#“im not goth enough” i say with the year round bats hanging on my wall. bleeding candles

[bubblebassfatass]

That goth bitch imposter syndrome be hitting, check on your goth friends

[kates-coming-home]

I had to repost because tumblr lost the other post??? Little fic idea I got from an anon sent to @minikate--24-05 about Toni the dog Word count: 1872 Pairing: kinda Kibbs "Gibbs I need help" Abby wheeled around on her chair facing her friend with a defeated look on her face. "Can you remember Toni? Well she needs a home because Ka-, after Kate, basically Toni needs a home and I was looking after her for Kates parents but they don't want her anymore, something about having a cat and too much stress getting her to their house. So she doesnt have a home and my landlord wont let me have a dog even though I begged him. I was going to ask Tony but it'd be too awkward, having a dog called Toni while being named Tony and Mcgee was that adamant he wouldn't be able to look after her and Ducky already has to look after his Mum and the Corgis and I doubt Ziva would take her so she has no where. But she really needs a home and she can't go to a shelter because if no one adopts her she'll be put to sleep and Kate wouldn't want that and even if she gets adopted she might not go to a nice-" "Whats your point Abbs?" Gibbs stopped the goths rambling, putting a caf-pow in her hand and pushing her chair over to the computer. He briefly glanced up at the drawing Kate drew of Abby as a bat but he felt his heart pang in his chest so he quickly averted his eyes. He still had her notebook hidden in his desk draw, and often caught himself flicking through drawings of the team with tears in his eyes. "Can you take her? I can help you look after her and stop by to walk her whenever I'm not at work, I just want her to have a nice home and you could give her that." "I don't really have time for a dog Abby" "Please Gibbs, if I could take her I would but my landlord said no and shes the sweetest little thing ever, you wont regret it. Kate would want someone she could trust to look after her. Plus I'd help, she already has toys and a bed and food so you wouldn't need to buy her anything. She could sit in the basement and keep you company when you work on the boat. Please, Gibbs." Looking into Abbys eyes Gibbs knew he had no choice in the matter. Damn the soft spot he had for his favorite lab rat. "Okay Abbs, but you better help me look after her" A sparkle came back in the goths eyes as she flung herself into his arms. "Thank you thank you thank you! I'll come round yours at 11 tonight to drop her off and give you all her stuff. I'll bring some take out food as well amd I can sit and watch you work on the boat" "Okay Abbs, now what have you got for me on the case?" Abby swung back round on her chair and pulled up fingerprints on the monitor. "I managed to pull some partial prints from the gun, but not enough to run through the system, but they have enough points so if you brought me a suspect I'd be able to match them. Now the bullet that Ducky pulled out of the marines body matched the bullets from the gun..." ~~~ Gibbs closed the casefile, glad it was a simple case that didn't require much paper work. Jealous ex-girlfriend that shot him after seeing him with his new girlfriend. He pulled his jacket from the back of his chair and made his way to the elevator, the rest of the team had left about an hour ago, making it quarter to 11. So if he broke some basic traffic laws he would make it home in time for Abby. He made his way out the building, wishing Harry a goodnight before locating his car and driving home. Pulling up he noticed the goths hearse was already parked at the other side of the street so he checked his watch. 2 minutes to 11, he wasn't late which was good. He climbed out his car and opened the door of his house to be greated by a high pitched barking at his feet. "Hey girl" he scooped the dog into his arms and carried her to the basement where Abby was waiting with chinese food. "Gibbs, I'm jealous! I've known you for years and you've never greated me like that but you warm up Toni on the second time of seeing her" Gibbs gently placed Toni back on the floor, patting her head one last time before straitening up and sitting next to Abby on his work bench. She passed him food and chop sticks before digging into her own food. "I already took Toni for a walk before I came over so she'll be okay untill tomorrow morning, you'll need to take poo bags with you, I put them in the kitchen along with her food and water bowl, I put her bed down here so she can keep you company while you work, but she liked to sleep in my coffin so if you ever go sleep in your actual bed instead of sleeping on your work bench she'll probably follow you up. You need to make sure theres water down for her all the time, and feed her atleast twice a day and walk her in the morning and night, but she'd be quite content to just roam in your garden I think." Abby threw a piece of chicken down for Toni who caught it before curling up next to Abbys feet. "You made the poor dog sleep in your coffin? And I know how to look after a dog Abbs" "I didn't say you couldn't I was just making sure you knew everything. Also her toys are in a box next to her bed, you might want to unpack them tomorrow morning so she has something to do while you're at work. Ill probably stop by tomorrow night to make sure she's settling in okay, Im gonna miss having her around my appartment" Abby put her finished takeaway box down on the bench next to her then leaned on Gibbs shoulder. "I miss Kate too" Gibbs put his arm around Abby, pulling her into a sideways hug, and discarded his food to the side. "I know Abbs, I know." He tried to pull up a tough facade for the sake of Abby but she saw right through it, turning sideways on the bench to pull her silver haired fox into a proper hug. She pulled back a few moments later and looked him in the eyes. "Im gonna go use the restroom quickly, I'll be back in a moment." With that she swung her legs of the bench and jumped down being careful to avoid landing on Toni. When she had made her way up the basement steps Gibbs stood up and made his way to the box of dog toys in the corner on the floor. Sitting down next to it he pulled the first toy out, a pink octopus, missing one of its legs and eyes, it's nose hanging on by a thread. Toni ran up to the octopus and stole it from the older mans hands before setting down in his lap and chewing on one of the remaining legs. "Hey little girl, I know my house isn't the most exciting place in the world, but welcome to your new home." Gibbs said in a soft voice, before noticing Abby had taped a picture in the inside of the dogs bed. Straining his eyes he noticed it was a picture of Kate, his stomach dropped and his heart squeazed tightly in his chest before he looked away. "I knew your Mummy you know, she was one amazing woman, and I loved her very much. You were lucky to have her for a Mum, even if it was only for a short time. Im sure she spoiled you, and I'll do my best but I'll never be as good as a parent to you as Kate was. She was always good with animals amd children, I can remember a case we once had, where there was a blind little girl that had been kidnapped, and Kate found her and looked after her so well. Kate always had the biggest heart on the team, and sometimes it got her in trouble but it was one of the best things about her." The little dog had fallen asleep in his lap, but he continued his ramblings anyway, glad to get some of it of his chest. "I still walk into work everyday and expect her to be sat at her desk, awaiting orders or annoying Tony. Tony was her team mate, she actually named you after him as a joke, but despite teasing him all the time I know she loved him like a brother. Did you know she once stayed with Tony while he was seriously sick, even though there was a chance that she would get sick too, she thought he was dying and if she got sick too there was a chance she would die, but she didn't care. Like I said, she had the biggest heart. Your Mummy actually died protecting me, and I'll never forgive myself for that, Im just an old bastard, a gloomy gus as she once called me, but she still had so much to live for. Promotion, starting a family, meeting new friends, but she gave it all up for me and I hate myself for that, it should have been me-" "Gibbs," Abbys sad voice broke Gibbs out of his trance like state. "Kate wouldn't want you to blame yourself, she gave her life for you because it was her duty to protect you, and I doubt she'd regret that choice" Abby sunk down next to him against the wall and snuggled into his side, gently stroking Toni's head who was still asleep on his knee. "Sorry Abbs, I didn't mean for you to hear that" "Rule number six, never appologise it's a sign of weakness" "I know, but you can make exceptions for friends" Gibbs placed a gentle kiss on the goths forehead, "It's getting late, you should go home and get some sleep" "But what about you? Will you be okay?" "I'll be fine Abbs, plus I have Toni here now to keep my company" "Can you atleast sleep in your actual bed tonight then?" "Sure Abbs, come on I'll walk you out" Gibbs gently scooped Toni up and placed her in her bed before offering a hand out to Abby. He followed the goth up the basement steps and watched her get in her car from his front door. When she turned to wave him goodbye he signed I love you before closing the door and walkimg back down to the basement. Toni had woke up again and jumped on his work bench, letting of a little growl when Gibbs reached for his tools. "Whats the matter girl?" When the dog nugged his hand with her nose he smiled, petting her head softly, "just like your Mummy then, knowing what she wants"