#「 a very important message 」┅ 【 // ᴏᴏᴄ 】

[chvnchan]

is this an intro post by i, monique? i never actually know what to write down, and it’s taken me forever for me to finish the bottom of this so let’s both pretend i’ve written something very interesting and insightful and call it a day??? thank you, hit that pretty the cute little heart if you’d like to plot and i’ll come hit you up!

╰ ° ☆「 PARK JIMIN, CISMALE, HE/HIM 」— was that CHAN i just saw walking down the street? you know, the MAIN VOCAL of EVR10? i heard the TWENTY-TWO year old WAS ALMOST KICKED OUT BECAUSE OF A SCANDAL but i doubt it’s true. they’re way too CHARISMATIC and PLAYFUL for that. i guess only KIM CHANYEOL knows the truth though. ⋮ monique, 23, she/her.

backstory

01 - - - it’s the title of your life; not good enough. it’s a title that split your nails and bruised your fingertips as you attempt to get rid of it —— change it into something, something more hopeful. it’s their eyes that weigh you down from a young age, those skeptical eyes paired with their disappointed sighs that dance around your head and no matter how much you try to shake them away, tear them away, not good enough turns into you’ll never be good enough. The lavish lifestyle you lead is a bandaid over a wound torn way too wide, but you make do believing that maybe, it’ll scar over one day.

and so they pamper you with things to keep you quiet, two people who brought you into this world but are nothing more than strangers who reside, sometimes, at the same residence. Your mother is the maid who helps you get ready for school, your father is the chef who always prepares you snacks late into the night because —— he feels bad for you. That handsome man in the pressed suit who shares your name? a stranger who pretends to be more in front of his high class “ f r i e n d s. ” that beautiful woman whom you look so similar to? a stranger who wears you like an accessory when it benefits her.

a family only when it is convenient. it’s a concept you get use to —— it’s either adapt or suffer ( you suffer, you’re a needy child who seeks attention and is denied affection ). but you understand the concept. you find comfort in music and dance; two things you’re good at ( your parents aren’t impressed, they’d prefer it if you spent your time studying and not on “ useless hobbies ” ). but it’s something you won’t give up —— can’t give up, so you pursue it and in doing so you’re introduced to potential happiness.

02 - - - the butterflies in your stomach are present and it almost gets the better of you. but you stay for your audition, your voice shakes but you recover, and somehow you make it to the end. it doesn’t surprise you when your parents are not accepting of your choice to become a trainee, but for once you couldn't care less what they think. you move into the dorms and begin your new life.

there is an image you want to craft for yourself. someone cool and dependable, unlike your real self. not soft and needy and lonely, but confident, strong and talented. you lose kim chanyeol and find chan, a person you want to be, but someone you are not. but you’re not entirely sure you like your real self, so you continue to hide behind a tougher exterior,

you experience heartbreak for the first time, she rips the beating thing out of your chest and stomps on it ( you’re being dramatic, you understand why, but it doesn’t change the fact that it hurt you ). you’re ready to give up your career for her, but she’s not as stupid as you are and so she gives you up. you should be thankful, she saved your career, but all you feel is bitterness.

EVR10 becomes your main focus, your only focus. there’s a void in in you again and so you try to fill it with the group, with practice, with long nights dancing and throwing water bottles because damn, once again you’re thinking you’re not good enough. you helped pave the way, but part of you fears ever10 will become a distant memory in the wake of CATHEXIS.

personality

there is something almost sinful about chanyeol on stage. his actions are purposeful, his gaze lingers on the faces of his fans and his bottom lip is prisoner between his teeth. the way he moves his body is alluring, and his stage presence is deadly. he feeds off the energy of the crowd, lives for it, he loves being on stage —— performing —— and it shows. to put it simply, he is a huge flirt on stage, in fan meets, during vlives. —— he is raising his eyebrows, smirking, running his fingers through his hair, biting his lips and licking them.

there are certain elements of chan that he tries to incorporate off the stage. he wants to be that confident and bold, but he often comes off more as playful off stage. he’s approachable and warm; a soft heart that he tries to hide behind something cool and impressive. he’s rather insecure, his group members catch him training late into the night and might assume he’s just a hard worker, but most of the time he’s still practicing because he’s frustrated with himself, thinks he’s lacking, letting every down.

he is a ball of sass; he likes poking fun of others, but he tends to mean well the majority of the time. he’s that person looking for his partner-in-crime, he’s that person breaking certain rules because he wants to have a good time. he’s that person laughing so hard and so loud, hoping he’ll drown out the screeching of his own insecurities and self-doubt. he’s thoughtful and protective, but he can also hold grudges and be extremely bitter and salty toward people he’s not on good terms with.

in a nutshell

- rich boy with parents who were workaholics with high expectations, didn't really do a good job with the whole parenting thing and he's pretty bitter because he'd have preferred their time to presents. also bitter that they made him feel like he could never be good enough for them.

- became an idol without their approval. he got his bitterness from them and so at first, they cut off contact with him. after evr10 reached success, of course they changed their tune. too little, too late he's still incredibly bitter toward them.

- as a trainee he was constantly in trouble for hooking up with other trainees and people in general outside of the industry. but, like, he's always been like this so it was hard for him to change. and then after he debuted he met haena and fell in love way too quickly, but she gave him attention and he was hooked?

- aur found out about their relationship and gave them an ultimatum: break up or get the boot. he was 100% ready to leave, but haena broke up with him because she's smart and knows love doesn't equal money or stability and they're young af. chanyeol is just bitter now, but, like, she saved his career so he should be thankful. all of these flavors and he chooses to be salty, can relate.

- biggest flirt? he's here. also super dumb so watch out, he might catch feelings for anyone who gives him the time of day. and yet at the same time after haena, he's reluctant to even entertain the thought of being in a relationship.

- soft af, for real. he tries to hide it, but sometimes he just can't??? fans say he's got hella duality, but he'd prefer if they just see his sexy side and stop gushing over those videos of him completely losing it and being the softest bun.

- holds grudges forever. but, like, usually not over petty things.

- pretty shameless, ngl. claims he's not, but this boy is a liar.

- feelings get hurt very easily and he gets very mean when someone hurts him.

- works very hard, but he's super insecure so he's always trying to go the extra mile.

- lowkey worried about cathexis gaining more popularity. glad they're doing well, but he doesn't want evr10 to be forgotten. 

plots

01. his best friend? please? partner in crime, always going out for drinks and doing dumb things and narrowly keeping from getting caught by aur staff?

02. on the opposite, an enemy? these two can't stand each other? throwing shade at each other and lowkey in interviews too, but no one knows who each other are referring to except them? but then acting chummy when being recorded together because aur ain't having any of their shit?

03. something romantic? chan doesn't do romance but change his mind, break his heart again because i love angst. something unrequited on either side? one of them finds out and it's super awkward now? more than friends, but less than lovers? fans ship these two together and it's hilarious but maybe they're onto something these two are oblivious to or ignoring?

04. sibling-like bond? chan can be an absolute mess so someone who can keep him in line would be great?

05. anythiiiiiiiiiing. 

[viiduae]

Love your Natasha! Great job taking all of her timelines and making them work together. Her voice is so real in your writing. Good job.

ᴏᴏᴄ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛꜱ

Hi there, Nonny! I don’t know who you are and I’ve been keeping this ask for a few days because it’s meant a lot to me. Nat is such a combination of so many things to me and canon can’t keep her story straight, so culminating her into something that makes a little sense is very important to me. 

I’m still doubting myself every day at the moment, I don’t know if I’m even really relevant in the RP community anymore, but messages like this really help. It’s been a really rough couple of months in my life, and just a simple message like this can brighten someone’s day. 

So thank you, so very much.

[chvnchan]

okay, so, suddenly i don't know how to write open starters? like this if you want a closed starter directed at your muse!!!

[chvnchan]

tag dump!