#⸻ 𝘥𝘢𝘣𝘪 | 轟燈矢 › … thread .
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
THOSE WHO HAD KNOWN DABI - THIS PAST ITERATION OF himself that had burned up like a collapsing blue star - would be eager to comment on both his theatrics and tendency to... monologue. as a villain, he'd been nigh on shakespearian at times much to compress' chagrin... but as a civilian, as the man who had been caged in that iron lung, body knitting together piece by painful piece with nary anything to take the edge off... he was silent as death itself. as first - it had simply hurt to talk, and when he did produce wry words - it was to the expense of his family, bitterness raw in a single enflamed lung and every word tasting like ash. it went on like that for months, until one night - with his little brother reading at his side, dabi decided to die.
it had been touya who asked his youngest sibling about the weather a moment later.
now, nearly two years and some change later - he is flesh and bone again, scarred and grotesque with the glowing blue heart of him almost always on display. perhaps it was a testament to their work, but touya todoroki thought less like a villain - and more like a man that was tired of being an invalid. his care involved a lot of work, would always involve a lot of work, and though he lived with his mother and siblings, the damage he'd done as dabi had left them all with wounds. and touya? touya was a walking grocery cart of medications, bandages, dietary restrictions, activity restrictions... living was high maintenance, and he'd considered simply finding himself a program to be admitted to when the president had taken over his care.
in the hospital, touya had not spoken to him, and only recently - had he been willing enough to utter words to the beleaguered looking ( former ) bird. if touya was honest with himself - keigo took good care of him, hands gentle and touch kind, patient when the pain became too much and despite his vitriol - he'd slump into the younger's side, scarred fingertips fisting his snow white hair and blood leaking down his cheeks because he still couldn't cry quite right. touya didn't think for a second he deserved any of it - because he could catch the glimpses of keigo's burn scars, see the outline of a fingertip on his neck. the problem was - he was angry, and touya would be the first to admit that he knew fuck all about apologizing.
perhaps it's the look in keigo's eyes this evening - when he returns to the small suite house they'd begun sharing upon the second todoroki estate. they're tired - older, no chipper golden mirth. perhaps it's the slurred exhaustion in his voice, or the way that his suit ( fits nicely, dabi would've burned it off him and gotten down to business already ) is sopping wet - stuck to his frame from the cold winter rain that patters against the window. regardless, it's touya that finds himself in front of keigo now, a fluffy red towel in hand as he rather aggressively goes to town at his head. ❝ i told you it might rain this morning, birdbrain. ❞ he bites out, rasping across the words. it had, in fact, been all he'd said this morning - as opposed to 'thanks for breakfast keigo!' ❝ and you still didn't bring an umbrella? ❞ he rubs at his hair a bit harder, startling blue eyes narrowed in displeased intensity. ❝ go - use the hot water for a bath for yourself. ❞ it is possibly the most touya has spoken to him in... a very, very long time. / @soulspun
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
@gokunoban
HE'S NOT REALLY SURE WHEN THEIR ESCAPADES evolved beyond him working overtime to needle away at hero's carefully crafted persona. he's also not exactly sure when the pernicious flirting gained actual teeth, or when he decided his cigarette smoke tasted best cast into hawks' mouth - all he knew is that it simply added a new element to the game, and he'd loathe to lose all the ground he'd made. it's not like hawks was unattractive, and it certainly wasn't like they lacked chemistry. falling into bed had been easy, and dabi had found - with some effort and patience, that he was twice as capable of annoying hawks here as everywhere else... with twice the rewards.
with the frying of many of his nerve endings - what bits of dabi that are unburnt are both hypersensitive, and not. he both feels - and doesn't, and in terms of intimacy... sessions can become quite lengthy, which is neither great for his constitution or insistent need to be doing something productive. indeed, the cremation villain finds himself tumbled into the sheets with hawks again. it's a lazy affair, he's long since gotten the younger rid of his clothing and remains only in his underwear, straddling the bird beneath him. between drags of a freshly lit cigarette, he kisses hawks - ever in control, all tongue piercing and teeth and salacious moans. they'd just begun getting somewhere, as dabi rolls the wet heat of himself against hawks' aching length, dark lashes fluttering over bright blues and a hum of pleasure rasping past him. ❝ damn, you're hungry for it tonight, hero... ❞ another drag of his hips, a pull from his cigarette, and a graceful hand dips downwards, ready to strip his undergarments from his person when-
rrrrrrringgggggg.
motion ceased, the villain instead leans forward, grabbing his vibrating phone from the nightstand and checking the screen with a barely there squint. popping the cigarette into his free hand, dabi answers the device, bringing it to one ear with a semi-annoyed : ❝ yeah? ❞ as another voice fills the other line.
❝ mm. ❞ the noises he makes are ponderous, head moving to pillow the phone between ear and shoulder, while his now free hand braces against hawks' chest, and he hums, black painted nails swirling a decorative pattern upon bare skin. he pays no mind to the bird beneath him, completely impervious to the fact that the cock he currently lightly rubbed against was attached to a living-breathing human. ❝ i 'unno. it's too soon. he's not out yet and he won't like it. ❞ a pause, ❝ am i busy? ❞
only then do blue eyes drop to the being beneath him, and dabi's lips cut a savage smirk.
❝ not really. ❞
1 note
·
View note
Text
need these for my carrd dw about it.
#⸻ 𝘥𝘢𝘣𝘪 | 轟燈矢 › … ch .#⸻ 𝘥𝘢𝘣𝘪 | 轟燈矢 › … headcanon .#⸻ 𝘥𝘢𝘣𝘪 | 轟燈矢 › … answered .#⸻ 𝘥𝘢𝘣𝘪 | 轟燈矢 › … thread .#⸻ 𝘥𝘢𝘣𝘪 | 轟燈矢 › … ic .#⸻ 𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘺𝘢 | デク › … ch .#⸻ 𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘺𝘢 | デク › … headcanon .#⸻ 𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘺𝘢 | デク › … answered .#⸻ 𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘺𝘢 | デク › … thread .#⸻ 𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘺𝘢 | デク › … ic .
0 notes
Text
TOUYA TODOROKI DID NOT THINK HIMSELF TO be a particularly strong man. in fact - he had long since learned he was weak to his devices. developmentally stunted in that regard through his years as a villain ( what did you expect - he'd spent the better part of his teenage years on the streets ), it was with patience and therapy he was relearning. but hawks - but keigo... he was a different sort of vice, the kind that he knew would offer comfort, but was one that he had hurt utilizing in the past, and would likely hurt again. better to keep him distant. better to keep him away. for a man who had only a sliver of a frost quirk in his veins - touya could be icy as death, none of that burn bright warmth that had marked their nights spent beneath the sheets, breathless kisses and wayward want leaving them yearning for more than what the universe would allow.
tragic, he thinks bitterly, everything is tragic.
he resists keigo - resists him by not saying anything - but instead offering the younger an arched white brow, scowl narrowing his scar tissue into something almost comical. he wanted to play - wanted to breathe smoke and flirt - to ask what else keigo might do with those fingers of his but touya was not dabi - touya was... touya was...
the door clicks shut, and he sighs.
silent feet carry him away, towards the kitchen. mindlessly - the former villain throws some rice into the cooker and pulls a container of shoyu tamago to the front of the fridge - before noting the pile of wet clothes left before the bathroom door. touya huffs, collecting those to toss in the wash - only then does he pause - staring at the bathrobe hanging on the ajar door to keigo's bedroom, the one that the damn bird had clearly left behind. eldest todoroki clicks his tongue again, moving to grab the item betwixt scarred fingers.
there are parts of touya that are intrinsic - key characteristics of dabi that have not left - for example, he's still a little bit of a bastard, which is exactly why he doesn't bother knocking ( what? he's seen it all before ) and instead throws the door wide. ❝ oi, birdbrain. you forgot your- ❞ there is another part of touya, of dabi, that won't quite leave - the one that perceives pain on a trigger - denotes the agony that tenses those burn scars ( burns, burns left by him, the smell of burning flesh, rended feathers - keigo's noises of agony, bloody ashes, twice's unseeing corpse ) ... he inhales, and before touya realizes it - is beneath the spray, at keigo's back, with a hand between his shoulder blades.
in hindsight - touching him there after being the one to cause all that pain probably isn't the best option. in hindsight - utilizing the ice portion of his quirk probably isn't great either. and yet, touya does, cool fingertips roaming over bubbled skin - over where wings had once been, and then pressing lightly into a tense, shuddering muscle as the frost edge fades. ❝ keigo, ❞ touya's raspy voice is quiet - muffled by the sound of falling water. ❝ keigo. ❞ he says again, as if trying to remind himself of who sits in front of him, of who is not shrouded in resplendent red and why, of who...
❝ wastin' the hot water. ❞ it's said so tentatively, followed by the sound of his own wet shirt hitting the tile floor followed by jeans and underwear peeled from thin legs. it's like... an apology in itself, the way his hand slides slowly up keigo's back again, before resting lightly at his shoulder. he leans over him, bare abdomen brushing against his spine, and grabs the soap without thinking - but not before his thumb... whisper soft and delicate, traverses darkest scar portion, where wings used to protrude from supple skin. ❝ let me wash your hair. ❞ another olive branch, should the president accept it.
― It was as if the last couple of years never happened, but for a moment. Only a moment. Now they were on their way back to where it was before ― playfully mean, but never outright cruel. At least, that's what he has to tell himself. Ever the optimist, Keigo made his way toward the bathroom before turning on his heels ( fingering his tie loose, sliding off his fancy jacket from his fancy dress-shirt ) and calling out to him in a not-so-casual whine. Playful. Expectant. Pushing his luck ― just like old times. Hoping that it would bring Touya into an even brighter mood. Of course, there was always the possibility that it could backfire, but at this point, it was a risk he was willing to take. And the payoff of seeing a smile on Touya's face was worth it.
“ I cooooould . . . wash your haiiiiiir . . . ” he watched the other expectantly, humming as he continued to remove his clothes right in front of the bathroom door. But oh, Touya was stalwart. He had to admire that man's willpower! It wasn't until his shirt was completely removed that he ( for now ) gave up on tempting the other to join and made his way toward the bathroom where he was told to go, keeping all his teasing comments to himself. Mostly. He turns again, between the threshold of the bathroom door and hallway. “ Bath now. Talk. . . later? ”
He was hopeful. An optimist, remember? But when Touya remained adamant in ignoring him, he playfully slumped in defeat, tapping his fingers repeatedly against the door, hardly believing how far his luck had turned that night. “ Okay, okay, I’m going, I'm going. ”
And now, he was alone again. Half naked in a room all alone with his thoughts just like so many times before. But this time it was different. For once, Touya was the one who had forced him to take a bath. Had not only spoken to him that day, but had nearly touched him again ― thinking it a small victory. This victory has him slouching on his knees, leaned against the closed door that now separated them temporarily. What he wouldn't give to have Touya join him now. To catch up on two years of lost times. Go over each and every minute detail during Touya's time of healing, and even some of his own - after all, he never did speak of the burns that had now covered his bare back. He still believes he deserves it. His penance for killing Jin and betraying Touya.
“ Nn. ” A sharp intake of breath breaks him free of his wallowing, a pain in a place that no longer exists ― it seemed as if the more stressed he became, the stronger it was felt. Where once his wings ruffled proudly, red as the sunset and saving people left and right, now a supernova long gone, still feeling its residual heat until it had him doubling over in agony. It sure as hell didn't feel like it was all in his mind ― that long gone life of a Hero just wouldn't leave him alone. An old life mocking what once was. There he sat on the bath stool, naked and hugging himself in an effort to lessen the stabs of numbing pain. Trying. Trying so very hard and ultimately failing. “ You stiiiill got it, Touya. ”
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
TOUYA TODOROKI HAD NEVER BEEN PARTICULARLY emotionally available - in that, he was a bit like his father. no doubt it also had to do with losing much of his formative years to a medically induced coma, then living on the streets - in the aftermath. too many drugs and too much sin for a boy that had barely become a man, and something in dabi had long since hardened and shut down. later, the therapists would call him a cognizant sociopath, not unkindly, and offer him methods to cope with the trauma of his past, and everything that now came after. they acted like he felt nothing at all - experienced no human emotion beyond a thirst for vengeance and rage, and in those sessions he longed for the other league members more than anything, because even now - only they understood each other.
dabi had felt. dabi had felt so intensely he burned as bright as a star - he flayed the flesh from his own bones, incinerated a lung, rend his family and screamed the agonies of his childhood until he could scream no more. and dabi loved intensely too - loved hawks, loved keigo, so much that the fragile heart that had begun beating again under the two-faced heroes tutelage could do nothing but shatter beneath his betrayal. dabi had been too fragile - to new to loving, to trusting, to filing down his sharp edges... he regret keigo's pain, in the end, but he would never leave his heart unguarded like that.
'i love you' in the white walls of a hospital room. the monitors hadn't caught it perhaps, but touya had known... had known his heart had skipped a beat, stuttered in his chest but right then, it had been too little. too late. it was always too late.
why not sooner, keigo?
but fuck - it was impossible to let it all go, and he wonders if a wedge is developing in this glass heart of his, another crack to reveal the healing muscle beneath. everyday. keigo is here, every. damn. day. taking care of him - fussing over him, even if touya's cold blue gaze burns with the ire of his flame. even if he practically hisses at the president, more inclined to sit as far away from him as possible during the hours the tv is on than to even be in the same room. but things change - the world turns on... and touya...
soft golden brown and coldfire blue meet in the shadowed alcove of the doorway, that little towel hanging over keigo's head in a manner most charming. for his part, touya's lips open - staples shining in the dim light, as he just kind of... stares. as if seeing keigo again for the first time in a long, long while. as if the war was just the past, as if the smell of burnt flesh and feathers didn't fill his nostrils, as if he didn't see twice's dead body over and over in his mind. instead he just saw... keigo. the resilient man who had it a mission to ensure touya's comfort, to tend to his needs - body, mind, and... ❝ no. ❞ he answers without thinking, a familiar rasp in his tone.
touya cuts a grin that feels like dabi roils beneath his skin, savage and intent, as he yanks the towel away to step back.
❝ you gonna try to be cute and invite me in, mr. president? ❞ but he simply points. ❝ bath. now. ❞
― BEYOND THE COURSE OF THE FINAL DAYS LIE IN WAVES OF TEMPTUOUS RAPIDS, the promise of smooth sailing just on the horizon, paddling hard with bare hands and straining muscle, not even wings to carry him on. The navigation after those days was as difficult as finding a needle under the sifts of sand in the ocean ; seeking, ever seeking, all whilst beneath the pressure of suffocation the further the seeking goes on. Keigo had not adapted by choice. Living without his wings had been one thing ( pure stubbornness on his part, his refusal to be a victim of AFO, vehemence that he could continue with his dream despite the taking of his quirk ) but forgetting his dream and living a life of normalcy? Never.
He'd rather die.
but thanks to his glittering reputation and utterly golden reviews from his ( still living ) superiors in the organization, he was able to jam his foot into the door and make another name for himself within the industry he so desperately wanted to change. Being such a good boy for the public certainly had its perks, didn't it? His voice still mattered in high places. He could look deeper into how the rules had been changing from the inside. He even had special permission to visit Dabi. ( Toya. Toya. His name is Toya.) So long as the family permitted it. But not only had they permitted it, but he had worked it out with the Todoroki's so that he may aid in his rehabilitation. Not only with his mangled body, but with his devastated spirit. But as the years fall forward, so does his heart.
Their relationship had been a series of unfortunate events from the beginning. And now, two years later, they were not even on speaking terms. As they were now, Keigo couldn't even rant and rave about his newer accomplishments and how hollow they felt without Toya's praises, or even how sappily romantic he'd been thinking. The good and bad days were words spoken to the . He had spoken words of love, outright confessed in front of the family, in front of guards and all and yet, the only thing he had been met with was that suffering silence amidst these rapids. Keigo had been wishing so badly for Toya to speak to him again, but the betrayal had been too much. He did not blame the other man, he couldn't. that pain was just as searing today as it was years prior. Yes he hurt too, but all he'd wanted was to have an evening of peace. all he'd wanted was an evening alone together. To just lie together with him, with someone he loved, and just exist together.
Hear of Toya's good days, and bad. To know that he was smiling.
He dwells upon it even making his way home that evening, that even after all of his confessions and nursing Toya back to health ― the other wouldn't even speak to him. Maybe this is just what love is supposed to be. To love someone wasn't because you expected them to love you in return, it was so that they knew they were loved. That Toya would not return his love had no bearing on whether or not Keigo would keep caring for him. All he wanted was for Toya to know that he was loved, and that he was seen. That he would heal as completely as he could and Keigo would not hinder his progress.
And just as fast as ever, Keigo had managed to fly on home without a second thought to anything but his lost love and in the pouring rain no less - god, was it difficult to tell when the rain would come without his wings. . . Even with Toya's pointed word of warning. But he didn't mind this so much. The day had been hard, so what's a little evening of misfortune to finish off the bad day? The bad day that, surprisingly, had . . . a very fortunate event waiting through the door when he'd come home.
There he stands in disbelief, hardly daring to believe his luck, at Toya not only right in front of him but now accosting him with a fluffy red towel― never was the gentlest man he'd ever known - and he did not complain nor talk back, but beamed toward him in the brightest most dazzling smile he'd worn in months. Toya, talking in full sentences, and to him? He was so thankful to be hearing Toya's voice, he couldn't even think of something stupid to say. It was only the face that carried anything stupid in that room. Weary hands take hold of each end of the towel, chin tucked low into his chest, before glancing up again. Trying not to smile. Failing spectacularly.
“ Have you bathed yet, Toya? ”
Toya is still the flame, and Keigo is still nothing but a moth.
7 notes
·
View notes