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Extra excerpts from the last installment of Without Envy. I suggest you go read the last installment first and click back to this post; it'll make more sense!

English Translation following each paragraph. I always wanted to write something in Chinese, but a) I don't find my written Chinese to be very spectacular and b)I'm not exactly sure if there's enough audience for it on tumblr (and also I'm from Canada so... lol). Anyways I decided to try my hand at it this ones. You can read the snippet by just reading the English section. But it might be a bit weird/awkward at times because I had written this Chinese first and translated it.

踏入芳菲宫，蓝曦臣从未想会看到的是孟瑶卧床不起高烧不退昏迷不醒的一幕。

Stepping into Fangfei Palace, Lan Xichen did not think the sight he would be confronted with would be one of Meng Yao nearly comatose with fever.

之前的种种懊恼与疑虑在那一刹那都无关紧要了。蓝曦臣拥到了孟瑶的床前，望着被烧得红彤彤的脸，一时急得说不出话来，只是缓缓地握住了爱人落在被子外的手。夏季将至，可孟瑶的手却是冰凉的。

The frustrations and confusions he had felt during these preceeding weeks suddenly became inconsequential in that moment. Lan Xichen rushed to Meng Yao's bedside, gazing upon that face flushed red with fever. Seized by worry, he found he could not speak, only slowly reached for his loved one's hand that had escaped from beneath the blanket. The summer was upon them, but Meng Yao's hand was cold as ice.

以往待人宽厚的裂冰裂公公见自己从小服侍长大的皇帝如此失神，也忍不住对一旁打颤的下人质问道，“到底怎么回事？”

Even Eunuch Lie - Lie Bing - seeing the soverign he had known and cared for since they were both boys look so lost, could not help but turn to the quivering servants and demand, "How could this have happened?"

三对膝盖与脑门咕咚一下落了地。恨生不敢抬头，只是带着哭声陈诉说，“主子这几个月一直脾胃不良，没有食欲，也经常夜不能寐，所以身体一直欠佳，可总是说没什么，不用请太医。昨夜，主子说屋里热，睡不着，要去御花园走走。可谁料想忽来一阵雨，主子淋了雨着了寒，今儿一早奴才——”

Three pairs of knees and foreheads hit the floor with a collective thud. Hen Sheng, Meng Yao personal eunuch and head of his household, did not dare raise his head, only responded to the question tearfully, "These months, Master often felt ill to the stomach, didn't have much of an appetite nor slept very well at night, so his health had suffered. But he insisted nothing was wrong, that we need not inform the imperial physicians. Last night, Master said it was too hot indoors to sleep, and wanted to go stroll in the garden. We did not think it would suddenly rain; Master was drenched and caught a chill, this morning I -"

“好了，恨公公，不用说了。” 裂冰打断了以往稳重可也关心则乱失了方寸的恨生。“还是快去请太医吧。” 又看了看还跪在一旁的宫女和侍卫，这在缓过神发现，“怎么就你们几个？”

"Alright, Hen-gongong, there is no need to say more." Lie Bing interrupted the usually poised and collected Hen Sheng, who in his moment of worry had lost his ways. "Go now to fetch the physicians." Casting his gaze upon the maid and imperial guard still kneeling to the side, Lie Bing suddenly realized, "How come it's only you three?"

那宫女是孟瑶身边的老人儿了，比起小侍卫到多有几分的稳重。见小侍卫不敢回话，她便道：“自从。。。宫里传言敛芳君失宠后，主子就让愿意走的人都走了。剩下的��只有我们三个了。”

The handmaid was a seasoned servant serving in Meng Yao's household. Compared to the young guard, she appeared much more assured and calm. Seeing that he was afraid to answer, she spoke instead, "Ever since...the rumours circulated in the Palace that Lianfang-jun has lost His Majesty's favour, Master had allowed whoever wished to leave to do as they pleased. All that remained are us three."

蓝曦臣拿起冰水镇的手帕，轻轻的擦去孟瑶颈间的汗，两眼汪汪的泪水不由的流下天子的脸庞，滴在了丝被上。他心里是无法形容的内疚与自责。

Lan Xichen picked up the towel soaking in the ice water, and gently dabbed away the sweat collecting along Meng Yao's collar. Tears welling in his eyes overspilled, ran freely down his cheeks and dripped onto the silk covers of Meng Yao's blanket. Unbearable guilt and self-blame coiled tightly in his chest.

“朝臣们参奏他，宫人们非议他，说他欺君，说他狐媚，说他应野心勃勃，说他心狠手辣。可他到头来做的一切都是为了我这个糊涂的皇帝。而我却这么冷落他，一定是伤透了他的心，他在会——”

"The ministers criticize him, courtiers slanders him. They say he is deceptive and trecherous, is seductive and licentious, is ambitious and seditious, is ruthless and heartless. But everything he's done from the beginning was for me, a foolish Emperor, and I have treated him with such a cold disposition. It must have broken his heart, that's why he-"

“二哥。。。” 孟瑶昏昏沉沉，半梦半醒的唤着。

"Er-ge..." Meng Yao mumbled incoherently, half awake half asleep.

“阿瑶，二哥在呢。你烧的不轻，太医马上就到。别怕，二哥会一直陪着你的。” 扭脸吩咐裂冰，“去，吧凤王也请来。敛芳君病的如此都没人通报，要是再耽搁了怕他一会儿见了太医们又得发脾气。”

"A-Yao, Er-ge is here. Your fever is severe, the physicians will be here soon. Don't be afraid, Er-ge will stay by your side." At Lei Bing, Lan Xichen instructed, "Go forth and summon feng-wang. Lianfang-jun is so ill yet no one informed us. If you wait any longer, he will surely lose his temper at the physicians."

“是。”

"Yes, my liege."

“陛下。” 蓝曦臣扭头回看，孟瑶真的是醒了。两只圆圆的大眼睛含着忧虑和不解，默默地盯着他。“陛下怎么来了，恕臣无礼——”

"Bixia," Lan Xichen turned, finding Meng Yao truly awake. Two big round eyes filled with hesitation and turmoil stared quietly back at him. "I did not know bixia has arrived, forgive me my lack of -"

“都什么时候了，还顾着这虚的。”

"Now is no time for formalities."

孟瑶无语，只是试着收回被蓝曦臣握住的手，却发现被皇帝握的紧紧的。他浑身无力，根本争夺不掉。独自度日的这三个月，孟瑶想了很多。他想起被自己拿捏的魏无羡，舍命也要护蓝忘机周全，突然感慨：难道自己不也是这般薄命？不一样的是，魏无羡骨子里的侠气使他能放得下，而孟瑶却总有那割舍不掉的不甘心。他留恋射日前与蓝曦臣朝夕相处的日子，却也渴望和聂明玦在一起时的洒脱。大哥知道他的过去，也知道他的狠毒，虽然也怨过他，但是经过了怎么多年的磨合，聂明玦已经不是以前的聂明玦了。比起蓝曦臣，再大哥面前，孟瑶反倒更坦然。这难道不是一种解脱？

Falling silent, Meng Yao merely attempted to pull back the hand Lan Xichen held in his, but found he could not for how tightly the emperor held it. Completely drained of energy, it was impossible to break free. Spending his days alone these past three months, Meng Yao had a lot of time to think. He thought of Wei Wuxian, whom he controlled like a puppet on strings, and how he had so willingly traded his life and freedom to keep Lan Wangji safe. Meng Yao and Wei Wuxian: were they not the same in the end? The same tremulous insignificant life. The only difference being, Wei Wuxian possesed a certain frankness of spirit that allowed him to let go when it was no longer wise to hold on. Yet Meng Yao, at the end, still could not cut loose his own selfish want. He yearned the peaceful days spent with Lan Xichen before the war, but also longed for the easiness when he was with Nie Mingjue. Da-ge knew his past, knew his visciousness, and though he did once fault Meng Yao, after their reconciliation and acceptance of each other's true nature, Da-ge was no longer the unbendable man he'd once been. Compared to Lan Xichen, in front of Nie Mingjue, Meng Yao was actually more honest and true. Was this not an escape? An absolution?

孟瑶累了，真的累了。不想再演了，也不想再躲了。

Meng Yao was tired, truly tired. He no longer wished to act, nor hide.

“陛下，朝臣们传言得都是真的。臣的母亲是一位被金光善宠幸过的娼门女子，而臣也是生在那肮脏的地方。臣自幼丧母，是老鸨将臣养大，逼我十三岁就开门接客，到了十四岁被一商家赎了身，买回去做老爷的面首。老爷为了讨好地方官不到一年就转手将臣送给了知府。直到聂将军整顿镇守南疆的大军，臣才有了一线生机。臣被像玩物一般赠给大哥，大哥却为臣解了贱籍，留臣在军中任职。没有人知道臣的过去，大哥也从未那这事为难过臣。可臣心里清楚，大哥是要做凤王的人，迟早有一天会离臣而去。臣没有想到大哥会带臣入宫，没有想到陛下会——”

"Bixia, all the rumours are true. My mother was a lady of the night whose services were sought by Jin Guangshan. I too was born in that sullied place. My mother died when I was young, so it was the brothel madam who raised me, and who forced me to open my doors to patrons when I was turned thirteen. When I was fourteen, a wealthy merchant family purchased my contract from the brothel to be a boy concubine for the master of the house. Said Master wished to curry favour with the local official, so within a year, I was gifted to the premier of our province. It was not until General Nie came to re-organize and train the southern border troops, that I found a chance at life. The premier gave me up to Da'ge like a plaything, but Da'ge released me from my untouchable status, allowed me to stay and serve in the army. No one there knew my past, and Da'ge never used his knowledge of it to control me. But I knew in my heart that Da'ge was to be feng-jun, husband to the future emperor, and when that day came, he would leave me. I never imagined Da'ge would bring me to the palace, never imagined Bixia would -"

梦瑶还未说完的话被蓝曦臣无止的泪水冲散了。

The words Meng Yao did not finish were washed away by Lan Xichen's tears.

“阿瑶 ——”

"A-Yao..."

“臣知道，臣弄权，臣欺君，现在说什么都晚了。皇亲国戚，满朝文武，就连市井舆论都不会放过臣。是冷宫还是天牢我都不惧。孟瑶无悔因为 —— 陛下，如果臣说从未有想害陛下的念头，陛下相信吗？”

"I know, I amassed power, I lied to my soverign, now it's too late for any excuses. The extended royal family, ministers of the court, even the citizens on the street would never forgive me. No matter where I am destined, be it the Cold Palace or the Imperial Prison, I am not afraid. I have no regrets, because - Bixia, if I said I never had any intention at all to hurt you, would you believe me?"

蓝曦臣痛心，无奈闭上了眼睛，一把将心爱之人搂入怀中。“阿瑶，没有什么冷宫没有什么天牢。朕在位一天你就是朕养尊处优的敛芳君，朕不做皇帝，你也还是我蓝涣的孟瑶。我已经失去大哥一次了，不能再没有你。说好了白头偕老，你可不能反悔了。”

Lan Xichen's heart was broken. Helplessly, he closed his eyes and brought his loved one into his arms. "A-Yao, there is no Cold Palace, no Imperial Prison. As long as I sit on the throne, you will be my beloved and respected Lianfang-jun. If I am not the emperor, you will still be Lan Huan's Meng Yao. I already lost Da'ge once, I can't bear to part with you too. We agreed to grow old together, you cannot break that promise."

孟瑶被抱着紧的几乎喘不过气来，又烧的头昏脑胀，一时想不出该如何回答，只是心里那暖暖的柔情融化了他三个月来一直坚强的意志。他抓出皇帝的龙袍，生怕这种温暖是梦里的虚幻。

In the tightness of the embrace, Meng Yao felt nearly breathless. Plus his fever-addled mind, he did not know how to respond in that second. Only, the tenderness of that embrace and the conviction of those words melted the fortitude that kept him going these three months. He held onto Lan Xichen's robes, terrified that this warmth and love were figments of his dream.

阿瑶病了都不通报？！养你们做甚？！那些叛主的奴才们简直欺人太甚，本王这个月不在宫里这后宫就无法无天了？？

A-Yao is sick?? No one reported it??? What the hell are we paying you alot for??? Those disloyal bastard servants - their utter gall! Did they think because I was not in the palace this past month that there will be no consequences?!!

凤王息怒 —

Feng-wang, please forgive -

太医院也是，都多少日子了也没来请一次平安脉 —

All those imperial physicians too! How many days has it been since they came for a wellness check?!

门外传来聂明玦骂人的声音。蓝曦臣失笑，缓缓地扶孟瑶躺下。“还是躺回去吧，待会儿大哥见我抱着你，又要说我叨饶你休息了。”

From beyond the door came the sound of Nie Mingjue swearing. Lan Xichen chuckled, slowly laying Meng Yao back down. "You best lie down again. If Da'ge sees me holding you later, he'll scold me for disturbing your rest."

孟瑶红了脸，乖乖的让蓝曦臣给他盖上被子。

Meng Yao blushed, but obediently allowed Lan Xichen to tuck him in.

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逃離與逃避

H：看公視「拉格朗日什麼辦法」，其中一幕「公車司機自稱建中畢業，旁邊逃課兩位學生笑了」，學生是逃離，公車司機是面對現實。學生逃離高中教室，公路之旅展開。另保羅的日本食記，即美食之旅，食記好名詞。逃離是甩開暫時的思考，以玩樂美食獲取短暫的解脱。逃避是不面對，駝鳥心態。人生可以短暫逃離，但不能逃避，要有面對困難挑戰的勇氣。《逃離吧！腳就是用來跑的》戰敗要有逃離的智慧，重整再來。拼命死戰，甚至全軍覆没是悲劇。逃避没有好將來。加油！20240920W5

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拉格朗日方程式

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拉格朗日方程式（Lagrange equation），因數學物理學家約瑟夫·拉格朗日而命名，是分析力學的重要方程式，可以用來描述物體的運動，特別適用於理論物理的研究。拉格朗日方程式的功能相當於牛頓力學中的牛頓第二定律。

約瑟夫·拉格朗日

定義

假設一個物理系統符合完整系統的要求，即所有廣義座標都互相獨立，則拉格朗日方程式成立：

ddt∂L∂q˙−∂L∂q=0；

其中，L(q, q˙, t)是拉格朗日量，q=(q1,q2,…,qN)是廣義座標，是時間t的函數，q˙=(q˙1,q˙2,…,q˙N)是廣義速度。

拉格朗日什麼辦法

【劇情大綱】

兩位十七歲男孩綱大(潘綱大飾)與阿爆(吳翰林飾)，在一日早晨，意外的發動了一台機車，逮住這個千載難逢的機會，想用一天的自由，逃離鬱悶的高中教室、逃離黏膩的台北城，一段公路之旅就此開展。

《保羅的日本食記》不是一般的美食節目，由保羅好萊塢帶領觀眾看見英國最受歡迎的烘焙師的頓悟，以及日本如何迅速成為世界上最重要的美食家必訪國家之一。在節目中，保羅前往日本品嚐當地美食，並學會了一些日本最著名的菜餚。

食記

食物記錄：

食譜：如何準備和烹飪某種食物的步驟和配方。

餐廳評論：

飲食日記：記錄每天所攝入的食物和飲料，以便監控飲食習慣和營養攝入。

飲食記憶：可以指與食物相關的記憶。

歲時歌

「正月正，牽新娘，出大廳；二月二，土地公，扮老戲；三月三，桃仔李仔，雙頭擔。四月四，桃仔來，李仔去；五月五，龍船皷;，滿街路；六月六，做田人，打碌碡。七月七，芋仔蕃薯，全全必；八月八，牽豆藤，挽豆莢；九月九，風箏鳴鳴哮。十月十，三界公，來鑒納；十一月，磑圓仔粹；十二月，賣飯春花。」

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逃離

作者：[加]艾麗絲·門羅（Alice Munro）

原文作者：Alice Munro

譯者：李文俊

語言：簡體中文

出版社：北京十月文藝出版社

出版日期：2009/07/01

內容簡介

★她們的生活細節，世上女人天天都在經歷

細節背後的情緒，無數女人一生都不曾留意

榮獲2009年布克國際獎、

《紐約時報》年度最佳圖書

法國《讀書》雜志年度最佳外國小說

加拿大文學大獎吉勒獎

2013年諾貝爾文學獎

《隱之書》作者拜雅特傾情推薦

著名翻譯家李文俊精心翻譯

表面上沉靜得有如手中的一杯茶，內里卻暗涌著漫卷無邊的激情和呼嘯而來的風暴。——《泰晤士報》

逃離，或許是舊的結束。或許是新的開始。或許只是一些微不足道的瞬間，就像看戲路上放松的腳步，就像午後窗邊悵然的向往。

卡拉，十八歲從父母家出走，如今又打算逃脫丈夫和婚姻；朱麗葉，放棄學術生涯，毅然投奔在火車上偶遇的鄉間男子；佩內洛普，從小與母親相依為命，某一天忽然消失得再無蹤影；格雷斯，已然談婚論嫁，卻在一念之間與未婚夫的哥哥出逃了一個下午┅┅

一次次逃離的閃念，就是這樣無法預知，無從招架，或許你早已被它們悄然逆轉，或��你早已將它們輕輕遺忘。

艾麗絲·門羅（Alice Munro，台譯：孟若，1931- ），加拿大著名女作家。以短篇小說聞名全球，入選美國《時代周刊》「世界100名最有影響力的人物」。1931年出生於安大略省。長期居住於荒僻寧靜之地，逐漸形成以城郊小鎮平凡女子的平凡生活為主題的寫作風格。故事背景大多為鄉間小鎮及其鄰里，故事人物和現實中人並無二致，亦經歷出生與死亡、結婚與離異。但泥土芳香的文字背後，卻是對成長疼痛與生老病死等嚴肅話題濃墨重彩的描寫。細膩優雅、不施鉛華的文字和簡潔精致、寬廣厚重的情節，常常給人「於無聲處聽驚雷」的莫大震撼。

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逃離

run away B2 phrase

to leave a place or person secretly and suddenly:

He ran away from home when he was only twelve.他年僅12歲時就離家出走了。

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B1 [ I or T ]

to get free from something, or to avoid something

逃走，逃脫，逃離;逃避，避開

Two prisoners have escaped.兩個犯人逃走了。

逃離

逃避離開。如：「當火山爆發時，附近的居民紛紛逃離家園。」

《逃離吧！腳就是用來跑的》｜親子天下出版

吉竹伸介的繪本，最奇妙的就是，你會一秒掉入吉竹式的思考邏輯，一種混雜著搞笑、奇思、怪想、強辯、惡搞、突破框架、無所謂、放輕鬆，偶然又感覺言之有物的邏輯。

伊東寬的《沒關係沒關係》。書中那位小孫子在爺爺的陪伴引導之下，能跨越成長中陸續湧現的困擾難題。爺爺的陪伴加上那句神奇的安慰話語「沒關係，沒關係」，成為小孫子的力量。

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逃避

逃避又稱逃避現實、逃避主義、是一種心理防衛機制，是指人們為了不想被日常生活中不愉快的事情所困擾，而想盡辦法不要去接觸這些事情。例如有些人為了暫時逃避現實而去參加一些娛樂活動。 [1][2][3] 暫時逃避現實有助於人們遠離抑鬱，也有助於人們走出悲傷。

巴伐利亞國王路德維希二世以逃避現實而聞名

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escape from reality

英文的「逃避現實」片語裡面，沒有鴕鳥卻是鴨子！？「duck」在英文名詞是指＂鴨子＂的意思，則「duck out」的「duck」為口語表達中作動詞用。

逃避現實

逃避現實的英文翻譯

基本釋義

retreatism

escapism

freak-out

escape from reality

leaving the field

flight from reality

shutting out reality

retreat from reality

逃避現實傾向以沉湎於空想、狂想或消遣的辦法來逃避日常現實

The tendency to escape from daily reality or routine by indulging in daydreaming, fantasy, or entertainment.

「逃避現實、鴕鳥心態」英文怎麼說？

hide one's head in the sand

hide 把...藏起來、隱藏 head 頭 sand 沙子、沙灘

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