#♕▐┆❝ tw: miscarriage

[verreprincesse]

As a child, after her parents passed away, Ella endured a lot of physical abuse from her stepfamily. She was told it was the only way to make sure she stayed in line. If she didn't finish a task on time or to her stepmother's approval she would be beaten and sent to bed without supper. If she was caught trying to eat just scraps she would be beaten again.

She did try running away one time and was brought back. The reason her stepmother kept her around was because she was ( mostly ) free labor. As long as she was fed, clothed, and had a bed she figured it was payment enough to serve them. For her disobedience, she was nearly choked to death by her stepmother.

She doesn't like showing her skin much, especially her back as that is where the majority of her scaring is, and the day she marries she is terrified of her spouse seeing the scars. She knows she is a broken person and knows that her spouse might be repulsed by what they might see. So she wears nightgowns that cover her well until her spouse makes her comfortable enough in her body.

In AUs where she marries well ( whether modern or fantasy/era ) she is still ridiculed and has been poisoned ( or in the case of @farspirit's and my AU, kidnapped ) a time or two because others don't see her as a worthy partner to her spouse.

Because of the beatings she's endured, she does have issues keeping her pregnancies and the miscarriages she endures put her into a depression for a time.

Through it all, though, she will still smile at you and help you.

This headcanon is true of my main, and of my AU with @farspirit and @diivineray

[stormbcrn]

h0td mutuals – specifically targ or targ adjacent muses – if you need any au ideas for a got verse, consider the following:

rhaella had many miscarriages before giving birth to daenerys, what if one of them lived and daenerys has another surviving sibling?

did i say sibling? no i meant niece / nephew. what if rhaegar had a bastard child?

what if viserys had a bastard child in essos?

what if rhaella had a lover that helped viserys and daenerys flee to exile?

what if aerys had a bastard child / multiple bastard children that robert baratheon didn't know of when he took the throne?

what if rhaella had a bastard that aerys never acknowledged / thought was killed at birth?

what if rhaella and aerys had another sibling / daenerys has cousins?

[kaerinio]

i was completely inspired by emily's post . . . dany doesn't think she can get sick. even in her childhood, she can remember being scared, hungry, and cold, but never sick. this is one of the reasons why she isn't afraid of directly touching and aiding those with the bloody flux ( much to her guards' chagrin and fear ) and it later becomes a point of major panic on the dothraki sea when she's experiencing the impact of illness due to poison berries and tainted water ( and a potential miscarriage ). she's so afraid of this unusual feeling of weakness that it brings her to tears ; however even then, she wouldn't identify this experience as illness, but rather the hardships of survival.

[cherishedpeace]

Breha can’t carry a baby to term.

Due to her accident, her body just isn’t strong enough to carry a pregnancy. Not for lack of trying though, Breha got pregnant three times before losing the babies early in the first trimester.

Bail and Breha considered looking into the Kamino’s cloning technology. But in the end, they adopted Leia instead.

[verreprincesse]

quick headcanon that i will elaborate on later:

ella isn't overly religious but after her second miscarriage, she went to the chapel often, especially after the first month of losing her second, crying, yelling, pleading for whatever God there was, to give her a child to love, cherish, and more importantly, to be her husband's heir.

[verreprincesse]

@starsailingcaptain dreamed: What does Cinderella consider to be her life's purpose?

She sat a moment, her gaze on her hands, while she thought the question over. She had never really given it thought before. All she knew was to try and survive to the next day and after she married she focused so much on being a perfect princess that she wasn't even sure if she was herself anymore. So, her purpose?

"I was a daughter and then a maid and now I am a wife and I had hoped a mother." But even that she couldn't seem to do right. The royal cemetery showed how many times she had failed the kingdom.

She turned her hands over in her lap, faded scars from her life before speckled her hands from accidents before she was fully competent in the kitchen. "I want to say that I am here to make people's lives better but have I really? Have I really done any good when I can't even give the kingdom an heir?"

[verreprincesse]

@audaxbellator plotted starter

The first pangs hit her in the afternoon. She had been going over things with Prudence for the baby shower when she halted mid-sentence. "Give me a moment." She pressed a hand to the side of her little bump, taking a deep breath to steady herself. "Ah!" Another pain struck causing her to bend forward. "Get the docot- ah!!"

"HENRY!"

She felt something trickle down her thighs and her face drained of color. It was too soon. She was only five months along! "No... no!" Not caring who might see she lifted her skirts amidst the pain and pressed a hand between her legs as she saw the red drip down into her shoes. She didn't want to believe it but her hand came back with the evidence clear as day. She stumbled out of the room, knocking into a hall table. The sound of glass breaking never registered with her as she pressed her bloody hand to her belly. "Save my baby!"

[kaerinio]

on daenerys' fertility - pt. three of three tw: child loss, fertility, pregnancy, miscarriage, blood

pt. one ; pt. two

𝐀 𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐒

so, can daenerys conceive? my answer is yes. however, conception may come with some difficulties/complications because . . . who knows what effectS the blood magic mirri performed has on dany's reproductive system, especially since it's not valyrian sorcery? but, daenerys does not believe that she can conceive due to her own feelings surrounding herself regarding rhaego, and her willingness to believe mirri as a form of coping. should she become pregnant, she will have a difficult time fully believing it at first, even if the signs are all there, because she remembers how it rended her very soul to lose rhaego after loving him so deeply; she simply can't allow herself to have that hope, even though she longs to be a mother.

depending on how one interprets it, she conceives a child with daario ( i prefer to think of the baby being daario's and not hizdahr's, particularly because daario is the man dany chooses for herself, for her heart. ) in adwd and suffers a miscarriage out on the dothraki sea:

By midday the water would be tepid, but in the chill of dawn it was almost cool and helped her keep her eyes open. As she splashed her face, she saw fresh blood on her thighs. The ragged hem of her undertunic was stained with it. The sight of so much red frightened her. Moon blood, it’s only my moon blood, but she did not remember ever having such a heavy flow. Could it be the water? If it was the water, she was doomed. She had to drink or die of thirst. - daenerys 10, adwd.

seeing so much blood frightens her because it is completely abnormal for her usual menstrual cycle. she's never experienced something so heavy. the thought of a miscarriage doesn't even cross her mind. she's thoroughly convinced by both herself and mirri that she cannot have children.

this aside, if we are to believe mirri's omen, i believe that, in a metaphorical sense, it is complete. it is through:

in adwd alone, we watch as the sun rises in the west and sets in the east, represented by quentyn martell, a young lord whose sigil is the sun, who is born/rises/comes from the west to die/fall/set in the east. we see the dothraki sea, a literal sea of grass, which was a beautiful green when daenerys first explored it in agot, go dry. what the mountains blowing in the wind like leaves means? now, this is something that i don't believe we have insight into yet. the more i think about this prophecy/omen, the more it seems to have to do with things dany has encountered, so i am going to chalk this up to something happening to the mother of mountains . . . something that sets up why every single khalasar is on its way to/is in vaes dothrak prior to the unification ( still working on this ). and, her womb does quicken again, at least, in my interpretation.

it is right after we learn of this miscarriage that in just a few pages, we see that khal jhaqo, a former member of drogo's ko, discover her standing beside drogon, who returned to her in meereen. i believe that we have a couple of things working together here. first, we have khal jhaqo, who had been one of khal drogo’s most trusted friends, who also took a large portion of drogo’s khalasar, discovering dany as she stands beside the dragon she named for her late husband, who most certainly has drogo's spirit ( represented in the fact that drogon's egg is place by drogo's heart during the pyre burning ). it's interesting that drogon waits with daenerys, especially since he's been quite unruly, refusing to listen to her ( for reasons of forcing her personal development and recognition of herself to drive forth prophecy ).

this prophecy is being undone, and her rebirth and rise after the birth of her dragons contributes to it because it is through the birth of her dragons and the strength/direction she gains through them, that she has been led to all of the moments described in mirri maz duur’s prophecy as being impossible.

this is so long, but ultimately, yes, i believe daenerys can conceive, but it is an incredibly delicate matter, as, even though she is favored by valyrian sorcery ( at her birth as tptwp and in her continued honoring of it and her dragons ), her reproductive system has been affected, in some way, by mirri's magic ( magic that had the intent to stifle prophecy ). and, if she wants to build her house, as she is destined to, she must always remember who she is ( by continuing to honor valyrian magic/sorcery and her dragons ), which, the whole stranded on the dothraki sea moment cements inside of her. she must do what her ancestors failed to do. additionally, i feel like there will have to be some magical aspect that accompanies any future pregnancies, even if it's just having someone with magical abilities/knowledge to care for her, or if it's just as simple as engaging in magical thought/intent/or will during conception, being near the dragons, or spending most of her time on dragonstone during her pregnancy. rhaego's conception was guided by magical instinct; the birthing of the dragons followed magical instinct; her future pregnancies must follow a similar pattern.

[verreprincesse]

@beautifulstars​:

To Kit: bloody :   my  muse  coming  to  your  muse  with  blood  stains  on  their  clothes  and  hands,  shaking. @verreprincesse

The moment he saw his wife covered in blood and shaking Kit's heart stopped.

"Ella..." He moved towards her, trying to decern where the blood was coming from. Panic set in, was she hurt, what had happened?

Rushing to her, Kit searched her face for any sign of pain, but all he found was the blank expression of shock.

"Let's sit down, it's going to be okay," Kit said supporting his wife as he motioned to a shocked servant to go get help.

She needed to find him. To find Kit. Even as she stumbled through the halls, her legs giving out a few times, she knew she had to find him. She had been sleeping, resting as the doctor had prescribed for her since the beginning of her pregnancy, when she felt the first twinge of pain hit her. The second one had her panicked. When she pulled the sheet back she screamed in horror. Blood pooled between her legs and onto the blankets.

Her mind fevered with what it meant, and when she found Kit her body collided with the floor. “Kit...” She sobbed. “Our baby...” She clung to his embrace, wishing that it wasn’t true. “Our baby!”

[stormbcrn]

@oathworn​  sent:  👀  for them pls <3  ||  ship meme.

1. )              When Jon first asked her about Viserys, she had been hesitant to tell him much of anything, only that he had been young when she was born and he was forced into a role that no child should have to take. But he spoke so highly of Robb, and Bran too. And Rickon had been only a babe when Jon last saw him, but even from his few stories — the few memories he shared with her — she could see the love he had for his brothers. When he asked again, she started by telling him of the good times ( as few as she could now remember. )  Viserys would call her Princess Dany when she was young and would bow to her whenever he saw her. It made her laugh –––– it was all a game to her then, as she never felt like a princess. They scarcely had any money and never wore pretty gowns  . . .  instead they pulled hoods over silver hair as they moved through the Free Cities,  unseen. She told him how Viserys had cried when they sold their mother’s crown, how he struck her when she tried to comfort him.  He still blamed her, she thought, for their mother’s death. 

She told him about the first home she knew and the lemon tree that grew outside her window. Viserys would scold her for reaching out the window to pick them –– he told her she would fall and hurt herself. She never did, but he hurt her often behind those walls. He came quick to anger, his fire nearly always aimed at her.  Even then Viserys did not scare her. She learned only to adjust the things she did, the words she said, to avoid waking the dragon as he called it –––– it was often easier to fall silent. He hurt her, but she was not scared of him. And she told Jon that she sometimes felt guilty for not feeling something more when she watched him die. The best word she had for it:  Relief.  “What kind of person does that make me?”

2. )              When they took King’s Landing, Tyrion had told Daenerys that the usurper had not the heart to destroy the dragon skulls of years past, storing them instead in the cellars of the Keep. She had already been to the dragon pit, where skulls the size of house cats lay strewn across the dry grounds without thought, shattered and lost in time. But she knew the skulls hidden in the depths of the cellars were something else entirely, larger and more impressive than the shards she had pieced together herself — they were the dragons of the Targaryen kings and queens before her. She took Jon with her, the first time she saw them. She feared if she were to go alone that she let them devour her whole, that she would spend an eternity staring at them –––– imagining them with flesh and scales and fire. 

With his hand in hers and a torch lighting their path, her eyes moved across bleached bones, the shadows the skulls created dancing against stone walls as if alive again. They walked through the corridors in silence; there was nothing to say, she thought, but she was grateful for Jon’s presence all the same. Daenerys pulled him to stop in front of the largest skull, broken just above the eye but largely in tact. The large arrow the Lannisters used to shoot it still stuck out from the stone wall. “Balerion,” she whispered, her hand dropping from Jon’s as she reached to touch the smooth bone. She grabbed one of its horns as she did with Drogon before she mounted him. Easily, Balerion had been triple the size of Drogon and he was Dany’s largest. His horn was hard to grasp.

That night, Daenerys told Jon she wished to move the skulls to the throne room, as her ancestors had done before her. 

3. )               Daenerys wanted nothing more than to tell Jon about the baby she carried in her womb — his baby –– but still the witch’s curse burned in her memory from another lifetime:  When the sun rises in the west and sets in the east. When the seas go dry and mountains blow in the wind like leaves. When your womb quickens again, and you bear a living child. Then he will return, and not before  . . .  it was only when she lost the child, when she was forced to look into Jon’s eyes to tell him she was bleeding again, when she saw the pain in his expression that dark eyes were unable to conceal — it was then that she remembered it all. She remembered the blood streaking her legs when she was told she would never hold her stallion in her arms, death staining her linens.  His blood,  she had thought,  as her body had not been strong enough to protect him.  She remembered feeling her sun and stars writhe beneath pillows held by her shaking hands as he was unable to breathe ( and breathing was all he had been capable of . . .  )  It all came rushing back when she looked in Jon’s eyes, after telling them of the loss of their first child  . . .  but their second, their third, their fourth  . . .  each time, Daenerys couldn’t muster the strength to tell Jon that she carried his child within her. Selfishly, she did not want to tell him again and again and again their babe had died within her. 

Their fifth child lived longer than the others, causing her belly to swell as he grew. Only then, when Jon’s hands dropped to the bump beneath her draped gown, did she tell him –– her voice fearful  as lilac eyes searched for some reassurance in his that was not his to give.

[stormbcrn]

dj khaled voice: another one

daenerys sees your muse in the house of the undying & the vision sticks with her; she starts having more frequent visions of your muse as she rises to power in slaver's bay.

blood magic brings your muse back to life.

h0td mutuals – specifically targ or targ adjacent muses – if you need any au ideas for a got verse, consider the following:

rhaella had many miscarriages before giving birth to daenerys, what if one of them lived and daenerys has another surviving sibling?

did i say sibling? no i meant niece / nephew. what if rhaegar had a bastard child?

what if viserys had a bastard child in essos?

what if rhaella had a lover that helped viserys and daenerys flee to exile?

what if aerys had a bastard child / multiple bastard children that robert baratheon didn't know of when he took the throne?

what if rhaella had a bastard that aerys never acknowledged / thought was killed at birth?

what if rhaella and aerys had another sibling / daenerys has cousins?