#爱书人

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[hami-gua]

生生世世

Love between an immortal and mortal is forbidden by the heavenly law. By loving a mortal, the immortal pays a price. Dan Heng, rather, his past incarnations are no exceptions to this law.

This work contains both English and Chinese (translation provided). Apologies in advance if the Chinese dialogues aren't great. Something may be incorrect or inaccurate, all for the sake of the plot.

Reader has a given nickname and last name but not first name.

[This work is also on AO3 and more polished there, as it is in chapter format.]

Dan Heng x f! Reader

A man approaches the altar that held a glowing stone. Confused, he turned to another man beside him.

“What is this?”

“This is a stone that held your memories from your previous two lives.”

“And why do you insist that I use it?”

“I believe it’s time you find out yourself, Dan Heng.”

The man, Dan Heng, looked at his “partner” with an eyebrow raised. Trusting him, Dan Heng reaches out to the stone and picks it up. After a few seconds, he begins to feel an oncoming headache and steadies himself on the altar. Yet the effort is deemed futile as he soon blacks out.

The first time he met her in this life, was when he assumed a name, Yubie. She had been selling flowers, calling out to any and all souls that happened to pass by. A certain flower had caught Yubie’s attention. Being a minor god living in the moon palace, he had never seen such a flower before. And before he knew it, he had picked up the flower and began to inspect it.

“先生，您看上了这朵花了吗？“ [Sir, is this the flower you choose?]

Yubie, a tad embarrassed and shy, merely nodded. The girl only smiled back gently, the gentle dulled pinks and purples of her robe brushed against the cart as she reached for others of the same kind, bundling them and checking the pot they were held in.

“先生若有什么需求，可以叫我一声！“ [If sir has any needs, you only need to call me!]

“嗯，知道了。谢谢，姑娘。” [En. Understood. Thank you, young girl.]

“哎呀，应该的！” [Aiya, it’s what I should do!]

Yubie blushed as his eyes grazed through the other different flowers. His eyes lands on a peony, leading him to think about Jing Yuan. The general hardly ever visits the moon palace anymore, but when he does, it’s always a pleasant surprise. He’s due to visit soon, but Yubie couldn’t think of a gift to give. Picking up the flower, Yubie calls for the flower girl.

“就这两个，谢谢。“ [Just these two, thanks.] Yubie cleared his throat awkwardly, handing the two flowers to the girl.

“一颗银子。“ [One piece of silver.]

Yubie’s eyebrows raised in surprise, having not expected the price.

“一颗？为何要怎么少？“ [A piece? Why do you ask for that less?]

The girl replied back without even a thought, “因为不管有多少钱，想要有花就可以有花。再说了，卖花只是我的爱好。“ [Because it doesn’t matter how much money you have, if a flower is what you want, then you get a flower. Besides, selling flowers is just a hobby I have.]

“爱好？“ [Hobby?]

“嗯！“ [Yeah!]

“什么是爱好？“ [What’s a hobby?]

The girl’s jaws drop open. Never had she ever heard of someone not knowing what a hobby is.

“爱好就是喜欢做什么就做。比如，有些人喜欢看书，唱歌等。您呢？“ [A hobby is something you like to do. Like, some people like reading, others singing and so on. You?]

“我。。。我没有，“ [I… I don’t have one.] Yubie trailed off, his cheeks flushing in embarrassment.

“啊？！真假的？像您这样的人，没有爱好还挺乖的嘞！“ [Ah?! Really? Those like you not having a hobby is quite odd!]

“像我这样的人？“ [Those like me?]

“嗯！就是有钱的人。“ [Yeah! Like wealthy.]

“哦。。。“ [Oh…]

Learning of selling flowers as a hobby, he debated whether or not to ask about her true line of work. Deciding to just go for it, Yubie asks, “请问姑娘，您。。。是做什么的？“ [Young girl, what… do you do for a living?]

The girl looks at him for a split second before pulling out a find pressed silk threads that forms the shape of a flower. Orange blossoms to be exact.

“我是做各种各样的簪子。不过随着有些人的需求，其它头饰也可以。“ [I make all kinds of hair sticks. Though, through some customer’s needs, I can also make other head accessories.]

Yubie observes the hair stick, eyes glimmering at how well made it is. But their conversations is cut short when the distant bell tower chimes, signaling the time. The girl looks up and takes a note of the sun’s position with a gasp.

“抱歉先生，看来我该回家了,” [Sorry sir, it seems like I have to go home.] The girl quickly said as she rushes to pack everything up. Yubie could do nothing but awkwardly stand to the side, watching. As the girl began pulling the cart away, Yubie stops her.

“哪个，姑娘，您的名字。。。“ [Um，young girl. Your name…]

The girl turned towards him with a shy smile, “啊。。。我姓李，叫__。不过叫我棉棉就行啦！您呢？“ [Ah… Last name’s Li, first name __. But calling me Mian Mian will do! You?]

“雨别。“ [Yubie]

“雨别。。。好优雅。很适合您，” [Yubie… so elegant. It suits you.] the girl smiled, sending poor Yubie’s heart sputtering.

“实在是���好意思，雨先生。我真的得回家了。“ [So sorry, Yu sir. I really must get home.] The girl bowed before pulling her cart away as Yubie simply stood there, watching as her form got smaller and smaller. He too turns and leaves after.

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The next time he sees her was when a village had been faced with a terrible fire. After saving her, he was told that the nation has been threatened by a foreign unknown source. Not a villager had a clue where they came from. But all describe the forces as wearing all black with specks of gold, almost like liquid gold.

“雨先生——“ [Yu sir—]

“雨别就行了。“ [Yubie will do.]

“雨别，他们是谁啊？我从没见过他们那样的人。“ [Yubie, who are they? I’ve never seen people like them before.]

Yubie was silent, unsure if he should tell her. Yet his consciousness ruled that if she doesn’t know, she’ll be more likely to run into trouble.

“他们不是人。“ [They aren’t human.]

The girl looked back at him, shocked.

“不是人？” [Not human?]

“按理说，他们原来是人。” [Logically speaking, they were human once.]

“原来。。。那发生了什么？他们现在为何不是人了呢？” [Originally… then what happened? Why aren’t they human now?]

“魔阴。” [Mara.]

“魔阴是什么？” [What’s mara.]

“一种能让人变成魔妖的病。” [A disease that turns humans into demonic beings.]

“怎么可怕！那我们该如何打败他们啊？” [That’s tarrying! Then how do we defeat them?]

Yubie smiles at her and reaches up to pat her head. The girl in turn didn’t seem to mind, rather, she leans into him. His arm then slowly lowers to her elbows as he tightened his hold around her.

“这是神仙们的战争。咱们就把这个留给他们吧。” [This is a battle for immortals and gods. We just leave these to them.]

The girl smiled, leaning further into Yubie. The two sat in silence, gazing out into the setting sun.

“雨别？“ [Yubie?]

“嗯？“ [Yeah?]

“你喜欢哪个神仙呀？“ [Who’s your favorite immortals and gods?]

Yubie sat there, unsure what to answer. Afraid that if he does, he’ll be giving his identity away.

“我不知道。喜欢的神仙们太多了，” [I don’t know. I like a lot of them.] He gave a half true answer, “你呢？“ [You?]

“饮月君！” [Imbibitor Lunae!]

Her answer took Yubie by surprise. Fighting an intense blush from rising, he looks at her, fully interested in her answer and yearns for a reason.

“你为何要选饮月君？“ [Why must you choose Imbibitor Lunae?] He asked, his heart beats erratically.

“他可是青龙。又聪明又疼人。再说，他是一条龙! 龙还挺可爱的呢。“ [He’s the green dragon. Smart and caring towards humans. And he’s a dragon! Dragons are quite cute.]

With every word she spoke, the redder Yubie’s face and ears became. After, the girl takes notice of his reddening ears and teasingly asks him, “诶呀，耳朵怎么都红啦？” [Aiya, why are your ears read?]

Yubie’s eyes began blinking rapidly as he quickly turns his head away from her. “难道。。。你。。。” [Could it be… you…] The girl trailed off, making Yubie panic as he started to believe that she’s going to figure out his true identity.

“你也很喜欢银月君！” [You also really like Imbibitor Lunae!]

Yubie breathed out a sigh of relief as he nodded shyly to her words. Safe for another day, he thought. And just like that, the two began telling each other of their past. Yubie, making his as vague as he can.

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The third time Yubie saw her, was also his last time seeing her. An intense battle had broken out within the nation. Phantylia and her forces made a move on the girl’s village. Anxiety gripped Yubie’s heart as he rushed there. Yet when he arrived, not a mara-struck soldier could be spotted. None that was living anyways.

Running through the street, he called out for any survivors. Not getting an answer, he sent his force to dig through rubble. He himself though, began running around, calling for the girl. Yet his call once again remains unanswered. It wasn’t until he was on the verge of giving up, did he see flowers scattered behind a particularly large rubble. Yubie’s heart picked up as he rushed behind it, only to have his hopes shattered when he saw the state the girl was in. Carefully, he picked her up and automatically felt the blood trickling onto his hand. Her chest had been pierced by a sword as her head had crashed onto something, leading her temple to bleed profusely.

Plip. Plop. Tears fell onto the girl’s cold skin as Yubie held onto her cold dead hands tightly. He cradles her close to him as he cried, his heart sinking in never-ending despair. ‘Is this what heart break feels like? I never got to tell her…‘

For all the light and hope she gave him, Yubie could only repay with a kiss to her forehead and a love confessed too late.

I’m sorry I couldn’t get to you soon enough.

The first time he met her in his next life was when he went by Dan Feng. She had entered the inn where he was at with attendants by her side. He was in the middle of a conversation with Yingxing when he heard a commotion at a table in the corner. It caught the pair’s attention as they both turned to see a man close to their age in appearance, harassing the girl. She continued drinking her tea as the man and her attendant argued.

“I’ll say, you need to properly teach your attendants!” The man snarled.

“Sir, do you not have manners?”

“You! How are you speaking to me huh?! I’m a young master! Young master!”

“Who cares if you’re a young master or not. You can’t even recognize her highness, so are you really a young master?”

“You!” The man raises a hand to hit the attendant.

Unable to watch or listen any further, Dan Feng gets out of his seat and walks towards the man.

“Enough!”

The man stops and glares at Dan Feng as the girl glances up from her cup.

“And who are you?!”

Dan Feng doesn’t answer him. Instead, he states, “You are aware that hitting any servant of a princess is strictly forbidden.”

The man scoffs once more before walking out of the inn. The attendant bows to him as he held her arms, telling her there was no need.

“感谢公子。“ [Thank you, childe.]

“不必。他刚才为何生气？” [No need. Why was he mad?]

The attendant looks at Dan Feng before looking at the girl then back to him again.

“Well…”

The attendant is cut off as the girl sets down her cup.

“他想追求我。我没同意。“ [He asked for my hand. I didn’t agree.]

The attendant looked at her shocked by her ease of language.

“公主！可不能怎么随意说出！万一。。。“ [Princess! You can’t just say that so casually! What if…]

The girl sighs as Yingxing approaches the group. She slowly stands with the help of her other attendants.

“It’s okay. At this time, long story short is the way to go. It saves time. Anyone can charge in at any given moment and attack.”

The girl faces Dan Feng properly before giving a slight bow, her head never once lowering.

“感谢公子帮了我。“ [Thank you for helping me, childe.]

“It is something I should do,” he bows back, head lowered.

The girl gives him a small smile before turning and leaving the inn with a small limp. Dan Feng watches her leave; a tug of familiarity was felt as Yingxing clears his throat.

“Why didn’t you ask for her name?”

Dan Feng shoots him a look, “人家是公主，不礼貌。“ [She’s a princess, it’s ill-mannered.]

Yingxing smirks in return, “人家是公主，我们是神。” [She’s a princess, we are gods.]

Dan Feng could only tsk as he whacks Yingxing’s arm while glancing around to ensure that no one heard.

“Are you trying to expose us?” He hissed.

A giggle from Yingxing was all Dan Feng got.

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The next time he saw her was when he was invited to court. Or rather, Yingxing did and he decided to bring Dan Feng along. While Yingxing was locked in discussion with the emperor, Dan Feng wandered around the gardens as he heard a gentle zither playing. Following the sound, he finds the girl sitting at peace as her fingers plucked the silken strings. As if sensing him, she stops playing and turned towards his direction.

“何人？“ [Who is it?]

Dan Feng steps out from behind the bamboo trunk as he gracefully made his way towards her.

“Princess’ playing is rather elegant. It holds much clarity.”

The girl blushed before lowering her gaze to her zither as her hand gently runs up and down the strings.

“Why have you entered the palace today?”

“Ah, may princess forgive me. I came with a friend who is currently in a meeting with the emperor. I am not summoned; this I wander about.”

The girl merely smiles and invites him to tea as she played and chatted. And there it was, the feeling Dan Feng couldn’t shake off. That feeling of familiarity gnaws at his heart. Her eyes held that same mirth and her voice contains a much gentler lilt than he “remembers”. Sensing him spacing off, the girl asked, “Is there something wrong?”

Quickly trying to find an excuse, Dan Feng asked her, “Princess, what is your name?”

The girl smiled shyly before answering, “Li __. But those I know call me Mian Mian.”

’It’s that nickname again. Mian Mian.‘

“You asked for my name, so it is only fair I ask for yours.”

Dan Feng looks up at her with surprise, “Dan Feng.”

“Dan Feng… It’s an elegant name.”

“I — thank you, princess.”

The girl shifted, revealing a scarred leg. Her face briefly twists in pain noticed by Dan Feng. Seeing her leg, Dan Feng questioned her.

“What… happened to your leg.”

The girl places a hand on her leg, as if to cover it. She mulls over her words before saying, “It happened when I was young. An unwatched dog had gotten to me as I was playing. It bit me and wouldn’t let go until my sister had hit it with a branch while crying in fear. After investigating, my father found the dog belonged to a minister. The dog, turned out, bit more people. Mostly servants. So, every time they thought to tell, they were pressured by the minister to keep quiet. The minister wanted me gone so he could easily rise the ranks.”

“Why does he want you gone?”

“It probably has to do with me rejecting a marriage proposal.”

“With his son?”

The girl nodded.

“He wanted to ascend the ranks by having his son marry me. But I rejected the offer. His son is 15 years older, thus I can’t imagine the two of us spending a long life together.”

“Was your father upset at all?”

“No. He’s quite elated to be honest. Father was always eager to marry off his sons, but when it came to marrying off his daughters, he’s always the first to reject all suitors. At least, that’s what my brother tells me.”

“What became of the minister?”

“He was banished. Simple as that.”

“At least you’re safe now.”

The girl huffed, “This is a court. I only happen to live here. So how safe can it be?”

Dan Feng looked at her confused. Not fully grasping what she meant.

Months goes by. Dan Feng exchanges letter with the girl regularly. It went from mundane to adventurous, to rants. Until one day, he received a letter asking him to arrive at court for a celebration. Her birthday, he thought. A problem quickly presented itself: the girl’s birthday is coming up, and Dan Feng had no clue what to gift her. Perhaps a pearl will do. But that’s too plain. How about a bracelet? But she plays a zither, the bracelet will only get in the way.

’“This is a court. I only happen to live here. So how safe can it be?”‘

Her words echoed in his mind. The girl wears hair sticks a lot, so surely a hair stick concealing a small blade will easily go undetected. He nodded to himself. Yes. Surely this will work.

When the day of celebration came about, Dan Feng nervously fidgeted with the box that held the hair stick. Yingxing noticed his friend’s unusual behavior and gently nudged him. “Why are you so nervous?”

“What if she won’t like it?”

Yingxing rolled his eyes, “I don’t know if you’re aware, but she’s not known for her openness. For her to write to you regularly means she sees you as someone close. Someone trustworthy.”

Dan Feng looks at him deadpanned, “说人话。” [Speak human language.]

"Point is, she'll like it. It did come frome someone she trusts."

Dan Feng relaxes a bit as people filed into the castle then stopped before the girl to give her their well wishes. And before he knew it, he found himself standing before the girl. There she sat, in finely woven robes as Dan Feng knelt and held out the box with two hands.

“This is a hair stick I have made myself,” he states as a servant takes the box and presents it to the girl. She gingerly runs a finger over the hair stick, admiring the intricate etches.

“I hope the hair stick serves you well, in times of need of protection.”

“Thank you, Dan Feng.”

He bows before taking his leave as his heart yearns to glance at her once more. The feast commences, with servants bringing up various kinds of food. Throughout the night, Dan Feng kept glancing at her, only to look away when she looks towards him. Yingxing kept teasing him as his face flushed. It wasn’t until the banquet concludes does Dan Feng pulls Yingxing aside, ensuring they aren’t followed or eavesdropped on.

“What? Why are we in a secluded corner?” Yingxing asked confused.

“Yingxing… I think… I—” Dan Feng pauses, finding words to continue on.

“You what? Come on spit it out! We need to leave before we become seen as suspicious!”

“I think I fancy Mian Mian,” Dan Feng said quickly as his gaze falls in embarrassment.

Yingxing’s eyes widen with shock. In his life of knowing Dan Feng, never had his friend been so forward. Without a word, Yingxing dragged Dan Feng with him as the two made their way towards their carriage. Upon lifting the veil, he ushers Dan Feng on before entering the carriage himself. Sitting down, Yingxing hissed, “别忘了，我们是神仙。“ [Don’t forget, we are gods.]

Dan Feng only nods as his eyebrows furrow with confusion. Yingxing sighs through his nose and rolled his eyes at his friend’s expression.

“We are gods. Immortals. We can’t love mortals in a romantic sense even if we wanted to. You know the punishment that will befall us if we are caught in a romantic relationship with a mortal.”

“But I’m not immortal. I die and reform a new.”

“Yes to immortals, you perish easily. But to mortals, you are immortal in every sense. You retain your immortal name and your power after rebirth. That to a mortal still are signs of immortality.”

Dan Feng looks away, finding no words to refute Yingxing’s. He knows the punishment better than anyone, a past incarnation having gone through forced rebirth after slaying denizens of abundance and sealing Phantylia — had been found to harbor romantic feelings for a mortal. All Dan Feng learned was the mortal had already died, and did a favor for the other gods, this his sentencing was only forced rebirth instead of stripping his status along with it.

“Then… what do I do, Yingxing?”

Yingxing sat back in thought before answering, “What you do is up to you. You can choose to distance yourself or continue as her friend and bury your feelings for her.”

Dan Feng only nods, gaze seemingly absent.

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Two months passed as Dan Feng finds himself walking through the snow-covered winter grounds with the girl. The two chat amongst themselves as they slowly made their way towards the library. Both mentioned a liking towards the history and romantic literature. Finding his own collections low, he wrote to the girl, asking if he could read a few selections in the library, to which she agreed.

“藏书楼到了！” [We’ve arrived at the library!]

Before them stood a tall rounded tower with blackened roof and red columns with white walls. A style very reminiscent of the earlier century. Walking up to the two tall doors, the girl pushes it open with a huff as it slowly creaks open. The hall is silent, save for the clacking of the girl’s clogs and brushing of brocaded silks. The two went separate ways, browsing different scrolls and books then finding a place to sit as they read. The days passed like this until the girl had asked him to meet in the garden of her palace for supper.

As Dan Feng walked to her gate, it opened showing a young maid who took one look at him before inviting him in and leading him to the part of the garden where the girl waited. As he sat down, the girl spoke, “Have you heard? The denizens of abundance are on the move.” He looked at her with surprise.

“How long have you known about the denizens of abundance?”

“Ever since I turned 15. There was no way for people to not notice them any longer.”

Dan Feng remains silent, letting the girl rant.

“For as long as I have known, we’ve always been at war with the abundance. It’s carried on for hundreds of years now. When will it ever end?”

“I don’t know.”

“You’re a god, aren’t you?”

Her question stunned him. Not once did he mention anything about his association with the heavens, nor did he ever talk about what he does.

“How… how did you know?’

“Many things really. It’s not every day you see a middle-aged man locked in a deep conversation with a much younger man like they’ve known each other their whole life.”

“He’s not that old.”

“To you he’s not. But to me and many others, he is. And you never really told me what you do, yet you always seem to have money. You also are well read. More than your average wealthy person, and you know lots about art, as if you’ve spent centuries perfecting it. Not to mentions, you practically sleep where knowledge is kept. And don’t think I don’t see the look in your eyes when you gaze at the dragons at the library entrance.”

Dan Feng is silent for a moment before asking, “When did you find out?”

“Since the celebration on my birthday. No one is that brave enough to gift me a blade hidden in a hair stick. And again, to be able to afford pearls of that quality. If it wasn’t the threat of abundance, my father would definitely begin suspecting you.”

“And why does me being a god matter to you?” Dan Feng asked, his heart racing.

“Can’t you do something about it? Fight the abundance or a least gift us abilities to do so?”

“Even if I had the power, I can’t.”

“Why?”

“I don’t have the power to command many forces. I’m a minor god of the moon, not for battle. Even then, if I was a god of war, I will still need permissions from the rulers and anyone else I answer to.”

The girl falls silent.

“So you’re saying, you can only defend yourself?”

Dan Feng nods.

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The last time he saw her in this life was witnessing her be poisoned.

The day had started like any other, he met with her while in the company of Yingxing. The three had made their way to the market. After eating and drifting from vendor to vendor, they returned with a request to a banquet from the emperor. It was going well. All the food were served as normal while all guests watched dances and plays until everyone heard intense coughing.

“Someone fetch the doctor! Quick! The fourth princess has been poisoned!” a maid screamed.

All hell broke loose at once. People ran as if trying to escape as few turned to mara-struck soldiers. Dan Feng pushed past the havoc as he sees the emperor trying to cut his way through the denizens. By the time Dan Feng got to her, she was already weak.

“Mian Mian!” He called out to her while cradling her close to him. ‘No… it’s happening again. Just like last time.’

“Dan… Feng…”

“Shh. I’m here, you’ll be okay.”

“这话。。。是对我说的？还是。。。还是对你自己说的？“ [Your words… Is it said towards me? Or… or is it said towards yourself?]

“What do you mean?”

“I won’t make it,” her hand moved towards her mid-section, where the hair stick he had gifted her, is embedded deeply into.

“Why?”

“I was given a choice. Either turn into them, or die. It’s obvious which I chose.”

Dan Feng’s hand enclosed over hers as tears streamed down his face.

“你��手好暖啊。。。丹枫，你能陪着我吗？我好困啊。“ [Your hands are so warm… Dan Feng, can you stay with me? I’m so tired.] She whispered weakly.

He nodded as he clutched her cold hands. With each passing second, she grows weaker and weaker until her eyes closed and her breathing stills. It happened once again… I lost her again. He looked around, trying to catch sight of familiar locks of white. Yet, all he saw were the bodies of others. The servants, the emperor, ministers. But not a shadow of his friend in sight. Lifting the girl’s cold body in to a bridle carry Dan Feng carefully made his way through the palace as he finally sees his friend tending to those in need.

“Yingxing.”

Hearing his friend calling for him, Yingxing turns to see Dan Feng carrying the girl. Others who saw the pair bowed until their heads touched the stone, some even crying.

“Dan Feng…”

“I need your help getting her to the central palace.”

“Are you crazy? She’s never cultivated like I have. If you take her there, you’ll be punished!”

“And I’m willing to face that punishment.”

“Why?”

“Yingxing, I don’t think I can carry on another life without her.”

“And if she doesn’t remember who you are?”

“I’m a selfish man. You know that.”

Yingxing sighs heavily, “Okay. I’ll help you. But if anything happens along the way, I want you to go straight ahead. Don’ bother saving me. Do you understand?”

Dan Feng nods.

“Go. Flee. All of you. This place is no longer safe,” Yingxing commanded.

Heeding his words, everyone quickly fled, never looking back. The two quickly makes their way to the Hall of Worship. And just like what Yingxing suspected, denizens of abundance are hot on their trail. As they were reaching the gates, more mara-struck appears, cutting them off their path. Seeing as they have nowhere to go, Yingxing turns to Dan Feng, “Fly there. I’ll hold them off.”

Dan Feng holds Yingxing’s gaze as the denizens began closing in.

“Thank you, Yingxing.”

He gives a court nod to Dan Feng as he takes flight in the direction of the Hall of Worship. Yingxing locked eyes with a mara-struck soldier as he raises his sword, ready to face his imminent death.

By the time Dan Feng arrived, the sun was starting to set. Not letting anymore time go to waste, he teleports both himself and the girl to the central palace, collapsing onto his knees upon landing. By seeing the pair’s arrival, everyone rushed to them in shock.

“Quickly! Send a force to the capitol! They’re under attack by denizens! Please!” He begged.

Jing Yuan glanced at the empress as she gave a nod. He turns and leaves quickly, the doors slamming shut behind him.

“And why have you brought a deceased mortal? Where is Yingxing?” The empress asked, her voice steady.

Dan Feng looked down towards the girl before back up at the empress.

“I have come to ask you to grant her a new life. An immortal one.”

“And why should I fulfill your request.”

Dan Feng swallowed his unease. Yet he was spared when the empress sighed through her nose and said, “You are aware of the price?”

Dan Feng nods eagerly, “As long as she lives, I am willing to pay any price.”

“The rules say your existence and future is to cease. However, seeing as Li __’s father took great care of her as best he could, I will merely strip you of your status and have you undergo rebirth. Now, tell me where Yingxing is.”

“He stayed behind to ensure I made it to the Hall of Worship, your majesty.” The hall falls silent as the empress gracefully stands up and walks up to Dan Feng’s kneeling form. Two maids quickly approach and bowed before them.

“Stand.”

Doing as she commanded, Dan Feng stands, carrying the girl’s body.

“Hand her over to the maids. They will start the process. She will be born a new, as an infant from the petals of an orange blossom. As for you. Best make your way to Scalegorge then. The two of you shall meet once more on the 15th day of the seventh month two decades from now.”

Blinking slowly, Dan Heng began to come to his senses. Looking around, he realizes that he’s in his own room. The familiar light turquoise quilt covering him snuggly. Carefully, he sat up as the doors to his room opens and in walks Jing Yuan.

“You’re awake!”

“What happened?”

“Right after you took the memory gem, you passed out.”

A sudden headache attacked Dan Heng as he held his head and groaned.

“Mian Mian!”

“Easy there. You’ve just recovered.”

“Remind me why you want me to regain my memories.”

“Tomorrow is the 15th. Her majesty thought it would be best if you used the memory gem before then.”

Dan Heng pulls his quilt away from him and stands with the help of Jing Yuan. He slowly hobbles to his table where warm food awaits him at. Picking up his chopsticks, he slowly begins to eat while listening to Jing Yuan ramble about his day.

The next day, Dan Heng began preparing to meet the girl he’s dreamt about. What if she doesn’t like my anymore? He thought. He shook his head and smacked his face as he began to make his way to the destination Jing Yuan told him. When he arrives, he sees a feminine figure looking up at the moon. She is draped in light purple and pink silks. Sleeves long and skirts that trails. A gentle cyan pibo floats freely. Her hair adorned with many hair sticks that holds a looped bun. A fitting appearance for a fairy.

Walking up to her, Dan Heng cleared his throat — startling the poor girl. She spun around to face him, and when their eyes met, he saw the glimmers in her eyes. The longer they gazed at one another, the faster Dan Heng’s heart beats.

“棉棉。“ [Mian Mian.]

She smiles as she approached him and hugged him.

“丹恒。” [Dan Heng.]

He smiled, returning her hug. She whispered gently to him:

“谢谢。” [Thank you.]

As the moon reached high up in the sky, the two who waited two lives, shared a kiss of love and longing.

In certain times in history, emperors of China cherished their daughters, thus always choosing another girl from outside the court to be a "princess" and marry them off.

My rendition of 西王母 comes from my own understanding of what writings and media portray her as. She's caring and forgiving.

I am also today's years old when I learned that Queen Mother and Jade Emperor are only co-workers not married.

Pibo [披帛] is a type of shawl worn with hanfu. Most depictions of immortals and gods use pibo in a way to how halos are used in the west.

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This work was originally supposed to be titled 三生三世, but upon learning that it isn't actually an old saying, so I looked it up and found the two possible origins.

Beginning and ending dividers: nicodefresas

Middle dividers: fanguro

[yapxiaojiangsawadeekup]

朝比奈祐未在办公室里摇身变为爱卖弄撩人躯体的破廉耻秘书 。

[ziqianxiaoye666]

换号倒计时。。还没入门的滴滴我QwQ

[baosam1399]

〔Bài dịch số 1072〕 ngày 10.08.2023 :

1. “你热闹万分 你孤身一人 你开怀大笑 你泪流成河 你若无其事 你跌跌撞撞 你平静无比 你竭嘶底里 你假装光芒万丈 你内心一片废墟” - Một bạn rất náo nhiệt, một bạn rất đơn côi, một bạn vui vẻ cười to, một bạn khóc lóc đau lòng, một bạn thản nhiên như không, một bạn vấp ngã đứng dậy, một bạn vô cùng bình tĩnh, một bạn gào thét trong lòng, một bạn giả vờ tỏa sáng, trái tim của bạn bị đè nát trong đống hoang tàn.

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《失踪人口 - Người Mất Tích》 trên NetEase Music

2. “人在年轻的时候，莫不是希望这一生就是琴棋书画诗酒花。可终究，还是逃不过柴米油盐酱醋茶” "Thời còn son trẻ, con người hẳn là đều hy vọng cuộc đời mình là những nốt nhạc, quân cờ, thư họa, vần thơ. Nhưng tới cuối cùng, vẫn không thoát khỏi tình cảnh củi, gạo, dầu, muối, nước tương, dấm, trà!"

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《茶酒伴 - Tà Tửu Phán》 trên NetEase Music

3. “这个世界上 有一些客观存在 永远无法改变的现实 水永远冰 玫瑰永远红 我们永远不能在一起” Thế giới này có một số hiện thực khách quan không bao giờ có thể thay đổi được, ví như nước luôn lạnh, hoa hồng luôn đỏ, chúng ta mãi mãi không thể bên nhau!

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《战 - Chiến》 trên NetEase Music

4. “你是一场北风，我是四海���家的浪子，相伴举杯赏雪，一起醉到立春，你走以后，我的醉意却停留一季又一季，经了万水和千山” Người là bức phong cảnh, tôi là kẻ lãng tử phiêu du bốn bể, cùng nhau nâng cốc thưởng tuyết rơi, cùng nhau say túy tới xuân về, sau khi người đi, cơn say của tôi lưu lại từng mùa lại từng mùa, vượt qua cả vạn dặm sông núi!

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《???》 trên NetEase Music

5. “我真的好喜欢听喜欢的人每天和我嘀嘀咕咕分享一些看似没有营养的废话，起的太早了好困哦，今天太冷了风太大了，刚才吃的饭不好吃，我想喝奶茶，你看外面的月亮好圆啊，太好了明天又是晴天” Mình thực sự rất thích người mình thương líu ríu chia sẻ với mình những mẩu chuyện nho nhỏ thường ngày, ví như dậy sớm quá buồn ngủ, hôm nay quá lạnh gió quá to, cơm vừa ăn không ngon, mình muốn uống trà sữa, cậu nhìn trăng bên ngoài tròn chưa kìa, tốt quá, ngày mai lại là một ngày nắng!

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《山河星光 - Sơn Hà Tinh Quang》 trên NetEase Music

6. “在年轻的时候 如果你爱上了一个人 请你 请你一定一定要温柔地对待他 长大了以后 你才会知道 在蓦然回首的刹那 没有怨恨的青春才会了无遗憾 如山冈上那轮静静的满月” Khi bạn còn trẻ, nếu như bạn yêu một người, xin bạn, xin bạn nhất định phải đối xử với người ấy thật dịu dàng, khi bạn lớn rồi, bạn mới biết được rằng, trong một khoảnh khắc tôi chợt nhìn lại, nếu như thanh xuân không có oán hận thì sẽ không có tiếc nuối, giống như vầng trăng rằm lặng lẽ đứng trên núi đồi.

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《年少有为 - Niên Thiếu Hữu Vi》 trên NetEase Music

7. “男人这辈子最喜欢做的两件事：第一，拖好女人下水，第二，劝坏女人从良。女人，这辈子最喜欢做的两件事：第一，跟渣男人谈恋爱，第二 把好男人当作备胎。” Hai việc mà con trai thích làm nhất trên đời : Đ���u tiên, làm chuyện xấu với người con gái tốt; Thứ hai, khuyên người con gái xấu hoàn lương. Hai việc mà con gái thích làm nhất trên đời : Đầu tiên, yêu đương với trai xấu; Thứ hai : Đem trai tốt làm lốp dự phòng!

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《开始懂了 - Bắt Đầu Hiểu Ra》 trên NetEase Music

8. “只有爸爸和女儿才是世上最坚固的情人 他喜欢你素颜不化妆 喜欢你长发扎马尾 他教育你不要乱花钱然后递上银行卡 他从来没说过我爱你却又比谁都爱你 他在电话里听见你哭泣的时候 会沉默然后说回来吧 我养你” Chỉ có bố và con gái mới là tình nhân kiên cố nhất trong cuộc đời này, bố thích gương mặt mộc của bạn, thích tóc đuôi ngựa của bạn, bố dạy bạn không được tiêu tiền lung tung sau đó lại đưa thẻ cho bạn, bố chưa từng nói yêu bạ nhưng lại yêu bạn hơn bất kì ai, bố nghe thấy bạn khóc trong điện thoại chỉ trầm mặc rồi nói rằng "quay về đi, bố nuôi con!"

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《That Girls》 trên NetEase Music

9. “聚散无常，来来往往，学会感谢每个陪你走过一段时光的人，无论好坏悲喜，都要心存感激，也希望离开的人不经意想起我的时候，能够面带微笑” Tan hợp vô thường, đến rồi lại đi, học cách cảm ơn mỗi một người đi qua cuộc đời bạn, bất luận là vui buồn hờn dỗi, đều phải cảm kích ngôn nguôi, cũng hy vọng những người đã rời xa tôi ấy trong một khắc nào đó khi nghĩ về tôi, có thể đượm một nụ cười trên môi.

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《你只是经过 - Hắn Chỉ Là Lướt Qua》 trên NetEase Music

10. “想来也真怂 那么想你 也不敢打扰你” Nghĩ cũng thấy thật ngốc nghếch, nhớ anh như vậy nhưng lại không dám làm phiền anh.

📌 Trích từ phần bình luận trong bài hát 《嘿亲爱的 - Này Anh Yêu》 trên NetEase Music

- (Vũ Thu Hoài/baosam1399 dịch)

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[hami-gua]

永别了，亲爱的 Farewell, My Beloved

Long overdue since Qingming has long since pass (oops).

Blade x gn! Reader

Takes place in game — not canon though

Warning: Chinese is used (English translation provided), angst hurt no comfort (first time writing this angsty)

Please read to the end for credits and reference.

━━━━━━ ⊙ ❖ ⊙ ━━━━━━

Shoes echoes through the barren halls. The figure moves through the doorway, his steps slow. And then he stops. Right in front of the wall of name plaques. His red eyes scanned the whole wall, searching for a particular name and walking to it right as he spots it. He carefully pulls out a clean cloth — and with care, wiped down the plaque. It didn’t need to be cleaned, as workers everyday made sure all plaques are cleaned out of respect. Once he was done, he placed the bouquet of white chrysanthemums in front of it then sits down.

The figure couldn’t help but think of their death. Of the three that had to pay a price, he alone had to pay the biggest. He made a promise to them and he broke it. The what ifs began to speed through his head. He’s died once, and he wants to die again. He wishes he can be with them in the afterlife. That is, if Mengpo doesn’t make him drink her soup. Not that he could see them anyway. Not after what he’s done.

He places two cups and pulls out a jar of wine. After filling both cups, he took his and raised it — drinking it all after.

“I’m sorry,” was the first thing he said to them, “I’m sorry for dragging you into this mess.”

He wants to apologize but no matter what he says, he knows no explanation could cut it. It was his error in action. In emotion. There was no way words can express his regrets.

“我与你的记忆损乱了，“ a tear slips from his eye, “你长得什么样，我也记不了了。我也记不住你的声音了。我只能记得你的名字，但也记不了多久了。“ [Memories of me and you have been messed up… The way that you looked, I cannot remember. I also cannot remember your voice. I only remember your name, but I cannot remember that for long either.]

The figure sat in silence for a bit before starting once more, “当年，如果不是我，也不是丹枫的话，你今日该会是什么样了？你还会像以前一样跟景元玩象棋吗？跟丹枫看书？跟镜流和白珩逛街？或者跟我练功？” he drank another cup full of wine, “可惜，三个付出代价去了，一个早已离去，最后一个孤独的留在了罗浮。不知你和白珩有没有相遇。我想是。我们当时挣扎了好久，现在平安多了。你若在的话，肯定会喜欢现在罗浮的环境。“ [That year, if it wasn’t for me, and Dan Feng, what would you have been like today? Would it be like it was then, with you playing xiangqi with Jing Yuan? Reading with Dan Heng? Shopping with Jing Liu and Baiheng? Or would you have been sparring with me? …. Sadly, three paid a price, one has departed, and the last one is left lonely on Luofu. I don’t know if you and Baiheng have caught up. I’d like to think you guys did. Our time was so messy, but Luofu today is much peaceful. If you were here, you’d definitely like Luofu today.]

Amidst his rambling, another figure approached. She stood right behind him, gazing up on the plaque.

“It’s time you wrap it up, Bladie.”

Blade hummed in acknowledgment, “Just a little more time.”

The lady stared at him a bit longer before sighing and heading out, saying she’ll be waiting for him at the entrance. After he was sure he was alone again, he spoke softly.

“是时候该走了。如果我没有捅你一刀，你今天应该还会在吧。对不起，这是我最后一次能看你了。仙舟没有我的地方了。在这个人生里，可能再也不会有人像你一样叫我的名字了。我永远也不可能是应星了。” [It’s time I should get going. If I didn’t stab you that day, you would probably still be here. I’m sorry, this is my last time seeing you. There’s no longer a place for me on Xianzhou. In this life, there will be no one to say my name the way you do. And I will never be able to be Yingxing anymore.]

Blade gets up and places the jar of wine next to the filled cup. After, he bows to the name plaque three times. Then, he turns and walks out of the room — leaving Luofu till his death arrives.

永别了。。。[Farewell…]

亲爱的。[My beloved.]

─── ∙ ↤THE END↦ ∙ ─---

I've been thinking, should I make banners specifically for the characters I write? Or would that be too much? Cuz right now, I can't decide on a banner for each story.

Qingming 清明: Called Tomb-Sweeping day in the west. People visit the graves of their deceased love ones. Even going as far as cleaning and retouching graves. It’s customary to offer food and wine (or other beverages they loved).

White Chrysanthemums: White flowers, mainly white chrysanthemums are placed during funeral and the dead. Don’t gift these to people please (unless you desperately wish for that person to perish).

Mengpo 孟婆: A deity in the underworld that gives passing souls her specialty called 孟婆汤 (mengpo soup) that would wipe their memories for their journey in their next life.

Bowing three times: I was taught this at a young age, but when bowing to gods and ancestors, you bow three times. Usually it’s very quick, but I like to take it slow (cuz I think it shows deeper respect).

[yapxiaojiangsawadeekup]

朝比奈祐未在办公室里摇身变为爱卖弄撩人躯体的破廉耻秘书 。

[ziqianxiaoye666]

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[miyavilessoncollection]

[MIYAVI LESSON] MIYAVI and PS COMPANY

This article is to tell you guys how many resources MIYAVI has got from PS COMPANY and his fans, co-miyavi. In my opinion, it was a breach of trust for him to take on someone else's resources and not help the people who provided them realize their dreams, but instead marry Melody and run away from PS COMPANY. MIYAVI, he's a liar! He never liked music or even his fans!!! They were just tools for MIYAVI to marry an American. His daughter, who can't even speak Japanese, and claimed to be "American" at a jazz class in Tokyo in 2024. You can use translation software to understand the content of the article. Thank you so much. m (_ _)m

[雅学精选]八一八MIYAVI和PS COMPANY当年的那些事

MIYAVI，原名石原崇雅，1981年生，曾经隶属于Due’le quartz乐队，乐队解散后开始SOLO活动，依旧隶属于PS COMPANY事务所，2009年奉子成婚后宣布PSC脱退。 PS COMPANY的代表取缔役是尾崎友美，也就是传说中的尾崎社长了。 我少女时代因为信息不对称，我对尾崎友美的印象大致也和中文流媒体上看到的差不多，老巫婆，压榨旗下艺人，养小白脸，等等(我不删不改，就那么留着)。

我对日本粉丝跑路也是非常不理解，结婚生子怎么了？不至于这样就跑路吧。我10年前左右的文章，很多也都是这个看法。 直到我自己因为对雅-miyavi-的狂热喜爱，不计代价的大量收购有关他的日语原版纸媒后。 在大量看到他的日本活动细节和时间线后，我现在对石原崇雅其人和尾崎友美，有了全新不一样的认识。

现在我来给大家分享一下我搜集到的信息，各位看客看完后自己分辨就好。

PS COMPANY简介 先来说一下PS COMPANY （又称PSC或P缶，因为公司的日语读音很像P缶），此处主要引用wiki，同时增加一些wiki中没有的有关MIYAVI的时间线。

“制作歌手照片和官方网站，短期内连续发售音源，将CD的封面换成数种进行发售，所属乐队的定期巡回演唱会等宣传战略都很强势。

代表董事尾崎友美是从视觉系乐队的粉丝变成制作职员的。

2005年与king records合作推出PS music, 11月23日正式发行CD及DVD。之后，除了雅-miyavi-， Kagrra，的新作由PS music发售。

2007年5月、雅-miyavi-(当时)、Kagrra，、Kra、the GazettE、Alice Nine的主要部门之外、小规模的独立制作人培育部门Indie。最近的Indie PSC.中，BORN是成员。

2009年1月3日，PS COMPANY 10周年纪念演唱会“Peace & Smile Carnival”在日本武道馆举行。 门票在开售当天就售罄。

2009 年，PS COMPANY 乐队与 King Records 之间的合同似乎已经到期。 Kagrra， 2010 年的新专辑由 Crown Tokuma Music Sales 作为独立专辑发行。 之后，the GazettE 决定将由 Sony Music Records 发行，Alice Nine 将由 Tokuma Japan Communications 发行。

2009年4月5日，雅-miyavi-于日比谷野外大音乐堂的LIVE演出，宣告加入PS COMPANY十年毕业。

2009年4月8日，成立自己的公司J-glam inc.。次日于MySpace公开成立公司与结婚事实，并宣布孩子将于夏天出生。

2011 年，所属的 SuG 宣布将暂停活动并离开了事务所。

2014 年 3 月 2 日，Rave 加入了独立 PSC。

2016 年 9 月 30 日，LOTUS 因独家合同终止而从事务所离籍。

PSC旗下乐队：

PS music

Kra

Indie PSC.　

レイヴ

the LOTUS

*Indie PSC.由 King Records 的子公司 Bellwood Records进行 发行。

曾经所属的乐队

Dué le quartz

餞ハナむケ。

bis

Ash

Palette

雅-miyavi-

Kagrra,

SuG

アリス九號.

ViViD

ダウト

BORN

SCREW

the GazettE （这个据我考证只是在一个PSC下面的子事务所，其实并没有离开PSC，大概是因为这个乐队人气一直特别高，所以给了专门的管理团队）

PSC的工作环境和起家过程 PSC的事务所工作是什么样的呢，此处引用雅-miyavi-2009年在杂志中的采访（Arena 37℃，2009年3月号，我自己翻译的。这个杂志采访的时间点很微妙哦，是melody实际上已经怀了好几个月，但是还未对外官宣婚育的时候。）：

这次一边回顾着1月3日的武道馆PSC祭，一边想请您讲述从事务所成立之初就在的居民、雅所知道的10年。 -好了好了，明白了。(这时事务所的staff给我倒茶)谢谢。嗯?这是什么东西？(发现托盘背面的价签)含税210日元(笑)。”工作人员说“啊，价签还是买的时候贴的呢…(苦笑)”“明明已经在武道馆办了事务所的祭典live，而事务所却还在用210日元的盘子吗~ 噫~"大概这样的感觉(笑)" 好嘛(笑)，210日元的盘子! -含税210日元倒是可以，不过还是拿着价签用吧(笑)。但是，事务所最开始其实也只有Due’le quartz(雅所在的乐队)的4个成员和社长(笑)。我们还得自己去冈田屋寻找制作服装的素材，还有专门卖视觉系的CD店，这些我都是进了事务处才知道的。这就是我们曾经有过的的文化……(笑) 竟然是社长带着成员挨个转了一圈唱片公司啊。而且一开始只有女性staff啊。 -因为以前是全是女性，所以事务所搬来搬去的时候，连艺人都被排挤出去了。那个时候连开口说话都很辛苦呢(笑。不过，以前只有Due’le quartz的时候，我和sakiponn（前Due’le quartz的主唱sakito的昵称）、社长还有我，三个人去全国参加in store event*。那个时候，我调查了所有去过的地方的CD店，带着Due’le quartz的CD。“拜托了。”然后一家一家地去打招呼。社长以前好像在演歌系的事务所待过一段时间，这（陌拜）似乎是在那里学来的技巧。因为还是根本没人知道的地下视觉系乐队，所以总是会听到“哈？Due’le quartz？这是什么玩意？”就算是这样，社长还是一直带着我和sakiponn到处走，这真的到现在还留在心里，也因为这样我很尊敬她（尾崎友美）。

*in store event，即店内活动，是指名人或行业成员在唱片店、书店或购物中心等设施中举办的活动。 它主要作为 CD、DVD、书籍（照片书、散文等）促销活动的一部分来完成。

店内现场表演是表演音乐的店内活动。

作为活动的例子有签名会、握手会、游戏大会等，音乐家的场合也可以进行演奏和歌唱行为。在谁都可以进入的空间里不收取费用的情况很多，另一方面，拥有活动专用空间的店，也会有“只有购买商品的顾客才能入场”等限定对象的情况。

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再引用一下尾崎友美自己的采访（2014年5月9日，Musicman’s RELAY）

尾崎:还有很多演唱会，但是当时即使想去都没办法。那时，母��再婚了，继父是个很优秀的人，一家人关系很好。但他说:“女孩子怎么可能去东京，福冈应该也有很多工作吧。”我想如果要工作的话只能在音乐界，但是福冈没有唱片公司和事务所，只有live house和唱片店。虽然有厂家的营业所，但都是从总公司来的，本地只有前台之类的工作。因为在唱片店工作了5年，有好几家公司问我“要不要来我家?”，但我并不是想做前台，我还是憧憬制作或者事务所。

——您是怎么说服父母的呢?

尾崎:离家出走。

——是吧(笑)。

尾崎:写了留言就出门了。

——你最初在东京住在哪里?

尾崎:永福町吧。

——那是多大的时候呢?

尾崎:22 ~ 23岁左右。短大毕业后，我在福冈待了一段时间，一边观察情况，一边找房子。

——你刚来东京的时候工作还没定吧?

尾崎:当然。总之只能离开。

——这种行动力真是太棒了。

尾崎:不过我也想过一定要把地址告诉我母亲。我一直觉得东京很危险，所以就在派出所前面找了个房子，在一间单间里，只要有被褥、音响、电视和电话就行了。现在我还记得，到东京的那天晚上，我去便利店站着看招聘杂志(笑)。

——(笑)。当时还没有互联网呢。

尾崎:虽然找到了事务所的招聘机会，但是我依然一边想着“不可能被在艺能界这么有名的地方录用”，一边把简历投了出去，结果还是顺利地被录用了。现在被称为“3k”*的行业，年轻人都不太愿意来，但在当时却很受欢迎。我通过了激烈的竞争，终于进入了公司。就像做梦一样(笑)。

*3k指日语的「きつい、汚い、危険」的简称。又脏又累又危险的行业。”

“尾崎:我并不是有什么特别的目标才辞职的，而是一边找工作一边去看演唱会，偶然有个歌手问我:“能不能作为工作人员来帮忙?”我就开始帮忙了。艺人们非常热情，“大家一起去主流公司吧”，虽然没有任何经验，但还是努力了。结果去了主流公司，事务所却有工作人员说了一句“不要女的”就被挂断了。

——这真是太冤枉了。

尾崎:成员们都为了能留下来而努力了……总之很不甘心，想着“不能去主流公司就不会辞职”。现在想想，是非常渺小的自尊吧(笑)?

自尊心越强，越能让人踏实做事。(笑)

——对事务所来说，应该也认为你是志愿者吧。

尾崎:的确如此。因为在那里被切断了，由于不甘心才成立了PS COMPANY哟(笑)。

——真是太帅了。顺便说一下，那个事务所现在还在吗?

尾崎:已经没有了。但是，我充满了今后要培养视觉系第一艺人的心情。”

——到成立PS COMPANY为止异常的快呢。来东京才两年吗?

尾崎:现在想想还挺可怕的。应该说是鲁莽吧。虽然也有不甘心的心情，但我想是因为喜欢视觉系才会这样的。

——即使这么想，也很难真的就做到。

尾崎:因为没有公司愿意接受，所以只能自己做了(笑)。

——是有所属的艺人创立的吗?还是建立之后才开始发掘的?

尾崎:只有一个艺人。他们既是工作人员也是艺人的ローディー*，我们谈到了我们想做这样的艺术家的梦想，就一起从召集成员开始。当时聚集在一起的成员之一是当时17岁的Miyavi-，是Due'le quartz的一位艺人。

*ローディー，也就是roadie，中文直译是路人，但是词不达意= =。主要是指流行音乐业界中，那些进行乐器安排、装载、运输、安装、调整等音乐活动，对乐器进行维护管理，对音乐人进行支援等业务的人。

有时也被称为ロードクルー(road crew)、ロードマネージャー(road manager)。专门负责乐器等器材的调整和安装的人也被称为テクニシャン(Technician)。

——Miyavi先生是如何成为成员的？

尾崎：当时我们公司里没有艺人，所以入不敷出，所以我们只做PS COMPANY主办的活动。 因为出场的艺人和Miyavi-是同学的缘故，所以就来了。 他介绍说“是大阪的朋友。。”，问“你是否愿意在我家做？”，就邀请来了。

——顺便问一下，你听过Miyavi先生弹吉他吗？

尾崎：不，我没有。

——明明没有听过，却还是邀请了吗?那是因为有V系的感觉吗?

尾崎:直觉吧。

——真是太棒了。这种直觉可不一般。活动全部是您自己做的吗?

尾崎:是的。虽然成立了事务所很好，但是旗下没有艺人。既然作为事务所成立了，就必须好好地进行音乐活动，所以有各种各样的考虑吧。那么，最快捷的就是快速活动了。话虽如此，一个刚成立不久、名不见经传的奇怪公司的活动，肯定不会有艺人愿意参加，所以我很拼命。

以前，著名艺人在日本武道馆等大型会场的演唱会之后，会有化着妆的业余艺人给演唱会结束后出来的客人发传单。于是我装成客人，把这些东西全部拿回来，如果有觉得不错的艺术家，就马上打电话问“能不能参加活动”，一个月大概做四次这种活动。所以一开始大家以为我们不是事务所，而是活动公司(笑)。

——Miyavi-也是这样，没有看过演奏却能被找到，真是了不起。

尾崎:就算现在，所属的艺人也几乎没听过曲子。见了面听到对方说“想做”，“那试着做?”，就这样。

——公司是什么时候步入正轨的呢?

尾崎:到Kra为止都是4个人一起做的。

——这样的话，真是忙得团团转啊。因为什么都要做。

尾崎:全部都要做呢。一切都是在摸索。

——4个人看管3个艺人。每个人都有各自的活动，演唱会也不是在同一个地方举行吧?

尾崎:已经一塌糊涂了。即便如此，也有一开始就留下来的员工。真的很感激呢。但是，现在想想，那样也很开心。

——你现在有多少员工?

尾崎:光员工就有40人左右吧。我经常说，企业就是人，我只是个创业者，什么都没做，我有很多真正的好员工。

——不仅是音乐家，对员工也有看人的眼光。

尾崎:我想“和这个人合作”的话就会自己去接近。对室长铃木就像跟踪狂一样纠缠不休地说“想和你一起工作”(笑)。我也知道她的头衔，但不知道她以前做过什么。这也是直觉。

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看完了石原氏和尾崎氏的官方证词，我们可以大概概括一下PSC是怎么开始创业和运营的，概括下来就是： 1. 尾崎氏也是单亲家庭，是离家出走来到的东京，在创业的时候家庭没有给她任何经济援助，刚来东京的时候甚至还要想办法解决租房和打工（经济）的问题。 2. 尾崎友美本人就是粉丝，她是抱着做V系第一艺人而不是赚钱的目的进入的事务所行业。

3. 事务所内staff的生活也好，艺人的生活也好，都很清贫，早期只有尾崎一个人既是社长也是staff，还要带着乐队去唱片店，通过陌拜来推销CD。后面即使已经到了2009年，PS COMPANY 的10周年纪念演唱会“Peace & Smile Carnival”在日本武道馆举行并售罄的情况下，事务所连招待人都还在使用210日元的廉价餐具。

关于第2点，“做V系第一艺人”，这句话嘴上说说很容易，如果只是嘴上说说，不仅是各位看客，连我这种也算经历各种社会上摸爬滚打的人也是不相信的。 那我来直接考证尾崎友美当年为了雅-miyavi-这个艺能团队，做了哪些事情好了。 由于年代久远，一些小活动已经不可考证，还有些不重要的例如发CD和录唱片这些过于幕后的内容也不好考证，我下面主要考证的时间线是他的各种大型公开活动细节，包括大型演唱会，海外巡演，肉眼可见的重量级团队等。 其中很多演出以及大型活动，因为不明原因连日本语wiki上都未收录（笑），丢失的词条中，关于重点活动，我会详细解释活动细节和内容。

PS COMPANY大事记

-2002年9月22日，Due’le quartz刚解散，这一年石原氏开始solo，艺名为雅-miyavi-。后面没剩几个月了，这年基本没有太大型的活动。 -2003年4月25日，2003下剋上，场地渋谷公会堂，是一个2000多人的hall，预定票价3800日元，当日券4500日元。这场有刻VHS录影带和DVD，比较容易在网上找到信息。 2003年10月19日，成りあがり，场地日比谷野外大音楽会堂，是个3000人左右的坐席hall，无论什么时候购买，票价一律3820日元。 这场演出我要重点解说一下，虽然你看对外的官宣信息没啥特别的，但是如果你发现了支援乐队“石原軍団”的人员名单，相信你一定会和我一样惊讶。

你没有看错，真的是这4个人。

也许有人不认识第三个乐队，那是X-JAPAN的吉他手hide自己带的乐队。 成员名单和后面天天被拿出来吹的S.K.I.N., the last rockstars，可以说成员名单高度重合。

剩下那个圣饥魔的吉��手，圣饥魔在日本的地位不比X JAPAN低，虽然不是视觉系，但是也是殿堂级的乐队。

然后这几个人是真的在和雅-miyavi-平等的组乐队吗？笑。 想想看雅-miyavi-姓什么。他们只是来做support的。

不信我们来看下： S.K.I.N. GACKT from Malice Mizer YOSHIKI from X JAPAN SUGIZO from LUNA SEA/X JAPAN 雅-miyavi- the last rockstars HYDE from L'Arc~en~Ciel/VAMPS YOSHIKI from X JAPAN SUGIZO from LUNA SEA/X JAPAN MIYAVI

S.K.I.N.由于年代久远演出细节难以考证，我们来看看末代摇帝的好了。

这是东京场的细节和票价。最便宜的都要12000日元，最贵的要98000日元。

只要3820日元，你就可以看到X JAPAN，圣饥魔，LUNA SEA，hide的solo乐队的成员同台竞技啊（泪奔

2003年12月28日，現代奇想博覧会，东京BAY HK HALL。这是个拼盘演出，里面包括MUCC，Merry，DAIGO，the GazettE等乐队，票价为提前购买5500日元，当日券6000日元。 这场演出雅-miyavi-的支援乐队还是来自X JAPAN，圣饥魔，LUNA SEA，hide的solo乐队“石原軍団” *“石原軍団”参与的两场演出，日本语wiki全都没收录（包括几个前辈乐手自己的百科），很有意思（笑）。

2004年7月，日本脱出。这是个海外巡演，日程和场地以及票价是 7.10 韩国 QUEEN LIVE HALL，3820日元。 7.18 香港 香港湾仔会议展览中心 （这场因为非典流行取消） 7.24 台湾 17 Young party，6300日元。

由于年代久远，只能找到韩国场地的照片了，长这样。

只有4个乐手都转身困难的情况，从舞台宽度推算，一定是300人以下的场子，甚至就100人。。

*这场神奇的海外巡演，日本语wiki未收录（笑）。

你是不是很奇怪为什么我写的是日元定价？没错，这几场说是海外巡演，其实是让日本粉丝去远征的，有当时的应募券证明。甚至怕日本仔雅不懂远征，除了单卖日本仔雅，还找了旅行社打包差旅费用哈哈哈。 远征费用很贵，旅行社报价96000~99000日元。 广告页上还提到，当年的4月他去了韩国参加event，5月在台湾参加event，6月在香港参加event。

2004年8月11日 最初也是最后（？）的雅fan感谢DAY，东京巨蛋（5.5万人） 2004年8月31日 This is 王道，日本武道馆（1.5万人）。

这两场活动我要重点介绍，因为这组活动可以说惊天地动鬼神（？）了。 首先，第一个见面会的场地是东京巨蛋。

东京巨蛋，坐席全开有大约5.5万人，是日本最大的室内场地之一。

而之前最多也就开过3000人演唱会的石原氏怎么可能有这个演出动员力呢？ 没错，所以这场活动不是演唱会，是见面会。他也没办握手会，是摸头会，每个人都来见面给他摸头。 看台全部没开，就开了内场。

也就包个东京巨蛋嘛，虽然这场地得要百万场租吧，可是这不是还能卖票卖周边吗？ 然后我找到了另一页当时的宣传单，发现这个东蛋见面会居然是免费的。。

日本武道馆的那个票价也是奇低，预售就5050日元，当日购买就5500日元。

而武道馆的最终票房如何呢，有图有证据。

内场没敢开票，一张没有卖。

看台大量都是空的，最下层全空，其它部分空。

也因为这样做了个空中舞台。杂志宣传这是武道馆历史上第一个空中舞台，说的。。也没错。。

人家正常卖内场和最下层看台的，空中舞台那可全是视线盲区好吧。。

作为一个也算了解些演出成本预算的人，看到这里我的心已经在滴血了。保守估计2004年的海外巡演+东蛋见面会+武道馆演出，亏了300万等值人民币及以上（光与东蛋等体量国内场地的每日场租就差不多这个价格）。。

*这两场神奇的见面会+演唱会，日本语wiki未收录见面会，但是演唱会嘛，大约因为刻了DVD卖，所以收录了（笑）。

爆亏的2004年结束了。我们来看2005年。

2005年，又开始做海外巡演了。 7月14日，台湾 17 Young party 5500日元

7月16日，韩国 Dream theater SH CLUB 5500日元

而且又又又在组织日本仔雅去远征了，只是这次不仅旅行社不限制人头数了，均消也贵了好多，直接123000~233000日元了，几乎是上次的2倍。

其实也能理解，毕竟上个年度那几个大型项目亏损太多了，只能靠日本仔雅们的消费把亏空补回来。

*这场神奇的海外巡演，日本语wiki也是未收录（笑）。

2005年基本没啥大型活动了，也就有个事务所的大拼盘活动 2005 peace & smile，不过这个跟他本人的开支关系不大。

但是开始办一些意味不明的应援单曲和活动。如下。

2005.10.10，婚纱应援会。要求必须穿婚纱或其它婚礼正装参加活动，现场亲手赠送玫瑰花和新娘认定证书（翻译过来真的就叫这个名字）。

*这些神奇的见面会，日本语wiki也是未收录（笑）。

2006年上半年就一些日常的营业活动，不过确实在高密度发单曲，半年时间出了3张，还全都拍了很精致的MV，主要日程如下。

2006年下半年被公司送去美国游学了，让他学习英语和海外文化，虽说就几个月的留学，但是连发新cd都暂停了差不多一年。

石原氏自述是一点不懂英语的情况被送到洛杉矶去的，所以这段时间是他开始学习英语的契机。

游学的费用自不必说，肯定是公司承担的。 而且他可不是年龄很小的练习生。他每1个月不活动，这1个月他这条线对于事务所就是颗粒无收的，而且staff和他本人又不能不付工资。。所以实际上他断档学习的这几个月，对于公司是巨亏的。

这部分资讯由于他当时人在海外，有的事情日语区记录不详细，英语区的记录倒是很详细，我就直接搬运了： 2月17日，Miyavi应霹雳舞演员Mr. Freeze的邀请，在拉斯维加斯米高梅大酒店的Tabu Ultra Lounge与当地的DJ和打击乐手一起举办了他在美国的第一场个人演唱会。5月25日，在由Yoshiki在洛杉矶Wiltern剧院举办的JRock Revolution演唱会上，官方宣布Miyavi将成为s.k.i.n乐队的成员。6月29日，该乐队在加州长滩的动漫博览会上举行了他们的首演，也是他们唯一的一场演唱会。

也就是年初他游学回来，2007年5月25日加入由YOSHIKI(X JAPAN)、Gackt、SUGIZO(LUNA SEA)组成的S.K.I.N乐队。

2007年6月，开始喊起NEO VISUALIZM的口号，并邀请多位杰出艺人(Beat Boxer、Bass、Drums、Turntable、Tap、Painter)组成歌舞伎男子z。

然后2007年下半年开始疯狂做海外巡演。日程和场地直接看截图就好，全是live house。

2007年12月25日，举办2007下剋上演唱会，场地渋谷C.C.Leomonホール（其实还是2003年涩谷公会堂，2000多人的场地）。也就是回国后他在日本的动员力和2003年几乎毫无变化。。

*这段开始，日语百科几乎具体日程全删，就留了他去海外巡演的大致日程，场地全部不表，英语百科部分有所保留。

2008年又是继续疯狂做巡演，这是英语区扒下来的日程表，场地都不大，百来人的居多。

USA CIRCUIT

2008/05/14 USA Anaheim

2008/05/16 USA Los Angeles

2008/05/18 USA San Francisco

EUROPE CIRCUIT

2008/06/21 GERMANY Cologne

2008/06/22 GERMANY Berlin

2008/06/24 NETHERLANDS Amstelveen

2008/06/27 SPAIN Barcelona

2008/07/01 SWEDEN Stockholm

2008/07/02 FINLAND Helsinki

ASIA CIRCUIT

2008/07/10 TAIWAN Taipei

2008/07/12 KOREA Seoul

2008/07/13 KOREA Seoul

2008/07/18 CHINA Shanghai

JAPAN CIRCUIT

2008/08/02 Osaka FANJ-twice

2008/08/04 Fukuoka DRUM Be-1

2008/08/06 Kyoto WORLD

2008/08/08 Nagoya Electric Lady Land

2008/08/10 Sapporo mole

2008/08/11 Sendai MACANA

2008/08/13 Kanazawa AZ

GRAND FINAL

2008/08/16 Tokyo AKASAKA BLITZ

2008/08/17 Tokyo AKASAKA BLITZ

这里我再补充一下，做这种海外小场地巡演，通常做法是要拉本地赞助，也就是找本地主办进行支持，他们精算之后觉得能回本，才会愿意承担所有开支后给出秀费到艺人，否则的话如果没有演出动员能力，就只能自理场地租金、设备租赁/搬运和人员差旅，做一场亏几万很正常。按他的巡演密度和去的场地大小看，这轮巡演做出来后能把成本打平就不错。

而关于歌舞伎男子时期的录音室音源完成度和舞台人员配置完成度嘛，我就放一张图。

这是幕前所有团队的合影(上舞台的)，别的幕后支持比如贴身经纪人、调音、灯光、服装、造型，甚至录音时候帮忙的编曲、录音、混音等都不在这张合影里。 养这个团队背后是巨额的开支。

而石原现在弄的一吉他一鼓，据关系者描述，他的合计团队（幕前幕后）加一起只有7±3个这个配置，具体成员是：本人，鼓，DJ，调音，灯光，吉他技师，经纪人，根据场地情况加减3。

再补充一个我了解的常识。哪怕是live house级别的海外巡演，一般的日本乐队团队都是10人以上，比他至少多贝斯手、化妆、服装（服装这个岗经常还有2个人），有时候还自带翻译。

亏损嘛，自然是靠本土的仔雅承担（FC年费，周边，演唱会门票等），甚至可能是靠当时日本演出已经越开越大的PSC事务所家其它乐队的盈利承担。 有个小细节，大家可以去蓝鸟上看下，the GazettE的几个人全员都没和MIYAVI互粉哦。此团当时是PSC商业最成功的团。细思极恐哦。

后面，我再加几个时间线。主要是他婚育和官宣婚育的时间。

具体为什么是这个时间，我专栏另一篇关于他是否是奉子成婚的文章有具体考证，这里不表了。

结合他的演出日程，把时间线混进去看，你就可以更加体会日本粉丝和事务所的工作人员都是什么心情了。

石原氏婚育和官宣时间线

*只要石原爱理是足月的不是早产的，melody的受孕期理论上是2008.09-10这个时间段

2009.03.14 雅-miyavi-和Melody领证结婚

2009.04.05 雅-miyavi-于日比谷野外大音乐堂的LIVE演出，宣告加入PS COMPANY十年毕业。

2009.04.8 雅-miyavi-成立自己的公司J-glam inc.。

2009.04.9 雅-miyavi-于MySpace公开成立公司与结婚事实，并宣布孩子将于夏天出生。

2009.07.29 大女儿石原爱理出生

所以关于为什么他一结婚，日本本土粉丝都不是腰斩级别的跑路，而是膝斩级别的跑路，各位看官就自己思考吧。

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【FSG设定整合】Papyrus（咖啡） 关于咖啡的自杀

咖啡

*自闭症口齿不清，只能写字。是高功能自闭症，吐字有困难、发音很困难，乍一看就能感觉到是行为有问题的小孩。他灵魂控制说话的区域有缺陷。

他在一些问题上可能很低能，可能没有办法完成最简单的叠衣服叠被子，但能立刻告诉你一个十位数是不是素数；可以随手画工程级别的精密的设计图地图，但是让他画卡通画就会变成狗爬……

封面上写着“随手涂鸦”的本子里面有火箭制造图，而封面写着“我的认真创作”的本子里全是忍者神龟大战变形金刚之类的儿童涂鸦。

*上学就会被霸凌所以不再上学，就是拼命念书打游戏看漫画，书看一遍就会背。

*他的笔记本只是一本普通的笔记本，没有特定的用途，甚至偶尔用来涂鸦。

 

*喜好是普通的小男孩喜好，超级英雄、汽车、飞机之类的，但是唯独“不喜欢枪”。

 

*红酒的更衣间里有很多给他做的衣服，但是太正经了都是西装啊、衬衫之类的，他不想穿。

 

*一回家就锁门躲起来打游戏，红酒叫他吃饭，他会小声说“谢谢”。

*咖啡吃垃圾食品会被红酒骂，厨房高水台下面屯着红酒没收的垃圾食品，打开发现咖啡躲在里面全吃光了。

 

*咖啡只有红白机，其他从垃圾堆里捡的东西会被烧毁。打游戏时间太长会被红酒拉电闸。

会去垃圾场找游戏卡带。你可以在垃圾场找到卡带以后投进咖啡的信箱，之后像原作一样对暗号能得到咖啡房间的钥匙。可以在房间里玩收集到的卡带。

→音效声音太大会被红酒投诉，但是发现是你在打游戏就放任了。

“哦，是你！多玩一会儿吧，接触游戏会让你的脑子灵活。”

*会赖床会熬夜打游戏。音效太吵的话会被红酒拉电闸。

*烟可能是从Grillby那里搞的。红酒不让抽烟，所以躲进树林里抽。

 

*Chara一出门就能看见他留下的小纸条和他飞快跑远的身影。纸条的内容是自我介绍以及推荐Chara躲藏的地点。担心Chara被红酒骗走直接被提取灵魂。小纸条内容：

“我哥哥虽然是个好哥哥，但是对待你这样的外人会很冷酷，请不要相信我的哥哥。”

 

*小时候见过船夫，会写字条说“大哥哥”。

*在NE/GE杀了船夫，咖啡（字条）：

“我知道你对大哥哥做了什么。”

 

*会在最后审判你。你杀死了所有爱着他的人和他爱的人，所以他在GE线用哥哥给的最讨厌的武器拼了命地要杀死你。审判的时候会留一路纸条，中途会说短句。

*大堂里有很多工业的管道，他会躲在管道后面，你的攻击完全miss。你还要绕着管道障碍物躲避他的攻击……攻击还是穿透攻击。因为GB的嘴里有个加特林，所以一个GB还会出现子弹轮流不同时间打出来的情况。

 

*知道有其他时间线，但也没什么反应，他活在当下，眼前的事情安好就可以了。

  

（关于咖啡过去的其他内容，请看“Gaster与红酒、咖啡”版块，以下都是细节补充）

*是唯一的实验品。 

*幼年的咖啡（小婴儿）因为自闭症会吃非食用的东西，咬自己的红领巾、吃铅笔的末端和橡皮，什么都咬。长大之后也会吮拇指，睡觉的时候也会吮拇指。

*咖啡小时候基本不会说话，在Gaster面前完全不开口，称呼Gaster是在纸上画一个她的脸。只有红酒听过他叫“哥哥”和很简单的话。

*被Gaster和追随者们放在实验室里当便捷计算器，“不对视不交流，但是把方程式给他他会解…”

 

*长大的咖啡会有一点恨红酒，因为红酒是“这样的人”，他在Muffet会告诉你：

“我不想长大，我长大哥哥就会老去。我会变成哥哥那样的人，所以我不想长大，我希望时间永远停留在这一刻。”

 

*和Asgore有一点交集。（具体内容请见“皇室一家的过去”版块）

 

*拟女的发型是“凌乱的长卷发”

 

*在“所有boss都死去了”的NE里，普通怪物把皇室的像推倒了，咖啡长大了但是在流浪。

 

 

 

关于咖啡的自杀

咖啡最初意识到世界在重置的时候在浴室里割腕自杀，但是被红酒发现了，红酒崩溃地哭着把他救回来了。等咖啡醒了之后他很少见地发了很大的火：

“我做一切都是为了你，为什么你不能变成我希望的那个样子呢？变得坚强一个人也能活下去，为什么做不到呢，为什么辜负我的期望啊！你真是一个没用的孩子！”

“我所有的努力都是为了你，但是你却只想逃走，你真是一个懦夫，一个没有用的孩子。

“请不要抛弃我。”

咖啡仅仅自杀过一次，再也没做过这样的事情了。在那之后完全只是“为了实现哥哥的愿望而活着”：“我活着是哥哥生存的动力，因此我不会再寻死了，但是仅此而已。做看起来听话的孩子，做让哥哥幸福的孩子。自己的想���和欲望已经不再重要，那样的东西可能已经不再存在了也说不定。”因为红酒不听自己的话放弃了交流，就算是红酒问他的想法也不会说：“哥哥觉得好就可以了。” 

咖啡说自己只想做自己的样子，但是红酒下意识觉得“你怎么能安心地做一个废品”，���不是“你就是这样的孩子，你并不是废品”。

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[xueyuverse]

离思五首 — The Five Songs of Mourning (complete)

And a little analysis.

In the morning mirror with the residual makeup of self-love, the hairpin is covered with green silk.

In a moment, the rising sun shone on the blush-painted cheeks, a red rose is about to awaken.

The mountain springs flow freely around the steps, and thousands of peach trees and blossoms reflect on the small building.

Reading Taoism leisurely and not getting up yet, watching her comb her hair under the bead curtain.

The red color is pressed by the new season, and the flower threads are soft and the dust is auspicious.

First of all, don't think that the material and soil are weak, a little sloppy is the most pleasant.

All water is forgettable when you’ve seen the vast blue sea, no clouds so wondrous as those at Mt. Wushan.

Idly, I pass by some flowers without looking back, partly to study Tao, partly to think of you.

There are usually hundreds of kinds of flowers in bloom, but the pear blossoms and white flowers are especially picked.

Today there are two or three trees at the head of the river, sadly spending the last spring with their leaves.

自爱残妆晓镜中，环钗漫篸绿丝丛。 [Zì'ài cán zhuāng xiǎo jìng zhōng, huán chāi màn cǎn lǜ sī cóng.] 须臾日射胭脂颊，一朵红苏旋欲融。 [Xūyú rìshè yānzhī jiá, yī duǒ hóng sū xuán yù róng.] 山泉散漫绕阶流，万树桃花映小楼。 [Shānquán sànmàn rào jiē liú, wàn shù táohuā yìng xiǎo lóu.] 闲读道书慵未起，水晶帘下看梳头。 [Xián dú dào shū yōng wèi qǐ, shuǐjīng lián xià kàn shūtóu.] 红罗著压逐时新，吉了花纱嫩麴尘。 [Hóng luōzhe yā zhú shí xīn, jíliǎo huā shā nèn qū chén.] 第一莫嫌材地弱，些些纰缦最宜人。 [Dì yī mò xián cái de ruò, xiē xiē pī màn zuì yírén.] 曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云。 [Céngjīngcānghǎi nàn wéi shuǐ, chúquè wūshān bùshì yún.] 取次花丛懒回顾，半缘修道半缘君。 [Qǔcì huācóng lǎn huígù, bàn yuán xiūdào bàn yuán jūn.] 寻常百种花齐发，偏摘梨花与白人。 [Xúncháng bǎi zhònghuā qí fā, piān zhāi líhuā yǔ báirén.] 今日江头两三树，可怜和叶度残春。 [Jīnrì jiāng tóu liǎng sān shù, kělián hé yè dù cán chūn.]

Yuan Zhen describes the beauty and shy vanity of a woman who woke up in the early hours of the day. His writing is thoughtful, as if it were a moment he had just experienced, on the morning of the day he wrote the poem.

The landscape is described from far to near, and one can imagine that the colors start out dark and gradually become clear and vivid. Yuan Zhen reads a Taoist work, but neither this nor anything around him stops him from watching his wife getting ready for a new day.

As mentioned earlier, here, the fourth part tells of the poet's devoted love for his wife. Nothing will ever be as splendid as his beloved is to him. Yuan Zhen was intoxicated by the rough sea and beautiful clouds of Wushan, whose beauty was unprecedented.

With the last part, we can conclude that throughout the poem there are dark details amidst the beauty, the apathy of someone who doesn't seem to see anything special anywhere. The land is neglected, the trees are withering. It was the end of spring and a widower was mourning.

[nyeigneous]

Garth Igneous 加什·伊格尼斯

Age：45 年龄：四十五岁

Birth: 20/05/1893 生日：一八九三年五月二十日

Height：188cm 身高：一百八十八厘米

Build：Emaciation 体型：消瘦

Sexuality：Homosexuality 性取向：同性恋

Appearance:

He has short blond hair, light blue eyes, and an aggressive pointed nose.

There is a huge scar on the right forehead. A tattoo on the inside of his left forearm but is damaged by a scar. Both forearms were covered with scars made by knife. In addition, there are countless scars on his body, some of which are left by knife, some of which are left by wolves.

金褐色短发，浅蓝色眼睛，有着一个咄咄逼人的尖鼻子。

他的右侧额头有一个巨大的伤疤。

左臂内侧有一个纹身，但是已经被疤痕破坏掉了。他的每条胳膊内侧都布满了刀子划伤后留下的疤痕。除此之外他的身上也布满了数不清的伤疤，有些是自残留下的，还有一些是被狼咬伤留下的。

Personality:

Garth is a neurotic, selfish, arrogant, and cunning man. His good family background and rich knowledge make him have the arrogance to master everything, so once the development of things is not expected, he will lose his temper like a child.

加什是个神经质，自私，傲慢又狡猾的人。

他的良好的出身和丰富的知识储备让他有着一种对一切都尽在掌握的傲慢，所以一旦事情的发展不在他的意料之中，便会像孩子一样发脾气。

His mind is not complicated, but it is this straightforward way of thinking that makes it easier for him to do impulsive and reckless things.

他的心思并不复杂，反而正是这种单刀直入的思维方式让他更容易做出冲动和不计后果的事情。

He often overreacts to others.

他经常对别人的言行反应过激。

Because of bipolar disorder, almost all his shortcomings are magnified, making him a completely uncontrollable madman.

在患上躁郁症之后，他所有的缺点几乎都被放大了，令他变成了一个完全不可控的疯子。

Weapons and skills:

Shotgun, hunting knife, poison bait; Good at tracking, anti-reconnaissance, setting traps, and piss his partner off.

双管霰弹枪，猎刀，毒饵；

擅长追踪，反侦察，设置陷阱，还有惹毛自己的同伴。

重要的人：安德烈·别列科夫

宝贵之物：浪琴狩猎者腕表（安德烈送给他的）

恐惧之物：极光；骑马

Important people: Andre Berekov Precious things: Longines hunter's watch (Andre gave it to him)

Fear: aurora; riding

Other：

吸烟很多；Smoking a lot;

情绪激动时会过度呼吸；Excessive breathing when excited;

酒量很差；Poor drinking capacity;

画画很好；Good at painting;

写日记；Keeping a diary;

喜欢用口哨吹肖邦的降E大调夜曲九号第二首；He likes to whistle Chopin nocturnes op.9. no2;

小时候被父母逼迫学过钢琴，虽然很痛恨钢琴，但是弹得不错；When he was a child, he was forced by my parents to learn the piano. Although he hates the piano, he plays it well

人物历史History:

北方口音Northern accent

加什的父母是是来自伯明翰的地质学家和生物学家，他们是典型的守旧并且固执的知识分子。 受到父母的影响，加什有着丰富的博物学知识，以及英格兰北方口音。 

Garth's parents are geologists and biologists from Birmingham, UK, they are typically old-fashioned and stubborn intellectuals. Influenced by his parents, Garth has rich natural knowledge and a northern English accent.

在1900年左右淘金热时期，伊格尼斯夫妻带着18岁的大儿子赫尔，16岁的女儿利兹和10岁的加什来到阿拉斯加进行调研。与他们同行的还有26岁的詹森·斯坦福斯，作为孩子们的家庭教师。年幼的加什正是需要父母的时候，但是夫妻俩的工作非常繁忙，便将照顾加什和教他读书写字的任务全权交给了詹森。

During the gold rush around 1900, Mr. Igneous and his wife come to Alaska with their 18-year-old son Hull, 16-year-old daughter Liz and 10-year-old Garth for research. Along with them is Jason Stamford, 26, a tutor for the children. The young Garth is in need of his parents, but the couple's work is very busy, they entrust Jason with the task of taking care of Garth and teaching him to read and write.

温柔的人 A mild person

詹森是一个才华横溢的年轻人，本职专业是古生物学，曾经是加什父亲的学生。他性格随和有耐心，但是因为患过小儿麻痹症，他的左腿肌肉萎缩，只能靠手杖行走，同时还有各种并发症，导致他虚弱而瘦小。但是这并没有影响他的温柔和对生活的热爱。这些美好的品德同时也深深地影响了加什。

Jason is a talented young man with a major in paleontology. He was once a student of Garth's father. Because of polio, his left leg muscles atrophy and he can only walk with a walking stick. Various complications lead to his weakness and emaciation. But this does not kill his tenderness and love of life. These beautiful virtues also deeply influenced Garth.

加什小时候体弱多病，不喜欢户外活动，因此除了上课，他也有大量的时间跟詹森相处，两人像手足和父子一样促膝长谈，读书，学习钢琴，亲密关系与日俱增。在加什18岁那年，他大胆向詹森袒露了自己炙热而迷茫的倾慕之情。詹森也很喜欢这个好学而热情的男孩，但是职业道德让他拒绝了男孩。因为詹森也是一名同性恋，他没有指责加什非同常人的性取向，而是鼓励他勇敢做自己，不要违背自己的意愿。

As a sickly child, Garth does not like the outdoors, so he spends a lot of time with Jason in addition to attending classes. The two talk like father and son, read books and learn the piano, and their bond grows.

When Garth turns 18, he boldly confesses his hot, confused admiration to Jason. Jason also likes the studious and enthusiastic boy, but the work ethic makes him turn him down. Jason, who is also gay, does not criticize Garth's unusual sexuality, but encourages him to be himself and not go against his will.

但是这些事都被加什的父母看在眼里，他们辞退了詹森。加什与父母大吵了一架。

But Garth's parents see all this, and they fire Jason. Garth has a big fight with his parents.

詹森回到曼彻斯特的老家之后身体状况堪忧，但是一直跟加什保持着密切的书信来往，给年轻人的困扰和疑惑以中肯而温柔的建议。三年后，加什22岁那年，詹森怀着遗憾离世。

Jason returns home to Manchester in poor health, but keeps up a close correspondence with Garth, offering gentle advice on the young man's troubles and doubts. Jensen died three years later, when Garth is 22.

逃婚 To escape a marriage

1919年，加什25岁，关于自己的职业和专业规划问题，他跟父母进行了一场非常激烈的争吵。他的父母已经详细地为他安排了工作和婚事，要求他迎娶当地投资商的女儿，以获得学术上的经济支持。但是加什冲动地向父母表明了自己的性取向以及对自由的渴望。他的父母非常生气，认为是詹森给自己儿子灌输了不好的想法。一怒之下加什收拾行李离家出走。

In 1919, when Garth is 25 years old, he has a very heated argument with his parents about his professional planning. His parents have arranged work and marriage for him in detail and ask him to marry the daughter of a local investor in order to obtain academic financial support. Garth impulsively tells them his sexual orientation and desire for freedom. His parents are very angry, abuse Jason for instilling bad illusion into his son. In a rage, Garth packs up and leaves home.

在这件事前半年左右，加什的父母认识了来自美国南部的安德森·黑斯廷斯（27岁），这位英俊而富裕的年轻人正在为自己的事业寻找地质学以及生物学领域的专家的协助，他衣着华丽，谈吐得体，很快就得到了加什全家人的认可。两个年轻人就此相识了，并且私交甚密。

Half of year ago, Garth's parents meet Anderson Hastings (27) from the south of the US. This handsome and wealthy young man is looking for the assistance of experts in geology and biology for his career. He is gorgeous in clothes and spokes appropriately and is soon recognized by the Ignoneus family. The two young people meet and become intimate.

加什离家出走之后理所当然的去投奔了安德森，他很快就带着加什踏上了去往苏联出差的游轮。两人开始热恋。

Garth runs away from home and goes to Anderson. Anderson soon takes Garth on a cruise ship to the Soviet Union for a business trip.

安德森对于自己性取向从不隐藏，并且向外人介绍Garth为自己的男友。这些行为令Garth感到安全，他以为这是安德森认真对待自己的表现。但是Garth没想到的是，自己只是安德森炫耀的资本。

Anderson never hides his sexual orientation and introduces Garth as his boyfriend which makes Garth feel safe. But what Garth doesn't expect is that Anderson just takes him as a property could show off.

另外，安德森还是一个非常有控制欲的情场老手，他认为爱情只是交易，他提供奢华的生活条件，而男孩们只要听他的安排就好。他认为Garth寻找精神伴侣的想法非常无聊且没有意义。

In addition, Anderson is a control freak playboy. He believes that love is only a trade. He provides his boyfriends with luxurious living conditions, and the only thing the boys need to do is following his arrangement. He thinks that Garth's idea of finding a spiritual partner is very boring and meaningless.

白月光Bright moonlight

在那个年代，通过学术研究项目来洗钱的现象逐渐在有钱人的圈内流行起来。而安德森带着Garth去见的人，大部分也是这类执绔子弟。游轮上的日子花天酒地且奢靡混乱，Garth对这种气氛感到无助且厌恶，安德烈·别列科夫（23岁）也就是在这段时间内出现在他面前的。

In that time, the phenomenon of money-laundering through academic research projects becoming popular among the rich. Most of the people Anderson takes Garth to see are such dandies. The days on the cruise ship are extravagant and chaotic. Garth feels helpless and disgusted at the atmosphere. Andrei Berekov (23) appears during this time.

安德烈是那群苏联学者团里最安静的一个，大家都在喝酒应酬的时候他会找个安静的角落独自写写画画。相识之后Garth很快发现安德烈像自己一样也是对这场所谓学术旅行抱有错误的期待的人，并且，他在植物学上的知识令Garth震惊（虽然安德烈的口音给两人的沟通带来了不小的困难）。

Andrei is the quietest member of the group of Soviet scholars. While everyone drinks and socialize, he would sit in a quiet corner and write alone. Garth finds out that Andre, like himself, is also the one who has false expectations for this so-called academic trip. Moreover, Garth is shocked by his knowledge of botany (although Andre's accent makes it difficult for them to communicate).

跟安德森完全相反的是，温文尔雅的安德烈总能看到Garth灵魂上的闪光点，他尊重他的每一个灵感和观念，并将其演变成一场场友好而意义非凡的学术讨论。这几乎就是Garth一直在追求的关系状态。

Contrary to Anderson, the gentle Andre can always see the flash in Garth's soul. He respects every inspiration and idea of Garth and can turn every chat into a friendly and meaningful academic discussion. This is the kind of relationship state that Garth has been pursuing.

与此同时，Garth与安德森的关系在逐渐瓦解。安德森自顾自地将Garth引荐给学术圈名人，用钱打通渠道让Garth发布未完成的论文，擅自为他安排好了一切，Garth只要做一个不用思考的精致男孩去谄媚安德森就可以。这所有的一切都违背了Garth的原则。一次次的争吵并没有让他们互相理解，最终两人分手。

At the same time, the relationship between Garth and Anderson is disintegrating. Anderson arranges cocktail party bender to introduce Garth to celebrities in the academic circle. He buys ways for Garth to publish his unfinished paper and plans everything for him without authorization. The only thing Garth needs to do is being a good boy to flatter Anderson. All this violates Garth's principles. They row again and again and break up.

这之后安德烈正式开始追求Garth，将他介绍给自己的家人，并且在白俄罗斯的老家一起生活了一段时间。后来，两人决定前往爱丁堡大学进修植物分类学。

Then Andre and Garth fall in love. He introduces Garth to his family and live together in his hometown in Belarus for some time. Later, the two decide to go to the University of Edinburgh for master's degree in plant taxonomy.

一年半之后，两人研究生毕业，安德烈在毕业典礼上向Garth求婚。两人偷偷交换了戒指之后，踏上了前往北极圈的旅行。

A year and a half later, they graduate. Andre proposes to Garth at the graduation ceremony. After secretly exchanging rings, the two men embark on a trip to the Arctic Circle.

极光中的骑行 Riding under the aurora

婚后三年，两人旅行来到了加拿大育空地区，与另外一伙皮草猎人小队起了争执，被对方发现了恋人关系之后，遭到了恶意的报复。安德烈被殴打致死，割下生殖器之后尸体被悬挂在树上，并在脖子上挂着“我是鸡奸者”的牌子示众。加什则被监禁起来，被迫在极夜的漫天极光中看着恋人的尸体一天天被乌鸦啃食殆尽。几天后他凭借最后一口气逃了出去，骑马朝着南方一路狂奔，最终得救。

In 1923, the two men come to Yukon, Canada, and have a dispute with another group of fur hunters and they are maliciously retaliated. Andre is beaten to death. After being cut off his genitals, his body is hung in a tree and displayed with an "I'm a sodomite" sign around his neck. Garth is imprisoned and forced to watch his lover's body being eaten by crows in the aurora of the polar night. A few days later, with his last breath, he escapes, rides all the way south, and is finally saved.

育空疯狗The mad dog of Yukon

这段噩梦般的经历对他的打击非常之大，残酷的折磨也给他的右侧头皮部分留下了丑陋的巨大伤疤。他患上严重的躁郁症，自残，并且有自杀倾向。他曾经非常温和并且幽默，现在变成了一个臭名昭著的人，并且得到了一个育空疯狗的绰号。

This nightmare experience is a great blow to him, and the cruel torture leaves a huge ugly scar on his right scalp and countless scars on his body. He suffers from serious bipolar disorder, self-mutilation, and suicidal tendencies. He used to be a very gentle and humorous man, but now he has become an infamous one and gets the nickname of Yukon mad dog.

有传闻说，失去理智的加什找到了当年折磨他的狩猎小队并且用极其残忍的手法报复了他们，但是因为精神问题，警察让他只在监狱里待了很短的时间，他便重获自由。但是这也只是传闻而已。没人知道加什到底做了什么。人们只是再也没有在育空地区见到过那些人。

It is rumored that Garth finds the hunting team that hurt him years ago and retaliated against them with extremely cruel methods, but, the police let him stay in prison for only a short time because of his mental problems.

 It's just a rumor. No one knows what Garth does to them. People just never see those people again in the Yukon.

危险游戏 Dangerous game

尽管加什的精神问题非常严重，行为也非常不可控，但是不可争议的是他是这一带地区最杰出的猎狼专家。1932年，他被邀请加入一支狩猎小队，他们计划南下去狩猎大型毛皮猎物。

Although Garth's mental problems are very serious and his behavior is very uncontrollable, it is indisputable that he is the most outstanding wolf hunting expert in this area. In 1932, he is invited to join a hunting team. They plan to go south to hunt large prey for fur.

初冬季节，加什遇到了身为守林员的哈特。哈特毫无怜悯的攻击将小队逼出了林区，同时，这个阴沉而凶悍的护林员吸引了加什的注意。他觉得，能杀死他，抑或被他杀死都是不错的事情。

In early winter, Garth meets Hart, a forest ranger. Hart's merciless attack drives the team out of the forest, while the gloomy and fierce ranger attracts Garth's attention. He thinks it is all good to kill him or be killed by him.

加什很快发现，尽管这个护林员的攻击非常凶猛并且极具威胁性，但是他似乎并不是真正想要他们的命。加什离开了队伍，独自回到木屋附近，开始用主动攻击的方式试探哈特的耐心的底线。哈特几乎是马上回应了他的攻击。然而像加什想的一样，哈特并不打算杀掉他——每一次射击都擦着他的脸颊飞了过去，只有几厘米的距离。

Garth soon finds that although the ranger's attack is fierce and threatening, he doesn't seem to really want to kill them. Garth leaves the team, returns to the cabin alone, and begins to test Hart's patience by taking the initiative to attack. Hart responds to his attack almost immediately.

As Garth thought, Hart does not intend to kill him - each shot wipes his cheek and flies over, only a few centimeters away.

加什几乎一下子就沉迷在了这场危险的游戏当中。哈特的反应让他���分满意——他的反击不会真正的对自己构成威胁，其中的威胁性又能让他兴奋起来。尽管他自己也清楚，这种病态的情绪源于当年他面对死亡时在心里留下对的心理阴影，这让他恐惧，狂躁，想哭又想笑，但是却是唯一能让自己感觉到活着的时刻。

Garth almost immediately indulges in this dangerous game.

Hart's reaction satisfies him - his counterattack would not only really pose a threat to himself, but also could excite Garth. Although Garth himself knows that this morbid emotion originates from the psychological shadow leaves in his heart when he faces death, which makes him afraid, manic, want to cry, want to laugh, it is the only time that he could feel alive.

怪人组合Freak couple

然而这场荒诞而危险的对决并不是以某一方的死亡为结局。在一个初雪天，哈特把加什逼到了绝路，但是他没有扣动扳机，只是问他为什么这么做。加什又哭又笑，说自己想死。哈特转身离开了。

However, this absurd and dangerous duel does not end with the death of one party. On a snowy day, Hart forces Garth to a dead end, but he doesn't pull the trigger, just askes him why he does it. Garth cries and laughs, says he wants to die.

Hart turns and leaves.

加什想不通为什么哈特有那么多次机会杀死他却没有下手。仇恨和恐惧在他的心里已经燃烧了太久，将他内心世界的草原烧得一片焦黑。然而从那天起，他能感觉到，一束光穿过黑烟照了进来，有什么东西在重新慢慢地萌芽。

Garth couldn't figure out why Hart has so many chances to kill him but doesn't do it. Hatred and fear have been burning in his heart for too long, burning the grassland of his inner world to black. However, from that day on, he could feel that a beam of light comes in through the black smoke, and something is slowly sprouting again.

重新建立信任的过程非常漫长。但是他们并没有什么细致的沟通和交流，对那场莫名其妙的枪战也只字不提。两个怪人只是共享一堆篝火，简单地说两句话，然后便自然而然的一起行动了。加什知道自然界也有不少很奇怪的搭档，比方说渡鸦和豺，蜜鸟和蜜獾。有的搭档甚至能终生在一起行动，即使一方死亡，另一方也不会再找新的搭档。也许他俩也是这样的动物吧。

The process of rebuilding trust is very long.

They do not have any detailed communication and exchange and do not mention the inexplicable gun battle. The two freaks just share a bonfire, say a few words, and then naturally act together.

Garth knows that nature also has many strange partners, such as raven and jackal, Greater Honeyguide and honey badger. Some partners can even act together all their lives. Even if one party dies, the other will not find a new one. Maybe they are such animals, too.