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deservedgrace · 1 day ago

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i didn't realize how much like... "the thing that is obviously happening isn't happening" is almost just as exhausting and demoralizing and frustrating and scary as the thing itself for me. i didn't realize that aspect of things was weighing on me almost as much as the thing itself until now

#non religion #negative -#mostly in tags sorry i'm ranting #almost anytime i talk to my mom about politics it's “that's not what's really happening” “that's not what they meant”#“that's not what's going to happen”#and she thinks she's helping. she thinks she's quelling my fears or whatever #but she's not as politically involved as i am (and calls herself a conservative) and is just. saying shit #she's telling me the things i'm seeing aren't happening. that i didn't hear the things i heard #that the things they're saying are going to happen aren't going to happen #she HAS to give everyone else the benefit of the doubt #but can't give ME the benefit of the doubt that i know what the fuck i'm talking about #it doesn't make me feel less fearful in any way shape or form. i just feel like i'm going crazy #like i'm so sure her reaction to the elon clip would be “well that LOOKS bad but he probably didn't mean it like that” like #i'm losing my shit. i'm losing my shit. i'm losing my shit #she does this when i talk about being black (im biracial moms white) she does this when i talk about being gay she does this w politics lik #NO it's not a compliment when people touch my hair without asking #exposing your BLACK husband & children to your racist dad and step mom so we could “change their minds” put us in an UNSAFE POSITION #“90% of christians don't care that you're gay” INCORRECT “it doesn't matter that pence said he wants to hang gays” YES IT FUCKING DOES #“they're not going after trans adults it's just regulating what kids have access to” INCORRECT. AGAIN #i'm LOSING MY SHIT #it is INSANE the amount of grace i'm expected to extend to ppl who don't see me as human. people who want me dead. who want my friends dead #i'm blocking so many tags and people this week idec #i just can't deal rn

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