#𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨

[giuliadesu]

𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨 | han jisung

kpop | giuliadesu

fem!reader ⍛ hurt/comfort; depression, insecurity, anxiety ⍛ 1k w

volcano by han

sometimes, being friends with jisung was hard. it didn’t have to do with the fact that he was an idol known worldwide, often busy with promotions and concerts, no. after knowing and witnessing firsthand some of the darkest days in his life, you made it a point to never show him your weakest side, the one prone to depression and self-loathing; you didn’t want him to worry over your wellbeing when he needed to focus on his own things to be happy. you tried your best to be a little ball of sunshine whenever you spent time together, allowing the boy to either bask in the warmth you hoped to give him, or to soak it up whenever the darkness started creeping up on him.

but it was hard nonetheless, especially when you were the one being dragged back into the darkest recesses of your mind.

you had been back in seoul for a coupe of months now, after spending half a year abroad for a job opportunity, and jisung decided to drop by to finally spend some time together — it had been far too long for his likings.

he noticed something was off whenever you called or facetimed, yet the idea of asking you directly never seemed good; after all, the last thing he wanted was to make you uncomfortable.

now that you were home, though, jisung decided that the best way to deal with whatever was going on through that pretty head of yours was cuddling while watching your favourite anime. maybe he was being a bit selfish, but he missed his little sunshine.

“do you think it’s okay to be this insignificant?”

your voice was muffled from where you were resting against his chest. jisung glanced down, noticing how your small hands were tightened up into small balls over his hoodie.

“but you are not insignificant.”

he felt your body become tense against his, yet silently waited for the rest of the rant he hoped would come.

“… not being able to get a job, dropping out of university, being stuck inside this body and in this life — it’s not much of an accomplishment or stuff to be proud of.”

he stayed silent, carefully considering what you’d just shared. why did you never tell him any of this? was this the reason why you where so thin now, compared to when he dropped you off at the airport all those months ago? had you been starving yourself because of stress and depression?

“at the end of the day, the people around you are not going to care about all that, you know?”

he perceived anger boiling through you.

“but i do. at the end of the day, i am the one having to deal with all of this-”

“-and you are so, so, so strong for that.”

he smiled and cupped your cheeks, forcing you to look at him. the sight of your pretty eyes rimmed in red from the tears you were holding back was painful, he could feel his heart clench.

“you don’t even know how proud i am of you. you still made it through, you are making it through!”

one tear, then another; one sniffle, then another. crying in front of han wasn’t on your to do list for the day, yet the sincerity of his words and the warmth of his gaze cut right through your heart. you buried your face in the crook of his neck, holding him tight. he held you back with equal strength, allowing your trembling body to shake all it wanted.

“i’m sorry for not realising sooner what was going on, i should’ve taken a plane to reach you when i started suspecting something was off. but you are not alone, ‘kay? please, rely on me! i want to be by your side when you’re feeling like this, i want to help you see the beauty in and around you. i- i want to make you happy…”

you could feel your heart stop, then beating again like crazy. why did he have to say something like that now of all times?!

“it’s not your fault, ji… i just shut off everyone, i felt ashamed of my own feelings and responsible for all that was going on. i kept wondering how someone like you could stand to be around me, i mean, look at you! a successful music producer and idol, an all-rounder in your field, an amazing person… you could have literally anyon-”

“-but i want you. i am the person i am now because you were by my side when everything went dark. you were my sun, you embraced all my scars and imperfections, turning the tide so that all my cons are pros now. you were next to me when i had panic attacks, you were hugging me whenever i was crying. how could i love someone else the way i love you?”

you finally looked up. his eyes were glossy, shining from a flutter of emotions.

“like a volcano, love at a temperature that can melt when touched take me to you, way below to the end of the ground it’s okay if everything burns down even if i go back hundred of times, my choice is always you, so i can melt into you hug my body even if it hurts, it’s okay among the cold and harsh waves i need your heat, you are my volcano”

“that song was for you. i wrote it with you in mind all those years ago when i realised you were more than my best friend.”

he chuckled, stroking your head before moving some strands aways from your face.

“you really are a volcano: you bottle everything up for the longest times, then you explode. sometimes it’s a big event, loud and scary; other times it’s the gentle flow of lava, still scary yet fascinating to look at, with your eyes red with unshed tears.”

his hands found your cheeks again, and you let yourself melt at the contact.

“if i am a volcano, then you are the ground that supports me — anytime, anywhere.”

the kiss was slightly salty from the tears you both let out, but it was perfectly imperfect like the both of you.

i’ll protect you, it’s okay to hurt; i’ll embrace the wounds you shed.

© giuliadesu. please do not copy, translate, use in videos or reupload on other platforms and sites. it is strictly forbidden to feed any part of my content to ai.

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rio santos’ favourite playlist.

𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐞,  𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞,  𝐣𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐞,  𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐚,  𝐬𝐚𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐚,  𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥,  𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐡,  𝐥𝐨𝐥𝐚 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐲,  𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐮𝐫𝐢, 𝐦𝐢𝐤𝐨, 𝐰𝐞𝐢

𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐠 / 𝘬'𝘯𝘢𝘢𝘯, 𝘢𝘥𝘢𝘮 𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘦.

𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐲 / 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘴.

𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 / 𝘴𝘪𝘹 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭.

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐜 / 𝘣𝘰 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘩𝘢𝘮.

𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 / 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘭𝘦𝘫𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘦.

𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐲, 𝐦𝐞 / 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘦𝘯.

𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞 / 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴.

𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 / 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘵𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴.

𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨 / 𝘢𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘫𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘯, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘯, 𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘪.

𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 / 𝘣𝘵𝘴.

𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 / 𝘱𝘴𝘺, 𝘴𝘶𝘨𝘢.

𝐰𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐛𝐫��𝐧𝐨 / 𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘰.

𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 / 𝘮𝘰𝘢𝘯𝘢.

𝐢'𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 / 𝘮𝘶𝘭𝘢𝘯.

��𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐨 / 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘨𝘰.

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