#✰ — Phoenix ✶ Don't you dare forget the Sun

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@sumiiregarii's Asuka wished upon a Shooting Star!

"See what I'm hearin' is a lot of talk but let's see that walk."

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"Who took a leak in your cereal? Damn, at least wait until I finish the story!" At least don't let all of Jamie's bragging go to waste, but he takes it anyway. "Sooo ya got any creamer on you? Stuff's pretty bitter without it."

❝ just shut up and take the fucking coffee. ❞

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                Tell me I can change,                                tell me I can change ...

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I don't drip rubies because I need to feel the pain or I want to punish myself, life punishes me enough, you have punished me enough, I have punished me enough, they have punished me enough. I don't carve a map in the deep rich soil of my skin for attention, or maybe I do. I believe I scrape crude tally marks into myself because I want to remind myself that at some point I felt pain, because in the morning I'll forget. You say, "Good! Let yourself forget. You'll wear a honeycomb dripping smile in the morning so what's the use in chiselling your temporary sadness in the night?" What's the use? WHAT'S THE USE? What is the use. I do this to myself because if I forget in the morning it won't be sweet, sap running from my lips, instead I will have soldering iron seething from behind clenched teeth. My lips will stay in a straight line, my tongue caging the smoke and ash of past without the rebirth of a phoenix, but my eyes will dance in somber purple flames, burning, churning slowly, without a cackling spark. Not a dance like a beautiful girl seducing her man, not a dance like a dramatic tango, not even a dance of a young, flexible girl who bled, cried, and sweat out her short life to perform a misunderstood contemporary piece, but a dance like the man who walks in the dead of night in the allies of New Orleans, recognizing the spirits who weep there but disregards them for the steady stream of velvet and blues that flows into his ears and quietly wraps itself around the pink, squishy, fragile matter enclosed in our pounding heads that we call the source of our being. No, I will not be happy at the break of dawn once I forget, I will have an unspoken emotion. I will become my shadow,  my stupid silly shadow who is unafraid of the scorching sun, but is terrified of the sweet embrace of the man in the moon and the calming, inspiring stories of the stars swimming around him. I will be both sad and filled with fiery rage. Somehow I'll be between a mix of fire and salt water and the gray cold mist of a morning on an Oregon coast. Filled with emotion and emotionless all at once. That is why my skin drips rubies, rubies that aren't really rubies but tart pomegranate seeds and molasses, it is because if I forget in the morning, I will live a life of bitter thoughts for no apparent reason. I will have no origin or words for the way that I am. Don't tell me that I am just a silly girl. Don't you dare say, "it's just a phase. You're just a teenager. You don't know what you're saying" because you may be right, but you asked me what's wrong and this is the closest I've got. I scream "STOP JUDGING ME!" and you laugh at me saying that I'm just seeking attention. The people outside of my house,  not my home mind you, ridicule me and laugh innocent laughs, and I cry a flood that could turn the one that carried Noah's ark to shame. Excuse me, I'm sorry I'm just rambling. I had more words to say, but it's almost dawn and soon I'll forget again. But what do I know, I'm just a stupid teen going through a phase forged from hormones. Good morning.

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@skytired said: ❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ [ Kay/o to Phoenix ] Assortment of Dialogue Prompts || Accepting

"A scratch that I fixed. C'mon, one more second and she would've been nothin'!" Phoenix dusted off what remained on the shoulders of his jacket, pout evident in his disappointment in having been pulled away from a moment he saw fit to seize himself. The help was appreciated but he couldn't very well brag about an accomplishment he barely came out of alive. Sure, he'd taken quite a beating but those were warrior's badges he could wear with pride if he managed to hold his own. Leave it to the bot to steal his thunder and save his skin.

Still, his ego persists, and a smirk quickly takes the place of his frown. "Gotta admit I was dustin' them right? Right? C'mon, you and I are the dream team! Team Forge doesn't go down easily!"

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@valorheroics​ said: ❝  could you just…talk to me?  it doesn’t have to be anything important.  i just like listening to your voice.  it calms me.  ❞  ||  from Jett for Phoenix Conversational Sentence / Emotionally Charged Starters || Accepting

Phoenix wasn't sure what to make of that but his shoulders slump almost instantly as he processes her words and sits beside her. "Yeah no problem. Just let me know what you need and I'm here, yeah? Say the word!" His tone is hushed despite his enthusiasm, brows knitting into concern but the obvious question never quite leaves the pout that he wears. Phoenix knows better than to badger her about the ins and outs of how she feels, knowing that Jett didn't like to be coddled, let alone having her independence put into question. Although, it was hard for him to think of something to ramble on and on about from the top of his head, which invites a silence that he can't really say is comfortable. If only because he knows that she's expecting him to break it with something worthy of her attention.

Draping himself over his knees he ponders, looking just about anywhere but her gaze to try and conjure something worth talking about. "..." Every road let to a dead end, a nowhere path that couldn't save him from his fading hope. Think. He didn't want to let her down. Not here, not now, not ever.

But his thoughts go blank as he tries to bounce ideas around. Each one falling short as memories of conversations he's had at home interrupted to surface. It was summer time, they'd all be out at some amusement park right about now to celebrate the end of school if he were still back at home.

Wait a minute.

"Ya know, it's been a hot minute since we've been out. I know we can't be out all that often because of what we do but the next time big man's lettin' us off the leash, we should grab a few more heads and hit a theme park! I'm dyin' to see if the fearless Jett can handle a couple coasters." He snickers, a hand hovering over her head. "If she's tall enough to ride."

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@erobret said: " the hell are you looking at ? " - ashe

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, easy!" He holds his hand up in surrender, keeping his distance even as he explains himself to avoid irritating her any further. "I was just, you know, admirin' the fit. Looks really nice on you—especially the hat! Would look a lot better with some flame decals though."

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@covetcore said: ❝ Don’t tell me how to breathe, mouth breather. ❞ ( From Karmyn for Jamie while they're both at the gym. ) 𝐓 𝐎 𝐗 𝐈 𝐂 𝐈 𝐓 𝐀 || Accepting

"Wha-?!" He stands perplexed, and a little offended while he sets the weights in his hands down lest he risk dropping them in his surprise. "What does the way I breathe have anythin' to do with it?! What's wrong with breathin' through my mouth?" A thousand thoughts flood his mind at once, trying to think of a reason as to what might have caused that reaction. "All I'm sayin' is breathin' through your nose like that is probably throwin' off your rhythm. C'mon, take some advice from the king, I know a little somethin' about success, Mynnie." His confidence flows through his actions, smirk and expression.

"So are you gonna keep playin' games or take my advice? Only one of us hit their own personal best on the treadmill today, so what's it gonna be?"

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@unmyeoung said: 💋   to   share   a   Hershey's   kiss   with   my   muse. (neon fifi) Brother this is from another dimension || Not Accepting

"Hey T, got a sweet tooth?" Phoenix shakes the bag of candy he's mysteriously gotten his hands on and digs into while his hands search for something specific, smile brimming the second his fingers graze it and grabbing a handful to show her. Sat at the palm of his hands were silvery treats, commonly referred to as "kisses," he so eagerly tells her. "Wanna share? First one's on me." While she debates, he unravels the candy and offers it to her lips with a grin.

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Cont. || X || @reputahtion

"I know, I know, big man's antsy." Eyes roll to show his annoyance with the situation but Reyna's comments only add to the mild frustration on his brow. This was a damn good outfit and he was wasting it indoors with a limited number of eyes that got to see him. If his confidence was anything to flaunt he needed the attention he thought he deserved to even scratch the surface of the ego he wanted to inflate. Man, what was the point? Something of a pout appears on his lips as he rolls his eyes and dramatically drags himself a little closer to her while his gaze follows her gesture. A light attempt to display his displeasure while he tried to focus on what he actually needed to do while they were in here.

Seconds pass before his mind has already rebelled against the idea of memorizing any of this. Not willingly, of course, but he could never be bothered to read a brief, let alone a map. One would think an image would be easier on the mind than a few sentences but evidently not. "So … how much of this do you actually have down?" The question holds nothing to it other than the meaning itself, genuine curiosity. "Just askin'." He adds, suddenly a little self conscious about the question.

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@skytired said: “ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ” [ reyna to phoenix ] Question Prompts || Not Accepting

"Gimme a second and I'll have it!" He quips back, although he hopes his jest is easy to spot in his obvious smirk and readjustment of his jacket. Normally he stood armed with his wit like the gun held firmly in his hands but for once he stood without both, staring at the situation with a little bit of curiosity and something akin to a pout forming on his lips as he tries his damnedest to make something out of it. What he settles on isn't particularly clever but he hopes it'll be reassuring, at the very least.

"I mean it doesn't look … the worst?"

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@dimensionalspades said: ❝  something is troubling you,  yes?  ❞ (to Phoenix from Sova)

"Do I look like a liability to you?" The question practically explodes as it falls from troubled lips, pacing back in forth with mild irritation, confusion and something close to hurt reflected in his expression. "Needed in other places. C'mon, that's just another way of sayin' I'm benched! She benched me!" It doesn't occur to him that the she in his statements hasn't been thoroughly explained due to the lack of context clues he's given the other agent too bombarded by a mix of emotions he hadn't quite figured out yet. "I should be out there! Stealth? I can do stealth with my eyes closed! I get in, do a little sneakin' around, pop a few corners and bam, mission's done. I shouldn't be here!"

Phoenix can't bring himself to properly exaggerate how he was feeling other than the way he throws his hands around as he rants, dragging his limbs with every pause and throwing them around frantically at every minor rise in inflection. Rolling his eyes he knows the fit he's throwing now is futile, but that doesn't make it any less appealing to his bruised pride.

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@toxichem said: ❛ don't you think you've already done enough damage for one day? ❜ ( for phoenix ) Forty Questions || Accepting

"What?! Viper, c'mon, I'm gutted!" It's hardly a time to jest as flames are still snuffed out by foam and water, counter and stove singed by his foolish mistakes and ambitious goals. It's a tall ask for him to expect her to be anything other than miffed with the task of righting his mistakes. An honest attempt at making something worth eating was quickly ruined by folly and lack of experience, causing the pan full of eggs he so earnestly prepared to sizzle into a disaster. Encouraged by his own flames it grew into a problem he wasn't equipped to handle on his own, hence Sabine.

"I just turned away for a second, honest! I lit it up, gave it a little extra heat, turned to start gettin' the rest and then fwoosh, fire!" Ironically, not one he could safely put out by himself. Thankfully, he was quick enough to grab Sabine's attention before he effectively burned down the entire kitchen.

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@skytired said: ❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ [ Reyna to Phoenix ] Last Meme || Not Accepting

"Knock yourself out." A nod to the seat beside him as he sat back, drink in hand with no real spark in the brown eyes that often housed it. A bummer on his mood brought on by recent circumstance and being left in the dark by Brimstone's questionable decisions. It was difficult to be on the guy's side when his silence kept them in constant fear of what they've witnessed around base. Hallways swallowed by a black so dark it didn't just capture the light, it snuffed it out completely. Sweat beading on skin previously undisturbed and a sense of fright he couldn't explain. Not to mention the complaints he heard from other agents, namely Raze, he knew he wasn't crazy for suspecting something was going on. Brimstone wasn't letting them in on anything and Cypher wasn't exactly loose-lipped either.

"You notice anythin' recently?" Phoenix turns to her with a raised brow and his tone says everything that his words don't. "Feels like this place has been drivin' me mad lately and nothin's changed. Least not with the rest of us."

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@unmyeoung said: ❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜ (fifixneon) Assortment of Dialogue Prompts || Accepting

Leaning forward he listens to her without question, lips clasping around the spoon presented to him and letting his eyes answer for him as they widen in excitement. "Mmm!" A nod adds to his positive reaction, happily swallowing it down with a splitting grin. "You have got to hook me up with some of that! How did you learn to cook like this?! Ma's got skills if this is all from her!" He'd heard her talk about her cooking experience before, but it still blew his mind that she could whip something up like this so quickly and effortlessly.

There were so many things about her that he admired which made it even harder to impress her.

"For real, you're poppin' off with this. I know you make the good stuff, Neon."

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@unmyeoung said: ❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜ (firestorm) Assortment of Dialogue Prompts || Accepting

This rain was seriously killing whatever mood he thought he was setting here to end the little vacation that was now coming to an end. It isn't every day that he gets to come back to his hometown, let alone with company in tow but somehow he forgot how much it poured in London during his time away. Suddenly, memories of rainy days and umbrellas came flooding back the moment he heard it fall, watching it from under the protection of a local shop. Making it back to the hotel at this rate was going to take a while if they had to stop to take cover everywhere they went.

For a moment he's distracted by the rain and the dent it puts in his plans that he almost misses what she says to rule it void. "What?" Phoenix perks up, eyes flickering from her to the rain and then back to her. Was his moping that obvious? Trying to remain cool he attempted not to seem fazed by her abrupt comment, clearing his throat and somewhat pouting the more he looked out at the dreary day. Despite the unfortunate weather, he'd kept his promise of taking her around town all day, so it wasn't a complete waste.

And now certainly not.

"You sure? You serious?"