#・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・jo yeji ─ intro

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jo yeji (조예지) | 97’ | lesbian | cis woman | she/her | unemployed

ha sooyoung (yves), lesbian, cis woman, she/her. ♡ now entering the apartment building is jo yeji, a twenty-seven year old who is currently unemployed. netizens have said they seem dejected but others have said they’re insightful ! gossip aside, we’re sure they’re bound to be a fan favorite ! 

she was born and raised in korea. fluent in korean. she speaks minimal english, limited to basic conversational skills. she taught herself through music and tv shows. she enjoys learning new words but she often feels too insecure to use them in conversation.

tw's ; severe depression, harassment.

background

yeji has always had a complicated relationship with herself. on the surface no-one would really understand why, she has a good relationship with her family - her parents love her, support her, and she has a great relationship with them and her grandparents also. it leaves her feeling intensely guilty, as though she doesn't deserve to feel the way she does. growing up, she was always a quiet, distant child, observing more than participating. she made a few friends here and there, but she struggled to get attached to them due to her constant dissociation. this emotional distance carried into her teenage years. in high school, her disinterest in boys became clear to her classmate, and drew the wrong kind of attention. a group of male classmates took notice of her aloofness, and began harassing her. she never put up much of a fight, so she was an easy target. this lead to the most traumatic experiences of her life. still, despite it all, her self-perception only worsened. she still to this day doesn’t feel like she has a “valid” reason to be as sad as she is. for reasons unknown to yeji, water has always been her escape. she loves the serenity of water but fears it at the same time. she can’t swim, but it’s magnetic. sometimes, when her thoughts become too overwhelming, she’ll submerge herself completely in a body of water and hold her breath for as long as possible. it’s her way of pushing her limits, scaring herself without crossing the line into real danger. yeji’s adult life has been defined by uncertainty. the depression that has plagued her for so long has made holding down a job difficult. she moves from one job to another, unable to stay rooted in any career or passion for too long. she feels like she has no real skills, so doesn’t really know which way to go. it’s the same with connection, really - no matter where she goes or what she does, nothing seems to stick. her decision to join seoulmates is a bit of a leap of faith. it’s her way of stepping outside of her comfort zone. she’s tired of feeling like a passive observer in her own life and hopes that the experience will push her to break through the barriers she’s built around herself. she sees it as a chance to find connection in a way she hasn’t before, whether it’s friendship, romance, or simply a sense of belonging.

personality:

quiet but friendly, yeji doesn’t often initiate conversations but is always open to them. until she’s comfortable with someone, she speaks softly and doesn’t fully come out of her shell. she rarely laughs openly until she feels at ease around people. yeji struggles with self-worth, often feeling she doesn't have a valid reason to be mentally ill. ( she’s hypocritical in the sense that if anyone else were struggling with the same issues, she would be sympathetic and understand their plight – however she can’t be so gentle with herself. ) she carries a lot of self-hatred because she believes the only barrier between her and the happiness she should have, is herself.

relationships:

yeji has never been in a relationship due to her mental health and fear of vulnerability. she flirts boldly but often becomes overwhelmed and retreats before anything can develop. ( especially when the flirting is reciprocated, she often freaks out and escapes with her cheeks blushing bright red. ) she often needs a few drinks to talk to girls confidently. the moment things start to feel real, she gets overwhelmed by the anxiety of letting someone in. she plays confident, but the truth is, she’s terrified of vulnerability. she identifies as a switch but has no real experience romantically or sexually. she’s curious but also anxious about exploring this side of herself.

wanted connections:

platonic:

tba

romantic:

sunshine of my lifetime ; smiley sunshine girl who doesn’t expect yeji to change overnight and is willing to work with her through the hard times. this kind of attitude is probably what makes yeji fall in love w them.  ( may i suggest.... fc.... chuu.... just a thought. )

patient flirtationship ; someone who engages with her flirtations but recognizes her insecurities, patiently waiting for her to feel comfortable enough to take things further.

anxiety inducing crush ; yeji develops a quiet crush on someone but is unsure how to handle it, leading to awkward moments where she’s caught between wanting to act confident and retreating in embarrassment.