#❨ a: whitestone. ❩ i know what it’s like staying up all night nursing wounds.
(definitely anonymously) what would it take for you to believe that the de rolos do care about you and only want you to be safe?
“ nothing within their power . ” the answer is quick and a cop - out all the same , though she’s going to stick by it . to be honest , at least to herself , astrid isn’t certain that she knows how to feel safe any more , which makes their intentions for naught , anyway .
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LORD DE ROLO : i just need to know you’re okay.
astrid doesn’t shake , doesn’t falter . she doesn’t know if she could if she tried -- every method used against the de rolos , against whitestone , against the three of them is one that she’s intimately familiar with , lessons swirling through her brain with his voice behind them , but stoicism is a virtue , and a wall that she’s retreated behind . there are bigger concerns here than her own roiling feelings about what has happened , than her meager defensive wounds .
lord de rolo’s words , however , at least get her attention -- dark eyes looking just over his shoulder , attentive but respectful , a return to form yet again . it’s now that she remembers that her body aches , that her hand is staunching the bloodflow of a slash on her arm , that all around is a cacophony of sound , of people that have endured much and are being made to endure more .
“ i’ll be alright , ” she says , more out of rote than out of honesty . at the very least , she needs to find wulf , needs to use his divine magic to stop her head from swimming . no matter the affection that @deniesmercy might bear for the three of them , or whatever other reason he claims to be why he’s taken them in so warmly , that doesn’t make her his problem .
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LORD DE ROLO SENDS : It’s just water. It’s just water, here, I’ll drink some, see? It’s just water.
dark eyes watch @deniesmercy carefully , watch him drink the water , as her brain flicks through every single poison that one could build an immunity to . she wants to turn him down , to reject this kindness as she is so used to , knowing that it will put her in his debt to accept . but . . . are not she and wulf already so firmly in his debt that there is no returning from it ? killing their master and taking them away is . . . one thing , but he and his friends are going to free their bren and give him back to them , and that is something that will never be able to be repaid . curse sentiment — it makes things cost more than otherwise .
wulf is asleep , so she won’t feel the weight of judgement in his blue gaze as she reaches out and takes the canteen from his hands . she doesn’t hide her spellcasting — a quick detect poison won’t hurt her , after all , but not having the ability and forethought to cast it had cost tobias and petra their lives — and , once she is satisfied , she takes it to her lips to drink , maintaining eye contact all the while . she doesn’t thank him as she hands it back , doesn’t want to vocalize her continued presence indebted to him — debt can turn so quickly into subjugation , after all .
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LORD DE ROLO SENDS : I’m going to give you something for the pain now, okay? It will help.
the first sound that comes out of her mouth , entirely unbidden , is far too loud as it hits the air -- “ no ! ” it echoes off of the stone walls of this too - large building , rings in her ears . where has all of her careful training gone ? why can she not be graceful about this ? why must she be rude , risking her and her boys’ place in this strange city ? “ no , ” she repeats , quieter and yet still somehow more insistent . “ i-i don’t -- i don’t like medicine . ” before , her argument against medicine had been primarily taste and stubbornness based -- she doesn’t want to drink bitter herbs that were ground together , like a tea gone bad . and now . . . now , the only image that plays in her mind is that of herself , slipping a vial oh so easily into her parents’ servings at the dinner table , covert and unsuspected .
“ i can bear it , i can . ” if she can get @deniesmercy to take her to eadwulf -- no , with her leg in the state its in , he’d have to either carry her himself or get someone else to do it , and she can’t have that -- to bring eadwulf to her , he can mend her up enough that she can heal on her own . or if he’ll give her enough time to hobble her way to wherever eadwulf has found himself today -- probably having coffee with the sister of the man trying to ‘ help ’ her .
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