#🌙🌹🐚 epicthemusicalkin

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Looking back on it, I suspect our mother may have had dementia? I was pretty much her primary caretaker, especially as she neared the end of her life, which was part of the reason I spent most of my time in Ithaca rather than Samē. That and I didn't like being in my palace without my husband. And it was like when she wasn't actively waiting for Odysseus to return from the war, she really wasn't lucid much of the time. When I would be taking care of her, many times she would mistake me for Odysseus or if she wasn't aware that he was at war she would always be looking for him and asking where he was. After a while it seemed like she forgot she even had a daughter. Which obviously wasn't her fault, we didn't even know what dementia was, but it hurt. A lot. -Ctimene (Epic: The Musical) #🌙🌹🐚

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Now that the Ithaca saga is out and Epic is complete, I want so badly to use it as an excuse to gush about my Odysseus and Penelope and how much I adore them. But I'm scared to for some reason. I don't think our ship is problematic and no cheating was involved in any form but I'm like...idk. What if an Odysseus or Penelope sees it and gets put off? It's stupid, I know. Literally any ship (not that I've actually seen anyone in the fandom ship the three of us together but you get what I mean) even the most unproblematic and canon compliant ones are probably going to make at least one version of the characters uncomfortable.

Gotta love how both of the romantic relationships I remember being in are from rarepair/nonexistent ships though. Like literally I used to date Poseidon and then I go and fall in love with Ody and Penny. Like ok kin gods, fuck you guys! 🖕 -Circe (Epic: The Musical) #🌙🌹🐚

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I definitely said some really hurtful things to Odysseus when he told me how Eurylochus died. A lot of people imagine he would lie about my husband's death, but mine, at least, didn't. With the way I reacted though...he probably wished he had. I called him a liar and a murderer and there may have been an "I hate you" thrown in there at some point. I regret what I said but at the time I meant every word. At some point I allowed him to hold me in his arms, while I think we both knew it would be the last time he ever held me. My husband was lying at the bottom of the ocean without so much as a single Drachma to get him across the River Styx and my relationship with my brother was irrevocably changed for the worse. In my heart I knew I would always love him, but I always saw my husband's killer when I looked at him. Was that fully justified? I'm not sure but that's how I honestly felt and it's how I still feel most of the time. I'm sorry, Ody...I understand why you made the choice you did, but I still can't forgive you for doing it. -Citimene (Epic: The Musical) #🌙🌹🐚

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Sometimes I irrationally fear that the only reason Odysseus and Penelope fell in love with me was because of my powers according the Hermes. It was a fear I had in that life too. After all for two people who professed to romantically love no one but each other, why would they both fall for me after I became a consistent part of their lives? I mean it was definitely a slow progression from friendship to love but still. And logically I tell myself that I would probably know if that was true and I don't think I could unintentionally make someone fall in love with me, much less two people. And besides they were so in love with each other that I doubt any romantic feelings they had towards me would've lasted if it wasn't genuine and I was with them for the remainder of both of their mortal lives.

Also getting memories of being with Poseidon only adds to the complicated feels because even though our relationship ended in kind of a mess (understatement but I don't remember exactly what happened) I remember the feelings I had for him and what our three century long relationship was like. It might be surprising given how he acts in canon but he was a good partner and I know he loved me and I loved him. Being exes with one of the people you're in love with's worst enemy isn't the most pleasant feeling in the world. I know we made the right choice to break up and if I had to choose between him or Ody and Penelope I'd choose them every time but I don't regret the time we had together. -Circe (Epic: The Musical) #🌙🌹🐚

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Kin gods after watching me freak out over the torture scene in 600 Strike for a few days despite the fact that I was convinced Poseidon and I hated each other: Hey Circe!

Me: What?

Kin gods: You and Poseidon used to be in a relationship during the pre Epic part of your canon.

Me: *does not compute*

me: Huh?

kin gods: Yeah the two of you were together for 300 years, had a messy breakup with a fair amount of resentment on both sides, but you still truly cared about each other. Heck as far as you know he never even cheated on you while you were together (rare for a greek god! (: . Although depending on if this was before or after he met Amphitrite he may have been cheating on her *with* you but you can't really know for sure.

me: ....

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SO THAT'S WHY I FELT LIKE SUCH SHIT WATCHING ODYSSEUS TORTURE HIM?!

kin gods: Have fun having the messiest love life ever!

me: This is horse shit! (ha! see what I did there?)

-Circe (Epic: The Musical) #🌙🌹🐚

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I miss Ody and Penelope and our dumb (/affectionate) little polycule so much. Both of you meant so much so me and I am so grateful for you. For the kindness you showed me and my nymphs before we even realized feelings were developing, for being my friends before you became my lovers (and later my husband and wife symbolically), and for showing that I was worth so much more than my powers and my body. I'd never felt a love like that before; so pure and equal and with so much mutual respect for one another and our relationships not just as a unit but individually. Gahh I'm feeling sad and sappy and I wish that there was fan content for my canon ship but I'm perfectly happy seeing you two happy together. Love you both! (Also to any Penelopes or Odysseus that may see this, I hope this isn't too jarring! I know my canon probably doesn't match with yours!) -Circe (Epic: The Musical) #🌙🌹🐚

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