#𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒚. » the makings of a hero

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[ desires ] ― what turns them on? what do they like to have done to them most? what do they like to do to their partner most? / @peacereflected + sinday headcanon meme !

it terms of just what makes her interested in someone , emma likes her partners to be kind of ,,,, obsessed with her. she wouldn't admit that , but when someone is focused in on her &* chasing her &* wants her attention ?? it's foreign &* gets her more than anything. she likes when people don't give up on her. all of her canon partners were people who kind of trailed her around like puppies &* just wanted her attention. her past is full of being looked over &* abandoned -- for someone to choose her &* dedicate to her &* crave her ? what's not to like ?

in terms of sexual turn ons , i think it still stands from above : she likes someone putting her first. she likes a little desperation. she likes needy hands in her hair &* that look people give her when they might die if they stop kissing her.

she likes making people submissive -- being on top , bossing them around , chasing her own pleasure. it's the one place in her life that she's willing to be selfish &* a leader by choice. she's always been the underdog , so in the field where she can take someone like regina or winter &* just take control for a while ? peak.

that's not to say she's a necessarily selfish lover ----- she only proceeds with this kind of behavior obv if the other partner is receptive &* okay with it. most ( that i've written with ) enjoy that dynamic. they're willing to get on their knees for her because they trust she is no threat to them. even in verses where she's endlessly powerful , people know they are safe with her. she will do whatever she can to make sure they both get there.

( this is only mentioned in a contrast to current day emma + given she was canonically pregnant as a 16/17 year old ; not to romanticize her being sexual at this age. ) i will say , i don't think she was that way with lily or neal as a teenager --- so , prior to the abandonment trauma. i think she was sappy &* hopeless &* kind of the desperate one herself , though no less flirty. just less sure of herself. i highly think with them , she was big on being gentle &* just being loved &* wanted.

so , the through-line her whole life is being wanted. she finds physical relationships to make her feel that -- to give her something to ground herself. she shut down the part of herself that was soft with love post lily &* neal ----- she attempts to let that down with graham , then is immediately punished for it , so she throws that wall back up. being dominate &* taking care of herself keeps her safe in more than one realm. she prefers to stick to easy lays in the bar bathroom than thinking about dating. but , with a long term relationship , she eventually turns back to wanting to just be loved &* touched affectionately.

she's no less kinky , though -- even if she's with a partner that she can be gentle with , she's still up for some depravity. in terms of turn on's : she likes hair pulling , situations where they might get caught ( like in a car , an alley , a bathroom , a library , etc. ) , her partner 'fighting' her for dominance , partners being rough or ridculously soft , partners on their knees , people she can fluster , scantily dressed partners / lingerie ( men included ! ) , beards , veins in the hands &* arms , biting , pinning , choking , oral , deprivation , being restrained , being lifted up , partners with confidence even if it's cocky , &* most enemies to lovers situations.

as to what she'd like to do for partners , i think she's really good with her hands &* mouth. also her riding game. honestly i also think she'd be really good with a strap. she's a giver -- she will literally do whatever the other person needs , especially if they whimper at her.

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#𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐞 is an independent, private, and selective Marvel Cinematic Universe RP space for characters of canon, crossover, and original making. ( ets 2022 ) All characters are multiverse && multiship. Please read the rules before interacting.

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✦ rules ✦ muses ✦ memes ✦ blogroll

𝒂𝒇𝒇𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 : @dasmirakel ✦ @ladamereveuse ✦ @etfuturist ✦ @wachtraeumen ✦ @ofmoonandthunder ✦ @theforsakenchronicles ✦ @wiishescametrue ✦ @unitcd

𝒂 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒚 𝒊𝒏 : Not always being the hero. Some battles are better lost. You can't turn a blind eye. Choose your fights carefully. Always have your friends at your side. Love is silly and surprising and sometimes a detriment to the situation. Happily Ever After isn't just for fairy tales. Your squad is weird but they're full of heart. Please stop bleeding on my floor I just cleaned it. Sibling rivalries sometimes cause wars. The list goes on.

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@freezegirl : a question for the lovely writer behind this blog: what's your favorite emma swan look and why? <3

omg. loaded question. i can't just pick one. the costume design for the whole show is crazy good. there are so many. this is gonna involve a lot of pictures.

so , fundamentally , i always picture emma in her red leather jacket. i think it's fundamental and sentimental to her. i'm glad they gave it an origin story. i personally didn't like them giving her like 20 different leather jackets in season 1 specifically but i understand wanting her to look different. but then again she's supposed to be living out of like 2 boxes. it would make sense for her to have 1 or 2 jackets.

i'm a sucker for the pilot 'bait' dress. i think it really shows off like ... her using her assets for her job and being confident in that. she never wears dresses like the rest of the show (aside from like ballgowns and that time she had to dress up in fairytale clothes) and i understand she's not like comfortable in them nor does she like dressing up, but i do think it really flatters her and she found a niche that really worked for her. luring people in to dates and booting their cars? a+

speaking of dresses tho. the camelot arc is so aesthetically pleasing. i dont remember a whole lot of the plotline, but ?? pretty.

personally , i'm a real big fan of when emma's arms are out. i think it's such a good reminder that she is a tough bitch who has had to take care of herself her whole life. she's not the dainty princess. she actively works out and can do 50 pullups. mostly it just shows how low effort she is. like she's not going all out. she's comfy. it's also just ,,, so gay.

speaking of 'emma looks like a badass' looks , i very much loved her enchanted forest pants look. some people hate it but she looks like a ... hot knight rogue u know. like hide your princesses. she's dressed like flynn rider and thats hot.

speaking of hot EF emma -- this photoshoot was purely promotional and im not sure it was used anywhere but in magazines. but warrior emma ??? MMMM

basically her whole wardrobe from 3.12. you can tell regina made these in her little 'au where emma is inexplicably rich enough to afford a nice apartment in manhattan with henry and doesnt wear jeans and a tank all the time.' like these outfits scream regina. love that. bitch has style and knows what would suit her.

i also think her ballgowns were always really nice !! like !! ouat never slept on elegance.

her winter outfits were also really cute and cozy.

and then finally , the bar wench outfit. i just ,,, muah.

honorable mentions !

SIDE TANGENT -- OUTFITS I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE !!

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what is your animal familiar ?

SHARK : the shark is a great familiar to have for those who are driven to accomplish goals &* have high standards for themselves. if you have this familiar, you are constantly pushing yourself to get better, to the point where you may have workaholic tendencies. you seem to have virtually no fears whatsoever, at least none that you let others know about. though you are always thinking ahead and almost constantly working to achieve your goals, you still see what is important right now, &* are always there for friends and family as well. the shark represents : -perseverance ; a driven mindset ; work-oriented ; fearlessness ; protection ; efficiency ; perception

stolen from : @peculiarbeauty tagging : @peacereflected , @dragetunge , @darlingflight , @dahrlins , @feylived

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@florietiae : hc question: what does (the concept of) hope mean for / to emma?

I LOVE THIS QUESTION SM. i think it really changes throughout her life but she is never without it , even at her lowest. she is hope , simply because of her background &* arc as the savior.

before she was born , the hope of the entire realm was put on her as a symbol for their freedom of the curse --- she is the hope of an entire people , destined to save a world she has never known. hope is built in to her fundamentally. as an adolescent , it was something to aspire to in a way ; more of a want than anything else -- hope for something better , hope for finding what was missing in her , hope of finding her family , etc. hope is childish in nature to her ; it's so linked to her youth that she can't separate that as she gets older. then as an adult prior to her show arcs , it's buried down because she never got what she hoped for as a kid. she doesn't need hope -- she can make her way without any kind of help , in her mind. she cannot provide hope , as she's lost track of what it means exactly. why hope for things instead of just doing what's actually achievable ? ( " you're our last hope ! " --- " then you're all screwed ! " )

i think when she meets her family &* is put into this role of savior , she has to rediscover it for herself. hope is fundamental for her new role. she is hope. she panics with this at first because she has no idea how to save these people -- she can only save herself &* she's been doing a shit job at that so far in her opinion. hope is a childs wish in her mind or some superhero quota that she cannot meet.

as she progresses &* accepts that she doesn't have to do this all alone , she accepts what she means to those she loves -- she is hope &* light &* good &* important. when things go to shit in her life ( like when she knows she has to die as all savior's do ; like when her dad dies ; like when hook dies ) she clings to hope more than anything. she knows it has its root in love -- love for life , for people , for love itself. she does not want to die or see those around her suffer , so she hopes &* gives hope readily. she accepts that if she must die , she will do so gladly because hope does not die -- just her sacrifice &* willingness to protect those she loves will provide hope.

suddenly , those things she hoped for as a kid are not far off --- she's found out who she is , where she came from , where she belongs , what true love is. her hopes had not been in vain ------ in that way , she's realized how powerful of a concept &* magic hope is in itself. it's why she names her daughter hope. she never thought she could have this calm , magical future but she has done that &* lived more than one lifetime worth of experience that have cemented how important hope is when you have struggled.

TLDR -- hope , to emma , is love. is light. is fundamental. hope is infallible. without hope , you'd never accomplish anything or save anyone. the only thing stronger than fear / evil is hope itself.

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WHERE SHOULD YOU BE KISSED?

PALM — you give and give. you are a gentle heart, broken but still standing... always lending a hand for those who need it, expecting nothing in return. you deserve someone taking your hand and kissing your open palm, the hands which have selflessly helped so many others.

stole from: stolen from @feylived tagging: @evilreine , @ashesrebirthed , @peacereflected

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i think emma's inability to write off people , no matter how badly they fucked her over , really shows in emma keeping the swan keychain neal gave her. &* not just keeping it in a box somewhere, like her baby blanket ; oh no , turning it into a necklace she wears every day.

i love neal , &* yes , as an audience , we know his reasons were for the greater good. neither of them know about the baby. he thought, in his little hero head, that he was putting emma's destiny as the savior of his people ten years from now -- people he gave up 200 years ago ; people including his evil father -- over his love for her. he couldn't forsake everyone just because he loved her. he doesn't value himself highly enough to do what's best for HIM.

but emma doesn't know that. she only knows she loved him &* they were going to run off together &* have a functional, safe, happy life -- have a family &* a loving, stable home that she nor him ever had. they were going to get off the street &* stop stealing to survive. as far as she knows, he ran off with the money &* left her to get arrested. to take the whole fall for it. end of story -- he conned her. just like lily. just like everyone else in her life. she spent 11 months in jail , thinking not only did this guy absolutely betray her, but she had his kid -- &* had to give him up. sure, he leaves her the money he got &* the car, but it's not what she wanted. she wanted him.

BUT SHE KEPT THE KEYCHAIN. (&* the car, yeah. she used the money to get to tallahasse to , what ? TO FIND HIM. ) the keychain neal stole for her , solely because of her chosen last name. it wasn't the moment she picked swan -- she picked that with august when she was like 10. she's not keeping it for the swan name specifically , is what i'm getting at. she kept it because it was from neal. because it was the first gift she ever got from anyone. which makes sense , given her deep dark confession in neverland is that she never stopped loving him, no matter what happened. like it's not the first thing she's ever owned -- she has her baby blanket. but she keeps neal's necklace until she sees him again &* he comments on it &* the only thing she can say about it is like a catty, 'yeah, well, just so i could give this back to you. dick.'

side note - i believe it's canon that she had the chance to turn him in &* she didn't. she could have. but she chose to remain silent &* just take the blame.

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where do you hold your love?

in your heart. you hold your love in your heart. love is intrinsic, inevitable, love is the beating core of everything; love is also hard to talk about. your love comes out with more rareness, mostly shows up for the big things in a big way- this doesn't mean it doesn't beat for the small stuff, you feel it all, in fact you feel it more intensely than most which is why it's so hard to get out. you hold your love inside you because it matters, it might be the only thing that does.

tagged by. @spllcat tagging. @peacereflected , @peculiarbeauty , @ashesrebirthed , @keepmovinjunior

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 

list 5 songs that inspire you to write your muse  :

) This Is Me Trying -- T. Swift

) Matilda -- H. Styles

) Lost Boy -- Ruth B.

) I'm With You -- A. Lavigne

) You're On Your Own, Kid -- T. Swift

list 5 quotes that inspire you to write your muse :

) “In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.” - R. Frost

) “Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” -- MLK

) “Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.” -- N. Gaiman

) “We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.” -- O. Wilde

) “It gives me strength to have somebody to fight for; I can never fight for myself, but, for others, I can kill.” -- E. Autumn

TAGGED BY. @void-foxy

TAGGING. @ashesrebirthed , @dragetunge , @feylived , @peculiarbeauty , @rapunzael , @writtenxbeginnings

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WHAT RAGE LANGUAGE ARE YOU?

men, raise the drawbridge ;

when you're angry, all your defenses go up. the unfortunate person or thing that managed to piss you off is suddenly talking to a wall. On the inside, you're screaming and crying and cussing them out, but somehow you can't express it. you're blank. emotionless. to anyone's knowledge, you could be zoning out of a lecture. because of this, it's hard to express how you're feeling when the person asks for your thoughts. you've choked your feelings down, and they won't come back up.

stolen from ; @peculiarbeauty tagging ; @dragetunge , @feylived , @ashesrebirthed

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𝑾𝑯𝑨𝑻 𝑨𝑹𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑮𝑶𝑫 𝑶𝑭 ?

𝐚𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 .

generous and nurturing , you represent and protect the home and family . those who pray to you are often blessed with calm and happy lives and a bountiful harvest . celebrations and festivals are held every fall in your honor and a candle burns for you through the winter , hoping no one goes hungry during the harsher months .

𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 : @peacereflected 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 : @feylived , @ashesrebirthed , @dragetunge , @darlingflight , @lovepurposed

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3-5 THINGS YOUR CHARACTER CAN BE IDENTIFIED BY.

01. EMOTIONS / FEELINGS.

grief

uncertainty

yearning

love

hope

02. COLORS.

red

brown

emerald

white

gold

03. SCENTS.

a crackling fire

car leather

hot chocolate with cinnamon

04. FASHION.

leather jackets

pants instead of dresses

rolled up plaid sleeves

plain white tank tops

wearing his boxers

05. OBJECTS.

a hand knitted blanket

an old storybook

a sheriff's badge

a yellow volkswagen

a dream catcher

05.BODY LANGUAGE.

worried brows

eye rolling

hands on hips or crossed over chest

trying to hold back tears

07. AESTHETICS.

sunlight casting rainbows in a sun catcher

swans in a lake

the family gathered around a table

the lost princess

tagged by. @spllcat

tagging. @peacereflected ( bucky ! ) , @evilreine , @feylived

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𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋   𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒   &&.   𝐇𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐒.       bold   —   always  applies. italic   —   sometimes  applies. strike  —   never  applies  /  hard  limit.

—    INCLINATION    /   HABITS.  is  submissive  |  is  dominant  |  prefers  to  top  |  prefers  to  bottom  | likes  to  switch  | identifies  as  heterosexual | identifies  as  homosexual  | identifies  as  bisexual  |  identifies  as  pansexual  |  identifies  as  demisexual  |  identifies  as  asexual |  enjoys  sex  with  men  |  enjoys  sex  with  women  |  enjoys  sex  with  aliens  |   enjoys  sex  with  androids  |   enjoys  sex  with  monsters  |   enjoys  sex  with  any  sex  /  gender  |  enjoys  sex  with  multiple  people  at  once  |  initiates  |  waits  for  partner  to  initiate  |  spits   |  swallows  |  prefers  sex  in  the  morning  | prefers  sex  at  night  |  will  have  sex  anytime  |  no  sex  drive  | low  sex  drive  |  average  sex  drive  |  high  sex  drive  |  hypersexual  |  fluctuating  sex  drive.

—   BODY   /    APPEARANCE.  small  build  |  medium  build  | athletic  build  |  muscular  build  |  curvy  build |  voluptuous  build  | wears  boxers  |  wears  briefs  |  wears  lingerie  |  goes  ‘ commando ’ |  shaves / waxes | manscapes  |  doesn’t  shave / wax  | cup  size  a – c   | cup  size  d – f  |  1 – 5"  in  length  | 6 – 9″  in  length  |  10”  or  over  in  length.

—   SOUNDS.  is  silent / makes  little  to  no  sounds  |  is  very  quiet  |  is  very  loud  |  grows  in  volume  over  time  | bites hand / partner / pillow  to  muffle  themselves  | calls  out  partner’s  name  |  curses  |  growls  |  fakes / exaggerates |  prefers  a  quiet  partner | prefers  a  loud / appropriately  vocal  partner  |  prefers  a  responsive  partner  |  no preference towards partner’s volume  |  is  turned  on  by  dirty  talk  | is  turned  off  by  dirty  talk.

—    TURN  ONS    /    KINKS.   having  their  hands  pinned |  pinning  their  partner’s  hands  |  having  their  hair  pulled  |  pulling  their  partner’s  hair  |  being  watched  ( by  their  partner )  |  being  watched  ( by  a  third  party )  |  watching their partner  |  receiving  oral  |  giving  oral  |  calling  their  partner  ‘ daddy ’  |  being  called  ‘ daddy ’  |  calling  their  partner  ‘ mommy ‘ |  being  called  ‘ mommy ‘ |  calling  their  partner  ‘ master ‘ |  being  called  ‘ master ‘  |  calling  their  partner  ‘ mistress ‘ |  being  called  ‘ mistress ‘ |  giving praise |  receiving praise  |  biting / marking  |  being  bitten  /  marked |  spanking  |  being  spanked |  teasing  | being teased  | having  toys  used  on  them  |  using  toys  on  their  partner |  giving anal  |  receiving  anal  |  choking  |  being  choked  |  dirty  talk  |  being  tied  up  | tying  their  partner  up | being  worshiped  |  worshiping  their  partner  |  humiliating  |   being  humiliated  |  degrading  | being  degraded | being  pegged |  pegging  their  partner  | being  edged | edging | age gap  |  anonymous  sex |  blood  play  |  breeding  |  chastity devices  | clothed / partially clothed  |  condoms  |  deep - throating  |  gun  play  |  intercrural sex  |  knife  play  | lingerie | nipple  play  |  orgasm  denial  |  overstimulation  |  pregnancy  |  public  sex  |  rimming |  roleplay  |  sadism / masochism  | size  difference  |  squirting.

—    PLACES.  airplane  |  alleyway  |  bath  |  beach  |  bedroom |  boat  | bus |  car |  cathedral / church  |  cemetery  | closet |  concert  |  dressing room  |  elevator  |  empty or abandoned building  |  field  |  forest  |  gym  |  home bathroom  | hospital |  kitchen  |  library  |  movie  theatre  |  museum  |  ocean  |  parking lot  |  planetarium  |  pool  |  public bathroom  |  rooftop  |  school  |  sex  club  |  shower  |  tent  |  terrace  | train |  workplace.

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WHAT KIND OF LOVE ARE YOU?

PRE SEASON FIVE EMMA / TRAUMATIZED EMMA :

Love as a Force of Nature

Your love is like whiplash –– it comes in with the rain, it blows the doors wide open. When you fall in love, it is sudden and hard and immense. It is powerful. It is earth-shaking and world-ending. Nature is a force, and that force can be destructive if you're not careful. See how the world is doused in gasoline and set on fire –– your love consumes, your love takes, your love burns. You're hot and cold all at once, a hurricane and a wildfire bound together in skin, and when you're in love, it can feel like it's eating you alive from the inside out. When you love, it is with everything you have because it is everything you have. Be careful, darling, because not everyone survives the storm.

SEASON 5+ EMMA / HEALED EMMA :

Love as a Threshold

Your love does not ask for much. Your love does not take. Your love is free, and unquestioned, and here for wherever needs it. When you fall in love, it is as gentle as a breath in the night. It is quiet, and it is effortless. It is tender. If your love was a house, it would readily welcome all who come through. If your love was a hearth, it would warm the hands of whoever stopped by, whether for a day, a month, a year, or forever. When you fall for someone, it is without strings, without conditions, without need. You love for the sake of loving, for the sake of caring for those who need it. You love with a giver’s heart and a giver’s hands and are made so much stronger for it. Being loved by you is to always feel at home. Your love may not always be well-received by those unprepared to linger, but it is unforgettable all the same.

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SEVEN DEADLY SINS ASSOCIATIONS MEME.

Bold all that apply to your muse. Italic for sometimes or verse dependent!

LUST: desire for connection, pursuit of pleasure, emotional intelligence, obsessive, lovesick, one - night stand, seductive encounter, flirtatious conversation, erotic party, seductive attire, revealing clothing, passionate gaze, provocative makeup, sensual expressions, suggestive gestures, flirtatious smiles, lingerie, love letters, perfumes, provocative behaviour, love poems, erotic art.

GLUTTONY: indulgence in experiences, savouring moments, hospitality, generosity, hedonism, culinary expertise, wine tasting, excessive snacking, overloaded plates, excessive portions, bloated stomachs, messy eating, greasy fingers, full tables, indulgent spreads, overflowing cups, satisfied expressions, wine bottles, can't get enough, fast food wrappers.

ENVY: motivation, competitive spirit, strategic planning, observational skills, bitter, rivalry contest, envious gossip, resentment - filled argument, social media jealousy, furrowed brows, clenched jaws, side - eye looks, pursed lips, tense posture, whispering behind backs, crossed arms, gossip magazines, keeping up with the joneses, the grass is always greener, feeling inadequate.

GREED: resourcefulness, entrepreneurial spirit, negotiation, materialistic, aggressive investment, lavish spending spree, resource hoarding, get - rich - quick scheme, auction bidding war, property acquisition, piles of money, overflowing wallets, luxury items, locked safes, penny - pinching, rare collectibles, selfishness, unwillingness to share.

SLOTH: calmness, stress management, nonchalance, relaxation techniques, lethargic, apathetic, inactive, lazy weekend, binge - watching marathon, neglected chores, skipped workout, long nap, lounging on the couch, missed deadline, unkempt appearance, messy hair, pajamas, blankets, slippers, procrastination station, self - care routines.

PRIDE: confidence, self - assurance, self - respect, dignity, public speaking, self - promotion, arrogance, conceit, egotistical, self - important, vain, boastful speech, puffed chest, raised chin, smug smiles, spotlight, tooting your own horn, showing off, refusing to admit mistakes, feeling entitled, personal branding, leadership development.

WRATH: assertiveness, decisiveness, strength, intensity, boundary setting, courage, indignant, heated argument, road rage incident, physical altercation, angry outburst, clenched fists, glaring eyes, tense muscles, raised voices, reddened faces, aggressive gestures, stormy demeanor, intense frowns, destructive actions, broken objects, punching bag, out for blood, fists, simmering anger.