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sepiasys · 2 months ago

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Oh, before I forget

I (🦊) tried to like. Headspace shit. And I ask 👑 stuff bc we're all so obsessed with him ig 🙄 (He honestly stands out the most, even tho he like. Never or rarely fronts.)(It's cuz he's british /t /j)

But yeah I asked him smth and he like. Bro did a shush gesture. I dont even remember what I asked??? But it was smth when we were gonna ask if he wanted out, like. Try and TALK and see if he was interested in fronting (since everyone wants him out 🙄). But yeah no.

This version we have in our head just likes to be a cheeky bastard sometimes ig =_= Even tho most of the time he. Like... isn't.

Also thinking about if we tried to use music as a trigger for him (which like doesnt work), it would have to be something at a slower pace, lower bpm or smth. Most of us can't rlly handle anything slow though. Probably related to adhd or some shit idfk

Idk man.

#sepiasys.txt #I am so serious telling you that we/I dangle a daydream-ish scene of writing to coax this fucker out #Not like it'd work very well but yeah we're. Very much visual when it comes to our wants and desires and stuff internally? Idk #We often just WANT to do smth and so that plays in our mind first. Like it starts hypothetical; unless its an impulse for the fronter ig idk #But yeah our wants and stuff get communicated via MAINLY images. Hypotheticals. Daydreams of what we want to do as if we WERE doing it #So when I dangle this scenario; it is in fact to tempt you. It's to take an interest of yours and try to bring out a strong enough interest #in it or desire for it that you eventually front. Yes this is how I imagine triggers work when it comes to intentional fronting (atleast us)#<- /pf #OH YEAH SOMETHING HAPPENED RANDOMLY. INTRUSIVE THOUGHT OR INTRUSION THAT WAS SO RANDOM AND BRIEF!?!?#It was about 👑 and/or his source. and it was smth incredibly abstract as a concept; like more abstract than most things like that?#Which makes it even harder to pin down what it was. But SOMETHING about it was attractive/hot in some way??? I dont get it tbh.#It was weird as FUCK to get slapped in the face with that imagery AND feeling manifesting in the body.#Btw I genuinely dont get why he's here. I legit drew myself (shittily; in pen) asking him what the point/purpose of him was #And like the response? Looking up from smth he was doing like 'hm?' >:|#Like dude what the FUCK are you doing in here. Is it purely a relationship thing??? Is it to be a caretaker??? FUCKING FIGURE IT OUT!?!?#I WANT AN ANSWER!!!#Anyways I'm like tired. I wanna lowkey switch out to someone else rlly bad. Ideally not 🎭🃏 or 🌼 or the mystery valley girl #Purely because they usually have energy or require it to exist. Expending it when we have none 🙄 I mean I do the same but only cuz anger.#And I can still be like. Generally annoyed and quiet and chill and a bitch. I dont NEED to use up a whole lot of energy to be a bitch.#God 👑 would be so nice bc like. Ok it's probably bc smth about him is an 'ideal' to us. Or smth. Someone to BE ADMIRED. Sorta.#I wouldnt mind one of the less preferred coming out either bc yk. About to sleep. 🪶 is fine. 🌿 is fine. Even if they like. Usually have #a bad time in front. Y'all have permission to just chill when we're tired as fuck bc yall could probably use the comfort of sleep.#☕️ idgaf about if they came out or not. 👁️🪽 would be odd but not usually a problem either afaik??? idk.#I usually have a rough time tryna leave as well; btw. Like 🎭🃏 was strugglin? Valley girl ass was strugglin? Yeah it's hard to switch out but #it's still possible. Just requires… a certain type of effort? ig? its hard but possible and likely replicable.#Anyways fuck y'all (/nsrs) I'm goin to bed. [insert middle finger]

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