#❛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ ɪs ᴏɴ ᴄʀᴀᴄᴋ ᴏʀ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ❜ ( ooc. )

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HELLO FRIENDS.

as you can tell i’ve been really spotty lately, and a lot of it has had to do with entirely personal things. i did a lot of soul searching and self discovery these past few months, and i’ve reconsidered a lot about myself.

first of all, i came out ( part two ), and have discovered a sexuality that feels more fitting. pansexual. i’m still a big gay meme, ten thousand percent of the time, but this just makes more sense as to who i am. i like people. they’re great.

and, through that realization, i’ve been having a lot more of a private and social life. and i’m honestly really enjoying myself. i’m working a lot, yes, but when i’m not at work, i’m usually with friends. new friends that actually want to spend time with me and treat me well, as opposed to the friends i’ve often talked about on this blog. ( and this, of course, pertains to real life situations, as my internet friends are still close to my heart and still in immediate contact with me pretty much always bc i’m The Worst. )

writing, in general, has taken a bit of a back seat to all of this madness. and i do miss it, but i don’t have the strong pull towards it like i used to. i don’t feel the sense of urgency and anxiety when i’m not online, which is a good thing, but also a sad thing in a way. because i don’t want to leave this community and this place and this blog behind.

so i’m not going to. my activity will still be infrequent, and as of right now, jess will be put on a HIATUS. however, this isn’t permanent, and this isn’t goodbye.

anyone who wants to contact me can do so through skype, or -- if i feel comfortable enough -- text message. i’ve got a lot of close friends on various forms of social media already, but keeping in touch with as many of you as i can is something i’m 100% willing and eager to do.

thank you for bearing with me, everyone. it means a lot to me. ♥

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since there’s a lot of jess blogs now can we form #jesssquad again

i’ll make us jackets

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i turn 25 in 6 days

lort help me

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hi hi.

i’m going through a lot of Personal Stuff, so if i’m not around as often, that’s why. it’s stuff i just gotta work through and get over, i guess. but i’ll still log on and be around -- it’ll probably just be lurking and behind the scenes stuff. ( i’ve been feeling less and less like being on here since last weekend, anyways, and idk why, so. )

thanks in advance for your patience on IC stuff. xo

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SLAMS FISTS ON THE TABLE.

i’m still alive. ( barely. )

i’ve been working my Ass off lately i’m so tired. coworkers keep going on vacation, and events keep happening, and i keep getting all the extra hours :~~) and! on top of that, i have a second job now, so when i’m not a slave to the retail industry, i’m working at home on that. god help and forgive me.

i know i’ve been spotty and slow, but i have this upcoming weekend off ( so far ), so hopefully i’ll be around to get some stuff going.

thank you for you patience xo

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when ur bf drops u down a mine shaft and tells everyone you’re Dead :~~~)

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this blog is on SEMI-HIATUS until 4/17. i work too much to really worry about being on here ( it’s a two holiday week ), and i still am going through personal stuff that i need to focus on. plus, with my mental health in a big ball of confusion, it’s making the brief time that i do spend on here miserable because of my anxiety, so that’s not helping. i’ll be back soon, hopefully.

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iM STILL ALIVE IM JUST RLY BUSY PLS DONT THINK MACKLE HAS FORGOTTEN HER ROOTS OK THANK U AMEN xoxox

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u leave for 3 days and everything is just Wild

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hello. tis i. the mackle.

i survived con weekend (!!!!!) but i am Very Tired and Very Sore so don’t expect much for a couple of days while i catch up on sleep and energy xoxoxo

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dear tumblr:

the new I/T trailer is out!! and since this fandom is super horror oriented, do mackle a Big Solid and TAG YOUR CLO.WNS. i am beyond terrified of them and i will have a panic attack if i see that shit anywhere near my dash. i’ve already got cl/owns blacklisted, but i’ll add “I/T” related tags to be super safe. just do me a favor and TAG. THAT. SHIT.

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this is a gentle reminder that if i cannot read your theme, i will not follow your blog, even if your character is The Best of the best. ( it’s in my rules, actually, bc of my dyslexia and my piss poor vision with and without my glasses. ) responses along the lines of ‘the zoom in button is free’ are rude and condescending. thank u xo

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pokes head in.

hello friends and fans.

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oh my god THANK YOU for sticking up for jess in terms of her reasoning for the prank. obviously the prank was needless and mean but hannah should have known better than to try to make a committed person cheat. she was naive, yeah, but that doesn't change the fact that her actions were hurting people, including her own friends. the prank was awful and ended up doing more harm than anyone could have predicted, but hannah's not an angel and jess is not satan

!!! you’re welcome.

there’s a lot of complicated feelings that go into talking about the prank and the motives behind it. and i think a lot of people go into it thinking that jess and em are your typical mean girls, picking on the geeky, shy girl with a crush on the most popular boy in school, and leave it at that. and the more i think about it, the angrier i get, because a lot of people don’t want to talk about the shit that hannah did wrong?

because yes, she is naive, but she’s not dumb. and like you said, she was willing to hook up with a guy who was not only taken, but dating her supposed friend!! and that’s not a cute look on anyone whatsoever! and, with the magazine clippings in her room, and the way you can read her diary and her pure excitement and badgering of josh in terms of if mike was going or not, you can come to the conclusion that she was actively flirting with a man who was dating her friend. she put emily’s feelings and wants aside because i’m a nicer girl, therefore i deserve this and she doesn’t. and a lot of people follow suit in that logic.

just because emily is rough around the edges does not mean she isn’t suddenly deserving of happiness, and like it or not her and mike were and item, and even after they broke up the game makes it obvious that they’re still close. and emily shouldn’t have to sacrifice that momentary happiness because hannah stomps her feet and thinks her and mike are gonna get married and ride off into the sunset. no one’s really there to set her straight about it – sam is her best friend, so she’s understandable delicate, and beth is her sister, so beth has her back no matter what she gets herself into. so, really, jess and emily are the only people who really try to get the idea into her head that it’s not her time.

now, does this justify the cruelty of what they did? no way. they went too far, and they got themselves in over their head when they realized just how badly they fucked up. though it’s hard to see it, they had good intentions of trying to show and tell hannah that she was making a horrible mistake ( by going to hook up with her friend’s boyfriend not two doors down from where her friend was ), but jess and emily ( and mike ) let their own agendas get in the way, and instead of staging and intervention how i met your mother style, they chose to humiliate her. ( and i can only assume the idea to go this far came from frustration on emily’s behalf, watching someone pine after her boyfriend every single day, and protection on jess’s behalf, since emily is her best friend and would do anything to help her. )

this probably came out in a way that looks like i’m shaming hannah, which i’m not, but it’s just frustrating for me, too, to look at this situation and see the way people react to it, shoving all the blame onto jess and emily when hannah was very much in the wrong, and very few people are actually willing to say it out loud.

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idk when i turned into a gaming bro but i can’t stop playing overwatch god help and forgive me

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when ur con group chat goes from you and another girl and your gay male friend to you, your gay male friend, and two straight guys and they Won’t Stop talking over you even though you’ve been to more cons than all of them combined :~~~)