#⋆𐙚₊the weird kid around tumblr₊⁎⁺˳✧༚

[thatonedeadkiddo]

ive been a little for many years and accepted this about myself that i am an adult baby but there are certain things i did not do because they are no fun to do alone and one needs a dynamic for them so i just dont do them, but other things i still do, lots of stuffies, toys, and i need guidance and blessed to have it because if not my place would look very messy and out of order, as i can get very disorganized quickly. always been honest about who i am, but even though i embrace it, i felt embarrassed by it to, and they way you bring that out is so beautiful that i started loving myself just a little more. about the hair, i try not to wash it too often as it washed away good oils and nutrients and also wet hair is weak. mine tends to be wavy/curly and i wish it was straight. the jirai pic you posted with the long blonde hair of someone (not a pic pf you) in a black dress is how ideally i would want my hair to look. its very popular now to do black and pink hair - i have an acquaintance who went to argentina just like that, as she had it from halloween. also that bunny girl from ariel80 wears her hair like it. i like rapunzel's hair. i think red hair is cute too.

hii ! sorry to answer dat late message has to deal wiv some stuff like me being full psychosis nd stuff hihi. anyways me iz regressing basically always dats why i dnt like people to say there r regressing as well, id rather talk wiv em (u included) when they r regressing or not but as themselves id dat makes sense ? bc havin adults talkin only abt ze fact they r regressing force me brain to be in adult mode nd me, one me frien nd me dada r workin really hard to help me finally being meself so itz kinda difficult.

if me could hav help u even just a little on ur journey me is so so so so so glad omg ;; means ze world to me. im so happy rn 🥺✨.

regardin ze picture this isn’t a girl.. this iz a boy but me luvs his hair too !!! me is gonna do a split hair : dark red nd white !

[sugawhaaa]

🌺Dating Theo would include...🌺

Pairing:: bf!Theo x fem!bodied!reader

A/N:: Tumblr posted this again before it was finished so I'll be updating this continuously and I'll mark it when it's finished. Okay I've finished it but I'm still really bad that Tumblr keeps doing this.

𐙚˙⋆.˚ᡣ𐭩Fluff headcanons𐙚˙⋆.˚ᡣ𐭩

He'd call you at random points in the day and when you pick up and say "hello?" He would start right off with smth like "God, I love your voice,"

TMI sponge, he loves hearing everything you have to share whether it's dirty, clean, or somewhere in between

Hed say stuff like "I'm such a lucky man," and "I'm so lucky you're mine"

He loves to prepare baths for you and when you get in he often sits to the side of the tub either talking to you or just soaking up your presence.

The two of you have a morning routine set up together. Brush teeth, ear breakfast, shower, skincare. Of course, some days it gets messed up but that doesn't matter to Theo, as long as you are together.

He's not a huge fan of cuddling per se, he's more of an intimate touches kinda guy. He'd still be close to you or wrap his arm around you but while doing so he'd run his fingers through your hair, caress your face, all kinds of gentle things like that

He can get kinda protective, always wrapping his arms around your waist when he feels the guy you're talking to is getting a little too comfortable

This relates to the bath thing but I could see him loving showering together.

Playing with each other's hair <3

He'd call you his baby, darling and ofc, my love

Gifting you flowers 😭💗

This one may be a little weird but I could see him loving your nose, specifically booping it all the time

He becomes super whiney and babyish around you

Cooking together <3

He would like to talk about your future together. Getting married, having kids, all kinds of things but he'd never force/make it picture perfect. He's just daydreaming

Theo might not seem like this type of guy but I think he'd like little camping trips with you

Words of affirmative <3

Loves kissing you all over your body, just the most random places

Little things like putting lotion or sunscreen on ur back makes him all giddy inside

You stepped out of the shower with Theo's helping hand. You stepped onto the dry mat under by the side of the tub as Theo grabbed a towel for you. He quickly dried you off before ruffling up your hair in the towel. You laugh and hit his chest, telling him to stop. He smirks before wrapping the towel around your neck, hanging down your shoulders.

He dries himself off some more as you dry your hair. You then set your towel back are your neck and look up at him, soft music playing in the background. He brings his hand up to your cheek before grabbing the ends of your towel, pulling you into a kiss. You gasp softly into the kiss, surprised by the sudden contact but he swiftly lets you go and heads over to the sink. He starts putting on his cleanser and taking glances over at you to see if you would follow him.

Of course, you did walking up to stand next to him. You follow the same steps as him with your skin care, using the same products. After the skincare, he softly asks you to turn around. He brings out your favorite body lotion and sweeps your hair to the side, your back fully accessible. He pumps the lotion onto his hands before rubbing it into your back. You jump slightly from the coldness.

"Sorry~" he says with a cheeky grin before rubbing it down your back. While he does so you put lotion on all the areas you can reach. Theo then puts some oils in your hair and runs his fingers through it, taking out any small tangles. His fingers run along your scalp occasionally massaging it to rub in the oils. You hum in satisfaction.

"That feels good," you smile and Theo chuckles softly, his fingers never faltering their work.

"I can imagine," he smiles before kissing the back of your shoulder. "Maybe we should plan to do something like this but more professionally," he says as his hands pry away from your hair. He washes his hands before using some oils on his own hair. You bring your hands up to his hair and start massaging for him, returning the favor. He smiles as he looks at you through the mirror.

"Go on," You giggle, curious as to where Theo is going with this idea.

"Like we go to a spa, or some relaxation massage therapist together," he proposes. "I would love to be the one doing the massage to you but I'm afraid I would probably just make your body more tense," Theo laughs to himself and you smile.

"That sounds lovely," you say before rubbing his temples, his eyes fluttering shut in pleasure. He hums peacefully. "Then we could come back and cuddle, our bodies relaxed and basically just melting into each other," you laugh and Theos eyes open again, twinkling at your idea.

"Yes!" He smiles. "That would be perfect," he says before taking your hand and kissing the top of it like a gentleman.

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★🎸🎧⋆｡ °⋆Smut headcanons★🎸🎧⋆｡ °⋆

Theo is quite the interesting character when it comes to anything sexual.

His first time with you he would literally make a list beforehand of all the things you like "Do you like receiving oral and/or giving it?" "What about like degrading or praise?" "Favorite positions?" He needs to make it perfect for you

But overtime he'll soften out and get used to your preferences

I feel like sex with him is quiet but not awkwardly quiet. He likes to hear the sounds you make and the feeling of your skin together. Even if he's just running his hands along sensitive spots he loves to hear the way his hands rub against your skin

As for Theo's preferences, they're very obscure and not your typical "sexual preferences"

He likes the whole dom and sub thing, specifically him being dom and sorta in a daddy way but sorta not

He wouldn't want to be specifically called daddy but he wants everything that comes with it. The kind of "ownership" of you, the control he has, listening to how you sound for him

He has this little thing for lingerie and he loves pink panties so much. He knows it's weird but he can't help it

Toys wouldn't be his go-to but if you struggle with climaxing he of course would do anything for you

He is however a huge fan of little vibrators. Whether they're for external or internal use doesn't matter to him as long as he can control it

Definitely a praise kinda guy

Loves loves loves to bend you over his lap and finger you.

He wouldn't be opposed to a little bit of pain

Loves it when you pull or grab his hair

He loves getting head from you but he's not super forceful with it. He lets you do your thing and may just hold the back of your head for support or just to feel you.

He doesn't sound like this type of guy at first but I can see him liking to record you, especially when you suck him off. He feels a little shy about it but he won't hesitate to rewatch the clips over and over

Very touchy during actual intercourse and loves being close to you. He'll also make out with you a lot while fucking you :P

Loves when you sit on his face

Aftercare with Theo GOES HARD bro omg

Praises the shit out of you when your done

Always has water prepared beforehand for you

The next day he'll do all the cleaning work and let you rest. He'll clean the bed sheets, make breakfast for you, and help you with any marks from the night before.

Theo had you bent over his lap while sitting on the edge of the bed. Your hips and ass right in the center of his lap as he runs his hands down your thighs and up to your lower back. He runs his finger down your folds through your panties as you squirm lightly.

"Such a pretty girl," he smirks softly before hooking his finger around the fabric of your panties, pulling it to the side to access your core. He runs his finger down your exposed folds and you bury your face into the bedsheets. He chuckles at your instant reaction. "So wet," he comments softly before effortlessly sliding his finger into you. You gasp softly at the intrusion. He roamed his finger around, softening up your walls as he prodes around.

He curls his finger against your gspot and you moan softly. Theo's free hand creeps up to your back pushing it down slightly so you're even more bent for him. "Relax my love," he grins mischievously as he rubs your tender skin. You nod with a soft whimper as his finger curls and straightens out continuously. He then slides in a second finger, loving the way you clench around his fingers. "You're so warm," he chuckles as his opposite hand moves back down to your ass, rubbing the circular skin.

You lay there, accepting all of his tactics before feeling one of his fingers gently poking at your asshole. You jump in surprise and Theo grins. "Don't worry, I'm not gonna push you...for now at least," he chuckled as his other hand starts flicking your clit and pressing down on it. Your moans and whimpers grow at his teasing fingers. You squirm and wiggle beneath him. "Use your words doll, are you gonna cum?" He smirks softly and you nod. His fingers slow down. "Use your words," he reminds you and you instantly perk up.

"Yes! Yes, I'm close," you admit and Theo keeps pumping his fingers in you. His thumb still pressed against your ass, gently poking in the slightest bit to add to the stimulation. "I'm gonna cum," you whimper as your body flutters around uncontrollably and soon enough you unraveled beneath him. Your juices cover his fingers. He slides his fingers out of you and rolls you over before pulling you up, sitting on his lap.

He rubs your back softly as you feel your cum dripping from your pussy onto his pants. You blush softly and lean your head into his shoulder. He then shows you his fingers, drenched. He sticks them together and pulls them apart, watching your arousal stringing together.

[post-office-by-the-bay]

dearest covey,

how is life by the sea treating you? i hope the salty air and wet sand are making you feel at home.

no, but in all seriousness, i love the new blog! this must have taken so long to make! the idea is so cute, too, the vibes are immaculate. I feel like i'm actually at the seaside.

i know i haven't sent a letter in for a while, and i'm sorry, it's just been a super hectic week. i went to visit my grandparents this weekend, and they don't have internet at their cottage, so i wasn't able to access tumblr, but i did manage to finish an essay that has been stressing me out this past week, and i'm really proud of it! in othwe news, i went thrifting on friday, and found the CUTEST white maxi skirt, plus some pretty pajama shorts with blue flowers. i also got some makeup from the mall, including some nice blush/highlighter, and some lip oil. my little brother (5th grade) came third place in a district-wide chess tournament, which makes me a little worried about him getting bullied, but i'm still proud of him lol. seriously, though, that kid is scary smart. he's definitely the favourite child. (joking, I hope). do you have siblings? i have two younger ones, my brother and my sister, and while they can be a pain in the butt and hog the nintendo switch, i'd still die for them any day.

i'm thinking about converting the radio station to a flower shop, if only because there's better inspiration pics on pinterest and i'm not extroverted enough to be a dj lol.

that's all i really have to say, but I hope you life has been good recently!

love from way up in canada, flora. 💐

to my best girl flora,

the salty air is amazing, but compares nothing to sitting in your flower shop with you by my side!!

(squealing- we're so cutesy, you and i!)

no worries about the time between letters. i'll always wait for all of you!! i actually spent my weekend by the beach but i had the worst goddamn cell service like fr not a single bar in sight- pissing me off lmao. congrats on finishing that essay tho!! i FINALLY found time to talk to my ap gov teacher and she was a massive help with my FRQ4 (essay answer, basically) bc ya girl was STRUGGLING. also, i loveeeee when i have a good thrift. i found the cutest tank top the other day but it's been too gloomy to wear as of late.

also, about your brother, TELL HIM CONGRATS FOR ME!! my school is kinda strange bc we're also having chess competitions rn but they are actually hyped up more than football games. everyone who competes is actually so cool and well loved, so just let him know that cool people play chess too!!

i've got an older sister who's pretty cool. but...tbh, i think in every single other universe, im the older sister (lemme explain-). she's got really bad anxiety so my parents have always kinda babied her and there have never really been any expectations put on her, so they were all kinda put on me. i've gotten really good at lying to take the blame for things that she did bc her anxiety and mental issues would just make my parents reaction worse so i just take the blame bc she's my sister. of course im gonna look out for her, ya know??? she also went through a weird phase of wishing i didn't exist to my face when i was like eight BUT she's gone to therapy and apologize for that so we good!! i truly do love her but i know im her protector, not the other way around!! which is chill, ya know!

ANYWAYS MOVING ON FROM THE KINDA TRUAMA DUMP- i think a floral shop would be so so cute!! and while i LOVE the dj theme, i think it's kinda hard but the floral shop will be so much easier and wayyy easier to find pics for too!!

all my love from da beach,

covey 𐙚⊹ ࣪ ˖

[thatonedeadkiddo]

my hair is ruined too i keep bleaching it because i dont like my dark mousy hair color its too brownish ashy and i like light blonde. ttfn.

but brown iz also a very cute colooooor !!!

me was bleachin em to dye em after but i ended up bleaching too much me burned it me is so dumb im gonna need to be efficient wiv care for it bc i only have two weeks before leaving ;;

[thatonedeadkiddo]

i am a kid, and ageless, my age is more a toddler so much younger than yours. no one is babying me so i am alone in this. in real life i am just a sad person. dont worry about not being allowed to have new friends because i will not send a friend request via tumblr or any other social media - i am anyway such an introvert and friendless, a lonely creature in the dark. i care from far away, from a distance, that's all i can do. i like you for many many things, too long to list, but honestly because you are a yan - as i am a yan myself, but the harmless kind, not into blood, gore, violence more like the needy clingy dependent kind and also i like you because i too age regress. its complicated because i wish the man i am with would baby me more but its impossible, he is just too busy and we have 3 dogs. just a very busy life with no time for anything else, sigh, maybe december will be better (we just lost our beloved heart dog dog). you gave me some confidence that its ok to be myself, to be who i am, even if it means to be lonely, i do not have to be ashamed of being who i am inside anymore, an adult woman who is a very little girl at heart, because it is very unusual. it is not a fetish but how i really am, emotionally. i hate it when people fetishize it. im sorry things got complicated for you too with the flight and all. i been over-stressed from renovations, from the medication i am on (it is a lizard poison that i must take for diabetes), so it is good there is also something positive in my life like finding on tumblr kind and real people such as you and your beautiful heart. i hope everything goes well for you and i wish you safe travels. sorry i sound so depressing. i will stay away for a while because i do not want to be so pathetic in public. sending you a virtual hug (if that is ok, if not, you can return it, no hurt feelings) -sad cheer carebear/grumpy carebear

if me has helped u at any point wiv dat then me is happy, everyone should be themselves, they true self no matter if it’s what they wished to be or not actually. being honest is sometimes admitting that u r not what u really wanted to be nd dat thiz is ok..

me isn’t accepting hug bc im not touchin people even virtually but i appreciate the intention !! thank u, come back when u want 🥺✨

[thatonedeadkiddo]

hello dear clownie, i promise not to mention this painful past again (i specifically did not tell you the worst, as it would have been insanely triggering, and re traumatizing for me too - i actually did not tell it to anyone what he told me he would do and i never will) i know i meant nothing to him and i know he did not mean anything he said. i do want to keep in touch with you no matter what. i like you as a person and I know and i think and i feel and i sense you deserve all the love in the world, you are a real yan, and since he is your destiny i not only respect it but i also support it and root for you and am so happy for you. everything will be all right and you will have the best Noel ever. if you ever get lonely here just post something and i will send an anon telling you i will always care about you, no strings attached. by the way any hair style you do will look good on you. i bleach my hair too but my hair is very fine and frizzy all the time, not pretty like yours.

i know everythin me had to know bc i told me everythin abt his past, me wanted to be sure before switchin our relationship bc.. it iz a very very very big thingie huh.

anyway me hopes dat if u really like me itz not because me is a yan bc even if yes me iz its just zan me is very very excessive like always. me is a kid more zan anything else tbh huh. but thankie for all ur kindness, me doesn’t know how to respond to dat bc me isn’t good wiv those thingies nd me isn’t alowed to hav new friends anymore but me appreciates it.

for xmas.. me hopes yes, everythin got so complicated, itz an hard month honestly but we checked everythin so next wednesday there iz no other option zan everythin workin out. but just in case me has a back up solution to be wiv him so im ok, id rather just be wiv him alive zan dead huh.

me lost so many hair bc of it me is so so so duuuuumb, i knew it waz a bad idea but me did it anyway huh. it wasn’t even required for me next dye i damage everythin for nothin ;;

[thatonedeadkiddo]

dear lady, me will not post ur ask bc u dnt want me to but please stop talkin abt ze past itz triggering me very much so tbh… im sorry he was dat bad before but everyone was bad at some point we r all humans. sorrey he never truly loved someone before me, like for real sorrey but im happy abt dat in a way bc we r destiny zats all. nd if asp he was lying to me as well nd we r not together in two weeks zen i will admit it nd die but for now everythin iz good so pleaz keep talkin to me if u want but dnt talk abt ur past wiv him again or me will not respond anymore sorrey but me has to protect meself

[thatonedeadkiddo]

i did bad research that showed jirai was a fashion statement, i am usually much better with research but i think i failed because my anxiety made me function on less than optimum levels...i get anxious from anything all the time...it would not surprise me at all if most people, yan or not, would get exasperated by my sick anxiety. i like people who are patient but i dont know anyone who is.

some people see it like dat but i strongly disagree wiv dat bc itz erasing ze whole mental health aspect which iz the origine of ze jirai culture. me cant say im patient tbh bc it depends on ze topic nd me mood soooo 😭😭😭. nd being a yan isn’t related to losing patience over people so no matter what in a way ;;

[thatonedeadkiddo]

thank you so much explaining about Jirai, yes I am mentally ill, severe out of control anxiety, so that makes me jirai right? is jirai a certain gender? I have seen a lot of jirai pics girls and women wearing black and pink dresses, and I want to do the same, and yes I connect to it on very deep levels...in Japan it is not unusual but if I wore it here it will look odd, as in real life i look and behave normal for the most part - i wear a "normal" mask, i have to work, despite my mental illness

u r a part of ze jirai community if itz comfort u to be able to connect wiv other mentally ill people who doesnt push the whole recovery thing above everythin but who truly understand our realities nd how hard it iz sometimes. me cant say anythin more zan dat tbh ;;

regarding japan itz a very very very hard misconception to think dat its common to dress like dat there… its very untrue actually ;; also there iz no “normal” behavior itz just stupid things people r creatin to make others people feel bad abt themselves. u r perfect as u r nd free to act as u feel as long as u dnt disrespect other people imo… 🥺 regarding ze whole jirai clothes im not a huge expert of it bc me doesn’t care at all sorrey !!!

[thatonedeadkiddo]

option 0ne : he iz abandoning me rn nd breakin my whole life hihi

option tw0 : he forgot to turns hiz data on or somethin happened me doesn’t know nd im ending him for 30min for no reason 👉🏻👈🏻

[thatonedeadkiddo]

does jirai mean a sh lifestyle, another words, if i dont sh i can never be jirai? what if ish in unusual ways such as mentally does it count

no it doesn’t mean dat at all, tbh sh isn’t ze only sign of mental illnesses… jirai iz only a word describing very mentally ill people at first. zere iz no “i can” or “cannot” be a jirai.. if u relate to it, if its comforting for u to feel az a part of zar community dats enough. in a way every very severe mentally ill people iz jirai. hope me answer helps but i recommend u to do ur own research on dat if u want very deep informations abt dat ! ✨

[thatonedeadkiddo]

I want to dress Jirai. I dress in the most boring kind of way. But I can't because people will think I am super weird, and they already think that without me being a Jirai. So anyway, I just enjoy looking at different outfits online. You are so cool to have some Jirai clothing. I would not dare it even for Halloween. I am so pathetically timid.

hii,

sorrey but jirai isn’t abt fashion, it’s a lifestyle related to mental illnesses. the people who r only “dressing jirai” r disgusting to me, its using our codes wivout the consequences of em… pleaz if at some point u finally want to do it : dnt ! it’s only for people wiv dat lifestyle, dats all, nd also a lot of jirai arnt dressing in ze classic jirai fashion way people can see online, bc ze clothes dnt make u jirai. even me tbh im not dressing jirai at all ! me is dressing in a dolly way, always in black yes but me doesn’t care abt coord nd stuff, me is more into gothic, clownie, dolly outfits even if im ruining every one of me looks theses days by wearing ze denim jacket of me dad .////.

[thatonedeadkiddo]

Just checking on you, praying and hoping everything works out and sending positive vibes from across the miles - you have not posted in a while but I hope it means good things, that you got your plane ticket and that you will soon be together forever <3

hii u ✨

im replying to this ask bc tbh i dnt want to post the ozer ones publicly bc it iz kinda hurting for me. i appreciate ur words nd ur honesty as well, ze fact iz dat me has me explanation abt what happened on hiz side nd itz not good so i think itz better dat i dnt write dat here either. u r right everythin is in ze past it dosnt matter anymore, i think its also better for u to think like dat ;;. ze only thing i know nd dat matter to me iz dat he never luved anyone truly but me, dats probably why we hav ze thing we know him nd i, thats ze only thing i know its true : how deep he luvs me. nd i hope in two weeks im gonna be able to show everyone i took ze right risk by trusting him on dat bc we r together irl also.

i didnt post bc yesterday nd ze day before were very hard, almost tried to kms, it was the tdor as well so very painful for me nd me community nd also i needed a break me thinks, me didnt hav anything good to say so i almost deleted me tumblr but me is back for now, wiv hopes so we’ll see huh huh.

[thatonedeadkiddo]

Hello Clown, it's Noelle. I had an idea you may or may not like, but I felt I had to at least "throw it out there". Because of the attraction to Japanese, how about after tying the knot (haha pun not intended), dad takes you to a Japanese restaurant to celebrate, and more specifically, Hibachi dining? I am not sure if you have ever experienced Hibachi cooking, but I think you will like it. In the U.S., the phrase “hibachi-style” is occasionally used to refer to what is really teppanyaki cooking. Hibachi grills are called shichirin in Japanese and are small, portable barbecue grills that are made from cast iron. These grills have an open-grate design and commonly use charcoal as their heating source. Modern hibachis in U.S. restaurants are electric so that they can be used to cook food indoors. By contrast, teppanyaki grilling involves using an iron griddle with a flat, solid surface to prepare food in restaurants in front of guests. Teppanyaki grills typically use a propane flame as a heat source. Guests are able to sit around the teppanyaki grills so that they can view the skills of the teppan chefs while they grill chicken, pork, beef and seafood dishes. The teppanyaki grill’s surface is also ideal for cooking finely chopped sides such as eggs, vegetables and rice. It's a sort of entertainment and many couples do that, not just big parties of people who already know one another. The food portions are so generous this would easily provide for two meals...The food is cooked fresh in front of you, so it is very appetizing. Everyone is getting rice, noodles and veggies, but in addition, you can choose your protein. Some choose steak, other lobsters, and of course there is always chicken! Usually comes with miso or clear soup and a small garden salad too. The cooking involves putting the table on fire! It's a lot of fun. I am not a social or outgoing person at all and do not like crowds but it is a special kind of food experience so I just ignore other diners and focus on my own experience. By the way, portions sizes in the USA are HUGE. Yes, even the diet coke and popcorn in movie theatres are always on the large size. It takes time to get used to but it's a good thing! I also hope you get to try Dr. Pepper, one of my favorite drinks (it's like cherry coke but not quite). American candy and chocolates are not European standards at all but low quality. Still, there are a few good exceptions! Hope you like it here.

hii noelle !

thanks for the idea nd all ze explanations but i actually already know dat, as me said (but i just replied so I understand u didnt knew before this ask hihi) japan is one me special interest so me knows a lot abt ze culture, nd food is a part of it hihi. actually eating japanese could be great but me rather to cook traditional japanese family dishes instead of going to a restaurant, me wants to cook for me dad.

regarding ze size portion yee me knows nd me doesn’t eat big portion so its cool me will have two meals wiv one dish hihi.

[thatonedeadkiddo]

Hello Clown, it's Noelle.

By the Emptiness Machine indeed I alluded to the song because you mentioned it couple times. It so happens that I am doomed by a feeling of emptiness, so I connected to that metaphor. I went to listen to your song, like I did others, and I liked it.

This secret wedding plan is so romantic, a little bit like a local elopement. I've always felt that weddings are for the couple itself and no one else. There are cultures where they celebrate mega weddings with hundreds, even thousands of guests, it becomes a production. That is ridiculous.

I can understand the attraction to Japan: after all, they invented the term Yandere. Japan has so many attractions, like Sanrio cafes and cat cafes. I like their food and cleanliness, and of course, honor. A society that serves great food in hospitals is way ahead of ours. They don't like foreigners though. That's how they are successful in protecting their culture. The only thing that is so tragic about Japan so many people commit suicide there because of peer pressure. So many men are lonely because they cannot find someone to marry. They get married to a hologram. Or their phone.

Thank you so much for your kind words about my loss. It hurts so much and it happened recently, actually a month ago. 2024 was extremely difficult year with losing 2 of my fur babies too. I have a phobia of New Years days because what if the next year will be even worse? I don't like January 1st. It's a stressful date! I hope you have picked a good date for getting married. Dates are SO important. They have symbolic, universal, ethereal and magical meanings. Research the date you have picked to make sure it bodes well.

I must agree with you white man has done a lot of damage and caused a lot of wreckage to many people around the world. One of the reasons I like Natives so much is because they are so spiritual. I like how they name people by what they are. I have done the same for all of my fur babies (living and dead). One of them I called wolf, because he was, like a wolf. He was my best friend. I really don't understand how I am even alive without him. I made him promise me to never leave me knowing all too well he could not promise something like that. His name was Okami, wolf in Japanese.

I just realized that December 31st could be a great time to get married, since that way you start the new year together as a married couple, not single anymore, so the new year looks less scary as you have one another. It is also a great marker of your relationship. July 31st will always have a very special meaning for me too because of my own relationship. It is a most sacred day for me because it is the day of my significant other's birthday, who is very much, my God. He has saved me from my disgusting hoarding habits. Hoarding is a mental disease and I had it bad, and now I still have it but it is under control. I wish you a good evening. I must continue with the Christmas decorations. This time I am brining out a Victorian Tree with bows (no fiberoptic tree this year - it is too big), as well as a huge animated and musical crystal carousel with horses by Mr. Christmas company. A few Santas, Nutcrackers and winter animals. Sea island cotton sheets and duvet covers and pillowcases. Special German chocolates. A beautiful carved nativity scene. I used to have a Dickens village and a Kinkdade village but it's too much to put it together. I have so many ornaments it could fit on 5 trees.

-Noelle 🎄

hii noelle !

ze emptiness machine is about saying dat bc the other person used nd hurted u this iz like they r just a machine like wivout feelings. ze metaphor is zat, not a song talking abt feeling empty.

regarding japan: NO. this iz absolutely not related to to yandere, i mean this iz just a japanese word we have ze same words kinda in every language. its just dat japan is one me first special interests.. nd regarding ze country in fact i think u had some very common misconceptions abt ze country actually huh. it’s normal a lot of people think what u said but most of it isn’t factually accurate at all actually !

regarding ur loss this iz the least i can do.. for real. im so so so sorrey for u, itz an hard year indeed yee.. if u need to talk abt dat or else : pleaz feel free to reach out, nothing dat i could said will help bc sometimes just havin someone who listen is helping a little..

concerning me wedding : we dnt care abt dates or else, nd actually me dad has already an idea !

ur xmas decorations seems so pretty.. like for real pleaz send pictures of the result 😭😭😭. itz gonna be so so so cool i know it omg.

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Hello Clown, it's Noelle. You are correct that I am ignorant about gender studies, and I am not too interested in learning this, because there are so many other more interesting things I need and want to learn, such as quantum physics. Only so much time so I need to be picky! Congratulations in advance on getting married! A Christmas or New Year themed weddings are so pretty. It's a good time of the year for celebrations. For many people though, without families or friends, it could be a very difficult time. Others, with toxic families, it is a stressful time. And, if you have loved ones who passed away, it can really hurt bad. It can be a tough time for a lot of people. For honeymoon I recommend Hawaii, it's so beautiful there, but you must not love that type of weather...About Natives: not even an issue. Always admired and respected them. White people from Europe treated them so wrong, and so dirty. No wonder they do not trust the government, they have every reason not to, and they are smart and did not inject themselves with the BigPharma poison. I still remember the plagued blankets the government gave them. The New World 2005 movie, illustrates well how awful it was the Native Americans when they were invaded. There is also a TV series called Into the West - fascinating and very informative. Sadly, a lot of Natives have not recovered from the assaults on their lands, languages, religions. I knew Columbus Day and 4th of July were dark days for them, but I did not realize Thanksgiving is problematic too. Basically it is their land, and they are beautiful people. I try to support them by buying their art. I love their baskets. I used to have a good friend, who passed away a few years ago, who was an anthropologist. We used to discuss the higher percentage of domestic violence within Native American families and again it is the result of the white man destroying their culture and the First Nation. They were betrayed in return for their kind hospitality. It's tragic. Anyway, I am sure you already know all that, just had to write a few words in their honor. Till this day so many American towns and rivers etc have Native names! And you're right: love cannot always heal mental issues. The struggle with mental disease goes on but love makes it worthwhile - at least it should take care of the emptiness machine. Yes, I do write, think and analyze a lot. Sorry. Most people bore me so if I talk to you it means I find you different and interesting. Make sure the air you breathe is not too cold. You must have a minimum of heat. One of my Christmas decorations is a memorial for someone who was like a grandfather to me, and I loved dearly. It is called "My Spirit Will Live On" Illuminated Tabletop Tree by The Bradford Exchange. Looks like I wrote too much, again. Don't worry about replying to everything I say. It's really not that important anyway. Just sharing thoughts about different subjects. One important things you should know regarding TCC is that in 2016 and afterwards there have been cases of murder by "evil clowns". If you look it up you will understand why most Americans, now, do not like clowns (I never liked them even as a kid but that's besides the point). I do, however, love the song "Send In The Clowns" by Judy Collins. It's brilliant. -Noelle

hii Noelle !

itz just gonna be a quick thing to be able to stay together we will have a real ceremony nd stuff later, itz mostly for us rn. no one is aware of dat hihi. nd for honeymoon ? Japan pleaaaaaaaz omg 😭.

i dnt know that much abt natives but me is trying to learn more for me dada, bc it’s important ! nd tbh white people r trash, like fr this is insane atp huh. me doesn’t understand why u r referring to the emptiness machine but if it’s because of me past posts on me other tumblr its a song from linkin park data all ;;.

ur xmas decoration seems to be very cool ! nd the little thing for dat person ? im so sorry for ur loss Noelle..

yee me know abt the clown thing, im into tc for a while hihi 👉🏻👈🏻.