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[scbrvght]

. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ( starter call ) - im freeeeeee !! pls I’m off work for a whole week so give me all the plots okay. ready to flood my drafts, give this a like ♡ for a starter based off something in your wanted plots or ask meme tag.

[playbarbies]

as  we  approach  the  end  of  the  year,  i  want  to  get  mushy  and  thank  some  of  those  who  have  been  the  highlight  of  my  ‘24  and  who  i  now  cannot  (  and  don’t  want  to  )  envision  my  life  or  my  dash  without  :

@storiecraft  :  BARD  ILYSM  !!!  i  am  truly  not  exaggerating  when  i  say  that  reconnecting  was  one  of  the  best  things  to  happen  to  me  this  year.  i  had  always  thought  about  you  and  wondered  how  you  were  doing,  wishing  we  could  reconnect  only  to  find  out  that,  low  and  behold,  we  already  had!!!  forever  thanking  my  lucky  star(kid)s  that  we  found  our  way  back  home  (the  dash).  talking  to  you,  screaming  about  our  muses  &  coming  up  with  intricate  plots  and  world  crafting  that  now  and  forever  lives  rent  free  in  my  noggin  has  been  a  major  highlight  of  my  days.  you  are  as  wonderful  as  you  are  talented  and  i  am  so  thankful  to  have  you  in  my  life!!!!

@storiesbreathed  :  ALIIIII  you  are  genuinely  one  of  the  sweetest  and  kindest  people  i  know.  you  truly  are  like  the  first  warm  day  after  a  bitterly  cold  winter,  and  anyone  who  knows  you  is  so  lucky  to  know  your  warmth  and  to  have  the  privilege  of  basking  in  it.  and  can  we  talk  about  just  how  talented  you  are???  it’s  always  a  blessing  to  see  your  top  notch  writing  on  the  dash!!  like  you  ARE  stephanie  lauter  it’s  crazy.  i’m  looking  forward  to  another  year  of  giving  our  barbies  emotional  damage  together  asdfgs

@tarote  :  ROANNN  YOU  ABSOLUTE  ICON  YOU  !!  you  are  so  incredibly  talented  in  such  a  wide  a  variety  of  ways  it’s  insane.  your  graphics??  your  writing??  your  art??  your  sense  of  humor??  you  SERVE  bestie.  you  are  such  a  wonderful  person  and  friend  whose  creativity  and  humor  knows  no  limits  and  who  is  still  continuously  blowing  me  away  with  your  talent.  being  friends  with  you  is  like  being  welcomed  and  invited  to  sit  at  the  cool  kids  table  permanently  and  it’s  WONDERFUL  !

@troublemakerstm  :  BIRDIE  you  wonderful  human!!!!  the  kenzi  to  my  robin!!!!  you  are  simply  the  best  (if  i  got  that  song  now  stuck  in  your  head  uh oops  —  if  it’s  any  consolation  it’s  stuck  in  mine  🪦)  you  are  such  a  joy  to  talk  to  and  write  with!!  kenzi  and  robin  live  rent  free  in  my  head  —  anything  we  plot  and  write  just  automatically  becomes  canon  in  my  heart.  you  are  such  a  good  writer  and  such  a  good  friend  and  not  a  day  goes  by  where  i  won’t  be  grateful  to  have  you  in  my  life  the  way  robin  is  forever  grateful  to  have  kenzi  in  hers!!!  <3

@shadowedvales  :  FRANKIE  AKA  THE  JANE  IVES  OH  HOW  I  ADORE  YOU  SO  !!!  reconnecting  and  falling  back  into  our  rhythm  as  though  the  gap  time  created  never  existed  was  such  a  major  blessing.  you  are  one  of  my  favorite  people  to  talk,  plot  and  write  with,  and  i  will  never  ever  forget  how  you  so  happily  and  sweetly  entered  my  DM’s  to  be  like  ‘we’re  friends  now!’  after  i  had  lamented  on  the  dash  about  how  hard  making  friends  can  be  for  me.  (i’m  cursed  with  a  chronic  case  of  robin  buckley  syndrome)  that  kind  gesture  means  more  to  me  than  i  can  express,  and  i’ll  always  be  so  grateful  to  you  for  it.  you  are  such  a  wonderful  friend,  and  it’s  been  so  fun  hanging  out  on  calls  and  watching  ghosts  and  playing  barbies  together!!  (even  if  timezones  create  hiccups  sometimes!  :shakingfistemoji:)

@nuks  :  NUK  you  are  such  a  gem!!!  you’re  like  the  living  breathing  personification  of  this  emoji  🌇  you  are  just  so  warm  and  bright  and  you  light  up  the  dash  with  your  bubbly  personality  and  wickedly  creative  OC’s!!  i  love  reading  anything  of  yours  whether  it’s  IC  writing,  about  a  new  or  existing  OC  or  just  about  your  thoughts  or  something  fun  that  had  happened  to  you  —  anything  you  do  just  has  the  best  vibes  and  energy,  and  your  warmth  and  cheeriness  creates  this  gravitational  pull  where  anyone  and  everyone  who  feels  it  is  therefore  drawn  to  you.  you’re  wonderful  and  i’m  looking  forward  to  another  year  of  your  wonderful  self  on  my  dash!!

i  also  wanna  shoutout  those  i  admire  who’ve  made  my  dash  a  brighter  place  —  my  new  year’s  resolution  is  to  talk  &  write  more  ;  let’s  become  slumber  party  RSVP  status  BFFS  🙏💕  !!!

@t-errifier  @forwardmoved  @thrillor  @chth0nia  @hatchetbarbie  @mctcrcity  @unbelovd  @bittcnneck  @poiscn  @arachnaemboss  @coastercrushed  @animvs  @princessofpranks  @stadam  @avichor  @mcntra  @murkyhazed   &  YOU!  🥰  (  i  cannot  physically  tag  every  mutual  but  just  know  each  and  every  one  of  you  are  tagged  in  my  heart  <3  )

[radioaf]

LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT TO STAY MUTALS AND WRIT WITH ME.

if you don't I'm unfollowing you and that will be it I'm making this blog into mutuals only again and only writing with the people who bring me joy who are all my mains and madi

I'm doing this for me nothing more nothing less you don't like go head and block and unfollow me I don't care.

so the people who are automatically stuck with me now cause they are mains or I have active threads with them

spidersins

toxitrosia 

gamblins 

rradiio

hazbinned

demonsdealings

suniside-crossing/ the-al-pals

voxtek-time

thylightbringer

[lawhurt]

seems like yesterday . . . i lay down next to your boots and i prayed. for your anger to end. oh father, i have sinned

a private &. selective rp blog, for jamie (james) michael dutton of [ 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡'𝑠 ] 𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚗𝚎. (somewhat headcanon based, especially post season 4). wrangled by : morgan ©

[heircurse-1]

happy munday from your metal mommy, 80% of you have already seen these, but i have nothing new to offer!! don't forget to drink some water. or else.

[freewillacquired]

PSA: Some important OOC things I need my RP partners to know

{out of mutations} Hello, everyone. I was just made aware by a (now former) friend that I unintentionally hurt them very badly to the point of them ceasing to write with me and to block me. That is absolutely their prerogative, and I don’t blame them at all for doing so, nor do I bear them any ill will for their choice. Everyone needs to cultivate their own safe spaces on this site and to do what is best for their own mental health.

However, the points that they raised in their final message to me were important and very much opened my eyes to how careless I’ve been with how I’ve conducted myself as an rper and a blogger, and as a friend in general. It also made me aware that things that I’ve been trying to handle on my own offline and to not let affect how I run my blogs or manage friendships… are things that I really need to make my friends and rp partners aware of, because they are having clear consequences.

You all deserve to understand how I work as an online person you connect with, so that you can each make individual choices on whether or not you wish to continue writing with me or interacting through messages in the future. I’ll place this below a cut, and if you read all of it, I thank you for your time.

I mean for this simply to be an informative post that will explain a little bit about what I’ve been going through lately and how it is affecting my ability to function online. Life has gotten very crazy for me, I am having memory problems, and I have way too much activity/muses/blogs. All of these things together have created some problems with how I interact with folks on this site, and so I want to explain a little so you all understand. If, after reading this, you decide that I am too high maintenance for you, that I can’t give you the level of writing or messaging interaction that you prefer, or if you have any other issues with what I say, I fully understand and support any decision you make going forward. I hope that by beieng a bit embarrassingly candid that I can prevent what I inadvertently did to my friend from ever happening again, because I feel absolutely horrible about it. Alright, let’s get into this.

I don’t go looking for new people to interact with on any of my blogs anymore. I’ve stopped following new people unless we actually start writing together, I never message new people because of my anxiety, and I don’t want to attract more activity because I’m not managing what I have now well at all. The past few years of my life have been disastrous for many reasons (work, family, health, etc.), and I am looking to downsize muses and blogs, so I don’t reach out to new people anymore. If they reach out to me, I do my best to accommodate them, because I have never been good at saying no or disappointing people as a consequence of my social anxiety. But otherwise, I don’t want to attract more activity when I know I already don’t have enough time and focus to maintain the activity I already have. So if you have followed me because of the rp etiquette of “if I follow I want to interact,” and I don’t follow back, it doesn’t necessarily mean I don’t want to write with you. Sometimes that is true. When I get followed I read the person’s rules. If I can’t find your rules, or if I see a rule that I feel I violate or would easily violate unintentionally, then I don’t look to write with you. However, there are times when someone follows and I think… oh wow, I’d love to write with them. But as I said, I have too many blogs/muses right now, so I feel it’s irresponsible to go looking for new connections when I don’t really properly maintain the ones I have. I don’t want to close my blogs for new interactions, per se, but I don’t go seeking out more activity either.

But the main reason I wanted to write this is to explain some issues I’ve been having with my memory lately. In the past four years, I’ve had Covid twice and I’ve been put on medications for an immunodeficiency illness, and both of those things have very much made my memory and my ability to keep track of things very poor. I am getting people confused on this site that I never did before, I weirdly repeat myself in posts, I am forgetting what I said in one thread vs. another, I’m forgetting to message people back, or I’ll promise to send in asks or whatever and then never do it. I also tend to get very confused between people who write the same characters, since all I have to go on is a url and an icon if I don’t know the person in real life. I’ve gotten rpers mixed up before because it’s all very jumbled in my head. Sometimes that makes people feel like I am being rude, inconsiderate, or that I don’t care about them, but that isn’t true. I genuinely just can’t hold onto thoughts and memories the way I could a few years ago. I’ve even had to leave my career field, for safety reasons because making stupid mistakes or forgetting to do things since my memory has been affected by Covid and my medications.

The issue of my memory is something that I’ve been in denial about because it’s a scary and upsetting thing, and I guess I’ve been trying to chalk it up to stress or whatever, but clearly that’s not the case, and I need to accept that I have a real problem. In recent months, I have not only gotten people mixed up, but I have done things like list the top 5 people of something and leave someone out, or say someone was the best or only person I wrote with when others write the same character, or replied to one person’s thread thinking I was writing to different person. Sometimes they are close friends of mine, or I’ve been writing with them longer than the ones I listed. Why would I not remember them? How could I screw things like this up? I don’t know. It’s disturbing to not be able to trust your memory, it honestly is.

When I don’t know people in person and all I see is a url and an icon, I sometimes get very confused. This has always been true for me, since way back with AIM in the 90s, but in recent years it’s been compounded by my memory issues. Thread plots and things get all jumbled in my head. I just wrote a thread the other day where I replied to someone and I thought I was replying to another person’s same version of that character. It was mortifying and I felt really bad. If this happens to you, or if I get your version confused in an OOC post, or if I compliment someone else’s version but not yours, it doesn’t mean your version is crap or doesn’t mean anything to me, it’s just that I’m having some focus and memory issues that are causing me to forget versions sometimes or to blend them together in my head. I will take greater care not to make such mistakes in the future, but when dealing with something like a buggy memory, it’s really hard.

People frequently change urls too, which is another thing that often throws me off, because then in my mind, it’s a totally different, new person until I have enough repetition to associate the new url with the person behind the old one. The number of blunders I’ve made recently with saying to people, “I’m sorry, who is this again?” has been staggering and very embarrassing for me. Like just having to ask that question is incredibly mortifying, but I need to do it more instead of trying to reply on my memory and then making very hurtful mistakes.

I have not been keeping up with things on this site as well as I should have in recent years, and that is a failing of mine. Personal relationships have suffered. Connections I’ve made here have fallen apart. I feel like it’s very much getting away from me in an overwhelming manner and I’m not sure how to fix it, other than downsizing blogs and muses, which I’m trying to do now. But that won’t fix my memory, so I’ll likely keep making mistakes even if I downsize. I ask that you please be patient with me, and if you think I’ve made a mistake or haven’t remembered something, please let me know. If doing that is too much trouble for you or you feel like you shouldn’t have to, I totally understand, and if you would feel more comfortable not interacting with me anymore, I respect your decision.

A word about how bad I am with messages… I have very bad social anxiety and messaging people sometimes causes me to have panic attacks or to feel very jittery or overwhelmed. For like, no reason. Even with good, close friends. It’s like…. brain, why. Because of this, I will usually not answer messages until and unless I am in a good headspace to do so. Or it could just be that I don’t have the time if it’s something I’m writing a really long reply to that I want to put adequate thought into. Whatever the reason, I frequently won’t answer right away because I need time to think of a response, or something else is making me anxious so I don’t feel up to replying. I fully intend to reply later, but then the poor memory kicks in, and I forget. Before I know it, I’ve sometimes got people angry that I have been ghosting them for months when I completely forgot I even got a message in the first place. I am kindly asking you to not take this personally. I’ve been doing a lot of this lately. Sometimes, to compound issues, this site doesn’t even tell me that I have messages in the first place, which for someone whose memory is screwed up, is seriously frustrating. I never ignore people unless I think they’re a bot, heh. So please, if you messaged me and I seem to just have completely ignored you, it's okay to message again and ask if I saw it. In fact, I encourage you to do that, because between Dumblr and my own memory, I have really been forgetting to message people back a lot lately, and it’s something I do feel badly about.

One thing I want to make very clear, is that I NEVER fault anyone for taking a hiatus, whether it’s three weeks or three years. Real life comes first, this is a hobby not a job, it should be fun, and if it ceases to be fun or feasible to keep up with then everyone needs to do what’s best for them, and I am perfectly fine with that. Hell, I’ve been taking more hiatuses in the past year than I’ve actually been around to write, because of various work, health, and family issues/obligations. I’m on a partial hiatus right now and likely through next week for jury duty, in fact. I never fault anyone for needing to step away. I’ve had people come back after like five years and still want to write and that’s fine. So if you’ve come out of hiatus and I’m “ignoring” you, it might be that I didn’t see your message, that I don’t remember who you were because of a url change or if it’s been many months or years, or that I don’t even know you’re back. Jog my memory as to what we were writing about, some of our plots and things, and I’m sure that I will remember. Unfortunately, my memory is just not great anymore, it’s a reality that I’ve struggled to come to terms with in recent years.

Also, and this is going to sound very rude I know, but it’s again… just my new normal and reality with regard to my memory. I really don’t have the time or focus to keep track of when everyone leaves or comes back from hiatus or for how long. Maybe this is bad rp etiquette on my part, but I don’t frequently read other people’s blogs or even scroll my dash that much anymore. I just don’t have the time. If I think of it for certain people that I haven’t heard from in a while or that I want to check in on, I may pop onto your blog, but most of the time I do tend to miss a lot of everyone’s OOC posts. I come on to write and then I go back to work (my current job is entirely online), or I go about my family obligations (I take care of my grandmother around the clock). Gone are the days when I used to keep in better touch with people or read all their OOC posts. It’s a combination of not having enough free time to do so and that I’ve really gotten crazy with the number of blogs and muses I have, and so I write with a multitude of people that I just can’t all keep track of. This is a problem of mine, I know, and I am in the process of whittling down my schedule and number of muses to help correct it as much as possible. But just because I didn’t know it was your birthday, or I didn’t like your hiatus post, or I didn’t respond to that post you wrote that said you were really sad and needed someone to talk to… doesn’t mean I don’t care. I do care a lot about people. I tend to soak up people’s problems and sadnesses like a sponge, unfortunately. I just don’t have the time to keep up with all the people I write with all the time. If there is something you really want/need me to know, message me. I know I said I often postpone replying for when I feel more up to doing so, but if it’s something very urgent or important, I will respond ASAP.

One last thing I was to address… please don’t let something that is upsetting you fester to the point where you’re seriously hurt by it. I never intentionally mean to hurt anyone. If anything, I am the most nonconfrontational, people-pleasing person you’ll meet. So if it appears that I’ve done or said or not done something that was really rude, or upset you, or that you feel was very wrong of me to do to you, I promise you it was not done with intention to hurt you. Please come talk to me about it. Don’t let it just sit for a long time and make you angry because I’m likely not even aware that you’re upset. I would like the opportunity to look at what happened and to address it, so that you can feel better and I can be made aware of what I did so as to try to avoid doing so in the future. The last thing I ever want to do to someone is make something into a painful thing they’ll carry with them for a long time. Believe me, I’m the kind of person who still remembers things from early childhood that hurt me and have stayed with me forever. Things have happened on this site, some my fault and some not my fault, that have haunted me for years because I end up feeling so terrible about it. I know that’s probably a product of my chronic anxiety, but even so, it doesn’t feel good at all and I would never want to do that to another person. So please bring something to my attention as soon as it happens so that it can be addressed, fixed, or at the very least explained.

Alright, I think that’s everything I wanted to address. I've tried to be as open and honest and I could possibly be. If this post changes your mind about wanting to interact with me, I understand. You all have to do what is best for you. I just wanted to be transparent with people because hurting someone badly really made me realize that this isn’t something that I can just dance over and hope it’ll all be okay. I’m now aware that it’s affecting real things and real people in negative ways, and so I wanted to make everyone aware.

Sorry for all the word vomit, but I thought this was very important to do. Again, if you’ve read to this point, thank you for taking that time to do so. I will continue to try to do as much as I can to conduct myself in a respectful manner with all of you, and I look forward to writing with those who still want to.

[radioaf-a]

{After very long debate with myself for the last three days I chosen to start fresh again with this blog and to archive it. Everything I sent up verses wise and ship wise with people are still very much in play and will taken over with me to the new blog. I just wanted to new start and just tog et away from the negatives I feel with this blog.

The new blog all set up with the same URL but yeah you can now find me and Al there now!! if you'd lie to keep rping with me like to this post so I know who to follow}

[gerudospiriit]

[For Munday, look at these cute jammies I got on clearance tho.]

[thenexusofsouls]

{i am the caretaker of souls} Welp... I've been bitten by the nostalgia bug for a show I used to watch 20+ years ago, heh, and so... new muse comin' atcha soon! I have a nagging feeling I'm not going to be able to do her justice, but I'm shoving aside my insecurities in favor of this character I love so so much. Seeing her again in the show after so long absolutely wrenched my heart in the best of ways. Some of her saddest episodes were on last night, and yes, I cried, and I just... I need to write her again. It's been a while since I have, and I've never written her on this site before, but I'm going for it. I started writing her "About" post last night, and I hope to have her added by tomorrow (1/6). If not, next Monday (1/13) at the latest. So be ready for a new muse, and whether I have her ready by tomorrow or not, I'll be here to answer other things as usual. See you tomorrow! =)

[hexvitya]

Incorrect but lowkey not wrong jayvik quotes in these sad times

Jayce: This should be illegal!

Viktor : It is.

Jayce: Do I sound smart, or am I smart?

Viktor : You sound unbearable, to be perfectly honest.

Jayce, with a headache: Advil me up, daddy.

Viktor : I will short out the language centre of your brain if you say anything like that ever again.

Jayce: Pardon me, but it sounds like you’re questioning my authority!

Viktor : Not at all, Jayce. Merely your primitive methods.

[scbrvght]

sherry lee watson & bryn chapman parish

[playbarbies]

guys guys hey guys i just came up with the most fun idea for a rpc game — create an OC based entirely off of a whose line is it anyway character prompt

[radioaf]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! IT'S OFFICIALLY 2025 HERE IN THE UK!!!!

I just want to thank you all for making 2024 so much more meaningful for me. I have love getting back into rping here again on tumblr I've met some amazing new people since getting into writing alastor and I just want to take a moment to talk about a few amazing people who honestly make my day better when rping and when not

@the-al-pals- sunny my dearest friend i feel like i can talk to you about anything and everything without judgement. You are amazing and so talented and I love what we have built togather with our al's. I can't wait for more hang outside where we watch movies and game plays. Honestly just tha know you for being you.

@demonsdealings - My Rp wife. Madi you honestly don't know how much of different you've made in my life I met you when I was at real low point and you came in and made me smile again and laugh an di love our little radiostatic ship your wiring Inspires me everytime. I'm so glad to call you my friend and to get to chat with you out of this hellsite. I'm so proud of you for everything you have going on at the moment.

@spidersins - Leona!!! I adore you and your angel so damn much your always there for me when I need a pick me up i love what we have plotted together and hopefully this year i can come visit you in person and give you the biggest hug ever and hopefully bring you along to comic con for the frist time!!!

@rradiio - Arcane I love how we can talk about anything and make jokes with each other honstley you brighten me days so damn much. I love what we have going on in our rps. I also love when you send me your art work and help me with little thing here and there like my icons the other day.

@voxiiferous - My darling Bug. You were one of the first people I ever interactive with when I first started rping alastor and since day one you have just been amazing and so kind and funny and I feel like we can talk anything and everything. I adore our media husbands and everything we have planned for them. I so excited that your back to writing vox again because it hasn't felt the same to me without you.

Know that I love all my mutals and I so excited for this new year and getting ti explore alastor character more and hopefully getting to know you all a little better and getting more plots and writing started.

Mutals to note who who mean the world to me

@toxitrosia @hells-greatestdad @gamblins @voxtek-time @hazbinned

You are all amazing, thank you for sticking around and big warm welcome to my newest followers.

All the best for the new years and all my undying love and support

Chaos 🖤

[hatchetsfield-arch]

y’all look at my birthday cake! do you think if we sing the summoning instead of happy birthday the lords in black’ll appear

[thiscrimsonsoul]

{out of paprikash} I was supposed to come out of hiatus today (12/14), but I've decided to give my MCU muses a wee break. The good news is, my classes have been wrapped up and grades are all in, so I'm off work until 1/21! The bad news is that it's been a very long week and I'm feeling tired and run down. My MCU muses have been a little quiet lately, and most of my muse is elsewhere atm, so I'd like to do some more writing over on @tarnishedxknight this weekend instead. Next weekend (12/21) I'll write my other group of Sat muses, and then the following Sat (12/28) I'll be back here. Sorry for the wait on replies, but sometimes you just need a break, you know? Thank you for your understanding, and I'll definitely be back on the 28th!

[freewillacquired]

{out of mutations} Alright, that's all for tonight. I should be back here again next Weds (1/15). See you then! =)