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clay spenser wasn't raised as a team kid like the others who had a dad in the teams, most of that is due to his father's lack of interest in regards to having a kid. but mostly people just assume that because his dad was a SEAL that clay grew up in and around the teams.

so, when he got through BUD/S and was assigned to team 3 and started his additional training there they thought he was being a complete asshole when he wasn't already familiar with the culture. it was only when he passed language modules with ease did they realize he'd spent most of his young life not in the states, so very much not around the teams.

clay's feelings towards ash, his father, are . . a mixed bag of negative. he's smart enough to know that ash's decisions were not right, he hates people telling him to "see things from his perspective". his grandparents raised him with the idea that family structure was important, which only ended up making him hurt more when he realized how he lacked it.

but clay finally did make some friends on team 3. they were quiet literally the reason why he managed to get onto green team perhaps earlier than he should've.

once again, the tier one guys thought he'd be like a team kid and rightfully so. clay was cocky, talked back when he shouldn't have, didn't do well with others. he was just different.

bravo was actually the first people who knew much of anything when it came to clay's whole "childhood story", and it came out piece by begrudging piece. clay doesn't do well with talking about liberia in a emotional manner, facts and knowledge he can share just fine, but memories? no. those are meant to stay in their nice little corner.

but bravo, for all it's functional dysfunction, operated like a family. any team at that level simple has to be there for each other for any of them or their families to cope. and that was hard for clay at first, it was relationship dynamics he was pretty unfamiliar with. so there he was, at twenty-eight years old, wondering if the reason he constantly clashed with jason was because the man was a sort of father figure and clay could only ever associate that with ash's abandonment and absence.

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25.     five most recent in google search history. 

A  PEAK  AT  WHAT’S  INSIDE  THEIR          .    .    . SEARCH HISTORY

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A rough timeline for Clay's life:

March 29, 1989 - Born, likely in VA Beach since his father Ash Spenser was on team 6/DEVGRU. Though it's also possible he was born in the San Diego area. The show isn't really clear about this.

Sometime 1994 - Ash Spenser fully abandons Clay and his mother. For a reason not stated other than "being unable to care for him" Clay is sent to live with his maternal grandparents who are missionaries in Liberia.

1994-200? - Clay lives in Liberia with his missionary grandparents, here he picks up several languages.

2001 - Clay is back in the US with his father Ash and thinks he's going to stay. However, 9/11 happens and Ash sends Clay back to his grandparents, it is assumed his grandparents are still in Liberia.

2001-200? - The show isn't clear when Clay fully returns to the US. I write him as returning to the US as 16/17 years old and speaking to a Navy recruit who sets him on the track of getting his GED and paperwork sorted.

2007 - It can be assumed Clay joined the Navy as soon as he turned 18 years old.

2007-2009 - It takes about two years and some change to become a fully trained SEAL, Clay is a "full fledged" SEAL by the time he's 20 years old

2009-2017 - Clay is on Team 3 based in California. He was Chalk 2, Alpha Platoon by the time he left Team 3.

2017 - Clay starts Green Team (DEVGRU selection) alongside his best friend Brian Armstrong

Sometime During 2017:

Brian Armstrong dies during a training accident. Clay runs a mission with Bravo Team as a "strap" and clashes with pretty much everyone.

late 2017/2018 - Clay is selected by Bravo team and joins them as Bravo 6.

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ODDLY SPECIFIC HEADCANONS : " What is their favorite piece of technology? "

this is a tie between his phone and his kindle. clay loves that his phone can give him answers to just about any question he can think of, he likes knowing and learning things so having what's basically a supercomputer in his back pocket he likes. but he also really loves his kindle, it an older model and one of the first things he bought himself as a 'gift'. he loves reading and carrying around a ton of books is just a hassle, so the kindle makes it easy. plus he can bring it along on deployments and such because it's not a super fancy piece of technology or anything.

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A MEMORY COLORED : BLUE

being on an aircraft carrier means you are only surrounded blue. the ocean and the sky bleed into each other and its hard to define a horizon line. its one of the first times clay is ever truly scared of his surroundings. he can't orient himself, he can't tell if they've been moving forwards, backwards, or if they've been moving at all. it takes him nearly a week to not feel nauseous every time he's on flight deck. only after that week does he even start to be able to appreciate the unique environment and how all encompassing the blue-ness is.

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calander for this month

secret hiding spot

A  PEAK  AT  WHAT’S  INSIDE  THEIR          .    .    . CALENDAR THIS MONTH

clay's calendar as a whole is typically barebones and often a few months behind the actual date. it's hard to keep up with things between deployments and spin ups that can last for months.

but for this month he's got each saturday marked to do his laundry and go grocery shopping for the week and that's about it.

A  PEAK  AT  WHAT’S  INSIDE  THEIR          .    .    . SECRET HIDING SPOT

typically clay prefers to hide away in the bravo cage room, he's got a hammock in his cage for this specific reason. but if he can't access base then he usually opts for a cramped old secondhand bookstore where he sits all the way in the back, hidden by over stuffed bookshelves.

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09.     “junk” drawer

A  PEAK  AT  WHAT’S  INSIDE  THEIR          .    .    . "JUNK" DRAWER

clay technically has two "junk" drawers, on in his apartment and one in the team cage room.

his one at home is filled with rubber bands, sauce packets from takeout, extra screws and nails from building his furniture, some dead lighters, a stack a sticky notes that don't stick anymore, packaged utensils, a singular advil pill, it's truly a junk drawer. now, the one in his cage room is more of a trinket drawer, theres a couple rocks he's accidentally gotten stuck in his boot treads and decided to keep, a lego mini-figure sonny gave him as a joke, a notepad with a list of movies and tv shows to watch with about a third of them crossed off, theres a stack of photos wrapped in plastic sheeting, a silly patch he got from a ranger during joint training.

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Ash Spenser was a Navy SEAL who was on Team 3, he is also Clay's father. That relationship is strained at best, Clay didn't really now his dad until he was practically an adult. The only real childhood memory Clay has with Ash is when he was dropped off at the airport to go live with his grandparents in Africa.

Ironically, when Clay became a SEAL himself he ended on Team 3. And at first he sort of hated it, he wanted to be on any team but Team 3. The reputation Ash left behind was less than stellar and only got worse as Clay continued on.

Being on Green Team and DEVGRU within his sights made his relationship with Ash more tense. And Clay's interpersonal skills had always been . . . . clunky at best when it came to people who reminded him of Ash.

Being a strap for Bravo was sort of terrible, while he acted like he didn't care when Jason yelled at him but mentally he was kicking himself. Clay just isn't good at holding his tongue, acting out or speaking out got attention. It's childish, he knows that, but it's something.

Actually getting on Bravo and his first several months with them were one of the few times where Clay questioned why he became a SEAL and if he even wanted to continue. Still coming to terms with Brian's death didn't make the transition any easier.