#♡ admin ; salem

[optimisticjewl7048]

So I saw this post saying. " Don't rush grief out the door. invite her in for tea and take notes. She has much to teach you." So here I am being very raw and real to hopefully inspire and help the next. (⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♡. There has been so much to grieve over the last few years. I started a journey that had no destination, 6ish years ago but I wanted better for myself. The first 3ish years on and off I fought though homeless. ( My home life was kinda toxic so I left Michigan to move to Nevada with no genuine support I struggled) I fought though abusive from people very close to me (mental,physical, emotional and sexual). I fought through watching people close to me struggle with pains and addiction that I couldn't save them from.. I could barely do for myself.. I fought through death of 2 people very close to me ( my mom and best friend Salem) . I fought myself... Lost and confused of who I even was. I fought so much. But through that I look and where the journey has led me. I still had passion and hope inside me to do something better,

to be better. I became a camp counselor at the YMCA, then to becoming a Before and After School Teacher at 2 different schools, to now being an Admin at a very profound tutoring center. ----All while still going to school for environmental conservation and holistic health? Don't play with me lol. Right now feels like a new beginning, I'm definitely not done and what I intent to create is so much bigger than myself. I never imagined this. Looking at my past and the pains the world has laid on me I now know I can use these pains to help and prevent others from experiencing what I experienced or help them go through what their going through.. I didn't think I would make it to 25. BUT. GUESS WHAAT! I'm 26 and loving it( still ups and downs but we grow). Lol. WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID!! If you have beef with me eat my ass! You don't even know the wavelength. But for those going through it know that this isn't the end and you can do hard things. It's okay to grief and be sad and mad and angry. I've cried so much but each tear meant something to me.Each tear had me look with in. And with facing those feelings, and being gentle with myself, it brought me back up on my feet to try again. To find my purpose. To go places I didn't know I would ever be. So again Keep going friends! ! We are on a healing journey and that's okays.