#“out why minecraft doesn't work anymore” etc etc

[manishroom]

well. "make wordsearch puzzles of minecraft youtube characters"

[roboromantic]

ough I really oughta just pay for an Actual blender course instead of trying to teach myself via youtube tutorials and messing around bc holy adhd, batman

[aroaceacacia]

thinking about last night's girl talk w zam and planet again. (zam stream, jan 23)

c!planet has always stood out in the lifesteal crowd as one of the few players who doesnt seem to take part in lifesteal's characteristic distrust and cycles of revenge. in season 4 alone, planet's only main channel video so far - "breaking survival minecraft to get revenge" - doesnt really contain any real "revenge" at all. planet and his teammates are routinely knocked down by other, stronger players; used as bodies in a war they dont have much of a stake in (besides the thrill of having duped hearts), imprisoned, killed, spawn trapped, banned, etc etc. their bases get found and used. but it doesnt really bother planet, at least not in any lasting way. planet doesnt hold grudges, he was able to stand with three heart trio and say he didnt think zam was a bad person, even after zam pointed out repeatedly all of the ways he had wronged planet, bacon, and jaron personally

part of it is just who planet is, I think. they're not the kind of person to get too fussed about the sides and conflict. they routinely make light of it when they abruptly pull out a sword on bacon and start monologuing about how they were "working against him this whole time". during the latter part of girl talk w zam they bemoaned how zam wasnt "besties" with mapicc and ro anymore - even though zam was evil when he was with them, to planet, they had been friends, and friendship breaking up is sad!

planet sees that zam is scared and tries to help talk him through some of it, puts him through a series of bizarre "scenarios" to test zam's trust - up to and including begging zam for over an hour to let planet into the new eclipse base, to which zam eventually complied - all of the scenarios are things which, had the player been anybody but planetlord, may have been actual traps or threats to zam's life. planet does care, but on some level just doesn't fully understand the position that zam is in.

zam has been harassed*, stalked*, and threatened* by mapicc (*in a video game) for months now, and planet - who is on good terms with just about everybody, including mapicc - cant really understand why zam cant just let it go. planet themself has let a lot of things go, but zam has never been afforded that privilege - mapicc refuses to forget him.

as a result, a lot of planet's advice and thoughts for zam, especially in the "therapy session" part of girl talk, seemed to lean a lot into toxic positivity. just stop being scared and you wont be scared. mapicc doesnt care about you as much as you think, etc. it's all about mindset! I think some of that advice is helpful (especially during this week - cc!mapicc is recovering from surgery and unable to be online, and ro is unlikely to do anything without mapicc there, so there isnt really any reason to be afraid of mapicc logging in) but a lot of it is not constructive for princezam long-term. and zam even said as much at one point!

I think planet is like this in part due to their more easygoing nature, but also because planet has never really been afforded the privilege of being in the position to enact revenge in the first place. their team was named "three heart trio" for a reason! of the three of them planet is the biggest grinder and usually has some extra hearts stashed away, but overall they dont have anywhere near the kind of resources other teams might have: team shades are basically all on 20 hearts, the eclipse federation has subz' grindset and firepower, and team awesome is stacked with both the hearts and power to succeed, with the addition of their abuse of the pearl and gapple glitches and leftovers from the duping war.

compared to all of that, theres no way bacon, planet, and jaron can match up. that doesnt mean they dont try, because they do! they try to fight anyways, and they take some Ws now and then! they keep grinding and they keep hanging in there, refusing to give up. but I think, when you're that disadvantaged in a server that's unforgiving as lifesteal is and can be, on some level they let stuff go because they cant afford to hold a grudge.

at the start of the APO vs team awesome war, planet, bacon, and jaron had to decide what they wanted to do. they had received an offer from team awesome to join them, with the promise of a lot of hearts for each of them if they did join. bacon expressed his misgivings by saying that (paraphrased) "team awesome did all this bad stuff to us. it wouldnt really make sense, character wise, to join them now". but they joined team awesome anyway, and they set aside their hesitation and the memories of an obsidian prison and bloody knuckles, and marveled at the feeling of a healthbar on 14. how powerful it made them feel.

[toonocosm]

Hello, I saw your post.

First off your art is not 'ugly' nor 'boring'! They are so pretty! and personally I especially love your character design! The colors you pick are just perfect and your art style is really unique, and I mean that in all the positive ways!

Is your art overlooked? ABSOLUTLY! And that isn't a matter of 'do better' No! It's just a mix of not getting good enough luck and that it's hard to gain a following with OCs. Which it's entirely your choice to stick with OCs.

Also your art is very appealing! A lack of following doesn't equal a lack of interest. You haven't been discovered yet. That's all there is to it. That might be even more upsetting, but please don't take a lack of a following as your art not being wanted.

You have one of the best traits an artist can: the emotion in your works. I can physically feel the emotions of your art pieces. I find myself caring about the well being of your characters and I love whenever you post more art. I love seeing it and your characters!

Finally, you said you are burnt out and you have been for years. This makes me think you might want to step away from posting art for a bit. I think you should still draw, assuming it's something you still enjoy, but posting it might have made you start to dislike what you're doing. I don't know exactly what you are going through, but I think something like this might be happening: Putting yourself worth into how people see your art, feeling like you failed because not enough people see your art, accidently thinking your art is only as good as your following, starting to create art not for yourself anymore, etc. If it's like any of these, I think taking a step back from posting can help. 

Please remember to take care of your mental health. It's more important than posting art.

Thank you very much <3 I'm very happy that you can see and feel the emotions I put in my characters, putting as much emotion as I can in my characters is what I strive to do.

The thing is though, I already know getting a big following won't help. It's not really about wanting big numbers. It's much more about wanting to feel heard and appreciated, and you don't necessarily get that from a high follower number.

I have a small following here, with the same people frequently liking my art and leaving comments (like you). Those people are the ones I want my brain to focus on and appreciate, so I feel guilty when I fail to do that and still feel overlooked.

Focus on what you get, not what you don't get. You know. And feel like that's enough, that's what I want.

____________________________________________________

My (currently inactive) Instagram blew up a little a few years ago and it just felt empty, it was just shallow micro-interaction and comments with no substance. And I just don't care for these no-substance micro-interactions that social media is built upon, they don't make me feel appreciated or heard. They're no confirmation that people understand what I'm trying to communicate through my art. I mean, they're better than nothing I guess… I guess? Probably. Maybe seeing a high like/follower number is enough of a carrot for other people, but it's not for me. I feel appreciated when I'm heard and have my hard work acknowledged through actual thoughts from people.

And my Instagram blew up because I drew some Minecraft art, and the realization that this social media game is just about having luck with algorithms and drawing what's trendy hit kinda hard. It wasn't about hard work as I had told myself, so there was nothing to be proud of. So why even try, why should I work myself to the bone if that's not how the system works.

So with that said, I'm not judging my worth as a person based on arbitrary numbers on social media sites because it's all a biased luck-based game. I used to before I realized that, but not anymore. But I see how you came to this conclusion based on my post. And it's more like I'm stubbornly only creating art for myself to my own detriment since whenever I draw something like fanart that blows up a little, I don't want to draw it anymore? I don't know. I kinda want to draw more Minecraft stuff, but something is stopping me.

And I've been on a long break, not drawing as much means I naturally haven't been posting a lot either. That distance from the online art world has been good. But what if not having a worthwhile space to share my art is making me not want to draw? If art is communication, which it is for me, then talking but not being heard feels empty and unfulfilling. It's up to me to cultivate the space I'm looking for.

The overanalyzing, second-guessing everything and self-criticism is probably my burnout talking. I don't know... I've been trying to figure out what's going on since 2020.

[underestimated-heroine]

Not my twelfth archive post 😭

General

My turn dog video

What happened with John green was fucked up

If Wallace from Wallace and gromit died

-core "and none of you have sex"

Peggle 2

Size comparison between prehistoric animals and modern descendants

If you found out you were pregnant right now tiktok

The Minecraft poem is public domain now

Deaf culture reference post

Human pet guy

This makes me personally uncomfortable to malicious scale

Worst opening sentence competition

My fish brain want to go home video

Explain the Jewish holidays to me like I'm 5

If I was famous I'd release a bad song nct

The pigeon post

Harriet Porber

I hate you Christmas I hate you Christian hegemony

On writing plotting made simple

How to tag posts which might trigger epilepsy

Martin Bühler bike guy activism

How to search tags on Tumblr

Neil gaiman you have to practice writing

Zhao on "authors that made social media work for them"

Can you do a horse drawing reveal

2023 I hope you all kys

This post is like running through a minefield girl boy palette

The departed Matt damn Mark Wahlberg different people

On writing - writing is a skill practicing descriptions advice

2022 Tumblr Year in Review Month By Month

What data Tumblr live takes

Good fucking Lord quit sex-shaming people

I hate job hunting - wait did Anne Boleyn die? post

Share your genome sequence in ur bio

On writing: Plot Structure infograph

Finally some actually constructive criticism on a post

Jewish Concept of Lashon Hara

Riverdale banned fanfiction?

"everything's fine" knitting pattern

Mitch and bitch story

"I'll let this white girl say it since very few people listen when we do" mental illness social currency tiktok

Pornbot dms comic

Atla southern raiders were looking for hama

Why you hating on the red hot chili peppers longboarding across campus world heritage post ask

Harry Potter Legacy Chick Fil-A

Why is the US like that (Christian cults)

Ratatouille rogan Shapiro video idek

No doesn't exist on the internet anymore

"I forgive myself for doing that" and "I shouldn't have done that" can coexist

The US did not come together during the pandemic

If someone told me they felt like Harry Potter after we had sex

Anti-aging outrage post idek

Anime "is this the episode where he lost his house"

Ancient people fish with the sexy tits tiktok

Scooby Doo post "I've heard people say this website is free but you pay in other ways"

repeat after me: rest for art

Beautiful by ordinary days comic

Glaze comes out data-poisoning against art thieves

Reylo Lord farquad

Hippo post

Do not stand over my grave and weep poem comic

Monty Python Lady of the Lake quote 💀💀

Cops searched afroman's house and then tried to sue him for making a music video of the search

Fairy tail's strongest team freaks rating

Personal

Loid Anya younger than he thinks

Support voice actors

Black and white movies gripe

AU were race horses

My Nasha hair headcanon

Fairy tail AU where Juvia joined ft first

Gajevy vs. Gruvia

When this website was obsessed with astrology

Iconic spy x panel finally animated

The irony of picky eaters

Gray loved being in Juvia's body

Pops & Mops

Lake mungo Joel Anderson legend

Lamborghini-sized breasts and pills

2023 is cockdickpenis year

"um yeah that's called an addiction" fuck off

Google thinks I'm being bullied for baby names

Fandom influencer types -_-

This website defending the reputation of bees

Shrek "I need a hero scene" dad looks like he's watching a car wreck

Scrimp scrive fuck around

Sailor moon redraw redeaw

Laxus Jellal BrOTP

Comedian vs. rich housewife video

Jan 4 2023 antiwork screenshots

I wanted Natsu to beg for forgiveness

Rankin bass Rudolph

Don't take your managers on good faith. Ever.

Gray Fullbuster to an enemy

Pornbot "how dare you block me" dream

Goodbad boy (yes it's tod)

Rieklings

Fairy Tail Chasing Tails fic

Poll vampires werewolves etc.

Fairy Tail Gendercross Big4 Guys

[kyrodo]

I've normalized people acting stupid around me. For example Choskey will act dumb about "what I wanted to watch" and both me and Red would tell him I wanted to watch the thing we were watching before the pvp arena minecraft thing he showed. And his reasoning he eventually revealed was because he didn't want to watch something he wanted to be awake for and he also doesn't like watching incomplete animes if they're good cause he doesn't want cliffhangers. Another example is Red acting stupid when he's watching something going on in a parking lot, either a homeless person he wants to help, or some activity that seems suspicious to him. Because Red has some kind of police obsession which I almost don't blame Kay for getting angry at him now. Especially when the reality is they cause more problems than they solve, and they're used to control people, quell protests etc. I'm not gonna get too far into that, but I'm not the type of person who gets a hard on watching police chases end poorly for people.

Back to topic though, I'm used to it now. I'm used to people acting stupid for one reason or another, not being as forthcoming as I am, lying, putting on a farce, acting like they don't know what I'm talking about. As long as the person on the other end at the end of the day is someone who supports or cares about me. As long as they are not my enemy. After all that's only happened once. Once out of all the years I've lived. ONCE. So not only are you the only person who's ever switched gears every time I interact with them depending on how I interact with them, you're also the only real enemy I've ever made. What is that supposed to say about me?

You can bring a whole army to fight a private war with me behind Red's back, but at the end of the day you're the only one crying wolf. Obviously other people aren't seeing some of the things you're seeing because I'm not hostily subtexting them but is that it? Is that enough for not a single person to hate me except you out of my entire life? I'm saying you picked a hard person to frame.

It's funny how back then I used to almost believe everybody in the world hated me and that's what started our interaction at all, but it was literally just you and your friends all along. Who else is there? Who else has some vendetta against me? Who else has tried to fuck up my life? When I was ranting towards Kay, how much of it do you even think she read? I fought a one-sided war against her she wasn't even paying attention to or didn't make any indication of reacting to, hoping she cared enough that she would, and she didn't. I don't even make enemies, you just came at a good time. I'm not like my mom. I don't go out of my way to piss off managers or give people a hard time. So what the fuck do you want me to do?

I can only be so little, and I can only do so much. I had a massive footprint in 2020 that was largely ignored by the person it was originally meant for. But otherwise my footprint when it comes to drama other than you is pretty fucking nonexistent. Because I'm not the type. I have transparent thoughts on social media, if not in public then here, but beyond that I'm not bothering people am I? Nobody's trying to subtext me, there's no parasocial anything going on anymore. And in vrchat. Nothing. There's no attack drones. No negative words behind my back. Everybody has had good experiences with me. And I literally can't do any better than I already have. Why the fuck do I need to fit your blown out standards when everybody else gets along with me just fine?

And just like how siber got his art skills when he was completely emotionally crashed due to psychotic depression, I'm an absolute beast at avatar customization. The holes in the stuff I don't know are getting filled in every time I work on anything. And I keep making friends. I have two boyfriends. I don't know how poorly you wanted my life to go in the aftermath but allow me to disappoint you.

And the cherry on top is that my "reading" skills aren't being constantly stress tested by someone every single day. The only people I want to interact with these days are as non-toxic as a fucking crayon, subtly or not. My avatar is so cute. My personality is so cute. Where I'm getting rejected in the edgieverse, elsewhere I'm finding loads of acceptance when I use my real strengths. Why should I try to find friends with the personality that only exists when I'm having problems with someone. Especially when the only people it would appeal to aren't the people that would calm me down. What comfort is there to be found in someone about as soft as a fucking toothpick.

I don't want more reasons to remain aggravated, I want someone that would help me stop. You're the opposite of that. You leave shouts on people's fa pages trying to recycle drama. I can't even wrap my head around how much of a dick you were to me. Every action an ulterior motive to get me reading subtext again so I can get hurt again. So I can give you a free pathway to attack and abuse me with. Find someone else.

[astro-eats]

I kinda wanted to write an unorganized thing of my life story that's probably not gonna be in order 🤷 (MAJOR TW! SH, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SA, CHILD NEGLECT QND ABUSE, ETC)

Uh why am I writing this

ok so one thing I remember is when I was younger, my dad left me for drugs 😊 that's kinda where it starts ig. He said recently he's trying to quit but he doesn't want to talk to me until he heals himself so like.. go off king thanks for fixing yourself lolll. Uh..

Next thing (this actually feels like an essay what the fizzle) so then my mom started dating this guy who became my 'dad' like a father figure ig? But he sucked he kinda is the not sigma guy in this story. Ok so father figure guy, lets call him person, he was mean and did drugs and alcohol and stuff 😠👹 uh anyways he was violent and would always yell at us. (me and my siblings)

Uh.. I remember a time where he picked up my sister and continuously hit her head against the wall. She was screaming for him to stop and he didnt. She was so scared. And I did absolutely nothing. I should have. But I didnt.

Another thing I remember when my mom left us alone with him while she was at work. I love my mom btw, shes not the bad one in this story. She left while he was in an aggressive state. It was really scary. He would always neglect us. He left us alone constantly while she was out cheating. :(

This part has mentions of pedophilia and kind of incest even though he isn't my biological dad. Anyways, the hotel! One time we went to a hotel as like a staycation. Its not far from where we live. In that hotel was one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me :(. He kept yelling and getting violent. He literally broke the toilet. He made holes in the wall. Its terrifying. I was 9. In that hotel, my siblings were playing Minecraft on a tv and PlayStation he brought to the hotel. I sat next to him and got under the blanket. He started touching me and grabbing my hand and forcing me to touch him. I was genuinely feeling like I was gonna throw up. This went on for a long time. Almost every day of that spring break. It also went on before this hotel trip. It was fully clothes though, so.. Anyways, my mom was on the bed next to the one he assaulted me on. All I had to do was say something. And she would've noticed something wrong. But I sat silently. Person leaned to me and asked if I liked it. I said no. He kept going. Because he liked it. I hate him. He made me hate my life for a long time. Sam, if you somehow see this (even though you wont) fuck you. I was 9. You were 36. You were my father figure. You're disgusting.

Onto another part. A dew years later, somehow I managed to tell my teacher about it. She told my mom who told the police. I have to go to court in october. If you read this far, please pray for me. He is extremely manipulative and is gonna try and gaslight me.

Anyways, onto sh and suicidal stuff. I'm not suicidal anymore. Dw. Ok, I started spiraling into wanting to die. I would cut myself a lot. I wanted to die. I had a whole plan. And a suicide note. I wanted to die so badly. I tied something around my neck to prepare for what I thought would be the end. But I researched and that would have taken about 4 minutes. So I started researching how to painlessly do it quickly. I know how to die. If it ever got bad again, I could just die.

This girl leaked my information and I saw a whole group of girls whispering about it. Then one of the girls who was on the gossip group ran to me and shouted "YOU CUT YOURSELF?!" drawing the attention of others.

Anyways off of that, I'm healing. If you read all of this, uh why? Ty tho lol. :3 I might make more if these where I drop my lore.

[the-galaxy-sys]

we rly wanna do this because we've had a lot of sys stuff going on and it's fun :D long post so it'll be under the cut

sys name: our main sys is the galaxy system, because host rly likes space. subsys the entropy collective is bc also space thing and the subsys host just liked the word. subsys forest grove is because a lot of the alters in it have nature themes or are connected to the outdoors

ooc quote: we can't think of any off the top of our head :P

sys holiday: like a holiday for the system in particular? we don't have one i don't think. fave holiday we all celebrate? all of them have ups and downs for us but probably christmas just bc we have the most good memories associated w/ it

subsys?: yep! two subsystems. the entropy collective and forest grove.

switching?: it reaaaaally depends on who is switching and why. usually disorienting but doesn't last too long, takes a minute to figure out what's going on. we switch much more easily if someone co-fronts and then the previous fronter leaves a few minutes later, just a smoother transition.

shared hobbies: mostly art! a majority of us find drawing or at least coloring to be pretty calming

headcount?: between 75 and 90 i think

speech patterns: yeah some of us speak differently, with different accents, deeper/higher, quieter/louder, some of us use more slang or abbreviations and other things!

art?: see shared hobbies (aka very much yes)

split easily?: kind of! like, yes and no...? i feel like we split easily but it usually ends up being alters that've been around for a while that not everyone knew about or didn't make themselves known

fic/fac-heavy?: we have more fictives than factives but not more introjects than brainmade

songs?: most of us have our own songs we relate to and use for pos triggers or grounding

amnesia levels: uhhhh depends! we have a lot more amnesia than we initially thought but it isn't like, constant blackout never know where we are kinda thing

free time: art, video games, uh... usually just those two actually

headspace: very much depends!! it's a lot of separate sorta "biomes" if you imagine it like minecraft but you have to teleport to get from one to another, and some of us have access to parts others don't

nonhumans?: we're mostly nonhumans! more of us aren't human than are

recharge?: music and video games usually

stress?: art, video games, distractions. hanging out w/ our pets

discovery?: nixx had a mutual on twt it talked to a lot who is a system and it started researching plurality to understand them better, was like "oh hey that sounds like me" and then. yeah

school/work?: we did have alters who specifically helped with schoolwork but we no longer go to school so not really anymore. not currently employed either

freq fronters: nixx, lucille, lucien, midas, pj, eli, elijah, elias. first three are the hosts but there are more that front frequently those are just the first that immediately come to mind

bought things: yep, we have some of our own accessories, grounding items, hobby things, etc etc

introject sources: we have the most from fnaf but also multiple from fortnite and multiple chonny jash

free space: i like how you can see that we switched over the time of writing this from our typing style(s)

Ask a system!

Alright, we've been silenced as a system for wayy too long and so, you know what? I'm pushing us out of it. Because we deserve to be ourselves. Send one of these emojis in our asks and we'll answer! -Asher 🍄 - how did you get your system name?

👾 - funniest out of context system quote?

🎉 - favorite system holiday?

🌙 - do you have subsystems?

☕ - what is switching like for you?

💫 - are there any hobbies you all have?

💾 - what's your headcount?

👻 - do your alters/headmates have different voices or speech patterns?

🎨 - does anyone in your system like art?

🥀 - how easily does the system split?

🦖 - is your system fictive-heavy? factive-heavy? neutral?

🎵 - what songs remind you of your alters/headmates?

❓ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🎮 - what do your alters/headmates do in their free time?

🪐 - what is headspace like for you?

🍐 - are there any non-human alters/headmates?

🪫 - what do you all do to recharge?

🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress?

🔦 - how did you discover your system?

🌟 - do any alters help out with school/work?

🌊 - who are your frequent fronters?

🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things?

☘️ - what are your introjects/fictives usually sourced from?

💬 - free space!! tell me about something!

[half-man-half-lime]

I'm trying to argue against or reframe the arguments people make about AI and consciousness in a way that makes sense to other people, and I'm having trouble figuring out how to articulate what I want to say, so here's this: what counts as playing Doom?

If it's not played on a 1993 computer is it really Doom? Yeah? Ports on new computers and other consoles are okay? Ports on non-gaming computers like smart fridges are okay? Cool, we have a baseline, but it gets more complicated from there.

What if you're playing it on an old ti-83 calculator? You might have to change the code and mess with the calculator, but aren't you playing the same fundamental game even if the details are different?

What if you build one of those redstone computers in Minecraft to emulate Doom by running its programming? Does it not count because the programming is emulated in a different and more complex medium?

What if you're playing it on something that's not a conventional computer, like a really big mechanical computer made of gears and switches, that slowly switches colored panels on a giant board?

Or something really weird and out there, like if you implanted the programming in the brain of an octopus and it changed colors in an approximation of a screen in response to how you tap it? (Suppose that's possible and dream about the Doom octopus with me for a moment.)

Are you still playing Doom? Is it the same game? Where do you draw the line and say "that doesn't count anymore"? When and how and why do the distinctions matter- even if you do consider it a different game?

Now let's take the question one step further.

Suppose you train one of the current AI programs on a game of Doom. The software, trained on thousands of hours of gameplay, watches what happens onscreen, listens to audio output, and monitors keys pressed. In response, it outputs its best imitation of a game of Doom, in response to what keys you're pressing when running the software.

Based on how the other programs work, we can assume it's kind of off and weird. It takes you to the wrong rooms sometimes, the bad guys have behavior that doesn't make sense, etc. (Can you tell I've never played Doom before?) But it's a pretty good approximation.

So someone might say "Hey! That's not a port of Doom! It's just a bunch of statistical models designed to approximate the gameplay, it doesn't actually contain the core programming!"

But, like, doesn't it understand that stuff? Isn't the statistical model becoming a set of internal rules that, at least in a roundabout way, are similar to how the actual game is programmed, even though it's never seen the code? Couldn't those rules become even more similar with enough time to refine the program and train it better?

Aren't those rules just another medium for the same thing?

Isn't the guy in the locked room and the math he does to translate from English to Chinese a medium for an intelligence that does understand both languages?

Doesn't ChatGPT need to build a model of how people think and understand things in order to find a way to emulate the language they use, even if it's currently a very poor approximation and sometimes the results are off?

[laski-and-sage]

Accidental AU no.2 — Streamer/Twitch AU

Well, this appears here and there in our discussions but still, Sage and I don't do anything else with it, so you may as well have it lmao

WHAT IF...... Hellsing Ultimate characters were Twitchstreamers?

- Don't get me wrong: the organizations are still there and the characters are still what they are (like...Alu's still a vamp etc.), they just have.....more freetime

- and of course they're further in the future cus if i remember correctly twitch wasn't that popular in 1999 xD

- Seras would play cute lil idle games like Stardew Valley but could still beat yo ass in any shooter

- Integra would play hidden object games only

- she'd insist that it helps her relax after a stressful day of work....but that still won't mean that she doesn't rage when she can't find something

- Pip plays Battlefield and CoD for life. If its a shooter, he's playing it.

- Alucard, surprising as it is, is the Minecraft person!

- building stuff is very therapeutic to him, he'd build stuff and scenes from his memories and past just to deal with them a bit better

- there would be a battlefield, maybe his castle, the scaffold he died on, the palace he was held hostage on – so much dark stuff but his viewers would be none the wiser :D

- they'd be just amazed by his creativity etc.

- they wouldn't even know he's a vampire, he's just some dude with a weird aesthetic and a damn good greenscreen to make it look like he lives in a dungeon....and is that a coffin in the background?? Just aesthetic :DD

- Imagine him sucking at shooters--

- Anderson being a pro at ANY game, especially at the very popular ones

- you learn much in an orphanage and if its just playing videogames with the kids

- Pip is the kind of streamer that invites all sorts of other people to his streams.

- the Hellsing squad and his men being the main people

- Streams with Alucard as guest are wild

- Pip still plays shooters, Alucard still sucks at it.... doesn't hinder him on trying

- "how tf do i shoot??" *Accidentally crouches*

- Pip is wheezing

- his character just afks somewhere, pips head is just placed on the table, he's completely quiet and just his fist slams against the very same table

- the poor guy just can't breathe

- at some point Iscariot is present during such a stream

- Alucard still sucks so Anderson just yeets him out of his chair

- legit. Ur in stream watching Alucard and suddenly a slam and he isn't there anymore lmao

- well, then there is this guy in priestgown casually sitting down and grabbing the headset

- of course there are protests in the background but Alucard has to play civil cus of public

- Anderson just slays it

- suddenly Pip has a very serious opponent

- "okay, so we're back in business! An honour to play with ya, padre!"

- respects™

- Alucard just watches in the background, suffering in silence

- "why can't this guy be on our team??" Yup, Pip complains about loosing

- now the paladin is established as one of Pips guests as well

- Organizations aside, this is gamer pride we're talking about. (Is there even such a thing? Eh)

This is all we have for now but since this appears here and there in our discussions, i'm sure more headcanons are to be added.

Still, if you want to use this AU, feel free to do so. Just tag us if you do! We'd love to read/see it!

[mha-quotes-and-such]

It's Saturday and you know what it means!

So... Things had gone so awry so many times that no one bothered to bring a game anymore. But they hadn't really given up on Game Night yet, so after a brief non-lethal discussion on who was supposed to choose the game this time (nobody knew. They lost track already), they settled for improvising.

Shigaraki tried to make everyone agrees on videogames, since they were literally right there in the room! Ready to be used! Why do we even need to think about it more?!

It didn't work out. Poor thing. At least he tried. But no one is going to bite the bail because he is the worst when it comes to videogames (in both sharing and in competitiveness)

Toga suggested fishing out the jigsaw puzzles, mostly because she wanted to make weird scattered and cut down art again. Everyone got too recent flashbacks and it was a big "no".

Twice said they could dim down the lights, get a flashlight and make a shadow figures contest. It didn't even qualify as a game.

Somehow, it ended up with everyone getting a sheet of paper and a pen. They'd play scattergories.

Oh yeah, it's as disastrous as it sounds.

It was hard enough to get them to agree on which categories to choose (dozens of suggestions were shut down for being too specific, unfair to the others or straight up a shameless attempt to mock someone). They settled first the basic ones, like name, city, animal, vegetable, etc.

They didn't last 5 minutes without petty and quickly escalating discussions.

"You just made up that name!"

"What? No! My great aunt's nephew's dog was called it! I swear!"

"It's not valid then! It has to be a human name! And this name is ridiculous anyway!"

"How dare you?! And the rules never mentioned it having to be a human name!"

"Then why don't we all just make up alien names and call it a day?! Since no one here has the least bit of common sense!"

And:

"No! Blood is not food don't matter how you feel about it!"

"But there's sugar in it"

"No"

"And you can consume it!"

"No"

"But-"

"No! Besides you don't eat blood, it's liquid!"

"...so can I put it down as a drink?"

"...you know what? Suit yourself"

And then:

"Lemon is not a vegetable!"

"Well, it's not an animal nor a mineral, is it now?"

"It's a fruit!"

"It's a plant. Vegetable Kingdom"

Aaaand:

"This city doesn't exist!"

"Of course it does. I created it on Minecraft. Named it myself"

"That's why it sounds stupid! And it doesn't count!"

"Well, now you know how I feel about your made up words!"

"We are over it. That words exists! It's on the dictionary and everything!"

And (again):

"Everyone wrote the same thing? None of you has any creativity, bunch of cheaters!"

"Oi, you are one to talk! You could be the one cheating for all we know!"

"If I see anyone copying my answers, you'll pay!"

And so on. Really, I could keep going for hours. It's a surprise the game lasted as long as it did.

Obviously, it ended with accusations and people aiming for each other's throats. Twice burned down his paper and then the rest of the stack just to be sure. Shigaraki decayed his and everyone else either shredded theirs to pieces, stabbed them or both.

They never got to count the points before trying to kill each other. Kurogiri once again warp gated everyone to bed earlier.

He never thought it'd come to this, but:

Scattergories was banned.

(And he kept the pens and newly bought papers on a locked drawer to be sure)

Yet another game banned from the base. Kurogiri should have been shocked that something as simple as pen and paper could cause so many issues, but at this point he’s so used to it that it would have been more shocking if it went smoothly

[stellocchia]

Uhhhh... Motherfucking au where everything's the same but SBI is canon and techno is a person with morals and empathy.

So the 16th was an overreaction and he actually regrets it. He got really swept away with everything in pogtopia and Wilbur egging everything on didn't help. So when he starts his retirement he actually means it and there's no wither arc

He still forgets to tell anyone he's in retirement so the butcher army kinda happens as it did before. He actually willingly follows them back to lmanberg for a trial (he doesn't just immediatelly comply with them of course but no actual battle Takes place)

He gets executed without trial and wether he has the totem or not he doesn't use it. He loses a life, figuring that if he gives them their show of power this whole shitshow is finally gonna be over.

He finds Tommy and like any decent person but especially a brother he takes him in officially. No raccooning needed. He focuses on helping Tommy recover a bit, both physically and mentally while doing his thing and keeping an eye out for lmanberg, if they decide one life wasn't enough.

Hiding from dream and stuff is p much the same

Phil comes back by himself.

They don't exactly have any reason to go to lmanberg so they don't exactly do.

Well. Mostly. They sometimes sneak around especially when dream is there to kinda scout what's going on. It's a compromise. Techno is gonna support him in getting stronger and getting info for his endgoal of getting the disks back and Tommy will hold back for now and be patient.

Butcher army still moves onto dream anyways because... Idk I feel like quackity would've gotten to him anyways like. Why not yknow.

The festival happens and the community House scene is pretty similar

Dream blames it on Tommy, wants the disc tubbo has, Tommy reveals himself.

The whole thing is just hilarious because. Yknow. People didn't know Tommy was alive. So first they thought dream was insane and then Tommy fckin entered the stage. Techno backs him up. Tubbo is pissed. His reasons are pretty different while also being pretty much the same.

Tommy let him think he killed himself and was okay doing so while going after his stupid discs. He's alive so there's the possibility he actually did blow up the community House and give them trouble with dream. Lmanberg and techno aren't cool or anything. After the execution they were just mutually ignoring each other. Lmanberg thinking he was like. Scared or some shit.

Listen. Tubbos just been having a hard time ok.

They still kinda have their shouting match because both have been bottling up shit

Dream gets the disc

Dream announces doomsday

Tommy sides with tubbo

Techno is ok with that. He didn't have an agenda. He's in retirement. He makes it clear though that this means that that's where they part. Techno's taking his retirement very serious. Techno and him had the compromise that techno would help Tommy get ready to get the disks back before releasing him back into the wild. If Tommy gets involved now, this deal ends.

Techno's Not getting involved with this conflict.

Tommy pretends to think for a few seconds but there was never a decision to be made in his mind.

They hug and part ways

Tommy still rallies the people

It still falls apart after he leaves

People are still pissed at him

So doomsday arrives and it goes pretty much the same except. Yknow. No techno or philza.

Dream releases several withers like. One or two hours early because he's a fucking bitch. (Here he actually has wither skulls himself)

And when I say several I mean several

Once he has enough spreading chaos and keeping everyone busy he builds the tnt grid and yeah.

Lmanberg is a crater anyways.

However. Philza (who in this au actually bothered to learn about the country he helped rebuilt and lived in for weeks) went and got all of ghostburs stuff the night before because. Yknow. I want him to a bit more of a good person in this.

Also. Yknow. Friend.

There's still a lot of shit blown up. The minecraft-blade-soot-innit family ain't saints. They got ghostburs shit. That's it.

So afterwards most of the shit goes the same with dream. The scenes on the grid etc etc etc

When Tommy after a long day enters his house there's technoblade and Phil and ghostbur who've been waiting for him to come home after that shitshow. They comfort him, tell him he can always come visit them in the Arctic or even live there with them if he wanted. He declined but thanks them anyways

They spend the night just to make sure he'll be okay.

The next day they go back to the antarctic

Mostly the same stuff as in canon happens

Tommy and Tubbo still get the gear for the fight against dream themselves. Tommy made the decision to do the disc thing without techno during the community House scene and he wants to respect techno by not going back on that. Though he knows if really necessary he could go and barely need to do any convincing for Techno to help him out with some gear

Getting worried about tubbo he doesn't want to chance it but not wanting to put techno on the spot he tries to steal and very similar to canon techno just pretends to be too busy to care.

When they leave techno Phil and ghostbur are also waiting for them though not on the prime path. They're a bit off to the side and them and the duo don't talk. Tommy's already done that with them after he got dreams invitation. Theyre just there to see him go off.

They're not with the saving group but they don't need to be and one of the first things Tommy does after his victory is private message them that he's safe and they won and dreams in prison.

He comes over for dinner the next day to tell them in more detail so they know what's going on and that's about it for season 2

I'm not getting into season 3 now and probably never but a few tidbits about it

Tommy still has to somewhat earn the diamonds for his hotel from philza. The minecraft-blade-soot-innit family might be semi functional but that doesn't mean Phil just gives them money whenever they ask for it. That's not how you raise kids.

Tommy obviously sends them an invite to the hotel opening anyways and techno asks what the VIP perks are

Tubbo and Tommy still have to work through a lot just like in canon. Add to that that tubbo doesn't quite know what to think about Tommy and his family being this close again. On one hand they weren't involved with doomsday like in canon and have just been keeping to themselves since Techno's execution. On the other Techno's behaviour in season 1 is still fresh in his mind and "he was having a rough patch" kind of doesn't just give him closure on that. Like he's not mad. He just doesn't know what to think of it. Cuz like. Techno's not trying to redeem himself or anything. He started his retirement because after getting out of that ravine and the adrenaline fading and just having time to think and realize what happened he realized that he couldn't let himself be controlled by the voices anymore so it's like. Going from full on alcoholic to no alcohol at all ever within a day. And to make that possible he focuses just on his retirement. This isn't about becoming a better person per se it's about not getting so strung up in shit that you tell your younger brother to die while sicking withers on him. He recognizes that he fucked up. He accepted lmanbergs judgement of executing him. Now he just wants his fckin peace. And that's kinda weird to think about for someone in tubbos position. Because. Yeah.

Thinking about Tommy spending time with his family like everything's peachy irks him because. Kinda makes it seem like everything's resolved. Like he's okay with them just having a happy ending despite them not really deserving one. But with time he realizes that Tommy needs them as a support system and that getting worked up about it just isn't worth it.

Uhhhhh and that's about it I think

Ooooh, semi-functional family sbi and clingy duo angst? Love that!

I do wonder how the whole exile debacle would go if they were actual family, especially considering that Phil was in New L'Manburg and therefore knew about the exile and could go visit Tommy freely, same with Techno actually (except for the being in New L'Manburg part), but, like, for him we can pretend he didn't know. Like, would Phil try and go visit Tommy more then once? Or would Dream find a way to keep him away? Maybe make him think he has no right to meddle with Tommy's life just now?

Also I wonder how Ranboo would be involved in all of this. Because if Techno and Phil were not there during Doomsday I doubt they invited him to live with them and I doubt they made the Syndicate, so would Ranboo live with Tuboo? Would he try to act as a sort of mediator for Clingy Duo?

Like, there are so many possibilities for this....

[babysizedfics]

I HC that big Vee still likes to be put to bed. Not like bedtime story etc, but occasionally he will go to one of the CGs (or even Ro sometimes) and be like "im heading to bed" very deliberately, trying to get someone to come with him, or he'll curl up on the couch and start someone off on a long speech about something, just so he can fall asleep and its like he isn't alone, but he doesn't quite realize that being babied to sleep when he's little is the reason till one of the cgs points it out

I have been thinking about this All Day while i packed so i have a lot of things to say abt this - this is a VERY long post so be prepared shhshs

firstly: ADORABLE THANK U

i rlly do think this is in character! because adult virge actually has a lot of trouble with sleep - he has nightmares most nights and we've obviously established that he wets the bed a lot. both of these things tend to wake him up only a few hours into the night and he's not always willing to sleep again afterwards (to avoid nightmares and wet sheets)

on top of that he (used to) struggle with getting himself to bed on time, he would stay up into the early hours indulging in special interests, stimming where he hid it during the day, or being little (when it was still hidden from everyone) and this has all messed up his body clock quite a lot so some nights he just can't get himself to sleep - this is why he's so sleepy during the days

Also i think he just likes being around people, it calms his anxiety because he doesnt worry about whether anyone is hurt or anything because he can see/feel them around him - so im sure after so many nights being babied to sleep by his CGs and getting so used to having someone with him to fall asleep he subconsciously seeks it out when he's big

also while we are on the subject, adult virgil has a very specific bedtime routine! this is me projecting again but he NEEDS to do every part of it otherwise he feels really stressed and upset and gets anxious and that makes it even harder to sleep - his routine is calling roman a nickname until roman calls him one back, saying 'Night L' to which logan has to reply 'Good night, Virgil.' (if logan replies differently virgil keeps subtly trying to postpone bedtime and repeating 'night L' until logan says it exactly right), and having a hug with patton - patton is the most reliable because every time without a doubt he sways them side to side, squeezes virgils shoulders, kisses his head and whispers 'i love you stormcloud' and virgil always replies 'love you dad' while avoiding his eyes. This routine has been in place since before the regression is revealed i think

ugh the fact that virgil finishes everyday by hugging patton is so cute already but also i said that he also starts off everyday by hugging patton too and thats just ADORABLE

now with actually asking for people to put him to bed, it will be different with each person:

with logan, as you suggested, i think he would get logan to talk about something academic that interests him or maybe even - much more rarely - shyly ask logan if he could read the book in his hands out loud. Logan of course understands that virgil does these things when he's getting tired and is happy to do so to help virgil relax before bed. It helps him relax too

with patton virgil is the most obvious - he knows theres no point hiding it from him and he just outright asks if patton can please help him fall asleep. though I think he would actually be most reluctant to seek out patton, ironically, merely because he knows that patton picks up on it and has no qualms with pointing out that virgil clearly loves bedtime and 'of course i can tuck you in kiddo! Do you want me to stroke your hair? Do you want your paci? Shall i sing to you sweetie?'

So virgil mainly kind of avoids getting patton to put him to bed when he's grownup because pattons instinct is to just treat him like a baby - which virgil appreciates of course but some nights he actually wants to stay big and its kind of impossible to do that when patton is humming a lullaby and rocking virgil in his lap

with roman its a very different story - virgil will only ever seek roman out if both CGs are already in bed, which brings me onto a HC that I've been meaning to tell you guys about for WEEKS:

roman and virgil often have 'sleepovers' - theyre really just all-nighters where both of them have trouble sleeping and instead of suffer alone they go into romans room and chill together for the night

they keep this a secret from the CGs mainly because they're sure patton and logan would both have something to say about the fact that at least once a week virgil and roman completey forego sleep and instead eat snacks and watch disney and play video games and shove pillows into their faces to try not to wake the others with their sleep deprived laughter

but also? its just become special to them and they want to keep it as Their Thing

you see virgil isnt the only one who struggles with sleeping - roman tends to stay up very late working on creative projects (even if the CGs put him to bed he will usually get up again because he cant get his brain to switch off) and he won't admit it, at least not for a while, but he actually has a slight fear of sleep

the fact that you are unaware of what goes on around you and are not in control of your body or mind while you are unconscious just doesn't sit right with roman, if he thinks about it too hard he starts freaking out and purposefully avoids sleeping - thought he doesnt tend to think about it too much, he's learned to ignore these thoughts since when he was a teen they led to a pretty bad case of insomnia

so vee and ro tend to be awake late at night and often one will text 'you up?' and within a minute virgil will be sneaking into roman's room to keep each other company

this is where i think most of their adult brotherly bonding happens, its quiet since they dont want to wake up pat or lo and it's a calm atmosphere because of roman's constellation nightlight and the whole vibe of it just makes them a lot more open and soft with each other

they tend to end up talking about Big Life Things on most nights

as they play minecraft one night virgil opens up about his internalised ableism and how no matter how much everyone assures him its okay to need extra help he still feels awful about it and roman doesn't say much, he just listens, but when he notices virgil getting choked up at one point he pauses the game and silently pushes his teddy bear aladdin into virgils hands and pulls him in with one arm to lean against his shoulder

another night they are lying on romans bed, side by side but with some distance between them, and staring up at the projected constellations, talking about how cool it is that logan and patton take care of them and roman blurts out that sometimes he feels a bit scared of logan and thinks he will tell him off for being stupid and force him not to be virgils brother anymore because he cant be trusted.

they dont look at each other, they keep staring at the stars as roman rambles, supplemented by lots of sarcastic comments and jokes and nervous laughter to hide the fact that his voice is shaking. And again, virgil doesnt say much, he doesnt interrupt roman and they both know that they feel comfy opening up to each other on these nights because theres a silent agreement that they dont discuss it, it's just a venting session, no advice or sympathy please.

but virgil does shuffle closer on the bed and presses their shoulders together, and he does take romans hand gently when roman starts picking at his nails

so yeah.. virgil seeks the CGs out when he wants to sleep, but its not so bad when he can't sleep either because he'll aways have roman too