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[virtuegrotesque]

"Now that it’s done There’s not one thing that I would change My life was a storm Since I was born How could I fear any hurricane? If someone asked me at the end I’d tell them put me back in it... For all that was said Of where we’d end up at the end of it When the heart would cease Ours never knew peace What good would it be on the far side of things? It was too soon When that part of you was ripped away A grip taking hold Like a cancer that grows Each piece of your body that it takes Though I know my heart would break I’d tell them put me back in it... I would not change it each time Heaven is not fit to house a love Like you and I..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"Just as it was baby Before the otherness came And I knew its name The love the dark The light the flame... And tell me if somehow some of it remained How long you would wait for me? How long I've been away? The shape that I'm in now is shaping the doorway Make your good love known to me Just tell me about your day... And the sights were as stark as my baby And the cold cut as sharp as my baby And the nights were as dark as my baby Half as beautiful too..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"All the fear and the fire of the end of the world Happens each time a boy falls in love with a girl Happens great happens sweet Happily I'm unfazed here too Wasteland baby I'm in love I'm in love with you... All the things yet to come are the things that have passed Like the holding of hands like the breaking of glass Like the bonfire that burns at all worth in the fight fell too... And the stance of the sea and the absence of green Are the death of all things that I've seen and unseen Aren't end but the start of all things that are left to do..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"I feel lighter than I have in so much time I’ve crossed the borderline of weightless One deep breath out from the sky I’ve reached a rarer height now That I can confirm All our weight is just a burden Offered to us by the world... And though I burn How could I fall? When I am lifted by every word you say to me If anything could fall at all It’s the world that falls away from me... I do not have wings love I never will Soaring over a world you are carrying If these heights should bring my fall Let me be your own Icarian carrion..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"Though I have wronged you I was held in a riverbed Where they cast the spirits from anointed heads And returned to me not knowing when The bridegroom would beckon you in... Though I have wronged you I was told when I gave the land To the service of some beasts and men But by the end of all you dreamt The debt that I owe would be left... Violence violence violence..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"The words hung above But never would form Like a cry at the final Breath that is drawn Remember me love When I'm reborn As the shrike to your sharp And glorious thorn... And I'd no idea on what ground I was founded All of that goodness is goin' with you now Then when I met you my virtues uncounted All of my goodness is goin' with you now... I fled to the city with so much discounted But I'm flying like a bird to you now Back to the hedgerows where bodies are mounted But I'm flying like a bird to you now I was housed by your warmth Thus transformed..."

[virtuegrotesque]

“Dance me into the night Underneath the moon shining so bright Turning me into the light... Time dancers whirling past I gaze through the looking glass And feel just beyond my grasp is heaven... Sacred geometry Where movement is poetry Visions of you and me forever... Let the dark waltz begin Oh let me wheel Let me spin Let it take me again Turning me into the light...”

[virtuegrotesque]

"All the tales the same Told before and told again A soul that’s born in cold and rain Knows sunlight sunlight sunlight And at last can grant a name To a buried and a burning flame As love and its decisive pain My sunlight sunlight sunlight... Each day you'd rise with me Know that I would gladly be The Icarus to your certainty My sunlight sunlight sunlight Strap the wing to me Death trap clad happily With wax melted I’d meet the sea Under sunlight sunlight sunlight..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"Holding on to high ideals And living incongruously You were there among the leaves And your needs were directing you And the wilderness it spoke to you Though it threatened to choke you You were always aware You could sense that I was there In the wild... I saw you in the wild I saw you in the wild I knew you in the wild..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"My head was warm My skin was soaked I called your name 'til the fever broke When I awoke The moon still hung The night so black that the darkness hummed... I raised myself My legs were weak I prayed my mind be good to me An awful noise Filled the air I heard a scream in the woods somewhere... What caused the wound? How large the teeth? I saw new eyes were watching me The creature lunged I turned and ran To save a life I didn't have..."

[virtuegrotesque]

“Fingers of blue on the snow Reaching to touch The warm light still aglow Across the porch We watch the scene die untold Outside our window… For my words are the salt of lust On that ivory skin Difficult to hear at all Through the everyday din What is this if not some witchcraft? Wrapped up widdershins To lead us all astray Hook in mouth On through such webs of lies Truth’s a distant star In our eyes Moonlight kissed…”

[virtuegrotesque]

"There is no good in me I possess a taste for blood I have numbered mankind’s days I have watched the father spare the ram And throw his son upon the flames... There is no good in me I possess a holy fear I’m silent in the jealous tongue I have rendered families from their home That I may lay claim to their young..."

[virtuegrotesque]

“How long baby have I been away? Oh it feels like ages Though you say it’s only days There ain’t language for the things I’ve seen And the truth is stranger than my own worst dreams The truth is stranger than my own worst dreams Now the darkness got a hold on me… I have seen what the darkness does Say goodbye to who I was I ain’t never been away so long Don’t look back them days are gone Follow me into the endless night I can bring your fears to life Show me yours and I’ll show you mine Meet me in the woods tonight…"

[virtuegrotesque]

"I'd be the voice that urged Orpheus When her body was found I'd be the choiceless hope in grief That drove him underground I'd be the dreadful need in the devotee That made him turn around And I'd be the immediate forgiveness In Eurydice Imagine being loved by me... I'd be the last shred of truth In the lost myth of true love I'd be the sweet feeling of relief Mankind now dreams of That's found in the last witness before the wave hits Marvelling at God Before he feels alone one final time And marries the sea Imagine being loved by me... I won't deny I've got in my mind now All the things I would do So I'll try to talk refined For fear that you find out How I'm imaginin' you..."

[virtuegrotesque]

"Bought their smiles liquid and smooth Took their words for the truth Edge of light and shade My broken soul once more enslaved... When there's no love in my embrace Cold blood runs through my veins If I soar without grace do I still soar I need the love in your embrace Open doors brand new ways End my wars and erase and I'm yours... So I want to run to your shelter tonight Run to the shelter tonight United in silent resistance Of bowing to false kings So let me run to your shelter tonight Run from this meaningless pantomime I'll swallow my pride Give up the pretence..."