#𓍯 rants by mie☕

[teezmie]

School's over, finally graduated, thus stepping up to college yey!

Now back to my good ol' beauty routine to get rid of these facial insecurities called "acne breakouts" without the occasional inconvenience and side effects of academic priorities, which I liked to call "stress," that's preventing me from focusing on my self-care privileges. ffs

[teezmie]

This morning, I woke up from a dream of becoming a mother and I'm gonna burn my phone for waking me up. BECAUSE GIVE ME BACK MY CHILDDD

Anyways, here's the details because I wanna look back at this when I'm older and I'm afraid I'm already slowly forgetting it

A day before the due date, I was already on my way to the hospital to settle it. But then, It was all black for a sec, and all of a sudden I was walking to my bed and I saw a child laying there, sleeping. It was a boy and it felt so natural cuz I remember smiling down at him. Then we drive back home for the little one to meet the rest of the family.

I also can't believe that during the drive home, I was cooing at him in my arms while saying name. And again, it came naturally.

I looked at his birth certificate, and I saw that he was born around 4am. His first name consists THREE, and I'm devastated that I already forgetting, all I remember is the initials, his second name starts with an L, and an F either his first or last name (I can't remember the other one) and his father's name, my child's surname, starts with a G.

Lastly, one scenario really stood up to me and led me to feel emotional. It was when my son finally met my parents, he was sitting in between them, giggling as he launching at them and cuddling them. All while my parents look down at him adoringly. I remember trying to withhold my tears at that. Though me and my parents are close, it always went sour when we converse about life because they get quite controlling and it always reminds me how deprive I am about my happiness.

Seeing that, as a mother who finally had her source of joy in her hands, made me emotional to witness my source of joy trying to sway and soften the cause of my sadness.

Okay, byeee I'm literally getting emotional right now

[teezmie]

Currently putting on make-up after crying my eyes out so I could look presentable buying drinks to swallow these tears down

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Maaannnn, Tumblr's fanfic during the pandemic was heavennnnnn!! I wanna go back and never return

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I find it funny as an accounting student that in any given opportunity in essays or speeches, I will try to happily smuggle some psychology in it

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My brother caught me jamming to hot wings from rio in my room. He had this look and went "you listen to birds?"

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Ykw? I used to have a major crush on peter pan when I was a kid, but formed a hatred towards him cuz lil-me was jealous of wendy. So, I rooted for captain hook. And I must say, if it wasn't for daddy hook, I wouldn't have grown my love for piratecore and the love I hold for 8 pirates

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My cat's kitten do be cutifying itself af. All smol and round and fluffy on top of my belly🤍

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Nobody asks, but this genre of Yeosang gives off a Jasper Hale vibes from Twilight...I mean, they're both mysterious and quiet.

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So...my cat gave birth...right at the foot of my bedsheet last night JAJSHBAJSJA I mean I'm happy that I finally get to be a grandma to my grandkittens, and I'm definitely not complaining that it cost me to sleep on the couch:')

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Isn't it heartwarming when writers post their first work and leave notes like; this is their first-ever fic, hoping that readers would love it, apologizing for any possible errors, and so on. They're so so so approachable and optimistic that I just wanna fhffhfgh argh! because aw~ cute

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The thing about owning a female cat is you get to own MORE free cats

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My baby girl is getting the hang of this~

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Idk about you, but names that start with Y are the prettiest for me

Sucks to suck mine starts with S

[teezmie]

Damn, I posted this right after waking up that I didn't even noticed the grammatical errors. Wtf

This morning, I woke up from a dream of becoming a mother and I'm gonna burn my phone for waking me up. BECAUSE GIVE ME BACK MY CHILDDD

Anyways, here's the details because I wanna look back at this when I'm older and I'm afraid I'm already slowly forgetting it

A day before the due date, I was already on my way to the hospital to settle it. But then, It was all black for a sec, and all of a sudden I was walking to my bed and I saw a child laying there, sleeping. It was a boy and it felt so natural cuz I remember smiling down at him. Then we drive back home for the little one to meet the rest of the family.

I also can't believe that during the drive home, I was cooing at him in my arms while saying name. And again, it came naturally.

I looked at his birth certificate, and I saw that he was born around 4am. His first name consists THREE, and I'm devastated that I already forgetting, all I remember is the initials, his second name starts with an L, and an F either his first or last name (I can't remember the other one) and his father's name, my child's surname, starts with a G.

Lastly, one scenario really stood up to me and led me to feel emotional. It was when my son finally met my parents, he was sitting in between them, giggling as he launching at them and cuddling them. All while my parents look down at him adoringly. I remember trying to withhold my tears at that. Though me and my parents are close, it always went sour when we converse about life because they get quite controlling and it always reminds me how deprive I am about my happiness.

Seeing that, as a mother who finally had her source of joy in her hands, made me emotional to witness my source of joy trying to sway and soften the cause of my sadness.

Okay, byeee I'm literally getting emotional right now

[teezmie]

But seriously, fanfics back then didn't feel like fanfics at all. It felt like we were immersing ourselves in a whole other universe. And I find it sad that most of the writers in that period are either on hiatus or have left the community... But I genuinely missed them nonetheless. Like, their beautifully written works welcomed a precious core memory that I wholeheartedly cherish.

Maaannnn, Tumblr's fanfic during the pandemic was heavennnnnn!! I wanna go back and never return