#∘₊✧────── hedwig blackwood ; insight

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hedwig: what artist has had the biggest influence on your music?

it's not easy to pinpoint only one - or even a few - artists that have the biggest influence on hedwig's music. hedwig has always listened to such a genuinely wide variety of artists, finding artists and works he likes in every single genre and sub-genre - or at least, something not far from literally every one. his taste is too non-specific, as is his music; he doesn't conform to the idea of genre, as much as each one of his songs fits into one or multiple existing genres, and so that makes it harder to say who has had the biggest influence on his music. perhaps it's easiest to think of on a more technical scale, though even then, it still feels impossible to pick only one. the closest thing to an answer to this question that hedwig is able to give might be that early british punk music such as sex pistols, siouxsie and the banshees, and the clash have had the greatest influence on him, as a lot of his techniques in making music - no matter how great his skills have improved over the years, and no matter how much new gear and equipment comes into his possession - are parallel to the techniques seen in this music ( though he can confidently say that he actually knows how to play instruments, unlike the - great regardless - sex pistols ). punk music's d.i.y mentality has always been how hedwig has created his music, first out of necessity, and now out of both habit and effectiveness.

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when was the last time your character/s cried?

akito noguchi has been crying himself to sleep every night for a very long time now, so it would have been last night. ever since trouble began for him in shrike heights, when his life was once again so horrifically changed, his emotions have easily gotten the better of him. he doesn't like his sister or his friends to see him cry, so he tries to keep his composure until he's alone, until he's in bed at the end of each night.

bo turner has a lot of reasons to cry, some understandably terrible, and some quite beautiful, as he's been known to so easily cry tears of joy or laughter. the most recent cause for tears were likely tears of laughter, likely as recent as a day ago, in ian and stinky's company. with everything they've been through - even the cat, who was found so cruelly abandoned before he became a turner-vogt - bo likes to just be silly. he loves to bring joy into their household, and unashamedly finds himself so funny at times that he does indeed cry laughing over himself.

desi calderon tries his hardest to not get so upset over things, though now more than ever he's also come to terms with the fact that emotions are healthy. as much as he doesn't like to cry, he does cry more frequently these days, particularly in the evenings after a long, frustrating, physically exerting shift at work, the tears aided by thoughts of deo and bodhi and everyone else he's not been able to save - that would have been the last time he cried, in a moment like that.

dodge anand understands that experiencing and feeling every emotion is healthy, particularly at the appropriate times. he's not afraid to cry, though despite this, it doesn't happen an awful lot. the last time dodge cried would have been in the aftermath of the last attack, in the ominous quiet moment that occurs after he and the rest of the hospital staff worked tirelessly to ensure all of their new patients were going to survive the night.

duckie ho would have not been able to recall the last time that he cried if he was asked this question six months ago, but the moment he had in the hospital where he not only cried, but cried in front of hoseok still bothers him. he hates to be vulnerable, and even while hoseok has never done anything to make duckie feel like he couldn't trust him, duckie still hates that he was rendered weak and vulnerable enough to cry then.

eilonwy finch is a frequent crier, she's likely crying right now. while she was able to recover from the aftermath of her own attack, a time in which she couldn't find herself able to stop crying, the past six months have been incredibly difficult for her, and she's back to her extremely fragile state. the bright side is that this time around, she has the strength of her closest friends behind her, and she's not a blubbering mess as much as she once was, despite the regression.

ernest goodarzi hates to cry, but ever since his encounter with the ghost he's found himself in tears almost every single day. even on his good days, where he gets to spend time with his best friend august, he'll come out of their time spent together in tears as the beauty that saves him from thinking about his trauma terrifies him almost as much as the killers do. like eilonwy, he's likely crying right now.

hedwig blackwood cries plenty due to his struggles and his trauma - both from the killers and his life before shrike heights - mostly in his own company, but the last time he cried was actually at a chokehold on love rehearsal. the only person outside of the band in attendance was donnie, and their front man finn found himself unable to finish the love song they were playing as he got too in his own head about his love for his soon to be husband. while hedwig laughed a lot, there were also tears shed. hedwig has always wanted to believe in love, but honestly, nothing outside of that moment has made a very strong case towards true love being, well, true.

hen wen szeto often finds themself walking around shrike heights after dark, no matter how idiotic some people might think them to be. in the day time, they don't feel comfortable with all of the eyes on them - and the ugly scar left behind on their face - and while they're not not afraid of the killers finding them again, they need to get out or else they'll be driven insane. the last time they cried was on last night's walk; their feet instinctively took them to their old apartment building, and when they thought about all of the joy they had in there with people like her brother, and galen, and the rest of those that she knew when life was temporarily so much more simple, they got all choked up about it.

iggy berman last cried around a week ago, when they got in an argument with their brother. it wasn't even about what arne had said or done, nothing to do with the circumstances in which they fought, it was simply frustration over the fact that they were fighting. iggy loves his brother more than anything; having been apart from him once before, and for quite a while at that, iggy immediately felt terrified of their relationship being anything less than perfect. he couldn't lose arne again, and while one argument is hardly the start of that, iggy cried regardless, feeling particularly sensitive that day.

jovie weaver isn't afraid of crying because she's upset, but the last time she cried was actually a couple of mornings ago, when she injured herself while swimming. thankfully it was nothing too bad, but while she was pushing herself to beat a personal best, she neglected to breathe when she needed to, and came up for air, coughing after inhaling a small amount of pool water. while trying to ground herself with the side of the pool, her hand slipped, and she hit her head on the side of it. it was painful and overwhelming enough to see her in tears, though she did recover quite quickly.

junior viana carneiro, similarly to jovie, last cried over an injury. junior is another resident of shrike heights who cries frequently, but thankfully it was over no mental pain or reminders of trauma, only an accident in the kitchen. while preparing his dinner, his hand slipped, and he cut his forearm open with a large - and unfortunately sharp - kitchen knife. he cried over fear, as he was alone and unsure of what to do, but a quick trip to perkin's and a few stitches later saw him back in reasonable spirits.

jupiter bernstein last cried out of frustration on a phone call with his mother, this morning. she always calls him in the evening her time, which is quite early in the morning in colorado; overtired and bothered by a few things that his mother had said, they got into an argument that ended in jupiter hanging up, in tears. once he was more awake and had a hot cup of tea in hand, he called her back and apologised (there are no hard feelings).

leaf wozniak woke up crying this morning, coming out of an extremely terrifying and disgustingly vivid nightmare, detailing a sicker, more warped version of the attack he had only just lived through. it happens almost every morning, though if it's not leaf waking up in tears, it's florian. luckily, the two have learnt how to best manage their upset and their pain, dealing with it all together, and with the help of the commune. each night leaf goes to sleep with hopes that the next morning will be different, though that's yet to happen.

valentine ortiz last cried a couple of days ago, through a panic attack at work. the store was extremely busy, causing valentine to try to push himself, ignoring merry's alerts along with his own discomfort, but very quickly the rush became too much, and he spiralled quickly into a panic attack. as he sat in the office, bawling his eyes out and waiting for his partner to come to his aid, valentine began wondering if it was smart to continue working at an establishment as bright and bustling as the environment in which he was attacked.

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for hedwig & jupiter: what was your favorite halloween costume as a kid?

hedwig blackwood never celebrated halloween as a child. their life was terrifying enough already, so it was never high up on their list of priorities to find more scares for themself, and in general they had far greater things to worry about than collecting sweets from the neighbours that they tried their hardest to conceal themself and their life from. they were able to finally join in on festivities as a teenager, however, and their favourite halloween costume from that time was the patsy cline costume they wore when they were fifteen years old. they were working a halloween event at the record store where attendees were required to dress as musicians or other iconic people in the music industry, and their co-worker happened to have the perfect patsy cline inspired dress for them to borrow for the occasion. hedwig has never received more compliments than they did that night, and it also happened to be one of the first nights that they felt like a real human.

jupiter bernstein attended the same halloween event almost every year from birth to early adulthood. the university his parents worked at held a surprisingly great halloween function, and his parents were especially fond of attending an event with likeminded people who would actually appreciate their themed costumes. each year from infancy, jupiter's parents would dress him up in some astrological themed costume, but jupiter's favourite will always be the costume he wore when he was only four years old, the year his parents dressed him up as the planet jupiter. there was just something so special about everyone addressing him by name, even if he had never met them before, and there was no better feeling that being celebrating by everyone for being jupiter. at four years old, jupiter didn't understand that they simply liked the costume of the planet, believing that they were all just fond of him. even after he grew to understand what really happened, it was a magical night that he'll forever look back on with a smile.

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