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[chuele]

Saezuru: Why You Need to Read it Twice (3) The impact of Yashiro's words on Doumeki

Every word Yashiro had said, Doumeki remembered completely. And four years later, Doumeki used those exact words of Yashiro to respond in their conversation.

(1) Gentle in bed

4 years ago: 4 years later:

(2) Pull harder

4 years ago: 4 years later:

(3) There's nothing more to it.

4 years ago: 4 years later:

The things Yashiro had once 'requested', the things Doumeki couldn't do at that time, Doumeki is now returning one by one. The pain of being left behind, accumulated over four years, has shaped Doumeki's current behavior.,.

(to be continued)

[danmeibrainrot]

‼️SAEZURU CHAPTER 58 SPOILERS‼️

Misumi comes to know that Doumeki is working under Tsunakawa

Misumi is not happy that Yashiro has been hiding the fact that he met/reunited with Doumeki

Misumi calls Yashiro his mistress

Yashiro's Casino appears to have been raided by other thugs and Nana warns him against going there

Kuga appears! He is working as a mechanic now

Doumeki has "come back" Many times after the incidents of chapter 57 true to his word (with sexy panels of their 'meetings')

The chapter ends with rain and Yashiro thinking back to when he had asked Doumeki what it feels like to fall in love 🥺😭😢

[lachatalovematcha]

⭐ ׁ ˳♪ ♡ᱹ ʾʿ ♡ᱹ ʾʿ ♫⭐️たなばたさま♪ ⭐️♡ᱹ ʾʿ ♡ᱹ ʾʿ ♫ ׁ ˳⭐️

[mixos11]

I looove this one (pls ignore the birds i don't know how to draw them)

[kyonshi-8610]

こっち見んな笑

translation in alt text

[ryan566t6]

Color on.

[cielelyse]

Favourite 5 Saezuru Scenes

I recently reread Saezuru for the umpteenth time and just needed to gush about it like a crazed person who constantly hallucinates about Yashiro being happy and soOooOOooo.................

1. Why now? (Chapter 25)

These 3 panels kill me always... although it's the entire chapter 25 actually, and not just these panels. This broke me when I first read it nearly a decade ago, and it breaks me every time I reread it. I recently just listened to the drama CD for the first time and wanted to hear how this scene played out (a.k.a. wanted to hear Yashiro moan wkegh;ghwle) and I did not expect to start bawling and sobbing uncontrollably when his flashback appeared. WITH THE MUSIC AND EVERYTHING. THEY DID NOT SPARE ME. FUCK. What was supposed to be a tender and gentle and loving and intimate scene between them turned into Yashiro facing the effects of his childhood trauma -- that will never cease to hurt me. Doumeki saying "kashira, kashira, kirei" right before that broke me in a way reading that scene in English couldn't. I WILL NEVER GET OVER THIS and if I keep writing about it I'm gonna cry again so:

2. Car ride back from Kageyama's clinic (Chapter 4)

This is mostly for nostalgic reasons, really. I first read Saezuru in 2013, and I wasn't used to Yashiro at first. I didn't know what to make of him.

So what happened was that I read "Don't Stay Gold" first and was like... there's a manga about this mildly threatening and unreadable yakuza dude who's Kage's friend…? Who played cupid for him in a weird way? HMMMMM dubious, dubious. Would I even like him? It took me a while, but I finally gave Saezuru a shot anyway, and I remember feeling uncertain about Yashiro up until those panels. I remember it so starkly, because this was the instant I fell in love with him. I think it was because this was the first time I understood the depth of his loneliness (since I hadn't read his high school oneshot yet at this point).

There's just something about how Yoneda Kou-sensei draws these kinds of pages that just resonates with me so well. I CAN'T EVEN DESCRIBE IT. It just connects with me the way Yashiro connects with me, and that was pretty much it for me. Obsession sealed. Life signed away. For the next 10 years I would follow the story closely and routinely check every few months for updates. Yashiro became one of my only 3 comfort characters, and rereading Saezuru always gives me a catharsis and sense of peace that I didn't know how to find elsewhere.

3. "To go on living this strained existence... no longer holds any meaning to me." (Chapter 34)

This scene is one that I come back to every time I'm down. AM I A MASOCHIST? I really like the June translation too: "To go on living this strained existence no longer holds any meaning to me." I think the way the panels divided up those thoughts were brilliant!

This especially hurt me because for the entire manga up to this point, Yashiro has stated that he completely accepts himself and he's happy with who he is. It wasn't until his realization during the sex scene with Doumeki and how much he's said/done hurtful things to Doumeki afterwards -- who he considers pure and sweet and good -- that he thinks this.

4. "Falling in love feels like this" (Chapter 33)

The first time I read this, I had to set my PC down, go out to my apartment balcony, and just silently stare out into the night and resist the urge to smoke (that was half a joke) (I did feel a pang in my chest though) (and I did have to fight very hard not to smoke lwkehg;hge). I love the dialogue right after these panels too, when Yashiro said, "Your sister was lucky that you were there." That, along with Doumeki's reaction, hurt.

This was such an intimate scene between them. Yashiro was so vulnerable. So was Doumeki. I hadn't realized this until I reread Saezuru this year, but these two have always had such intimate scenes right from the start. It was a slow burn, yes, but they had always been instantly drawn to each other: Doumeki thinking Yashiro was beautiful and captivating, and Yashiro doing something he doesn't normally do with his subordinates the first time he met Doumeki. And it didn't clue in for me back in 2013, but their conversations with each other were much more intimate than the conversations they'd have with anyone else, right from chapter 1. I find that so precious.

5. Dream (Chapter 40)

I couldn't not include a scene from post-timeskip, BECAUSE I LOVE POST-TIMESKIP. I love Darkmeki and I love Yashiro and I love that the theme of post-timeskip centers around "change". Wish I could include that conversation Yashiro had with Tsunakawa about it, because I thought that drive-home was brilliant. I really appreciate that Yoneda Kou didn't have Yashiro and Doumeki get together right away after they have sex, and I really appreciate that the question was raised of: Do people change? Can people change on their own, or would you have to force them? Or are we always the same at our core? And I think the answer is of course a mixture of all of it, and that it's very much circumstantial and subjective, but I love how we're able to see the shifts in both Yashiro and Doumeki. How both men aren't quite the same people we knew pre-timeskip. Ten years ago I didn't think I would meet a version of Yashiro that wouldn't talk about sex 24/7, but here we are.

(Not to say that they're completely different now. They're still our Yashiro and Doumeki of course; I just wanted to gush about how well Yoneda Kou were able to flesh out her characters in such a complex, multidimensional way.)

ANYWAYS, I went on a rant without even mentioning these panels of Yashiro's dream. I love everything about it: Doumeki's face not showing, Yashiro running away and turning back to see Doumeki not there anymore, and that last panel of him standing in the middle of nowhere, lost and empty and lonely -- all of that was so incredibly told in pages of no words. UGH YONEDA KOU IS A GENIUS. It reminds me of that page of Yashiro looking at a mother and child in the rain; it's one of my favourite scenes too.

Honourary Mention (Chapter 4):

I should end with a more light-hearted one. THIS WAS CUTEEEE. I remember reading this for the first time and thinking Yashiro was just salty that his roleplay got ruined. But upon second reread (and maybe I'm delusional here), I thought he might've been happy to hear Doumeki say that.

We know Yashiro gets angry and irritated whenever he's happy to hear something sweet from Doumeki (like that extra when they ate together LOL), and that he had the same reaction of kicking the chair when Doumeki said he can't touch Yashiro's hair anymore. Which was cute to say. So I thought Yashiro might've lashed out in annoyance because he was glad that Doumeki doesn't mind. (I tried putting myself in Yashiro's shoes so many times trying to imagine how I would feel if Doumeki had said this............. and somehow came up with "happy" xD)

...........or maybe this was obvious to everyone and I've just been clueless. AAAAAAAA THIS IS WHY I LOVE ABOUT SAEZURU SO MUCH. It never spoon-feeds you information and lets its readers interpret :")

[noniedarkmeki]

It's confirmed that we'll have chapter 59 on November 29🩶🩶!!

[traineraino]

I saw this scene from Princess Mononoke circulating around on Twitter and it reminded me of Yashiro and Doumeki so I had to draw it heheh ♡

[lovelybutachan]

Second post about Saezuru 😂

On the occasion of the release of volumn 9, the collaboration cafe "Day/Night" has been held in Tokyo and Osaka. Last week my friends travelled to Tokyo and they helped me to visit this place.

This time, theme is mafia and pyjama (like the story in the extra paper included with volumn 9)

Impressive moments of volumn 9 are printed and hung all over the wall

When you order drink or food, you can get random paper coaster as bonus. 1 coaster per drink/food

About goods, we have acrylic coaster, illustration card, can badge, acrylic standee, acrylic key holder and metallic clearfile.

Each 2500yen you spend on books and goods (book is a must), you get 1 of 4 postcards as another bonus (you can choose the one you like). I got all because I have some kind of OCD. Once I buy, I buy all or nothing 😂😂

I also went to another collab cafe when volumn 8 was released but i was too lazy to post here 🤣 i will try to post it in the future.

[imiteeshon]

[benvey0]

[danmeibrainrot]

Doumeki is finally touching Yashiro's hair 😭🎉❤

[moji2]

「食欲の夏」

���腹がはち切れました。

[mixos11]

Made a chibi version!

Also i changed my username. It's Mixos now, and you guys can find me on instagram - @miixos11

[papatomom]

2024.10.13（日）

連合区「まちづくり協議会」主催の防災研修会に参加した（役員的に半強制的な研修です）。

福井市防災センターで職員からの説明や映像研修に震度7の地震と風速20ｍの台風等を体験してきた。時間的には45分程度で終わるので、残りはなぜか恐竜博物館や県立歴史博物館の見学ツアーでした。