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How does Elsa handle being a bisexual (that leans towards females) with her religion and royal status? Does she feel guilty? Does she hide it like she hides her powers?

For a long time, Elsa didn’t consider any form of relationship. With her powers the way they were, she couldn’t trust herself to be close enough to anyone for that. Her parents never looked into setting up an engagement. She settled herself into being the queen for her lifetime before passing the crown down Anna’s line. It made the most sense.

After the thaw, the topic of relationships and more specifically marriage came back around again. She deferred the questions when asked in public, giving a polite smile and a trite response. In private, she gave the question some deep thought. It had never been something she’d let herself imagine — and now she was, she realised she felt much the same about women as she did about men. If not... more about women.

Elsa is lucky in that Arendelle broke away from mainstream ideas of the Church a long time before. With their isolated status, taking care of each other became much more of the focus than anything else. And taking care of each other meant accepting people. During her father’s minority, the idea of queerness was seen as… well, not as normal as now, but acceptable. The norm was still expected: man and woman, children. But when you are freezing through a Nordic winter, what your neighbour does in the privacy of their own home is less of a concern than if they’ll help shovel you out in the morning. Arendelle’s prejudices definitely turned more against magic, especially after the Battle of the Dam. By the time Elsa was on the throne, it wasn't such a scandal any more.

It was something she didn’t tell anyone for a good while. Even though she was interested in women, and even though Arendelle was an outlier for the time — LGBTQ+ couples are accepted, their blacksmiths are wives for example — as queen, she knew there were expectations of her. Alliances, and more importantly, heirs. Were she not the monarch, she would have more freedom.

So when she’s no longer the queen, well. Suddenly the future seems a lot more open. Anna, of course, is the first person she told. Honeymaren steals a kiss a few months after the fall of the dam, even if it doesn’t turn into anything more serious. It’s Elsa’s first, and she’s a bit dazed for at least an hour afterwards. It takes everything she has to keep Anna from trying to set her up on dates.

As for going public? Well, if she ever turns up with someone on her arm, no matter who that person might be, then people will know. She's not making an announcement beforehand. Enough of her life has been splashed around in public, she gets to keep one thing private.

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elsa can be mean. elsa can be cruel. with how tightly she kept her emotions bound as a child, teenager and young adult, sometimes that energy comes out as anxiety. sometimes depressive moods. but sometimes also by snapping at people, her temper short. scathing remarks she never truly meant to say, but just slip out. she never means to, she always regrets it afterwards, but she can be short with people. even those she loves dearly and cares for.

she wonders sometimes why it is she said such things. it rarely happens after the thaw, her emotions now more healthily dealt with. but deep down she suspects it was to make others hate her the way she thought she deserved. to make the all too forgiving people around her see her the way she saw herself. thankfully, that is also something that gets better once the secret is out and she no longer has to hide such a huge part of herself.

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do not reblog.

Elsa sees herself as the one in charge, the one to be held accountable. She is queen and so the entire kingdom is her responsibility. And if it is her responsibility then it is her fault when things go wrong (see: Forest of Shadows). Being Anna’s big sister, especially after the thaw, she sees herself as having the role of comforter. She is the eldest and she still harbours that guilt for the thirteen years of isolation, a time where she saw herself as the catalyst of all her family’s problems. To go to Anna with a problem of her own, well that’s just bothering her little sister with another of her issues. She runs a kingdom, she tells herself, she can handle this voice issue. Until she can’t. She can handle going into Ahtohallan to find the truth. Until she can do nothing with the information and dies. Elsa sees herself as the comforter, protector, guide. She feels she must only inhabit those roles because she has already caused others so much grief. To put another problem on Anna is to take advantage of her sister in Elsa’s mind. She just doesn’t want to feel like a burden again. She struggles to see herself as worthy of love and support and so she stops people from being able to love and support her the way they want to.