in a dream and it was every buff chinese classmate ive ever met.

3) (you will notice the reasons get progressively more stupid and more deeply specific)

sol bufo would love milo. omg. like. chocolate drink in a juice box container that is branded as a sports/energy drink and also green. also the guy on the front of the packet milo. sol bufo coded. tbh

anyway. milo isnt strictly southeast asian..? but. yes it is actually.

4) the whole monk class is extremely steeped in asian 'aesthetics' anyway. i mean. ki. so whatever i can claim this monk for me thats my right

NONSTUPID BUT STILL KIND OF SILLY REASONS:

and this is also me projecting 100%. obviously all delusion. so i guess see this as a for-fun reading of the sol/swag storyline through the lens of a very specific of asianness

okay so. swag right. his journey is about leaving his home where he was comfortable and safe but also very confined. mothership lures him to ezry w the promise of opportunity & seeing the world, making something of himself. he ends up being exploited for his body and skills. and he runs away, but his blood still oils up the mothership cogs.

so anyway. i think its pretty clear how that cld map onto like . an immigrant experience? leaving home because of the need to find urself, but simultaneously, the threat of exploitation at the hands of ppl who see you as a potential profit to be mined. this is the first part

the part that is more crazy to me is his experience in irondeep. like, when he left moonstone he left his entire community. now hes alone ... and he cant go back. (he is stranded physically, emotionally). and at this low point, of true and utter loneliness and purposelessness, comes along bronzebeard industries. they offer him a job - but more importantly, they offer him connections.

like. thinking about how were introduced to swag. its not at his job, its his downtime, its when hes hanging out with his coworkers, when hes surrounded by 'friends'. w people who think hes cool, and the people who think hes a "sucker".

idk! but i think this also relates rlly strongly to a common experience of being international? like. when you know you are permenantly lost from home. what you want more than anything is to feel the same community and sense of belonging you used to have. and it is very easy for that desire to ge manipulated. (like - im just gonna mention the one specific instance that ive seen. which is like. international students on college campuses getting targeted a lot by christian groups. because they know those people are lonely and want a feeling of shared tradition and practice. anyway. this is one specific example but also this is literally what happens to lyddie and sister rosaline :-| )

anyway so in summary: swags story of hope/idealism, exploitation, and loneliness leading him to be a very good pawn. i think that is something that could potentially be read as the experiences of ppl dislocated internationally from their home. and im saying its asian because I Want To.

... and sol! okay. i think very simply: sol is super white-washed. total banana. and thats part of his character. he is a moonstone bullywug who never knew his own home, and still, has never even seen moonstone with his own eyes. he does not know his own history. (and kinda tangent, the place where he spends the majority of his life is in launchpad, a sanitized corporate version of reality. and i mean, the whole 'boy wizard and frog pal' is very clearly alluding to harry potter. like. its white.) but ignoring that, the essence of his character is like. this is a guy who does not know where he came from

and currently? a large part of his arc is about trying to unravel his identity by figuring out where (who) he came from. swag daniels is his one link to a community hes just now found out he has. that is a part of why hes trying so hard to save swag. swag is his family - specifically the parts about family you cant choose. that is hard, complicated and how you understand where the parts of yourself track back to.

like. i think a lot about how the pivotal moments of connection between swag and sol are all about swag... showing sol what moonstone is like. in a dream, he lets sol experience what that place is like. that place is a muggy swamp. idk. swag is taking sol back home. that fucks me up a lot

... anyway digression aside. i think one of the most painful things gg on rn w sols arc rn is. how its looking right now. sol is going to lose swag. sol is going to have to come to terms w losing swag. sol for the first time, yearns to know who he is and who he came from. but by the time he went looking it was too late. his time is up. that moment of connection was brief and gone. there are so many questions about their history that sol will never know now

so obviously this kind of dips a bit into metaphor at the end. swag represents connection to cultural history and heritage and identity. and in that lens, it reads to ME as a story abt being asian and disconnected from ur roots. but anyway. even without that lens i think sols story is still v much abt cultural estrangement

(i also have a very loose and unformed thought: which is that sols journey from wanting to stand out/be special to wanting to find a place of belonging. is ALSO INCREDIBLY RESONANT to the experience of being whitewashed asian... ESPECIALLY for ppl who do come from asia. and how that also relates to the tragedy of wanting to understand ur roots when its already too late. but . i dont rlly know if that is a common experience so. itll be noodling in my head for now)

anyway. my essay. and yes this is all make believe in my head . TLDR: i think swags an immigrant sols a banana and i am fucking insane thanks everyone

also if u read this all and want to know what part of this long ramble actly answers the question of why i think theyre asian. well. you know what.

[lotusarchon]

Hello, I'm not sure if you'll see this but

Today's my birthday :)!

I'm just sharing this since I've been feeling bitter lately because some of my birthday plans were being cancelled, for example I wanted to go to a fancy restaurant for dinner with my family but my dad refuse to come for some reason to that said resturant, than my birthday party was postponed till Friday >:( I had to wait to celebrate my birthday with my friends because of one of my friend's parents being busy af, but since that friend never came to my birthday parties before I'm willing to deal with it for now

I'm not sure if you'll see this, but it'll really make my day if you just wish me happy birthday :) (it's currently 2:50 while I'm writing this, I can't get any sleep 😀👍)

I FINALLY SAW THIS AFTER GETTING SERVICE WAH

Anyways, I hope I'm not too late when I say happy birthday Ax!! You're old now (affectionately)

Ah, sometimes there's always something that likes being a pain, so I understand how you're feeling. Regardless, look on the bright side of things; you get to enjoy your birthday at a later date and you can meet your friend too!! I'm sorry if I suck at being comforting, but it's understandable to be upset, especially if you really wanted something.

In the end, there's a silver lining for every stormy cloud! Don't be sad, it's your birthday! And you definitely need some sleep oh lord-

If I can, and if you'd like, I can give you something for your birthday too! It may not be the greatest but I'd still love to give you something for your birthday :) it's only fair y'know?

Never fret amigo, for I, the (not so) great Usagii, shall chase thine worries away with my super awesome mega- *gunned down*

Okay but fr jokes aside, I hope you still might've enjoyed your birthday to the fullest <3 happy birthday once again Ax, huggies for you yaaah

[somenights]

BÉBE YANA ♡ Strawberry Kisses / 2021

[queenbeeibee]

"So Dad dipped again? Color me shocked." The hurt was old but it still struck her. "Luci, can you check Purgatory and make sure he didn't leave anyone there?"

[yeahgen]

@sunliteve

"And here we have a beautiful set of teaware made of the finest porcelain from over 300 years ago—"

The merchant was introducing his wares, but Yagen had heard enough. He might not know much about fancy stuff like this, but Fudou was well-versed enough in tea to teach him a thing or two. Forget 300, he doubts this set's even 100 years old. After all, he can't sense any semblance of a soul inside the objects.

Instead he sidles up to the other side of the guy listening to the drivel, and whispers right into his ear:

'Be careful of ripoffs.'

[lovinglin]

THERE'S A SUBPLOT NOW FOR THE CYBERPUNK AU APPARENTLY HRNAHDKAHDJFHSJA

Ft. @4rachnophilia abt to win GF's heart and beat BF's ass rap battle style (and hopefully not get out of hand)

Also extra cameos in the bg ft. me, @ttimecode, @beeholyshit and @jils-things bc why not HRHEHDJAHDHD

[hugsqueeze]

EVERYONE. EMERGENCY ALERT: IT'S GIRTHDAY AGAINNNNN YAYYYYYYYY 🌎🌈🌈💓💓💗💕💕💕💕💕💗💗🌈🌈🌈🩷🩷🩷👹👹👹🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️‼️ *STARTS TEARING THE ROOFS OFF OF HOUSES AND THROWING THEM INTO ORBIT AT SPEEDS SO FAST AND DANGEROUS THAT THEY COLLIDE INTO PLANETS AND INSTANTLY OBLITERATE THEM* HIIIII HAPPY GIRTHDAY TO THE ALWAYS UNENDINGLY EPIC AND BEST OF ALL TIME: @chalkpaste !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 👈‼️‼️‼️ HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRTHWORMMMM ^_^ OMG AUGH I SUPER hope you had the most AMAZING and PROSPEROUS of days today ☝️ I hope that your birthday has been as swagful and delightful and lovely and life changing as you are YAYYYY *SPINS WITH YOU* 💕💕🌎🌈🌈🌈

[Bonus slightly alternate coloring under da cut + a (comically bad) first draft for fun]

Here's the slightly different version that I promised (base colors/no filter *smiles*)!

& OKAY I REALLY ALSO WANTED TO INCLUDE THIS BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS (sort of 😭) FUNNY, but I was at work last week thinking about what I wanted to draw -> For Girthworm Birthday and I sketched out . This. On a sticky note LOLLL. Wow. Almost incomprehensible 👍

[a-earthssprout]

this blog will soon be archived & Ari will be moved to a fresh one, same url & everything. I'm not sure exactly when I will make this move--perhaps when I can finally muster some inspiration to write something, which is certainly not now--but all relationships & plots will move with it, along with a handful of asks & threads. everything else will be abandoned here.

to everyone who has been waiting months & months for a response from me: I'm sorry 😔 I know that I should have been better about replying--more on top of things--but instead I let things get on top of me. I can sit here & promise you that I'm interested in interaction still, but it helps to also feel it, yes ? 🥺 I've not done a good job ... & I hope, with this move, to be much better about this.

again, thank you all for your endless support & interest. when the new blog is made, I hope to see you there ! 🌻

[ladyxskywalker]

omg hii, i hope this is okay?

any thoughts on obi wan reacting to you telling him you love him when he’s injured? maybe he got shot by a droid and rests in a medical bay and it’s only him and you and you tell him you love him 🥺

hi ! 🌸💌 yes ! absolutely !

I think obi wan would be pleasantly surprised to hear that you love him ! & at the same time, playfully tease you until eventually giving into telling him how you really feel.

I am imagining him laying down in the med bay with tired eyes looking up at you being there by his side. He would smile softly & gently reach for your hand. You give it a squeeze, wordlessly telling him that all will be well in no time.

You've been so worried & scared of losing him, thinking that life is so precious & special moments between loved ones & friends should never be wasted. Especially since you loved him for such a long time before he was harmed, but were most likely too afraid to say the words out loud to him.

"I'm here, dear one, all is not lost. I assure you, I am fine."

"oh, obi wan, I thought..."

"shh, none of that now."

Cupping his face, he leans into the palm of your hand, relaxing into the calming feel of your touch. Savoring every ounce of love & care that you've given him. It radiates from your heart, a light that he too, can no longer live without.

"I sense there is something you've been meaning to tell me...I imagine now is as good a time as any..."

And he just knows you so well that when he tries his hardest to smile throughout all the pain, he's left you speechless. Almost stuck in place. Unable to hide from him anymore. The force, doing all of the difficult work for you. A deep soul connection that can not be broken. Where there is light, there is peace. And right now, there is a soothing peace in both of your hearts.

The words are there, ready to be spilled effortlessly the way you've always hoped & dreamt about. But a small part of you is scared, afraid that he couldn't possibly feel the same.

But he does.

And now, more than ever, you can both sense it.

"I don't want to be scared anymore."

"Fear only leads to sadness. You wouldn't want that now would you?"

"No."

"Then?"

Slowly lifting your hand away from his cheek, the pad of his thumb brushes lightly over your fingertips, before bringing them into a kiss there.

"I believe that... love, is the one thing that could save us all."

Your eyes are lost in pure stillness. Nothing can tear you away from one another. Not now.

"My darling, ... I couldn't agree more."

And so, he kisses you, guiding you into leaning toward him carefully, making sure that you know he will never let you go.

... ❤️

[stunie]

zevIE WHY DID I JUST SEE THAT YOUR DESKTOP THEME IS EVEN PRETTIER OMG 😭😭😭

-(◡‿◡🌸)

AAAAA OMGGGG EHDJD HIII (◡‿◡🌸) OMG YOU’VE PERCEIVED MY DESKTOP THEME ??

SO PEOPLE DO IN FACT LOOK AT IT?? I REALLY DIDNT KNOW and i’ve lowkey been curious about it as of lately bahahha so i’m very happy at this!!!

[euphor1a]

🎧!

Hiiii hello :))) thank you for sending in! hehe ^^ ;; your blog mostly has reblogs of gifsets & fics (nothing wrong with it obviously kdjdjjd) so i tried to base the songs off your layout <3!

x

send me a 🎧 and i’ll assign your blog a song i like, based on the vibes/aes! <3

[koumeowkami]

guys i am so so not normal about the 2wink album title track... might become one of my faves ever

[robo-milky]

HA! IM DONE WITH CHIBI CLOCHE.

I thought it would take longer. The struggle of the badges and hair details is real, i tell you. BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLOCHE! HERE IS MY FULL PRESENT. PLEASE IGNORE ANY MISTAKES OR ERRORS. THIS TOOK ALOT OF BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS TO COMPLETE. ILL ACCEPT MY THANKS IN THE FORM OF A HUG IF YOU WILL!

BONUS: I INVITED YOU TO MY GUEST ROOM

[Completion of this]

“Now as for a message from the narrator…”

“ :000 OMG I LOVE THIS SO MUCH EXCUSE ME WHAT—??? DAMN DID YOU DELIVER EARLY ;;;;

Ahhhh the fact you did the patches by scratch too—?? SCREAMING AND KICKING MY FEET RN— I also appreciate how you freestyled the shoes- they look so drippy and yknow what—?? It’s canon to the fit now <3 Gahhhhh once again— it is an absolute honour to have received this ;;;;“

[mithridacy]

i dont really mind not seeing my type of guys in games but i do think it would be funny if there was a normal dating system and one of the routes is the kind of relationship you get out of meeting as a known sadist/masochist pair or a 20yr/50yr grindr hookup and all the rest of the routes are the normal types