#❝ i'm sorry. i just didn't want to be alone anymore. ❞ | vicki donovan. / new vampire verse.

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𝔳𝔦𝔠𝔨𝔦 & 𝔨𝔬𝔩 - 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔲𝔢𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡 𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 @devilsanddarlings.

she  knew  now  that  this  man  was  not  a  fan  of  crying  or  signs  of  weakness.  she  had  to  remind  herself  to  hold  back  any  tears  or  words  of  guilt  in  front  of  him  even  though  she  was  a  confusing  cocktail  of  emotions  right  now.  hunger  being  the  most  predominantly  dangerous  emotion  that  was  consuming  her  whole  being  at  this  point.  she  needed  help  and,  even  though  she  didn't  know  who  this  stranger  was,  she  would  accept  whatever  he  may  offer  her.  she  didn't  have  much  of  a  choice.  it  was  this  or  continuing  hurting  others  that  didn't  deserve  the  fate  she  would  accidentally  give  them.

she  nodded  slowly,  slightly  sniffling  but  she  quickly  wipes  at  her  nose  to  prevent  herself  from  displaying  any  more  emotions.  she  didn't  know  who  this  nik  person  was  or  what  it  meant  to  be  an  original,  but  she  had  no  other  choice  but  to  instill  trust  in  this  man.  it  seemed,  from  what  he  told  her,  that  he  knew  what  he  was  doing.   ❛   i'm   ...   i'm  vicki,  donovan.  thank  you,  kol,  for   —   helping  me.  i  don't  really  know  what's  wrong  with  me   ...   ❜   she  trailed  off,  looking  around  in  paranoia  but  then  brings  her  gaze  back  to  him.  control  yourself,  vicki,  control  yourself,  she  thought  to  herself.  she  nodded  frantically  at  his  next  words,  clasping  her  hands  together,  pleading,   ❛   please,  i'm  so  hungry.  please  help  me.  the  hunger,  it  won't  stop.  my  stomach  feels  like  it's  going  to  eat  itself.   ❜

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𝔳𝔦𝔠𝔨𝔦 𝔡𝔬𝔫𝔬𝔳𝔞𝔫 & 𝔩𝔢𝔵𝔦 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔰𝔬𝔫 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔲𝔢𝔡 𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 @aalexias.

vicki  felt  helpless  against  her  own  instincts.  the  last  thing  she'd  ever  want  to  do  is  hurt  those  around  her  that  she  loved  and  cared  about;  her  brother,  her  friends,  jeremy  ...  she  couldn't  stand  the  thought  of  being  the  reason  why  something  bad  would  happen  to  them.  she  didn't  know  how  to  control  this  new  bloodlust  and  a  part  of  her  wanted  to  give  up  all  together,  but  lexi  made  her  think  otherwise.  when  the  elder  vampire  grabbed  her  hands  and  held  them  tightly,  it  felt  like  vicki  was  being  tethered  back  down  to  earth  after  feeling  like  she  was  crashing  towards  it.  it  was  calming  and  soothing,  it  gave  her  hope  for  the  future.  vicki  nodded,  tears  still  rolling  down  her  cheeks,  but  she  didn't  bother  wiping  them  away.  she  felt  she  could  be  her  true,  authentic  self  around  lexi  and  that's  the  first  time  she's  felt  like  that  since  becoming  a  vampire.  she  took  lexi's  advice  and  then  took  in  a  deep  breath,  exhaling  slowly  and  steadily,  sniffling.  she  took  one  hand  back,  only  to  finally  wipe  away  her  dried  tears.  ❛  how  did  you  do  all  this,  lexi?  how  did  you  deal  with  these  feelings?  ❜  she  asked,  voice  slightly  shaking,  but  she  was  finally  feeling  a  little  better  than  before.  she  looked  at  lexi  in  the  eyes,  ❛  when  do  the  good  feelings  start  to  happen?  ❜

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vicki  suddenly  stiffened  when  kol  had  cut  her  off  and  spoke  to  her  with  a  firmer  and  seemingly  angry  tone  towards  her.  she  stopped  in  her  tracks  and  stared  at  him  with  a  terrified  look  lingering  in  her  eyes,  listening  to  his  every  word.  she  took  him  serious;  she  knew  if  she  didn't  she  could  very  well  deal  with  fatal  consequences.  she  swallowed  thickly,      ❝     got  it   …    ❞     she  trailed  off,  unsure  of  what  else  to  say.  she  wanted  to  defer  to  him  as  much  as  possible.  plus,  she  knew  what  he  meant  by  his  speech  about  family.  she  still  felt  guilty  to  her  core  about  leaving  matt  behind  and  never  contacting  him  when  she  came  back  as  a  vampire.  it  was  what  the  salvatore  brothers  had  told  her  to  do,  it  was  what  elena  begged  her  to  do,  but  she  shouldn't  have  listened.  kol  is  right.  nothing  is  more  important  than  family.

she  nodded,    ❝     i  thought  i  was  doing  the  right  thing  by  leaving  him  alone.  i  didn't  want  him  to  get  hurt   …   i  didn't  want  anyone  to  get  hurt    ❞    she  replied.  her  eyes  rounded  a  bit  at  his  next  words,      ❝    tyler  is  a  werewolf?      ❞   she  breathed  out  in  surprise,  her  gaze  averting  in  different  directions  as  she  digested  this  new  information.  she  took  in  a  deep  breath  as  she  stared  at  his  phone  that  was  offered  to  him,  tears  welling  up  in  her  eyes  as  she  thought  about  speaking  to  matt  after  all  this  time.  she  couldn't  think  of  a  more  terrifying  thing  to  go  through  right  now.  she  took  in  a  deep  breath,  taking  his  phone  and  dialed  matt's  phone  number.  placing  the  phone  up  to  her  ear,  she  listened  to  it  ring  as  she  chewed  on  her  nails  nervously.  then,  suddenly,  matt  picked  up  the  phone.  she  was  silent  for  a  long  beat,  hearing  him  repeat  his  greeting  as  he  got  no  immediate  answer.  before  he  could  hang  up,  she  stopped  him  by  saying  his  name.  it  was  no  surprise  that  matt  immediately  recognized  who  it  was  that  was  calling  him.        ❝      yeah,  matty,  it's  me   …   it's  vicki   …    ❞    she  confirmed  through  a  choked  up  sob.  her  hand  flies  up  to  cover  her  mouth,  an  attempt  to  stifle  her  cries  as  matt  rambled  out  an  endless  amount  of  questions  regarding  where  she  had  been  and  what  happened  to  her.  she  looked  at  kol  with  a  pleading  look,  as  if  she  was  silently  asking  how  she  should  explain  her  absence.  she  let  out  a  shaky  breath  to  steady  her  breathing  pattern,      ❝     some  bad  things  happened,  matty,  but  just  know  i'm  okay.  i'll  be  home  soon,  i  just  have  to  figure  some  stuff  out   …   on  my  own.      ❞

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It was plain to see that Vicki Donovan was painfully young for a vampire. She hadn’t learned the importance of keeping her guard up, and every thought she had was practically written on her face. Even if Kol hadn’t been an Original, the play of emotion there would have told him everything he needed to know about what was going through her mind. “I think you’re laboring under some delusions, darling,” he cut in mid-rant. “So allow me to enlighten you. I’m a bloody Original. I can do as I please.” Including compel her if the need arose, but he wasn’t about to share that little tidbit.

“However family is important to us, so I will allow your disrespect to slide this time for your brother’s sake.” The former warlock informed her, dark eyes pinning her with a stern look. “You should know that you hurt him immensely with your vanishing act though, darling. Far worse than the little Lockwolf’s claws ever could. You could have at least left a note and called periodically, if you couldn’t be there in person. He thinks you dead.”

“Do you know what losing a sibling does to someone, Victoria?” Kol abruptly asked in the next moment, the haunted look in his eye suggesting he very much did. “It bloody destroys them. Call your brother,” he commanded, pulling his phone out of his pocket and offering it to her. “And then we’ll work on giving you the tools to destroy Damon Salvatore instead.”

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the  words  stung  like  a  jellyfish  straight  to  her  undead  heart.  on  some  level,  she  understood  why  he  would  say  something  like  that,  but  kol  had  no  idea  what  she  was  going  through  or  what  her  reasoning  was.  she  didn't  want  matt  in  danger,  and  he  was  in  danger  any  moment  he  would  be  around  her.  she  couldn't  control  her  bloodlust,  she  still  couldn't.  what  kind  of  big  sister  would  she  be  if  she  stayed  around  matt  despite  knowing  she  could  possibly  kill  him?  no,  she  wouldn't  do  that.  she  refused  to  put  him  in  any  kind  of  danger.  still   …   she  didn't  want  matt  around  any  other  vampires,  even  herself.      ❝     you  don't  get  to  tell  me  how  to  feel.  i  don't  want  my  brother  put  in  any  danger.  that's  why  i  stayed  away  in  the  first  place    ❞     she  explained  to  him,  even  though  she  felt  she  didn't  need  to.

vicki  became  a  little  bewildered  when  kol  informed  her  that  her  brother  was  well  aware  of  the  supernatural,  and  even  worse,  involved  with  them.  she  was  gone  for  far  too  long,  she  should've  stayed.  the  regret  was  settling  into  her  bones.  she  canted  her  head  slightly,    ❝    werewolf?  who   —   who  is  this  werewolf?    ❞     she  asked,  stepping  forward  and  suddenly  worried  even  more  for  her  brother.  but,  if  it  was  his  best  friend,  it  could  be  tyler  and  that  frightened  her   —   given  his  anger  issues  from  what  she  knew  in  the  past.

she  shied  away  from  him,  embarrassed.  she  nodded,    ❝     yes.  teach  me.  fuck  damon  salvatore.  i  need  to  be  strong.    ❞

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“That,” Kol interrupted her harshly. “Is not up to you to decide. Considering you couldn’t be bothered to leave him so much as a note telling him you were alive before you left, who your brother chooses to date is none of your business,” the Original said firmly. While he may have been less than pleased with his baby sister’s decision to take up with the quarterback, he wasn’t about to let Vicki interfere with whatever happiness Rebekah had found even if he suspected it wouldn’t last forever.

“But if it consoles you any, he knows exactly who and what she is. You can thank his ex for that. Or perhaps his best friend, the werewolf,” Kol offered with a disinterested shrug. He wasn’t entirely sure who was to blame for the younger Donovan’s initial introduction to the supernatural and didn’t particularly care either. “Regardless, darling, he’s far safer on Bekah’s arm than he is going it alone in that town of yours.”

“She’ll protect him from any threats. Including you, if you don’t learn to control yourself. Now, shall we get started on that? Or would you prefer to fantasize a little longer about Damon Salvatore’s demise?”

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vicki's  eyebrows  raise  in  surprise  at  the  man's  next  words.  ❛  she's  dating  my  brother?  a  vampire  ...  is  dating  my  brother?  no,  that  is  not  okay  ❜  she  states  firmly.  she  hates  the  idea  of  matt  being  thrust  into  the  world  of  supernatural.  it  meant  more  danger  for  him  and  her  having  to  look  out  for  him.  sure,  she's  been  gone  for  a  bit  of  time  now  and  matt  wasn't  even  aware  she  had  been  alive  all  this  time,  but   —   she  still  wanted  the  best  for  him.  her  eyes  rounded  out  at  kol's  next  words,  scaring  her  a  bit,  ❛  no,  matt  can't  know  i'm  here  or  i'm   —   alive.  not  yet.  i  need  to  get  my  shit  together  before  i  can  see  him  again.  i  don't  want  to  hurt  him  ❜  she  responded  quickly  in  a  rushed  and  concerned  ramble. she  nodded  at  his  proposal,  biting  down  on  her  bottom  lip  nervously  as  she  pondered  over  this  possible  plan.  she  didn't  have  much  in  the  way  of  choices  when  it  came  to  learning  about  controlling  her  bloodlust.  kol  was  her  last  hope,  and  he  seemed  nice  enough  ...  right?  she  just  hoped  she  could  trust  him.  she  smirked  at  the  idea  of  paying  damon  a  little  visit.  after  all,  it  was  all  his  fault  that  she  was  like  this.  she  looked  up  at  kol  with  her  own  devious  grin,  ❛  i'll  do  whatever  you  need  me  to  do,  kol.  ❜

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“Because, darling, my little sister is currently dating your brother,” Kol informed her with no small amount of amusement, privately relishing in the idea of sowing discord amongst the merry band of idiots that safeguarded the doppelganger in Mystic Falls. “Who believes you to be dead. It will be a bit of a nasty shock for him when he finds out otherwise, but I’m sure Bex will be happy to help him through it,” the Original assured her cheerfully.

“At least until such a time as we can get that appetite of yours under control enough for him to visit without you taking a bite.” Kol added with a wicked grin. “Or for you to visit him, if you wish to have a…word…with Salvatore the elder about his treatment of you. I had intended to teach your sire a lesson in manners, but perhaps I’ll let you do the honors instead.”

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she  noticed  the  change  in  the  other  vampire's  demeanor  after  introducing  herself  with  her  full  name.  did  that  mean  something  to  him?  she  wondered  and  became  a  little  fearful  of  what  this  might  mean  for  her.  even  though  she  feels  constant  guilt  and  excruciating  hunger  pains  that  felt  never-ending,  it  didn't  mean  she  wanted  to  die.  she  wanted  to  live   ...   just  not  like  this.  she  swallowed  thickly,  tucking  some  of  her  hair  behind  her  ears  as  she  frightfully  met  his  intimidating  gaze,   ❛   why   ...   why  does  that  change  things?   ❜   she  asked  with  hesitation  in  her  voice.  the  vampire  had  mentioned  he  was  an  original,  she  had  to  have  imagined  that  must  mean  something  important  and  possibly  dangerous.  does  that  mean  he  was  one  of  the  first  of  their  kind  to  exist?  if  that  were  true,  could  she  trust  him?  she  was  beginning  to  grow  scared  of  his  presence   —   probably  for  good  reasons  that  she  doesn't  know  quite  yet.  she  peered  behind  her  and  then  back  at  kol,   ❛   i   —   i  don't  remember.  i  think  it  was   ...   damon,  salvatore.  yeah.  it  was  that  salvatore  guy  at  the  old  boarding  house.  he  did  this  to  me   ...   ❜   the  memories  began  to  rush  to  her  mind,  and  it  slowly  began  to  anger  her.  she  snarled  at  the  thought  of  damon,   ❛   and  he  left  me.  alone.  to  die.  that  asshole   !!   ❜   she  stated  with  such  vex,  feeling  her  emotions  grow  more  intense  with  each  second  she  thought  of  damon. 

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For a split second, genuine surprise flickered across Kol’s face before the Original masked it. The baby vampire before him couldn’t possibly be related to Rebekah’s pet quarterback, could she? If he were a betting man, the youngest surviving Mikaelson brother would wager not. Both Victoria and Donovan were common names. And yet…

There were no coincidences when it came to Mystic Falls, Kol had come to realize. Perhaps it was the presence of the latest doppelganger in the same place her ancestor had once been used to change them into vampires that had turned the little town into a supernatural hot spot. Or maybe it was the dark magic his mother had worked there, slowly taking root in its residents' veins and acting as a siren song to those with the same malady in their veins. Whatever it was, it seemed as though he and his siblings would never be rid of the place they once called home or those who hailed from it.

"Well now....this changes things, darling." Kol purred. "Though whether or not it's to your benefit remains to be seen. Tell me, darling, do you remember who turned you?"