#✿⠀˙⠀꒱⠀⠀𝗻𝗮𝘆𝗮𝗌𝖺𝖾𝗍𝖺𝗇𝗀⠀﹐⠀colloquy⠀⠀.

[oatslattes]

꒰     ﾉ     .     ‎꣑꣒             “     you're   just   messing   with   me     !     what   are   you   trying   to   prove     ?     ”

[oatslattes]

꒰     ﾉ     .     ‎꣑꣒          “     nakakainis   ka     ,     you're   so   cute      !      babe     ,     that's   not   weird   at   all     ,     i   promise     .     i'm   sorry   for   doubting   you     .     you   were   acting   strange   this   morning     ,     i   thought   something   was   wrong     .     ”

         ⠀𝜗୧ㅤׂ⠀⠀⋆⠀⠀    “   i   just   want   to   do   something   nice   for   you   ,   babe   .   maybe   that   is   weird   because   i   never   really   did   such   nice   gestures   before   ,   but   i   want   to   change   that   if   you   let   me   .   ”

[oatslattes]

꒰     ﾉ     .     ‎꣑꣒          naya   felt   lost     ,     hopeless—   she   doesn't   know   what   to   do   anymore     .     they   tried   everything   that   their   doctor   had   recommended     ,     even   going   as   far   as   getting   treatment   for   it     ,     but   again—   for   the   third   time     ,     she   had   a   miscarriage     .     this   one   in   particular   weighed   her   down   emotionally   because   apart   from   the   constant   worry     ,     she   became   more   hopeful   that   it   was   going   to   work   out   this   time   around   and   nothing   will   go   wrong     .     that   was   until   the   previous   night   where   she   had   to   be   brought   to   the   emergency   room   because   she   was   in   so   much   pain     .     they   were   home   now     ,     but   the   room   felt   cold     ,     colder   than   usual   and   naya   wasn't   used   to   it     .     “     no     ,     we're   not   in   a   rush     ,     i   just     ...     i   got   excited   the   first   time   and   i   thought   things   will   get   better   this   time     ,     ”     naya   tried   to   keep   her   composure   and   hold   her   tears   in     ,     but   the   moment   their   eyes   met     ,     they   fell   down   her   cheeks     .     “     i   don't   know     ,     mahal—   hindi   ko   na   'din   alam   gagawin   ko—   i   want   to   keep   trying     ,     pero   kung   ganito   ulit   yung   magiging   result   the   next   three   or   four   times     ,     then   maybe   something   is   wrong   with   me   and   i   don't   want   to   keep   getting   your   hopes   up     .     ”     

* ㅤ ₊   ౨ৎ   ˚          “   babe   ,   it’s   not   your   fault   .   you   did   nothing   wrong   ,   ”   mikee   whispers   ,   wrapping   his   arms   around   her   ,   trying   to   comfort   her   as   best   as   he   can   .   he   knows   he   can   never   fully   grasp   the   pain   she’s   going   through   ,   but   his   heart   breaks   alongside   hers   .   he   wants   a   family   with   her   just   as   much   as   she   does   ,   and   it   feels   impossibly   unfair   that   while   others   seem   to   conceive   so   easily   ,   they   continue   to   struggle   .   but   he   knows   resenting   others   wouldn’t   ease   their   pain   .   “   you   did   well   ,   babe   .   maybe   …   maybe   it   just   isn’t   the   time   yet   ,   ”   he   murmurs   ,   his   voice   thick   with   sorrow   .   “   i   want   this   as   much   as   you   do   .   but   we're   not   on   a   rush   ,   are   we   ?   ”   he   squeezes   her   hand   gently   ,   their   gazes   meeting   ,   his   eyes   reflecting   the   same   sadness   as   hers   .   “   what   do   you   want   to   do   ?   whatever   it   is   ,   let’s   do   it   together   ,   mahal   .   ”

[oatslattes]

꒰     ﾉ     .     ‎꣑꣒         “     but   i'm   really   not   drunk   yet     !     ”     she   was   and   with   the   way   she   was   clinging   onto   his   arm   because   she   couldn't   see   clearly     ,     naya   had   gone   over   her   limits     .     “     saan   mo   ko   iuuwi     ?     sasamahan   mo   ba   ko     ?     i   don't   wanna   be   alone     .     ”

* ㅤ ₊   ౨ৎ   ˚          “   see   ?   this   is   exactly   what   i’m   trying   to   prove   .   masyado   ka   ng   lasing   to   function   and   think   well   .   iuuwi   na   kita   .   ”