#｟ HEARTSBREAKING ｠ queen maeve

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@heartsbreaking sent: "Why the fuck are you here?" (For Maeve from Cassie)

Fucking Furious| Accepting

Maeve looked over at her. "The tone is unnecessary." She said. "I'm here because you looked like you needed someone, but clearly since you want to be alone I'll leave you to it."

[ofeden]

@heartsbreaking said 'if anyone can give you the answer you want, it’s me. ’ (for jaslyn from queen maeve)

THERE  IS  ONE  QUESTION  THAT  RIDES  sharply  at  the  point  where  her  spine  meets  the  neck  ,  the  anger  ,  the  hatred  and  craving  to  dispose  of  everything  that  stands  in  her  way  .  it’s  painful  and  sends  a  reminder  of  the  scar  that  still  sears  upon  her  throat  .  dead  she  could  have  been  ,  but  instead  she  is  left  without  a  voice  ,  and  it’s  all  because  of  the  selfish  nature  of  others  -  their  longing  for  power  and  control  .  

what  she  wants  is  to  take  it  back  ,  under  the  theory  that  they  ever  had  it  to  begin  with  . hands  move  wildly  as  she  communicates  ,  not  caring  if  the  other  can  understand  her  or  not  ,❛    i  want  to  know  why  ❜.  though  the  question  she  asks  likely  comes  with  an  answer  that  she  already  knows  .  again  ,  power  ,  control  ,  money  .  even  if  the  supe  can’t  understand  her  ,  the  words  display  all  across  intense  features  ,  eyes  holding  the  steady  glare  ,  the  near  snarl  of  lips  exposing  one  canine  ,  she  concludes  ,  ❛    what  was  the  point  of  all  this  ?        ❜

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"Something about her wants you to do right." She said with another slight shrug. Though Maeve couldn't help but wonder how long it would be until that shine wears out or dimmed because of being around the Seven. "My treat." She said as she started toward the door. "Let me change and we'll hit up a restaurant or something."

things had started changing ever since starlight had come to work for vought. she should sent her a thank you note, or a fruit basket or something like that. "guess you're right about that." she was glad that maeve forgave the outburst and changed the subject. she'd been picking at crafty's selection all day while shooting, but she hadn't had a full meal. "yeah, starving actually," cassie laughed. "let's go find some food."

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"I would like to think that I have some pull to be able to get what I want." She wasn't Homelander, but she would like to think that there was some weight to what she wanted. "You can thank Starlight for the change. She makes people want to be better." Maeve gave her a small shrug. "It's fine. I get it. You hungry?"

"right- i get that." what maeve said made total sense. just offering to help wasn't action and even though she had more pull with the execs, she couldn't guarantee anything. "even if it doesn't go my way, it means a lot. no one's ever really advocated for me before." cassie smiled and added, "sorry for yelling earlier."

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"As odd as it sounds yes." She said. It wasn't like she was known to be helpful at least not for a long time. So yes it must seem odd, but Starlight seemed to bring out the best in her unfortunately. "Don't thank me yet. I don't know what they'll say, but I can try at least."

@heartsbreaking

maeve was right, the department itself wasn't bad at all. they were generally nice and if you looked at them in the right light they might even have the public's best interest at heart. "you would do that for me?" cassie asked, surprised that maeve was offering "it would mean a lot to me if you did. thank you!" she knew there was likely a catch, but she'd take the offer of help no matter what.

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"The PSA department isn't that bad, but I get it." She said. "You end up in a certain demographic and you certainly have a hard time breaking out of it." In fact for the most part once you were in a certain position then that is typically where you stayed. "But if you really want a change why don't I talk to Ashley and see if the two of us can do something."

cassie groaned, "it's humiliating. they've got me doing these videos to show in schools and on tv that are like "don't do drugs, kids. don't drink." she knew they didn't care about her as a person, vought just cared about their image and how it reflected on the company. "and the thing is, i wouldn't mind if it didn't feel like a joke. i know i did a kid's show and kids like me, but it's like they're laughing at me for how bad i fucked up."

[ofeden]

SHE’S  NOT  SURE  WHAT  TO  SAY  TO  THAT  .  everything  maeve  says  is  true  .  a  hero  shouldn’t  do  that  .  they  are  supposed  to  protect  the  underprivileged  ,  intended  to  help  the  weak  and  destroy  that  which  looks  to  harm  –  and  yet  ,  there  they  stand  in  their  glory  ,  being  the  very  danger  themselves  .  how  could  one  come  back  from  that  ?  a  whole  organization  of  superhumans  ,  and  they  are  nothing  more  than  a  catastrophe  of  mob  rule  ,  destroying  everything  in  their  path  whether  they  intend  to  or  not  . ❛      you’re  right    ❜  she  concedes  ,  head  dropping  for  a  moment  in  thought  .  the  agreement  wasn’t  one  filled  with  warmth  or  determination  to  agree  with  her  own  statement  ,  but  one  of  factual  integrity  .  regardless  ,  the  anger  still  swelled  -  it  was  a  poison  in  her  chest  that  she  should  have  gotten  rid  of  long  ago  ,  and  yet  ?  it’s  taken  over  every  waking  thought  ,  each  haunting  dream  .  it  burns  her  skin  ,  festers  upon  the  tips  of  her  fingers  that  are  needed  desperately  for  her  ability  to  communicate  now  …  because  of  them  .  ❛    the  question  is  ,  what  do  you  do  about  it  ?  how  do  you  change  the  view  that  not  just  i  have  ,  but  thousands  of  others  ?        ❜ 

maeve knew she was distancing herself from responsibility. she wasn't responsible for what happened to this young woman, not personally, but she was responsible for other atrocities. for what happened to all those people on the plane and more. looking jaslyn in the face she kept trying to tell herself 'i didn't do this, this wasn't on me,' because it hadn't been. she had every right to be angry, but directing it at her was not quite right. she didn't want to be the cause of this, not on top of everything else.

profit, profit had been the purpose. vought had always prioritized profit and protecting their heroes over actually protecting regular people. they did background checks, but it didn't seem like they'd ever cared as long as they could cover up their hero's flaws and crimes they would. there was none, she signed. i'm sorry this happened to you. you have every right to be angry. it's not what a hero should have done. vought would hate that she was apologizing. she was supposed to deflect, she WANTED to deflect, but she fought the urge because she was trying to be better.

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"Mhm I suppose that is true." She said. She was usually the only woman in the Seven so there wasn't anyone that could give her that much trouble. If you didn't count Homelander that was. "What do they have you doing?" Maeve certainly got it. She often time was paired with Homelander still after. "That's the thing about fucking up. Vought holds it against you for a while." Not that she had. "But if you give up you let everyone win, and you never struck me as a quitter."

she tried not to laugh at 'girl drama,' it felt reductive, but she wasn't entirely wrong either. "you've been in the big leagues too long. it can be both." cassie tried not to be too bitter, she wasn't even sure if she still wanted to be doing this, but sometimes it got the better of her. "got the short end of the stick from marketing cause apparently i'm still not marketable enough. i'm just fucking tired of it. i cleaned up, i did what vought asked and they're still treating me like i've got the plague. fucking ice princess is rubbing my face in getting everything again."

[ofeden]

WASN’T  SUPPOSED  TO  COME  TO  THIS  ?  it’s  a  nonanswer  ,  a  copout  ,  even  if  the  road  had  been  paved  with  good  intentions  –  there  is  no  excuse  .  her  throat  had  been  torn  open  ,  vocal  cords  permanently  severed  and  she  will  never  get  to  hear  the  sound  of  her  own  voice  again  .  ❛    damn  right  it  shouldn’t  have  come  down  to  this  .      ❜  how  much  more  obvious  could  it  be  ?  the  world  was  in  shatters  ,  and  over  what  ?  jaslyne  would  argue  it  was  for  greed  ,  power  ,  authority  .  to  maintain  a  chokehold  on  a  failing  government  ,  and  they  were  winning  . the  scoff  that  escapes  her  throat  is  forged  with  just  mere  parted  lips  to  the  side  ,  eyes  rolling  while  arms  fold  across  her  chest  .  there’s  anger  still  settling  ,  and  it  hasn’t  improved  simply  because  of  six  words  .  if  anything  ,  it  feels  as  if  she’s  being  lied  to  ,  forced  to  listen  to  a  campaign  slogan  for  the  butcher  carving  up  meat  in  front  of  a  vegan  shop  .  there’s  no  use  .    no  purpose  in  the  dangers  that  have  swept  the  streets  beyond  what  she’s  already  felt  .  ❛    why  don’t  you  tell  me  what  the  purpose  was  ,  then  ?      ❜ @heartsbreaking

vought had insisted they try and learn asl for optics. that way they could show off how perfect their heroes were. she wasn't sure how many in the seven had actually learned, homelander sure hadn't bothered, but maeve tried. that had been before she'd been burnt out by all the media, by the fake crimes and the bullshit.

she tried to keep up with what the woman was signing, maeve's mind racing to remember enough sign language to both interpret what she was saying and how to reply. even if she didn't have a basic grasp on the language, the anger- no- fury on her face would have been more than enough. someone else might have buckled under her gaze, but maeve was well used to this kind of hatred. the point? she asked, brows creasing as she thought about what else to say. how compromised had her morals become that she wasn't sure how to answer when essentially asked why she still did this. we were supposed to be helping people. that was honest, that had been why she'd done it. it wasn't supposed to become this.

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"So what seems to have you in a mood?" Maeve asked. She did her best to act as if she didn't care about people, but she did. It was just the years of being a hero certainly caught up to you. "Or is it typical girl drama as opposed to something in Vought?"

cassie hadn't expected anyone to come after her. nor for anyone of real importance at vought to care, the caring caught her off guard, especially coming from maeve. she sniffed, looking the other woman up and down to try and figure out whether she was serious about checking on her. "no, don't- i don't. you can stay."