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Tag dump part i, ooc & character inspo

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Wolfstar Microfic - Dementor

Words: 982

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Remus couldn’t sleep. Something was wrong. He rolled over, taking in the vast empty space on the other side of the bed. He’d known Sirius for ten years. He could be impulsive, arrogant and sometimes even just mean. What he also was, though, was loyal. To a fault, sometimes. Remus just couldn’t recognise the man that he loved in the accusations lodged against him.

Something was very wrong.

He got out of bed, wincing as his bare feet hit the cold floor. If Sirius had been working for Voldemort, there must be something in their flat to verify that. He started in the spare room, which had originally been Sirius’ room until they realised that he hadn’t slept in there for three months, at which point it became the spare room. It still had a lot of Sirius’ stuff in there, though. In boxes under the bed and the wardrobe. There was a lot to go through.

He started under the bed. He found twelve photo albums, which he couldn’t face looking through, and a box full of very racy-looking romance novels. Maybe this wasn’t a good idea, but what was the alternative? Just accept that the man who had kissed him on the forehead and told Remus that he was his whole world two days ago had conspired against them and been responsible for the death of three of their closest friends?

The next box Remus pulled out made him stop. In it was a small black chest with an inscription on the lid.

‘This chest, much like mine, will only open for you, Moons.’

Remus choked back a sob as he lifted the chest onto the bed. He ran his finger across the inscription and heard something click within. He was able to open it. He took a deep breath before looking inside. There were several photos of the two of them that Remus was quite glad that Sirius hadn’t put in a photo album and two envelopes.

He opened the first envelope. It was a contract. A contract that passed the role of secret-keeper from Sirius to Peter, and it was dated four months prior. Remus’ head was spinning. That was Pete’s signature, and he could tell from the paper that it had been magically signed too. He needed to take this to Dumbledore, or the Ministry. Someone who could tell if this was real or not. Then he noted the signature of the witness to the contract. Dumbledore. He knew. This made no sense.

He opened the second envelope, hoping for a miracle.

20th September 1981

Dear Moony,

I assume that if you’re reading this, then it’s likely something has happened to me, or maybe you’re just nosier than I thought you were.

I think Pete is the traitor. He became Prongs and Lily’s secret keeper back in June (see attached contract) because he convinced us all that I would be the obvious choice and Voldemort would never suspect him.

Since then I’ve noticed that anything that Pete knows quickly becomes used against the Order. Pete knew that Marlene and her sister would be with their parents last Friday. Only Pete, Dumbledore and I knew that. I certainly didn’t tell anyone, and it would surprise me if Dumbledore did. So that leaves Peter or a very lucky guess from the Death Eaters.

He’s also been in my ear about you. He’s been saying for months how suspicious it is that we aren’t told about your missions in meetings, and how many meetings you miss. I know you, as I hope you know me, and I know that you would never do this.

I have expressed my worries about this to Dumbledore, who knows that Pete is the secret keeper now. He told me that I was being paranoid and that J, L and H are perfectly safe. I hope that’s still the case when you read this.

If something has happened to me, look into Peter. I don’t think Dumbledore will care, so see if Moody will.

I hope I get to see you again.

I love you.

Padfoot

Remus didn’t hesitate before apparating to the Aurors offices.

Alastor Moody got on well with Remus and when he showed up looking distraught in the middle of his night shift, he leapt into action. He took the information from Remus, verified the magic signatures on the contract as belonging to Sirius, Peter and Dumbledore, and left the room. Remus sat in the offices for what felt like weeks, but the sun hadn’t even risen yet. Kingsley had sat with him for a while, telling him what Moody was working on, but Remus couldn’t take much of it in.

Moody appeared after several more long hours. “Remus. We’ve done magical trace tests on the finger we found at the scene. He did that to himself.”

“What are you saying, Alastor?” Remus asked, not wanting to hope too much.

“I’m saying that your man is being released from Azkaban as we speak. The dementors don’t like it, but it’s not their decision. This never should have happened. Shit. He should have had a trial, I’m so sorry. I don’t know how we missed this.”

Remus shook his head, “Dumbledore knew the whole time.”

Moody nodded, “I know. That’s something I urgently need to look into, but I needed to right the wrong first. He’s only been there for a day and a half, but the dementors…”

“I know. I’ll look after him.” Remus said as the fireplace glowed and two men stepped out. Sirius looked pale and his eyes were unfocused. Remus stumbled to his feet and pulled Sirius to him.

“Moons?” His voice was hoarse.

“I’ve got you. You’re alright.” Remus whispered into his hair. “You’re safe.”

“It wasn’t me.”

“I know, love. I found your letter.” Remus kissed the side of Sirius’ head. “I never believed it was you.”

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*strums guitar* I love you bitch (affectionate)

*strums guitar* I won't ever stop loving you

Bitch (affectionate)

(was this a meme I've only heard audios of it iykyk if you don't 🤷‍♀️oh well)

Okay enough of that

Hope you're having a good day, staying hydrated and taking care of yourself

I'm doing good my allergy medication doesn't allow me to drink coffee so I've been coffee-less for a week now :/

In other news the other day I was laughing at something my mom said n I laughed so hard I walked into the corner of her bed and bruised myself 🤡👍 (twas okay nbd)

I've been thinking of getting back into journaling that was nice (I have not been consistent since like 2018

the mission "mj gets abs 2023" is afoot in full force and has been making me tired (which is good cuz I sleep on time then)

Oh also the other day my mom walked in on me spinning in my chair (uk those chairs that spin and have wheels) singing along to you belong with me (as one does). The poor woman didn't even question it she just went "ye ladki" *sigh* , closed the door and walked away 🤡💀

okay that's all I got

Sending you lotta love

-mj 🌙✨

MJ OMG HII

IT'S SO NICE TO HEAR FROM YOU I MISS YOU <333333

i.. dont think i know the meme, but same to you <3

it is okay today, the sun is out, but can't really enjoy it bc i am prepping for an exam monday (can you believe that my professor did not let us know when the exam was so i had to find out indirectly from a friend who said she was going on holiday that week bc there were no classes and i was shook so checked the schedule and that is how i found out) (that was 2 days ago so rip me) plus i have to work today, but it's fine, my uni friends are gonna visit me at work to have some choco milk together (employee benefit, the choco is free) bc we wont see each other next week and it is a way of celebrating the end of this uni term

ah clumsy mj that me too tho

2 days ago i was working and i walked up the escalator and then made to stand but i almost tripped then steadied myself and then somehow my knee buckled so i was hurt anyways, i am fine tho, just a scratch

oooh i could never quite get in to journaling bc i have a hard time developing habits and i never had smth particular to write down

but it is good that you are doing!!! do it if it makes you feel calm and nice and good and peaceful

keep it up with your workout!!! you can do it!!! i kinda started too but i haven't been really consistent (i should tho)

LMAO YOUR MOM WALKING IN AND THEN SIGHING LEAVING-

my mom doesn't comment about that stuff much either actually, i mean not even what your mom did, mine does not even notice i think lol

lots of love back at you with some extra sprinkles ✨

good luck with your exams you can do it (idk when they are but in advance)!!!

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Your one favorite thing/quality about each moon sign, please?

Ofcourse! I wanted to do this for so long all y'all had to do was ask🥳

🌙 a lil astro note —

on • the • moon • signs🤍

these notes are strictly from my observations. astro does not dictate who you are as person but rather the one you could become if enabled correctly. happy easter weekend beautiful✨

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Aries Moon:

My heart will always have a special place for you. I watch you guys shine so bright in admiration. Your bravery, your utmost loyalty and dedication to the people you love is insane. when you're invested in something you pour your heart and soul out. Theres a fire burning deep down in you guys. This fire is what makes me fall for you. Your laughter sounds like music to others ears. Does people know how playful you are at heart? Your individuality is so unique and special. You are the childhood friends I grew up with, the companions I work in business with and the final missing puzzle to my life. I love your childish charm and loving minds with all of my beating heart.

Taurus Moon:

My very soft spot. You guys know what to say and when to say it. As someone who don't cry, I feel that its always safe to cry to you guys. And when you cry to me and vent to me, my heart melts as you speak, finally I am in. You charm people, you soften them and then when you deem its safe, you spoil tf out of them. Your generosity and kindness shock me every time. How can one be so realistic but so idealistic? I know that theres a child in you guys somewhere. You nurture people but only god knows at night you crave someone by your side so you can pour your heart and soul into them. Your grace and spontaneity go so well together and I hope you can see it. Love yourself more and one day I wish that you can see yourself the way I see you. Beauty&grace and so much more. I appreciate you and every good advices you've given me. Thank you for not judging.

Gemini Moon:

Your mind fascinates me. Do you ever really stop thinking? When outside its raging thunder do you ever feel the need to put your thoughts to sleep? You're both a realist but also a dreamer. You go through life finding someone who can ground you and accept your quirkiest, messiest side. With you I feel like a child again, talking with you feel like this world is full of possibilities and adventures. You open people up to experiences and things they never thought of. Yet do you let people in as often as you would like to think? Does anyone really know you? Know how hard it is for your to stop thinking? Your thoughts grow and grow and keep growing until you can't handle it and jump onto the next. Only when you held my hands tight despite looking calm in front of the storm above us I can finally know I am really trusted.

Cancer Moon:

You're nothing that I once knew of. There's a softer side to you that you spend nights trying to hide and to push it deep down. You make me feel safe in your arms and calm as you intertwined your fingers to mine. Do people ever acknowledge how ambitious you are? How you have such dreams and aspirations you never tell anyone but your closest friends. Do people know how you love your friends like your own family? How you're willing to go to great distance for them? Your warm embrace is where I hide. You're the only I would call at night when I feel no one can see who I am for what I really am. You would never question people. You would never question me. You're like an unamused parent, with your arms opened wide, ready to shelter the one you love.

Leo Moon:

I love the way your eyes sparkle when I notice the smallest change about you. I love you wholesome heart and ability to take people in like no one else. Does people know that you secretly love it when people confide in you? If there's a fire in every Aries Moon then there's a Lion in every Leo Moon. You give out so much affection and sometimes you expect nothing in return. Stop doing that. Why are you so loving and soft? Why do you feel the need to take responsibility for everything and everyone? I wish people can see how different you are from the rest. You can yell at me, call me names for all the wrongdoings I've done but your heart stay wide open when I need you. Perhaps its the way I know you're genuinely worried for my wellbeing when I was sick. Perhaps its the way you tell me your deepest darkest scar. Your pride and love is bigger than anyone can imagine and I wish you can give yourself that too. You're lovable. Stop doubting yourself every second and start giving the same love you give out to yourself.

Virgo Moon:

For nights I can never seem to forget your face when you start loving someone. You were scared yet you were excited. Like a lil warrior, you stand by their side and protect them and plan out their entire future for them. You are devoted and self-sacrificing. You feel bad for everyone and everything and funny how you can feel so much yet can never form a sentence about your feelings. When you're in you're in deep, you can see the worst in people but does anyone know that you can see the good in people too? You let love consume you, let people drain you. Your childhood was hard yet you hide it so well. Who would have thought underneath it all you're just as broken like me. Who would have thought underneath it all you're not at all perfect. You go through life focusing on the material lane so you don't have to feel a thing. Feelings haunt you. They stay and linger. I will never forget a thing about you. You will always be residing in my mind and heart.

Libra Moon:

For someone who people think have it pretty easily. You don't. You cover your pain so well and you do not know how amazing you make others feel. With you, I never once felt judged. You're everyone's biggest hypeman and it is so hard for you to hold grudges. You go through life handling your emotions so different than most. You cry when I cry. You would squeeze my hands tight when you notice the smallest change in my energy. You're not just a face, you're everything that others want to be. You process you sadness by yourself and only when your friends come in and pull you out of it, you'd only stop sinking then. Relationships are so important to you but why is it that you think no one will be able to accept you for who you are? You are nothing but a bundle of joy and happiness. It is you, the imperfect you and the wounded you that I love and adore. Let people in.

Scorpio Moon:

You can build me up and break me down another thousand times and I would always say thank you. Its the way you stand up for me when I least expected it, the way you look in my eyes when I speak that I can feel it. Your love is deep and as peaceful as the Nile's river. But do people know how passionate you are? How you are fuelled with so much passion but also rage? When you open up, when you start telling me what you really think and feel, thats when I know you care. Despite your somber front, I know you have a big heart. I will never forget moments when we were quiet and calm and you started to tell me your life stories. All the pain, all the trauma you've been through. And once I see a tear in your eyes, I then knew that you trust me more than I can ever know of. You carry your baggages with you yet you don't use it to hurt others. Your secrets are safe with me and I know mine are safe with you.

Sagittarius Moon:

You put a smile on my face like no others. Does people ever tell you how good you make others feel? Being by you feel peaceful. You carry the heart of gold and your heart aches in-front of cruelty and injustice. No one can be as self-critical as you are. How can one have so much self-awareness yet so much burden within them? I can listen to you talk for hours and hours. Your stories are intriguing and your words mesmerize me. On the summer days as we go around the city doing the wildest thing, I know you're my ride or die. Your sense of humour is unmatched and your love is one of the kind. I know you have sides to you that you fear and push away since you think its so ugly and imperfect but do you know even during those moments you're still spectacular? You're the one I go to for advice. The one that would cry for me and would pray for your loved ones before you sleep every night. With you its safe, exciting and I don't know what the future holds for us but I'm excited. Thank you for being my bestest of friends.

Capricorn Moon:

Every single thing about us is so different but I'm so drawn to you. Is it because of your calm facade? Is it because of your attentive heart? Is it because of your seriousness when it comes to things you care about? Maybe its because of everything. We can talk for hours and hours and I would never get bored of you and you would never too. You're so similar to Libra Moon in ways others can't imagine. Thank you for opening up to me and let me in to see drawers of your past, one by one infront of me. I know you're honest now because you allow me to see you at your weakest. When you stop having to keep up a reputation. Falling in love with you perhaps was the scariest thing people have I ever done but also the most rewarding experience. You don't love the person, you would love everything about them. When you say you don't care, I know you do. I can see it in your eyes. You want a future and stability. You don't just want a job and a few vacations now and then. You want all. Your thirst for success and for justice warm my heart. I love you and your determination. Meeting you guys perhaps was one of the thing I will never regret.

Aquarius Moon:

I have lost count of all the time we sit next to one another in absolute silence and still know exactly what we want. You're possessive and you're just Leo Moon in a colder facade. You're so smart and talented. The little things you do everyday for me is how I know I am loved by you. What would I ever do without you guys? Under the stars of the windy night there we gazed, you would tell me your dreams, your need and the you you wish to become. I laugh at your quirkiness and I love how weird and special you are. You may know people so well but people aren't allowed to see so much of you. Why is it that you always listen to others burden but never speak up about your own? Vulnerability is harder for you. I get it. But you don't have to say it. You and I, we both use numbness to hide our pain. And I will be here for you always. Your love, through gifts and the memes you sent me would always be understood. Go out there and show the world the you I know. Show the world how you're not just another nobody, show them how hauntingly beautiful your mind is. Just like the way you showed me.

Pisces Moon:

How does it feel like to feel everything but nothing at the same time? Why are you guys so forgiving but you can never simply forget? You're me. I am you. As a Pisces Moon I can walk into a room and get overwhelmed with the energy in it. Sadness feels different when you're a Pisces Moon. More than anyone, we understand levels of emotions and struggles between intellect and gut feelings. Similar to Gemini Moons, we never know what is stop thinking means. But it is our capacity to love people, to accept people that shock others. Yet we don't just trust anyone anymore. Time has gone by and we have been wronged more than enough. Every Pisces Moon is different yet we are so so similar. We can cry about the most random thing ever yet can't cry sometimes no matter how far we push ourselves. We feel numb and keep ourselves to feel like that to avoid feeling everything. We close doors down before it can even be opened because we're afraid of getting hurt. But once we find ourselves and get in our elements. We know we're unstoppable and powerful. Unconditional love is what we can give out.

love,

saint jenx🪐

[lunememes]

🌙  *  ―   𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐘 𝐈𝐍 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐓𝐖𝐎  ( sentence starters from chase atlantic’s album beauty in death. feel free to change pronouns & wording as needed. trigger warnings: drugs, guns, violence, sex. )

𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐘𝐔𝐇.

❛ Lay on the couch and let's get busy. ❜ ❛ Type to make you fuck 'til you finish. ❜ ❛ Immediately got me losing my mind. ❜ ❛ I ain't picky, bitch, I want it all. ❜ ❛ I'm gonna grab the phone, and I'm gonna smash it on your desk. ❜ ❛ Look, I need you to call me because ____ is calling with questions ❜

𝐌𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐘.

❛ Been on and off my whole life. ❜ ❛ Why waste your time, there's nothing left inside. ❜ ❛ ____, you were there for me when no one ever cared for me. ❜ ❛ ____, you would lie to me and tell me everything would be alright. ❜ ❛ You'll always be a friend to me, for life. ❜ ❛ She's been flirting with me all night. ❜ ❛ I can't see the stars because they're dancing. ❜

𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊.

❛ Promise you won't fuck the whole town when you get this. ❜ ❛ I just hope you get the message. ❜ ❛ If you get a minute, call me back. ❜ ❛ I'm so lonely and you're the only one that knows me. ❜ ❛ if you're busy, then I understand it. ❜ ❛ It's bad timing and I'm probably gonna end up crying. ❜ ❛ Here's hoping twenty minutes I'ma hear that phone ring. ❜ ❛ And I'm guessing that you're lonely. ❜ ❛ See, I've been taking medicine so I can relax. ❜ ❛ I hope you're not mad. ❜

𝐈 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐈’𝐌 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍.

❛ It says a lot about the person I'm becoming. ❜ ❛ How ironic that I don't trust strangers. ❜ ❛ I'm so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. ❜ ❛ This world is big, it'll kill me if I don't figure shit out. ❜ ❛ Have you ever seen a grown man cry? ❜ ❛ I've never felt this tired. ❜

𝐄𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐘.

❛ I don't feel euphoria, no, I feel empty. ❜ ❛ This might be the reason that she left me. ❜ ❛ Old friends turning into strangers. ❜ ❛ Newer friends, they're becoming dangerous. ❜ ❛ Her friends never really liked me, they'll do anything they can to spite me. ❜

𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐃.

❛ Overslept once again, if there was sunlight I missed it. ❜ ❛ I like to sleep because it feels like I'm dead. ❜ ❛ We all got vices, mine is every single night I roll the dices. ❜ ❛ Honestly I think that I'm depressed. ❜ ❛ Tried to go to rehab but I passed out. ❜ ❛ I won't play these games. ❜ ❛ I just wanna do what make you happy. ❜

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Wolfstar Microfic - Opening Ceremony

Words: 946

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Fleamont had bought the five of them, because Lily was one of them now much to James’ delight, tickets to the first two days of the Quidditch World Cup, as a graduation gift. This meant not only would they get to see the hotly contested England v Germany match, but the opening ceremony too. He’d also fixed up the old Potter family tent to fit five of them comfortably, four sizeable compartments and a living space that Remus swore was bigger than his living room at home.

It had been two weeks since they’d graduated. He’d been to see James and Sirius, but Pete and Lily hadn’t been there, and when he went to visit Lily, it was just the two of them.

Remus dropped his backpack into his sleeping space, navy blue with gold stars embroidered on the tent fabric, Fleamont had outdone himself.

Sirius poked his head in, “Oh, yours matches mine, but my stars are silver.” Remus looked up at him and smiled. “You feeling alright?”

“Just tired.” He said quietly, the full moon had been two days ago, and the first one without his friends roaming around the forbidden forest with him. He’d been locked in his parents' cellar, and the wolf had been distressed, to say the least. “Don’t tell James, he’ll only fuss.”

“Someone should fuss.” Sirius said snippily, “You don’t have to stay there and agree to the cellar just because—”

“Pads, don’t.” Remus had applied for over fifty jobs and thanks to new laws requiring him to disclose his lycanthropy, he had been rejected from all of them. “I don’t have a choice.”

“Yes, you do.” Sirius sat down on his bed as Remus shook his head, “You know you do.”

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The opening ceremony was magical, literally. By the time they staggered back to the tent, covered in glitter, it was almost 3 am. James and Lily went straight to bed, and Pete wasn’t far behind them.

Sirius ducked into his compartment and pulled out a bottle of firewhisky. “Nightcap?” Remus nodded, “Your place or mine?”

Remus snorted, “Mine.” Sirius followed him to his compartment and did the zip up behind them as Remus lit the candles on the dresser. The space was big enough to fit a decent-sized bed and a dresser, but not much else. Sirius propped himself against the headboard and watched, stunned, as Remus removed his jeans and stepped into a pair of plaid pyjama bottoms. He pulled his shirt over his head, and Sirius’ breath hitched.

“You could stop staring, you know.” Remus said quietly, rummaging in his bag to find the Queen T-shirt (that used to be Sirius’) that he liked to sleep in.

“Oh no. Absolutely not.” When Remus looked over at him, Sirius had a soft smile on his face. “You’re so… sparkly.”

The moment was over and Remus laughed, pulling the t-shirt over his head, “I think we’ll all be sparkly for months.” He slid onto the bed next to Sirius who opened the bottle and passed it to Remus first. “Thanks.” He took a few mouthfuls and grimaced before handing it back.

“Yeah, it’s—” Sirius took a few gulps of his own, “It’s still not great. What happened to being adults and acquired tastes and all that bullshit?”

“Maybe it’s too gross even for that, or maybe we’ve only been out of school for two weeks and it’ll happen at some point.” Remus shrugged as Sirius passed the bottle back. “Do you miss school as much as I do?

“I don’t miss the classes.” He considered, “I miss seeing you every day.”

“And Pete?” Remus asked cautiously.

“Oh. Well yeah, of course, Pete too.” Sirius’ cheeks flushed slightly, “But mostly you.”

“Oh.” Remus drank some more, “I miss seeing you every day.”

“Yeah?” Sirius whispered, “And Pete?”

“Not like I miss you,” Remus admitted.

Sirius took the bottle from him and took a swig before setting it on the floor next to the bed. “I bought a house.” Remus started to say something, but Sirius rested a finger against his lips, “Just listen. I bought a house, with Alphard’s inheritance. It needs some work done to it, but it has a huge piece of woodland as part of the grounds. Come and live with me, Moons. It’ll be ready before the next moon, and it’s way too big for just one person.”

Remus wrapped his hand around Sirius’ and moved the finger from his mouth, “Are you—”

“Always,” Sirius said with a smirk as Remus rolled his eyes. “It doesn’t have to mean anything if you don’t want it to. I just want you to be safe and happy, and I know you’re not.”

“What do you want it to mean, Pads?” Remus smiled as he watched Sirius’ eyes flick down to his mouth. He moved forward slowly, moving his hand so their fingers were intertwined, and their lips met. Sirius felt like he was melting into Remus as their lips moved slowly, and pulled him even closer.

“I want it to mean that.” Sirius said, against Remus’ mouth after a while. “I want to be able to do this every day of our lives.” Remus nodded before closing the small distance once more, and this time Sirius could feel him smiling into the kiss.

When Lily poked her head into Remus’ compartment the following morning to tell him breakfast was ready, she found them fast asleep, Sirius’ head on Remus’ chest and their legs tangled together.

She silently re-did the zipper and turned to James, “I don’t think they’ll want breakfast for a while.”

“They?” James yelped with a grin. Lily nodded, “Well, it’s about damn time.”