#♙Ethical contradictions between my actions and what I've said||Headcanon♙

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🎧 ( here i am, waiting for a nate + harriet playlist )

@oblame

“It’s not easy to care about things.” The words filled the air a gentle sigh spreading between them. Hazel eyes moving around the room landing anywhere but her. “It’s… different with you though. I can’t explain it. It just… makes sense.”

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📖+ domestic!nate

this was one of the few times nathaniel latierre had considered putting the suit away for good. he had watched what became of the children of heroes, often neglected as their parents rushed around saving the world. it was something that he had never wanted to project onto his own family. something that he would have hated for them to feel.. it wasn’t an easy decision, it should have been. but it wasn’t easy to make haze dissipate. it stuck longer than nathaniel thought it would. he began to enjoy the thought of simply being nathaniel latierre. enjoyed that they were now even more of a family than before. he remembers the early days sitting by the crib singing quietly to the boy.

he remembers the months he went simply as himself, the pride he felt. and the pride fell away as he watched reports on the news speaking about heroes sustatining injuries, new villains rising up. it... consumed him. it should have been easy to quit... he had just started. but somehow that made it so much worse. there was no good he’d done yet, all the public saw was smoke. their fears and accusations surfaced. and it was tiring. it was exhausting putting the mask on and wearing the suit. but it was rewarding, they were shaping the future for their family. nate hoped it would be a future worth living in.

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LEADER / charlie hunnam + male + he/him.┊ ❛ ━ hey, is it just me or do you hear blue by ken ashcorp playing in the distance ? oh, thats just haze, a lawful evil member of the syndicate of villains. i suspect they might be nathaniel latierre, a forty year old forensic medical examiner with the ability to manipulate smoke. according to my sources, he can be versatile, but also opportunistic which is probably why they remind everyone of a crackling fireplace in an empty house and calloused fingers against a piano so much. anyway, a supervillain or not, crystalline city is keeping a close eye on them !

olly back at it again to introduce someone who hopefully can have connections to all of your bbies either directly or by reputation. hey there ghouls its ya boi, the atlas here to break your hearts.  pinterest, & spotify feel free to reach me here or at my discord Sunshine Bean🌻#0715 for plots and such.

tw: implications of violence and death

BREAKING NEWS: FORMER HERO HAZE SPOTTED AGAIN BREAKING NEWS: FORMER HERO HAZE PUTS ANOTHER IN THE HOSPITAL. BREAKING NEWS: FORMER HERO HAZE....

there had been a time when nathaniel had everything he could have wanted. he was in a happy marriage, had a son and adopted daughter, he had a family. a home. he had been happy, so what pushed him over the edge? what shifted and made the weight of his world crush him entirely?

perhaps it had been the swarm of negativity from the public. the comments that it was only a matter of time before someone got hurt by him.  there were certain abilities that would always taint you. it was only a matter of time before he purposefully filled someone's lungs with smoke. only a matter of time before he lashed out against the public.

perhaps it was knowing that the public would never change it’s mind. that all they would ever see was a monster. the mutants were monsters, each and every one of them. he had stood still too long. watched too many of his friends die. watched too many of the people who so carelessly risked their lives to save people who didn’t give a shit about what happened to them.

he’d watched too many civilians lose someone because their family was actively standing against the anti-mutant rioters. it was careless violence, meaningless death. there was no honor to it. it was just the simple loss of life of people who didn’t deserve to die.

there were many things that nathaniel didn’t agree with. simply waiting and seeing how the wind would blow. waiting and letting their actions prove them wrong. he had his family both blood and the family he had found in his years to worry about. if something would have happened to them... he would have never forgiven himself.

he wouldn’t stand aside and watch the children of heroes and their supporters become orphans. he wouldn’t allow their souls to so easily be tainted. and nathaniel had always been one for self-sacrifice. it was one of his many flaws. there were plenty of stupid decisions made in his life and this... was one that weighed heavy on his conscious.

there had been many groups before him. many villains, and vigilantes that tried making a name for themselves. perhaps the biggest regret was bringing them together. the forming of the syndicate. he’d convinced himself it would only be a year... and then it turned into two. as the fifth year of the formation passes him swiftly he wonders if there is even a way for him to change a world so hell-bent on remaining broken. 

perhaps it would be better for him to just disappear. drift to another city and pick a new mask up. shift identities and try to do anything good again... but he didn’t deserve it. he couldn’t leave his home in a mess that he caused. he wouldn’t. he had fallen too far for him to even believe that he could do good anymore.

when haze finally fell there would be no mourning for him. no candles would be lit. and the public would not weep. it was a fact that nate had come to accept. he had become a monster. tainted his name. he had been haze for nineteen years... he had thrown fourteen years of good deeds to the wind. abandoned them.

he often wondered what came of those who used to cheer for their favorite support hero haze. for the dynamic duo of silver knight and haze. was he a monster that haunted their dreams now? was he the beast that they used to desire to be put behind bars? the thoughts were ones that kept him awake. did everyone he used to know think he had become a monster that needed to be destroyed? because he did.

he hid his motives. were anyone to know why he was doing what he was doing, he was sure he would be replaced. weak. his motives made him weak. he valued the lives of others, and that was something that he couldn’t afford to do anymore. yet he couldn’t help it.

just a few connection ideas

{1/∞} “There is nothing glorious about me. I’m no longer the hero they saw in their childhood. I know what I am now, and there’s no coming back from it. I wish things could have been different but they aren’t. I... I messed up. I just hope it didn’t indirectly affect any of them.”  (i can’t think of any taglines for this atm, but these would be the people who looked up to haze when he was apart of peacemakers) ♙Broken Promises Of A Better Tomorrow―Cassie♙

{0/∞} “I let you down. I let all of you down. And I can’t do this right now, you need to leave before things get ugly... and they will get ugly. If they see any of you here... I don’t want to think about it. It’s dangerous, and if you value your lives you’ll leave now.” Potential Taglines(former peacemaker members):  ♙There Is No Salvation For Me―Muse Name♙, ♙Staring At The Mess I've Made―Muse Name♙, ♙The Glory Days―Muse Name♙, ♙Shattered Expectations―Muse Name♙

{1/1} “You see right through me... don’t you? You can tell that this position I’m in is one that I’m not strong enough to handle. I... I don’t know if I hate that fact or I love it. I know that were anything to happen you would take up my mantel. I’m just not certain whatever happens won’t be at your hands.” Potential Taglines(syndicate member): ♙This Crown Of Lies―Lila♙