#《 Raye is miserable here but he is still trying 》

[first-frost-fallen-snow]

Raye didn't show how much it hurt when Colossus was planted firmly between him and his husband, no matter how difficult it was. He followed Ed's lead on the pacing, not wanting to hurt him somehow. He forced himself to look away from Ed, taking in the scenery of the world around them. It didn't make him feel small. It didn't make his heart sink or yearn to hold his husband's hand. He swore it didn't, because if it did, he wouldn't be able to stop himself from looking miserable.

"It's just a couple blocks down." He said, as if none of it mattered. He gestured down the street towards the park, starting to lead the way. He didn't try to initiate conversation - this was an escape from him, after all. Ed likely didn't want to think about the fact that Raye was right there.

Was there truly no way to fix this? Was he doomed to mess up on every turn? Ed would never feel comfortable around him. He needed a drink. If only he could find a hotel to stay in so he could be drunk and miserable without forcing Ed to see it. His job unfortunately wouldn't allow that.

Maybe he could get them both something sweet. A treat to ease tension. Now that was a good idea, he was getting somewhere. All he had to do now was find something that wouldn't instantly kill Ed.

"We're married"

《 from Raye Penber @first-frost-fallen-snow because that would be the funniest route to me also sorry for like disappearing I was focusing on moving out and now my fatigue is killing me 》

Ed awoke for once not slumped over his keyboard, yet also not in the empty apartment he'd moved into when he first moved to Japan. Though he supposed technically, the apartment he was in belonged to him, as did the bed he lay in, though both truly belonged to the man laying next to him. He squinted at the clock on his nightstand, at red LED numbers so blurry, only years of practice allowed him to decipher the time without having to put his glasses on. He still had time before he had to get up, a couple of hours before he had to get to work.

A flash of gold on the nightstand drew his eyes from the clock to the ring next to his glasses. It was the only piece of jewelry he owned, and far more expensive than anything he would ever purchase for himself. There was a similar ring on the other nightstand on the opposite side of the bed that belonged to the other occupant--Raye Penber.

Ed... still didn't know what to make of his new situation, let alone the man he was now legally bound to. He didn't hate him, certainly, though whether he trusted him was yet to be decided. Their marriage hadn't been Ed's idea, nor had it been Raye's. A necessity to facilitate the Kira investigation, it had been called, and Ed had only begrudgingly agreed to it for fear of opposition somehow being used against him as evidence and landing him in prison.

Thought of their marriage left an uneasy feeling in his stomach. He'd sworn when he got his job at Encom, and finally escaped his father's control that he would never put himself in any sort relationship where there was a power imbalance and they were not equals. He wouldn't put himself in a situation where he could be abused again. And yet here he was, a foreigner, far from anyone he could call a friendly face, barely understanding the language and culture, and though their partnership was supposed to be one of equals, it didn't feel that way.

Not that he had anyone on the other side of the Pacific he could call for help if he was able, anyway. His therapist, maybe. Though he didn't trust that the call wouldn't be monitored. Or an old rival, if he was desperate.

He felt trapped. He was relying on a man he barely knew to keep him from being falsely accused of mass murder. He was at risk, not just from his partner, but from the people in charge of the investigation as well, People he felt like were treating the investigation as nothing more than a game, where both his and his partner's lives were nothing more than disposable pawns.

How strange it was, that such a tiny band of metal could hold so much meaning. To others, it would have been a symbol of joy as bright as it's polished surface, but to Ed it had just replaced the physical handcuffs that had bound him to his legal partner to with a symbolic one.

[guardianofrainandink]

ask meme: 4, 29, 31, 40, 56

4. what are you looking forward to? 

Spending the rest of my life with my best friend. I never thought he and I would have the opportunity to be with one another but I am very happy that things seem to have worked out in the end.

Getting to meet you and Maria and Raye some day

Writing my first Book 

And then writing more books! ALL OF tHE BOOKS

29.  favourite film(s)

SO MANY THIS IS HARD

I WILL ATTEMPT A TOP 10 AND FAIL MISERABLY 

1. Aliens

2. The Lion King

3. The Dark Knight Trilogy

4. Under The Red Hood

5. The Dragon Ball Movies (Specifically: The Tree of Might, The Return of Cooler, Bojack Unbound, Fusion Reborn, The Wrath of the Dragon and Resurrection F, yes I know I’m cheating here a little)

6. Sucker Punch (ITS SO PROBLeMATIC BUT I LOVE IT?)

7. Homeward Bound

8. Pacific Rim

9. Heat

10. Serenity

31. 3 random facts

I’m trying to think of things you wouldn’t already know…

1. I sometimes imagine my Husky, who is still very puppy-ish, would speak with Rienhardt’s voice, if he could speak, because I am a dork

2. The basis for my most positive friendships has been Dragon Ball Z. Including The Boyfriend.

3. I really can’t think of something else, I’M SO BORING

40. favourite memory

I’m going to share my favorite memories of our friendship!

ALL OF THE RPS! Naruto, X-men, The short-lived Batman rp, the Power Rangers Rp

That really epic fanfic you wrote about all our Naruto ocs!

That other really epic fanfic you wrote on transformers

THE ORIGINAL STORY YOU WROTE about everyone as superheroes!

You are awesome.

56.favourite food(s)

Tacos, most baked goods, and this one Indian dish called Saag Gosht which is like a spicy spinach based curry with bits of lamb in it, IT IS THE BEST.