#❛ YOUR VOICE ALWAYS TREMBLED // SPEAK UP ❜ ( music ∣ eun ji. )

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Not A Bad Thing ~ Part Eight

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****Trigger Warning: Mentions of bullying and suicide****

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***A/N: This chapter is SOOO SHORT. 

This is a FILLER chapter y’all. I don’t like how this chapter came out. lol I lowkey feel dead inside. Like a dead inside emotionless typing machine. :\

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SEHUN:

I sat there at the table with Y/N, who was teasing me. There was music blasting around us as the others celebrated, yet when I’m looking at her, it’s almost like the music was muffled. She has my full attention. Those deep eyes staring at me. The way her nose crinkles when she laughs, and how never fails to make my heart beat rapidly.

I took a deep breath, almost overwhelmed by the swelling of my heart.

“I don’t like crazy romantic stuff like that. I don’t want to be a damsel in distress that needs to be saved.” She said, raising an eyebrow at me.

I glanced down at my hand which held hers. I looked back up to see her gazing at me, waiting for a reply.

“If anything I’m the damsel,” I stated, “You saved me.”

I watched as she leaned away, almost cringing at my words. My eyes didn’t move from hers despite this.

“Why are you getting so intense all of a sudden?” She giggled. Though it’s been some months now, it still feels like I don’t know much about Y/N. The desire to be close to her is strong. When the pack goes for runs, she’s all that’s on my mind.

Yixing told me we should try to grow closer before mating season begins, or else things will become awkward.

I smirked before grabbing the bottom of the chair she sat in, sliding it closer to me so that we were close to each other. Y/N held in her laughter, clearly teasing me.

“You play around too much,” I whispered into her ear.

After winking at me she whispered, “What are you going to do about it, loverboy?”

I kissed her, pulling her close. Her warmth is always so comforting. I was trying to convey my feelings to her through this kiss. Through every touch and smile.  But my lips couldn’t say the words.

I love you.

I broke the kiss hesitantly. She went on about how my brothers are going to tease us and I quickly brushed it off.

Though it wasn’t long before we were interrupted by Eun Ji who said Y/N’s parents were here. I was just as shocked as she was. Though she still left to greet them.

The moment she left the room, I ran over to the speakers, shutting off the music. I ignored the whines of those around me.

“Y/N’s parents are here. Everyone get yourself together.” I voiced.

“Wait, her parents? That’s cool! They could tell you more about her!” Chanyeol said from the couch with his mate beside him.

“I don’t think you understand, this is a big deal! I need to make a good impression, so everyone be on your best behavior.” I exclaimed.

A cheeky smile made it’s way onto Baekhyun’s face, “I’m always on my best behavior.”

This only made me a glare as I saw Y/N enter the room followed by two people. The resemblance between her and her mother were uncanny. Though there were traces of her dad in her face. The woman’s eyes scanned the room with a kind smile.

“Ooo,” Her mother chimed, “which one of these attractive men is dating my daughter.”

I cleared my throat stepping forward with my best smile. I was nervous, but I tried my best not to show it.

Should I go for a hug? No that’s seems too forward. But a handshake is stiff right? My body before I could think, I stretched my hand out.

“Nice to meet you ma’am. I’m Oh Sehun.”

I watched as both of Y/N’s eyes fluttered and they flinched back. The reaction made my heart jump and a weird feeling of darkness washed over me as I watched their horrified expressions.

“Y/N,” Her mother said, glaring at me. I almost took a step back. Her gaze was too strong. I could almost feel the guys behind me becoming alert. The depressing vibes that were coming off of Y/N also left me alert.

Tears began to well in Y/N’s eyes, and my gaze moved back to her mother who called out Y/N’s name once more.

“It’s not the same Oh Sehun is it? Please tell me I’m wrong.” She mumbled.

My brows furrowed. What? Her parents know me?

I looked at Y/N who was almost sobbing her eyes out. My heart tightened as Junmyeon stepped in to figure out the conflict. I stretched my arms out to comfort her but was shocked when her father stepped forward.

“Don’t touch her!” His voice whipped through the air, leaving everyone frazzled. He moved Y/N behind him as if protecting her from me.

Can they sense I'm a wolf or something?

Her mother said something, but I didn’t hear it quite well. I was lost in my thoughts. Before I knew it, her parents were pulling her away.

Yixing and Junmyeon were trying to calm her parents down, while I stood there stunned by the situation.

“Please, just listen to what I have to say! He’s not like that anymore!” Y/N yelled, trying to get her parents to listen.

Not like that anymore? What?

Her father began to tug on her arm more so I stepped in, trying to stop him. My pleas weren’t met kindly. Her mother walked towards me, her chin high up. Though she was shorter than me, it felt like I was being looked down on. Her steps were slow and it almost felt like she was making fun of me.

Her eyes were full of hatred. She glared at me, and tears were welling up in her eyes.

“You and your rich friends bullied my daughter in middle school and the early years of high school, to the point that we had to move to a different country so she could start over.”

Can a person’s heart drop to their stomach? It felt like my blood was freezing over in my veins and my heart was pounding in my ear due to the lack of blood circulating.

There was a high pitch ringing in my ears and my vision blurred for a short moment.

“What?” My voice came out quiet and fragile. When I looked at Y/N, she was looking down. So what her mom is saying is true? How?

“You basically destroyed my daughter’s confidence, passion, brightness, and smile. You don’t know the pain we went through to get her even close to who she used to be.” Her voice trembled as she choked back tears.

Middle school?

Like a vision, Y/N’s eyes flashed in my mind. The constant look of fear in Y/N’s eyes were panning through my thoughts. From when I met her at the banquet till the time she began to relax around me. And just like that, it clicked.I was no longer seeing just her eyes. But I was seeing Y/N, a young Y/N, in middle school crying her eyes out.

My thoughts were broken through like shattered glass as Y/N’s mother stabbed at my chest with her finger.

“I don’t know what you did to change her mind about you, but that surely won’t happen with me. You don’t deserve to be in her presence let alone deserve her love.” She snarled. She quickly turned around and left, Y/N and her father following behind them. I heard the front door slam and my brain was rattling.

I placed both hands on my head, trying to gather my thoughts about what just happened. My mind was blanking and I stared at a certain spot of the carpet.

“Sehun,” Junmyeon called, making me jump.

“What was Y/n’s mother talking about? Is that where you know Y/N from? You did something to her in middle school?”

I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out. As if frustrated, Eun Ji rushed past me, bringing all attention onto her.

“I knew it! My gut was screaming that was her but I didn’t want to believe it.” She muttered as she rushed off. I stared at Eun Ji back as she disappeared into the hallway. My eyes darted to the guys who looked at me for answers. I looked back towards the now empty hallway before chasing after Eun Ji. I could hear the footsteps of the guys following me.

“Eun Ji! Eun Ji! Wait what are you talking about?” I yelled after her, catching a glimpse of her back as she opened the door to the basement. She didn’t even bother to turn around. I followed her down the stairs to the small lobby of the basement.

“Which room has your old school stuff?” She questioned, eyes darting between the few creme colored doors.

“The one of the left.” The voice came from behind me. It was Yixing who looked just as confused as I was. Eun Ji ran into the room and instantly began tearing through boxes. All of us gathered into the storage room filled with dust covered items, accompanied by spider webs and the creatures stuck in them.

“Eun Ji!” I finally yelled. She jumped, shaken by my change in volume,”What is going on? Stop what you’re doing and tell me what is happening? You know Y/N? Where from? Give me answers!”

“Lens freak! Sehun, Lens freak!” She yelled back, “The girl we used to mess with in middle school? Remember? The small quiet girl who always had that camera with her?”

I staggered back, it was like being hit with a brick.

My face scrunched up, “That was Y/N?”

Eun Ji turned back around and started to search through the boxes.

“I remember!” Jongin spoke dully, “I remember! Cause that one time we put paint in her locker!”

“We also put her camera in the toilet…” Baekhyun’s voice trailed off.

Eun Ji finally pulled something out of a box and began flipping through the pages. As I stepped closer to her, I realized that it was a yearbook from our second year of middle school.

“There!” She exclaimed pointing to something. I walked over setting my eyes on a yearbook photo. Though she looked very different, the name under the picture was Y/N.

I gawked at Eun Ji. She stared back at me, and I could see tears welling up in her eyes.

“W-we were awful people.” She stuttered, “I think we ruined her and as if it was some sick joke, she became your mate and had to hang around all of us.”

I strolled through the hallway, Baekhyun, Chanyeol, and Jongin walking beside me. I ignored the glances and the waves from girls who stood by their lockers. While we turned the hallway my eyes spotted her, and instantly an irritation was bubbling up inside me.

“Ugh, it’s her.” I groaned and stopped walking. Baekhyun chuckled, setting his eyes on the girl who stood at the locker, looking through it.

“What about her bothers you so much,” Baekhyun asked, “You’ve never even spoken to her, but the moment you laid eyes on her. You hated her.”

I shook my head, trying to find words to explain.

“I don’t know dude. It’s just something about her irritates me, deep down to my soul.”

Jongin laughed, “Your soul? You mean your nonexistent wolf?”

I elbowed him in the rib, “Shut up. Just because you’ve all had your first transformations doesn’t mean you get to step on me. It’ll happen sooner or later.”

“Whatever dude. But what about that girl? Let me help you out?” Jongin chuckled. Before I could stop him he walked towards the girl who had left her locker and was now approaching us with books in her hands. Jongin walked past her, bumping her so hard her books fell to the ground.

She bent down to pick up, and Jongin turned to me with a wide smile. He raised his eyebrows at me before beckoning me to do something.

I walked forward and set my foot on her Algebra textbook, “Oh no. Look what we have here.”

“Can you take your foot off my textbook?” She asked, looking up at me. The moment we made eye contact, I felt something pulse through me. In the heat of the moment, I kicked her book away from her. She glared up at me, and I glared back.

“What are you looking at, freak?” I hissed. With that I walked past her, stepping on her notebook in the process.

Jongin chased me down, a confused look on his face, “Bro, what was that? I bumped into her so you could help her with her books, and have a chance to talk to her!”

“I don’t like her in that way. She bugs me, plus this is way more fun” I answered.

I leaned against the wall as we all stood in the lobby area of the basement. My eyes were closed

“So why did you mess with her in the first place?” Yixing asked, “I mean what valid reason did you have to dislike her so much?”

I shook my head, “I can’t explain it, but every time I saw her, I was bothered! I don’t know! But I can’t even find traces of that feeling now! When I first saw her at the banquet it was the opposite of what I felt back then!”

“So you would look at her, and get angry? But then she ends up being your mate? That doesn’t make sense, Sehun.” Junmyeon challenged.

“I don’t know what you want me to say,” I finally opened my eyes, “It didn’t really make sense to me either.”

I noticed Eun Ji standing in the far corner of the place, tears running down her cheeks. Her arms were crossed and she looked off at the wall blankly.

“God.” She choked, putting her hand over her mouth, “I’m...I’m kind of relieved.”

My brows furrowed as I stared at her. I pushed myself off the wall, walking closer to her. I ignored Minseok who called out my name. He was trying to tell me something, but I wasn’t listening.

Eun Ji who now mumbling something, looked up at me, a new batch of tears in her eyes.

I narrowed my eyes at her, “What are you talking about? You’re relieved? Are you that messed u-”

“No! No! Listen! Remember how our second year of high school, I had that huge breakdown? That’s when my mom sent me to that dumb therapy group?” Her bloodshot eyes held bad memories but I didn’t say anything. I simply nodded, remembering the attitude and personality change she went through after that.

The girl who was once an intense bully had become someone who learned a new way to let go of the fear she had.

“Well...one day, weeks after Y/N stopped coming to school...I heard rumors that really shook me up. I didn’t say anything because that was also around the time you had your first transformation and you were an emotional mess. But the rumors I was hearing is what triggered my break down.”

EUN JI:

I stood at my locker, picking things out. It was after school and I’m ready to head to volleyball. I had my bag with my uniform in it on the floor next to me.

After packing more things into my volleyball bag, I closed the locker and headed to the gym, ready for practice.

“Wow, you dare to show your face?” A voice said behind me. I spun around to see the captain of the team, along with a few other players.

I smiled at her, nervously. I’m confused. What the hell are they talking about?

“Oh what you didn’t hear or are you just playing stupid?” She hissed.

“Jenny, I’m sorry but I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I tried my best to keep my voice polite, I didn’t want to offend an upperclassman.”

If she wasn’t older than me I would have given her a mouthful.

“That girl you used to bully, lens freak-”

I chuckled without humor, “I don’t bully her.”

“No,” Jenny spoke sternly, “You bully her. I don’t know what else to call it. You and Sehun are always on her case. She walks around in fear of bumping into you! No wonder she did what she did!”

I scoffed, “What did she do? Go tell the principal? I haven’t seen her at school in weeks.”

“That’s cause, from what I’ve heard, she killed herself.”

“What?” I almost shouted, “That’s not funny!”

“Is death something to joke about? She’s disappeared, and teachers are acting like she never existed! Her family has moved out of the house. What else could have happened? I guess you and Sehun just took it too far huh?”

She shrugged but the gesture didn’t feel casual, “Everyone is keeping it on the low out of respect of Y/N, but damn I thought you should know so you don’t walk around smiling. Like at least have some shame. Or maybe you really are a monster like everyone said.”

SEHUN:

“What the fuck?” I growled, “Why did you keep something like that from me? How did none of us hear about it?”

Eun Ji rolled her eyes, “Come on, be real. Your grandfather is this big powerful man. Either everyone was scared to tell you, or he made them keep their mouths shut.”

“So what, did you ever follow up? Or did you just tuck this deep inside of you?” I exclaimed, “If you had a feeling you should have said something? No wonder she wanted nothing to do with me. I showed up every day with a smile, she probably felt like I was taunting her.” I put my hands on my head my eyes stinging to the point that it was painful.

The tears welling in my eyes blurred my vision.

“Yes, Minseok...I will be home soon. Mrs. Lee made me stay after school to do makeup for a test. Bye.”

I hung up the phone, shoving it into the pocket of my jeans. I walked down the empty hallways. The life that once filled the hallways were gone. The emptiness of the place reminds me of my mother.

Well...of her absence. My father died when I was young and a few years later...my mother ran off. She couldn’t handle us as young wolves and all that. My grandfather was the one to take care of us, since then things have been going well.

I turned the corner, lost in my thoughts. I heard a locker slam and it seemed that the fuzz in my vision was gone.

“Oh Lens freak!” I shouted.

She stood and looked at me with wide eyes, those same eyes that annoy me.

“Listen Sehun, not today. Any day but today.” She said with a trembling voice.

I walked closer to her, “You don’t want to play with me?”

“Don’t you understand!” The change in her voice scared me. She was yelling now. Her voice echoed through the hallway as fresh tears rolled down her cheeks

“You and your friends have ruined me! Yet you can still walk up to me with that stupid smile on your face.”

“Hey freak calm down, they’re just jokes.”

“Just jokes huh? Well, your jokes aren’t funny. I’m not laughing. When will you learn that your ‘jokes’ affect people? Take that entitled stick out of your butt.”

“It’s fun messing with you,” I answered, stepping even closer. We now stood about one foot apart. Though she stared on with a blank face, I 

“Well find a new punching bag..” She snarled walking past me. She stopped mid stride and turned on her heels to face me.

“By the way, fuck you.” She choked back tears, “You have no idea the damage your ‘jokes’ have done.”

“That was the last time you spoke to her?” Minseok asked.

“Yes and she just disappeared. I never asked about it. I practically forgot her face after 3 weeks…” I trailed off.

We sat there in silence for some time. I squeeze my eyes shut, attempting to hide my tears from the others. I ruined her. The scars that are keeping her from opening up were my fault.

I wordlessly walked out of the room, and up the stairs and to my room. My phone was dead, and I wasn’t going to call Y/N right away. I need to think. The tight feeling in my chest wasn’t the same pleasant one from earlier.

What a sick joke of a romance.

[porcelainghosts]

oh, lie to me, it's the new poetry it's the language that we speak. i’ve become numb.

[porcelainghosts]

give me love, give me dreams, give me a good self esteem give me good and pure, what you waiting for ? give me everything, all your heart can bring something good and true i don’t wanna feel blue anymore

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