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mattsprincesa · 1 day ago

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LOVE OR LUST

warnings: fwb, mentions of sex, toxic?

not proofread, divider @cyberbeat

wc: 418

“What's your problem?” Chris's voice rang through her phone's speaker as she groaned, annoyed at the boy's constant denial. “I know you’re with your ex, why don’t you just tell me the truth?” she asked as she looked down at her nail beds. Chris had enough she was always calling him and in his business, this whole situation was supposed to be casual now she was in his face about every little damn thing. “Hello?” she questioned hearing him take a long sigh before hanging up the phone leaving her dumbfounded.

There was no way in hell he would just hang up on her, after all these times he would constantly ask her where she was so she decided to return the favor. She lifted her phone down from her ear and began texting him pissed off as to why he suddenly hung up.

She waited and waited for a reply even a simple one-word message would've meant something, but all she got was radio silence. It went on for days, she would text him all to be left with the small words “seen”. She truly didn’t know what his problem was; she thought things were going well, as well as they could be going in their situation. Was it ideal? No, but they made it work.

The agreement was simply friends with benefits. How hard could it be? Both of them, however, being as stubborn as they were, would never admit that recently they started feeling things for each other much deeper and meaningful than just sex.

Whenever he was near she felt her heart start to flutter a little more rapidly than it normally would, The same goes for him he found him wanting to savor their quick lust-filled moments. It had started to show in the bedroom as well, his thrusts would be deeper and more passionate, like he was carving to be close to her.

The kisses lingered longer, and the touches became slow and sensual when everything before was rushed and not much thought behind them. She wasn’t sure when she had started liking Chris if that’s what this feeling even was, she didn’t know love let alone how to love someone.

And Chris? He didn’t do relationships too scared of commitment but he found his mind drifting off when he was around her, thinking that maybe just maybe they could make it work. But the same question always lingered in the back of their minds. Was this love or was it lust?

notes: yes i did text myself on insta for this